The Patagonia was slow, but
spacious and comfortable, and there was a motherly
decency in her long nursing rock and her rustling old-fashioned
gait, the multitudinous swish, in her wake, as of a
thousand proper petticoats. It was as if she
wished not to present herself in port with the splashed
eagerness of a young creature. We weren’t
numerous enough quite to elbow each other and yet
weren’t too few to support with that
familiarity and relief which figures and objects acquire
on the great bare field of the ocean and under the
great bright glass of the sky. I had never liked
the sea so much before, indeed I had never liked it
at all; but now I had a revelation of how in a midsummer
mood it could please. It was darkly and magnificently
blue and imperturbably quiet save for the
great regular swell of its heartbeats, the pulse of
its life; and there grew to be something so agreeable
in the sense of floating there in infinite isolation
and leisure that it was a positive godsend the Patagonia
was no racer. One had never thought of the sea
as the great place of safety, but now it came over
one that there’s no place so safe from the land.
When it doesn’t confer trouble it takes trouble
away takes away letters and telegrams and
newspapers and visits and duties and efforts, all
the complications, all the superfluities and superstitions
that we have stuffed into our terrene life. The
simple absence of the post, when the particular conditions
enable you to enjoy the great fact by which it’s
produced, becomes in itself a positive bliss, and
the clean boards of the deck turn to the stage of a
play that amuses, the personal drama of the voyage,
the movement and interaction, in the strong sea-light,
of figures that end by representing something something
moreover of which the interest is never, even in its
keenness, too great to suffer you to slumber.
I at any rate dozed to excess, stretched on my rug
with a French novel, and when I opened my eyes I generally
saw Jasper Nettlepoint pass with the young woman confided
to his mother’s care on his arm. Somehow
at these moments, between sleeping and waking, I inconsequently
felt that my French novel had set them in motion.
Perhaps this was because I had fallen into the trick,
at the start, of regarding Grace Mavis almost as a
married woman, which, as every one knows, is the necessary
status of the heroine of such a work. Every
revolution of our engine at any rate would contribute
to the effect of making her one.
In the saloon, at meals, my neighbour
on the right was a certain little Mrs. Peck, a very
short and very round person whose head was enveloped
in a “cloud” (a cloud of dirty white wool)
and who promptly let me know that she was going to
Europe for the education of her children. I had
already perceived an hour after we left
the dock that some energetic measure was
required in their interest, but as we were not in Europe
yet the redemption of the four little Pecks was stayed.
Enjoying untrammelled leisure they swarmed about
the ship as if they had been pirates boarding her,
and their mother was as powerless to check their licence
as if she had been gagged and stowed away in the hold.
They were especially to be trusted to dive between
the legs of the stewards when these attendants arrived
with bowls of soup for the languid ladies. Their
mother was too busy counting over to her fellow-passengers
all the years Miss Mavis had been engaged. In
the blank of our common detachment things that were
nobody’s business very soon became everybody’s,
and this was just one of those facts that are propagated
with mysterious and ridiculous speed. The whisper
that carries them is very small, in the great scale
of things, of air and space and progress, but it’s
also very safe, for there’s no compression,
no sounding-board, to make speakers responsible.
And then repetition at sea is somehow not repetition;
monotony is in the air, the mind is flat and everything
recurs the bells, the meals, the stewards’
faces, the romp of children, the walk, the clothes,
the very shoes and buttons of passengers taking their
exercise. These things finally grow at once
so circumstantial and so arid that, in comparison,
lights on the personal history of one’s companions
become a substitute for the friendly flicker of the
lost fireside.
Jasper Nettlepoint sat on my left
hand when he was not upstairs seeing that Miss Mavis
had her repast comfortably on deck. His mother’s
place would have been next mine had she shown herself,
and then that of the young lady under her care.
These companions, in other words, would have been
between us, Jasper marking the limit of the party in
that quarter. Miss Mavis was present at luncheon
the first day, but dinner passed without her coming
in, and when it was half over Jasper remarked that
he would go up and look after her.
“Isn’t that young lady
coming the one who was here to lunch?”
Mrs. Peck asked of me as he left the saloon.
“Apparently not. My friend
tells me she doesn’t like the saloon.”
“You don’t mean to say she’s sick,
do you?”
“Oh no, not in this weather. But she likes
to be above.”
“And is that gentleman gone up to her?”
“Yes, she’s under his mother’s care.”
“And is his mother up there,
too?” asked Mrs. Peck, whose processes were
homely and direct.
“No, she remains in her cabin.
People have different tastes. Perhaps that’s
one reason why Miss Mavis doesn’t come to table,”
I added “her chaperon not being able
to accompany her.”
“Her chaperon?” my fellow passenger echoed.
“Mrs. Nettlepoint the lady under
whose protection she happens to be.”
“Protection?” Mrs. Peck
stared at me a moment, moving some valued morsel in
her mouth; then she exclaimed familiarly “Pshaw!”
I was struck with this and was on the point of asking
her what she meant by it when she continued:
“Ain’t we going to see Mrs. Nettlepoint?”
“I’m afraid not. She vows she won’t
stir from her sofa.”
“Pshaw!” said Mrs. Peck again. “That’s
quite a disappointment.”
“Do you know her then?”
“No, but I know all about her.”
Then my companion added: “You don’t
mean to say she’s any real relation?”
“Do you mean to me?”
“No, to Grace Mavis.”
“None at all. They’re
very new friends, as I happen to know. Then
you’re acquainted with our young lady?”
I hadn’t noticed the passage of any recognition
between them at luncheon.
“Is she your young lady too?” asked Mrs.
Peck with high significance.
“Ah when people are in the same
boat literally they belong a
little to each other.”
“That’s so,” said
Mrs. Peck. “I don’t know Miss Mavis,
but I know all about her I live opposite
to her on Merrimac Avenue. I don’t know
whether you know that part.”
“Oh yes it’s very beautiful.”
The consequence of this remark was
another “Pshaw!” But Mrs. Peck went on:
“When you’ve lived opposite to people like
that for a long time you feel as if you had some rights
in them tit for tat! But she didn’t
take it up today; she didn’t speak to me.
She knows who I am as well as she knows her own mother.”
“You had better speak to her
first she’s constitutionally shy,”
I remarked.
“Shy? She’s constitutionally
tough! Why she’s thirty years old,”
cried my neighbour. “I suppose you know
where she’s going.”
“Oh yes we all take an interest in
that.”
“That young man, I suppose,
particularly.” And then as I feigned a
vagueness: “The handsome one who sits there.
Didn’t you tell me he’s Mrs. Nettlepoint’s
son?”
“Oh yes he acts as
her deputy. No doubt he does all he can to carry
out her function.”
Mrs. Peck briefly brooded. I
had spoken jocosely, but she took it with a serious
face. “Well, she might let him eat his
dinner in peace!” she presently put forth.
“Oh he’ll come back!”
I said, glancing at his place. The repast continued
and when it was finished I screwed my chair round to
leave the table. Mrs. Peck performed the same
movement and we quitted the saloon together.
Outside of it was the usual vestibule, with several
seats, from which you could descend to the lower cabins
or mount to the promenade-deck. Mrs. Peck appeared
to hesitate as to her course and then solved the problem
by going neither way. She dropped on one of the
benches and looked up at me.
“I thought you said he’d come back.”
“Young Nettlepoint? Yes,
I see he didn’t. Miss Mavis then has given
him half her dinner.”
“It’s very kind of her!
She has been engaged half her life.”
“Yes, but that will soon be over.”
“So I suppose as
quick as ever we land. Every one knows it on
Merrimac Avenue,” Mrs. Peck pursued. “Every
one there takes a great interest in it.”
“Ah of course a girl like that has
many friends.”
But my informant discriminated. “I mean
even people who don’t know her.”
“I see,” I went on:
“she’s so handsome that she attracts attention people
enter into her affairs.”
Mrs. Peck spoke as from the commanding
centre of these. “She used to be
pretty, but I can’t say I think she’s anything
remarkable today. Anyhow, if she attracts attention
she ought to be all the more careful what she does.
You had better tell her that.”
“Oh it’s none of my business!”
I easily made out, leaving the terrible little woman
and going above. This profession, I grant, was
not perfectly attuned to my real idea, or rather my
real idea was not quite in harmony with my profession.
The very first thing I did on reaching the deck was
to notice that Miss Mavis was pacing it on Jasper
Nettlepoint’s arm and that whatever beauty she
might have lost, according to Mrs. Peck’s insinuation,
she still kept enough to make one’s eyes follow
her. She had put on a crimson hood, which was
very becoming to her and which she wore for the rest
of the voyage. She walked very well, with long
steps, and I remember that at this moment the sea had
a gentle evening swell which made the great ship dip
slowly, rhythmically, giving a movement that was graceful
to graceful pedestrians and a more awkward one to
the awkward. It was the loveliest hour of a fine
day, the clear early evening, with the glow of the
sunset in the air and a purple colour on the deep.
It was always present to me that so the waters ploughed
by the Homeric heroes must have looked. I became
conscious on this particular occasion moreover that
Grace Mavis would for the rest of the voyage be the
most visible thing in one’s range, the figure
that would count most in the composition of groups.
She couldn’t help it, poor girl; nature had
made her conspicuous important, as the painters
say. She paid for it by the corresponding exposure,
the danger that people would, as I had said to Mrs.
Peck, enter into her affairs.
Jasper Nettlepoint went down at certain
times to see his mother, and I watched for one of
these occasions on the third day out and
took advantage of it to go and sit by Miss Mavis.
She wore a light blue veil drawn tightly over her
face, so that if the smile with which she greeted
me rather lacked intensity I could account for it partly
by that.
“Well, we’re getting on we’re
getting on,” I said cheerfully, looking at the
friendly twinkling sea.
“Are we going very fast?”
“Not fast, but steadily. Ohne Hast, ohne
Rast do you know German?”
“Well, I’ve studied it some.”
“It will be useful to you over there when you
travel.”
“Well yes, if we do. But
I don’t suppose we shall much. Mr. Nettlepoint
says we ought,” my young woman added in a moment.
“Ah of course he thinks so. He
has been all over the world.”
“Yes, he has described some
of the places. They must be wonderful.
I didn’t know I should like it so much.”
“But it isn’t ‘Europe’ yet!”
I laughed.
Well, she didn’t care if it
wasn’t. “I mean going on this way.
I could go on for ever for ever and ever.”
“Ah you know it’s not always like this,”
I hastened to mention.
“Well, it’s better than Boston.”
“It isn’t so good as Paris,” I still
more portentously noted.
“Oh I know all about Paris.
There’s no freshness in that. I feel as
if I had been there all the time.”
“You mean you’ve heard so much of it?”
“Oh yes, nothing else for ten years.”
I had come to talk with Miss Mavis
because she was attractive, but I had been rather
conscious of the absence of a good topic, not feeling
at liberty to revert to Mr. Porterfield. She
hadn’t encouraged me, when I spoke to her as
we were leaving Boston, to go on with the history of
my acquaintance with this gentleman; and yet now,
unexpectedly, she appeared to imply it
was doubtless one of the disparities mentioned by Mrs.
Nettlepoint that he might be glanced at
without indelicacy.
“I see you mean by letters,”
I remarked.
“We won’t live in a good part. I
know enough to know that,” she went on.
“Well, it isn’t as if
there were any very bad ones,” I answered reassuringly.
“Why Mr. Nettlepoint says it’s regular
mean.”
“And to what does he apply that expression?”
She eyed me a moment as if I were
elegant at her expense, but she answered my question.
“Up there in the Batignolles. I seem to
make out it’s worse than Merrimac Avenue.”
“Worse in what way?”
“Why, even less where the nice people live.”
“He oughtn’t to say that,”
I returned. And I ventured to back it up.
“Don’t you call Mr. Porterfield a nice
person?”
“Oh it doesn’t make any
difference.” She watched me again a moment
through her veil, the texture of which gave her look
a suffused prettiness. “Do you know him
very little?” she asked.
“Mr. Porterfield?”
“No, Mr. Nettlepoint.”
“Ah very little. He’s very considerably
my junior, you see.”
She had a fresh pause, as if almost
again for my elegance; but she went on: “He’s
younger than me too.” I don’t know
what effect of the comic there could have been in
it, but the turn was unexpected and it made me laugh.
Neither do I know whether Miss Mavis took offence
at my sensibility on this head, though I remember
thinking at the moment with compunction that it had
brought a flush to her cheek. At all events she
got up, gathering her shawl and her books into her
arm. “I’m going down I’m
tired.”
“Tired of me, I’m afraid.”
“No, not yet.”
“I’m like you,” I confessed.
“I should like it to go on and on.”
She had begun to walk along the deck
to the companionway and I went with her. “Well,
I guess I wouldn’t, after all!”
I had taken her shawl from her to
carry it, but at the top of the steps that led down
to the cabins I had to give it back. “Your
mother would be glad if she could know,” I observed
as we parted.
But she was proof against my graces. “If
she could know what?”
“How well you’re getting
on.” I refused to be discouraged.
“And that good Mrs. Allen.”
“Oh mother, mother! She
made me come, she pushed me off.” And almost
as if not to say more she went quickly below.
I paid Mrs. Nettlepoint a morning
visit after luncheon and another in the evening, before
she “turned in.” That same day, in
the evening, she said to me suddenly: “Do
you know what I’ve done? I’ve asked
Jasper.”
“Asked him what?”
“Why, if she asked him, you understand.”
I wondered. “Do I understand?”
“If you don’t it’s
because you ‘regular’ won’t, as she
says. If that girl really asked him on
the balcony to sail with us.”
“My dear lady, do you suppose that if she did
he’d tell you?”
She had to recognise my acuteness.
“That’s just what he says. But he
says she didn’t.”
“And do you consider the statement
valuable?” I asked, laughing out. “You
had better ask your young friend herself.”
Mrs. Nettlepoint stared. “I couldn’t
do that.”
On which I was the more amused that
I had to explain I was only amused. “What
does it signify now?”
“I thought you thought everything
signified. You were so full,” she cried,
“of signification!”
“Yes, but we’re further
out now, and somehow in mid-ocean everything becomes
absolute.”
“What else can he do
with decency?” Mrs. Nettlepoint went on.
“If, as my son, he were never to speak to her
it would be very rude and you’d think that stranger
still. Then you would do what he does,
and where would be the difference?”
“How do you know what he does?
I haven’t mentioned him for twenty-four hours.”
“Why, she told me herself. She came in
this afternoon.”
“What an odd thing to tell you!” I commented.
“Not as she says it. She
says he’s full of attention, perfectly devoted looks
after her all the time. She seems to want me
to know it, so that I may approve him for it.”
“That’s charming; it shows her good conscience.”
“Yes, or her great cleverness.”
Something in the tone in which Mrs.
Nettlepoint said this caused me to return in real
surprise: “Why what do you suppose she has
in her mind?”
“To get hold of him, to make
him go so far he can’t retreat. To marry
him perhaps.”
“To marry him? And what
will she do with Mr. Porterfield?”
“She’ll ask me just to
make it all right to him or perhaps you.”
“Yes, as an old friend” and
for a moment I felt it awkwardly possible. But
I put to her seriously: “Do you see
Jasper caught like that?”
“Well, he’s only a boy he’s
younger at least than she.”
“Precisely; she regards him
as a child. She remarked to me herself today,
that is, that he’s so much younger.”
Mrs. Nettlepoint took this in.
“Does she talk of it with you? That shows
she has a plan, that she has thought it over!”
I’ve sufficiently expressed for
the interest of my anecdote that I found
an oddity in one of our young companions, but I was
far from judging her capable of laying a trap for
the other. Moreover my reading of Jasper wasn’t
in the least that he was catchable could
be made to do a thing if he didn’t want to do
it. Of course it wasn’t impossible that
he might be inclined, that he might take it or
already have taken it into his head to
go further with his mother’s charge; but to believe
this I should require still more proof than his always
being with her. He wanted at most to “take
up with her” for the voyage. “If you’ve
questioned him perhaps you’ve tried to make him
feel responsible,” I said to my fellow critic.
“A little, but it’s very
difficult. Interference makes him perverse.
One has to go gently. Besides, it’s too
absurd think of her age. If she can’t
take care of herself!” cried Mrs. Nettlepoint.
“Yes, let us keep thinking of
her age, though it’s not so prodigious.
And if things get very bad you’ve one resource
left,” I added.
She wondered. “To lock her up in her cabin?”
“No to come out of yours.”
“Ah never, never! If it
takes that to save her she must be lost. Besides,
what good would it do? If I were to go above
she could come below.”
“Yes, but you could keep Jasper with you.”
“Could I?” Mrs.
Nettlepoint demanded in the manner of a woman who knew
her son.
In the saloon the next day, after
dinner, over the red cloth of the tables, beneath
the swinging lamps and the racks of tumblers, decanters
and wine-glasses, we sat down to whist, Mrs. Peck,
to oblige, taking a hand in the game. She played
very badly and talked too much, and when the rubber
was over assuaged her discomfiture (though not mine we
had been partners) with a Welsh rabbit and a tumbler
of something hot. We had done with the cards,
but while she waited for this refreshment she sat
with her elbows on the table shuffling a pack.
“She hasn’t spoken to
me yet she won’t do it,” she
remarked in a moment.
“Is it possible there’s
any one on the ship who hasn’t spoken to you?”
“Not that girl she
knows too well!” Mrs. Peck looked round our little
circle with a smile of intelligence she
had familiar communicative eyes. Several of our
company had assembled, according to the wont, the last
thing in the evening, of those who are cheerful at
sea, for the consumption of grilled sardines and devilled
bones.
“What then does she know?”
“Oh she knows I know.”
“Well, we know what Mrs. Peck
knows,” one of the ladies of the group observed
to me with an air of privilege.
“Well, you wouldn’t know
if I hadn’t told you from the way
she acts,” said our friend with a laugh of small
charm.
“She’s going out to a
gentleman who lives over there he’s
waiting there to marry her,” the other lady
went on, in the tone of authentic information.
I remember that her name was Mrs. Gotch and that her
mouth looked always as if she were whistling.
“Oh he knows I’ve told him,”
said Mrs. Peck.
“Well, I presume every one knows,” Mrs.
Gotch contributed.
“Dear madam, is it every one’s business?”
I asked.
“Why, don’t you think
it’s a peculiar way to act?” and
Mrs. Gotch was evidently surprised at my little protest.
“Why it’s right there straight
in front of you, like a play at the theatre as
if you had paid to see it,” said Mrs. Peck.
“If you don’t call it public!”
“Aren’t you mixing things up? What
do you call public?”
“Why the way they go on. They’re
up there now.”
“They cuddle up there half the
night,” said Mrs. Gotch. “I don’t
know when they come down. Any hour they like.
When all the lights are out they’re up there
still.”
“Oh you can’t tire them
out. They don’t want relief like
the ship’s watch!” laughed one of the
gentlemen.
“Well, if they enjoy each other’s
society what’s the harm?” another asked.
“They’d do just the same on land.”
“They wouldn’t do it on
the public streets, I presume,” said Mrs. Peck.
“And they wouldn’t do it if Mr. Porterfield
was round!”
“Isn’t that just where
your confusion comes in?” I made answer.
“It’s public enough that Miss Mavis and
Mr. Nettlepoint are always together, but it isn’t
in the least public that she’s going to be married.”
“Why how can you say when
the very sailors know it! The Captain knows
it and all the officers know it. They see them
there, especially at night, when they’re sailing
the ship.”
“I thought there was some rule !”
submitted Mrs. Gotch.
“Well, there is that
you’ve got to behave yourself,” Mrs. Peck
explained. “So the Captain told me he
said they have some rule. He said they have
to have, when people are too undignified.”
“Is that the term he used?” I inquired.
“Well, he may have said when they attract too
much attention.”
I ventured to discriminate.
“It’s we who attract the attention by
talking about what doesn’t concern us and about
what we really don’t know.”
“She said the Captain said he’d
tell on her as soon as ever we arrive,” Mrs.
Gotch none the less serenely pursued.
“She said ?” I repeated,
bewildered.
“Well, he did say so, that he’d
think it his duty to inform Mr. Porterfield when he
comes on to meet her if they keep it up
in the same way,” said Mrs. Peck.
“Oh they’ll keep it up,
don’t you fear!” one of the gentlemen exclaimed.
“Dear madam, the Captain’s
having his joke on you,” was, however, my own
congruous reply.
“No, he ain’t he’s
right down scandalised. He says he regards us
all as a real family and wants the family not to be
downright coarse.” I felt Mrs. Peck irritated
by my controversial tone: she challenged me with
considerable spirit. “How can you say I
don’t know it when all the street knows it and
has known it for years for years and years?”
She spoke as if the girl had been engaged at least
for twenty. “What’s she going out
for if not to marry him?”
“Perhaps she’s going to
see how he looks,” suggested one of the gentlemen.
“He’d look queer if he knew.”
“Well, I guess he’ll know,” said
Mrs. Gotch.
“She’d tell him herself she
wouldn’t be afraid,” the gentleman went
on.
“Well she might as well kill
him. He’ll jump overboard,” Mrs.
Peck could foretell.
“Jump overboard?” cried
Mrs. Gotch as if she hoped then that Mr. Porterfield
would be told.
“He has just been waiting for
this for long, long years,” said Mrs.
Peck.
“Do you happen to know him?” I asked.
She replied at her convenience.
“No, but I know a lady who does. Are
you going up?”
I had risen from my place I
had not ordered supper. “I’m going
to take a turn before going to bed.”
“Well then you’ll see!”
Outside the saloon I hesitated, for
Mrs. Peck’s admonition made me feel for a moment
that if I went up I should have entered in a manner
into her little conspiracy. But the night was
so warm and splendid that I had been intending to
smoke a cigar in the air before going below, and I
didn’t see why I should deprive myself of this
pleasure in order to seem not to mind Mrs. Peck.
I mounted accordingly and saw a few figures sitting
or moving about in the darkness. The ocean looked
black and small, as it is apt to do at night, and
the long mass of the ship, with its vague dim wings,
seemed to take up a great part of it. There were
more stars than one saw on land and the heavens struck
one more than ever as larger than the earth.
Grace Mavis and her companion were not, so far as
I perceived at first, among the few passengers who
lingered late, and I was glad, because I hated to
hear her talked about in the manner of the gossips
I had left at supper. I wished there had been
some way to prevent it, but I could think of none
but to recommend her privately to reconsider her rule
of discretion. That would be a very delicate
business, and perhaps it would be better to begin with
Jasper, though that would be delicate too. At
any rate one might let him know, in a friendly spirit,
to how much remark he exposed the young lady leaving
this revelation to work its way upon him. Unfortunately
I couldn’t altogether believe that the pair
were unconscious of the observation and the opinion
of the passengers. They weren’t boy and
girl; they had a certain social perspective in their
eye. I was meanwhile at any rate in no possession
of the details of that behaviour which had made them according
to the version of my good friends in the saloon a
scandal to the ship; for though I had taken due note
of them, as will already have been gathered, I had
taken really no such ferocious, or at least such competent,
note as Mrs. Peck. Nevertheless the probability
was that they knew what was thought of them what
naturally would be and simply didn’t
care. That made our heroine out rather perverse
and even rather shameless; and yet somehow if these
were her leanings I didn’t dislike her for them.
I don’t know what strange secret excuses I found
for her. I presently indeed encountered, on the
spot, a need for any I might have at call, since,
just as I was on the point of going below again, after
several restless turns and within the limit
where smoking was allowed as many puffs
at a cigar as I cared for, I became aware of a couple
of figures settled together behind one of the lifeboats
that rested on the deck. They were so placed
as to be visible only to a person going close to the
rail and peering a little sidewise. I don’t
think I peered, but as I stood a moment beside the
rail my eye was attracted by a dusky object that protruded
beyond the boat and that I saw at a second glance
to be the tail of a lady’s dress. I bent
forward an instant, but even then I saw very little
more; that scarcely mattered however, as I easily
concluded that the persons tucked away in so snug a
corner were Jasper Nettlepoint and Mr. Porterfield’s
intended. Tucked away was the odious right expression,
and I deplored the fact so betrayed for the pitiful
bad taste in it. I immediately turned away, and
the next moment found myself face to face with our
vessel’s skipper. I had already had some
conversation with him he had been so good
as to invite me, as he had invited Mrs. Nettlepoint
and her son and the young lady travelling with them,
and also Mrs. Peck, to sit at his table and
had observed with pleasure that his seamanship had
the grace, not universal on the Atlantic liners, of
a fine-weather manner.
“They don’t waste much
time your friends in there,” he said,
nodding in the direction in which he had seen me looking.
“Ah well, they haven’t much to lose.”
“That’s what I mean. I’m told
she hasn’t.”
I wanted to say something exculpatory,
but scarcely knew what note to strike. I could
only look vaguely about me at the starry darkness and
the sea that seemed to sleep. “Well, with
these splendid nights and this perfect air people
are beguiled into late hours.”
“Yes, we want a bit of a blow,” the Captain
said.
I demurred. “How much of one?”
“Enough to clear the decks!”
He was after all rather dry and he
went about his business. He had made me uneasy,
and instead of going below I took a few turns more.
The other walkers dropped off pair by pair they
were all men till at last I was alone.
Then after a little I quitted the field. Jasper
and his companion were still behind their lifeboat.
Personally I greatly preferred our actual conditions,
but as I went down I found myself vaguely wishing,
in the interest of I scarcely knew what, unless it
had been a mere superstitious delicacy, that we might
have half a gale.
Miss Mavis turned out, in sea-phrase,
early; for the next morning I saw her come up only
a short time after I had finished my breakfast, a
ceremony over which I contrived not to dawdle.
She was alone and Jasper Nettlepoint, by a rare accident,
was not on deck to help her. I went to meet
her she was encumbered as usual with her
shawl, her sun-umbrella and a book and
laid my hands on her chair, placing it near the stern
of the ship, where she liked best to be. But
I proposed to her to walk a little before she sat
down, and she took my arm after I had put her accessories
into the chair. The deck was clear at that hour
and the morning light gay; one had an extravagant
sense of good omens and propitious airs. I forget
what we spoke of first, but it was because I felt
these things pleasantly; and not to torment my companion
nor to test her, that I couldn’t help exclaiming
cheerfully after a moment, as I have mentioned having
done the first day: “Well, we’re getting
on, we’re getting on!”
“Oh yes, I count every hour.”
“The last days always go quicker,” I said,
“and the last hours !”
“Well, the last hours?”
she asked; for I had instinctively checked myself.
“Oh one’s so glad then
that it’s almost the same as if one had arrived.
Yet we ought to be grateful when the elements have
been so kind to us,” I added. “I
hope you’ll have enjoyed the voyage.”
She hesitated ever so little.
“Yes, much more than I expected.”
“Did you think it would be very bad?”
“Horrible, horrible!”
The tone of these words was strange,
but I hadn’t much time to reflect upon it, for
turning round at that moment I saw Jasper Nettlepoint
come toward us. He was still distant by the
expanse of the white deck, and I couldn’t help
taking him in from head to foot as he drew nearer.
I don’t know what rendered me on this occasion
particularly sensitive to the impression, but it struck
me that I saw him as I had never seen him before,
saw him, thanks to the intense sea-light, inside and
out, in his personal, his moral totality. It
was a quick, a vivid revelation; if it only lasted
a moment it had a simplifying certifying effect.
He was intrinsically a pleasing apparition, with
his handsome young face and that marked absence of
any drop in his personal arrangements which, more
than any one I’ve ever seen, he managed to exhibit
on shipboard. He had none of the appearance
of wearing out old clothes that usually prevails there,
but dressed quite straight, as I heard some one say.
This gave him an assured, almost a triumphant air,
as of a young man who would come best out of any awkwardness.
I expected to feel my companion’s hand loosen
itself on my arm, as an indication that now she must
go to him, and I was almost surprised she didn’t
drop me. We stopped as we met and Jasper bade
us a friendly good-morning. Of course the remark
that we had another lovely day was already indicated,
and it led him to exclaim, in the manner of one to
whom criticism came easily, “Yes, but with this
sort of thing consider what one of the others would
do!”
“One of the other ships?”
“We should be there now, or at any rate tomorrow.”
“Well then I’m glad it
isn’t one of the others” and
I smiled at the young lady on my arm. My words
offered her a chance to say something appreciative,
and gave him one even more; but neither Jasper nor
Grace Mavis took advantage of the occasion.
What they did do, I noticed, was to look at each other
rather fixedly an instant; after which she turned
her eyes silently to the sea. She made no movement
and uttered no sound, contriving to give me the sense
that she had all at once become perfectly passive,
that she somehow declined responsibility. We
remained standing there with Jasper in front of us,
and if the contact of her arm didn’t suggest
I should give her up, neither did it intimate that
we had better pass on. I had no idea of giving
her up, albeit one of the things I seemed to read
just then into Jasper’s countenance was a fine
implication that she was his property. His eyes
met mine for a moment, and it was exactly as if he
had said to me “I know what you think, but I
don’t care a rap.” What I really
thought was that he was selfish beyond the limits:
that was the substance of my little revelation.
Youth is almost always selfish, just as it is almost
always conceited, and, after all, when it’s
combined with health and good parts, good looks and
good spirits, it has a right to be, and I easily forgive
it if it be really youth. Still it’s a
question of degree, and what stuck out of Jasper Nettlepoint if,
of course, one had the intelligence for it was
that his egotism had a hardness, his love of his own
way an avidity. These elements were jaunty and
prosperous, they were accustomed to prevail.
He was fond, very fond, of women; they were necessary
to him that was in his type; but he wasn’t
in the least in love with Grace Mavis. Among
the réflexions I quickly made this was the one
that was most to the point. There was a degree
of awkwardness, after a minute, in the way we were
planted there, though the apprehension of it was doubtless
not in the least with himself. To dissimulate
my own share in it, at any rate, I asked him how his
mother might be.
His answer was unexpected. “You had better
go down and see.”
“Not till Miss Mavis is tired of me.”
She said nothing to this and I made
her walk again. For some minutes she failed
to speak; then, rather abruptly, she began: “I’ve
seen you talking to that lady who sits at our table the
one who has so many children.”
“Mrs. Peck? Oh yes, one has inevitably
talked with Mrs. Peck.”
“Do you know her very well?”
“Only as one knows people at
sea. An acquaintance makes itself. It
doesn’t mean very much.”
“She doesn’t speak to me she
might if she wanted.”
“That’s just what she says of you that
you might speak to her.”
“Oh if she’s waiting for
that!” said my companion with a laugh.
Then she added: “She lives in our street,
nearly opposite.”
“Precisely. That’s
the reason why she thinks you coy or haughty.
She has seen you so often and seems to know so much
about you.”
“What does she know about me?”
“Ah you must ask her I can’t
tell you!”
“I don’t care what she
knows,” said my young lady. After a moment
she went on: “She must have seen I ain’t
very sociable.” And then, “What are
you laughing at?” she asked.
“Well” my amusement
was difficult to explain “you’re
not very sociable, and yet somehow you are.
Mrs. Peck is, at any rate, and thought that ought
to make it easy for you to enter into conversation
with her.”
“Oh I don’t care for her
conversation I know what it amounts to.”
I made no reply I scarcely knew what reply
to make and the girl went on: “I
know what she thinks and I know what she says.”
Still I was silent, but the next moment I saw my
discretion had been wasted, for Miss Mavis put to
me straight: “Does she make out that she
knows Mr. Porterfield?”
“No, she only claims she knows a lady who knows
him.”
“Yes, that’s it Mrs.
Jeremie. Mrs. Jeremie’s an idiot!”
I wasn’t in a position to controvert this,
and presently my young lady said she would sit down.
I left her in her chair I saw that she
preferred it and wandered to a distance.
A few minutes later I met Jasper again, and he stopped
of his own accord to say: “We shall be in
about six in the evening of our eleventh day they
promise it.”
“If nothing happens, of course.”
“Well, what’s going to happen?”
“That’s just what I’m
wondering!” And I turned away and went below
with the foolish but innocent satisfaction of thinking
I had mystified him.