Footprints footprints the
footprints of one dead. How ghastly they look
as they fall before me! Up and down the long hall
they go, and I follow them. Pit, pat they fall,
those unearthly steps, and beneath them starts up
that awful impress. I can see it grow upon the
marble, a damp and dreadful thing.
Tread them down; tread them out; follow
after them with muddy shoes, and cover them up.
In vain. See how they rise through the mire!
Who can tread out the footprints of the dead?
And so on, up and down the dim vista
of the past, following the sound of the dead feet
that wander so restlessly, stamping upon the impress
that will not be stamped out. Rave on, wild wind,
eternal voice of human misery; fall, dead footsteps,
eternal echo of human memory; stamp, miry feet; stamp
into forgetfulness that which will not be forgotten.
And so on, on to the end.
Pretty ideas these for a man about
to be married, especially when they float into his
brain at night like ominous clouds into a summer sky,
and he is going to be married to-morrow. There
is no mistake about it the wedding, I mean.
To be plain and matter-of-fact, why there stand the
presents, or some of them, and very handsome presents
they are, ranged in solemn rows upon the long table.
It is a remarkable thing to observe when one is about
to make a really satisfactory marriage how scores of
unsuspected or forgotten friends crop up and send little
tokens of their esteem. It was very different
when I married my first wife, I remember, but then
that match was not satisfactory just a love-match,
no more.
There they stand in solemn rows, as
I have said, and inspire me with beautiful thoughts
about the innate kindness of human nature, especially
the human nature of our distant cousins. It is
possible to grow almost poetical over a silver teapot
when one is going to be married to-morrow. On
how many future mornings shall I be confronted with
that tea-pot? Probably for all my life; and on
the other side of the teapot will be the cream jug,
and the electro-plated urn will hiss away behind them
both. Also the chased sugar basin will be in front,
full of sugar, and behind everything will be my second
wife.
“My dear,” she will say,
“will you have another cup of tea?” and
probably I shall have another cup.
Well, it is very curious to notice
what ideas will come into a man’s head sometimes.
Sometimes something waves a magic wand over his being,
and from the recesses of his soul dim things arise
and walk. At unexpected moments they come, and
he grows aware of the issues of his mysterious life,
and his heart shakes and shivers like a lightning-shattered
tree. In that drear light all earthly things seem
far, and all unseen things draw near and take shape
and awe him, and he knows not what is true and what
is false, neither can he trace the edge that marks
off the Spirit from the Life. Then it is that
the footsteps echo, and the ghostly footprints will
not be stamped out.
Pretty thoughts again! and how persistently
they come! It is one o’clock and I will
go to bed. The rain is falling in sheets outside.
I can hear it lashing against the window panes, and
the wind wails through the tall wet elms at the end
of the garden. I could tell the voice of those
elms anywhere; I know it as well as the voice of a
friend. What a night it is; we sometimes get
them in this part of England in October. It was
just such a night when my first wife died, and that
is three years ago. I remember how she sat up
in her bed.
“Ah! those horrible elms,”
she said; “I wish you would have them cut down,
Frank; they cry like a woman,” and I said I would,
and just after that she died, poor dear. And
so the old elms stand, and I like their music.
It is a strange thing; I was half broken-hearted, for
I loved her dearly, and she loved me with all her
life and strength, and now I am going to
be married again.
“Frank, Frank, don’t forget
me!” Those were my wife’s last words; and,
indeed, though I am going to be married again to-morrow,
I have not forgotten her. Nor shall I forget
how Annie Guthrie (whom I am going to marry now) came
to see her the day before she died. I know that
Annie always liked me more or less, and I think that
my dear wife guessed it. After she had kissed
Annie and bid her a last good-bye, and the door had
closed, she spoke quite suddenly: “There
goes your future wife, Frank,” she said; “you
should have married her at first instead of me; she
is very handsome and very good, and she has two thousand
a year; she would never have died of a nervous
illness.” And she laughed a little, and
then added:
“Oh, Frank dear, I wonder if
you will think of me before you marry Annie Guthrie.
Wherever I am I shall be thinking of you.”
And now that time which she foresaw
has come, and Heaven knows that I have thought of
her, poor dear. Ah! those footsteps of one dead
that will echo through our lives, those woman’s
footprints on the marble flooring which will not be
stamped out. Most of us have heard and seen them
at some time or other, and I hear and see them very
plainly to-night. Poor dead wife, I wonder if
there are any doors in the land where you have gone
through which you can creep out to look at me to-night?
I hope that there are none. Death must indeed
be a hell if the dead can see and feel and take measure
of the forgetful faithlessness of their beloved.
Well, I will go to bed and try to get a little rest.
I am not so young or so strong as I was, and this
wedding wears me out. I wish that the whole thing
were done or had never been begun.
What was that? It was not the
wind, for it never makes that sound here, and it was
not the rain, since the rain has ceased its surging
for a moment; nor was it the howling of a dog, for
I keep none. It was more like the crying of a
woman’s voice; but what woman can be abroad on
such a night or at such an hour half-past
one in the morning?
There it is again a dreadful
sound; it makes the blood turn chill, and yet has
something familiar about it. It is a woman’s
voice calling round the house. There, she is
at the window now, and rattling it, and, great heavens!
she is calling me.
“Frank! Frank! Frank!” she calls.
I strive to stir and unshutter that
window, but before I can get there she is knocking
and calling at another.
Gone again, with her dreadful wail
of “Frank! Frank!” Now I hear her
at the front door, and, half mad with a horrible fear,
I run down the long, dark hall and unbar it.
There is nothing there nothing but the wild
rush of the wind and the drip of the rain from the
portico. But I can hear the wailing voice going
round the house, past the patch of shrubbery.
I close the door and listen. There, she has got
through the little yard, and is at the back door now.
Whoever it is, she must know the way about the house.
Along the hall I go again, through a swing door, through
the servants’ hall, stumbling down some steps
into the kitchen, where the embers of the fire are
still alive in the grate, diffusing a little warmth
and light into the dense gloom.
Whoever it is at the door is knocking
now with her clenched hand against the hard wood,
and it is wonderful, though she knocks so low, how
the sound echoes through the empty kitchens.
There I stood and hesitated, trembling
in every limb; I dared not open the door. No
words of mine can convey the sense of utter desolation
that overpowered me. I felt as though I were
the only living man in the whole world.
“Frank! Frank!”
cries the voice with the dreadful familiar ring in
it. “Open the door; I am so cold.
I have so little time.”
My heart stood still, and yet my hands
were constrained to obey. Slowly, slowly I lifted
the latch and unbarred the door, and, as I did so,
a great rush of air snatched it from my hands and
swept it wide. The black clouds had broken a
little overhead, and there was a patch of blue, rain-washed
sky with just a star or two glimmering in it fitfully.
For a moment I could only see this bit of sky, but
by degrees I made out the accustomed outline of the
great trees swinging furiously against it, and the
rigid line of the coping of the garden wall beneath
them. Then a whirling leaf hit me smartly on
the face, and instinctively I dropped my eyes on to
something that as yet I could not distinguish something
small and black and wet.
“What are you?” I gasped.
Somehow I seemed to feel that it was not a person I
could not say, Who are you?
“Don’t you know me?”
wailed the voice, with the far-off familiar ring about
it. “And I mayn’t come in and show
myself. I haven’t the time. You were
so long opening the door, Frank, and I am so cold oh,
so bitterly cold! Look there, the moon is coming
out, and you will be able to see me. I suppose
that you long to see me, as I have longed to see you.”
As the figure spoke, or rather wailed,
a moonbeam struggled through the watery air and fell
on it. It was short and shrunken, the figure of
a tiny woman. Also it was dressed in black and
wore a black covering over the whole head, shrouding
it, after the fashion of a bridal veil. From
every part of this veil and dress the water fell in
heavy drops.
The figure bore a small basket on
her left arm, and her hand such a poor
thin little hand gleamed white in the moonlight.
I noticed that on the third finger was a red line,
showing that a wedding-ring had once been there.
The other hand was stretched towards me as though in
entreaty.
All this I saw in an instant, as it
were, and as I saw it, horror seemed to grip me by
the throat as though it were a living thing, for as
the voice had been familiar, so was the form familiar,
though the churchyard had received it long years ago.
I could not speak I could not even move.
“Oh, don’t you know me
yet?” wailed the voice; “and I have come
from so far to see you, and I cannot stop. Look,
look,” and she began to pluck feverishly with
her poor thin hand at the black veil that enshrouded
her. At last it came off, and, as in a dream,
I saw what in a dim frozen way I had expected to see the
white face and pale yellow hair of my dead wife.
Unable to speak or to stir, I gazed and gazed.
There was no mistake about it, it was she, ay, even
as I had last seen her, white with the whiteness of
death, with purple circles round her eyes and the
grave-cloth yet beneath her chin. Only her eyes
were wide open and fixed upon my face; and a lock
of the soft yellow hair had broken loose, and the
wind tossed it.
“You know me now, Frank don’t
you, Frank? It has been so hard to come to see
you, and so cold! But you are going to be married
to-morrow, Frank; and I promised oh, a
long time ago to think of you when you
were going to be married wherever I was, and I have
kept my promise, and I have come from where I am and
brought a present with me. It was bitter to die
so young! I was so young to die and leave you,
but I had to go. Take it take it;
be quick, I cannot stay any longer. I could not
give you my life, Frank, so I have brought you my
death take it!”
The figure thrust the basket into
my hand, and as it did so the rain came up again,
and began to obscure the moonlight.
“I must go, I must go,”
went on the dreadful, familiar voice, in a cry of
despair. “Oh, why were you so long opening
the door? I wanted to talk to you before you
married Annie; and now I shall never see you again never!
never! never! I have lost you for ever! ever!
ever!”
As the last wailing notes died away
the wind came down with a rush and a whirl and the
sweep as of a thousand wings, and threw me back into
the house, bringing the door to with a crash after
me.
I staggered into the kitchen, the
basket in my hand, and set it on the table. Just
then some embers of the fire fell in, and a faint little
flame rose and glimmered on the bright dishes on the
dresser, even revealing a tin candlestick, with a
box of matches by it. I was well-nigh mad with
the darkness and fear, and, seizing the matches, I
struck one, and held it to the candle. Presently
it caught, and I glanced round the room. It was
just as usual, just as the servants had left it, and
above the mantelpiece the eight-day clock ticked away
solemnly. While I looked at it it struck two,
and in a dim fashion I was thankful for its friendly
sound.
Then I looked at the basket.
It was of very fine white plaited work with black
bands running up it, and a chequered black-and-white
handle. I knew it well. I have never seen
another like it. I bought it years ago at Madeira,
and gave it to my poor wife. Ultimately it was
washed overboard in a gale in the Irish Channel.
I remember that it was full of newspapers and library
books, and I had to pay for them. Many and many
is the time that I have seen that identical basket
standing there on that very kitchen table, for my
dear wife always used it to put flowers in, and the
shortest cut from that part of the garden where her
roses grew was through the kitchen. She used
to gather the flowers, and then come in and place
her basket on the table, just where it stood now, and
order the dinner.
All this passed through my mind in
a few seconds as I stood there with the candle in
my hand, feeling indeed half dead, and yet with my
mind painfully alive. I began to wonder if I
had gone asleep, and was the victim of a nightmare.
No such thing. I wish it had only been a nightmare.
A mouse ran out along the dresser and jumped on to
the floor, making quite a crash in the silence.
What was in the basket? I feared
to look, and yet some power within me forced me to
it. I drew near to the table and stood for a moment
listening to the sound of my own heart. Then I
stretched out my hand and slowly raised the lid of
the basket.
“I could not give you my life,
so I have brought you my death!” Those were
her words. What could she mean what
could it all mean? I must know or I would go
mad. There it lay, whatever it was, wrapped up
in linen.
Ah, heaven help me! It was a small bleached human
skull!
A dream! After all, only a dream
by the fire, but what a dream! And I am to be
married to-morrow.
Can I be married to-morrow?