Potential motherhood can endure throes
of travail other than physical; and for the next week
Lynda passed through all the phases of spiritual readjustment
that enabled her, with blessed certainty of success,
to accept what she had undertaken.
She did not speak to Truedale at once,
but she went daily to Betty’s and with amazement
watched the miracle Betty was performing. She
never forgot the hour, when, going softly up the stairs,
she heard little Ann laugh gleefully and clap her
hands.
Betty was playing with the baby and
telling Ann a story at the same time. Lynda paused
to listen.
“And now come here, little Ann,
and kiss Bobilink. Isn’t he smelly-sweet
and wonderful?”
“Yes.”
“That’s right. Kiss
him again. And you once said you just naturally
didn’t like babies! Little Ann, you are
a humbug. And now tell me how much you like Bobilink.”
“Heaps and lickwigs.”
“Now kiss me, you darling, and
come close-so we will not waken Bobbie.
Let me see, this is going to be the story of the little
girl who adopted a-mother! Yesterday
it was Bobbie’s story of how a mother adopted
a little boy. You remember, the mother had to
have a baby to fill a big empty space, so she went
to a house where some lost kiddies were and found
just the one that fitted in and-and-but
this is Ann’s story to-day!
“Once there was a little girl-a
very dear and good little girl-who knew
all about a mother, and how dear a mother was; because
she had one who was obliged to go away-
“For a right lil’ time?” Ann broke
in.
“Of course,” Betty agreed,
“a right little time; but the small girl thought,
while she waited, that she would adopt a mother and
not tell her about the other one, for fear she might
not understand, and she’d teach the adopted
mother how to be a real mother. And now one must
remember all the things little girls do to-to
adopted mothers. First-
At this point Lynda entered the room,
but Betty went on calmly:
“First, what do little girls do, Ann?”
“Teach them how to hold lil’ girls.”
“Splendid! What next?”
“Kiss them and cuddle them right close.”
“Exactly! Next?”
“They make mothers glad and they make them laugh-by
being mighty good.”
Then both Betty and Ann looked at
Lynda. The sharp, outer air had brought colour
to her cheeks, life to her eyes. She was very
handsome in her rich furs and dark, feathered hat.
“Now, little Ann, trot along
and do the lesson, don’t forget!” Betty
pushed the child gently toward Lynda.
With a laugh, lately learned and a
bit doubtful, Ann ran to the opened arms.
“Snuggle!” commanded Betty.
“I’m learning, little
Ann,” Lynda whispered, “you’re a
dear teacher. And now I have something to tell
you.”
Ann leaned back and looked with suspicion
at Lynda. Her recent past had been so crowded
with events that she was wary and overburdened.
“What?” she asked, with more dread than
interest.
“Ann, I’m going to take
you to a big house that is waiting for a-little
girl.”
The child turned to Betty.
“I don’t want to go,”
she said, and her pretty mouth quivered. Was she
always to be sent away?-always to have to
go when she did not want to go?
Betty smiled into the worried little
face. “Oh! we’ll see each other every
day,” she comforted; “and besides, this
is the only way you can truly adopt a mother and play
fair. It will be another dear place for Bobilink
to go for a visit, and best of all-there’s
a perfectly splendid man in the big house-for
a-for-a father!”
Real fear came into Ann’s eyes
at this-fear that lay at the root of all
her trouble.
“No!” she cried. “I can’t
play father!”
Lynda drew her to her closely.
“Ann, little Ann, don’t say that!”
she pleaded passionately: “I’ll help
you, and together we’ll make it come true.
We must, we must!”
Her vehemence stilled the child.
She put her hands on either side of Lynda’s
face and timidly faltered: “I’ll-I’ll
try.”
“Thank you, dear. And now
I want to tell you something else-we’re
going to have a Christmas tree.”
This meant nothing to the little hill-child,
so she only stared.
“And you must come and help.”
“You have something to teach
her, Lyn,” Betty broke in. There were tears
in her eyes. “Just think of a baby-thing
like that not knowing the thrills of Christmas.”
Then she turned to Ann: “Go,
sweetheart,” she said, “and make a nest
for Bobbie on the bed across the hall.”
And then when Ann trotted off to do the bidding, Betty
asked: “What did he say, Lyn, when you told
him?”
“He said he was glad, very glad.
He has been willing, for a long time, that I should
take a child-when I saw one I wanted.
He naturally connects Ann with the Saxe Home; her
being with you has strengthened this belief.
I shall let it go at that-for a time, Betty.”
“Yes. It is better so.
After he learns to know and love the child,”
Betty mused, “the way will be opened. And
oh! Lyn, Ann is so wonderful. She has the
most remarkable character-so deep and tenderly
true for such a mite.”
“Suppose, Betty-suppose Con notices
the likeness!”
At this Betty smiled reassuringly.
“He won’t. Men are
so stupidly humble. A pretty little girl would
escape them every time.”
“But her Southern accent, Betty. It is
so pronounced.”
“My dear Lyn, it is! She
sometimes talks like a little darkey; but to my certain
knowledge there are ten small Southerners at the Saxe,
of assorted ages and sexes, waiting for adoption.”
“And she may speak out, Betty.
Her silence as to the past will disappear when she
has got over her fear and longing.”
Betty looked more serious. “I
doubt it. Not a word has passed her lips here-of
her mother or home. It has amazed me. She’s
the most unusual, the most fascinating creature I
ever saw, for her age. Brace is wild about her-he
wants me to keep her. But, Lyn, if she does break
her strange silence, it will be your big hour!
Whatever Con is or isn’t-and sometimes
I feel like hugging him, and again, like shaking him-he’s
the tenderest man with women-not even excepting
Brace-that I have ever seen. It never
has occurred to him to reason out how much you love
him-he’s too busy loving you.
But when he finds this out! Well, Lyn, it makes
me bow my head and speak low.”
“Don’t, Betty! Don’t
suggest pedestals again,” Lynda pleaded.
“No pedestal, Lyn; no pedestal-but
the real, splendid you revealed at last!
And now-forget it, dear. Here comes
lil’ Ann.”
The child tiptoed in with outstretched arms.
“The nest is made right soft,”
she whispered, “and now let me carry Bobilink
to-to the sleepy dreams.”
“Where did you learn to carry
babies?” Betty hazarded, testing the silence.
The small, dark face clouded; the fear-look crept to
the large eyes.
“I-I don’t
know,” was the only reply, and Ann turned away-this
time toward Lynda!
“And suppose he never knows?”
Lynda spoke with her lips pressed to Ann’s soft
hair-the child was in her arms.
“Then you and Con will have
something to begin heaven with.” Betty’s
eyes were wet. “We all have something we
don’t talk about much on earth-we
do not dare. Brace and I have our-baby!”
Two days later Lynda took Ann home.
They went shopping first and the child was dazzlingly
excited. She forgot her restraint and shyness
in the fascinating delirium of telling what she wanted
with a pretty sure belief that she would get it.
No wonder that she was taken out of herself and broke
upon Truedale’s astonished gaze as quite a different
child from the one Lynda had described.
The brilliant little thing came into
the hall with Lynda, her arms filled with packages
too precious to be consigned to other hands; her eyes
were dancing and her voice thrilling with happiness.
“And now I’ll call you
muvver-Lyn ’cause you’re mighty kind and
this is your house! It’s a right fine house.”
Truedale had well timed his return
home. He was ready to greet the two in the library.
The prattling voice charmed him with its delightful
mellowness and he went forward gladly to meet Lynda
and the new little child. Ann was ahead; Lynda
fell back and, with fast-throbbing heart waited by
the doorway.
Ann had had a week and more of Brace
Kendall to wipe away the impression Burke Lawson had
imprinted upon her mind. But she was shy of men
and weighed them carefully before showing favours.
She stood still when she saw Truedale; she dropped,
unheeded, a package; she stared at him, while he waited
with extended hands. Then slowly-as
if drawn against her will-Ann advanced
and laid her hands in his.
“So this is the little girl
who has come to help us make Christmas?”
“Yes.” Still that
fixed look. It seemed to Lynda the most unnatural
thing she had ever seen. And oh! how alike the
two were, now that they were together!
“You are little Ann and you
are going to play with”-Truedale looked
toward Lynda and drew her to him by the love in his
eyes-“You are going to play with
us, and you will call us mother and father, won’t
you, little Ann?” He meant to do his part in
full. He would withhold nothing, now that Lynda
had decided to take this step.
“Yes.”
“And do you suppose you could kiss me-to
begin with?”
Quaintly the child lifted herself
on her toes-Truedale was half kneeling
before her-and gave him a lingering kiss.
“We’re going to be great
friends, eh, little Ann?” Truedale was pleased,
Lynda saw that. The little girl was making a deep
impression.
“Yes.” Then-deliberately:
“Shall I have to teach you to be a father?”
“What does she mean?”
Truedale looked at Lynda who explained Betty’s
charming foolery.
“I see. Well, yes, Ann,
you must teach me to be a father.”
And so they began their lives together.
And after a few days Lynda saw that during the child’s
stay with Betty the crust of sullen reserve had departed-the
little creature was the merriest, sweetest thing imaginable,
once she could forget herself. Protected, cared
for, and considered, she developed marvellously and
soon seemed to have been with them years instead of
days. The impression was almost startling and
both Lynda and Truedale remarked upon it.
“There are certain things she
does that appear always to have been waiting for her
to do,” Conning said, “it makes her very
charming. She brushes the dogs and cats regularly,
and she’s begun to pick up books and papers
in my den in a most alarming way-but she
always manages to know where they belong.”
“That’s uncanny,”
Lynda ventured; “but she certainly has fitted
in, bless her heart!”
There had been moments at first when
Lynda feared that Thomas would remember the child,
but the old eyes could hardly be expected to recognize,
in the dainty little girl, the small, patched, and
soiled stranger of the annoying visit. Many times
had Thomas explained and apologized for the admittance
of the two “forlornities,” as he called
them.
No, everything seemed mercifully blurred;
and Ann, in her new home, apparently forgot everything
that lay behind her. She never even asked to
go back to Betty’s though she welcomed Betty,
Brace, and Bobbie with flattering joy whenever they
came to visit. She learned to be very fond of
Lynda-was often sweetly affectionate with
her; but in the wonderful home, her very own, waited
upon and cared for, it was Conning who most appealed
to her. For him she watched and waited at the
close of day, and if she were out with Lynda she became
nervous and worried if they were delayed as darkness
crept on.
“I want father to see me waiting,”
she would urge; “I like to see his gladness.”
“And so do I!” Lynda would
say, struggling to overcome the unworthy resentment
that occasionally got the better of her when the child
too fervently appropriated Conning.
But this trait of Ann’s flattered
and delighted Truedale; often he was amused, but he
knew that it was the one thing above all else in the
little girl that endeared her to him.
“What a darling she is!”
he often said to Lynda when they were alone together.
“Is she ever naughty?”
“Yes, often-the monkey!”
“I’m glad to hear it.
I hate a flabby youngster. Does she ever speak
of her little past, Lyn?”
“Never.”
“Isn’t that strange?”
“Yes, but I’m glad she
doesn’t. I want her to forget. She’s
very happy with us-but she’s far
from perfect.” “To what form of cussedness
does she tend, Lyn? With me she’s as lamblike
as can be.”
“Oh! she has a fiery temper
and, now that I think of it, she generally shows it
in reference to you.”
“To me?” Truedale smiled.
“Yes. Thomas found her
blacking your shoes the other day. She was making
an awful mess of it and he tried to take them from
her. She gave him a real vicious whack with the
brush. What she said was actually comical:
’He’s mine; if I want to take the dirt
from his shoes, I can. He shan’t
walk on dirt-and he’s mine!’”
“The little rascal. And what did Thomas
do?”
“Oh! he let her. People always let her.
I do myself.”
“She’s a fascinating kid,”
Truedale said with a laugh. Then, very earnestly:
“I’m rather glad we do not know her antecedents,
Lyn; it’s safer to take her as we find her and
build on that. But I’d be willing to risk
a good deal that much love and goodness are back of
little Ann, no matter how much else got twisted in.
And the love and goodness must be her passport through
life.”
“Yes, Con, and they are all that are worth while.”
But every change was a period of struggle
to Ann and those who dealt with her. She had
a passionate power of attachment to places and people,
and readjustment caused her pain and unrest.
When school was considered, it almost
made her ill. She clung to Truedale and implored
him not to make her go away.
“But it’s only for the
day time, Ann,” he explained, “and you
will have children to play with-little
girls like yourself.”
“No; no! I don’t
want children-only Bobbie! I only want
my folks!”
Lynda came to her defense.
“Con, we’ll have a governess for a year
or so.”
“Is it wise, Lyn, to give way to her?”
“Yes, it is!” Ann burst in; “it
is wise, I’d die if I had to go.”
So she had a governess and made gratifying
strides in learning. The trait that was noticeable
in the child was that she developed and thrived most
when not opposed. She wilted mentally and physically
when forced. She had a most unusual power of
winning and holding love, and under a shy and gentle
exterior there were passion and strength that at times
were pathetic. While not a robust child she was
generally well and as time passed she gained in vigour.
Once, and once only, was she seriously ill, and that
was when she had been with Truedale and Lynda about
two years. During all that time, as far as they
knew, she had never referred to the past and both
believed that, for her, it was dead; but when weakness
and fever loosened the unchildlike control, something
occurred that alarmed Lynda, but broke down forever
the thin barrier that, for all her effort, had existed
between her and Ann. She was sitting alone with
the child during a spell of delirium, when suddenly
the little hot hands reached up passionately, and the
name “mother” quivered on the dry lips
in a tone unfamiliar to Lynda’s ears. She
bent close.
“What, little Ann?” she whispered.
The big, burning eyes looked puzzled.
Then: “Take me to-to the Hollow-to
Miss Lois Ann!”
“Sh!” panted Lynda,
every nerve tingling. “See, little Ann-don’t
you know me?”
The child seemed to half understand
and moaned plaintively:
“I’m lost! I’m lost!”
Lynda took her in her arms and the
sick fancy passed, but from that hour there was a
new tie between the two-a deeper dependence.
There was one day when they all felt
little Ann was slipping from them. Dr. McPherson
had come as near giving up hope as he ever, outwardly,
permitted himself to do.
“You had better stay at home,”
he said to Conning; “children are skittish little
craft. The best of them haul up anchor sometimes
when you least expect it.”
So Truedale remained at home and,
wandering through the quiet house, wondered at the
intensity of his suffering as he contemplated the time
on ahead without the child who had so recently come
into his life from he knew not where. He attributed
it all to Ann’s remarkable characteristics.
Late in the afternoon of the anxious
day he went into the sick room and leaned over the
bed. Ann opened her eyes and smiled up at him,
weakly.
“Make a light, father,”
she whispered, and with a fear-filled heart Truedale
touched the electric button. The room was already
filled with sunlight, for it faced the west; but for
Ann it was cold and dark.
Then, as if setting the last pitiful
scene for her own departure, she turned to Lynda:
“Make a mother-lap for Ann,” she said.
Lynda tenderly lifted the thin form from the bed and
held it close.
“I-I taught you how
to be a mother, didn’t I, mommy-Lyn?” she
had never called Lynda simply “mother,”
while “father” had fallen naturally from
her lips.
“Yes, yes, little Ann.”
Lynda’s eyes were filled with tears and in that
moment she realized how much the child meant to her.
She had done her duty, had exceeded it at times, in
her determination not to fall short. She had
humoured Ann, often taking sides against Conning in
her fear of being unjust. But oh! there had always
been something lacking; and now, too late, she felt
that, for all her struggle, she had not been true to
the vow she had made to Nella-Rose!
But Ann was gazing up at her with
a strange, penetrating look.
“It’s the comfiest lap
in the world,” she faltered, “for little,
tired girls.”
“I-I love her!”
Lynda gazed up at Truedale as if confessing and, at
the end, seeking forgiveness.
“Of course you do!” he
comforted, “but-be brave, Lyn!”
He feared to excite Ann. Then the weary eyes
of the child turned to him.
“Mommy-Lyn does love me!”
the weak voice was barely audible; “she does,
father, she does!”
It was like a confirmation-a
recognition of something beautiful and sacred.
“I felt,” Lynda said afterward
to Betty, “as if she were not only telling Con,
but God, too. I had not deserved it-but
it made up for all the hard struggle, and swept everything
before it.”
But Ann did not die. Slowly,
almost hesitatingly, she turned back to them and brought
a new power with her. She, apparently, left her
baby looks and nature in the shadowy place from which
she had escaped. Once health came to her, she
was the merriest of merry children-almost
noisy at times-in the rollicking fashion
of Betty’s irrepressible Bobilink. And
the haunting likeness to Truedale was gone. For
a year or two the lean, thready little girl looked
like no one but her own elfish self; and then-it
was like a revealment-she grew to be like
Nella-Rose!
Lynda, at times, was breathless as
she looked and remembered. She had seen the mother
only once; but that hour had burned the image of face,
form, and action into her soul. She recalled,
too, Conning’s graphic description of his first
meeting with Nella-Rose. The quaint, dramatic
power that had marked Ann’s mother, now developed
in the little daughter. She had almost entirely
lost the lingering manner of speech-the
Southern expressions and words-but she was
as different from the children with whom she mingled
as she had ever been.
When she was strong enough she resumed
her studies with the governess and also began music.
This she enjoyed with the passion that marked her
attitude toward any person or thing she loved.
“Oh, it lets something in me,
free!” she confided to Truedale. “I
shall never be naughty or unkind again-I
wouldn’t dare!”
“Why?” Conning was no
devotee of music and was puzzled by Ann’s intensity.
“Why,” she replied, puckering
her brows in the effort to make herself clear, “I-I
wouldn’t be worthy of-of the beautiful
music, if I were horrid.”
Truedale laughed and patted her pretty
cropped head, over which the new little curls were
clustering.
Life in the old house was full and
rich at that time. Conning was, as he often said,
respectably busy and important enough in the affairs
of men to be content; he would never be one who enjoyed
personal power.
Lynda, during Ann’s first years,
had taken a partner who attended to interviews, conferences,
and contracts; but in the room over the extension
the creative work went on with unabated interest.
Little Ann soon learned to love the place and had
her tiny chair beside the hearth or table. There
she learned the lessons of consideration for others,
and self-control.
“If the day comes,” Lynda
told Betty, “when my work interferes with my
duty to Con and Ann, it will go! But more and
more I am inclined to think that the interference
is a matter of choice. I prefer my profession
to-well, other things.”
“Of course,” Betty agreed;
“women should not be forever coddling their
offspring, and when they learn to call things by their
right names and develop some initiative, they won’t
whine so much.”
Lynda and Truedale had sadly abandoned
the hope of children of their own. It was harder
for Lynda than for Con, but she accepted what seemed
her fate and thanked heaven anew for little Ann and
the sure sense that she could love her without reserve.
And then, after the years of change
and readjustment, Lynda’s boy was born!
He seemed to crown everything with a sacred meaning.
Not without great fear and doubt did Lynda go down
into the shadow; not without an agony of apprehension
did Truedale go with her to the boundary over which
she must pass alone to accept what God had in store
for her. They remembered with sudden and sharp
anxiety the peril that Betty had endured, though neither
spoke of it; and always they smiled courageously when
most their hearts failed.
Then came the black hours of suffering
and doubt. A wild storm was beating outside and
Truedale, hearing it, wondered whether all the great
events of his life were to be attended by those outbursts
of nature. He walked the floor of his room or
hung over Lynda’s bed, and at midnight, when
she no longer knew him or could soothe him by her brave
smile, he went wretchedly away and upon the dim landing
of the stairs came upon Ann, crouching white and haggard.
His nerves were at the breaking point
and he spoke sharply.
“Why are you not in bed?” he asked.
“While-mommy-Lyn
is-in-there?” gasped the
girl, turning reproachful eyes up to him. “How-could
I?”
“How long have you been here?”
“Always; always!”
“Ann, you must go to your room
at once! Come, I will go with you.”
She rose and took his hand. There was fear in
her eyes.
“Is-is mommy-Lyn-”
she faltered, and Truedale understood.
“Good God!-no!” he replied;
“not that!”
“I was to-to stay
close to you.” Ann was trembling as she
walked beside him. “She gave you-to
me! She gave you to me-to keep for
her!”
Truedale stopped short and looked
at Ann. Confusedly he grasped the meaning of
the tie that held this child to Lynda-that
held them all to the strong, loving woman who was
making her fight with death, for a life.
“Little Ann,” was all
he could say, but he bent and kissed the child solemnly.
When morning dawned, Lynda came back-bringing
her little son with her. God had spoken!
Truedale, sitting beside her, one
hand upon the downy head that had nearly cost so much,
saw the mother-lips move.
“You-want-the baby?”
he asked.
“I-I want little
Ann.” Then the white lids fell, shutting
away the weak tears.
“Lyn, the darling has been waiting
outside your door all night-I imagine she
is there now.”
“Yes, I know. I want her.”
“Are you able-just now, dear?”
“I-must have little Ann.”
So Ann came. She was white-very
much awed; but she smiled. Lynda did not open
her eyes at once; she was trying to get back some of
the old self-control that had been so mercilessly
shattered during the hours of her struggle, but presently
she looked up.
“You-kept your word,
Ann,” she said. Then: “You-you
made a place for my baby. Little Ann-kiss
your-brother.”
They named the baby for William Truedale
and they called him Billy, in deference to his pretty
baby ways.
“He must be Uncle William’s
representative,” said Lynda, “as Bobbie
is the representative of Betty’s little dead
boy.”
“I often think of-the
money, Lyn.” Truedale spoke slowly and seriously.
“How I hated it; how I tried to get rid of it!
But when it is used rightly it seems to secure dignity
for itself. I’ve learned to respect it,
and I want our boy to respect it also. I want
to put it on a firm foundation and make it part of
Billy’s equipment-a big trust for
which he must be trained.”
“I think I would like his training
to precede his knowledge of the money as far as possible,”
Lynda replied. “I’d like him to put
up a bit of a fight-as his father did before
him.”
“As his father did not!”
Truedale’s eyes grew gloomy. “I’m
afraid, Lyn, I’m constructed on the modelling
plan-added to, built up. Some fellows
are chiselled out. I wonder-about little
Billy.”
“Somehow”-Lynda
gave a little contented smile-“I am
not afraid for Billy. But I would not take the
glory of conflict from him-no! not for
all Uncle William’s money! He must do his
part in the world and find his place-not
the place others may choose for him.”
“You’re going to be sterner
with him than you are with Ann, aren’t you,
Lyn?” Truedale meant this lightly, but Lynda
looked serious.
“I shall be able to, Con, for
Billy brought something with him that Ann had to find.”
“I see-I see!
That’s where a mother comes in strong, my dear.”
“Oh! Con, it’s where
she comes in with fear and trembling-but
with an awful comprehension.”
This “comprehension” of
the responsibilities of maternity worked forward and
backward with Lynda much to Truedale’s secret
amusement. Confident of her duty to her son,
she interpreted her duty to Ann. While Billy,
red-faced and roving-eyed, gurgled or howled in his
extreme youth, Lynda retraced her steps and commandingly
repaired some damages in her treatment of Ann.
“Ann,” she said one day, “you must
go to school.”
“Why?” Ann naturally asked.
She was a conscientious little student and extremely
happy with the governess who came daily to instruct
her.
“You study and learn splendidly,
Ann, but you must have-have children in
your life. You’ll be queer.”
“I’ve got Bobbie, and now Billy.”
“Ann, do not argue. When
Billy is old enough to go to school he is going, without
a word! I’ve been too weak with you, Ann-you’ll
understand by and by.”
The new tone quelled any desire on
Ann’s part to insist further; she was rather
awed by this attitude. So, with a lofty, detached
air Miss Ann went to school. At first she imbibed
knowledge under protest, much as she might have eaten
food she disliked but which she believed was good
for her. Then certain aspects of the new experience
attracted and awakened her. From the mass of
things she ought to know, she clutched at things she
wanted to know. From the girls who shared her
school hours, she selected congenial spirits and worshipped
them, while the others, for her, did not exist.
“She’s so intense,”
sighed Lynda; “she’s just courting suffering.
She lavishes everything on them she loves and grieves
like one without hope when things go against her.”
“She’s the most dramatic
little imp.” Truedale laughed reminiscently
as he spoke-he had seen Ann in two or three
school performances. “I shouldn’t
wonder if she had genius.”
Betty looked serious when she heard
this. “I hope not!” was all she said,
and from then on she watched Ann with brooding eyes;
she urged Lynda to keep her much out of doors in the
companionship of Bobbie and Billy who were normal
to a relieving extent. Ann played and enjoyed
the babies-she adored Billy and permitted
him to rule over her with no light hand-but
when she could, she read poetry and talked of strange,
imaginative things with the few girls in whose presence
she became rapt and reverent.
Brace was the only one who took Ann as a joke.
“She’s working out her
fool ideas, young,” he comforted; “let
her alone. A boy would go behind some barn and
smoke and revel in the idea that he was a devil of
a fellow. Annie”-he, alone, called
her that-“Annie is smoking her tobacco
behind her little barns. She’ll get good
and sick of it. Let her learn her lesson.”
“That’s right,”
Betty admitted, “girls ought to learn, just as
boys do-but if I ever find Bobbie
smoking-
“What will you do to him, Betty?”
“Well, I’m not sure, but
I do know I’d insist upon his coming from
behind barns.”
And that led them all to consider
Ann from the barn standpoint. If she wanted the
tragic and sombre she should have it-in
the sunlight and surrounded with love. So she
no longer was obliged to depend on the queer little
girls who fluttered like blind bats in the crude of
their adolescent years. Lynda, Betty, Truedale,
and Brace read bloodcurdling horrors to her and took
her to plays-the best. And they wedged
in a deal of wholesome, commonplace fun that presently
awoke a response and developed a sense of humour that
gave them all a belief that the worst was past.
“She has forgotten everything
that lies back of her sickness,” Lynda once
said to Betty; “it’s strange, but she appears
to have begun from that.”
Then Betty made a remark that Lynda recalled afterward:
“I don’t believe she has,
Lyn. I’m not worried about Ann as you and
Con are. Her Lady Macbeth pose is just plain
girl; but she has depths we have never sounded.
Sometimes I think she hides them to prove her gratitude
and affection, and because she is so helpless.
She was nearly five when she came to you, Lyn, and
I believe she does remember the hills and her mother!”
“Why, Betty, what makes you
think this?” Lynda was appalled.
“It is her eyes. There
are moments when she is looking back-far
back. She is trying to hold to something that
is escaping her. Love her, Lyn, love her as you
never have before.”
“If I thought that, Betty!”
Lynda was aghast. “Oh! Betty-the
poor darling! I cannot believe she could be so
strong-so-terrible.”
“It’s more or less subconscious-such
things always are-but I think Ann will
some day prove what I say. In a way, it’s
like the feeling I have for-for my own
baby, Lyn. I see him in Bobbie; I feel him in
Bobbie’s dearness and naughtiness. Ann
holds what went before in what is around her now.
Sometimes it puzzles her as Bobbie puzzles me.”
About this time-probably
because he was happier than he had ever been before,
possibly because he had more time that he could conscientiously
call his own than he had had for many a well-spent
year-Truedale repaired to his room under
the eaves, sneaking away, with a half-guilty longing,
to his old play! So many times had he resurrected
it, then cast it aside; so many hopes and fears had
been born and killed by the interruption to his work,
that he feared whatever strength it might once have
had must be gone now forever.
Still he retreated to his attic room
once more-and Lynda asked no questions.
With strange understanding Ann guarded that door like
a veritable dragon. When Billy’s toddling
steps followed his father Ann waylaid him; and many
were the swift, silent struggles near the portal before
the rampant Billy was carried away kicking with Ann’s
firm hand stifling his outraged cries.
“What Daddy doing there?”
Billy would demand when once conquered.
“That’s nobody’s
business but Daddy’s,” Ann unrelentingly
insisted.
“I-I want to know!” Billy pleaded.
“Wait until Daddy wants you to know.”
Under the eaves, hope grew in Truedale’s
heart. The old play had certainly the subtle
human interest that is always vital. He was sure
of that. Once, he almost decided to take Ann
into his confidence. The child had such a dramatic
sense. Then he laughed. It was absurd, of
course!
No! if the thing ever amounted to
anything-if, by putting flesh upon the
dry bones and blood into the veins, he could get it
over-it was to be his gift to Lynda!
And the only thing that encouraged him as he worked,
rather stiffly after all the years, was the certainty
that at times he heard the heart beat in the shrunken
and shrivelled thing! And so-he reverently
worked on.