The next morning the sun shone, and
Mercy was herself again. Her depression of the
evening before seemed to her so causeless, so inexplicable,
that she recalled it almost with terror, as one might
a temporary insanity. She blushed to think of
her unreasonable sensitiveness to the words and tones
of Stephen White. “As if it made any sort
of difference to mother and to me whether he were
our friend or not. He can do as he likes.
I hope I’ll be out when he calls,” thought
Mercy, as she stood on the hotel piazza, after breakfast,
scanning with a keen and eager glance every feature
of the scene. To her eyes, accustomed to the broad,
open, leisurely streets of the Cape Cod hamlet, its
isolated little houses with their trim flower-beds
in front and their punctiliously kept fences and gates,
this somewhat untidy and huddled town looked unattractive.
The hotel stood on the top of one of the plateaus
of which I spoke in the last chapter. The ground
fell away slowly to the east and to the south.
A poorly kept, oblong-shaped “common,”
some few acres in extent, lay just in front of the
hotel: it had once been fenced in; but the fences
were sadly out of repair, and two cows were grazing
there this morning, as composedly as if there were
no town ordinance forbidding all running of cattle
in the streets. A few shabby old farm-wagons stood
here and there by these fences; the sleepy horses
which had drawn them thither having been taken out
of the shafts, and tethered in some mysterious way
to the hinder part of the wagons. A court was
in session; and these were the wagons of lawyers and
clients, alike humble in their style of equipage.
On the left-hand side of the hotel, down the eastern
slope of the hill ran an irregular block of brick
buildings, no two of a height or size, The block had
burned down in spots several times, and each owner
had rebuilt as much or as little as he chose, which
had resulted in as incoherent a bit of architecture
as is often seen. The general effect, however,
was of a tendency to a certain parallelism with the
ground line: so that the block itself seemed
to be sliding down hill; the roof of the building farthest
east being not much above the level of the first story
windows in the building farthest west. To add
to the queerness of this “Brick Row,” as
it was called, the ingenuity of all the sign-painters
of the region had been called into requisition.
Signs alphabetical, allegorical, and symbolic; signs
in black on white, in red on black, in rainbow colors
on tin; signs high up, and signs low down; signs swung,
and signs posted,-made the whole front
of the Row look at a little distance like a wall of
advertisements of some travelling menagerie. There
was a painted yellow horse with a fiery red mane,
which was the pride of the heart of Seth Nims, the
livery-stable keeper; and a big black dog’s head
with a gay collar of scarlet and white morocco, which
was supposed to draw the custom of all owners of dogs
to “John Locker, harness-maker.” There
was a barber’s pole, and an apothecary’s
shop with the conventional globes of mysterious crimson
and blue liquids in the window; and, to complete the
list of the decorations of this fantastic front, there
had been painted many years ago, high up on the wall,
in large and irregular letters, the sign stretching
out over two-thirds of the row, “Miss Orra White’s
Seminary for Young Ladies.” Miss Orra White
had been dead for several years; and the hall in which
she had taught her school, having passed through many
successive stages of degradation in its uses, had come
at last to be a lumber-room, from which had arisen
many a waggish saying as to the similarity between
its first estate and its last.
On the other side of the common, opposite
the hotel, was a row of dwelling-houses, which owing
to the steep descent had a sunken look, as if they
were slipping into their own cellars. The grass
was too green in their yards, and the thick, matted
plantain-leaves grew on both edges of the sodden sidewalk.
“Oh, dear,” thought Mercy
to herself, “I am sure I hope our house is not
there.” Then she stepped down from the high
piazza, and stood for a moment on the open space,
looking up toward the north. She could only see
for a short distance up the winding road. A high,
wood-crowned summit rose beyond the houses, which
seemed to be built higher and higher on the slope,
and to be much surrounded by trees. A street led
off to the west also: this was more thickly built
up. To the south, there was again a slight depression;
and the houses, although of a better order than those
on the eastern side of the common, had somewhat of
the same sunken air. Mercy’s heart turned
to the north with a sudden and instinctive recognition.
“I am sure that is the right part of the town
for mother,” she said. “If Mr. White’s
house is down in that hollow, we’ll not live
in it long.” She was so absorbed in her
study of the place, and in her conjectures as to their
home, that she did not realize that she herself was
no ordinary sight in that street: a slight, almost
girlish figure, in a plain, straight, black gown like
a nun’s, with one narrow fold of transparent
white at her throat, tied carelessly by long floating
ends of black ribbon; her wavy brown hair blown about
her eyes by the wind, her cheeks flushed with the
keen air, and her eyes bright with excitement.
Mercy could not be called even a pretty woman; but
she had times and seasons of looking beautiful, and
this was one of them. The hostler, who was rubbing
down his horses in the door of the barn, came out
wide-mouthed, and exclaimed under his breath,-
“Gosh! who’s she?”
with an emphasis on that feminine, personal pronoun
which was all the bitterer slur on the rest of womankind
in that neighborhood, that he was so unconscious of
the reflection it conveyed. The cook and the
stable-boy also came running to the kitchen door, on
hearing the hostler’s exclamation; and they,
too, stood gazing at the unconscious Mercy, and each,
in their own way, paying tribute to her appearance.
“That’s the gal thet comed
last night with her mother. Darned sight better-lookin’
by daylight than she wuz then!” said the stable-boy.
“Hm! boys an’ men, ye
’re all alike,-all for looks,”
said the cook, who was a lean and ill-favored spinster,
at least fifty years old. “The gal isn’t
any thin’ so amazin’ for good looks, ’s
I can see; but she’s got mighty sarchin’
eyes in her head. I wonder if she’s a lookin’
for somebody they’re expectin’.”
“Steve White he was with ’em
down to the depot,” replied the stable-boy.
“Seth sed he handed on ’em into the
kerridge, ’s if they were regular topknots,
sure enough.”
“Hm! Seth Quin ’s
a fool, ‘n’ always wuz,” replied
the cook, with a seemingly uncalled-for acerbity of
tone. “I’ve allus observed that
them that hez the most to say about topknots
hez the least idea of what topknots really is.
There ain’t a touch o’ topknot about that
ere girl: she’s come o’ real humbly
people. Anybody with half an eye can see that.
Good gracious! I believe she’s goin’
to stand still, and let old man Wheeler run over her.
Look out there, look out, gal!” screamed the
cook, and pounded vigorously with her rolling-pin
on the side of the door to rouse Mercy’s attention.
Mercy turned just in time to confront a stout, red-faced,
old gentleman with a big cane, who was literally on
the point of walking over her. He was so near
that, as she turned, he started back as if she had
hit him in the breast.
“God bless my soul, God bless
my soul, miss!” he exclaimed, in his excitement,
striking his cane rapidly against the ground.
“I beg your pardon, beg pardon, miss. Bad
habit of mine, very bad habit,-walk along
without looking. Walked on a dog the other day;
hurt dog; tumbled down myself, nearly broke my leg.
Bad habit, miss,-bad habit; too old to
change, too old to change. Beg pardon, miss.”
The old gentleman mumbled these curt
phrases in a series of inarticulate jerks, as if his
vocal apparatus were wound up and worked with a crank,
but had grown so rusty that every now and then a wheel
would catch on a cog. He did not stand still
for a moment, but kept continually stepping, stepping,
without advancing or retreating, striking his heavy
cane on the ground at each step, as if beating time
to his jerky syllables. He had twinkling blue
eyes, which were half hid under heavy, projecting eyebrows,
and shut up tight whenever he laughed. His hair
was long and thin, and white as spun glass. Altogether,
except that he spoke with an unmistakable Yankee twang,
and wore unmistakable Yankee clothes, you might have
fancied that he was an ancient elf from the Hartz
Mountains.
Mercy could not refrain from laughing
in his face, as she retreated a few steps towards
the piazza, and said,-
“It is I who ought to beg your
pardon. I had no business to be standing stock-still
in the middle of the highway like a post.”
“Sensible young woman! sensible
young woman! God bless my soul! don’t know
your face, don’t know your face,” said
the old gentleman, peering out from under the eaves
of his eyebrows, and scrutinizing Mercy as a child
might scrutinize a new-comer into his father’s
house. One could not resent it, any more than
one could resent the gaze of a child. Mercy laughed
again.
“No, sir, you don’t know
my face. I only came last night,” she said.
“God bless my soul! God
bless my soul! Fine young woman! fine young woman!
glad to see you,-glad, glad. Girls
good for nothing, nothing, nothing at all, nowadays,”
jerked on the queer old gentleman, still shifting rapidly
from one foot to the other, and beating time continuously
with his cane, but looking into Mercy’s face
with so kindly a smile that she felt her heart warm
with affection towards him.
“Your father come with you?
Come to stay? I’d like to know ye, child.
Like your face,-good face, good face, very
good face,” continued the inexplicable old man.
“Don’t like many people. People are
wolves, wolves, wolves. ’D like to know
you, child. Good face, good face.”
“Can he be crazy?” thought
Mercy. But the smile and the honest twinkle of
the clear blue eye were enough to counterbalance the
incoherent talk: the old man was not crazy, only
eccentric to a rare degree. Mercy felt instinctively
that she had found a friend, and one whom she could
trust and lean on.
“Thank you, sir,” she
said. “I’m very glad you like my face.
I like yours, too,-you look so merry.
I think I and my mother will be very glad to know
you. We have come to live here in half of Mr.
Stephen White’s house.”
“Merry, merry? Nobody calls
me merry. That’s a mistake, child,-mistake,
mistake. Mistake about the house, too,-mistake.
Stephen White hasn’t any house,-no,
no, hasn’t any house. My name’s Wheeler,
Wheeler. Good enough name. ‘Old Man
Wheeler’ some think’s better. I hear
’em: my cane don’t make so much noise
but I hear ’em. Ha! ha! wolves, wolves,
wolves! People are all wolves, all alike, all
alike. Got any money, child?” With this
last question, the whole expression of his face changed;
the very features seemed to shrink; his eyes grew
dark and gleaming as they fastened on Mercy’s
face.
Even this did not rouse Mercy’s
distrust. There was something inexplicable in
the affectionate confidence she felt in this strange,
old man.
“Only a little, sir,”
she said. “We are not rich; we have only
a little.”
“A little’s a good deal,
good deal, good deal. Take care of it, child.
People’ll git it away from you. They’re
nothing but wolves, wolves, wolves;” and, saying
these words, the old man set off at a rapid pace down
the street, without bidding Mercy good-morning.
As she stood watching him with an
expression of ever-increasing astonishment, he turned
suddenly, planted his stick in the ground, and called,-
“God bless my soul! God
bless my soul! Bad habit, bad habit. Never
do say good-morning,-bad habit. Too
old to change, too old to change. Bad habit,
bad habit.” And with a nod to Mercy, but
still not saying good-morning, he walked away.
Mercy ran into the house, breathless
with amusement and wonder, and gave her mother a most
graphic account of this strange interview.
“But, for all his queerness,
I like him, and I believe he’ll be a great friend
of ours,” she said, as she finished her story.
Mrs. Carr was knitting a woollen stocking.
She had been knitting woollen stockings ever since
Mercy could remember. She always kept several
on hand in different stages of incompletion:
some that she could knit on in the dark, without any
counting of stitches; others that were in the process
of heeling or toeing, and required the closest attention.
She had been setting a heel while Mercy was speaking,
and did not reply for a moment. Then, pushing
the stitches all into a compact bunch in the middle
of one needle, she let her work fall into her lap,
and, rolling the disengaged knitting-needle back and
forth on her knee to brighten it, looked at Mercy
reflectively.
“Mercy,” said she, “queer
people allers do take to each other. I don’t
believe he’s a bit queerer ’n you are,
child.” And Mrs. Carr laughed a little
laugh, half pride and half dissatisfaction. “You’re
jest like your father: he’d make friends
with a stranger, any day, on the street, in two jiffeys,
if he took a likin’ to him; and there might be
neighbors a livin’ right long ‘side on
us, for years an’ years, thet he’d never
any more ’n jest pass the time o’ day
with, ‘n’ he wa’n’t a bit stuck
up, either. I used ter ask him, often ‘n’
often, what made him so offish to sum folks, when
I knew he hadn’t the least thing agin ’em;
and he allers said, sez he, ‘Well, I can’t
tell ye nothin’ about it, only jest this is the
way ’t is: I can’t talk to ’em;
they sort o’ shet me up, like. I don’t
feel nateral, somehow, when they’re round!’”
“O mother!” exclaimed
Mercy, “I think I must be just like father.
That is exactly the way I feel so often. When
I get with some people, I feel just as if I had been
changed into somebody else. I can’t bear
to open my mouth. It is like a bad dream, when
you dream you can’t move hand nor foot, all
the time they’re in the room with me.”
“Well, I thank the Lord, I don’t
never take such notions about people,” said
Mrs. Carr, settling herself back in her chair, and
beginning to make her needles fly. “Nobody
don’t never trouble me much, one way or the
other. For my part, I think folks is alike as
peas. We shouldn’t hardly know ’em
apart, if ’t wa’n’t for their faces.”
Mercy was about to reply, “Why,
mother, you just said that I was queer; and this old
man was queer; and my father must have been queer,
too.” But she glanced at the placid old
face, and forbore. There was a truth as well
as an untruth in the inconsistent sayings, and both
lay too deep for the childish intellect to grasp.
Mercy was impatient to go at once
to see their new home; but she could not induce her
mother to leave the house.
“O Mercy!” she exclaimed
pathetically, “ef yer knew what a comfort ’t
was to me jest to set still in a chair once more.
It seems like heaven, arter them pesky joltin’
cars. I ain’t in no hurry to see the house.
It can’t run away, I reckon; and we’re
sure of it, ain’t we? There ain’t
any thing that’s got to be done, is there?”
she asked nervously.
“Oh, no, mother. It is
all sure. We have leased the house for one year;
and we can’t move in until our furniture comes,
of course. But I do long to see what the place
is like, don’t you?” replied Mercy, pleadingly.
“No, no, child. Time enough
when we move in. ’T ain’t going to
make any odds what it’s like. We’re
goin’ to live in it, anyhow. You jest go
by yourself, ef you want to so much, an’ let
me set right here. It don’t seem to me
‘s I’ll ever want to git out o’ this
chair.” At last, very unwillingly, late
in the afternoon, Mercy went, leaving her mother alone
in the hotel.
Without asking a question of anybody,
she turned resolutely to the north.
“Even if our house is not on
this street,” she said to herself, “I am
going to see those lovely woods;” and she walked
swiftly up the hill, with her eyes fixed on the glowing
dome of scarlet and yellow leaves which crowned it.
The trees were in their full autumnal splendor:
maples, crimson, scarlet, and yellow; chestnuts, pale
green and yellow; beeches, shining golden brown; and
sumacs in fiery spikes, brighter than all the
rest. There were also tall pines here and there
in the grove, and their green furnished a fine dark
background for the gay colors. Mercy had often
read of the glories of autumn in New England’s
thickly wooded regions; but she had never dreamed
that it could be so beautiful as this. Rows of
young maples lined the street which led up to this
wooded hill. Each tree seemed a full sheaf of
glittering color; and yet the path below was strewn
thick with fallen leaves no less bright. Mercy
walked lingeringly, each moment stopping to pick up
some new leaf which seemed brighter than all the rest.
In a very short time, her hands were too full; and
in despair, like an over-laden child, she began to
scatter them along the way. She was so absorbed
in her delight in the leaves that she hardly looked
at the houses on either hand, except to note with an
unconscious satisfaction that they were growing fewer
and farther apart, and that every thing looked more
like country and less like town than it had done in
the neighborhood of the hotel.
Presently she came to a stretch of
stone wall, partly broken down, in front of an old
orchard whose trees were gnarled and moss-grown.
Blackberry-vines had flung themselves over this wall,
in and out among the stones. The leaves of these
vines were almost as brilliant as the leaves of the
maple-trees. They were of all shades of red, up
to the deepest claret; they were of light green, shading
into yellow, and curiously mottled with tiny points
of red; all these shades and colors sometimes being
seen upon one long runner. The effect of these
wreaths and tangles of color upon the old, gray stones
was so fine that Mercy stood still and involuntarily
exclaimed aloud. Then she picked a few of the
most beautiful vines, and, climbing up on the wall,
sat down to arrange them with the maple-leaves she
had already gathered. She made a most picturesque
picture as she sat there, in her severe black gown
and quaint little black bonnet, on the stone wall,
surrounded by the bright vines and leaves; her lap
full of them, the ground at her feet strewed with them,
her little black-gloved hands deftly arranging and
rearranging them. She looked as if she might
be a nun, who had run away from her cloister, and
coming for the first time in her life upon gay gauds
of color, in strange fabrics, had sat herself down
instantly to weave and work with them, unaware that
she was on a highway.
This was the picture that Stephen
White saw, as he came slowly up the road on his way
home after an unusually wearying day. He slackened
his pace, and, perceiving how entirely unconscious
Mercy was of his approach, deliberately studied her,
feature, dress, attitude,-all, as scrutinizingly
as if she had been painted on canvas and hanging on
a wall.
“Upon my word,” he said
to himself, “she isn’t bad-looking, after
all. I’m not sure that she isn’t
pretty. If she hadn’t that inconceivable
bonnet on her head,-yes, she is very pretty.
Her mouth is bewitching. I declare, I believe
she is beautiful,” were Stephen’s successive
verdicts, as he drew nearer and nearer to Mercy.
Mercy was thinking of him at that very moment,-was
thinking of him with a return of the annoyance and
mortification which had stung her at intervals all
day, whenever she recalled their interview of the
previous evening. Mercy combined, in a very singular
manner, some of the traits of an impulsive nature with
those of an unimpulsive one. She did things,
said things, and felt things with the instantaneous
intensity of the poetic temperament; but she was quite
capable of looking at them afterward, and weighing
them with the cool and unbiassed judgment of the most
phlegmatic realist. Hence she often had most
uncomfortable seasons, in which one side of her nature
took the other side to task, scorned it and berated
it severely; holding up its actions to its remorseful
view, as an elder sister might chide a younger one,
who was incorrigibly perverse and wayward.
“It was about as silly a thing
as you ever did in your life. He must have thought
you a perfect fool to have supposed he had come down
to meet you,” she was saying to herself at the
very moment when the sound of Stephen’s footsteps
first reached her ear, and caused her to look up.
The sight of his face at that particular moment was
so startling and so unpleasant to her that it deprived
her of all self-possession. She gave a low cry,
her face was flooded with crimson, and she sprang
from the wall so hastily that her leaves and vines
flew in every direction.
“I am very sorry I frightened
you so, Mrs. Philbrick,” said Stephen, quite
unconscious of the true source of her confusion.
“I was just on the point of speaking, when you
heard me. I ought to have spoken before, but you
made so charming a picture sitting there among the
leaves and vines that I could not resist looking at
you a little longer.”
Mercy Philbrick hated a compliment.
This was partly the result of the secluded life she
had led; partly an instinctive antagonism in her straightforward
nature to any thing which could be even suspected of
not being true. The few direct compliments she
had received had been from men whom she neither respected
nor trusted. These words, coming from Stephen
White, just at this moment, were most offensive to
her.
Her face flushed still deeper red,
and saying curtly,-“You frightened
me very much, Mr. White; but it is not of the least
consequence,” she turned to walk back to the
village. Stephen unconsciously stretched out his
hand to detain her.
“But, Mrs. Philbrick,”
he said eagerly, “pray tell me what you think
of the house. Do you think you can be contented
in it?”
“I have not seen it,”
replied Mercy, in the same curt tone, still moving
on.
“Not seen it!” exclaimed
Stephen, in a tone which was of such intense astonishment
that it effectually roused Mercy’s attention.
“Not seen it! Why, did you not know you
were on your own stone wall? There is the house;”
and Mercy, following the gesture of his hand, saw,
not more than twenty rods beyond the spot where she
had been sitting, a shabby, faded, yellow wooden house,
standing in a yard which looked almost as neglected
as the orchard, from which it was only in part separated
by a tumbling stone wall.
Mercy did not speak. Stephen
watched her face in silence for a moment; then he
laughed constrainedly, and said,-
“Don’t be afraid, Mrs.
Philbrick, to say outright that it is the dismallest
old barn you ever saw. That’s just what
I had said about it hundreds of times, and wondered
how anybody could possibly live in it. But necessity
drove us into it, and I suppose necessity has brought
you to it, too,” added Stephen, sadly.
Mercy did not speak. Very deliberately
her eyes scanned the building. An expression
of scorn slowly gathered on her face.
“It is not so forlorn inside
as it is out,” said Stephen. “Some
of the rooms are quite pleasant. The south rooms
in your part of the house are very cheerful.”
Mercy did not speak. Stephen
went on, beginning to be half-angry with this little,
unknown woman from Cape Cod, who looked with the contemptuous
glance of a princess upon the house in which he and
his mother dwelt,-
“You are quite at liberty to
throw up your lease, Mrs. Philbrick, if you choose.
It was, perhaps, hardly fair to have let you hire the
house without seeing it.”
Mercy started. “I beg your
pardon, Mr. White. I should not think of such
a thing as giving up the lease. I am very sorry
you saw how ugly I think the house. I do think
it is the very ugliest house I ever saw,” she
continued, speaking with emphatic deliberation; “but,
then, I have not seen many houses. In our village
at home, all the houses are low and broad and comfortable-looking.
They look as if they had sat down and leaned back
to take their ease; and they are all neat and clean-looking,
and have rows of flower-beds from the gate to the
front door. I never saw a house built with such
a steep angle to its roof as this has,” said
Mercy, looking up with the instinctive dislike of
a natural artist’s eye at the ridgepole of the
old house.
“We have to have our roofs at
a sharp pitch, to let the snow slide off in winter,”
said Stephen, apologetically, “we have such heavy
snows here; but that doesn’t make the angle
any less ugly to look at.”
“No,” said Mercy; and
her eyes still roved up and down and over the house,
with not a shadow of relenting in their expression.
It was Stephen’s turn to be silent now.
He watched her, but did not speak.
Mercy’s face was not merely
a record of her thoughts: it was a photograph
of them. As plainly as on a written page held
in his hand, Stephen White read the successive phases
of thought and struggle which passed through Mercy’s
mind for the next five minutes; and he was not in the
least surprised when, turning suddenly towards him
with a very sweet smile, she said in a resolute tone,-
“There! that’s done with.
I hope you will forgive my rudeness, Mr. White; but
the truth is I was awfully shocked at the first sight
of the house. It isn’t your house, you
know, so it isn’t quite so bad for me to say
so; and I’m so glad you hate it as much as I
do. Now I am never going to think about it again,-never.”
“Why, can you help it, Mrs.
Philbrick?” asked Stephen, in a wondering tone.
“I can’t. I hate it more and more,
I verily believe, each time I come home; and I think
that, if my mother weren’t in it, I should burn
it down some night.”
Mercy looked at him with a certain
shade of the same contempt with which she had looked
at the house; and Stephen winced, as she said coolly,-
“Why, of course I can help it.
I should be very much ashamed of myself if I couldn’t.
I never allow myself to be distressed by things which
I can’t help,-at least, that sort
of thing,” added Mercy, her face clouding with
the sudden recollection of a grief that she had not
been able to rise above. “Of course, I
don’t mean real troubles, like grief about any
one you love. One can’t wholly conquer
such troubles as that; but one can do a great deal
more even with these than people usually suppose.
I am not sure that it is right to let ourselves be
unhappy about any thing, even the worst of troubles.
But I must hurry home now. It is growing late.”
“Mrs. Philbrick,” exclaimed
Stephen, earnestly: “please come into the
house, and speak to my mother a moment. You don’t
know how she has been looking forward to your coming.”
“Oh, no, I cannot possibly do
that,” replied Mercy. “There is no
reason why I should call on your mother, merely because
we are going to live in the same house.”
“But I assure you,” persisted
Stephen, “that it will give her the greatest
pleasure. She is a helpless cripple, and never
leaves her bed. She has probably been watching
us from the window. She always watches for me.
She will wonder if I do not bring you in to see her.
Please come,” he said with a tone which it was
impossible to resist; and Mercy went.
Mrs. White had indeed been watching
them from the window; but Stephen had reckoned without
his host, or rather without his hostess, when he assured
Mercy that his mother would be so glad to see her.
The wisest and the tenderest of men are continually
making blunders in their relations with women; especially
if they are so unfortunate as to occupy in any sense
a position involving a relation to two women at once.
The relation may be ever so rightful and honest to
each woman; the women may be good women, and in their
right places; but the man will find himself perpetually
getting into most unexpected hot water, as many a man
could testify pathetically, if he were called upon.
Mrs. White had been watching her son
through the whole of his conversation with Mercy.
She could see only dimly at such a distance; but she
had discerned that it was a woman with whom he stood
talking so long. It was nearly half an hour past
supper-time, and supper was Mrs. White’s one
festivity in the course of the day. Their breakfast
and their mid-day dinner were too hurried meals for
enjoyment, because Stephen was obliged to make haste
to the office; but with supper there was nothing to
interfere. Stephen’s work for the day was
done: he took great pains to tell her at this
time every thing which he had seen or heard which could
give her the least amusement. She looked forward
all through her long lonely days to the evenings,
as a child looks forward to Saturday afternoons.
Like all invalids whose life has been forced into grooves,
she was impatient and unreasonable when anybody or
any thing interfered with her routine. A five
minutes’ delay was to her a serious annoyance,
and demanded an accurate explanation. Stephen
so thoroughly understood this exactingness on her
part that he adjusted his life to it, as a conscientious
school-boy adjusts his to bells and signals, and never
trespassed knowingly. If he had dreamed that it
was past tea-time, on this unlucky night, he would
never have thought of asking Mercy to go in and see
his mother. But he did not; and it was with a
bright and eager face that he threw open the door,
and said in the most cordial tone,-
“Mother, I have brought Mrs. Philbrick to see
you.”
“How do you do, Mrs. Philbrick?”
was the rejoinder, in a tone and with a look so chilling
that poor Mercy’s heart sank within her.
She had all along had an ideal in her own mind of
the invalid old lady, Mr. White’s mother, to
whom she was to be very good, and who was to be her
mother’s companion. She pictured her as
her own mother would be, a good deal older and feebler,
in a gentle, receptive, patient old age. Of so
repellent, aggressive, unlovely an old woman as this
she had had no conception. It would be hard to
do justice in words to Mrs. White’s capacity
to be disagreeable when she chose. She had gray
eyes, which, though they had a very deceptive trick
of suffusing with tears as of great sensibility on
occasion, were capable of resting upon a person with
a positively unhuman coldness; her voice also had
at these times a distinctly unhuman quality in its
tones. She had apparently no conception of any
necessity of controlling her feelings, or the expression
of them. If she were pleased, if all things went
precisely as she liked, if all persons ministered to
her pleasure, well and good,-she would be
graciously pleased to smile, and be good-humored.
If she were displeased, if her preferences were not
consulted, if her plans were interfered with, woe betide
the first person who entered her presence; and still
more woe betide the person who was responsible for
her annoyance.
As soon as Stephen’s eyes fell
on her face, on this occasion, he felt with a sense
of almost terror that he had made a fatal mistake,
and he knew instantly that it must be much later than
he had supposed; but he plunged bravely in, like a
man taking a header into a pool he fears he may drown
in, and began to give a voluble account of how he had
found Mrs. Philbrick sitting on their stone wall,
so absorbed in looking at the bright leaves that she
had not even seen the house. He ran on in this
strain for some minutes, hoping that his mother’s
mood might soften, but in vain. She listened
with the same stony, unresponsive look on her face,
never taking the stony, unresponsive eyes from his
face; and, as soon as he stopped speaking, she said
in an equally stony voice,-
“Mrs. Philbrick, will you be
so good as to take off your bonnet and take tea with
us? It is already long past our tea-hour!”
Mercy sprang to her feet, and said
impulsively, “Oh, no, I thank you. I did
not dream that it was so late. My mother will
be anxious about me. I must go. I am very
sorry I came in. Good-evening.”
“Good-evening, Mrs. Philbrick,”
in the same slow and stony syllables, came from Mrs.
White’s lips, and she turned her head away immediately.
Stephen, with his face crimson with
mortification, followed Mercy to the door. In
a low voice, he said, “I hope you will be able
to make allowances for my mother’s manner.
It is all my fault. I know that she can never
bear to have me late at meals, and I ought never to
allow myself to forget the hour. It is all my
fault”
Mercy’s indignation at her reception
was too great for her sense of courtesy.
“I don’t think it was
your fault at all, Mr. White,” she exclaimed.
“Good-night,” and she was out of sight
before Stephen could think of a word to say.
Very slowly he walked back into the
sitting-room. He had seldom been so angry with
his mother; but his countenance betrayed no sign of
it, and he took his seat opposite her in silence.
Silence, absolute, unconquerable silence, was the
armor which Stephen White wore. It was like those
invisible networks of fine chains worn next the skin,
in which many men in the olden time passed unscathed
through years of battles, and won the reputation of
having charmed lives. No one suspected the secret.
To the ordinary beholder, the man seemed accoutred
in the ordinary fashion of soldiers; but, whenever
a bullet struck him, it glanced off harmlessly as
if turned back by a spell. It was so with Stephen
White’s silence: in ordinary intercourse,
he was social genial; he talked more than average
men talk; he took or seemed to take, more interest
than men usually take in the common small talk of
average people; but the instant there was a manifestation
of anger, of discord of any thing unpleasant, he entrenched
himself in silence. This was especially the case
when he was reproached or aroused by his mother.
It was often more provoking to her than any amount
of retort or recrimination could have been. She
had in her nature a certain sort of slow ugliness
which delighted in dwelling upon a small offence,
in asking irritating questions about it, in reiterating
its details; all the while making it out a matter
of personal unkindness or indifference to her that
it should have happened. When she was in these
moods, Stephen’s silence sometimes provoked her
past endurance.
“Can’t you speak, Stephen?” she
would exclaim.
“What would be the use, mother?”
he would say sadly. “If you do not know
that the great aim of my life is to make you happy,
it is of no use for me to keep on saying it.
If it would make you any happier to keep on discussing
and discussing this question indefinitely, I would
endure even that; but it would not.”
To do Mrs. White justice, she was
generally ashamed of these ébullitions of unreasonable
ill-temper, and endeavored to atone for them afterward
by being more than ordinarily affectionate and loving
in her manner towards Stephen. But her shame
was short-lived, and never made her any the less unreasonable
or exacting when the next occasion occurred; so that,
although Stephen received her affectionate epithets
and caresses with filial responsiveness, he was never
in the slightest degree deluded by them. He took
them for what they were worth, and held himself no
whit freer from constraint, no whit less ready for
the next storm. By the very fact of the greater
fineness of his organization, this tyrannical woman
held him chained. His submission to her would
have seemed abject, if it had not been based on a
sentiment and grounded in a loyalty which compelled
respect. He had accepted this burden as the one
great duty of his life; and, whatever became of him,
whatever became of his life, the burden should be
carried. This helpless woman, who stood to him
in the relation of mother, should be made happy.
From the moment of his father’s death, he had
assumed this obligation as a sacrament; and, if it
lasted his life out, he would never dream of evading
or lessening it. In this fine fibre of loyalty,
Stephen White and Mercy Philbrick were alike:
though it was in him more an exalted sentiment; in
her, simply an organic necessity. In him, it
would always have been in danger of taking morbid
shapes and phases; of being over-ridden and distorted
at any time by selfishness or wickedness in its object,
as it had been by his selfish mother. In Mercy,
it was on a higher and healthier plane. Without
being a shade less loyal, she would be far clearer-sighted;
would render, but not surrender; would give a lifetime
of service, but not a moment of subjection. There
was a shade of something feminine in Stephen’s
loyalty, of something perhaps masculine in Mercy’s;
but Mercy’s was the best, the truest.
“I wouldn’t allow my mother
to treat a stranger like that,” she thought
indignantly, as she walked away after Mrs. White’s
inhospitable invitation to tea. “I wouldn’t
allow her. I would make her see the shamefulness
of it. What a weak man Mr. White must be!”
Yet if Mercy could have looked into
the room she had just left, and have seen Stephen
listening with a face unmoved, save for a certain compression
of the mouth, and a look of patient endurance in the
eyes, to a torrent of ill-nature from his mother,
she would have recognized that he had strength, however
much she might have undervalued its type.
“I should really think that
you might have more consideration, Stephen, than to
be so late to tea, when you know it is all I have to
look forward to, all day long. You stood a good
half hour talking with that woman, Did you not know
how late it was?”
“No, mother. If I had, I should have come
in.”
“I suppose you had your watch on, hadn’t
you?”
“Yes, mother.”
“Well, I’d like to know
what excuse there is for a man’s not knowing
what time it is, when he has a watch in his pocket?
And then you must needs bring her in here, of all
things,-when you know I hate to see people
near my meal-times, and you must have known it was
near supper-time. At any rate, watch or no watch,
I suppose you didn’t think you’d started
to come home in the middle of the afternoon, did you?
And what did you want her to come in for, anyhow?
I’d like to know that. Answer me, will you?”
“Simply because I thought that
it would give you pleasure to see some one, mother.
You often complain of being so lonely, of no one’s
coming in,” replied Stephen, in a tone which
was pathetic, almost shrill, from its effort to be
patient and calm.
“I wish, if you can’t
speak in your own voice, you wouldn’t speak at
all,” said the angry woman. “What
makes you change your voice so?”
Stephen made no reply. He knew
very well this strange tone which sometimes came into
his voice, when his patience was tried almost beyond
endurance. He would have liked to avoid it; he
was instinctively conscious that it often betrayed
to other people what he suffered. But it was beyond
his control: it seemed as if all the organs of
speech involuntarily clenched themselves, as the hand
unconsciously clenches itself when a man is enraged.
Mrs. White persisted. “Your
voice, when you’re angry, ’s enough to
drive anybody wild. I never heard any thing like
it. And I’m sure I don’t see what
you have to be angry at now. I should think I
was the one to be angry. You’re all I’ve
got in the world, Stephen; and you know what a life
I lead. It isn’t as if I could go about,
like other women; then I shouldn’t care where
you spent your time, if you didn’t want to spend
it with me.” And tears, partly of ill-temper,
partly of real grief, rolled down the hard, unlovely,
old face.
This was only one evening. There
are three hundred and sixty-five in a year. Was
not the burden too heavy for mortal man to carry?