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Those occasions on which Strether
was, in association with the exile from Milrose, to
see the sacred rage glimmer through would doubtless
have their due periodicity; but our friend had meanwhile
to find names for many other matters. On no
evening of his life perhaps, as he reflected, had
he had to supply so many as on the third of his short
stay in London; an evening spent by Miss Gostrey’s
side at one of the theatres, to which he had found
himself transported, without his own hand raised,
on the mere expression of a conscientious wonder.
She knew her theatre, she knew her play, as she had
triumphantly known, three days running, everything
else, and the moment filled to the brim, for her companion,
that apprehension of the interesting which, whether
or no the interesting happened to filter through his
guide, strained now to its limits his brief opportunity.
Waymarsh hadn’t come with them; he had seen
plays enough, he signified, before Strether had joined
him an affirmation that had its full force
when his friend ascertained by questions that he had
seen two and a circus. Questions as to what he
had seen had on him indeed an effect only less favourable
than questions as to what he hadn’t. He
liked the former to be discriminated; but how could
it be done, Strether asked of their constant counsellor,
without discriminating the latter?
Miss Gostrey had dined with him at
his hotel, face to face over a small table on which
the lighted candles had rose-coloured shades; and the
rose-coloured shades and the small table and the soft
fragrance of the lady had anything to his
mere sense ever been so soft? were so many
touches in he scarce knew what positive high picture.
He had been to the theatre, even to the opera, in
Boston, with Mrs. Newsome, more than once acting as
her only escort; but there had been no little confronted
dinner, no pink lights, no whiff of vague sweetness,
as a preliminary: one of the results of which
was that at present, mildly rueful, though with a
sharpish accent, he actually asked himself why
there hadn’t. There was much the same difference
in his impression of the noticed state of his companion,
whose dress was “cut down,” as he believed
the term to be, in respect to shoulders and bosom,
in a manner quite other than Mrs. Newsome’s,
and who wore round her throat a broad red velvet band
with an antique jewel he was rather complacently
sure it was antique attached to it in front.
Mrs. Newsome’s dress was never in any degree
“cut down,” and she never wore round her
throat a broad red velvet band: if she had,
moreover, would it ever have served so to carry on
and complicate, as he now almost felt, his vision?
It would have been absurd of him to
trace into ramifications the effect of the ribbon
from which Miss Gostrey’s trinket depended, had
he not for the hour, at the best, been so given over
to uncontrolled perceptions. What was it but
an uncontrolled perception that his friend’s
velvet band somehow added, in her appearance, to the
value of every other item to that of her
smile and of the way she carried her head, to that
of her complexion, of her lips, her teeth, her eyes,
her hair? What, certainly, had a man conscious
of a man’s work in the world to do with red
velvet bands? He wouldn’t for anything have
so exposed himself as to tell Miss Gostrey how much
he liked hers, yet he had none the less not only
caught himself in the act frivolous, no
doubt, idiotic, and above all unexpected of
liking it: he had in addition taken it as a
starting-point for fresh backward, fresh forward,
fresh lateral flights. The manner in which Mrs.
Newsome’s throat was encircled suddenly
represented for him, in an alien order, almost as
many things as the manner in which Miss Gostrey’s
was. Mrs. Newsome wore, at operatic hours, a
black silk dress very handsome, he knew
it was “handsome” and an ornament
that his memory was able further to identify as a
ruche. He had his association indeed with the
ruche, but it was rather imperfectly romantic.
He had once said to the wearer and it
was as “free” a remark as he had ever made
to her that she looked, with her ruff and
other matters, like Queen Elizabeth; and it had after
this in truth been his fancy that, as a consequence
of that tenderness and an acceptance of the idea,
the form of this special tribute to the “frill”
had grown slightly more marked. The connexion,
as he sat there and let his imagination roam, was to
strike him as vaguely pathetic; but there it all was,
and pathetic was doubtless in the conditions the best
thing it could possibly be. It had assuredly
existed at any rate; for it seemed now to come over
him that no gentleman of his age at Woollett could
ever, to a lady of Mrs. Newsome’s, which was
not much less than his, have embarked on such a simile.
All sorts of things in fact now seemed
to come over him, comparatively few of which his chronicler
can hope for space to mention. It came over
him for instance that Miss Gostrey looked perhaps like
Mary Stuart: Lambert Strether had a candour
of fancy which could rest for an instant gratified
in such an antithesis. It came over him that
never before no, literally never had
a lady dined with him at a public place before going
to the play. The publicity of the place was
just, in the matter, for Strether, the rare strange
thing; it affected him almost as the achievement of
privacy might have affected a man of a different experience.
He had married, in the far-away years, so young as
to have missed the time natural in Boston for taking
girls to the Museum; and it was absolutely true of
hint that even after the close of the period
of conscious detachment occupying the centre of his
life, the grey middle desert of the two deaths, that
of his wife and that, ten years later, of his boy he
had never taken any one anywhere. It came over
him in especial though the monition had,
as happened, already sounded, fitfully gleamed, in
other forms that the business he had come
out on hadn’t yet been so brought home to him
as by the sight of the people about him. She
gave him the impression, his friend, at first, more
straight than he got it for himself gave
it simply by saying with off-hand illumination:
“Oh yes, they’re types!” but
after he had taken it he made to the full his own
use of it; both while he kept silence for the four
acts and while he talked in the intervals. It
was an evening, it was a world of types, and this was
a connexion above all in which the figures and faces
in the stalls were interchangeable with those on the
stage.
He felt as if the play itself penetrated
him with the naked elbow of his neighbour, a great
stripped handsome red-haired lady who conversed with
a gentleman on her other side in stray dissyllables
which had for his ear, in the oddest way in the world,
so much sound that he wondered they hadn’t more
sense; and he recognised by the same law, beyond the
footlights, what he was pleased to take for the very
flush of English life. He had distracted drops
in which he couldn’t have said if it were actors
or auditors who were most true, and the upshot of which,
each time, was the consciousness of new contacts.
However he viewed his job it was “types”
he should have to tackle. Those before him and
around him were not as the types of Woollett, where,
for that matter, it had begun to seem to him that
there must only have been the male and the female.
These made two exactly, even with the individual varieties.
Here, on the other hand, apart from the personal and
the sexual range which might be greater
or less a series of strong stamps had been
applied, as it were, from without; stamps that his
observation played with as, before a glass case on
a table, it might have passed from medal to medal
and from copper to gold. It befell that in the
drama precisely there was a bad woman in a yellow frock
who made a pleasant weak good-looking young man in
perpetual evening dress do the most dreadful things.
Strether felt himself on the whole not afraid of
the yellow frock, but he was vaguely anxious over a
certain kindness into which he found himself drifting
for its victim. He hadn’t come out, he
reminded himself, to be too kind, or indeed to be kind
at all, to Chadwick Newsome. Would Chad also
be in perpetual evening dress? He somehow rather
hoped it it seemed so to add to this
young man’s general amenability; though he wondered
too if, to fight him with his own weapons, he himself
(a thought almost startling) would have likewise to
be. This young man furthermore would have been
much more easy to handle at least for him than
appeared probable in respect to Chad.
It came up for him with Miss Gostrey
that there were things of which she would really perhaps
after all have heard, and she admitted when a little
pressed that she was never quite sure of what she heard
as distinguished from things such as, on occasions
like the present, she only extravagantly guessed.
“I seem with this freedom, you see, to have
guessed Mr. Chad. He’s a young man on whose
head high hopes are placed at Woollett; a young man
a wicked woman has got hold of and whom his family
over there have sent you out to rescue. You’ve
accepted the mission of separating him from the wicked
woman. Are you quite sure she’s very bad
for him?”
Something in his manner showed it
as quite pulling him up. “Of course we
are. Wouldn’t you be?”
“Oh I don’t know.
One never does does one? beforehand.
One can only judge on the facts. Yours are
quite new to me; I’m really not in the least,
as you see, in possession of them: so it will
be awfully interesting to have them from you.
If you’re satisfied, that’s all that’s
required. I mean if you’re sure you are
sure: sure it won’t do.”
“That he should lead such a life? Rather!”
“Oh but I don’t know,
you see, about his life; you’ve not told me about
his life. She may be charming his
life!”
“Charming?” Strether
stared before him. “She’s base, venal-out
of the streets.”
“I see. And he ?”
“Chad, wretched boy?”
“Of what type and temper is he?” she went
on as Strether had lapsed.
“Well the obstinate.”
It was as if for a moment he had been going to say
more and had then controlled himself.
That was scarce what she wished. “Do you
like him?”
This time he was prompt. “No. How
can I?”
“Do you mean because of your being so saddled
with him?”
“I’m thinking of his mother,”
said Strether after a moment. “He has
darkened her admirable life.” He spoke
with austerity. “He has worried her half
to death.”
“Oh that’s of course odious.”
She had a pause as if for renewed emphasis of this
truth, but it ended on another note. “Is
her life very admirable?”
“Extraordinarily.”
There was so much in the tone that
Miss Gostrey had to devote another pause to the appreciation
of it. “And has he only her?
I don’t mean the bad woman in Paris,”
she quickly added “for I assure you
I shouldn’t even at the best be disposed to
allow him more than one. But has he only his
mother?”
“He has also a sister, older
than himself and married; and they’re both remarkably
fine women.”
“Very handsome, you mean?”
This promptitude almost,
as he might have thought, this precipitation, gave
him a brief drop; but he came up again. “Mrs.
Newsome, I think, is handsome, though she’s
not of course, with a son of twenty-eight and a daughter
of thirty, in her very first youth. She married,
however, extremely young.”
“And is wonderful,” Miss Gostrey asked,
“for her age?”
Strether seemed to feel with a certain
disquiet the pressure of it. “I don’t
say she’s wonderful. Or rather,”
he went on the next moment, “I do say it.
It’s exactly what she is wonderful.
But I wasn’t thinking of her appearance,”
he explained “striking as that doubtless
is. I was thinking well, of many
other things.” He seemed to look at these
as if to mention some of them; then took, pulling himself
up, another turn. “About Mrs. Pocock people
may differ.”
“Is that the daughter’s name ’Pocock’?”
“That’s the daughter’s name,”
Strether sturdily confessed.
“And people may differ, you mean, about her
beauty?”
“About everything.”
“But you admire her?”
He gave his friend a glance as to
show how he could bear this “I’m perhaps
a little afraid of her.”
“Oh,” said Miss Gostrey,
“I see her from here! You may say then I
see very fast and very far, but I’ve already
shown you I do. The young man and the two ladies,”
she went on, “are at any rate all the family?”
“Quite all. His father
has been dead ten years, and there’s no brother,
nor any other sister. They’d do,”
said Strether, “anything in the world for him.”
“And you’d do anything in the world for
them?”
He shifted again; she had made it
perhaps just a shade too affirmative for his nerves.
“Oh I don’t know!”
“You’d do at any rate
this, and the ‘anything’ they’d do
is represented by their making you do it.”
“Ah they couldn’t have
come either of them. They’re
very busy people and Mrs. Newsome in particular has
a large full life. She’s moreover highly
nervous and not at all strong.”
“You mean she’s an American invalid?”
He carefully distinguished.
“There’s nothing she likes less than to
be called one, but she would consent to be one of
those things, I think,” he laughed, “if
it were the only way to be the other.”
“Consent to be an American in order to be an
invalid?”
“No,” said Strether, “the
other way round. She’s at any rate delicate
sensitive high-strung. She puts so much of herself
into everything ”
Ah Maria knew these things!
“That she has nothing left for anything else?
Of course she hasn’t. To whom do you say
it? High-strung? Don’t I spend my
life, for them, jamming down the pedal? I see
moreover how it has told on you.”
Strether took this more lightly.
“Oh I jam down the pedal too!”
“Well,” she lucidly returned,
“we must from this moment bear on it together
with all our might.” And she forged ahead.
“Have they money?”
But it was as if, while her energetic
image still held him, her enquiry fell short.
“Mrs. Newsome,” he wished further to explain,
“hasn’t moreover your courage on the question
of contact. If she had come it would have been
to see the person herself.”
“The woman? Ah but that’s courage.”
“No it’s exaltation,
which is a very different thing. Courage,”
he, however, accommodatingly threw out, “is
what you have.”
She shook her head. “You
say that only to patch me up to cover the
nudity of my want of exaltation. I’ve neither
the one nor the other. I’ve mere battered
indifference. I see that what you mean,”
Miss Gostrey pursued, “is that if your friend
had come she would take great views, and the
great views, to put it simply, would be too much for
her.”
Strether looked amused at her notion
of the simple, but he adopted her formula. “Everything’s
too much for her.”
“Ah then such a service as this of yours ”
“Is more for her than anything
else? Yes far more. But so long
as it isn’t too much for me !”
“Her condition doesn’t
matter? Surely not; we leave her condition out;
we take it, that is, for granted. I see it, her
condition, as behind and beneath you; yet at the same
time I see it as bearing you up.”
“Oh it does bear me up!” Strether laughed.
“Well then as yours bears me
nothing more’s needed.” With which
she put again her question. “Has Mrs.
Newsome money?”
This time he heeded. “Oh
plenty. That’s the root of the evil.
There’s money, to very large amounts, in the
concern. Chad has had the free use of a great
deal. But if he’ll pull himself together
and come home, all the same, he’ll find his
account in it.”
She had listened with all her interest.
“And I hope to goodness you’ll find yours!”
“He’ll take up his definite
material reward,” said Strether without acknowledgement
of this. “He’s at the parting of
the ways. He can come into the business now he
can’t come later.”
“Is there a business?”
“Lord, yes a big brave bouncing business.
A roaring trade.”
“A great shop?”
“Yes a workshop;
a great production, a great industry. The concern’s
a manufacture and a manufacture that, if
it’s only properly looked after, may well be
on the way to become a monopoly. It’s a
little thing they make make better, it
appears, than other people can, or than other people,
at any rate, do. Mr. Newsome, being a man of
ideas, at least in that particular line,” Strether
explained, “put them on it with great effect,
and gave the place altogether, in his time, an immense
lift.”
“It’s a place in itself?”
“Well, quite a number of buildings;
almost a little industrial colony. But above
all it’s a thing. The article produced.”
“And what is the article produced?”
Strether looked about him as in slight
reluctance to say; then the curtain, which he saw
about to rise, came to his aid. “I’ll
tell you next time.” But when the next
time came he only said he’d tell her later on after
they should have left the theatre; for she had immediately
reverted to their topic, and even for himself the picture
of the stage was now overlaid with another image.
His postponements, however, made her wonder wonder
if the article referred to were anything bad.
And she explained that she meant improper or ridiculous
or wrong. But Strether, so far as that went,
could satisfy her. “Unmentionable?
Oh no, we constantly talk of it; we are quite familiar
and brazen about it. Only, as a small, trivial,
rather ridiculous object of the commonest domestic
use, it’s just wanting in-what shall I say?
Well, dignity, or the least approach to distinction.
Right here therefore, with everything about us so
grand !” In short he shrank.
“It’s a false note?”
“Sadly. It’s vulgar.”
“But surely not vulgarer than
this.” Then on his wondering as she herself
had done: “Than everything about us.”
She seemed a trifle irritated. “What
do you take this for?”
“Why for comparatively divine!”
“This dreadful London theatre?
It’s impossible, if you really want to know.”
“Oh then,” laughed Strether, “I
don’t really want to know!”
It made between them a pause, which
she, however, still fascinated by the mystery of the
production at Woollett, presently broke. “’Rather
ridiculous’? Clothes-pins? Saleratus?
Shoe-polish?”
It brought him round. “No you
don’t even ‘burn.’ I don’t
think, you know, you’ll guess it.”
“How then can I judge how vulgar it is?”
“You’ll judge when I do
tell you” and he persuaded her to
patience. But it may even now frankly be mentioned
that he in the sequel never was to tell her.
He actually never did so, and it moreover oddly occurred
that by the law, within her, of the incalculable, her
desire for the information dropped and her attitude
to the question converted itself into a positive cultivation
of ignorance. In ignorance she could humour
her fancy, and that proved a useful freedom.
She could treat the little nameless object as indeed
unnameable she could make their abstention
enormously definite. There might indeed have
been for Strether the portent of this in what she
next said.
“Is it perhaps then because
it’s so bad because your industry
as you call it, is so vulgar that
Mr. Chad won’t come back? Does he feel
the taint? Is he staying away not to be mixed
up in it?”
“Oh,” Strether laughed,
“it wouldn’t appear would it? that
he feels ‘taints’! He’s glad
enough of the money from it, and the money’s
his whole basis. There’s appreciation
in that I mean as to the allowance his
mother has hitherto made him. She has of course
the resource of cutting this allowance off; but even
then he has unfortunately, and on no small scale,
his independent supply money left him by
his grandfather, her own father.”
“Wouldn’t the fact you
mention then,” Miss Gostrey asked, “make
it just more easy for him to be particular?
Isn’t he conceivable as fastidious about the
source the apparent and public source of
his income?”
Strether was able quite good-humouredly
to entertain the proposition. “The source
of his grandfather’s wealth and thereby
of his own share in it was not particularly
noble.”
“And what source was it?”
Strether cast about. “Well practices.”
“In business? Infamies? He
was an old swindler?”
“Oh,” he said with more
emphasis than spirit, “I shan’t describe
him nor narrate his exploits.”
“Lord, what abysses! And the late Mr. Newsome
then?”
“Well, what about him?”
“Was he like the grandfather?”
“No he was on the other side of the
house. And he was different.”
Miss Gostrey kept it up. “Better?”
Her friend for a moment hung fire. “No.”
Her comment on his hesitation was
scarce the less marked for being mute. “Thank
you. Now don’t you see,” she
went on, “why the boy doesn’t come home?
He’s drowning his shame.”
“His shame? What shame?”
“What shame? Comment donc?
The shame.”
“But where and when,”
Strether asked, “is ’the shame’ where
is any shame to-day? The men I speak
of they did as every one does; and (besides
being ancient history) it was all a matter of appreciation.”
She showed how she understood. “Mrs. Newsome
has appreciated?”
“Ah I can’t speak for her!”
“In the midst of such doings and,
as I understand you, profiting by them, she at least
has remained exquisite?”
“Oh I can’t talk of her!” Strether
said.
“I thought she was just what
you could talk of. You don’t
trust me,” Miss Gostrey after a moment declared.
It had its effect. “Well,
her money is spent, her life conceived and carried
on with a large beneficence ”
“That’s a kind of expiation
of wrongs? Gracious,” she added before
he could speak, “how intensely you make me see
her!”
“If you see her,” Strether
dropped, “it’s all that’s necessary.”
She really seemed to have her.
“I feel that. She is, in spite of
everything, handsome.”
This at least enlivened him.
“What do you mean by everything?”
“Well, I mean you.”
With which she had one of her swift changes of ground.
“You say the concern needs looking after; but
doesn’t Mrs. Newsome look after it?”
“So far as possible. She’s
wonderfully able, but it’s not her affair, and
her life’s a good deal overcharged. She
has many, many things.”
“And you also?”
“Oh yes I’ve many too, if you
will.”
“I see. But what I mean
is,” Miss Gostrey amended, “do you also
look after the business?”
“Oh no, I don’t touch the business.”
“Only everything else?”
“Well, yes some things.”
“As for instance ?”
Strether obligingly thought. “Well, the
Review.”
“The Review? you have a Review?”
“Certainly. Woollett has
a Review which Mrs. Newsome, for the most
part, magnificently pays for and which I, not at all
magnificently, edit. My name’s on the
cover,” Strether pursued, “and I’m
really rather disappointed and hurt that you seem
never to have heard of it.”
She neglected for a moment this grievance.
“And what kind of a Review is it?”
His serenity was now completely restored. “Well,
it’s green.”
“Do you mean in political colour as they say
here in thought?”
“No; I mean the cover’s green of
the most lovely shade.”
“And with Mrs. Newsome’s name on it too?”
He waited a little. “Oh
as for that you must judge if she peeps out.
She’s behind the whole thing; but she’s
of a delicacy and a discretion !”
Miss Gostrey took it all. “I’m
sure. She would be. I don’t
underrate her. She must be rather a swell.”
“Oh yes, she’s rather a swell!”
“A Woollett swell bon!
I like the idea of a Woollett swell. And you
must be rather one too, to be so mixed up with her.”
“Ah no,” said Strether, “that’s
not the way it works.”
But she had already taken him up.
“The way it works you needn’t
tell me! is of course that you efface yourself.”
“With my name on the cover?” he lucidly
objected.
“Ah but you don’t put it on for yourself.”
“I beg your pardon that’s
exactly what I do put it on for. It’s
exactly the thing that I’m reduced to doing for
myself. It seems to rescue a little, you see,
from the wreck of hopes and ambitions, the refuse-heap
of disappointments and failures, my one presentable
little scrap of an identity.”
On this she looked at him as to say
many things, but what she at last simply said was:
“She likes to see it there. You’re
the bigger swell of the two,” she immediately
continued, “because you think you’re not
one. She thinks she is one. However,”
Miss Gostrey added, “she thinks you’re
one too. You’re at all events the biggest
she can get hold of.” She embroidered,
she abounded. “I don’t say it to interfere
between you, but on the day she gets hold of a bigger
one !” Strether had thrown back his
head as in silent mirth over something that struck
him in her audacity or felicity, and her flight meanwhile
was already higher. “Therefore close with
her !”
“Close with her?” he asked as she seemed
to hang poised.
“Before you lose your chance.”
Their eyes met over it. “What do you mean
by closing?”
“And what do I mean by your
chance? I’ll tell you when you tell me
all the things you don’t. Is it her
greatest fad?” she briskly pursued.
“The Review?” He seemed
to wonder how he could best describe it. This
resulted however but in a sketch. “It’s
her tribute to the ideal.”
“I see. You go in for tremendous things.”
“We go in for the unpopular side that
is so far as we dare.”
“And how far do you dare?”
“Well, she very far. I
much less. I don’t begin to have her faith.
She provides,” said Strether, “three fourths
of that. And she provides, as I’ve confided
to you, all the money.”
It evoked somehow a vision of gold
that held for a little Miss Gostrey’s eyes,
and she looked as if she heard the bright dollars
shovelled in. “I hope then you make a good
thing ”
“I never made a good thing!” he at
once returned.
She just waited. “Don’t you call
it a good thing to be loved?”
“Oh we’re not loved.
We’re not even hated. We’re only
just sweetly ignored.”
She had another pause. “You don’t
trust me!” she once more repeated.
“Don’t I when I lift the
last veil? tell you the very secret of the
prison-house?”
Again she met his eyes, but to the
result that after an instant her own turned away with
impatience. “You don’t sell?
Oh I’m glad of that!” After which
however, and before he could protest, she was off again.
“She’s just a moral swell.”
He accepted gaily enough the definition.
“Yes I really think that describes
her.”
But it had for his friend the oddest
connexion. “How does she do her hair?”
He laughed out. “Beautifully!”
“Ah that doesn’t tell
me. However, it doesn’t matter I
know. It’s tremendously neat a
real reproach; quite remarkably thick and without,
as yet, a single strand of white. There!”
He blushed for her realism, but gaped
at her truth. “You’re the very deuce.”
“What else should I be?
It was as the very deuce I pounced on you. But
don’t let it trouble you, for everything but
the very deuce at our age is
a bore and a delusion, and even he himself, after all,
but half a joy.” With which, on a single
sweep of her wing, she resumed. “You assist
her to expiate which is rather hard when
you’ve yourself not sinned.”
“It’s she who hasn’t
sinned,” Strether replied. “I’ve
sinned the most.”
“Ah,” Miss Gostrey cynically
laughed, “what a picture of her! Have
you robbed the widow and the orphan?”
“I’ve sinned enough,” said Strether.
“Enough for whom? Enough for what?”
“Well, to be where I am.”
“Thank you!” They were
disturbed at this moment by the passage between their
knees and the back of the seats before them of a gentleman
who had been absent during a part of the performance
and who now returned for the close; but the interruption
left Miss Gostrey time, before the subsequent hush,
to express as a sharp finality her sense of the moral
of all their talk. “I knew you had something
up your sleeve!” This finality, however, left
them in its turn, at the end of the play, as disposed
to hang back as if they had still much to say; so that
they easily agreed to let every one go before them they
found an interest in waiting. They made out
from the lobby that the night had turned to rain;
yet Miss Gostrey let her friend know that he wasn’t
to see her home. He was simply to put her, by
herself, into a four-wheeler; she liked so in London,
of wet nights after wild pleasures, thinking things
over, on the return, in lonely four-wheelers.
This was her great time, she intimated, for pulling
herself together. The delays caused by the weather,
the struggle for vehicles at the door, gave them occasion
to subside on a divan at the back of the vestibule
and just beyond the reach of the fresh damp gusts
from the street. Here Strether’s comrade
resumed that free handling of the subject to which
his own imagination of it already owed so much.
“Does your young friend in Paris like you?”
It had almost, after the interval,
startled him. “Oh I hope not! Why
should he?”
“Why shouldn’t he?”
Miss Gostrey asked. “That you’re
coming down on him need have nothing to do with it.”
“You see more in it,” he presently returned,
“than I.”
“Of course I see you in it.”
“Well then you see more in ’me’!”
“Than you see in yourself?
Very likely. That’s always one’s
right. What I was thinking of,” she explained,
“is the possible particular effect on him of
his milieu.”
“Oh his milieu !”
Strether really felt he could imagine it better now
than three hours before.
“Do you mean it can only have been so lowering?”
“Why that’s my very starting-point.”
“Yes, but you start so far back. What
do his letters say?”
“Nothing. He practically ignores us or
spares us. He doesn’t write.”
“I see. But there are
all the same,” she went on, “two quite
distinct things that given the wonderful
place he’s in may have happened to
him. One is that he may have got brutalised.
The other is that he may have got refined.”
Strether stared this was a novelty.
“Refined?”
“Oh,” she said quietly, “there are
refinements.”
The way of it made him, after looking
at her, break into a laugh. “You have
them!”
“As one of the signs,”
she continued in the same tone, “they constitute
perhaps the worst.”
He thought it over and his gravity
returned. “Is it a refinement not to answer
his mother’s letters?”
She appeared to have a scruple, but
she brought it out. “Oh I should say the
greatest of all.”
“Well,” said Strether,
“I’m quite content to let it, as one
of the signs, pass for the worst that I know he believes
he can do what he likes with me.”
This appeared to strike her. “How do you
know it?”
“Oh I’m sure of it. I feel it in
my bones.”
“Feel he can do it?”
“Feel that he believes he can.
It may come to the same thing!” Strether laughed.
She wouldn’t, however, have
this. “Nothing for you will ever come to
the same thing as anything else.” And she
understood what she meant, it seemed, sufficiently
to go straight on. “You say that if he
does break he’ll come in for things at home?”
“Quite positively. He’ll
come in for a particular chance a chance
that any properly constituted young man would jump
at. The business has so developed that an opening
scarcely apparent three years ago, but which his father’s
will took account of as in certain conditions possible
and which, under that will, attaches to Chad’s
availing himself of it a large contingent advantage this
opening, the conditions having come about, now simply
awaits him. His mother has kept it for him,
holding out against strong pressure, till the last
possible moment. It requires, naturally, as it
carries with it a handsome ‘part,’ a large
share in profits, his being on the spot and making
a big effort for a big result. That’s what
I mean by his chance. If he misses it he comes
in, as you say, for nothing. And to see that
he doesn’t miss it is, in a word, what I’ve
come out for.”
She let it all sink in. “What
you’ve come out for then is simply to render
him an immense service.”
Well, poor Strether was willing to
take it so. “Ah if you like.”
“He stands, as they say, if
you succeed with him, to gain ”
“Oh a lot of advantages.”
Strether had them clearly at his fingers’ ends.
“By which you mean of course a lot of money.”
“Well, not only. I’m
acting with a sense for him of other things too.
Consideration and comfort and security the
general safety of being anchored by a strong chain.
He wants, as I see him, to be protected. Protected
I mean from life.”
“Ah voila!” her
thought fitted with a click. “From life.
What you really want to get him home for is
to marry him.”
“Well, that’s about the size of it.”
“Of course,” she said,
“it’s rudimentary. But to any one
in particular?”
He smiled at this, looking a little
more conscious. “You get everything out.”
For a moment again their eyes met.
“You put everything in!”
He acknowledged the tribute by telling
her. “To Mamie Pocock.”
She wondered; then gravely, even exquisitely,
as if to make the oddity also fit: “His
own niece?”
“Oh you must yourself find a
name for the relation. His brother-in-law’s
sister. Mrs. Jim’s sister-in-law.”
It seemed to have on Miss Gostrey
a certain hardening effect. “And who in
the world’s Mrs. Jim?”
“Chad’s sister who
was Sarah Newsome. She’s married didn’t
I mention it? to Jim Pocock.”
“Ah yes,” she tacitly
replied; but he had mentioned things !
Then, however, with all the sound it could have, “Who
in the world’s Jim Pocock?” she asked.
“Why Sally’s husband.
That’s the only way we distinguish people at
Woollett,” he good-humoredly explained.
“And is it a great distinction being
Sally’s husband?”
He considered. “I think
there can be scarcely a greater unless it
may become one, in the future, to be Chad’s
wife.”
“Then how do they distinguish you?”
“They don’t except, as
I’ve told you, by the green cover.”
Once more their eyes met on it, and
she held him an instant. “The green cover
won’t nor will any cover avail
you with me. You’re of a depth of
duplicity!” Still, she could in her own large
grasp of the real condone it. “Is Mamie
a great parti?”
“Oh the greatest we have our prettiest
brightest girl.”
Miss Gostrey seemed to fix the poor
child. “I know what they can be.
And with money?”
“Not perhaps with a great deal
of that but with so much of everything
else that we don’t miss it. We don’t
miss money much, you know,” Strether added,
“in general, in America, in pretty girls.”
“No,” she conceded; “but
I know also what you do sometimes miss. And do
you,” she asked, “yourself admire her?”
It was a question, he indicated, that
there might be several ways of taking; but he decided
after an instant for the humorous. “Haven’t
I sufficiently showed you how I admire any pretty
girl?”
Her interest in his problem was by
this time such that it scarce left her freedom, and
she kept close to the facts. “I supposed
that at Woollett you wanted them what shall
I call it? blameless. I mean your
young men for your pretty girls.”
“So did I!” Strether confessed.
“But you strike there a curious fact the
fact that Woollett too accommodates itself to the spirit
of the age and the increasing mildness of manners.
Everything changes, and I hold that our situation
precisely marks a date. We should prefer
them blameless, but we have to make the best of them
as we find them. Since the spirit of the age
and the increasing mildness send them so much more
to Paris ”
“You’ve to take them back
as they come. When they do come. Bon!”
Once more she embraced it all, but she had a moment
of thought. “Poor Chad!”
“Ah,” said Strether cheerfully “Mamie
will save him!”
She was looking away, still in her
vision, and she spoke with impatience and almost as
if he hadn’t understood her. “You’ll
save him. That’s who’ll save him.”
“Oh but with Mamie’s aid.
Unless indeed you mean,” he added, “that
I shall effect so much more with yours!”
It made her at last again look at
him. “You’ll do more as
you’re so much better than all of
us put together.”
“I think I’m only better
since I’ve known you!” Strether bravely
returned.
The depletion of the place, the shrinkage
of the crowd and now comparatively quiet withdrawal
of its last elements had already brought them nearer
the door and put them in relation with a messenger
of whom he bespoke Miss Gostrey’s cab.
But this left them a few minutes more, which she
was clearly in no mood not to use. “You’ve
spoken to me of what by your success Mr.
Chad stands to gain. But you’ve not spoken
to me of what you do.”
“Oh I’ve nothing more
to gain,” said Strether very simply.
She took it as even quite too simple.
“You mean you’ve got it all ‘down’?
You’ve been paid in advance?”
“Ah don’t talk about payment!” he
groaned.
Something in the tone of it pulled
her up, but as their messenger still delayed she had
another chance and she put it in another way.
“What by failure do you
stand to lose?”
He still, however, wouldn’t
have it. “Nothing!” he exclaimed,
and on the messenger’s at this instant reappearing
he was able to sink the subject in their responsive
advance. When, a few steps up the street, under
a lamp, he had put her into her four-wheeler and she
had asked him if the man had called for him no second
conveyance, he replied before the door was closed.
“You won’t take me with you?”
“Not for the world.”
“Then I shall walk.”
“In the rain?”
“I like the rain,” said Strether.
“Good-night!”
She kept him a moment, while his hand
was on the door, by not answering; after which she
answered by repeating her question. “What
do you stand to lose?”
Why the question now affected him
as other he couldn’t have said; he could only
this time meet it otherwise. “Everything.”
“So I thought. Then you shall succeed.
And to that end I’m yours ”
“Ah, dear lady!” he kindly breathed.
“Till death!” said Maria Gostrey.
“Good-night.”
II-
Strether called, his second morning
in Paris, on the bankers of the Rue Scribe to whom
his letter of credit was addressed, and he made this
visit attended by Waymarsh, in whose company he had
crossed from London two days before. They had
hastened to the Rue Scribe on the morrow of their
arrival, but Strether had not then found the letters
the hope of which prompted this errand. He had
had as yet none at all; hadn’t expected them
in London, but had counted on several in Paris, and,
disconcerted now, had presently strolled back to the
Boulevard with a sense of injury that he felt himself
taking for as good a start as any other. It
would serve, this spur to his spirit, he reflected,
as, pausing at the top of the street, he looked up
and down the great foreign avenue, it would serve
to begin business with. His idea was to begin
business immediately, and it did much for him the rest
of his day that the beginning of business awaited
him. He did little else till night but ask himself
what he should do if he hadn’t fortunately had
so much to do; but he put himself the question in
many different situations and connexions. What
carried him hither and yon was an admirable theory
that nothing he could do wouldn’t be in some
manner related to what he fundamentally had on hand,
or would be should he happen to have
a scruple wasted for it. He did happen
to have a scruple a scruple about taking
no definite step till he should get letters; but this
reasoning carried it off. A single day to feel
his feet he had felt them as yet only at
Chester and in London was he could consider,
none too much; and having, as he had often privately
expressed it, Paris to reckon with, he threw these
hours of freshness consciously into the reckoning.
They made it continually greater, but that was what
it had best be if it was to be anything at all, and
he gave himself up till far into the evening, at the
theatre and on the return, after the theatre, along
the bright congested Boulevard, to feeling it grow.
Waymarsh had accompanied him this time to the play,
and the two men had walked together, as a first stage,
from the Gymnase to the Cafe Riche, into the
crowded “terrace” of which establishment the
night, or rather the morning, for midnight had struck,
being bland and populous they had wedged
themselves for refreshment. Waymarsh, as a result
of some discussion with his friend, had made a marked
virtue of his having now let himself go; and there
had been elements of impression in their half-hour
over their watered beer-glasses that gave him his
occasion for conveying that he held this compromise
with his stiffer self to have become extreme.
He conveyed it for it was still, after
all, his stiffer self who gloomed out of the glare
of the terrace in solemn silence; and there
was indeed a great deal of critical silence, every
way, between the companions, even till they gained
the Place de l’Opera, as to the character of
their nocturnal progress.
This morning there were letters letters
which had reached London, apparently all together,
the day of Strether’s journey, and had taken
their time to follow him; so that, after a controlled
impulse to go into them in the reception-room of the
bank, which, reminding him of the post-office at Woollett,
affected him as the abutment of some transatlantic
bridge, he slipped them into the pocket of his loose
grey overcoat with a sense of the felicity of carrying
them off. Waymarsh, who had had letters yesterday,
had had them again to-day, and Waymarsh suggested
in this particular no controlled impulses. The
last one he was at all events likely to be observed
to struggle with was clearly that of bringing to a
premature close any visit to the Rue Scribe.
Strether had left him there yesterday; he wanted to
see the papers, and he had spent, by what his friend
could make out, a succession of hours with the papers.
He spoke of the establishment, with emphasis, as a
post of superior observation; just as he spoke generally
of his actual damnable doom as a device for hiding
from him what was going on. Europe was best described,
to his mind, as an elaborate engine for dissociating
the confined American from that indispensable knowledge,
and was accordingly only rendered bearable by these
occasional stations of relief, traps for the arrest
of wandering western airs. Strether, on his
side, set himself to walk again he had his
relief in his pocket; and indeed, much as he had desired
his budget, the growth of restlessness might have
been marked in him from the moment he had assured
himself of the superscription of most of the missives
it contained. This restlessness became therefore
his temporary law; he knew he should recognise as
soon as see it the best place of all for settling
down with his chief correspondent. He had for
the next hour an accidental air of looking for it
in the windows of shops; he came down the Rue de la
Paix in the sun and, passing across the Tuileries
and the river, indulged more than once as
if on finding himself determined in a sudden
pause before the book-stalls of the opposite quay.
In the garden of the Tuileries he had lingered, on
two or three spots, to look; it was as if the wonderful
Paris spring had stayed him as he roamed. The
prompt Paris morning struck its cheerful notes in
a soft breeze and a sprinkled smell, in the light
flit, over the garden-floor, of bareheaded girls with
the buckled strap of oblong boxes, in the type of
ancient thrifty persons basking betimes where terrace-walls
were warm, in the blue-frocked brass-labelled officialism
of humble rakers and scrapers, in the deep references
of a straight-pacing priest or the sharp ones of a
white-gaitered red-legged soldier. He watched
little brisk figures, figures whose movement was as
the tick of the great Paris clock, take their smooth
diagonal from point to point; the air had a taste
as of something mixed with art, something that presented
nature as a white-capped master-chef. The palace
was gone, Strether remembered the palace; and when
he gazed into the irremediable void of its site the
historic sense in him might have been freely at play the
play under which in Paris indeed it so often winces
like a touched nerve. He filled out spaces with
dim symbols of scenes; he caught the gleam of white
statues at the base of which, with his letters out,
he could tilt back a straw-bottomed chair. But
his drift was, for reasons, to the other side, and
it floated him unspent up the Rue de Seine and as
far as the Luxembourg. In the Luxembourg Gardens
he pulled up; here at last he found his nook, and here,
on a penny chair from which terraces, alleys, vistas,
fountains, little trees in green tubs, little women
in white caps and shrill little girls at play all
sunnily “composed” together, he passed
an hour in which the cup of his impressions seemed
truly to overflow. But a week had elapsed since
he quitted the ship, and there were more things in
his mind than so few days could account for.
More than once, during the time, he had regarded
himself as admonished; but the admonition this morning
was formidably sharp. It took as it hadn’t
done yet the form of a question the question
of what he was doing with such an extraordinary sense
of escape. This sense was sharpest after he had
read his letters, but that was also precisely why
the question pressed. Four of the letters were
from Mrs. Newsome and none of them short; she had lost
no time, had followed on his heels while he moved,
so expressing herself that he now could measure the
probable frequency with which he should hear.
They would arrive, it would seem, her communications,
at the rate of several a week; he should be able to
count, it might even prove, on more than one by each
mail. If he had begun yesterday with a small
grievance he had therefore an opportunity to begin
to-day with its opposite. He read the letters
successively and slowly, putting others back into
his pocket but keeping these for a long time afterwards
gathered in his lap. He held them there, lost
in thought, as if to prolong the presence of what
they gave him; or as if at the least to assure them
their part in the constitution of some lucidity.
His friend wrote admirably, and her tone was even more
in her style than in her voice he might
almost, for the hour, have had to come this distance
to get its full carrying quality; yet the plentitude
of his consciousness of difference consorted perfectly
with the deepened intensity of the connexion.
It was the difference, the difference of being just
where he was and as he was, that formed the escape this
difference was so much greater than he had dreamed
it would be; and what he finally sat there turning
over was the strange logic of his finding himself
so free. He felt it in a manner his duty to think
out his state, to approve the process, and when he
came in fact to trace the steps and add up the items
they sufficiently accounted for the sum. He had
never expected that was the truth of it again
to find himself young, and all the years and other
things it had taken to make him so were exactly his
present arithmetic. He had to make sure of them
to put his scruple to rest.
It all sprang at bottom from the beauty
of Mrs. Newsome’s desire that he should be worried
with nothing that was not of the essence of his task;
by insisting that he should thoroughly intermit and
break she had so provided for his freedom that she
would, as it were, have only herself to thank.
Strether could not at this point indeed have completed
his thought by the image of what she might have to
thank herself for: the image, at best,
of his own likeness-poor Lambert Strether washed up
on the sunny strand by the waves of a single day,
poor Lambert Strether thankful for breathing-time and
stiffening himself while he gasped. There he
was, and with nothing in his aspect or his posture
to scandalise: it was only true that if he had
seen Mrs. Newsome coming he would instinctively have
jumped up to walk away a little. He would have
come round and back to her bravely, but he would have
had first to pull himself together. She abounded
in news of the situation at home, proved to him how
perfectly she was arranging for his absence, told
him who would take up this and who take up that exactly
where he had left it, gave him in fact chapter and
verse for the moral that nothing would suffer.
It filled for him, this tone of hers, all the air;
yet it struck him at the same time as the hum of vain
things. This latter effect was what he tried
to justify and with the success that, grave
though the appearance, he at last lighted on a form
that was happy. He arrived at it by the inevitable
recognition of his having been a fortnight before
one of the weariest of men. If ever a man had
come off tired Lambert Strether was that man; and hadn’t
it been distinctly on the ground of his fatigue that
his wonderful friend at home had so felt for him and
so contrived? It seemed to him somehow at these
instants that, could he only maintain with sufficient
firmness his grasp of that truth, it might become
in a manner his compass and his helm. What he
wanted most was some idea that would simplify, and
nothing would do this so much as the fact that he was
done for and finished. If it had been in such
a light that he had just detected in his cup the dregs
of youth, that was a mere flaw of the surface of his
scheme. He was so distinctly fagged-out that
it must serve precisely as his convenience, and if
he could but consistently be good for little enough
he might do everything he wanted.
Everything he wanted was comprised
moreover in a single boon the common unattainable
art of taking things as they came. He appeared
to himself to have given his best years to an active
appreciation of the way they didn’t come; but
perhaps as they would seemingly here be
things quite other this long ache might
at last drop to rest. He could easily see that
from the moment he should accept the notion of his
foredoomed collapse the last thing he would lack would
be reasons and memories. Oh if he should
do the sum no slate would hold the figures! The
fact that he had failed, as he considered, in everything,
in each relation and in half a dozen trades, as he
liked luxuriously to put it, might have made, might
still make, for an empty present; but it stood solidly
for a crowded past. It had not been, so much
achievement missed, a light yoke nor a short load.
It was at present as if the backward picture had
hung there, the long crooked course, grey in the shadow
of his solitude. It had been a dreadful cheerful
sociable solitude, a solitude of life or choice, of
community; but though there had been people enough
all round it there had been but three or four persons
in it. Waymarsh was one of these, and the
fact struck him just now as marking the record.
Mrs. Newsome was another, and Miss Gostrey had of
a sudden shown signs of becoming a third. Beyond,
behind them was the pale figure of his real youth,
which held against its breast the two presences paler
than itself the young wife he had early
lost and the young son he had stupidly sacrificed.
He had again and again made out for himself that
he might have kept his little boy, his little dull
boy who had died at school of rapid diphtheria, if
he had not in those years so insanely given himself
to merely missing the mother. It was the soreness
of his remorse that the child had in all likelihood
not really been dull had been dull, as he
had been banished and neglected, mainly because the
father had been unwittingly selfish. This was
doubtless but the secret habit of sorrow, which had
slowly given way to time; yet there remained an ache
sharp enough to make the spirit, at the sight now
and again of some fair young man just growing up,
wince with the thought of an opportunity lost.
Had ever a man, he had finally fallen into the way
of asking himself, lost so much and even done so much
for so little? There had been particular reasons
why all yesterday, beyond other days, he should have
had in one ear this cold enquiry. His name on
the green cover, where he had put it for Mrs. Newsome,
expressed him doubtless just enough to make the world the
world as distinguished, both for more and for less,
from Woollett ask who he was. He
had incurred the ridicule of having to have his explanation
explained. He was Lambert Strether because he
was on the cover, whereas it should have been, for
anything like glory, that he was on the cover because
he was Lambert Strether. He would have done
anything for Mrs. Newsome, have been still more ridiculous as
he might, for that matter, have occasion to be yet;
which came to saying that this acceptance of fate was
all he had to show at fifty-five.
He judged the quantity as small because
it was small, and all the more egregiously since
it couldn’t, as he saw the case, so much as thinkably
have been larger. He hadn’t had the gift
of making the most of what he tried, and if he had
tried and tried again no one but himself
knew how often it appeared to have been
that he might demonstrate what else, in default of
that, could be made. Old ghosts of experiments
came back to him, old drudgeries and delusions, and
disgusts, old recoveries with their relapses, old
fevers with their chills, broken moments of good faith,
others of still better doubt; adventures, for the most
part, of the sort qualified as lessons. The
special spring that had constantly played for him
the day before was the recognition frequent
enough to surprise him of the promises
to himself that he had after his other visit never
kept. The reminiscence to-day most quickened
for him was that of the vow taken in the course of
the pilgrimage that, newly-married, with the War just
over, and helplessly young in spite of it, he had
recklessly made with the creature who was so much younger
still. It had been a bold dash, for which they
had taken money set apart for necessities, but kept
sacred at the moment in a hundred ways, and in none
more so than by this private pledge of his own to treat
the occasion as a relation formed with the higher
culture and see that, as they said at Woollett, it
should bear a good harvest. He had believed,
sailing home again, that he had gained something great,
and his theory with an elaborate innocent
plan of reading, digesting, coming back even, every
few years had then been to preserve, cherish
and extend it. As such plans as these had come
to nothing, however, in respect to acquisitions still
more precious, it was doubtless little enough of a
marvel that he should have lost account of that handful
of seed. Buried for long years in dark corners
at any rate these few germs had sprouted again under
forty-eight hours of Paris. The process of yesterday
had really been the process of feeling the general
stirred life of connexions long since individually
dropped. Strether had become acquainted even
on this ground with short gusts of speculation sudden
flights of fancy in Louvre galleries, hungry gazes
through clear plates behind which lemon-coloured volumes
were as fresh as fruit on the tree.
There were instants at which he could
ask whether, since there had been fundamentally so
little question of his keeping anything, the fate
after all decreed for him hadn’t been only to
be kept. Kept for something, in that event,
that he didn’t pretend, didn’t possibly
dare as yet to divine; something that made him hover
and wonder and laugh and sigh, made him advance and
retreat, feeling half ashamed of his impulse to plunge
and more than half afraid of his impulse to wait.
He remembered for instance how he had gone back in
the sixties with lemon-coloured volumes in general
on the brain as well as with a dozen selected
for his wife too in his trunk; and nothing
had at the moment shown more confidence than this
invocation of the finer taste. They were still
somewhere at home, the dozen stale and soiled
and never sent to the binder; but what had become
of the sharp initiation they represented? They
represented now the mere sallow paint on the door
of the temple of taste that he had dreamed of raising
up a structure he had practically never
carried further. Strether’s present highest
flights were perhaps those in which this particular
lapse figured to him as a symbol, a symbol of his
long grind and his want of odd moments, his want moreover
of money, of opportunity, of positive dignity.
That the memory of the vow of his youth should, in
order to throb again, have had to wait for this last,
as he felt it, of all his accidents that
was surely proof enough of how his conscience had been
encumbered. If any further proof were needed
it would have been to be found in the fact that, as
he perfectly now saw, he had ceased even to measure
his meagreness, a meagreness that sprawled, in this
retrospect, vague and comprehensive, stretching back
like some unmapped Hinterland from a rough coast-settlement.
His conscience had been amusing itself for the forty-eight
hours by forbidding him the purchase of a book; he
held off from that, held off from everything; from
the moment he didn’t yet call on Chad he wouldn’t
for the world have taken any other step. On this
evidence, however, of the way they actually affected
him he glared at the lemon-coloured covers in confession
of the subconsciousness that, all the same, in the
great desert of the years, he must have had of them.
The green covers at home comprised, by the law of
their purpose, no tribute to letters; it was of a mere
rich kernel of economics, politics, ethics that, glazed
and, as Mrs. Newsome maintained rather against his
view, pre-eminently pleasant to touch, they formed
the specious shell. Without therefore any needed
instinctive knowledge of what was coming out, in Paris,
on the bright highway, he struck himself at present
as having more than once flushed with a suspicion:
he couldn’t otherwise at present be feeling
so many fears confirmed. There were “movements”
he was too late for: weren’t they, with
the fun of them, already spent? There were sequences
he had missed and great gaps in the procession:
he might have been watching it all recede in a golden
cloud of dust. If the playhouse wasn’t
closed his seat had at least fallen to somebody else.
He had had an uneasy feeling the night before that
if he was at the theatre at all though
he indeed justified the theatre, in the specific sense,
and with a grotesqueness to which his imagination
did all honour, as something he owed poor Waymarsh he
should have been there with, and as might have been
said, for Chad.
This suggested the question of whether
he could properly have taken him to such a play, and
what effect it was a point that suddenly
rose his peculiar responsibility might
be held in general to have on his choice of entertainment.
It had literally been present to him at the Gymnase where
one was held moreover comparatively safe that
having his young friend at his side would have been
an odd feature of the work of redemption; and this
quite in spite of the fact that the picture presented
might well, confronted with Chad’s own private
stage, have seemed the pattern of propriety.
He clearly hadn’t come out in the name of propriety
but to visit unattended equivocal performances; yet
still less had he done so to undermine his authority
by sharing them with the graceless youth. Was
he to renounce all amusement for the sweet sake of
that authority? and would such renouncement give
him for Chad a moral glamour? The little problem
bristled the more by reason of poor Strether’s
fairly open sense of the irony of things. Were
there then sides on which his predicament threatened
to look rather droll to him? Should he have
to pretend to believe either to himself
or the wretched boy that there was anything
that could make the latter worse? Wasn’t
some such pretence on the other hand involved in the
assumption of possible processes that would make him
better? His greatest uneasiness seemed to peep
at him out of the imminent impression that almost
any acceptance of Paris might give one’s authority
away. It hung before him this morning, the vast
bright Babylon, like some huge iridescent object,
a jewel brilliant and hard, in which parts were not
to be discriminated nor differences comfortably marked.
It twinkled and trembled and melted together, and
what seemed all surface one moment seemed all depth
the next. It was a place of which, unmistakeably,
Chad was fond; wherefore if he, Strether, should like
it too much, what on earth, with such a bond, would
become of either of them? It all depended of
course which was a gleam of light on
how the “too much” was measured; though
indeed our friend fairly felt, while he prolonged
the meditation I describe, that for himself even already
a certain measure had been reached. It will have
been sufficiently seen that he was not a man to neglect
any good chance for reflexion. Was it at all
possible for instance to like Paris enough without
liking it too much? He luckily however hadn’t
promised Mrs. Newsome not to like it at all.
He was ready to recognise at this stage that such
an engagement would have tied his hands.
The Luxembourg Gardens were incontestably just so
adorable at this hour by reason in addition
to their intrinsic charm of his not having
taken it. The only engagement he had taken,
when he looked the thing in the face, was to do what
he reasonably could.
It upset him a little none the less
and after a while to find himself at last remembering
on what current of association he had been floated
so far. Old imaginations of the Latin Quarter
had played their part for him, and he had duly recalled
its having been with this scene of rather ominous
legend that, like so many young men in fiction as well
as in fact, Chad had begun. He was now quite
out of it, with his “home,” as Strether
figured the place, in the Boulevard Malesherbes; which
was perhaps why, repairing, not to fail of justice
either, to the elder neighbourhood, our friend had
felt he could allow for the element of the usual,
the immemorial, without courting perturbation.
He was not at least in danger of seeing the youth
and the particular Person flaunt by together; and
yet he was in the very air of which just
to feel what the early natural note must have been he
wished most to take counsel. It became at once
vivid to him that he had originally had, for a few
days, an almost envious vision of the boy’s romantic
privilege. Melancholy Murger, with Francine and
Musette and Rodolphe, at home, in the company of the
tattered, one if he not in his single self
two or three of the unbound, the paper-covered
dozen on the shelf; and when Chad had written, five
years ago, after a sojourn then already prolonged
to six months, that he had decided to go in for economy
and the real thing, Strether’s fancy had quite
fondly accompanied him in this migration, which was
to convey him, as they somewhat confusedly learned
at Woollett, across the bridges and up the Montagne
Sainte-Genevieve. This was the region Chad
had been quite distinct about it in which
the best French, and many other things, were to be
learned at least cost, and in which all sorts of clever
fellows, compatriots there for a purpose, formed an
awfully pleasant set. The clever fellows, the
friendly countrymen were mainly young painters, sculptors,
architects, medical students; but they were, Chad
sagely opined, a much more profitable lot to be with even
on the footing of not being quite one of them than
the “terrible toughs” (Strether remembered
the edifying discrimination) of the American bars
and banks roundabout the Opera. Chad had thrown
out, in the communications following this one for
at that time he did once in a while communicate that
several members of a band of earnest workers under
one of the great artists had taken him right in, making
him dine every night, almost for nothing, at their
place, and even pressing him not to neglect the hypothesis
of there being as much “in him” as in any
of them. There had been literally a moment at
which it appeared there might be something in him;
there had been at any rate a moment at which he had
written that he didn’t know but what a month
or two more might see him enrolled in some atelier.
The season had been one at which Mrs. Newsome was
moved to gratitude for small mercies; it had broken
on them all as a blessing that their absentee had
perhaps a conscience that he was sated
in fine with idleness, was ambitious of variety.
The exhibition was doubtless as yet not brilliant,
but Strether himself, even by that time much enlisted
and immersed, had determined, on the part of the two
ladies, a temperate approval and in fact, as he now
recollected, a certain austere enthusiasm.
But the very next thing that happened
had been a dark drop of the curtain. The son
and brother had not browsed long on the Montagne Sainte-Genevieve his
effective little use of the name of which, like his
allusion to the best French, appeared to have been
but one of the notes of his rough cunning. The
light refreshment of these vain appearances had not
accordingly carried any of them very far. On
the other hand it had gained Chad time; it had given
him a chance, unchecked, to strike his roots, had
paved the way for initiations more direct and more
deep. It was Strether’s belief that he
had been comparatively innocent before this first
migration, and even that the first effects of the
migration would not have been, without some particular
bad accident, to have been deplored. There had
been three months he had sufficiently figured
it out in which Chad had wanted to try.
He had tried, though not very hard he
had had his little hour of good faith. The weakness
of this principle in him was that almost any accident
attestedly bad enough was stronger. Such had
at any rate markedly been the case for the precipitation
of a special series of impressions. They had
proved, successively, these impressions all
of Musette and Francine, but Musette and Francine
vulgarised by the larger evolution of the type irresistibly
sharp: he had “taken up,” by what
was at the time to be shrinkingly gathered, as it was
scantly mentioned, with one ferociously “interested”
little person after another. Strether had read
somewhere of a Latin motto, a description of the hours,
observed on a clock by a traveller in Spain; and he
had been led to apply it in thought to Chad’s
number one, number two, number three. Omnes
vulnerant, ultima necat they had all morally
wounded, the last had morally killed. The last
had been longest in possession in possession,
that is, of whatever was left of the poor boy’s
finer mortality. And it hadn’t been she,
it had been one of her early predecessors, who had
determined the second migration, the expensive return
and relapse, the exchange again, as was fairly to be
presumed, of the vaunted best French for some special
variety of the worst.
He pulled himself then at last together
for his own progress back; not with the feeling that
he had taken his walk in vain. He prolonged it
a little, in the immediate neighbourhood, after he
had quitted his chair; and the upshot of the whole
morning for him was that his campaign had begun.
He had wanted to put himself in relation, and he would
be hanged if he were not in relation. He
was that at no moment so much as while, under the
old arches of the Odéon, he lingered before the
charming open-air array of literature classic and casual.
He found the effect of tone and tint, in the long
charged tables and shelves, delicate and appetising;
the impression substituting one kind of
low-priced consommation for another might
have been that of one of the pleasant cafes that overlapped,
under an awning, to the pavement; but he edged along,
grazing the tables, with his hands firmly behind him.
He wasn’t there to dip, to consume he
was there to reconstruct. He wasn’t there
for his own profit not, that is, the direct;
he was there on some chance of feeling the brush of
the wing of the stray spirit of youth. He felt
it in fact, he had it beside him; the old arcade indeed,
as his inner sense listened, gave out the faint sound,
as from far off, of the wild waving of wings.
They were folded now over the breasts of buried generations;
but a flutter or two lived again in the turned page
of shock-headed slouch-hatted loiterers whose young
intensity of type, in the direction of pale acuteness,
deepened his vision, and even his appreciation, of
racial differences, and whose manipulation of the
uncut volume was too often, however, but a listening
at closed doors. He reconstructed a possible
groping Chad of three or four years before, a Chad
who had, after all, simply for that was
the only way to see it been too vulgar for
his privilege. Surely it was a privilege
to have been young and happy just there. Well,
the best thing Strether knew of him was that he had
had such a dream.
But his own actual business half an
hour later was with a third floor on the Boulevard
Malesherbes so much as that was definite;
and the fact of the enjoyment by the third-floor windows
of a continuous balcony, to which he was helped by
this knowledge, had perhaps something to do with his
lingering for five minutes on the opposite side of
the street. There were points as to which he
had quite made up his mind, and one of these bore
precisely on the wisdom of the abruptness to which
events had finally committed him, a policy that he
was pleased to find not at all shaken as he now looked
at his watch and wondered. He had announced
himself six months before; had written out
at least that Chad wasn’t to be surprised should
he see him some day turn up. Chad had thereupon,
in a few words of rather carefully colourless answer,
offered him a general welcome; and Strether, ruefully
reflecting that he might have understood the warning
as a hint to hospitality, a bid for an invitation,
had fallen back upon silence as the corrective most
to his own taste. He had asked Mrs. Newsome
moreover not to announce him again; he had so distinct
an opinion on his attacking his job, should he attack
it at all, in his own way. Not the least of
this lady’s high merits for him was that he could
absolutely rest on her word. She was the only
woman he had known, even at Woollett, as to whom his
conviction was positive that to lie was beyond her
art. Sarah Pocock, for instance, her own daughter,
though with social ideals, as they said, in some respects
different Sarah who was, in her way,
aesthetic, had never refused to human commerce that
mitigation of rigour; there were occasions when he
had distinctly seen her apply it. Since, accordingly,
at all events, he had had it from Mrs. Newsome that
she had, at whatever cost to her more strenuous view,
conformed, in the matter of preparing Chad, wholly
to his restrictions, he now looked up at the fine
continuous balcony with a safe sense that if the case
had been bungled the mistake was at least his property.
Was there perhaps just a suspicion of that in his
present pause on the edge of the Boulevard and well
in the pleasant light?
Many things came over him here, and
one of them was that he should doubtless presently
know whether he had been shallow or sharp. Another
was that the balcony in question didn’t somehow
show as a convenience easy to surrender. Poor
Strether had at this very moment to recognise the
truth that wherever one paused in Paris the imagination
reacted before one could stop it. This perpetual
reaction put a price, if one would, on pauses; but
it piled up consequences till there was scarce room
to pick one’s steps among them. What call
had he, at such a juncture, for example, to like Chad’s
very house? High broad clear he was
expert enough to make out in a moment that it was admirably
built it fairly embarrassed our friend by
the quality that, as he would have said, it “sprang”
on him. He had struck off the fancy that it
might, as a preliminary, be of service to him to be
seen, by a happy accident, from the third-story windows,
which took all the March sun, but of what service
was it to find himself making out after a moment that
the quality “sprung,” the quality produced
by measure and balance, the fine relation of part
to part and space to space, was probably aided
by the presence of ornament as positive as it was
discreet, and by the complexion of the stone, a cold
fair grey, warmed and polished a little by life neither
more nor less than a case of distinction, such a case
as he could only feel unexpectedly as a sort of delivered
challenge? Meanwhile, however, the chance he had
allowed for the chance of being seen in
time from the balcony had become a fact.
Two or three of the windows stood open to the violet
air; and, before Strether had cut the knot by crossing,
a young man had come out and looked about him, had
lighted a cigarette and tossed the match over, and
then, resting on the rail, had given himself up to
watching the life below while he smoked. His
arrival contributed, in its order, to keeping Strether
in position; the result of which in turn was that
Strether soon felt himself noticed. The young
man began to look at him as in acknowledgement of
his being himself in observation.
This was interesting so far as it
went, but the interest was affected by the young man’s
not being Chad. Strether wondered at first if
he were perhaps Chad altered, and then saw that this
was asking too much of alteration. The young
man was light bright and alert with an air
too pleasant to have been arrived at by patching.
Strether had conceived Chad as patched, but not beyond
recognition. He was in presence, he felt, of
amendments enough as they stood; it was a sufficient
amendment that the gentleman up there should be Chad’s
friend. He was young too then, the gentleman
up there he was very young; young enough
apparently to be amused at an elderly watcher, to
be curious even to see what the elderly watcher would
do on finding himself watched. There was youth
in that, there was youth in the surrender to the balcony,
there was youth for Strether at this moment in everything
but his own business; and Chad’s thus pronounced
association with youth had given the next instant an
extraordinary quick lift to the issue. The balcony,
the distinguished front, testified suddenly, for Strether’s
fancy, to something that was up and up; they placed
the whole case materially, and as by an admirable
image, on a level that he found himself at the end
of another moment rejoicing to think he might reach.
The young man looked at him still, he looked at the
young man; and the issue, by a rapid process, was that
this knowledge of a perched privacy appeared to him
the last of luxuries. To him too the perched
privacy was open, and he saw it now but in one light that
of the only domicile, the only fireside, in the great
ironic city, on which he had the shadow of a claim.
Miss Gostrey had a fireside; she had told him of it,
and it was something that doubtless awaited him; but
Miss Gostrey hadn’t yet arrived she
mightn’t arrive for days; and the sole attenuation
of his excluded state was his vision of the small,
the admittedly secondary hotel in the bye-street from
the Rue de la Paix, in which her solicitude for his
purse had placed him, which affected him somehow as
all indoor chill, glass-roofed court and slippery
staircase, and which, by the same token, expressed
the presence of Waymarsh even at times when Waymarsh
might have been certain to be round at the bank.
It came to pass before he moved that Waymarsh, and
Waymarsh alone, Waymarsh not only undiluted but positively
strengthened, struck him as the present alternative
to the young man in the balcony. When he did
move it was fairly to escape that alternative.
Taking his way over the street at last and passing
through the porte-cochère of the house was
like consciously leaving Waymarsh out. However,
he would tell him all about it.