With savage pity Marjorie regarded
a sobbing girl whose face was distorted, and whose
palsied hands were trying to straighten her veil and
push back stray wisps of hair. Marjorie thought:
“What a fool she is to cry like that! Her
nose is red; she’s a sight. I can control
myself. I can control myself.”
An elderly man with an austere face,
standing beside Marjorie, started to light a cigarette.
His hands trembled violently and the match flickered
and went out.
Marjorie’s heart was beating
so fast that it made her feel sick.
A locomotive shrieked, adding its
voice to the roar of traffic at Victoria Station.
There came the pounding hiss of escaping steam.
The crowd pressed close to the rails and peered down
the foggy platform. A train had stopped, and
the engine was panting close to the gate-rail.
A few men in khaki were alighting from compartments.
In a moment there was a stamping of many feet, and
above the roar and confusion in the station rose the
eager voices of multitudes of boys talking, shouting,
calling to each other.
Marjorie saw Leonard before he saw
her. He was walking with three men joking,
laughing absent-mindedly, while his eyes searched for
a face in the crowd. She waited a moment, hidden,
suffocated with anticipation, her heart turning over
and over, until he said a nonchalant good-bye to his
companions, who were pounced upon by eager relatives.
Then she crept up behind and put both her hands about
his wrist.
“Hello, Len.”
Joy leaped to his eyes.
“Marjie!”
Impossible to say another word.
For seconds they became one of the speechless couples,
standing dumbly in the great dingy station, unnoticed
and unnoticing.
“Where’s the carriage?” said Leonard,
looking blindly about him.
“Outside, of course, Len.”
A crooked man in black livery, with
a cockade in his hat, who had been standing reverently
in the background, waddled forward, touching his hat.
“Well, Burns, how are you? Glad to see
you.”
“Very well, sir, and thank you,
sir. ’Appy, most ’appy to see you
back, sir. Pardon, sir, this way.”
His old face twitched and his eyes devoured the young
lieutenant.
A footman was standing at the horses’
heads, but the big bays, champing their bits, and
scattering foam, crouched away from the tall young
soldier when he put out a careless, intimate hand and
patted their snorting noses. He swaggered a little,
for all of a sudden he longed to put his head on their
arching necks and cry.
“You’ve got the old pair
out; I thought they had gone to grass,” he said
in his most matter-of-fact tone to the pink-faced footman,
who was hardly more than a child.
“Well, sir, the others were
taken by the Government. Madam gave them all
away except Starlight and Ginger Girl. There is
only me and Burns and another boy under military age
in the stables now, sir.”
Inside the carriage Leonard and Marjorie
were suddenly overawed by a strange, delicious shyness.
They looked at each other gravely, like two children
at a party, dumb, exquisitely thrilled. It was
ten months ago that they had said a half-tearful,
half-laughing good-bye to each other on the windy,
sunny pier at Hoboken. They had been in love two
months, and engaged two weeks. Leonard was sailing
for England to keep a rowing engagement, but he was
to return to America in a month. They were to
have an early autumn wedding. Marjorie chose her
wedding-dress and was busy with her trousseau.
She had invited her brides-maids. It was to be
a brilliant, conventional affair flowers,
music, countless young people dancing under festoons
and colored lights. In August the war broke out.
Leonard had been in training and at the front from
the first. Marjorie crossed the precarious ocean,
to be in England for his first leave. It was
now May: they were to be married at last.
“Marjie.”
“Len.”
“I have just four days, you
know, darling. That’s all I could get.
We’ve been transferred to the Dardanelles; else
I wouldn’t have got off at all.”
“Four days,” murmured
Marjorie. She looked up, and met his eyes, and
stared, and could not look away. “It’s
a long, long time, four days,” she said, without
knowing what she was saying. All at once she put
her hands over her eyes, and, pressing her head fiercely
against Leonard’s arm, she began to cry and
to laugh, continuing to repeat, senselessly, “It’s
a long, long time.”
And Leonard, trembling all over, kissed
her on the back of her head, which was all he could
reach.
They drew near to Richmond, the familiar
avenues and the cool, trim lawn, and the great trees.
Marjorie’s tongue all at once loosened; she
chattered whimsically, like an excited child.
“It’s home, home, home,
and they’re all waiting for us mater
and your father and all the family. He’s
been in a perfect state all day, poor old dear, though
he hasn’t an idea any one’s noticed it.
Little Herbert’s the only one that’s behaved
a bit natural and old Nannie. I’ve
been rushing about your room, sitting in all the chairs,
and saying, ’To-night he’ll be sitting
in this chair; to-night he may be standing in this
very spot before the fire; to-night he may be looking
out of this window.’ O, Len, we’re
to be married at half-past eight, and we’re
going in motors so as not to waste any time. I
haven’t even read over the marriage service.
I haven’t the vaguest idea what to do or say.
But what difference does that make! Do you see,
Len? Do you see?” She stopped and squeezed
Leonard’s hand, for she saw that he was suddenly
speechless. “There they are,” lifting
the blind, “mother and little Herbert; and see
the servants peeking from the wing.”
They swept grandly around the bend
in the avenue. The windows of the great house
blazed a welcome. All the sky was mother-of-pearl
and tender. In the air was the tang of spring.
In the white light Marjorie saw Leonard’s lips
quiver and he frowned. She had a sudden twinge
of jealousy, swallowed up by an immense tenderness.
“There’s mother,” he said.
“Hello, Len, old boy.”
His father was on the steps.
Leonard greeted him with the restraint and the jocose
matter-of-factness that exist between men who love
each other. He kissed his mother a little hungrily,
just as he had when he was a small boy back from his
first homesick term at Eton, and fluttered the heart
of that frail, austere lady, who had borne this big,
strapping boy a feat of which she was sedately
but passionately proud.
Little Herbert, all clumsiness and
fat legs and arms, did a good deal of hugging and
squealing, and Miss Shake, Leonard’s old governess,
wept discreetly and worshipfully in the background.
“Look at ’im! Ain’t
he grand? Glory be to God bless ’im,
my baby!” cried Irish Nannie, who had suckled
this soldier of England; and loudly she wept, her
pride and her joy unrebuked and unashamed.
At the risk of annoying Leonard, they
must follow him about, waiting upon him at tea-time,
touching him wistfully, wonderingly, for was it not
himself, their own Leonard, who had come back to them
for a few days? And instead of himself, it might
have been just a name, Leonard Leeds, one
among a list of hundreds of others; and written opposite
each name one of the three words, Wounded, Missing,
Dead.
Jealously his own family drew aside
and let Marjorie go upstairs with him alone.
She had the first right; she was his bride. Mr.
Leeds plucked little Herbert back by his sailor collar
and put his arm through his wife’s. Together
they watched the two slender figures ascending the
broad stair-case. Each parent was thinking, “He’s
hers now, and they’re young. We mustn’t
be selfish, they have such a short time to be happy
in, poor dears.”
“Looks fit, doesn’t he?”
said the father, cheerfully, patting his wife’s
arm. Inwardly he was thinking, “How fortunate
no woman can appreciate all that boy has been through!”
“Do you think so? I thought
he looked terribly thin,” she answered, absently.
To herself she was saying, “No one not
even his father will ever know what that
boy has seen and suffered.”
Little Herbert, watching with big
eyes, suddenly wriggled his hand from his father’s
grasp.
“Wait, Leonard, wait for me! I am coming!”
Upstairs old Nannie was officiating.
She was struggling with Leonard’s kit, which
resembled, she thought, more the rummage box of a gypsy
pedler than the luggage of a gentleman.
The young officer had taken off his
great-coat and was standing with his back to the hearth.
He loomed up very big in the demure room, a slender,
boyish figure, still too slim for his shoulder-width
and height, clad in a ragged uniform, a pistol bulging
from one hip at his belt. He looked about him
at the bright hangings, with a wandering gaze that
reverted to a spot of sunlight on Marjorie’s
hair and rested there.
“I’m all spinning round,”
he said with a puzzled smile, “like a dream.”
He continued to stare with dazed,
smiling eyes on the sunbeam. His hair was cropped
close like a convict’s, which accentuated the
leanness of his face and the taut, rigid lines about
his mouth. Under his discolored uniform, the
body was spare almost to the point of emaciation.
Through a rent in his coat, a ragged shirt revealed
the bare skin. He looked at it ruefully, still
smiling. “I’m rather a mess, I expect,”
he said. “Tried to fix up in the train,
but I was too far gone in dirt to succeed much.”
Marjorie, with the instinct of a kitten
that comforts its master, went up to him and rubbed
her head against the torn arm.
“Don’t,” he said,
hoarsely; “I’m too dirty.” He
put out a hand, and softly touched her dress.
“Is it pink?” he asked, “or does
it only look so in this light? It feels awfully
downy and nice.”
She noticed that two of his nails
were crushed and discolored, and the half of one was
torn away. She bent down and kissed it, to hide
the tears which were choking her. She felt his
eyes on her, and she knew that look which made her
whole being ache with tenderness that numb,
dazed look. She had seen it before in the eyes
of very young soldiers home on their first leave mute
young eyes that contained the unutterable secrets
of the battlefield, but revealed none. She had
seen them since she came to England, sitting with
their elders, gray-haired fathers who talked war,
war, war, while the young tongues once so
easily braggart remained speechless.
What had they seen, these silent youngsters sensitive,
joyous children, whom the present day had nurtured
so cleanly and so tenderly? Their bringing-up
had been the complex result of so much enlightened
effort. War, pestilence, famine, slaughter, were
only names in a history book to them. They thought
hardship was sport. A blithe summer month had
plunged them into the most terrible war of the scarred
old earth. The battlefields where they had mustered,
stunned, but tingling with vigor and eagerness, were
becoming the vast cemeteries of their generation.
The field where lay the young dead was their place
in the sun. The still hospital where lay the
maimed was their part in a civilization whose sincerity
they had trusted as little children trust in the perfection
of their parents.
Beside the army of maimed and fallen
boys was another shadowy army of girls in their teens
and sweet early twenties the unclaimed
contemporaries of a buried generation.
There was a fumbling at the door-handle
and a small, muffled voice came from the corridor:
“I say, Len; I say, Marjorie,
can I come in?” And in he walked, spotless and
engaging, in a white sailor suit with baggy long trousers,
his hair still wet from being tortured into corkscrew
curls. “I’m all dressed for the party,”
he announced; “I’m not going to bed at
all to-night.”
Marjorie tried to draw him into her
lap, but he eluded her with a resentful wiggle, and
walking up to Leonard, whacked him on the thigh and
looked up with a sly, beseeching glance which said,
“Whack me back. You play with me.
You notice me. I love you.”
His eyes were on a level with Leonard’s
pistol; he put his little pink face close to it lovingly,
but drew back again, puckering up his small nose.
“Oh, Leonard, you smell just
like a poor man!” he exclaimed.
Leonard grinned. “You never
got as near as this to any poor man who is half as
dirty as I am, old dear.”
“You’ve got just half
an hour to dress for dinner, and we’re due in
the church at eight,” said Marjorie.
She paused in the doorway, a slim
figure in a crumpled white dress.
Leonard stared at her blankly, and
then put out a bony arm and drew her to his side.
“It’s awfully tough on
you, honey, to have it this way; no new clothes or
anything fixed up, and,” he added, smiling and
closing his eyes, “coming away across the ocean
full of dirty little submarines to a bridegroom smelling
like a poor man! Jove! I want a bath!”
“Just as I was about to take
the liberty of remarking myself,” old Nannie
said. She was standing in the doorway, her arms
akimbo and her sleeves rolled up. “Captain
Leeds, it’s all ready.”
Leonard’s arms were still about
Marjorie. “Captain Leeds, otherwise known
as Lieutenant Leeds,” he said, “once known
as Leonard, presents his compliments to Mrs. Bridget
O’Garrity, nee Flannagan, and wishes her to
request Mr. Jakes, in the culinary regions, to draw
his bath and lay out his things and generally make
himself a nuisance. He will not permit Mrs. O’Garrity
to dress him.”
“Oh, now, Captain Leeds well
then, Leonard dearie, you bad boy,” wailed the
old woman reproachfully. “Mr. Jakes has
gone to the war, as has likewise all the men in the
house, and a good riddance it is, too. There
was a time when you weren’t too grand to let
your poor old Nannie wait on you. Why, Miss Marjorie,
I remember the time when he couldn’t ”
“No reminiscences!” broke
in Leonard, eyeing Nannie suspiciously. “You
have had so much experience with men you ought to know
how they hate it. Why, Marjorie, do you realize
that Nannie has had five husbands?”
“Oh, Master Leonard, indade,
it is only three!” cried Nannie, horrified.
“Seven,” Leonard insisted;
“it’s a compliment. It only shows
how fascinating you are with the polygamous sex.
It was seven, only two never showed up after the wedding.
I was to be the eighth, Marjie, only you came in between
us.”
“Master Leonard, I could smack
you for talking like that! Don’t listen
to ’im, Miss Marjorie.”
“Cheer up, old Nannie,”
continued Leonard; “there’s still Kitchener.
He’s a bachelor and a woman-hater, but then,
he’s never met you, and he’s even a greater
hero than I am.”
Nannie, aghast but delighted, advanced
toward Leonard, shaking her gray curls. “H’m,
h’m. Woman-haters, you say. I never
met one, indade.” Then, very coaxingly,
“Didn’t you bring your old Nannie a souvenir
from the war?”
“Rather,” said Leonard,
indicating with his chin the rent on his shoulder.
“How about this?”
“How about that?” said
Nannie, her old eyes in their deep furrows gleaming
with malice.
From behind her broad back she drew
forth a round metal object that flashed in the firelight.
“It’s a German helmet!” cried Marjorie.
“I want it!” shouted Herbert,
stretching up his arms for the flashing plaything.
“It’s mine,” coaxed
Marjorie, trying to wrest it from Nannie.
Leonard put out a swift hand, and
held it aloft by the spike.
“Let me try it on,” wheedled
Marjorie, coaxing down his arm.
“You look like a baby Valkyrie,”
said Leonard, placing the helmet on her head; but
he frowned.
Marjorie regarded herself in the mirror.
“This belonged to an officer of the Prussian
guard,” she said.
“It did. How did you know?”
Marjorie continued to stare at herself
in the mirror as if she saw something there behind
her own reflection. “The very first man
who was ever in love with me wore a helmet like this,”
she said, suddenly, lifting enigmatic and mischievous
eyes to Leonard.
“How many have there been since?” Leonard
smiled, lazily.
“I can remember only the first and the last,”
said Marjorie.
Leonard laughed, but he could not
see Marjorie’s face. She was standing looking
down at the gold eagle-crest, holding the helmet in
both hands, carefully, timidly, as if it were a loaded
weapon that might go off.
“Where did you get it, Len?” she asked,
gravely.
“There’s a crop of them coming up in France
this summer,” said Leonard.
“But seriously, Len?”
“Seriously, Marjorie.”
He took the helmet by the spike and put it on the
mantel. “Lord knows, I’m not presenting
that as a token of valor to any one. It belonged
to a poor chap who died on the field the night I was
wounded. My orderly packed it in my kit.”
Marjorie drew a deep breath.
“Oh, Len,” she whispered, staring at the
helmet. “How does it feel to kill a man?”
Leonard, smiling, shifted his position
and answered, “No different from killing your
first rabbit, if you don’t sit down on the bank
and watch it kick, and write poetry. Besides,
you always have the pleasure of thinking it’s
a German rabbit.”
“Oh, Len!”
“You’re just one in a
great big machine called England. It isn’t
your job to think,” Leonard said. “For
God’s sake, lamb, don’t cherish any fool
Yankee pacifist notions. We are going to beat
the Germans till every man Fritz of them is either
dead or can’t crawl off the field.”
His black fingers closed over Marjorie’s.
“Remember, after to-night you’re an Englishwoman.
You can’t be a little American mongrel any more;
not until I’m dead, anyway. Now I’ve
got you, I’ll never let you go!” He showed
his teeth in a fierce, defiant smile, in which there
was pathos. He knew what a life in the Dardanelles
was worth. He put his cropped head close to Marjorie’s.
“Do you hate me for that, Marjie?”
Marjorie, pressing against him, felt
the strength of his gaunt shoulder through his coat.
A sense of delicious fear stole over her, and the
savage which lies close to the surface in every woman
leaped within her.
“I love you for it!” she cried.
“Don’t rub your head against
my coat,” murmured Leonard; “there’s
bugs in it.”
They both laughed excitedly.