“But has she any idea herself,
poor thing?” was the way I had put it to Mrs.
Munden on our next meeting after the incident at my
studio; with the effect, however, only of leaving
my friend at first to take me as alluding to Mrs.
Brash’s possible prevision of the chatter she
might create. I had my own sense of that this
provision had been nil; the question was of her consciousness
of the office for which Lady Beldonald had counted
on her and for which we were so promptly proceeding
to spoil her altogether.
“Oh I think she arrived with
a goodish notion,” Mrs. Munden had replied when
I had explained; “for she’s clever too,
you know, as well as good-looking, and I don’t
see how, if she ever really knew Nina, she could
have supposed for a moment that she wasn’t wanted
for whatever she might have left to give up.
Hasn’t she moreover always been made to feel
that she’s ugly enough for anything?”
It was even at this point already wonderful how my
friend had mastered the case and what lights, alike
for its past and its future, she was prepared to throw
on it. “If she has seen herself as ugly
enough for anything she has seen herself and
that was the only way as ugly enough for
Nina; and she has had her own manner of showing that
she understands without making Nina commit herself
to anything vulgar. Women are never without
ways for doing such things both for communicating
and receiving knowledge that I can’t
explain to you, and that you wouldn’t understand
if I could, since you must be a woman even to do that.
I daresay they’ve expressed it all to each other
simply in the language of kisses. But doesn’t
it at any rate make something rather beautiful of
the relation between them as affected by our discovery ?”
I had a laugh for her plural possessive.
“The point is of course that if there was a
conscious bargain, and our action on Mrs. Brash is
to deprive her of the sense of keeping her side of
it, various things may happen that won’t be
good either for her or for ourselves. She may
conscientiously throw up the position.”
“Yes,” my companion mused “for
she is conscientious. Or Nina, without waiting
for that, may cast her forth.”
I faced it all. “Then we should have to
keep her.”
“As a regular model?”
Mrs. Munden was ready for anything. “Oh
that would be lovely!”
But I further worked it out.
“The difficulty is that she’s not a model,
hang it that she’s too good for one,
that she’s the very thing herself. When
Outreau and I have each had our go, that will be all;
there’ll be nothing left for any one else.
Therefore it behoves us quite to understand that
our attitude’s a responsibility. If we
can’t do for her positively more than Nina does ”
“We must let her alone?”
My companion continued to muse. “I see!”
“Yet don’t,” I returned,
“see too much. We can do more.”
“Than Nina?” She was again
on the spot. “It wouldn’t after all
be difficult. We only want the directly opposite
thing and which is the only one the poor
dear can give. Unless indeed,” she suggested,
“we simply retract we back out.”
I turned it over. “It’s
too late for that. Whether Mrs. Brash’s
peace is gone I can’t say. But Nina’s
is.”
“Yes, and there’s no way
to bring it back that won’t sacrifice her friend.
We can’t turn round and say Mrs. Brash is ugly,
can we? But fancy Nina’s not having seen!”
Mrs. Munden exclaimed.
“She doesn’t see now,”
I answered. “She can’t, I’m
certain, make out what we mean. The woman, for
her still, is just what she always was.
But she has nevertheless had her stroke, and her blindness,
while she wavers and gropes in the dark, only adds
to her discomfort. Her blow was to see the attention
of the world deviate.”
“All the same I don’t
think, you know,” my interlocutress said, “that
Nina will have made her a scene or that, whatever we
do, she’ll ever make her one. That isn’t
the way it will happen, for she’s exactly as
conscientious as Mrs. Brash.”
“Then what is the way?” I asked.
“It will just happen in silence.”
“And what will ‘it,’ as you call
it, be?”
“Isn’t that what we want really to see?”
“Well,” I replied after
a turn or two about, “whether we want it or not
it’s exactly what we shall see; which
is a reason the more for fancying, between the pair
there in the quiet exquisite house, and
full of superiorities and suppressions as they both
are the extraordinary situation.
If I said just now that it’s too late to do anything
but assent it’s because I’ve taken the
full measure of what happened at my studio.
It took but a few moments but she tasted
of the tree.”
My companion wondered. “Nina?”
“Mrs. Brash.” And
to have to put it so ministered, while I took yet
another turn, to a sort of agitation. Our attitude
was a responsibility.
But I had suggested something else
to my friend, who appeared for a moment detached.
“Should you say she’ll hate her worse
if she doesn’t see?”
“Lady Beldonald? Doesn’t
see what we see, you mean, than if she does?
Ah I give that up!” I laughed.
“But what I can tell you is why I hold that,
as I said just now, we can do most. We can do
this: we can give to a harmless and sensitive
creature hitherto practically disinherited and
give with an unexpectedness that will immensely add
to its price the pure joy of a deep draught
of the very pride of life, of an acclaimed personal
triumph in our superior sophisticated world.”
Mrs. Munden had a glow of response
for my sudden eloquence. Oh it will be beautiful!