“Perpetual devotion to what a
man calls his business is only to be sustained
by perpetual neglect of many other things. And
it is not by any means certain that a man’s business
is the most important thing he has to do.”
- Robert Louis
Stevenson: An Apology for Idlers.
I. A CASUAL INTRODUCTION
On the South Shore of Long Island,
all things incline to a natural somnolence. There
are no ambitious mountains, no braggart cliffs, no
hasty torrents, no hustling waterfalls in that land,
“In which it seemeth always
afternoon.”
The salt meadows sleep in the summer
sun; the farms and market-gardens yield a placid harvest
to a race of singularly unhurried tillers of the soil;
the low hills rise with gentle slopes, not caring to
get too high in the world, only far enough to catch
a pleasant glimpse of the sea and a breath of fresh
air; the very trees grow leisurely, as if they felt
that they had “all the time there is.”
And from this dreamy land, close as it lies to the
unresting ocean, the tumult of the breakers and the
foam of ever-turning tides are shut off by the languid
lagoons of the Great South Bay and a long range of
dunes, crested with wire-grass, bay-bushes, and wild-roses.
In such a country you could not expect
a little brook to be noisy, fussy, energetic.
If it were not lazy, it would be out of keeping.
But the actual and undisguised idleness
of this particular brook was another affair, and one
in which it was distinguished among its fellows.
For almost all the other little rivers of the South
Shore, lazy as they may be by nature, yet manage to
do some kind of work before they finish the journey
from their crystal-clear springs into the brackish
waters of the bay. They turn the wheels of sleepy
gristmills, while the miller sits with his hands in
his pockets underneath the willow-trees. They
fill reservoirs out of which great steam-engines pump
the water to quench the thirst of Brooklyn. Even
the smaller streams tarry long enough in their seaward
sauntering to irrigate a few cranberry-bogs and so
provide that savoury sauce which makes the Long Island
turkey a fitter subject for Thanksgiving.
But this brook of which I speak did
none of these useful things. It was absolutely
out of business.
There was not a mill, nor a reservoir,
nor a cranberry-bog, on all its course of a short
mile. The only profitable affair it ever undertook
was to fill a small ice-pond near its entrance into
the Great South Bay. You could hardly call this
a very energetic enterprise. It amounted to little
more than a good-natured consent to allow itself to
be used by the winter for the making of ice, if the
winter happened to be cold enough. Even this
passive industry came to nothing; for the water, being
separated from the bay only by a short tideway under
a wooden bridge on the south country road, was too
brackish to freeze easily; and the ice, being pervaded
with weeds, was not much relished by the public.
So the wooden ice-house, innocent of paint, and toned
by the weather to a soft, sad-coloured gray, stood
like an improvised ruin among the pine-trees beside
the pond.
It was through this unharvested ice-pond,
this fallow field of water, that my lady Graygown
and I entered on acquaintance with our lazy, idle
brook. We had a house, that summer, a few miles
down the bay. But it was a very small house,
and the room that we like best was out of doors.
So we spent much time in a sailboat, - by
name “The Patience,” - making
voyages of exploration into watery corners and byways.
Sailing past the wooden bridge one day, when a strong
east wind had made a very low tide, we observed the
water flowing out beneath the road with an eddying
current. We were interested to discover where
such a stream came from. But the sailboat could
not go under the bridge, nor even make a landing on
the shore without risk of getting aground. The
next day we came back in a rowboat to follow the clue
of curiosity. The tide was high now, and we passed
with the reversed current under the bridge, almost
bumping our heads against the timbers. Emerging
upon the pond, we rowed across its shallow, weed-encumbered
waters, and were introduced without ceremony to one
of the most agreeable brooks that we had ever met.
It was quite broad where it came into
the pond, - a hundred feet from side to side, - bordered
with flags and rushes and feathery meadow grasses.
The real channel meandered in sweeping curves from
bank to bank, and the water, except in the swifter
current, was filled with an amazing quantity of some
aquatic moss. The woods came straggling down on
either shore. There were fallen trees in the stream
here and there. On one of the points an old swamp-maple,
with its decrepit branches and its leaves already
touched with the hectic colours of decay, hung far
out over the water which was undermining it, looking
and leaning downward, like an aged man who bends,
half-sadly and half-willingly, towards the grave.
But for the most part the brook lay
wide open to the sky, and the tide, rising and sinking
somewhat irregularly in the pond below, made curious
alternations in its depth and in the swiftness of its
current. For about half a mile we navigated this
lazy little river, and then we found that rowing would
carry us no farther, for we came to a place where the
stream issued with a livelier flood from an archway
in a thicket.
This woodland portal was not more
than four feet wide, and the branches of the small
trees were closely interwoven overhead. We shipped
the oars and took one of them for a paddle. Stooping
down, we pushed the boat through the archway and found
ourselves in the Fairy Dell. It was a long, narrow
bower, perhaps four hundred feet from end to end, with
the brook dancing through it in a joyous, musical
flow over a bed of clean yellow sand and white pebbles.
There were deep places in the curves where you could
hardly touch bottom with an oar, and shallow places
in the straight runs where the boat would barely float.
Not a ray of unbroken sunlight leaked through the
green roof of this winding corridor; and all along
the sides there were delicate mosses and tall ferns
and wildwood flowers that love the shade.
At the upper end of the bower our
progress in the boat was barred by a low bridge, on
a forgotten road that wound through the pine-woods.
Here I left my lady Graygown, seated on the shady
corner of the bridge with a book, swinging her feet
over the stream, while I set out to explore its further
course. Above the wood-road there were no more
fairy dells, nor easy-going estuaries. The water
came down through the most complicated piece of underbrush
that I have ever encountered. Alders and swamp
maples and pussy-willows and gray birches grew together
in a wild confusion. Blackberry bushes and fox-grapes
and cat-briers trailed and twisted themselves in an
incredible tangle. There was only one way to
advance, and that was to wade in the middle of the
brook, stooping low, lifting up the pendulous alder-branches,
threading a tortuous course, now under and now over
the innumerable obstacles, as a darning-needle is
pushed in and out through the yarn of a woollen stocking.
It was dark and lonely in that difficult
passage. The brook divided into many channels,
turning this way and that way, as if it were lost in
the woods. There were huge clumps of osmunda
regalis spreading their fronds in tropical profusion.
Mouldering logs were covered with moss. The water
gurgled slowly into deep corners under the banks.
Catbirds and blue jays fluttered screaming from the
thickets. Cotton-tailed rabbits darted away,
showing the white flag of fear. Once I thought
I saw the fuscous gleam of a red fox stealing silently
through the brush. It would have been no surprise
to hear the bark of a raccoon, or see the eyes of a
wildcat gleaming through the leaves.
For more than an hour I was pushing
my way through this miniature wilderness of half a
mile; and then I emerged suddenly, to find myself
face to face with - a railroad embankment
and the afternoon express, with its parlour-cars,
thundering down to Southampton!
It was a strange and startling contrast.
The explorer’s joy, the sense of adventure,
the feeling of wildness and freedom, withered and crumpled
somewhat preposterously at the sight of the parlour-cars.
My scratched hands and wet boots and torn coat seemed
unkempt and disreputable. Perhaps some of the
well-dressed people looking out at the windows of
the train were the friends with whom we were to dine
on Saturday. BATECHE! What would they say
to such a costume as mine? What did I care what
they said!
But, all the same, it was a shock,
a disenchantment, to find that civilization, with
all its absurdities and conventionalities, was so
threateningly close to my new-found wilderness.
My first enthusiasm was not a little chilled as I
walked back, along an open woodland path, to the bridge
where Graygown was placidly reading. Reading,
I say, though her book was closed, and her brown eyes
were wandering over the green leaves of the thicket,
and the white clouds drifting, drifting lazily across
the blue deep of the sky.
II. A BETTER ACQUAINTANCE
On the voyage home, she gently talked
me out of my disappointment, and into a wiser frame
of mind.
It was a surprise, of course, she
admitted, to find that our wilderness was so little,
and to discover the trail of a parlour-car on the edge
of Paradise. But why not turn the surprise around,
and make it pleasant instead of disagreeable?
Why not look at the contrast from the side that we
liked best?
It was not necessary that everybody
should take the same view of life that pleased us.
The world would not get on very well without people
who preferred parlour-cars to canoes, and patent-leather
shoes to India-rubber boots, and ten-course dinners
to picnics in the woods. These good people were
unconsciously toiling at the hard and necessary work
of life in order that we, of the chosen and fortunate
few, should be at liberty to enjoy the best things
in the world.
Why should we neglect our opportunities,
which were also our real duties? The nervous
disease of civilization might prevail all around us,
but that ought not to destroy our grateful enjoyment
of the lucid intervals that were granted to us by
a merciful Providence.
Why should we not take this little
untamed brook, running its humble course through the
borders of civilized life and midway between two flourishing
summer resorts, - a brook without a single
house or a cultivated field on its banks, as free
and beautiful and secluded as if it flowed through
miles of trackless forest, - why not take
this brook as a sign that the ordering of the universe
had a “good intention” even for inveterate
idlers, and that the great Arranger of the world felt
some kindness for such gipsy-hearts as ours?
What law, human or divine, was there to prevent us
from making this stream our symbol of deliverance
from the conventional and commonplace, our guide to
liberty and a quiet mind?
So reasoned Graygown with her
“most
silver flow
Of subtle-paced counsel
in distress.”
And, according to her word, so did
we. That lazy, idle brook became to us one of
the best of friends; the pathfinder of happiness on
many a bright summer day; and, through long vacations,
the faithful encourager of indolence.
Indolence in the proper sense of the
word, you understand. The meaning which is commonly
given to it, as Archbishop Trench pointed out in his
suggestive book about words and their
uses, is altogether false. To speak of indolence
as if it were a vice is just a great big verbal slander.
Indolence is a virtue. It comes
from two Latin words, which mean freedom from anxiety
or grief. And that is a wholesome state of mind.
There are times and seasons when it is even a pious
and blessed state of mind. Not to be in a hurry;
not to be ambitious or jealous or resentful; not to
feel envious of anybody; not to fret about to-day nor
worry about to-morrow, - that is the way
we ought all to feel at some time in our lives; and
that is the kind of indolence in which our brook faithfully
encouraged us.
’T is an age in which such encouragement
is greatly needed. We have fallen so much into
the habit of being always busy that we know not how
nor when to break it off with firmness. Our business
tags after us into the midst of our pleasures, and
we are ill at ease beyond reach of the telegraph and
the daily newspaper. We agitate ourselves amazingly
about a multitude of affairs, - the politics
of Europe, the state of the weather all around the
globe, the marriages and festivities of very rich
people, and the latest novelties in crime, none of
which are of vital interest to us. The more earnest
souls among us are cultivating a vicious tendency
to Summer Schools, and Seaside Institutes of Philosophy,
and Mountaintop Seminaries of Modern Languages.
We toil assiduously to cram something
more into those scrap-bags of knowledge which we fondly
call our minds. Seldom do we rest tranquil long
enough to find out whether there is anything in them
already that is of real value, - any native
feeling, any original thought, which would like to
come out and sun itself for a while in quiet.
For my part, I am sure that I stand
more in need of a deeper sense of contentment with
life than of a knowledge of the Bulgarian tongue, and
that all the paradoxes of Hegel would not do me so
much good as one hour of vital sympathy with the careless
play of children. The Marquis du Paty de l’Huitre
may espouse the daughter and heiress of the Honourable
James Bulger with all imaginable pomp, if he will.
CA NE M’INTRIGUE point du Tout.
I would rather stretch myself out on the grass and
watch yonder pair of kingbirds carrying luscious flies
to their young ones in the nest, or chasing away the
marauding crow with shrill cries of anger.
What a pretty battle it is, and in
a good cause, too! Waste no pity on that big
black ruffian. He is a villain and a thief, an
egg-stealer, an ogre, a devourer of unfledged innocents.
The kingbirds are not afraid of him, knowing that
he is a coward at heart. They fly upon him, now
from below, now from above. They buffet him from
one side and from the other. They circle round
him like a pair of swift gunboats round an antiquated
man-of-war. They even perch upon his back and
dash their beaks into his neck and pluck feathers
from his piratical plumage. At last his lumbering
flight has carried him far enough away, and the brave
little defenders fly back to the nest, poising above
it on quivering wings for a moment, then dipping down
swiftly in pursuit of some passing insect. The
war is over. Courage has had its turn. Now
tenderness comes into play. The young birds,
all ignorant of the passing danger, but always conscious
of an insatiable hunger, are uttering loud remonstrances
and plaintive demands for food. Domestic life
begins again, and they that sow not, neither gather
into barns, are fed.
Do you suppose that this wondrous
stage of earth was set, and all the myriad actors
on it taught to play their parts, without a spectator
in view? Do you think that there is anything
better for you and me to do, now and then, than to
sit down quietly in a humble seat, and watch a few
scenes in the drama? Has it not something to say
to us, and do we not understand it best when we have
a peaceful heart and free from dolor? That is
what in-Dolence means, and there are no better
teachers of it then the light-hearted birds and untoiling
flowers, commended by the wisest of all masters to
our consideration; nor can we find a more pleasant
pedagogue to lead us to their school than a small,
merry brook.
And this was what our chosen stream
did for us. It was always luring us away from
an artificial life into restful companionship with
nature.
Suppose, for example, we found ourselves
growing a bit dissatisfied with the domestic arrangements
of our little cottage, and coveting the splendours
of a grander establishment. An afternoon on the
brook was a good cure for that folly. Or suppose
a day came when there was an imminent prospect of
many formal calls. We had an important engagement
up the brook; and while we kept it we could think with
satisfaction of the joy of our callers when they discovered
that they could discharge their whole duty with a
piece of pasteboard. This was an altruistic pleasure.
Or suppose that a few friends were coming to supper,
and there were no flowers for the supper-table.
We could easily have bought them in the village.
But it was far more to our liking to take the children
up the brook, and come back with great bunches of wild
white honeysuckle and blue flag, or posies of arrowheads
and cardinal-flowers. Or suppose that I was very
unwisely and reluctantly labouring at some serious
piece of literary work, promised for the next number
of the SCRIBBLER’S review; and suppose that in the midst of
this labour the sad news came to me that the fisherman had forgotten to leave
any fish at our cottage that morning. Should my innocent babes and my
devoted wife be left to perish of starvation while I continued my poetical
comparison of the two Williams, Shakspeare and Watson? Inhuman
selfishness! Of course it was my plain duty to sacrifice my inclinations,
and get my fly-rod, and row away across the bay, with a deceptive appearance of
cheerfulness, to catch a basket of trout in -
III. THE SECRETS OF INTIMACY
There! I came within eight letters
of telling the name of the brook, a thing that I am
firmly resolved not to do. If it were an ordinary
fishless little river, or even a stream with nothing
better than grass-pike and sunfish in it, you should
have the name and welcome. But when a brook contains
speckled trout, and when their presence is known to
a very few persons who guard the secret as the dragon
guarded the golden apples of the Hesperides, and when
the size of the trout is large beyond the dreams of
hope, - well, when did you know a true angler
who would willingly give away the name of such a brook
as that? You may find an encourager of indolence
in almost any stream of the South Side, and I wish
you joy of your brook. But if you want to catch
trout in mine you must discover it for yourself, or
perhaps go with me some day, and solemnly swear secrecy.
That was the way in which the freedom
of the stream was conferred upon me. There was
a small boy in the village, the son of rich but respectable
parents, and an inveterate all-round sportsman, aged
fourteen years, with whom I had formed a close intimacy.
I was telling him about the pleasure of exploring
the idle brook, and expressing the opinion that in
bygone days, (in that mythical “forty years ago”
when all fishing was good), there must have been trout
in it. A certain look came over the boy’s
face. He gazed at me solemnly, as if he were
searching the inmost depths of my character before
he spoke.
“Say, do you want to know something?”
I assured him that an increase of
knowledge was the chief aim of my life.
“Do you promise you won’t tell?”
I expressed my readiness to be bound
to silence by the most awful pledge that the law would
sanction.
“Wish you may die?”
I not only wished that I might die,
but was perfectly certain that I would die.
“Well, what’s the matter
with catching trout in that brook now? Do you
want to go with me next Saturday? I saw four or
five bully ones last week, and got three.”
On the appointed day we made the voyage,
landed at the upper bridge, walked around by the woodpath
to the railroad embankment, and began to worm our
way down through the tangled wilderness. Fly-fishing,
of course, was out of the question. The only
possible method of angling was to let the line, baited
with a juicy “garden hackle,” drift down
the current as far as possible before you, under the
alder-branches and the cat-briers, into the holes
and corners of the stream. Then, if there came
a gentle tug on the rod, you must strike, to one side
or the other, as the branches might allow, and trust
wholly to luck for a chance to play the fish.
Many a trout we lost that day, - the largest
ones, of course, - and many a hook was embedded
in a sunken log, or hopelessly entwined among the
boughs overhead. But when we came out at the bridge,
very wet and disheveled, we had seven pretty fish,
the heaviest about half a pound. The Fairy Dell
yielded a brace of smaller ones, and altogether we
were reasonably happy as we took up the oars and pushed
out upon the open stream.
But if there were fish above, why
should there not be fish below? It was about
sunset, the angler’s golden hour. We were
already committed to the crime of being late for supper.
It would add little to our guilt and much to our pleasure
to drift slowly down the middle of the brook and cast
the artful fly in the deeper corners on either shore.
So I took off the vulgar bait-hook and put on a delicate
leader with a Queen of the Water for a tail-fly and
a Yellow Sally for a dropper, - innocent little
confections of feathers and tinsel, dressed on the
tiniest hooks, and calculated to tempt the appetite
or the curiosity of the most capricious trout.
For a long time the whipping of the
water produced no result, and it seemed as if the
dainty style of angling were destined to prove less
profitable than plain fishing with a worm. But
presently we came to an elbow of the brook, just above
the estuary, where there was quite a stretch of clear
water along the lower side, with two half-sunken logs
sticking out from the bank, against which the current
had drifted a broad raft of weeds. I made a long
cast, and sent the tail-fly close to the edge of the
weeds. There was a swelling ripple on the surface
of the water, and a noble fish darted from under the
logs, dashed at the fly, missed it, and whirled back
to his shelter.
“Gee!” said the boy, “that
was a whacker! He made a wake like a steamboat.”
It was a moment for serious thought.
What was best to be done with that fish? Leave
him to settle down for the night and come back after
him another day? Or try another cast for him
at once? A fish on Saturday evening is worth
two on Monday morning. I changed the Queen of
the Water for a Royal Coachman tied on a number fourteen
hook, - white wings, peacock body with a
belt of crimson silk, - and sent it out again,
a foot farther up the stream and a shade closer to
the weeds. As it settled on the water, there
was a flash of gold from the shadow beneath the logs,
and a quick turn of the wrist made the tiny hook fast
in the fish. He fought wildly to get back to
the shelter of his logs, but the four ounce rod had
spring enough in it to hold him firmly away from that
dangerous retreat. Then he splurged up and down
the open water, and made fierce dashes among the grassy
shallows, and seemed about to escape a dozen times.
But at last his force was played out; he came slowly
towards the boat, turning on his side, and I netted
him in my hat.
“Bully for us;” said the boy, “we
got him! What a dandy!”
It was indeed one of the handsomest
fish that I have ever taken on the South Side, - just
short of two pounds and a quarter, - small
head, broad tail, and well-rounded sides coloured
with orange and blue and gold and red. A pair
of the same kind, one weighing two pounds and the other
a pound and three quarters, were taken by careful
fishing down the lower end of the pool, and then we
rowed home through the dusk, pleasantly convinced
that there is no virtue more certainly rewarded than
the patience of anglers, and entirely willing to put
up with a cold supper and a mild reproof for the sake
of sport.
Of course we could not resist the
temptation to show those fish to the neighbours.
But, equally of course, we evaded the request to give
precise information as to the precise place where they
were caught. Indeed, I fear that there must have
been something confused in our description of where
we had been on that afternoon. Our carefully
selected language may have been open to misunderstanding.
At all events, the next day, which was the Sabbath,
there was a row of eager but unprincipled anglers
sitting on a bridge over another stream,
and fishing for trout with worms and large expectations,
but without visible results.
The boy and I agreed that if this
did not teach a good moral lesson it was not our fault.
I obtained the boy’s consent
to admit the partner of my life’s joys and two
of our children to the secret of the brook, and thereafter,
when we visited it, we took the fly-rod with us.
If by chance another boat passed us in the estuary,
we were never fishing, but only gathering flowers,
or going for a picnic, or taking photographs.
But when the uninitiated ones had passed by, we would
get out the rod again, and try a few more casts.
One day in particular I remember,
when Graygown and little Teddy were my companions.
We really had no hopes of angling, for the hour was
mid-noon, and the day was warm and still. But
suddenly the trout, by one of those unaccountable
freaks which make their disposition so interesting
and attractive, began to rise all about us in a bend
of the stream.
“Look!” said Teddy; “wherever
you see one of those big smiles on the water, I believe
there’s a fish!”
Fortunately the rod was at hand.
Graygown and Teddy managed the boat and the landing-net
with consummate skill. We landed no less than
a dozen beautiful fish at that most unlikely hour
and then solemnly shook hands all around.
There is a peculiar pleasure in doing
a thing like this, catching trout in a place where
nobody thinks of looking for them, and at an hour when
everybody believes they cannot be caught. It is
more fun to take one good fish out of an old, fished-out
stream, near at hand to the village, than to fill
a basket from some far-famed and well-stocked water.
It is the unexpected touch that tickles our sense
of pleasure. While life lasts, we are always
hoping for it and expecting it. There is no country
so civilized, no existence so humdrum, that there is
not room enough in it somewhere for a lazy, idle brook,
an encourager of indolence, with hope of happy surprises.