I.
Huet’ dich vor
Maegdelein,
Soehnelein, Soehnelein.-HEINE.
I do not know why people always spoke
of my friend Edmund Storm as a confirmed bachelor,
considering the fact that he was not far on the shady
side of thirty. It is true, he looked considerably
older, and had to all appearances entered that bloomless
and sapless period which with women is called “uncertain
age.” Nevertheless, I had a private conviction
that Storm might some fine day shed this dry and shrunken
chrysalis, and emerge in some brilliant and unexpected
form. I cannot imagine what ground I had for
such a belief; I only know that I always felt called
upon to combat the common illusion that he was by nature
and temperament set apart for eternal celibacy, or
even that he had ceased to be agitated by matrimonial
aspirations. I dimly felt that there was a sort
of refined cruelty in thus excluding a man from the
common lot of the race; men often have pity but seldom
love for those who either from eccentricity or peculiar
excellence separate themselves from the broad, warm
current of human life, having no part in the errors,
ideals, and aspirations of their more commonplace
brethren. Even a slight deviation from the physical
type of common manhood and womanhood, as for instance,
the possession of a sixth toe or finger, would in
the eyes of the multitude go far toward making a man
morally objectionable. It was, perhaps, because
I wished to save my friend Storm from this unenviable
lot that I always contended that he was yet a promising
candidate for matrimony.
Edmund Storm was a Norseman by birth,
but had emigrated some five or six years before I
made his acquaintance. Our first meeting was
brought about in rather a singular manner. I had
written an article in one of our leading newspapers,
commenting upon the characteristics of our Scandinavian
immigrants and indulging some fine theories, highly
eulogistic of the women of my native land. A few
days after the publication of this article, my pride
was seriously shocked by the receipt of a letter which
told me in almost so many words that I was a conceited
fool, with opinions worthy of a bedlam. The writer,
who professed to be better informed, added his name
and address, and invited me to call upon him at a
specified hour, promising to furnish me with valuable
material for future treatises on the same subject.
My curiosity naturally piqued, and, swallowing my humiliation
I determined to obey the summons. I found some
satisfaction in the thought that my unknown critic
resided in a very unfashionable neighborhood, and
mentally put him down as one of those half-civilized
boors whom the first breath of our republican air had
inflated a good deal beyond their natural dimensions.
I was therefore somewhat disconcerted when, after
having climbed half a dozen long staircases, I was
confronted with a pale, thin man, of calm, gentlemanly
bearing, with the unmistakable stamp of culture upon
his brow. He shook my hand with grave politeness,
and pointing to a huge arm-chair of antediluvian make,
invited me to be seated. The large, low-ceiled
room was filled with furniture of the most fantastic
styles;-tables and chairs with twisted
legs and scrolls of tarnished gilt; a solid-looking,
elaborately carved chiffonier, exhibiting Adam
and Eve in airy dishabille, sowing the seeds of mischief
for an unborn world; a long mirror in broad gilt frame
of the most deliciously quaint rococo, calling up
the images of slim, long-waisted ladies and powdered
gentlemen with wristbands of ancient lace, silk stockings,
and gorgeous coats, a la Louis XV. The
very air seemed to be filled with the vague musty
odor of by-gone times, and the impression grew upon
me that I had unawares stepped into a lumber-room,
where the eighteenth century was stowed away for safe-keeping.
“You see I have a weakness for
old furniture,” explained my host, while his
rigid features labored for an instant to adjust themselves
into something resembling a smile. I imagined
I could hear them creaking faintly in the effort like
tissue-paper when crumpled by an unwary hand.
I almost regretted my rudeness in having subjected
him to the effort. I noticed that he spoke with
a slow, laborious enunciation, as if he were fashioning
the words carefully in his mouth before making up
his mind to emit them. His thin, flexible lips
seemed admirably adapted for this purpose.
“It is the only luxury I allow
myself,” he continued, seeing that I was yet
ill at ease. “My assortment, as you will
observe, is as yet a very miscellaneous one, and I
do not know that I ever shall be able to complete
it.”
“You are a fortunate man,”
remarked I, “who can afford to indulge such
expensive tastes.”
“Expensive,” he repeated
musingly, as if that idea had never until then occurred
to him. “You are quite mistaken. Expensive,
as I understand the term, is not that which has a
high intrinsic worth, but that which can only be procured
at a price considerably above its real value.
In this sense, a hobby is not an expensive thing.
It is, as I regard it, one of the safest investments
life has to offer. An unambitious man like myself,
without a hobby, would necessarily be either an idler
or a knave. And I am neither the one nor the other.
The truth is, my life was very poorly furnished at
the start, and I have been laboring ever since to
supply the deficiency. I am one of those crude
colorless, superfluous products which Nature throws
off with listless ease in her leisure moments when
her thoughts are wandering and her strength has been
exhausted by some great and noble effort.”
Mr. Storm uttered these extraordinary
sentiments, not with a careless toss of the head,
and loud demonstrative ardor, but with a grave, measured
intonation, as if he were reciting from some tedious
moral book recommended by ministers of the gospel
and fathers of families. His long, dry face,
with its perpendicular wrinkles, and the whole absurd
proportion between his longitude and latitude, suggested
to me the idea that Nature had originally made him
short and stout, and then, having suddenly changed
her mind, had subjected him to a prolonged process
of stretching in order to adapt him to the altered
type. I had no doubt that if I could see those
parts of his body which were now covered, they would
show by longitudinal wrinkles the effects of this
hypothetical stretching. His features in their
original shape may have been handsome, although I
am inclined to doubt it; there were glimpses of fine
intentions in them, but, as a whole, he was right in
pronouncing them rather a second-rate piece of workmanship.
His nose was thin, sharp, and aquiline, and the bone
seemed to exert a severe strain upon the epidermis,
which was stretched over the projecting bridge with
the tensity of a drum-head. I will not reveal
what an unpleasant possibility this niggardliness
on Nature’s part suggested to me. His eyes
(the only feature in him which was distinctly Norse)
were of a warm gray tint, and expressed frank severity.
You saw at once that, whatever his eccentricities
might be, here was a Norseman in whom there was no
guile. It was these fine Norse eyes which at once
prepossessed me in Storm’s favor. They furnished
me approximately with the key-note to his character;
I knew that God did not expend such eyes upon any
but the rarest natures. Storm’s taste for
old furniture was no longer a mystery; in fact, I
began to suspect that there lurked a fantastic streak
of some warm, deep-tinged hue somewhere in his bony
composition, and my fingers began to itch with the
desire to make a psychological autopsy.
“Apropos of crude workmanship,”
began my host after a pause, during which he had been
examining his long fingers with an air of criticism
and doubtful approbation. “You know why
I wrote to you?”
I confessed that I was unable to guess his motive.
“Well, then, listen to me.
Your article was written with a good deal of youthful
power; but it was thoroughly false. You spoke
of what you did not know. I thought it was my
duty to guard you from future errors, especially as
I felt that you were a young man standing upon the
threshold of life, about to enter upon a career of
great mischief or great usefulness. Then you
are of my own blood-but there is no need
of apologies. You have come, as I thought you
would.”
“It was especially my sentiments
regarding Norsewomen, I believe, that you objected
to,” I said hesitatingly; for in spite of his
fine eyes, my friend still impressed me as an unknown
quantity, and I mentally labelled him x, and
determined by slow degrees to solve his equation.
“Yes,” he answered; “your
sentiments about Norsewomen, or rather about women
in general. They are made very much of the same
stuff the world over. I do not mind telling you
that I speak from bitter experience, and my words
ought, therefore, to have the more weight.”
“Your experience must have been
very wide,” I answered by way of pleasantry,
“since, as you hint, it includes the whole world.”
He stared for a moment, did not respond
to my smile, but continued in the same imperturbable
monotone:
“When God abstracted that seventh
or ninth rib from Adam, and fashioned a woman of it,
the result was, entre nous, nothing to boast
of. I have ever ceased to regret that Adam did
not wake up in time to thwart that hazardous experiment.
It may have been necessary to introduce some tragic
element into our lives, and if that was the intention,
I admit that the means were ingenious. To my mind
the only hope of salvation for the human race lies
in its gradual emancipation from that baleful passion
which draws men and women so irresistibly to each
other. Love and reason in a well-regulated human
being, form at best an armed neutrality, but can never
cordially co-operate. But few men arrive in this
life at this ideal state, and women never. As
it is now, our best energies are wasted in vain endeavors
to solve the matrimonial problem at the very time
when our vitality is greatest and our strength might
be expended with the best effect in the service of
the race, for the advancement of science, art, or industry.”
“But would you then abolish
marriage?” I ventured to ask. “That
would mean, as I understand it, to abolish the race
itself.”
“No,” he answered calmly.
“In my ideal state, marriage should be tolerated;
but it should be regulated by the government, with
a total disregard of individual preferences, and with
a sole view to the physical and intellectual improvement
of the race. There should be a permanent government
commission appointed, say one in each State consisting
of the most prominent scientists and moral teachers.
No marriage should be legal without being approved
and confirmed by them. Marriage, as it is at
present, is, in nine cases out of ten, an unqualified
evil; as Schopenhauer puts it, it halves our joys and
doubles our sorrows-”
“And triples our expenses,” I prompted,
laughing.
“And triples our expenses,”
he repeated gravely. “Talk about finding
your affinity and all that sort of stuff! Supposing
the world to be a huge bag, as in reality it is; then
take several hundred million blocks, representing
human beings, and label each one by pairs, giving
them a corresponding mark and color. Then shake
the whole bag violently, and you will admit that the
chances of an encounter between the two with the same
label are extremely slim. It is just so with
marriage. It is all chance-a heartless,
aimless, and cruel lottery. There are more valuable
human lives wrecked every hour of the day in this
dangerous game than by all the vices that barbarism
or civilization has ever invented.”
I hazarded some feeble remonstrance
against these revolutionary hérésies (as I conceived
them to be), but my opponent met me on all sides with
his inflexible logic. We spent several hours together
without at all approaching an agreement, and finally
parted with the promise to dine together and resume
the discussion the next day.
This was the beginning of my acquaintance
with the pessimist, Edmund Storm.
II.
“Freundschaft, Liebe,
Stein der Weisen,
Dièse Dreie hoert’
ich preisen,
Und ich pries
und suchte sie,
Aber ach! ich
fand sie nie.”-HEINE.
During the next two years there was
never a week, and seldom a day, when I did not see
Storm. We lunched together at a much-frequented
restaurant not far from Wall street, and my friend’s
sarcastic epigrams would do much to reconcile me to
my temperance habits by supplying in a more ethereal
form the stimulants with which others strove to facilitate
or to ruin their digestions.
“Existence is even at best a
doubtful boon,” he would say while he dissected
his beefsteak with the seriousness of a scientific
observer. “A man’s philosophy is
regulated by his stomach. No amount of stoicism
can reconcile a man to dyspepsia. If our nationality
were not by nature endowed with the digestion of a
boa-constrictor, I should seriously consider the propriety
of vanishing into the Nirvana.”
I often wondered what could be the
secret of Storm’s liking for me; for that he
liked me, in his own lugubrious fashion, there could
be no doubt. As for myself, I never could determine
how far I reciprocated his feeling. I should
hardly say that I loved him, but his talk fascinated
me, and it always irritated me to hear any one speak
ill of him. He was the very opposite of what
the world calls “a good fellow;” he did
not slap you on the shoulder and salute you with a
“Hallo, old boy!” and I am inclined to
think that he would have promptly resented any undue
familiarity. He was a man of the most exact habits,
painfully conscientious in all his dealings, and absolutely
devoid of vices, unless, indeed, his extravagance
in the purchase of old furniture might be classed
under that head. To people of slipshod habits,
his painstaking exactness was of course highly exasperating,
and I often myself felt that he was in need of a redeeming
vice. If I could have induced him to smoke, take
snuff, or indulge in a little innocent gambling, I
believe it would have given me a good deal of satisfaction.
Once, I remember, I exerted myself to the utmost to
beguile him into taking a humorous view of a mendacious
tramp, who, after having treated us to a highly pathetic
autobiography, importuned us for a quarter. But
no, Storm could see nothing but the moral hideousness
of the man, lectured him severely, and would have sent
him away unrewarded, if I had not temporarily suspended
my principles.
During our continued intercourse,
I naturally learned a good deal about my friend’s
previous life and occupation. He was of very good
family, had enjoyed an excellent university education,
and had the finest prospects of a prosperous career
at home, when, as far as I could ascertain, he took
a sudden freak to emigrate. He had inherited
a modest fortune, and now maintained himself as cashier
in a large tea importing house in the city. He
read the newspapers diligently, apparently with a
view to convincing himself of the universal wretchedness
of mankind in general and the American people in particular,
had a profound contempt for ambition of every sort,
believed nothing that life could offer worthy of an
effort, except-old furniture.
In the autumn of 187- he was taken
violently ill with inflammation of the lungs, and
I naturally devoted every evening to him that I could
spare from my work. He suffered acutely, but was
perfectly calm and hardly ever moved a muscle.
“I seldom indulge in the luxury
of whining,” he said to me once, as I was seated
at his bedside. “But, if I should die, as
I believe I shall, it would be a pity if the lesson
of my life should be lost to humanity. It is
the only valuable thing I leave behind me, except,
perhaps, my furniture, which I bequeath to you.”
He lay for a while looking with grave
criticism at his long, lean fingers, and then told
me the following story, of which I shall give a brief
resume.
Some ten years ago, while he was yet
in the university, he had made the acquaintance of
a young girl, Emily Gerstad, the daughter of a widow
in whose house he lived. She was a wild unruly
thing, full of coquettish airs, frivolous as a kitten,
but for all that, a phenomenon of most absorbing interest.
She was a blonde of the purest Northern type, with
a magnificent wealth of thick curly hair and a pair
of blue eyes, which seemed capable of expressing the
very finest things that God ever deposited in a woman’s
nature. It was useless to disapprove of her,
and to argue with her on the error of her ways was
a waste of breath: her moral nature was too fatally
flexible. She could assume with astonishing facility
a hundred different attitudes on the same question,
and acted the penitent, the indifferent, the defiant,
with such a perfection of art as really to deceive
herself. And in spite of all this, poor Storm
soon found that she had wound herself so closely about
his heart, that the process of unwinding, as he expressed
it, would require greater strength and a sterner philosophy
than he believed himself to possess. He had always
been shy of women, not because he distrusted them,
but because he was painfully conscious of being, in
point of physical finish, a second-rate article, a
bungling piece of work, and naturally felt his disadvantages
more keenly in the presence of those upon whom Nature
had expended all her best art. He was, according
to his own assertion, an idealist by temperament, and
had kept a sacred chamber in his heart where the vestal
fire burned with a pure flame. Now the deepest
strata of his being were stirred, and he loved with
an overwhelming fervor and intensity which fairly
frightened him. In a moment of abject despair
he proposed to Emily, and to his surprise was accepted.
And what was more, it was no comedy on her part; he
even now believed that she really loved him. All
the turbulent forces of her being were toned down
to a beautiful, womanly tenderness. She clung
to him with a passionate devotion which seemed to
be no less of a surprise to herself than it was to
him-clung to his stronger self, perhaps,
as a refuge from her own waywardness, listened with
a sweet, shame-faced happiness to his bright plans
for their common future, and shared his pleasures
and his light disappointments with an ardor and an
ever ready sympathy, as if her whole previous life
had been an education for this one end-to
be a perfect wife and to be his wife.
But alas, their happiness was of brief
duration. At the end of a year he had finished
his legal studies, and passed a brilliant examination.
An excellent situation was obtained for him in a small
town on the sea-coast, whither he removed and began
to prepare for the foundation of his home. It
was here he contracted his taste for quaint furniture,
all that was now left to him of his happiness-nay,
of his life. Suddenly, at the end of eight months,
she ceased writing to him-a fact which
after all, argued well for her sincerity; full of
apprehension, he hastened to the capital and found
her engaged to a young lieutenant,-a dashing,
hare-brained fellow, covered all over with gilt embroidery,
undeniably handsome, but otherwise of very little
worth. At least that was Storm’s impression
of him; he may have done him injustice, he added,
with his usual conscientiousness. A man who sees
the whole structure of his life tumbling down over
his head is not apt to take a charitable view of the
author of the ruin. A week later, Storm was on
his way to America,-that was the end of
the story.
Yes, if my friend had died, according
to his promise, the story would have ended here; but,
as for once, he broke his word, I am obliged to add
the sequel. I noticed that for some time after
his recovery he kept shy of me. As he afterward
plainly told me, he felt as if I had purloined a piece
of his most precious private property, in sharing a
grief which had hitherto been his own exclusive treasure.
III.
Fuercht’ dich nicht,
du liebes Kindchen,
Vor der boesen Geister
Macht;
Tag und Nacht,
du liebes Kindchen,
Halten Engel bei
dir Wacht.-HEINE.
Once, on a warm moonlight night in
September, Storm and I took a walk in the Park.
The night always tuned him into a gentle mood, and
I even suspect that he had some sentiment about it.
The currents of life, he said, then ran more serenely,
with a slower and healthier pulse-beat; the unfathomable
mysteries of life crowded in upon us; our shallow
individualities were quenched, and our larger human
traits rose nearer to the surface. The best test
of sympathy was a night walk; two persons who then
jarred upon each other might safely conclude that
they were constitutionally unsympathetic. He had
known silly girls who in moonlight were sublime; but
it was dangerous to build one’s hopes of happiness
upon this moonlight sublimity. Just as all complexions,
except positive black, were fair when touched by the
radiance of the night, so all shades of character,
except downright wickedness, borrowed a finer human
tinge under this illusory illumination. Thus
ran his talk, I throwing in the necessary expletives,
and as I am neither black nor absolutely wicked, I
have reason to believe that I appeared to good advantage.
“It is very curious about women,”
he broke forth after a long meditative pause.
“In spite of all my pondering on the subject,
I never quite could understand the secret of their
fascination. Their goodness, if they are good,
is usually of the quality of oatmeal, and when they
are bad-”
“‘They are horrid,’” I quoted
promptly.
“Amen,” he added with
a contented chuckle. “I never could see
the appropriateness of the Bible precept about coveting
your neighbor’s wife,” he resumed after
another brief silence. “I, for my part,
never found my neighbor’s wife worth coveting.
But I will admit that I have, in a few instances,
felt inclined to covet my neighbor’s child.
No amount of pessimism can quite fortify a man against
the desire to have children. A child is not always
a ‘thing of beauty,’ nor is it apt to
be a ‘joy for ever’; but I never yet met
the man who would not be willing to take his chances.
It is a confounded thing that the paternal instinct
is so deeply implanted, even in such a piece of dried-up
parchment as myself. It is like discovering a
warm, live vein of throbbing blood under the shrivelled
skin of an Egyptian mummy.”
We sauntered on for more than an hour,
now plunging into dense masses of shadow, now again
emerging into cool pathways of light. The conversation
turned on various topics, all of which Storm touched
with a kindlier humor than was his wont. The
world was a failure, but for all that, it was the
part of a wise man to make the best of it as it was.
The clock in some neighboring tower struck ten; we
took a street-car and rode home. As we were about
to alight (I first, and Storm following closely after
me), I noticed a woman with a wild, frightened face
hurrying away from the street-lamp right in front of
us. My friend, owing either to his near-sightedness,
or his preoccupation, had evidently not observed her.
We climbed the long dimly lighted stairs to his room,
and both stumbled at the door against a large basket.
“That detestable washwoman!”
he muttered. “How often have I told her
not to place her basket where everybody is sure to
run into it!”
He opened the door and I carried the
basket into the room, while he struck a match and
lighted the drop-light on the table.
“Excuse me for a moment,”
he went on, stooping to lift the cloth which covered
the basket. “I want to count-Gracious
heavens! what is this?” he cried suddenly, springing
up as if he had stepped on something alive; then he
sank down into an arm-chair, and sat staring vacantly
before him. In the basket lay a sleeping infant,
apparently about eight months old. As soon as
I had recovered from my first astonishment, I bent
down over it and regarded it attentively. It was
a beautiful, healthy-looking child,-not
a mere formless mass of fat with hastily sketched
features, as babes of that age are apt to be.
Its face was of exquisite finish, a straight, well-modelled
little nose, a softly defined dimpled little chin,
and a fresh, finely curved mouth, through which the
even breath came and went with a quiet, hardly perceptible
rhythm. It was all as sweet, harmonious, and
artistically perfect as a Tennysonian stanza.
The little waif won my heart at once, and it was a
severe test of my self-denial that I had to repress
my desire to kiss it. I somehow felt that my friend
ought to be the first to recognize it as a member
of his household.
“Storm,” I said, looking
up at his pale, vacant face. “It is a dangerous
thing to covet one’s neighbor’s child.
But, if you don’t adopt this little dumb supplicant,
I fear you will tempt me to break the tenth commandment.
I believe there is a clause there about coveting children.”
Storm opened his eyes wide, and with
an effort to rouse himself, pushed back the chair
and knelt down at the side of the basket. With
a gentle movement he drew off the cover under which
the child slept, and discovered on its bosom a letter
which he eagerly seized. As he glanced at the
direction of the envelope, his face underwent a marvellous
change; it was as if a mask had suddenly been removed,
revealing a new type of warmer, purer, and tenderer
manhood.
The letter read as follows:
“DEAREST EDMUND:
It has gone all wrong with me. You
know I would not come to if there was any other
hope left. As for myself, I do not care what becomes
of me, but you will not forsake my little girl.
Will you dear Edmund? I know you will not.
I promise you, I shall never claim her back.
She shall be yours always. Her name is Ragna;
she was born February 25th, and was christened two
months later. I have prayed to God that she
may bring happiness into your life, that she may expiate
the wrong her mother did you.
I was not married until five years after
you left me. It is a great sin to say it, but
I always hoped that you would come back to me I did
not know then how great my wrong was. Now I know
it and I have ceased to hope. Do not try to
find me. It will be useless. I shall never
willingly cross your path, dear Edmund. I have
learned that happiness never comes where I am; and
I would not darken your life again,-no
I would not, so help me God! Only forgive me,
if you can, and do not say anything bad about me
to my child-ah! what a horrible thought!
I did not mean to ask you that, because I know how
good you are. I am so wild with strange thoughts,
so dazed and bewildered that I do not know what
I am saying. Farewell, dear Edmund.-Your,
EMILY.
If you should decide not to keep my little
girl (as I do not think you will), send a line addressed
E.H.H., to the personal column in the ‘N.Y.
Herald.’ But do not try to find me.
I shall answer you in the same way and tell you
where to send the child. E.H.”
This letter was not shown to me until
several years after, but even then the half illegible
words, evidently traced with a trembling hand, the
pathetic abruptness of the sentences, sounding like
the grief-stricken cries of a living voice, and the
still visible marks of tears upon the paper, made
an impression upon me which is not easily forgotten.
In the meanwhile Storm, having read
and reread the letter, was lifting his strangely illumined
eyes to the ceiling.
“God be praised,” he said
in a trembling whisper. “I have wronged
her, too, and I did not know it. I will be a
father to her child.”
The little girl, who had awaked, without
signalling the fact in the usual manner, fixed her
large, fawn-like eyes upon him in peaceful wonder.
He knelt down once more, took her in his arms, and
kissed her gravely and solemnly. It was charming
to see with what tender awkwardness he held her, as
if she were some precious thing made of frail stuff
that might easily be broken. My curiosity had
already prompted me to examine the basket, which contained
a variety of clean, tiny articles,-linen,
stockings, a rattle with the distinct impress of its
nationality, and several neatly folded dresses, among
which a long, white, elaborately embroidered one,
marked by a slip of paper as “Baby’s Christening
Robe.”
I will not reproduce the long and
serious consultation which followed; be it sufficient
to chronicle the result. I hastened homeward,
and had my landlady, Mrs. Harrison, roused from her
midnight slumbers; she was, as I knew, a woman of
strong maternal instincts, who was fond of referring
to her experience in that line,-a woman
to whom your thought would naturally revert in embarrassing
circumstances. She responded promptly and eagerly
to my appeal; the situation evidently roused all the
latent romance of her nature, and afforded her no small
satisfaction. She spent a half hour in privacy
with the baby, who re-appeared fresh and beaming in
a sort of sacerdotal Norse night-habit which was a
miracle of neatness.
“Bless her little heart,”
ejaculated Mrs. Harrison, as the small fat hands persisted
in pulling her already demoralized side curls.
“She certainly knows me;” then in an aside
to Storm: “The mother, whoever she may
be, sir, is a lady. I never seed finer linen as
long as I lived; and every single blessed piece is
embroidered with two letters which I reckon means
the name of the child.”
Storm bowed his head silently and
sighed. But when the baby, after having rather
indifferently submitted to a caress from me, stretched
out its arms to him and consented with great good humor
to a final good-night kiss, large tears rolled down
over his cheeks, while he smiled, as I thought only
the angels could smile.
I am obliged to add before the curtain
is dropped upon this nocturnal drama, that my friend
was guilty of an astonishing piece of Vandalism.
When my landlady had deposited the sleeping child in
his large, exquisitely carved and canopied bed (which,
as he declared, made him feel as if a hundred departed
grandees were his bed-fellows), we both went in to
have a final view of our little foundling. As
we stood there, clasping each other’s hands
in silence, Storm suddenly fixed his eyes with a savage
glare upon one of the bed-posts which contained a
tile of porcelain, representing Joseph leaving his
garment in the hand of Potiphar’s wife; on the
post opposite was seen Samson sheared of his glory
and Delilah fleeing through the opened door with his
seven locks in her hand; a third represented Jezebel
being precipitated from a third-story window, and
the subject of the fourth I have forgotten. It
was a remnant of the not always delicate humor of
the seventeenth century. My friend, with a fierce
disgust, strangely out of keeping with his former
mood, pulled a knife from his pocket, and deliberately
proceeded to demolish the precious tiles. When
he had succeeded in breaking out the last, he turned
to me and said:
“I have been an atrocious fool.
It is high time I should get to know it.”
A week later I found four new tiles
with designs of Fra Angelico’s angels installed
in the places of the reprobate Biblical women.
IV.
“Wer zum ersten
Male liebt,
Sei es auch gluecklos
ist ein Gott.”-HEINE.
During the following week, Storm and
I, with the aid of the police, searched New York from
one end to the other; but Emily must have foreseen
the event, and covered up her tracks carefully.
Our seeking was all in vain. In the meanwhile
the baby was not neglected; my friend’s third
room, which had hitherto done service as a sort of
state parlor, was consecrated as a nursery, a stout
German nurse was procured, and much time was devoted
to the designing of a cradle (an odd mixture of the
Pompeiian and the Eastlake style), which was well
calculated to stimulate whatever artistic sense our
baby may have been endowed with. If it had been
heir to a throne, its wants could not have been more
carefully studied. Storm was as flexible as wax
in its tiny hand. Life had suddenly acquired
a very definite meaning to him; he had discovered
that he had a valuable stake in it. Strange as
it may seem, the whole gigantic world, with its manifold
and complicated institutions, began to readjust itself
in his mind with sole reference to its possible influence
upon the baby’s fate. Political questions
were no longer convenient pegs to hang pessimistic
epigrams on, but became matters of vital interest
because they affected the moral condition of the country
in which the baby was to grow up. Socialistic
agitations, which a dispassionate bachelor could afford
to regard with philosophic indifference, now presented
themselves as diabolical plots to undermine the baby’s
happiness, and deprive her of whatever earthly goods
Providence might see fit to bestow upon her, and so
on, ad infinitum. From a radical, with
revolutionary sympathies, my friend in the course
of a year blossomed out into a conservative Philistine
with a decided streak of optimism, and all for the
sake of the baby. It was very amusing to listen
to his solemn consultations with the nurse every morning
before he betook himself to the office, and to watch
the lively, almost child-like interest with which,
on returning in the evening, he listened to her long-winded
report of the baby’s wonderful doings during
the day. On Sundays, when he always spent the
whole afternoon at home, I often surprised him in the
most undignified attitudes, creeping about on the
floor with the little girl riding on his back, or
stretched out full length with his head in her lap,
while she was gracious enough to interest herself
in his hair, and even laughed and cooed with much
inarticulate contentment. At such times, when,
perhaps, through the disordered locks, I caught a glimpse
of a beaming happy face (for my visits were never
of sufficient account to interfere with baby’s
pleasures), I would pay my respectful tribute to the
baby, acknowledging that she possessed a power, the
secret of which I did not know.
But in spite of all this, I did not
fail to detect that Storm’s life was not even
now without its sorrow. At our luncheons, I often
saw a sad and thoughtful gloom settling upon his features;
it was no longer the bitter reviling grief of former
years, but a deep and mellow sadness, a regretful
dwelling on mental images which were hard to contemplate
and harder still to banish.
“Do you know,” he exclaimed
once, as he felt that I had divined his thoughts,
“her face haunts me night and day! I feel
as if my happiness in possessing the child were a
daily robbery from her. I have continued my search
for her up to this hour, but I have found no trace
of her. Perhaps if you will help me, I shall not
always be seeking in vain.”
I gave him my hand silently across
the table; he shook it heartily, and we parted.
It was about a month after this occurrence
that I happened to be sitting on one of the benches
near the entrance to Central Park. That restless
spring feeling which always attacks me somewhat prematurely
with the early May sunshine, had beguiled me into taking
a holiday, and with a book, which had been sent me
for review, lying open upon my knees, I was watching
the occupants of the baby carriages which were being
wheeled up and down on the pavement in front of me.
Presently I discovered Storm’s nurse seated on
a bench near by in eager converse with a male personage
of her own nationality. The baby, who was safely
strapped in the carriage at the roadside, was pleasantly
occupied in venting her destructive instincts upon
a linen edition of “Mother Goose.”
As I arose to get a nearer view of the child, I saw
a slender, simply dressed lady, with a beautiful but
careworn face, evidently approaching with the same
intention. At the sight of me she suddenly paused;
a look of recognition seemed to be vaguely struggling
in her features,-she turned around, and
walked rapidly away. The thought immediately
flashed through me that it was the same face I had
seen under the gas-lamp on the evening when the child
was found. Moreover, the type, although not glaringly
Norse, corresponded in its general outline to Storm’s
description. Fearing to excite her suspicion,
I forced my face into the most neutral expression,
stooped down to converse with the baby, and then sauntered
off with a leisurely air toward “Ward’s
Indian Hunter.” I had no doubt that if
the lady were the child’s mother, she would soon
reappear; and I need not add that my expectations
proved correct. After having waited some fifteen
minutes, I saw her returning with swift, wary steps
and watchful eyes, like some lithe wild thing that
scents danger in the air. As she came up to the
nurse, she dropped down into the seat with a fine
affectation of weariness, and began to chat with an
attempt at indifference which was truly pathetic.
Her eyes seemed all the while to be devouring the
child with a wild, hungry tenderness. Suddenly
she pounced upon it, hugged it tightly in her arms,
and quite forgetting her rôle, strove no more
to smother her sobs. The nurse was greatly alarmed;
I heard her expostulating, but could not distinguish
the words. The child cried. Suddenly the
lady rose, explained briefly, as I afterward heard,
that she had herself lately lost a child, and hurried
away. At a safe distance I followed her, and
succeeded in tracking her nearly a mile down Broadway,
where she vanished into what appeared to be a genteel
dressmaking establishment. By the aid of a friend
of mine, a dealer in furnishing goods, whom I thought
it prudent to take into my confidence, I ascertained
that she called herself Mrs. Helm (an ineffectual
disguise of the Norwegian Hjelm), that she was a widow
of quiet demeanor and most exemplary habits, and that
she had worked as a seamstress in the establishment
during the past four months. My friend elicited
these important facts under the pretence of wishing
to employ her himself in the shirtmaking department
of his own business.
Having through the same agency obtained
the street and number of her boarding-place, I visited
her landlady, who dispelled my last doubts, and moreover,
informed me (perhaps under the impression that I was
a possible suitor) that Mrs. Helm was as fine a lady
as ever trod God’s earth, and a fit wife for
any man. The same evening I conveyed to Storm
the result of my investigations.
He sat listening to me with a grave
intensity of expression, which at first I hardly knew
how to interpret. Now and then I saw his lips
quivering, and as I described the little scene with
the child in the park, he rose abruptly and began
to walk up and down on the floor. As I had finished,
he again dropped down into the chair, raised his eyes
devoutly to the ceiling, and murmured:
“Thank God!”
Thus he sat for a long while, sometimes
moving his lips inaudibly, and seemingly unconscious
of my presence. Then suddenly he sprang up and
seized his hat and cane.
“It was number 532?” he
said, laying hold of the door-knob.
“Yes,” I answered, “but
you surely do not intend to see her to-night.”
“Yes, I do.”
“But it is after nine o’clock, and she
may-”
But he was already half way down the stairs.
Through a dense, drizzling rain which
made the gas-lights across the street look like moons
set in misty auréoles, Storm hastened on until
he reached the unaristocratic locality of Emily’s
dwelling. He rang the door-bell, and after some
slight expostulation with the servant was permitted
to enter. Groping his way through a long, dimly-lit
hall, he stumbled upon a staircase, which he mounted,
and paused at the door which had been pointed out
to him. A slender ray of light stole out through
the key-hole, piercing the darkness without dispelling
it. Storm hesitated long at the door before making
up his mind to knock; a strange quivering agitation
had come upon him, as if he were about to do something
wrong. All sorts of wild imaginings rushed in
upon him, and in his effort to rid himself of them
he made an unconscious gesture, and seized hold of
the door-knob. A hasty fluttering motion was
heard from within, and presently the door was opened.
A fair and slender lady with a sweet pale face stood
before him; in one hand she held a needle, and in
the other a bright-colored garment which resembled
a baby’s jacket. He felt rather than saw
that he was in Emily’s presence. His head
and his heart seemed equally turbulent. A hundred
memories from the buried past rose dimly into sight,
and he could not chase them away. It was so difficult,
too, to identify this grave and worn, though still
young face, with that soft, dimpled, kitten-like Emily,
who had conquered his youth and made his life hers.
Ah! poor little dimpled Emily; yes, he feared she would
never return to him. And he sighed at the thought
that she had probably lost now all that charming naughtiness
which he had once spent so much time in disapproving
of. He was suddenly roused from these reflections
by a vague, half-whispered cry; Emily had fled to
the other end of the room, thrown herself on the bed,
and pressed her face hard down among the pillows.
It was an act which immediately recalled the Emily
of former days, a childish, and still natural motion
like that of some shy and foolish animal which believes
itself safe when its head is hidden. Storm closed
the door, walked up to the bed, and seated himself
on a hard, wooden chair.
“Emily,” he said at last.
She raised herself abruptly on her
arms, and gazed at him over her shoulder with large,
tearless, frightened eyes.
“Edmund,” she whispered doubtfully.
“Edmund.”
“Yes, Emily,” he answered
in a soothing voice, as one speaks to a frightened
child. “I have come to see you and to speak
with you.”
“You have come to see me, Edmund,”
she repeated mechanically. Then, as if the situation
were gradually dawning upon her, “You have come
to see me.”
His rôle had appeared so easy
as he had hastily sketched it on the way,-gratitude
on her part, forgiveness on his, and then a speedy
reconciliation. But it was the exquisite delicacy
of Storm’s nature which made him shrink from
appearing in any way to condescend, to patronize,
to forgive, where perhaps he needed rather to be forgiven.
A strange awkwardness had come over him. He felt
himself suddenly to be beyond his depth. How
unpardonably blunt and masculinely obtuse he had been
in dealing with this beautiful and tender thing, which
God had once, for a short time, intrusted to his keeping!
How cruel and wooden that moral code of his by which
he had relentlessly judged her, and often found her
wanting! What an effort it must have cost her
finer-grained organism to assimilate his crude youthful
maxims, what suffering to her tiny feet to be plodding
wearily in his footsteps over the thorny moral wastes
which he had laid behind him! All this came to
him, as by revelation, as he sat gazing into Emily’s
face, which looked very pathetic just then, with its
vague bewilderment and its child-like surrender of
any attempt to explain what there was puzzling in
the situation. Storm was deeply touched.
He would fain have spoken to her out of the fulness
of his heart; but here again that awkward morality
of his restrained him. There were, unfortunately,
some disagreeable questions to be asked first.
Storm stared for a while with a pondering
look at the floor; then he carefully knocked a speck
of dust from the sleeve of his coat.
“Emily,” he said at last,
solemnly. “Is your husband still alive?”
It was the bluntest way he could possibly
have put it, and he bit his lip angrily at the thought
of his awkwardness.
“My husband,” answered
Emily, suddenly recovering her usual flute-like voice
(and it vibrated through him like an electric shock)-“is
he alive? No, he is dead-was killed
in the Danish war.”
“And were you very happy with
him, Emily? Was he very good to you?”
It was a brutish question to ask,
and his ears burned uncomfortably; but there was no
help for it.
“I was not happy,” answered
she simply, and with an unthinking directness, as
if the answer were nothing but his due; “because
I was not good to him. I did not love him, and
I never would have married him if mother had not died.
But then, there was no one left who cared for me.”
A blessed sense of rest stole over
him; he lifted his grave eyes to hers, took her listless
hand and held it close in his. She did not withdraw
it, nor did she return his pressure.
“Emily, my darling,” he
said, while his voice shook with repressed feeling
(the old affectionate names rose as of themselves to
his lips, and it seemed an inconceivable joy to speak
them once more); “you must have suffered much.”
“I think I have deserved it,
Edmund,” she answered with a little pout and
a little quiver of her upper lip. “After
all, the worst was that I had to lose my baby.
But you are very good to her, Edmund, are you not?”
Her eyes now filled with tears, and
they began to fall slowly, one by one, down over her
cheeks.
“Yes, darling,” he broke
forth,-the impulse of tenderness now overmastering
all other thoughts. “And I will be good
to you also, Emily, if you will only let me.”
He had risen and drawn her lithe,
unresisting form to his bosom. She wept silently,
a little convulsive sob now and then breaking the
stillness.
“You will not leave me again,
Edmund, will you?” she queried, with a sweet,
distressed look, as if the very thought of being once
more alone made her shudder.
“No, Emily dear, I will never leave you.”
“Can you believe me, Edmund?”
she began suddenly, after a long pause. “I
have always been true to you.”
He clasped her face between his palms,
drew it back to gaze at it, and then kissed her tenderly.
“God bless you, darling!”
he whispered, folding her closely in his arms, as
if he feared that some one might take her away from
him.
How he would love and keep and protect
her-this poor bruised little creature,
whom he had once so selfishly abandoned at the very
first suspicion of disloyalty! As she stood there,
nestling so confidingly against his bosom, his heart
went out to her with a great yearning pity, and he
thanked God even for the long suffering and separation
which had made their love the more abiding and sacred.
The next day Storm and Emily were
quietly married, and the baby and I were present as
witnesses. They now live in a charming little
cottage on the Jersey side, which is to me a wonder
of taste and comfort. Out of my friend’s
miscellaneous assortment of ancient furniture his wife
has succeeded in creating a series of the quaintest,
most fascinating boudoirs and parlors and bedrooms-everything,
as Storm assures me, historically correct and in perfect
style and keeping; so that, in walking through the
house, you get a whiff of at least three distinct
centuries. To quote Storm once more, he sleeps
in the sober religious atmosphere of the German Reformation,
with its rational wood-tints and solid oaken carvings,
dines amid the pagan splendors of the Italian Renaissance,
and receives company among the florid conventionalities
of the French rococo period.