People usually spend the first hours
of a voyage in squeezing themselves into their cabins,
taking their little precautions, either so excessive
or so inadequate, wondering how they can pass so many
days in such a hole and asking idiotic questions of
the stewards, who appear in comparison rare men of
the world. My own initiations were rapid, as
became an old sailor, and so, it seemed, were Miss
Mavis’s, for when I mounted to the deck at the
end of half an hour I found her there alone, in the
stern of the ship, her eyes on the dwindling continent.
It dwindled very fast for so big a place. I
accosted her, having had no conversation with her amid
the crowd of leave-takers and the muddle of farewells
before we put off; we talked a little about the boat,
our fellow-passengers and our prospects, and then
I said: “I think you mentioned last night
a name I know that of Mr. Porterfield.”
“Oh no I didn’t!”
she answered very straight while she smiled at me
through her closely-drawn veil.
“Then it was your mother.”
“Very likely it was my mother.”
And she continued to smile as if I ought to have
known the difference.
“I venture to allude to him
because I’ve an idea I used to know him,”
I went on.
“Oh I see.” And
beyond this remark she appeared to take no interest;
she left it to me to make any connexion.
“That is if it’s the same
one.” It struck me as feeble to say nothing
more; so I added “My Mr. Porterfield was called
David.”
“Well, so is ours.” “Ours”
affected me as clever.
“I suppose I shall see him again
if he’s to meet you at Liverpool,” I continued.
“Well, it will be bad if he doesn’t.”
It was too soon for me to have the
idea that it would be bad if he did: that only
came later. So I remarked that, not having seen
him for so many years, it was very possible I shouldn’t
know him.
“Well, I’ve not seen him
for a considerable time, but I expect I shall know
him all the same.”
“Oh with you it’s different,”
I returned with harmlessly bright significance.
“Hasn’t he been back since those days?”
“I don’t know,”
she sturdily professed, “what days you mean.”
“When I knew him in Paris ages
ago. He was a pupil of the Ecole des
Beaux Arts. He was studying architecture.”
“Well, he’s studying it still,”
said Grace Mavis.
“Hasn’t he learned it yet?”
“I don’t know what he
has learned. I shall see.” Then she
added for the benefit of my perhaps undue levity:
“Architecture’s very difficult and he’s
tremendously thorough.”
“Oh yes, I remember that.
He was an admirable worker. But he must have
become quite a foreigner if it’s so many years
since he has been at home.”
She seemed to regard this proposition
at first as complicated; but she did what she could
for me. “Oh he’s not changeable.
If he were changeable ”
Then, however, she paused. I
daresay she had been going to observe that if he were
changeable he would long ago have given her up.
After an instant she went on: “He wouldn’t
have stuck so to his profession. You can’t
make much by it.”
I sought to attenuate her rather odd
maidenly grimness. “It depends on what
you call much.”
“It doesn’t make you rich.”
“Oh of course you’ve got to practise it and
to practise it long.”
“Yes so Mr. Porterfield says.”
Something in the way she uttered these
words made me laugh they were so calm an
implication that the gentleman in question didn’t
live up to his principles. But I checked myself,
asking her if she expected to remain in Europe long to
what one might call settle.
“Well, it will be a good while
if it takes me as long to come back as it has taken
me to go out.”
“And I think your mother said
last night that it was your first visit.”
Miss Mavis, in her deliberate way,
met my eyes. “Didn’t mother talk!”
“It was all very interesting.”
She continued to look at me.
“You don’t think that,” she then
simply stated.
“What have I to gain then by saying it?”
“Oh men have always something to gain.”
“You make me in that case feel
a terrible failure! I hope at any rate that
it gives you pleasure,” I went on, “the
idea of seeing foreign lands.”
“Mercy I should think so!”
This was almost genial, and it cheered
me proportionately. “It’s a pity
our ship’s not one of the fast ones, if you’re
impatient.”
She was silent a little after which
she brought out: “Oh I guess it’ll
be fast enough!”
That evening I went in to see Mrs.
Nettlepoint and sat on her sea-trunk, which was pulled
out from under the berth to accommodate me. It
was nine o’clock but not quite dark, as our
northward course had already taken us into the latitude
of the longer days. She had made her nest admirably
and now rested from her labours; she lay upon her sofa
in a dressing-gown and a cap that became her.
It was her regular practice to spend the voyage in
her cabin, which smelt positively good such
was the refinement of her art; and she had a secret
peculiar to herself for keeping her port open without
shipping seas. She hated what she called the
mess of the ship and the idea, if she should go above,
of meeting stewards with plates of supererogatory
food. She professed to be content with her situation we
promised to lend each other books and I assured her
familiarly that I should be in and out of her room
a dozen times a day pitying me for having
to mingle in society. She judged this a limited
privilege, for on the deck before we left the wharf
she had taken a view of our fellow-passengers.
“Oh I’m an inveterate,
almost a professional observer,” I replied, “and
with that vice I’m as well occupied as an old
woman in the sun with her knitting. It makes
me, in any situation, just inordinately and submissively
see things. I shall see them even here
and shall come down very often and tell you about
them. You’re not interested today, but
you will be tomorrow, for a ship’s a great school
of gossip. You won’t believe the number
of researches and problems you’ll be engaged
in by the middle of the voyage.”
“I? Never in the world! lying
here with my nose in a book and not caring a straw.”
“You’ll participate at
second hand. You’ll see through my eyes,
hang upon my lips, take sides, feel passions, all
sorts of sympathies and indignations. I’ve
an idea,” I further developed, “that your
young lady’s the person on board who will interest
me most.”
“‘Mine’ indeed!
She hasn’t been near me since we left the dock.”
“There you are you
do feel she owes you something. Well,”
I added, “she’s very curious.”
“You’ve such cold-blooded
terms!” Mrs. Nettlepoint wailed. “Elle
ne sait pas se conduire; she ought
to have come to ask about me.”
“Yes, since you’re under
her care,” I laughed. “As for her
not knowing how to behave well, that’s
exactly what we shall see.”
“You will, but not I! I wash my hands
of her.”
“Don’t say that don’t
say that.”
Mrs. Nettlepoint looked at me a moment. “Why
do you speak so solemnly?”
In return I considered her.
“I’ll tell you before we land. And
have you seen much of your son?”
“Oh yes, he has come in several
times. He seems very much pleased. He
has got a cabin to himself.”
“That’s great luck,”
I said, “but I’ve an idea he’s always
in luck. I was sure I should have to offer him
the second berth in my room.”
“And you wouldn’t have
enjoyed that, because you don’t like him,”
she took upon herself to say.
“What put that into your head?”
“It isn’t in my head it’s
in my heart, my coeur de mere. We guess
those things. You think he’s selfish.
I could see it last night.”
“Dear lady,” I contrived
promptly enough to reply, “I’ve no general
ideas about him at all. He’s just one
of the phenomena I am going to observe. He seems
to me a very fine young man. However,”
I added, “since you’ve mentioned last
night I’ll admit that I thought he rather tantalised
you. He played with your suspense.”
“Why he came at the last just
to please me,” said Mrs. Nettlepoint.
I was silent a little. “Are
you sure it was for your sake?”
“Ah, perhaps it was for yours!”
I bore up, however, against this thrust,
characteristic of perfidious woman when you presume
to side with her against a fond tormentor. “When
he went out on the balcony with that girl,” I
found assurance to suggest, “perhaps she asked
him to come for hers.”
“Perhaps she did. But
why should he do everything she asks him such
as she is?”
“I don’t know yet, but
perhaps I shall know later. Not that he’ll
tell me for he’ll never tell me anything:
he’s not,” I consistently opined, “one
of those who tell.”
“If she didn’t ask him,
what you say is a great wrong to her,” said Mrs.
Nettlepoint.
“Yes, if she didn’t.
But you say that to protect Jasper not
to protect her,” I smiled.
“You are cold-blooded it’s
uncanny!” my friend exclaimed.
“Ah this is nothing yet!
Wait a while you’ll see. At
sea in general I’m awful I exceed
the limits. If I’ve outraged her in thought
I’ll jump overboard. There are ways of
asking a man doesn’t need to tell
a woman that without the crude words.”
“I don’t know what you
imagine between them,” said Mrs. Nettlepoint.
“Well, nothing,” I allowed,
“but what was visible on the surface. It
transpired, as the newspapers say, that they were old
friends.”
“He met her at some promiscuous
party I asked him about it afterwards.
She’s not a person” my hostess
was confident “whom he could ever
think of seriously.”
“That’s exactly what I believe.”
“You don’t observe you
know you imagine,” Mrs. Nettlepoint
continued to argue. “How do you reconcile
her laying a trap for Jasper with her going out to
Liverpool on an errand of love?”
Oh I wasn’t to be caught that
way! “I don’t for an instant suppose
she laid a trap; I believe she acted on the impulse
of the moment. She’s going out to Liverpool
on an errand of marriage; that’s not necessarily
the same thing as an errand of love, especially for
one who happens to have had a personal impression
of the gentleman she’s engaged to.”
“Well, there are certain decencies
which in such a situation the most abandoned of her
sex would still observe. You apparently judge
her capable on no evidence of
violating them.”
“Ah you don’t understand
the shades of things,” I returned. “Decencies
and violations, dear lady there’s
no need for such heavy artillery! I can perfectly
imagine that without the least immodesty she should
have said to Jasper on the balcony, in fact if not
in words: ’I’m in dreadful spirits,
but if you come I shall feel better, and that will
be pleasant for you too.’”
“And why is she in dreadful spirits?”
“She isn’t!” I replied, laughing.
My poor friend wondered. “What then is
she doing?”
“She’s walking with your son.”
Mrs. Nettlepoint for a moment said
nothing; then she treated me to another inconsequence.
“Ah she’s horrid!”
“No, she’s charming!” I protested.
“You mean she’s ’curious’?”
“Well, for me it’s the same thing!”
This led my friend of course to declare
once more that I was cold-blooded. On the afternoon
of the morrow we had another talk, and she told me
that in the morning Miss Mavis had paid her a long
visit. She knew nothing, poor creature, about
anything, but her intentions were good and she was
evidently in her own eyes conscientious and decorous.
And Mrs. Nettlepoint concluded these remarks with
the sigh “Unfortunate person!”
“You think she’s a good deal to be pitied
then?”
“Well, her story sounds dreary she
told me a good deal of it. She fell to talking
little by little and went from one thing to another.
She’s in that situation when a girl must
open herself to some woman.”
“Hasn’t she got Jasper?” I asked.
“He isn’t a woman. You strike me
as jealous of him,” my companion added.
“I daresay he thinks
so or will before the end. Ah no ah
no!” And I asked Mrs. Nettlepoint if our young
lady struck her as, very grossly, a flirt. She
gave me no answer, but went on to remark that she found
it odd and interesting to see the way a girl like
Grace Mavis resembled the girls of the kind she herself
knew better, the girls of “society,” at
the same time that she differed from them; and the
way the differences and resemblances were so mixed
up that on certain questions you couldn’t tell
where you’d find her. You’d think
she’d feel as you did because you had found
her feeling so, and then suddenly, in regard to some
other matter which was yet quite the same she’d
be utterly wanting. Mrs. Nettlepoint proceeded
to observe to such idle speculations does
the vacancy of sea-hours give encouragement that
she wondered whether it were better to be an ordinary
girl very well brought up or an extraordinary girl
not brought up at all.
“Oh I go in for the extraordinary girl under
all circumstances.”
“It’s true that if you’re
very well brought up you’re not, you can’t
be, ordinary,” said Mrs. Nettlepoint, smelling
her strong salts. “You’re a lady,
at any rate.”
“And Miss Mavis is fifty miles out is
that what you mean?”
“Well you’ve seen her mother.”
“Yes, but I think your contention
would be that among such people the mother doesn’t
count.”
“Precisely, and that’s bad.”
“I see what you mean.
But isn’t it rather hard? If your mother
doesn’t know anything it’s better you
should be independent of her, and yet if you are that
constitutes a bad note.” I added that Mrs.
Mavis had appeared to count sufficiently two nights
before. She had said and done everything she
wanted, while the girl sat silent and respectful.
Grace’s attitude, so far as her parent was
concerned, had been eminently decent.
“Yes, but she ‘squirmed’ for her,”
said Mrs. Nettlepoint.
“Ah if you know it I may confess she has told
me as much.”
My friend stared. “Told you?
There’s one of the things they do!”
“Well, it was only a word.
Won’t you let me know whether you do think
her a flirt?”
“Try her yourself that’s
better than asking another woman; especially as you
pretend to study folk.”
“Oh your judgement wouldn’t
probably at all determine mine. It’s as
bearing on you I ask it.” Which,
however, demanded explanation, so that I was duly
frank; confessing myself curious as to how far maternal
immorality would go.
It made her at first but repeat my
words. “Maternal immorality?”
“You desire your son to have
every possible distraction on his voyage, and if you
can make up your mind in the sense I refer to that
will make it all right. He’ll have no
responsibility.”
“Heavens, how you analyse!”
she cried. “I haven’t in the least
your passion for making up my mind.”
“Then if you chance it,”
I returned, “you’ll be more immoral still.”
“Your reasoning’s strange,”
said Mrs. Nettlepoint; “when it was you who
tried to put into my head yesterday that she had asked
him to come.”
“Yes, but in good faith.”
“What do you mean, in such a case, by that?”
“Why, as girls of that sort
do. Their allowance and measure in such matters,”
I expounded, “is much larger than that of young
persons who have been, as you say, very well
brought up; and yet I’m not sure that on the
whole I don’t think them thereby the more innocent.
Miss Mavis is engaged, and she’s to be married
next week, but it’s an old old story, and there’s
no more romance in it than if she were going to be
photographed. So her usual life proceeds, and
her usual life consists and that of ces
demoiselles in general in having plenty
of gentlemen’s society. Having it I mean
without having any harm from it.”
Mrs. Nettlepoint had given me due
attention. “Well, if there’s no harm
from it what are you talking about and why am I immoral?”
I hesitated, laughing. “I
retract you’re sane and clear.
I’m sure she thinks there won’t be any
harm,” I added. “That’s the
great point.”
“The great point?”
“To be settled, I mean.”
“Mercy, we’re not trying
them!” cried my friend. “How can
we settle it?”
“I mean of course in our minds.
There will be nothing more interesting these next
ten days for our minds to exercise themselves upon.”
“Then they’ll get terribly
tired of it,” said Mrs. Nettlepoint.
“No, no because the
interest will increase and the plot will thicken.
It simply can’t not,” I insisted.
She looked at me as if she thought me more than Mephistophelean,
and I went back to something she had lately mentioned.
“So she told you everything in her life was
dreary?”
“Not everything, but most things.
And she didn’t tell me so much as I guessed
it. She’ll tell me more the next time.
She’ll behave properly now about coming in
to see me; I told her she ought to.”
“I’m glad of that,”
I said. “Keep her with you as much as possible.”
“I don’t follow you closely,”
Mrs. Nettlepoint replied, “but so far as I do
I don’t think your remarks in the best taste.”
“Well, I’m too excited,
I lose my head in these sports,” I had to recognise “cold-blooded
as you think me. Doesn’t she like Mr.
Porterfield?”
“Yes, that’s the worst of it.”
I kept making her stare. “The worst of
it?”
“He’s so good there’s
no fault to be found with him. Otherwise she’d
have thrown it all up. It has dragged on since
she was eighteen: she became engaged to him before
he went abroad to study. It was one of those
very young and perfectly needless blunders that parents
in America might make so much less possible than they
do. The thing is to insist on one’s daughter
waiting, on the engagement’s being long; and
then, after you’ve got that started, to take
it on every occasion as little seriously as possible to
make it die out. You can easily tire it to death,”
Mrs. Nettlepoint competently stated. “However,”
she concluded, “Mr. Porterfield has taken this
one seriously for some years. He has done his
part to keep it alive. She says he adores her.”
“His part? Surely his part would have
been to marry her by this time.”
“He has really no money.”
My friend was even more confidently able to report
it than I had been.
“He ought to have got some, in seven years,”
I audibly reflected.
“So I think she thinks.
There are some sorts of helplessness that are contemptible.
However, a small difference has taken place.
That’s why he won’t wait any longer.
His mother has come out, she has something a
little and she’s able to assist him.
She’ll live with them and bear some of the
expenses, and after her death the son will have what
there is.”
“How old is she?” I cynically asked.
“I haven’t the least idea.
But it doesn’t, on his part, sound very heroic or
very inspiring for our friend here. He hasn’t
been to America since he first went out.”
“That’s an odd way of adoring her,”
I observed.
“I made that objection mentally,
but I didn’t express it to her. She met
it indeed a little by telling me that he had had other
chances to marry.”
“That surprises me,” I
remarked. “But did she say,” I asked,
“that she had had?”
“No, and that’s one of
the things I thought nice in her; for she must have
had. She didn’t try to make out that he
had spoiled her life. She has three other sisters
and there’s very little money at home.
She has tried to make money; she has written little
things and painted little things and dreadful
little things they must have been; too bad to think
of. Her father has had a long illness and has
lost his place he was in receipt of a salary
in connexion with some waterworks and one
of her sisters has lately become a widow, with children
and without means. And so as in fact she never
has married any one else, whatever opportunities she
may have encountered, she appears to have just made
up her mind to go out to Mr. Porterfield as the least
of her evils. But it isn’t very amusing.”
“Well,” I judged after
all, “that only makes her doing it the more
honourable. She’ll go through with it,
whatever it costs, rather than disappoint him after
he has waited so long. It’s true,”
I continued, “that when a woman acts from a
sense of honour !”
“Well, when she does?”
said Mrs. Nettlepoint, for I hung back perceptibly.
“It’s often so extravagant
and unnatural a proceeding as to entail heavy costs
on some one.”
“You’re very impertinent.
We all have to pay for each other all the while and
for each other’s virtues as well as vices.”
“That’s precisely why
I shall be sorry for Mr. Porterfield when she steps
off the ship with her little bill. I mean with
her teeth clenched.”
“Her teeth are not in the least
clenched. She’s quite at her ease now” Mrs.
Nettlepoint could answer for that.
“Well, we must try and keep her so,” I
said.
“You must take care that Jasper
neglects nothing.” I scarce know what
réflexions this innocent pleasantry of mine provoked
on the good lady’s part; the upshot of them
at all events was to make her say: “Well,
I never asked her to come; I’m very glad of
that. It’s all their own doing.”
“‘Their’ own you mean
Jasper’s and hers?”
“No indeed. I mean her
mother’s and Mrs. Allen’s; the girl’s
too of course. They put themselves on us by
main force.”
“Oh yes, I can testify to that.
Therefore I’m glad too. We should have
missed it, I think.”
“How seriously you take it!”
Mrs. Nettlepoint amusedly cried.
“Ah wait a few days!” and I
got up to leave her.