When Patricia awakened the next morning,
it was with the feeling that she had suffered some
terrible disappointment. As a child she remembered
experiencing the same sensation on the morning after
some tragedy that had resulted in her crying herself
to sleep. She opened her eyes and was conscious
that her lashes were wet with tears. Suddenly
the memory of the previous night’s adventure
came back to her with a rush and, with an angry dab
of the bedclothes, she wiped her eyes, just as the
maid entered with the cup of early-morning tea she
had specially ordered.
With inspiration she decided to breakfast
in bed. She could not face a whole table of
wide-eyed interrogation. “Oh, the cats!”
she muttered under her breath. “I hate
women!” Later she slipped out of the house
unobserved, with what she described to herself as a
“morning after the party” feeling.
She was puzzled to account for the tears. What
had she been dreaming of to make her cry?
Every time the thought of her adventure
presented itself, she put it resolutely aside.
She was angry with herself, angry with the world,
angry with one Lieutenant-Colonel Peter Bowen.
Why, she could not have explained.
“Oh, bother!” she exclaimed,
as she made a fourth correction in the same letter.
“Going out is evidently not good for you, Patricia.”
She spent the day alternately in wondering
what Bowen was thinking of her, and deciding that
he was not thinking of her at all. Finally,
with a feeling of hot shame, she remembered to what
thoughts she had laid herself open. Her one
consolation was that she would never see him again.
Then, woman-like, she wondered whether he would make
an effort to see her. Would he be content with
his dismissal?
For the first time during their association,
the rising politician was conscious that his secretary
was anxious to get off sharp to time. At five
minutes to five she resolutely put aside her notebook,
and banged the cover on to her typewriter. Mr.
Bonsor looked up at this unwonted energy and punctuality
on Patricia’s part, and with a tactful interest
in the affairs of others that he was endeavouring to
cultivate for political purposes, he enquired:
“Going out?”
“No,” snapped Patricia, “I’m
going home.”
Mr. Bonsor raised his eyebrows in
astonishment. He was a mild-mannered man who
had learned the value of silence when faced by certain
phases of feminine psychological phenomena.
He therefore made no comment; but he watched his secretary
curiously as she swiftly left the room.
Jabbing the pins into her hat and
throwing herself into her coat, Patricia was walking
down the steps of the rising politician’s house
in Eaton Square as the clock struck five. She
walked quickly in the direction of Sloane Square Railway
Station. Suddenly she slackened her speed.
Why was she hurrying home? She felt herself
blushing hotly, and became furiously angry as if discovered
in some humiliating act. Then with one of those
odd emotional changes characteristic of her, she smiled.
“Patricia Brent,” she
murmured, “I think a little walk won’t
do you any harm,” and she strolled slowly up
Sloane Street and across the Park to Bayswater.
Her hand trembled as she put the key
in the door and opened it. She looked swiftly
in the direction of the letter-rack; but her eyes were
arrested by two boxes, one very large and obviously
from a florist. A strange excitement seized
her. “Were they ?”
At that moment Miss Sikkum came out
of the lounge simpering.
“Oh, Miss Brent! have you seen your beautiful
presents?”
Then Patricia knew, and she became
angry with herself on finding how extremely happy
she was. Glancing almost indifferently at the
labels she proceeded to walk upstairs. Miss
Sikkum looked at her in amazement.
“But aren’t you going to open them?”
she blurted out.
“Oh! presently,” said
Patricia in an off-hand way, “I had no idea it
was so late,” and she ran upstairs, leaving Miss
Sikkum gazing after her in petrified astonishment.
That evening Patricia took more than
usual pains with her toilette. Had she paused
to ask herself why, she would have been angry.
When she came downstairs, the other
boarders were seated at the table, all expectantly
awaiting her entrance. On the table, in the front
of her chair, were the two boxes.
“I had your presents brought
in here, Miss Brent,” explained Mrs. Craske-Morton.
“Oh! I had forgotten all
about them,” said Patricia indifferently, “I
suppose I had better open them,” which she proceeded
to do.
The smaller box contained chocolates,
as Mr. Bolton put it, “evidently bought by the
hundred-weight.” The larger of the boxes
was filled with an enormous spray-bunch of white and
red carnations, tied with green silk ribbon, and on
the top of each box was a card, “With love from
Peter.”
Patricia’s cheeks burned.
She was angry, she told herself, yet there was a
singing in her heart and a light in her eyes that oddly
belied her. He had not forgotten! He had
dared to disobey her injunction; for, she told herself,
“good-bye” clearly forbade the sending
of flowers and chocolates. She was unconscious
that every eye was upon her, and the smile with which
she regarded now the flowers, now the chocolates,
was self-revelatory.
Mrs. Mosscrop-Smythe glanced significantly
at Miss Wangle, who, however, was too occupied in
watching Patricia with hawk-like intentness to be
conscious of anything but the quarry.
Suddenly Patricia remembered, and
her face changed. The flowers faded, the chocolates
lost their sweetness and the smile vanished.
The parted lips set in a firm but mobile line.
What had before been a tribute now became in her
eyes an insult. Men sent chocolates and flowers
to to “those women”!
If he respected her he would have done as she commanded
him, instead of which he had sent her presents.
Oh! it was intolerable.
“If I sent flowers and chocolates
to a lady friend,” said Mr. Bolton, “I
should expect her to look happier than you do, Miss
Brent.”
With an effort Patricia gathered herself
together and with a forced smile replied, “Ah!
Mr. Bolton, but you are different,” which seemed
to please Mr. Bolton mightily.
She was conscious that everyone was
looking at her in surprise not unmixed with disapproval.
She was aware that her attitude was not the conventional
pose of the happily-engaged girl. The situation
was strange. Even Mr. Cordal was bestowing upon
her a portion of his attention. It is true that
he was eating curry with a spoon, which required less
accuracy than something necessitating a knife and fork;
still at meal times it was unusual of him to be conscious
even of the existence of his fellow-boarders.
It was Gustave who relieved the situation
by handing to Patricia a telegram on the little tray
where the silver had long since given up the unequal
struggle with the base metal beneath. Patricia
with assumed indifference laid it beside her plate.
“The boy ees waiting, mees,” insinuated
Gustave.
Patricia tore open the envelope and
read: “May I come and see you this evening
dont say no peter.”
Patricia was conscious of her flushed
face and she felt irritated at her own weakness.
With a murmured apology to Mrs. Morton she rose from
the table and went into the lounge where she wrote
the reply: “Regret impossible remember
your promise,” then she paused. She did
not want to sign her full name, she could not sign
her Christian name she decided, so she compromised
by using initials only, “P.B.” She
took the telegram to the door herself, knowing that
otherwise poor Gustave’s life would be a misery
at the hands of Miss Wangle, Mrs. Mosscrop-Smythe
and the others.
“Why had she given the boy sixpence?”
she asked herself as she slowly returned to the dining-room.
Telegraph boys were paid. It was ridiculous
to tip them, especially when they brought undesirable
messages. “Was the message undesirable?”
someone within seemed to question. Of course
it was, and she was very angry with Bowen for not
doing as she had commanded him.
When Patricia returned to the table
and proceeded with the meal, she was conscious of
the atmosphere of expectancy around her. Everybody
wanted to know what was in the telegram.
At last Miss Wangle enquired, “No
bad news I hope, Miss Brent.”
Patricia looked up and fixed Miss
Wangle with a deliberate stare, which she meant to
be rude.
“None, Miss Wangle, thank you,” she replied
coldly.
The dinner proceeded until the sweet
was being served, when Gustave approached her once
more.
“You are wanted, mees, on the
telephone, please,” he said.
Patricia was conscious once more of
crimsoning as she turned to Gustave. “Please
say that I’m engaged,” she said.
Gustave left the dining-room.
Everybody watched the door in a fever of expectancy.
Two minutes later Gustave reappeared
and, walking softly up to Patricia’s chair,
whispered in a voice that could be clearly heard by
everyone, “It ees Colonel Baun, mees. He
wish to speak to you.”
“Tell him I’m at dinner,”
replied Patricia calmly. She could literally
hear the gasp that went round the table.
“But, Miss Brent,” began Mrs. Craske-Morton.
Patricia turned and looked straight
into Mrs. Craske-Morton’s eyes interrogatingly.
Gustave hesitated. Mrs. Craske-Morton collapsed.
Miss Wangle and Mrs. Mosscrop-Smythe exchanged meaning
glances. Little Mrs. Hamilton looked concerned,
almost a little sad. Patricia turned to Gustave.
“You heard, Gustave?”
“Yes, mees,” replied Gustave
and, turning reluctantly towards the door, he disappeared.
There was something in Patricia’s
demeanour that made it clear she would resent any
comment on her action, and the meal continued in silence.
Mr. Bolton made some feeble endeavours to lighten
the atmosphere; but he was not successful.
In the lounge a quarter of an hour
later, Gustave once more approached Patricia, this
time with a note.
“The boy ees waiting, mees,” he announced.
Patricia tore open the envelope and read:
“DEAR PATRICIA,
“Won’t you let me see
you? Please remember that even the under-dog
has his rights.
“Yours ever,
“PETER.”
“There is no answer, Gustave,”
said Patricia, and Gustave left the room disconsolately.
Half an hour later Gustave returned once more.
On his tray were three telegrams.
Patricia looked about her wildly. “Had
the man suddenly gone mad?” she asked herself.
“Tell the boy not to wait, Gustave,”
she said.
“There ees three boys, mees.”
The atmosphere was electrical.
Mr. Bolton laughed, then stopped suddenly.
Miss Sikkum simpered.
Patricia turned to Gustave with a
calmness that was not reflected in her cheeks.
“Tell the three boys not to wait, Gustave.”
“Yes, mees!” Gustave
slowly walked to the door. It was clear that
he could not reconcile with his standard of ethics
the allowing of three telegrams to remain unopened,
and to dismiss three boys without knowing whether
or no there really were replies. The same feeling
was reflected in the faces of Patricia’s fellow-boarders.
“Miss Brent must be losing a
lot of relatives, or coming into a lot of fortunes,”
remarked Mr. Bolton to Mrs. Hamilton.
Patricia preserved an outward calm
she was far from feeling. She rose and went
up to her room to discover from the three orange envelopes
what was the latest phase of Colonel Bowen’s
madness. Seated on her bed she opened the telegrams.
The first read:
“Will you go motoring with me on Sunday peter.”
No, she would do nothing of the kind.
The second said:
“If I have done anything to
offend you please tell me and forgive me peter.”
Of course he had done nothing, and
it was all very absurd. Why was he behaving
like a schoolboy?
The third was longer. It ran:
“I so enjoyed last night it
was the most delightful evening I have spent for many
a day please do not be too hard upon me peter.”
This was a tactical error. It
brought back to Patricia the whole incident.
It was utter folly to have placed herself in such
an impossible position. Obviously Bowen knew
nothing of women, or he would not have made such a
blunder as to remind her of what took place on the
previous night, unless unless
She hardly dare breathe the thought to herself.
What if he thought her different from what she actually
was? Could he confuse her with those
It was impossible!
She was angry; angry with him, angry
with herself, angry with the Quadrant Grill-room;
but angriest of all with Galvin House, which had precipitated
her into this adventure.
Why did silly women expect every girl
to marry? Why was it assumed because a woman
did not marry that no one wanted to marry her?
Patricia regarded herself in the looking-glass.
Was she really the sort of girl who might be taken
for an inveterate old maid? Her hands and feet
were small. Her ankles well-shaped. Her
figure had been praised, even by women. Her
hair was a natural red-auburn. Her features
regular, her mouth mobile, well-shaped with very red
lips. Her eyes a violet-blue with long dark lashes
and eyebrows.
“You’re not so bad, Patricia
Brent,” she remarked as she turned from the
glass. “But you will probably be a secretary
to the end of your days, drink cold weak tea, keep
a cat and get hard and angular, skinny most likely.
You’re just the sort that runs to skin and bone.”
She was interrupted in her meditations
by a knock at the door.
“Come in,” she called.
The door was softly opened and Mrs. Hamilton entered.
“May I come in, dear?”
she enquired in an apologetic voice, as she stood
on the threshold.
“Come in!” cried Patricia,
“why of course you may, you dear. You can
do anything you like with me.”
Mrs. Hamilton was small and white
and fragile, with a ray of sunlight in her soul.
She invariably dressed in grey, or blue-grey.
Everything she wore seemed to be as soft as her own
expression.
“I I came up I I hope
it is not bad news. I don’t want to meddle
in your affairs, my dear; but I am concerned.
If there is anything I can do, you will tell me,
won’t you? You won’t think me inquisitive,
will you?”
“Why you dear, silly little
thing, of course I don’t. Still it’s
just like your sweet self to come up and enquire.
It is only that ridiculous Colonel Bowen who is showering
telegrams on me in this way, in order, I suppose,
to benefit the revenue. I think he has gone mad.
Perhaps it’s shell-shock, poor thing. There
will most likely be another shower before we go to
bed. Now we will go downstairs and stop those
old pussies talking.”
“My dear!” expostulated Mrs. Hamilton.
Patricia laughed. “Yes, aren’t I
getting acid and spinsterish?”
As they walked downstairs Mrs. Hamilton said:
“I’m so anxious to see
him, my dear. Miss Wangle says he is so distinguished-looking.”
“Who?” enquired Patricia, with mock innocence.
“Colonel Bowen, dear.”
“Oh! Yes, he’s quite
a decent-looking old thing, and he’s given Galvin
House something to talk about, hasn’t he?”
In the lounge Patricia soon became
the centre of a group anxious for information; but
no one was daring enough to put direct questions to
her. Mrs. Craske-Morton ventured a suggestion
that Colonel Bowen might be coming to dine with Patricia,
and that she hoped Miss Brent would let her know in
good time, so that she might make special preparations.
Patricia replied without enthusiasm.
None was better aware than she that had her fiance
turned out to be a private, Mrs. Craske-Morton would
have been the last even to suggest that he should dine
at Galvin House. There would have been no question
of special preparations.
About ten o’clock Gustave entered
and approached Patricia. She groaned in spirit.
“You are wanted on the telephone, mees.”
Patricia thought she detected a note
of reproach in his voice, as if he were conscious
that a fellow-male was being badly treated.
“Will you say that I’m engaged?”
replied Patricia.
“It’s Colonel Baun, mees.”
For a moment Patricia hesitated.
She was conscious that Galvin House was against her
to a woman. After all there were limits beyond
which it would be unwise to go. Galvin House
had its standards, which had already been sorely tried.
Patricia felt rather than heard the whispered criticism
passing between Miss Wangle and Mrs. Mosscrop-Smythe.
Rising slowly with an air of reconciled martyrdom,
Patricia went to the telephone at the end of the hall,
followed by the smiling Gustave, who, like the rest
of Galvin House, had found his sense of decorum sorely
outraged by Patricia’s conduct.
“Hullo!” cried Patricia
into the mouthpiece of the telephone, her heart thumping
ridiculously.
Gustave walked tactfully away.
“That you, Patricia?” came the reply.
Patricia was conscious that all her anger had vanished.
“Yes, who is speaking?”
“Peter.”
“Yes.”
“How are you?”
“Did you ring me up to ask after my health?”
There was a laugh at the other end.
“Well!” enquired Patricia, who knew she
was behaving like a schoolgirl.
“Did you get my message?”
“I’m very angry.”
“Why?”
“Because you’ve made me
ridiculous with your telegrams, messenger-boys, and
telephoning.”
“May I call?”
“No.”
“I’m coming to-morrow night.”
“I shall be out.”
“Then I’ll wait until you return.”
“Are you playing the game, do you think?”
“I must see you. Expect me about nine.”
“I shall do nothing of the sort.”
“Please don’t be angry, Patricia.”
“Well! you mustn’t come,
then. Thank you for the chocolates and flowers.”
“That’s all right. Don’t forget
to-morrow at nine.”
“I tell you I shall be out.”
“Right-oh!”
“Good-bye!”
Without waiting for a reply, Patricia hung up the
receiver.
When she returned to the lounge her
cheeks were flushed, and she was feeling absurdly
happy. Then a moment after she asked herself
what it was to her whether he remembered or forgot
her. He was an entire stranger or
at least he ought to be.
Just as she was going up to her room
for the night, another telegram arrived. It
contained three words: “Good night peter.”
“Of all the ridiculous creatures!”
she murmured, laughing in spite of herself.