“I don’t know what to
do, and you must help me,” Mrs. Nettlepoint said
to me, that evening, as soon as I looked in.
“I’ll do what I can but what’s
the matter?”
“She has been crying here and going on she
has quite upset me.”
“Crying? She doesn’t look like that.”
“Exactly, and that’s what
startled me. She came in to see me this afternoon,
as she has done before, and we talked of the weather
and the run of the ship and the manners of the stewardess
and other such trifles, and then suddenly, in the
midst of it, as she sat there, on no visible pretext,
she burst into tears. I asked her what ailed
her and tried to comfort her, but she didn’t
explain; she said it was nothing, the effect of the
sea, of the monotony, of the excitement, of leaving
home. I asked her if it had anything to do with
her prospects, with her marriage; whether she finds
as this draws near that her heart isn’t in it.
I told her she mustn’t be nervous, that I could
enter into that in short I said what I
could. All she replied was that she is
nervous, very nervous, but that it was already over;
and then she jumped up and kissed me and went away.
Does she look as if she has been crying?” Mrs.
Nettlepoint wound up.
“How can I tell, when she never
quits that horrid veil? It’s as if she
were ashamed to show her face.”
“She’s keeping it for
Liverpool. But I don’t like such incidents,”
said Mrs. Nettlepoint. “I think I ought
to go above.”
“And is that where you want me to help you?”
“Oh with your arm and that sort
of thing, yes. But I may have to look to you
for something more. I feel as if something were
going to happen.”
“That’s exactly what I said to Jasper
this morning.”
“And what did he say?”
“He only looked innocent as if he
thought I meant a fog or a storm.”
“Heaven forbid it
isn’t that! I shall never be good-natured
again,” Mrs. Nettlepoint went on; “never
have a girl put on me that way. You always pay
for it there are always tiresome complications.
What I’m afraid of is after we get there.
She’ll throw up her engagement; there will
be dreadful scenes; I shall be mixed up with them and
have to look after her and keep her with me.
I shall have to stay there with her till she can
be sent back, or even take her up to London.
Do you see all that?”
I listened respectfully; after which
I observed: “You’re afraid of your
son.”
She also had a pause. “It depends on how
you mean it.”
“There are things you might
say to him and with your manner; because
you have one, you know, when you choose.”
“Very likely, but what’s
my manner to his? Besides, I have said
everything to him. That is I’ve said the
great thing that he’s making her
immensely talked about.”
“And of course in answer to
that he has asked you how you know, and you’ve
told him you have it from me.”
“I’ve had to tell him;
and he says it’s none of your business.”
“I wish he’d say that,” I remarked,
“to my face.”
“He’ll do so perfectly
if you give him a chance. That’s where
you can help me. Quarrel with him he’s
rather good at a quarrel; and that will divert him
and draw him off.”
“Then I’m ready,”
I returned, “to discuss the matter with him for
the rest of the voyage.”
“Very well; I count on you.
But he’ll ask you, as he asks me, what the
deuce you want him to do.”
“To go to bed!” and I’m
afraid I laughed.
“Oh it isn’t a joke.”
I didn’t want to be irritating,
but I made my point. “That’s exactly
what I told you at first.”
“Yes, but don’t exult;
I hate people who exult. Jasper asks of me,”
she went on, “why he should mind her being talked
about if she doesn’t mind it herself.”
“I’ll tell him why,”
I replied; and Mrs. Nettlepoint said she should be
exceedingly obliged to me and repeated that she would
indeed take the field.
I looked for Jasper above that same
evening, but circumstances didn’t favour my
quest. I found him that is I gathered
he was again ensconced behind the lifeboat with Miss
Mavis; but there was a needless violence in breaking
into their communion, and I put off our interview till
the next day. Then I took the first opportunity,
at breakfast, to make sure of it. He was in
the saloon when I went in and was preparing to leave
the table; but I stopped him and asked if he would
give me a quarter of an hour on deck a little later there
was something particular I wanted to say to him.
He said “Oh yes, if you like” with
just a visible surprise, but I thought with plenty
of assurance. When I had finished my breakfast
I found him smoking on the forward-deck and I immediately
began: “I’m going to say something
you won’t at all like; to ask you a question
you’ll probably denounce for impertinent.”
“I certainly shall if I find
it so,” said Jasper Nettlepoint.
“Well, of course my warning
has meant that I don’t care if you do.
I’m a good deal older than you and I’m
a friend of many years of your
mother. There’s nothing I like less than
to be meddlesome, but I think these things give me
a certain right a sort of privilege.
Besides which my inquiry will speak for itself.”
“Why so many damned preliminaries?”
my young man asked through his smoke.
We looked into each other’s
eyes a moment. What indeed was his mother’s
manner her best manner compared
with his? “Are you prepared to be responsible?”
“To you?”
“Dear no to the young
lady herself. I’m speaking of course of
Miss Mavis.”
“Ah yes, my mother tells me
you have her greatly on your mind.”
“So has your mother herself now.”
“She’s so good as to say so to
oblige you.”
“She’d oblige me a great
deal more by reassuring me. I know perfectly
of your knowing I’ve told her that Miss Mavis
is greatly talked about.”
“Yes, but what on earth does it matter?”
“It matters as a sign.”
“A sign of what?”
“That she’s in a false position.”
Jasper puffed his cigar with his eyes
on the horizon, and I had, a little unexpectedly,
the sense of producing a certain effect on him.
“I don’t know whether it’s your
business, what you’re attempting to discuss but
it really strikes me it’s none of mine.
What have I to do with the tattle with which a pack
of old women console themselves for not being sea-sick?”
“Do you call it tattle that Miss Mavis is in
love with you?”
“Drivelling.”
“Then,” I retorted, “you’re
very ungrateful. The tattle of a pack of old
women has this importance, that she suspects, or she
knows, it exists, and that decent girls are for the
most part very sensitive to that sort of thing.
To be prepared not to heed it in this case she must
have a reason, and the reason must be the one I’ve
taken the liberty to call your attention to.”
“In love with me in six days,
just like that?” and he still looked
away through narrowed eyelids.
“There’s no accounting
for tastes, and six days at sea are equivalent to
sixty on land. I don’t want to make you
too proud. Of course if you recognise your responsibility
it’s all right and I’ve nothing to say.”
“I don’t see what you mean,” he
presently returned.
“Surely you ought to have thought
of that by this time. She’s engaged to
be married, and the gentleman she’s engaged to
is to meet her at Liverpool. The whole ship
knows it though I didn’t tell
them! and the whole ship’s watching
her. It’s impertinent if you like, just
as I am myself, but we make a little world here together
and we can’t blink its conditions. What
I ask you is whether you’re prepared to allow
her to give up the gentleman I’ve just mentioned
for your sake.”
Jasper spoke in a moment as if he
didn’t understand. “For my sake?”
“To marry her if she breaks with him.”
He turned his eyes from the horizon
to my own, and I found a strange expression in them.
“Has Miss Mavis commissioned you to go into
that?”
“Not in the least.”
“Well then, I don’t quite see !”
“It isn’t as from another
I make it. Let it come from yourself to
yourself.”
“Lord, you must think I lead
myself a life!” he cried as in compassion for
my simplicity. “That’s a question
the young lady may put to me any moment it pleases
her.”
“Let me then express the hope
that she will. But what will you answer?”
“My dear sir, it seems to me
that in spite of all the titles you’ve enumerated
you’ve no reason to expect I’ll tell you.”
He turned away, and I dedicated in perfect sincerity
a deep sore sigh to the thought of our young woman.
At this, under the impression of it, he faced me again
and, looking at me from head to foot, demanded:
“What is it you want me to do?”
“I put it to your mother that you ought to go
to bed.”
“You had better do that yourself!” he
replied.
This time he walked off, and I reflected
rather dolefully that the only clear result of my
undertaking would probably have been to make it vivid
to him that she was in love with him. Mrs. Nettlepoint
came up as she had announced, but the day was half
over: it was nearly three o’clock.
She was accompanied by her son, who established her
on deck, arranged her chair and her shawls, saw she
was protected from sun and wind, and for an hour was
very properly attentive. While this went on Grace
Mavis was not visible, nor did she reappear during
the whole afternoon. I hadn’t observed
that she had as yet been absent from the deck for so
long a period. Jasper left his mother, but came
back at intervals to see how she got on, and when
she asked where Miss Mavis might be answered that he
hadn’t the least idea. I sat with my friend
at her particular request: she told me she knew
that if I didn’t Mrs. Peck and Mrs. Gotch would
make their approach, so that I must act as a watch-dog.
She was flurried and fatigued with her migration,
and I think that Grace Mavis’s choosing this
occasion for retirement suggested to her a little that
she had been made a fool of. She remarked that
the girl’s not being there showed her for the
barbarian she only could be, and that she herself was
really very good so to have put herself out; her charge
was a mere bore: that was the end of it.
I could see that my companion’s advent quickened
the speculative activity of the other ladies they
watched her from the opposite side of the deck, keeping
their eyes fixed on her very much as the man at the
wheel kept his on the course of the ship. Mrs.
Peck plainly had designs, and it was from this danger
that Mrs. Nettlepoint averted her face.
“It’s just as we said,”
she remarked to me as we sat there. “It’s
like the buckets in the well. When I come up
everything else goes down.”
“No, not at all everything else since
Jasper remains here.”
“Remains? I don’t see him.”
“He comes and goes it’s the
same thing.”
“He goes more than he comes.
But n’en parlons plus; I haven’t
gained anything. I don’t admire the sea
at all what is it but a magnified water-tank?
I shan’t come up again.”
“I’ve an idea she’ll
stay in her cabin now,” I said. “She
tells me she has one to herself.” Mrs.
Nettlepoint replied that she might do as she liked,
and I repeated to her the little conversation I had
had with Jasper.
She listened with interest, but “Marry
her? Mercy!” she exclaimed. “I
like the fine freedom with which you give my son away.”
“You wouldn’t accept that?”
“Why in the world should I?”
“Then I don’t understand your position.”
“Good heavens, I have
none! It isn’t a position to be tired of
the whole thing.”
“You wouldn’t accept it
even in the case I put to him that of her
believing she had been encouraged to throw over poor
Porterfield?”
“Not even not even. Who can
know what she believes?”
It brought me back to where we had
started from. “Then you do exactly what
I said you would you show me a fine example
of maternal immorality.”
“Maternal fiddlesticks! It was she who
began it.”
“Then why did you come up today?” I asked.
“To keep you quiet.”
Mrs. Nettlepoint’s dinner was
served on deck, but I went into the saloon. Jasper
was there, but not Grace Mavis, as I had half-expected.
I sought to learn from him what had become of her,
if she were ill he must have thought I
had an odious pertinacity and he replied
that he knew nothing whatever about her. Mrs.
Peck talked to me or tried to of
Mrs. Nettlepoint, expatiating on the great interest
it had been to see her; only it was a pity she didn’t
seem more sociable. To this I made answer that
she was to be excused on the score of health.
“You don’t mean to say she’s sick
on this pond?”
“No, she’s unwell in another way.”
“I guess I know the way!”
Mrs. Peck laughed. And then she added: “I
suppose she came up to look after her pet.”
“Her pet?” I set my face.
“Why Miss Mavis. We’ve talked enough
about that.”
“Quite enough. I don’t
know what that has had to do with it. Miss Mavis,
so far as I’ve noticed, hasn’t been above
today.”
“Oh it goes on all the same.”
“It goes on?”
“Well, it’s too late.”
“Too late?”
“Well, you’ll see. There’ll
be a row.”
This wasn’t comforting, but
I didn’t repeat it on deck. Mrs. Nettlepoint
returned early to her cabin, professing herself infinitely
spent. I didn’t know what “went
on,” but Grace Mavis continued not to show.
I looked in late, for a good-night to my friend,
and learned from her that the girl hadn’t been
to her. She had sent the stewardess to her room
for news, to see if she were ill and needed assistance,
and the stewardess had come back with mere mention
of her not being there. I went above after this;
the night was not quite so fair and the deck almost
empty. In a moment Jasper Nettlepoint and our
young lady moved past me together. “I
hope you’re better!” I called after her;
and she tossed me over her shoulder “Oh
yes, I had a headache; but the air now does me good!”
I went down again I was
the only person there but they, and I wanted not to
seem to dog their steps and, returning to
Mrs. Nettlepoint’s room, found (her door was
open to the little passage) that she was still sitting
up.
“She’s all right!” I said.
“She’s on the deck with Jasper.”
The good lady looked up at me from
her book. “I didn’t know you called
that all right.”
“Well, it’s better than something else.”
“Than what else?”
“Something I was a little afraid
of.” Mrs. Nettlepoint continued to look
at me; she asked again what that might be. “I’ll
tell you when we’re ashore,” I said.
The next day I waited on her at the
usual hour of my morning visit, and found her not
a little distraught. “The scenes have begun,”
she said; “you know I told you I shouldn’t
get through without them! You made me nervous
last night I haven’t the least idea
what you meant; but you made me horribly nervous.
She came in to see me an hour ago, and I had the
courage to say to her: ’I don’t know
why I shouldn’t tell you frankly that I’ve
been scolding my son about you.’ Of course
she asked what I meant by that, and I let her know.
’It seems to me he drags you about the ship
too much for a girl in your position. He has
the air of not remembering that you belong to some
one else. There’s a want of taste and
even a want of respect in it.’ That brought
on an outbreak: she became very violent.”
“Do you mean indignant?”
“Yes, indignant, and above all
flustered and excited at my presuming to
suppose her relations with my son not the very simplest
in the world. I might scold him as much as I
liked that was between ourselves; but she
didn’t see why I should mention such matters
to herself. Did I think she allowed him to treat
her with disrespect? That idea wasn’t much
of a compliment to either of them! He had treated
her better and been kinder to her than most other
people there were very few on the ship who
hadn’t been insulting. She should be glad
enough when she got off it, to her own people, to
some one whom nobody would have a right to speak of.
What was there in her position that wasn’t
perfectly natural? what was the idea of making a fuss
about her position? Did I mean that she took
it too easily that she didn’t think
as much as she ought about Mr. Porterfield?
Didn’t I believe she was attached to him didn’t
I believe she was just counting the hours till she
saw him? That would be the happiest moment of
her life. It showed how little I knew her if
I thought anything else.”
“All that must have been rather
fine I should have liked to hear it,”
I said after quite hanging on my friend’s lips.
“And what did you reply?”
“Oh I grovelled; I assured her
that I accused her as regards my son of
nothing worse than an excess of good nature.
She helped him to pass his time he ought
to be immensely obliged. Also that it would be
a very happy moment for me too when I should hand
her over to Mr. Porterfield.”
“And will you come up today?”
“No indeed I think she’ll do
beautifully now.”
I heaved this time a sigh of relief. “All’s
well that ends well!”
Jasper spent that day a great deal
of time with his mother. She had told me how
much she had lacked hitherto proper opportunity to
talk over with him their movements after disembarking.
Everything changes a little the last two or three
days of a voyage; the spell is broken and new combinations
take place. Grace Mavis was neither on deck nor
at dinner, and I drew Mrs. Peck’s attention
to the extreme propriety with which she now conducted
herself. She had spent the day in meditation
and judged it best to continue to meditate.
“Ah she’s afraid,” said my implacable
neighbour.
“Afraid of what?”
“Well, that we’ll tell tales when we get
there.”
“Whom do you mean by ’we’?”
“Well, there are plenty on a ship
like this.”
“Then I think,” I returned, “we
won’t.”
“Maybe we won’t have the chance,”
said the dreadful little woman.
“Oh at that moment” I
spoke from a full experience “universal
geniality reigns.”
Mrs. Peck however knew little of any
such law. “I guess she’s afraid all
the same.”
“So much the better!”
“Yes so much the better!”
All the next day too the girl remained
invisible, and Mrs. Nettlepoint told me she hadn’t
looked in. She herself had accordingly inquired
by the stewardess if she might be received in Miss
Mavis’s own quarters, and the young lady had
replied that they were littered up with things and
unfit for visitors: she was packing a trunk over.
Jasper made up for his devotion to his mother the
day before by now spending a great deal of his time
in the smoking-room. I wanted to say to him “This
is much better,” but I thought it wiser to hold
my tongue. Indeed I had begun to feel the emotion
of prospective arrival the sense of the
return to Europe always kept its intensity and
had thereby the less attention for other matters.
It will doubtless appear to the critical reader that
my expenditure of interest had been out of proportion
to the vulgar appearances of which my story gives
an account, but to this I can only reply that the event
was to justify me. We sighted land, the dim
yet rich coast of Ireland, about sunset, and I leaned
on the bulwark and took it in. “It doesn’t
look like much, does it?” I heard a voice say,
beside me; whereupon, turning, I found Grace Mavis
at hand. Almost for the first time she had her
veil up, and I thought her very pale.
“It will be more tomorrow,” I said.
“Oh yes, a great deal more.”
“The first sight of land, at
sea, changes everything,” I went on. “It
always affects me as waking up from a dream.
It’s a return to reality.”
For a moment she made me no response;
then she said “It doesn’t look very real
yet.”
“No, and meanwhile, this lovely
evening, one can put it that the dream’s still
present.”
She looked up at the sky, which had
a brightness, though the light of the sun had left
it and that of the stars hadn’t begun.
“It is a lovely evening.”
“Oh yes, with this we shall do.”
She stood some moments more, while
the growing dusk effaced the line of the land more
rapidly than our progress made it distinct. She
said nothing more, she only looked in front of her;
but her very quietness prompted me to something suggestive
of sympathy and service. It was difficult indeed
to strike the right note some things seemed
too wide of the mark and others too importunate.
At last, unexpectedly, she appeared to give me my
chance. Irrelevantly, abruptly she broke out:
“Didn’t you tell me you knew Mr. Porterfield?”
“Dear me, yes I used
to see him. I’ve often wanted to speak
to you of him.”
She turned her face on me and in the
deepened evening I imagined her more pale. “What
good would that do?”
“Why it would be a pleasure,” I replied
rather foolishly.
“Do you mean for you?”
“Well, yes call it that,” I
smiled.
“Did you know him so well?”
My smile became a laugh and I lost
a little my confidence. “You’re not
easy to make speeches to.”
“I hate speeches!” The
words came from her lips with a force that surprised
me; they were loud and hard. But before I had
time to wonder she went on a little differently.
“Shall you know him when you see him?”
“Perfectly, I think.”
Her manner was so strange that I had to notice it
in some way, and I judged the best way was jocularly;
so I added: “Shan’t you?”
“Oh perhaps you’ll point
him out!” And she walked quickly away.
As I looked after her there came to me a perverse,
rather a provoking consciousness of having during
the previous days, and especially in speaking to Jasper
Nettlepoint, interfered with her situation in some
degree to her loss. There was an odd pang for
me in seeing her move about alone; I felt somehow
responsible for it and asked myself why I couldn’t
have kept my hands off. I had seen Jasper in
the smoking-room more than once that day, as I passed
it, and half an hour before this had observed, through
the open door, that he was there. He had been
with her so much that without him she now struck one
as bereaved and forsaken. This was really better,
no doubt, but superficially it moved and
I admit with the last inconsequence one’s
pity. Mrs. Peck would doubtless have assured
me that their separation was gammon: they didn’t
show together on deck and in the saloon, but they
made it up elsewhere. The secret places on shipboard
are not numerous; Mrs. Peck’s “elsewhere”
would have been vague, and I know not what licence
her imagination took. It was distinct that Jasper
had fallen off, but of course what had passed between
them on this score wasn’t so and could never
be. Later on, through his mother, I had his
version of that, but I may remark that I gave it no
credit. Poor Mrs. Nettlepoint, on the other hand,
was of course to give it all. I was almost capable,
after the girl had left me, of going to my young man
and saying: “After all, do return to her
a little, just till we get in! It won’t
make any difference after we land.” And
I don’t think it was the fear he would tell
me I was an idiot that prevented me. At any rate
the next time I passed the door of the smoking-room
I saw he had left it. I paid my usual visit to
Mrs. Nettlepoint that night, but I troubled her no
further about Miss Mavis. She had made up her
mind that everything was smooth and settled now, and
it seemed to me I had worried her, and that she had
worried herself, in sufficiency. I left her to
enjoy the deepening foretaste of arrival, which had
taken possession of her mind. Before turning
in I went above and found more passengers on deck than
I had ever seen so late. Jasper moved about
among them alone, but I forbore to join him.
The coast of Ireland had disappeared, but the night
and the sea were perfect. On the way to my cabin,
when I came down, I met the stewardess in one of the
passages, and the idea entered my head to say to her:
“Do you happen to know where Miss Mavis is?”
“Why she’s in her room, sir, at this hour.”
“Do you suppose I could speak
to her?” It had come into my mind to ask her
why she had wanted to know of me if I should recognise
Mr. Porterfield.
“No sir,” said the stewardess; “she
has gone to bed.”
“That’s all right.” And I
followed the young lady’s excellent example.
The next morning, while I dressed,
the steward of my side of the ship came to me as usual
to see what I wanted. But the first thing he
said to, me was: “Rather a bad job, sir a
passenger missing.” And while I took I
scarce know what instant chill from it, “A lady,
sir,” he went on “whom I think
you knew. Poor Miss Mavis, sir.”
“Missing?” I cried staring
at him and horror-stricken.
“She’s not on the ship. They can’t
find her.”
“Then where to God is she?”
I recall his queer face. “Well
sir, I suppose you know that as well as I.”
“Do you mean she has jumped overboard?”
“Some time in the night, sir on
the quiet. But it’s beyond every one,
the way she escaped notice. They usually sees
’em, sir. It must have been about half-past
two. Lord, but she was sharp, sir. She
didn’t so much as make a splash. They
say she ’ad come against her will, sir.”
I had dropped upon my sofa I
felt faint. The man went on, liking to talk
as persons of his class do when they have something
horrible to tell. She usually rang for the stewardess
early, but this morning of course there had been no
ring. The stewardess had gone in all the same
about eight o’clock and found the cabin empty.
That was about an hour previous. Her things
were there in confusion the things she usually
wore when she went above. The stewardess thought
she had been a bit odd the night before, but had waited
a little and then gone back. Miss Mavis hadn’t
turned up and she didn’t turn up.
The stewardess began to look for her she
hadn’t been seen on deck or in the saloon.
Besides, she wasn’t dressed not
to show herself; all her clothes were in her room.
There was another lady, an old lady, Mrs. Nettlepoint I
would know her that she was sometimes with,
but the stewardess had been with her and knew
Miss Mavis hadn’t come near her that morning.
She had spoken to him and they had taken a
quiet look they had hunted everywhere.
A ship’s a big place, but you did come to the
end of it, and if a person wasn’t there why
there it was. In short an hour had passed and
the young lady was not accounted for: from which
I might judge if she ever would be. The watch
couldn’t account for her, but no doubt the fishes
in the sea could poor miserable pitiful
lady! The stewardess and he had of course thought
it their duty to speak at once to the Doctor, and the
Doctor had spoken immediately to the Captain.
The Captain didn’t like it they
never did, but he’d try to keep it quiet they
always did.
By the time I succeeded in pulling
myself together and getting on, after a fashion, the
rest of my clothes I had learned that Mrs. Nettlepoint
wouldn’t yet have been told, unless the stewardess
had broken it to her within the previous few minutes.
Her son knew, the young gentleman on the other side
of the ship he had the other steward; my
man had seen him come out of his cabin and rush above,
just before he came in to me. He had
gone above, my man was sure; he hadn’t gone to
the old lady’s cabin. I catch again the
sense of my dreadfully seeing something at that moment,
catch the wild flash, under the steward’s words,
of Jasper Nettlepoint leaping, with a mad compunction
in his young agility, over the side of the ship.
I hasten to add, however, that no such incident was
destined to contribute its horror to poor Grace Mavis’s
unwitnessed and unlighted tragic act. What followed
was miserable enough, but I can only glance at it.
When I got to Mrs. Nettlepoint’s door she was
there with a shawl about her; the stewardess had just
told her and she was dashing out to come to me.
I made her go back I said I would go for
Jasper. I went for him but I missed him, partly
no doubt because it was really at first the Captain
I was after. I found this personage and found
him highly scandalised, but he gave me no hope that
we were in error, and his displeasure, expressed with
seamanlike strength, was a definite settlement of
the question. From the deck, where I merely
turned round and looked, I saw the light of another
summer day, the coast of Ireland green and near and
the sea of a more charming colour than it had shown
at all. When I came below again Jasper had passed
back; he had gone to his cabin and his mother had
joined him there. He remained there till we
reached Liverpool I never saw him.
His mother, after a little, at his request, left
him alone. All the world went above to look at
the land and chatter about our tragedy, but the poor
lady spent the day, dismally enough, in her room.
It seemed to me, the dreadful day, intolerably long;
I was thinking so of vague, of inconceivable yet inevitable
Porterfield, and of my having to face him somehow on
the morrow. Now of course I knew why she had
asked me if I should recognise him; she had delegated
to me mentally a certain pleasant office. I gave
Mrs. Peck and Mrs. Gotch a wide berth I
couldn’t talk to them. I could, or at
least I did a little, to Mrs. Nettlepoint, but with
too many reserves for comfort on either side, since
I quite felt how little it would now make for ease
to mention Jasper to her. I was obliged to assume
by my silence that he had had nothing to do with what
had happened; and of course I never really ascertained
what he had had to do. The secret of
what passed between him and the strange girl who would
have sacrificed her marriage to him on so short an
acquaintance remains shut up in his breast.
His mother, I know, went to his door from time to
time, but he refused her admission. That evening,
to be human at a venture, I requested the steward
to go in and ask him if he should care to see me,
and the good man returned with an answer which he candidly
transmitted. “Not in the least!” Jasper
apparently was almost as scandalised as the Captain.
At Liverpool, at the dock, when we
had touched, twenty people came on board and I had
already made out Mr. Porterfield at a distance.
He was looking up at the side of the great vessel
with disappointment written for my strained
eyes in his face; disappointment at not
seeing the woman he had so long awaited lean over
it and wave her handkerchief to him. Every one
was looking at him, every one but she his
identity flew about in a moment and I wondered
if it didn’t strike him. He used to be
gaunt and angular, but had grown almost fat and stooped
a little. The interval between us diminished he
was on the plank and then on the deck with the jostling
agents of the Customs; too soon for my equanimity.
I met him instantly, however, to save him from exposure laid
my hand on him and drew him away, though I was sure
he had no impression of having seen me before.
It was not till afterwards that I thought this rather
characteristically dull of him. I drew him far
away I was conscious of Mrs. Peck and Mrs.
Gotch, looking at us as we passed into the
empty stale smoking-room: he remained speechless,
and that struck me as like him. I had to speak
first, he couldn’t even relieve me by saying
“Is anything the matter?” I broke ground
by putting it, feebly, that she was ill. It
was a dire moment.