On the second day of June, 186 ,
a young Norseman, Halfdan Bjerk by name, landed on
the pier at Castle Garden. He passed through the
straight and narrow gate where he was asked his name,
birthplace, and how much money he had, at
which he grew very much frightened.
“And your destination?” demanded
the gruff-looking functionary at the desk.
“America,” said the youth, and touched
his hat politely.
“Do you think I have time for
joking?” roared the official, with an oath.
The Norseman ran his hand through
his hair, smiled his timidly conciliatory smile, and
tried his best to look brave; but his hand trembled
and his heart thumped away at an alarmingly quickened
tempo.
“Put him down for Nebraska!”
cried a stout red-cheeked individual (inwrapped in
the mingled fumes of tobacco and whisky) whose function
it was to open and shut the gate.
“There ain’t many as go to Nebraska.”
“All right, Nebraska.”
The gate swung open and the pressure
from behind urged the timid traveler on, while an
extra push from the gate-keeper sent him flying in
the direction of a board fence, where he sat down and
tried to realize that he was now in the land of liberty.
Halfdan Bjerk was a tall, slender-limbed
youth of very delicate frame; he had a pair of wonderfully
candid, unreflecting blue eyes, a smooth, clear, beardless
face, and soft, wavy light hair, which was pushed back
from his forehead without parting. His mouth and
chin were well cut, but their lines were, perhaps,
rather weak for a man. When in repose, the ensemble
of his features was exceedingly pleasing and somehow
reminded one of Correggio’s St. John. He
had left his native land because he was an ardent
republican and was abstractly convinced that man, generically
and individually, lives more happily in a republic
than in a monarchy. He had anticipated with keen
pleasure the large, freely breathing life he was to
lead in a land where every man was his neighbor’s
brother, where no senseless traditions kept a jealous
watch over obsolete systems and shrines, and no chilling
prejudice blighted the spontaneous blossoming of the
soul.
Halfdan was an only child. His
father, a poor government official, had died during
his infancy, and his mother had given music lessons,
and kept boarders, in order to gain the means to give
her son what is called a learned education. In
the Latin school Halfdan had enjoyed the reputation
of being a bright youth, and at the age of eighteen,
he had entered the university under the most promising
auspices. He could make very fair verses, and
play all imaginable instruments with equal ease, which
made him a favorite in society. Moreover, he possessed
that very old-fashioned accomplishment of cutting
silhouettes; and what was more, he could draw the
most charmingly fantastic arabesques for embroidery
patterns, and he even dabbled in portrait and landscape
painting. Whatever he turned his hand to, he
did well, in fact, astonishingly well for a dilettante,
and yet not well enough to claim the title of an artist.
Nor did it ever occur to him to make such a claim.
As one of his fellow-students remarked in a fit of
jealousy, “Once when Nature had made three geniuses,
a poet, a musician, and a painter, she took all the
remaining odds and ends and shook them together at
random and the result was Halfdan Bjerk.”
This agreeable melange of accomplishments, however,
proved very attractive to the ladies, who invited the
possessor to innumerable afternoon tea-parties, where
they drew heavy drafts on his unflagging patience,
and kept him steadily engaged with patterns and designs
for embroidery, leather flowers, and other dainty knickknacks.
And in return for all his exertions they called him
“sweet” and “beautiful,” and
applied to him many other enthusiastic adjectives
seldom heard in connection with masculine names.
In the university, talents of this order gained but
slight recognition, and when Halfdan had for three
years been preparing himself in vain for the examen
philosophicum, he found himself slowly and imperceptibly
drifting into the ranks of the so-called studiosi
perpetui, who preserve a solemn silence at the examination
tables, fraternize with every new generation of freshmen,
and at last become part of the fixed furniture of their
Alma Mater. In the larger American colleges, such
men are mercilessly dropped or sent to a Divinity
School; but the European universities, whose tempers
the centuries have mellowed, harbor in their spacious
Gothic bosoms a tenderer heart for their unfortunate
sons. There the professors greet them at the
green tables with a good-humored smile of recognition;
they are treated with gentle forbearance, and are allowed
to linger on, until they die or become tutors in the
families of remote clergymen, where they invariably
fall in love with the handsomest daughter, and thus
lounge into a modest prosperity.
If this had been the fate of our friend
Bjerk, we should have dismissed him here with a confident
“vale” on his life’s pilgrimage.
But, unfortunately, Bjerk was inclined to hold the
government in some way responsible for his own poor
success as a student, and this, in connection with
an aesthetic enthusiasm for ancient Greece, gradually
convinced him that the republic was the only form of
government under which men of his tastes and temperament
were apt to flourish. It was, like everything
that pertained to him, a cheerful, genial conviction,
without the slightest tinge of bitterness. The
old institutions were obsolete, rotten to the core,
he said, and needed a radical renovation. He
could sit for hours of an evening in the Students’
Union, and discourse over a glass of mild toddy, on
the benefits of universal suffrage and trial by jury,
while the picturesqueness of his language, his genial
sarcasms, or occasional witty allusions would call
forth uproarious applause from throngs of admiring
freshmen. These were the sunny days in Halfdan’s
career, days long to be remembered. They came
to an abrupt end when old Mrs. Bjerk died, leaving
nothing behind her but her furniture and some trifling
debts. The son, who was not an eminently practical
man, underwent long hours of misery in trying to settle
up her affairs, and finally in a moment of extreme
dejection sold his entire inheritance in a lump to
a pawnbroker (reserving for himself a few rings and
trinkets) for the modest sum of 250 dollars specie.
He then took formal leave of the Students’ Union
in a brilliant speech, in which he traced the parallelisms
between the lives of Pericles and Washington, in
his opinion the two greatest men the world had ever
seen, expounded his theory of democratic
government, and explained the causes of the rapid
rise of the American Republic. The next morning
he exchanged half of his worldly possessions for a
ticket to New York, and within a few days set sail
for the land of promise, in the far West.
II
From Castle Garden, Halfdan made his
way up through Greenwich street, pursued by a clamorous
troop of confidence men and hotel runners.
“Kommen Sie mit
mir. Ich bin auch Deutsch,”
cried one. “Voila, voila, je
parle Francais,” shouted another, seizing
hold of his valise. “Jeg er Dansk.
Tale Dansk,” roared a third, with an accent
which seriously impeached his truthfulness. In
order to escape from these importunate rascals, who
were every moment getting bolder, he threw himself
into the first street-car which happened to pass;
he sat down, gazed out of the windows and soon became
so thoroughly absorbed in the animated scenes which
moved as in a panorama before his eyes, that he quite
forgot where he was going. The conductor called
for fares, and received an English shilling, which,
after some ineffectual expostulation, he pocketed,
but gave no change. At last after about an hour’s
journey, the car stopped, the conductor called out
“Central Park,” and Halfdan woke up with
a start. He dismounted with a timid, deliberate
step, stared in dim bewilderment at the long rows
of palatial residences, and a chill sense of loneliness
crept over him. The hopeless strangeness of everything
he saw, instead of filling him with rapture as he had
once anticipated, Sent a cold shiver to his heart.
It is a very large affair, this world of ours a
good deal larger than it appeared to him gazing out
upon it from his snug little corner up under the Pole;
and it was as unsympathetic as it was large; he suddenly
felt what he had never been aware of before that
he was a very small part of it and of very little
account after all. He staggered over to a bench
at the entrance to the park, and sat long watching
the fine carriages as they dashed past him; he saw
the handsome women in brilliant costumes laughing and
chatting gayly; the apathetic policemen promenading
in stoic dignity up and down upon the smooth pavements;
the jauntily attired nurses, whom in his Norse innocence
he took for mothers or aunts of the children, wheeling
baby-carriages which to Norse eyes seemed miracles
of dainty ingenuity, under the shady crowns of the
elm-trees. He did not know how long he had been
sitting there, when a little bright-eyed girl with
light kid gloves, a small blue parasol and a blue
polonaise, quite a lady of fashion en miniature, stopped
in front of him and stared at him in shy wonder.
He had always been fond of children, and often rejoiced
in their affectionate ways and confidential prattle,
and now it suddenly touched him with a warm sense
of human fellowship to have this little daintily befrilled
and crisply starched beauty single him out for notice
among the hundreds who reclined in the arbors, or
sauntered to and fro under the great trees.
“What is your name, my little
girl?” he asked, in a tone of friendly interest.
“Clara,” answered the
child, hesitatingly; then, having by another look
assured herself of his harmlessness, she added:
“How very funny you speak!”
“Yes,” he said, stooping
down to take he tiny begloved hand. “I do
not speak as well as you do, yet; but I shall soon
learn.”
Clara looked puzzled.
“How old are you?” she
asked, raising her parasol, and throwing back her
head with an air of superiority.
“I am twenty-four years old.”
She began to count half aloud on her
fingers: “One, two, three, four,”
but, before she reached twenty, she lost her patience.
“Twenty-four,” she exclaimed,
“that is a great deal. I am only seven,
and papa gave me a pony on my birthday. Have you
got a pony?”
“No; I have nothing but what
is in this valise, and you know I could not very well
get a pony into it.”
Clara glanced curiously at the valise
and laughed; then suddenly she grew serious again,
put her hand into her pocket and seemed to be searching
eagerly for something. Presently she hauled out
a small porcelain doll’s head, then a red-painted
block with letters on it, and at last a penny.
“Do you want them?” she
said, reaching him her treasures in both hands.
“You may have them all.”
Before he had time to answer, a shrill,
penetrating voice cried out:
“Why, gracious! child, what are you doing?”
And the nurse, who had been deeply
absorbed in “The New York Ledger,” came
rushing up, snatched the child away, and retreated
as hastily as she had come.
Halfdan rose and wandered for hours
aimlessly along the intertwining roads and footpaths.
He visited the menageries, admired the statues, took
a very light dinner, consisting of coffee, sandwiches,
and ice, at the Chinese Pavilion, and, toward evening,
discovered an inviting leafy arbor, where he could
withdraw into the privacy of his own thoughts, and
ponder upon the still unsolved problem of his destiny.
The little incident with the child had taken the edge
off his unhappiness and turned him into a more conciliatory
mood toward himself and the great pitiless world,
which seemed to take so little notice of him.
And he, who had come here with so warm a heart and
so ardent a will to join in the great work of human
advancement to find himself thus harshly
ignored and buffeted about, as if he were a hostile
intruder! Before him lay the huge unknown city
where human life pulsated with large, full heart-throbs,
where a breathless, weird intensity, a cold, fierce
passion seemed to be hurrying everything onward in
a maddening whirl, where a gentle, warm-blooded enthusiast
like himself had no place and could expect naught
but a speedy destruction. A strange, unconquerable
dread took possession of him, as if he had been caught
in a swift, strong whirlpool, from which he vainly
struggled to escape. He crouched down among the
foliage and shuddered. He could not return to
the city. No, no: he never would return.
He would remain here hidden and unseen until morning,
and then he would seek a vessel bound for his dear
native land, where the great mountains loomed up in
serene majesty toward the blue sky, where the pine-forests
whispered their dreamily sympathetic legends, in the
long summer twilights, where human existence flowed
on in calm beauty with the modest aims, small virtues,
and small vices which were the happiness of modest,
idyllic souls. He even saw himself in spirit
recounting to his astonished countrymen the wonderful
things he had heard and seen during his foreign pilgrimage,
and smiled to himself as he imagined their wonder
when he should tell them about the beautiful little
girl who had been the first and only one to offer him
a friendly greeting in the strange land. During
these reflections he fell asleep, and slept soundly
for two or three hours. Once, he seemed to hear
footsteps and whispers among the trees, and made an
effort to rouse himself, but weariness again overmastered
him and he slept on. At last, he felt himself
seized violently by the shoulders, and a gruff voice
shouted in his ear:
“Get up, you sleepy dog.”
He rubbed his eyes, and, by the dim
light of the moon, saw a Herculean policeman lifting
a stout stick over his head. His former terror
came upon him with increased violence, and his heart
stood for a moment still, then, again, hammered away
as if it would burst his sides.
“Come along!” roared the
policeman, shaking him vehemently by the collar of
his coat.
In his bewilderment he quite forgot
where he was, and, in hurried Norse sentences, assured
his persecutor that he was a harmless, honest traveler,
and implored him to release him. But the official
Hercules was inexorable.
“My valise, my valise;”
cried Halfdan. “Pray let me get my valise.”
They returned to the place where he
had slept, but the valise was nowhere to be found.
Then, with dumb despair he resigned himself to his
fate, and after a brief ride on a street-car, found
himself standing in a large, low-ceiled room; he covered
his face with his hands and burst into tears.
“The grand-the happy republic,”
he murmured, “spontaneous blossoming of the
soul. Alas! I have rooted up my life; I fear
it will never blossom.”
All the high-flown adjectives he had
employed in his parting speech in the Students’
Union, when he paid his enthusiastic tribute to the
Grand Republic, now kept recurring to him, and in
this moment the paradox seemed cruel. The Grand
Republic, what did it care for such as he? A
pair of brawny arms fit to wield the pick-axe and to
steer the plow it received with an eager welcome;
for a child-like, loving heart and a generously fantastic
brain, it had but the stern greeting of the law.
III
The next morning, Halfdan was released
from the Police Station, having first been fined five
dollars for vagrancy. All his money, with the
exception of a few pounds which he had exchanged in
Liverpool, he had lost with his valise, and he had
to his knowledge not a single acquaintance in the
city or on the whole continent. In order to increase
his capital he bought some fifty “Tribunes,”
but, as it was already late in the day, he hardly
succeeded in selling a single copy. The next
morning, he once more stationed himself on the corner
of Murray street and Broadway, hoping in his innocence
to dispose of the papers he had still on hand from
the previous day, and actually did find a few customers
among the people who were jumping in and out of the
omnibuses that passed up and down the great thoroughfare.
To his surprise, however, one of these gentlemen returned
to him with a very wrathful countenance, shook his
fist at him, and vociferated with excited gestures
something which to Halfdan’s ears had a very
unintelligible sound. He made a vain effort to
defend himself; the situation appeared so utterly
incomprehensible to him, and in his dumb helplessness
he looked pitiful enough to move the heart of a stone.
No English phrase suggested itself to him, only a
few Norse interjections rose to his lips.
The man’s anger suddenly abated; he picked up
the paper which he had thrown on the sidewalk, and
stood for a while regarding Halfdan curiously.
“Are you a Norwegian?” he asked.
“Yes, I came from Norway yesterday.”
“What’s your name?”
“Halfdan Bjerk.”
“Halfdan Bjerk! My stars!
Who would have thought of meeting you here! You
do not recognize me, I suppose.”
Halfdan declared with a timid tremor
in his voice that he could not at the moment recall
his features.
“No, I imagine I must have changed
a good deal since you saw me,” said the man,
suddenly dropping into Norwegian. “I am
Gustav Olson, I used to live in the same house with
you once, but that is long ago now.”
Gustav Olson to be sure,
he was the porter’s son in the house, where
his mother had once during his childhood, taken a flat.
He well remembered having clandestinely traded jack-knives
and buttons with him, in spite of the frequent warnings
he had received to have nothing to do with him; for
Gustav, with his broad freckled face and red hair,
was looked upon by the genteel inhabitants of the
upper flats as rather a disreputable character.
He had once whipped the son of a colonel who had been
impudent to him, and thrown a snow-ball at the head
of a new-fledged lieutenant, which offenses he had
duly expiated at a house of correction. Since
that time he had vanished from Halfdan’s horizon.
He had still the same broad freckled face, now covered
with a lusty growth of coarse red beard, the same
rebellious head of hair, which refused to yield to
the subduing influences of the comb, the same plebeian
hands and feet, and uncouth clumsiness of form.
But his linen was irreproachable, and a certain dash
in his manner, and the loud fashionableness of his
attire, gave unmistakable evidences of prosperity.
“Come, Bjerk,” said he
in a tone of good-fellowship, which was not without
its sting to the idealistic republican, “you
must take up a better business than selling yesterday’s
`Tribune.’ That won’t pay here, you
know. Come along to our office and I will see
if something can’t be done for you.”
“But I should be sorry to give
you trouble,” stammered Halfdan, whose native
pride, even in his present wretchedness, protested
against accepting a favor from one whom he had been
wont to regard as his inferior.
“Nonsense, my boy. Hurry
up, I haven’t much time to spare. The office
is only two blocks from here. You don’t
look as if you could afford to throw away a friendly
offer.”
The last words suddenly roused Halfdan
from his apathy; for he felt that they were true.
A drowning man cannot afford to make nice distinctions cannot
afford to ask whether the helping hand that is extended
to him be that of an equal or an inferior. So
he swallowed his humiliation and threaded his way
through the bewildering turmoil of Broadway, by the
side of his officious friend.
They entered a large, elegantly furnished
office, where clerks with sleek and severely apathetic
countenances stood scribbling at their desks.
“You will have to amuse yourself
as best you can,” said Olson. “Mr.
Van Kirk will be here in twenty minutes. I haven’t
time to entertain you.”
A dreary half hour passed. Then
the door opened and a tall, handsome man, with a full
grayish beard, and a commanding presence, entered and
took his seat at a desk in a smaller adjoining office.
He opened, with great dispatch, a pile of letters
which lay on the desk before him, called out in a
sharp, ringing tone for a clerk, who promptly appeared,
handed him half-a-dozen letters, accompanying each
with a brief direction, took some clean paper from
a drawer and fell to writing. There was something
brisk, determined, and business-like in his manner,
which made it seem very hopeless to Halfdan to appear
before him as a petitioner. Presently Olson entered
the private office, closing the door behind him, and
a few minutes later re-appeared and summoned Halfdan
into the chief’s presence.
“You are a Norwegian, I hear,”
said the merchant, looking around over his shoulder
at the supplicant, with a preoccupied air. “You
want work. What can you do?”
What can you do? A fatal question.
But here was clearly no opportunity for mental debate.
So, summoning all his courage, but feeling nevertheless
very faint, he answered:
“I have passed both examen
artium and philosophicum, and got my
laud clear in the former, but in the latter haud
on the first point.”
Mr. Van Kirk wheeled round on his
chair and faced the speaker:
“That is all Greek to me,”
he said, in a severe tone. “Can you keep
accounts?”
“No. I am afraid not.”
Keeping accounts was not deemed a
classical accomplishment in Norway. It was only
“trade-rats” who troubled themselves about
such gross things, and if our Norseman had not been
too absorbed with the problem of his destiny, he would
have been justly indignant at having such a question
put to him.
“Then you don’t know book-keeping?”
“I think not. I never tried it.”
“Then you may be sure you don’t
know it. But you must certainly have tried your
hand at something. Is there nothing you can think
of which might help you to get a living?”
“I can play the piano and and
the violin.”
“Very well, then. You may
come this afternoon to my house. Mr. Olson will
tell you the address. I will give you a note to
Mrs. Van Kirk. Perhaps she will engage you as
a music teacher for the children. Good morning.”
IV
At half-past four o’clock in
the afternoon, Halfdan found himself standing in a
large, dimly lighted drawing-room, whose brilliant
upholstery, luxurious carpets, and fantastically twisted
furniture dazzled and bewildered his senses.
All was so strange, so strange; nowhere a familiar
object to give rest to the wearied eye. Wherever
he looked he saw his shabbily attired figure repeated
in the long crystal mirrors, and he became uncomfortably
conscious of his threadbare coat, his uncouth boots,
and the general incongruity of his appearance.
With every moment his uneasiness grew; and he was
vaguely considering the propriety of a precipitate
flight, when the rustle of a dress at the farther
end of the room startled him, and a small, plump lady,
of a daintily exquisite form, swept up toward him,
gave a slight inclination of her head, and sank down
into an easy-chair:
“You are Mr. ,
the Norwegian, who wishes to give music lessons?”
she said, holding a pair of gold-framed eyeglasses
up to her eyes, and running over the note which she
held in her hand. It read as follows:
Dear Martha, The
bearer of this note is a young Norwegian, I forgot
to ascertain his name, a friend of Olson’s.
He wishes to teach music. If you can help the
poor devil and give him something to do, you will
oblige, Yours, H. V. K.
Mrs. Van Kirk was evidently, by at
least twelve years, her husband’s junior, and
apparently not very far advanced in the forties.
Her blonde hair, which was freshly crimped, fell lightly
over her smooth, narrow forehead; her nose, mouth
and chin had a neat distinctness of outline; her complexion
was either naturally or artificially perfect, and
her eyes, which were of the purest blue, had, owing
to their near-sightedness, a certain pinched and scrutinizing
look. This look, which was without the slightest
touch of severity, indicating merely a lively degree
of interest, was further emphasized by three small
perpendicular wrinkles, which deepened and again relaxed
according to the varying intensity of observation
she bestowed upon the object which for the time engaged
her attention.
“Your name, if you please?”
said Mrs. Van Kirk, having for awhile measured her
visitor with a glance of mild scrutiny.
“Halfdan Bjerk.”
“Half-dan B , how do
you spell that?”
“B-j-e-r-k.”
“B-jerk. Well, but I mean, what is your
name in English?”
Halfdan looked blank, and blushed to his ears.
“I wish to know,” continued
the lady energetically, evidently anxious to help
him out, “what your name would mean in plain
English. Bjerk, it certainly must mean something.”
“Bjerk is a tree a birch-tree.”
“Very well, Birch, that
is a very respectable name. And your first name?
What did you say that was?
“H-a-l-f-d-a-n.”
“Half Dan. Why not a whole
Dan and be done with it? Dan Birch, or rather
Daniel Birch. Indeed, that sounds quite Christian.”
“As you please, madam,” faltered the victim,
looking very unhappy.
“You will pardon my straightforwardness,
won’t you? B-jerk. I could never pronounce
that, you know.”
“Whatever may be agreeable to you, madam, will
be sure to please me.”
“That is very well said.
And you will find that it always pays to try to please
me. And you wish to teach music? If you have
no objection I will call my oldest daughter.
She is an excellent judge of music, and if your playing
meets with her approval, I will engage you, as my husband
suggests, not to teach Edith, you understand, but my
youngest child, Clara.”
Halfdan bowed assent, and Mrs. Van
Kirk rustled out into the hall where she rang a bell,
and re-entered. A servant in dress-coat appeared,
and again vanished as noiselessly as he had come.
To our Norseman there was some thing weird and uncanny
about these silent entrances and exits; he could hardly
suppress a shudder. He had been accustomed to
hear the clatter of people’s heels upon the
bare floors, as they approached, and the audible crescendo
of their footsteps gave one warning, and prevented
one from being taken by surprise. While absorbed
in these reflections, his senses must have been dormant;
for just then Miss Edith Van Kirk entered, unheralded
by anything but a hovering perfume, the effect of
which was to lull him still deeper into his wondering
abstraction.
“Mr. Birch,” said Mrs.
Van Kirk, “this is my daughter Miss Edith,”
and as Halfdan sprang to his feet and bowed with visible
embarrassment, she continued:
“Edith, this is Mr. Daniel Birch,
whom your father has sent here to know if he would
be serviceable as a music teacher for Clara. And
now, dear, you will have to decide about the merits
of Mr. Birch. I don’t know enough about
music to be anything of a judge.”
“If Mr. Birch will be kind enough
to play,” said Miss Edith with a languidly musical
intonation,” I shall be happy to listen to him.”
Halfdan silently signified his willingness
and followed the ladies to a smaller apartment which
was separated from the drawing-room by folding doors.
The apparition of the beautiful young girl who was
walking at his side had suddenly filled him with a
strange burning and shuddering happiness; he could
not tear his eyes away from her; she held him as by
a powerful spell. And still, all the while he
had a painful sub-consciousness of his own unfortunate
appearance, which was thrown into cruel relief by
her splendor. The tall, lithe magnificence of
her form, the airy elegance of her toilet, which seemed
the perfection of self-concealing art, the elastic
deliberateness of her step all wrought
like a gentle, deliciously soothing opiate upon the
Norseman’s fancy and lifted him into hitherto
unknown regions of mingled misery and bliss.
She seemed a combination of the most divine contradictions,
one moment supremely conscious, and in the next adorably
child-like and simple, now full of arts and coquettish
innuendoes, then again naïve, unthinking and almost
boyishly blunt and direct; in a word, one of those
miraculous New York girls whom abstractly one may
disapprove of, but in the concrete must abjectly adore.
This easy predominance of the masculine heart over
the masculine reason in the presence of an impressive
woman, has been the motif of a thousand tragedies
in times past, and will inspire a thousand more in
times to come.
Halfdan sat down at the grand piano
and played Chopin’s Nocturne in G major, flinging
out that elaborate filigree of sound with an impetuosity
and superb abandon which caused the ladies to
exchange astonished glances behind his back.
The transitions from the light and ethereal texture
of melody to the simple, more concrete theme, which
he rendered with delicate shadings of articulation,
were sufficiently startling to impress even a less
cultivated ear than that of Edith Van Kirk, who had,
indeed, exhausted whatever musical resources New York
has to offer. And she was most profoundly impressed.
As he glided over the last pianissimo notes toward
the two concluding chords (an ending so characteristic
of Chopin) she rose and hurried to his side with a
heedless eagerness, which was more eloquent than emphatic
words of praise.
“Won’t you please repeat
this passage?” she said, humming the air with
soft modulations; “I have always regarded the
monotonous repetition of this strain” (and she
indicated it lightly by a few touches of the keys)
“as rather a blemish of an otherwise perfect
composition. But as you play it, it is anything
but monotonous. You put into this single phrase
a more intense meaning and a greater variety of thought
than I ever suspected it was capable of expressing.”
“It is my favorite composition,”
answered he, modestly. “I have bestowed
more thought upon it than upon anything I have ever
played, unless perhaps it be the one in G minor, which,
with all its difference of mood and phraseology, expresses
an essentially kindred thought.”
“My dear Mr. Birch,” exclaimed
Mrs. Van Kirk, whom his skillful employment of technical
terms (in spite of his indifferent accent) had impressed
even more than his rendering of the music, “you
are a comsummate{sic} artist, and we shall deem it
a great privilege if you will undertake to instruct
our child. I have listened to you with profound
satisfaction.”
Halfdan acknowledged the compliment
by a bow and a blush, and repeated the latter part
of the nocturne according to Edith’s request.
“And now,” resumed Edith,
“may I trouble you to play the G minor, which
has even puzzled me more than the one you have just
played.”
“It ought really to have been
played first,” replied Halfdan. “It
is far intenser in its coloring and has a more passionate
ring, but its conclusion does not seem to be final.
There is no rest in it, and it seems oddly enough
to be a mere transition into the major, which is its
proper supplement and completes the fragmentary thought.”
Mother and daughter once more telegraphed
wondering looks at each other, while Halfdan plunged
into the impetuous movements of the minor nocturne,
which he played to the end with ever-increasing fervor
and animation.
“Mr. Birch,” said Edith,
as he arose from the piano with a flushed face, and
the agitation of the music still tingling through his
nerves. “You are a far greater musician
than you seem to be aware of. I have not been
taking lessons for some time, but you have aroused
all my musical ambition, and if you will accept me
too, as a pupil, I shall deem it a favor.”
“I hardly know if I can teach
you anything,” answered he, while his eyes dwelt
with keen delight on her beautiful form. “But
in my present position I can hardly afford to decline
so flattering an offer.”
“You mean to say that you would
decline it if you were in a position to do so,”
said she, smiling.
“No, only that I should question
my convenience more closely.”
“Ah, never mind. I take
all the responsibility. I shall cheerfully consent
to being imposed upon by you.”
Mrs. Van Kirk in the mean while had
been examining the contents of a fragrant Russia-leather
pocket-book, and she now drew out two crisp ten-dollar
notes, and held them out toward him.
“I prefer to make sure of you
by paying you in advance,” said she, with a
cheerfully familiar nod, and a critical glance at his
attire, the meaning of which he did not fail to detect.
“Somebody else might make the same discovery
that we have made to-day, and outbid us. And we
do not want to be cheated out of our good fortune
in having been the first to secure so valuable a prize.”
“You need have no fear on that
score, madam,” retorted Halfdan, with a vivid
blush, and purposely misinterpreting the polite subterfuge.
“You may rely upon my promise. I shall
be here again, as soon as you wish me to return.”
“Then, if you please, we shall
look for you to-morrow morning at ten o’clock.”
And Mrs. Van Kirk hesitatingly folded
up her notes and replaced them in her pocket-book.
To our idealist there was something
extremely odious in this sudden offer of money.
It was the first time any one had offered to pay him,
and it seemed to put him on a level with a common day-laborer.
His first impulse was to resent it as a gratuitous
humiliation, but a glance at Mrs. Van Kirk’s
countenance, which was all aglow with officious benevolence,
re-assured him, and his indignation died away.
That same afternoon Olson, having
been informed of his friend’s good fortune,
volunteered a loan of a hundred dollars, and accompanied
him to a fashionable tailor, where he underwent a
pleasing metamorphosis.
V
In Norway the ladies dress with the
innocent purpose of protecting themselves against
the weather; if this purpose is still remotely present
in the toilets of American women of to-day, it is,
at all events, sufficiently disguised to challenge
detection, very much like a primitive Sanscrit root
in its French and English derivatives. This was
the reflection which was uppermost in Halfdan’s
mind as Edith, ravishing to behold in the airy grace
of her fragrant morning toilet, at the appointed time
took her seat at his side before the piano. Her
presence seemed so intense, so all-absorbing, that
it left no thought for the music. A woman, with
all the spiritual mysteries which that name implies,
had always appeared to him rather a composite phenomenon,
even apart from those varied accessories of dress,
in which as by an inevitable analogy, she sees fit
to express the inner multiformity of her being.
Nevertheless, this former conception of his, when compared
to that wonderful complexity of ethereal lines, colors,
tints and half-tints which go to make up the modern
New York girl, seemed inexpressibly simple, almost
what plain arithmetic must appear to a man who has
mastered calculus.
Edith had opened one of those small
red-covered volumes of Chopin where the rich, wondrous
melodies lie peacefully folded up like strange exotic
flowers in an herbarium. She began to play the
fantasia impromtu, which ought to be dashed off at
a single “heat,” whose passionate impulse
hurries it on breathlessly toward its abrupt finale.
But Edith toiled considerably with her fingering,
and blurred the keen edges of each swift phrase by
her indistinct articulation. And still there was
a sufficiently ardent intention in her play to save
it from being a failure. She made a gesture of
disgust when she had finished, shut the book, and
let her hands drop crosswise in her lap.
“I only wanted to give you a
proof of my incapacity,” she said, turning her
large luminous gaze upon her instructor, “in
order to make you duly appreciate what you have undertaken.
Now, tell me truly and honestly, are you not discouraged?”
“Not by any means,” replied
he, while the rapture of her presence rippled through
his nerves, “you have fire enough in you to make
an admirable musician. But your fingers, as yet,
refuse to carry out your fine intentions. They
only need discipline.”
“And do you suppose you can
discipline them? They are a fearfully obstinate
set, and cause me infinite mortification.”
“Would you allow me to look at your hand?”
She raised her right hand, and with
a sort of impulsive heedlessness let it drop into
his. An exclamation of surprise escaped him.
“If you will pardon me,”
he said, “it is a superb hand a hand
capable of performing miracles musical
miracles I mean. Only look here” (and
he drew the fore and second fingers apart) “so
firmly set in the joint and still so flexible.
I doubt if Liszt himself can boast a finer row of
fingers. Your hands will surely not prevent you
from becoming a second Von Bulow, which to my mind
means a good deal more than a second Liszt.”
“Thank you, that is quite enough,”
she exclaimed, with an incredulous laugh; “you
have done bravely. That at all events throws the
whole burden of responsibility upon myself, if I do
not become a second somebody. I shall be perfectly
satisfied, however, if you can only make me as good
a musician as you are yourself, so that I can render
a not too difficult piece without feeling all the
while that I am committing sacrilege in mutilating
the fine thoughts of some great composer.”
“You are too modest; you do not ”
“No, no, I am not modest,”
she interrupted him with an impetuosity which startled
him. “I beg of you not to persist in paying
me compliments. I get too much of that cheap
article elsewhere. I hate to be told that I am
better than I know I am. If you are to do me any
good by your instruction, you must be perfectly sincere
toward me, and tell me plainly of my short-comings.
I promise you beforehand that I shall never be offended.
There is my hand. Now, is it a bargain?”
His fingers closed involuntarily over
the soft beautiful hand, and once more the luxury
of her touch sent a thrill of delight through him.
“I have not been insincere,”
he murmured, “but I shall be on my guard in
future, even against the appearance of insincerity.”
“And when I play detestably,
you will say so, and not smooth it over with unmeaning
flatteries?”
“I will try.”
“Very well, then we shall get
on well together. Do not imagine that this is
a mere feminine whim of mine. I never was more
in earnest. Men, and I believe foreigners, to
a greater degree than Americans, have the idea that
women must be treated with gentle forbearance; that
their follies, if they are foolish, must be glossed
over with some polite name. They exert themselves
to the utmost to make us mere playthings, and, as such,
contemptible both in our own eyes and in theirs.
No sincere respect can exist where the truth has to
be avoided. But the majority of American women
are made of too stern a stuff to be dealt with in that
way. They feel the lurking insincerity even where
politeness forbids them to show it, and it makes them
disgusted both with themselves, and with the flatterer.
And now you must pardon me for having spoken so plainly
to you on so short an acquaintance; but you are a
foreigner, and it may be an act of friendship to initiate
you as soon as possible into our ways and customs.”
He hardly knew what to answer.
Her vehemence was so sudden, and the sentiments she
had uttered so different from those which he had habitually
ascribed to women, that he could only sit and gaze
at her in mute astonishment. He could not but
admit that in the main she had judged him rightly,
and that his own attitude and that of other men toward
her sex, were based upon an implied assumption of superiority.
“I am afraid I have shocked
you,” she resumed, noticing the startled expression
of his countenance. “But really it was quite
inevitable, if we were at all to understand each other.
You will forgive me, won’t you?”
“Forgive!” stammered he,
“I have nothing to forgive. It was only
your merciless truthfulness which startled me.
I rather owe you thanks, if you will allow me to be
grateful to you. It seems an enviable privilege.”
“Now,” interrupted Edith,
raising her forefinger in playful threat, “remember
your promise.”
The lesson was now continued without
further interruption. When it was finished, a
little girl, with her hair done up in curl-papers,
and a very stiffly starched dress, which stood out
on all sides almost horizontally, entered, accompanied
by Mrs. Van Kirk. Halfdan immediately recognized
his acquaintance from the park, and it appeared to
him a good omen that this child, whose friendly interest
in him had warmed his heart in a moment when his fortunes
seemed so desperate, should continue to be associated
with his life on this new continent. Clara was
evidently greatly impressed by the change in his appearance,
and could with difficulty be restrained from commenting
upon it.
She proved a very apt scholar in music,
and enjoyed the lessons the more for her cordial liking
of her teacher.
It will be necessary henceforth to
omit the less significant details in the career of
our friend “Mr. Birch.” Before a month
was past, he had firmly established himself in the
favor of the different members of the Van Kirk family.
Mrs. Van Kirk spoke of him to her lady visitors as
“a perfect jewel,” frequently leaving
them in doubt as to whether he was a cook or a coachman.
Edith apostrophized him to her fashionable friends
as “a real genius,” leaving a dim impression
upon their minds of flowing locks, a shiny velvet
jacket, slouched hat, defiant neck-tie and a general
air of disreputable pretentiousness. Geniuses
of the foreign type were never, in the estimation
of fashionable New York society, what you would call
“exactly nice,” and against prejudices
of this order no amount of argument will ever prevail.
Clara, who had by this time discovered that her teacher
possessed an inexhaustible fund of fairy stories,
assured her playmates across the street that he was
“just splendid,” and frequently invited
them over to listen to his wonderful tales. Mr.
Van Kirk himself, of course, was non-committal, but
paid the bills unmurmuringly.
Halfdan in the meanwhile was vainly
struggling against his growing passion for Edith;
but the more he rebelled the more hopelessly he found
himself entangled in its inextricable net. The
fly, as long as it keeps quiet in the spider’s
web, may for a moment forget its situation; but the
least effort to escape is apt to frustrate itself and
again reveal the imminent peril. Thus he too
“kicked against the pricks,” hoped, feared,
rebelled against his destiny, and again, from sheer
weariness, relapsed into a dull, benumbed apathy.
In spite of her friendly sympathy, he never felt so
keenly his alienism as in her presence. She accepted
the spontaneous homage he paid her, sometimes with
impatience, as something that was really beneath her
notice; at other times she frankly recognized it,
bantered him with his “Old World chivalry,”
which would soon evaporate in the practical American
atmosphere, and called him her Viking, her knight
and her faithful squire. But it never occurred
to her to regard his devotion in a serious light, and
to look upon him as a possible lover had evidently
never entered her head. As their intercourse
grew more intimate, he had volunteered to read his
favorite poets with her, and had gradually succeeded
in imparting to her something of his own passionate
liking for Heine and Bjoernson. She had in return
called his attention to the works of American authors
who had hitherto been little more than names to him,
and they had thus managed to be of mutual benefit
to each other, and to spend many a pleasant hour during
the long winter afternoons in each other’s company.
But Edith had a very keen sense of humor, and could
hardly restrain her secret amusement when she heard
him reading Longfellow’s “Psalm of Life”
and Poe’s “Raven” (which had been
familiar to her from her babyhood), often with false
accent, but always with intense enthusiasm. The
reflection that he had had no part of his life in common
with her, that he did not love the things
which she loved, could not share her prejudices
(and women have a feeling akin to contempt for a man
who does not respond to their prejudices) removed
him at times almost beyond the reach of her sympathy.
It was interesting enough as long as the experience
was novel, to be thus unconsciously exploring another
person’s mind and finding so many strange objects
there; but after a while the thing began to assume
an uncomfortably serious aspect, and then there seemed
to be something almost terrible about it. At such
times a call from a gentleman of her own nation, even
though he were one of the placidly stupid type, would
be a positive relief; she could abandon herself to
the secure sense of being at home; she need fear no
surprises, and in the smooth shallows of their talk
there were no unsuspected depths to excite and to
baffle her ingenuity. And, again, reverting in
her thought to Halfdan, his conversational brilliancy
would almost repel her, as something odious and un-American,
the cheap result of outlandish birth and unrepublican
education. Not that she had ever valued republicanism
very highly; she was one of those who associated politics
with noisy vulgarity in speech and dress, and therefore
thanked fortune that women were permitted to keep
aloof from it. But in the presence of this alien
she found herself growing patriotic; that much-discussed
abstraction, which we call our country (and which is
nothing but the aggregate of all the slow and invisible
influences which go toward making up our own being),
became by degrees a very palpable and intelligible
fact to her.
Frequently while her American self
was thus loudly asserting itself, Edith inflicted
many a cruel wound upon her foreign adorer. Once, it
was the Fourth of July, more than a year after Halfdan’s
arrival, a number of young ladies and gentlemen, after
having listened to a patriotic oration, were invited
in to an informal luncheon. While waiting, they
naturally enough spent their time in singing national
songs, and Halfdan’s clear tenor did good service
in keeping the straggling voices together. When
they had finished, Edith went up to him and was quite
effusive in her expressions of gratitude.
“I am sure we ought all to be
very grateful to you, Mr. Birch,” she said,
“and I, for my part, can assure you that I am.”
“Grateful? Why?” demanded Halfdan,
looking quite unhappy.
“For singing our national
songs, of course. Now, won’t you sing one
of your own, please? We should all be so delighted
to hear how a Swedish or Norwegian, is
it? national song sounds.”
“Yes, Mr. Birch, do sing
a Swedish song,” echoed several voices.
They, of course, did not even remotely
suspect their own cruelty. He had, in his enthusiasm
for the day allowed himself to forget that he was
not made of the same clay as they were, that he was
an exile and a stranger, and must ever remain so,
that he had no right to share their joy in the blessing
of liberty. Edith had taken pains to dispel the
happy illusion, and had sent him once more whirling
toward his cold native Pole. His passion came
near choking him, and, to conceal his impetuous emotion,
he flung himself down on the piano-stool, and struck
some introductory chords with perhaps a little superfluous
emphasis. Suddenly his voice burst out into the
Swedish national anthem, “Our Land, our Land,
our Fatherland,” and the air shook and palpitated
with strong martial melody. His indignation, his
love and his misery, imparted strength to his voice,
and its occasional tremble in the piano passages
was something more than an artistic intention.
He was loudly applauded as he arose, and the young
ladies thronged about him to ask if he “wouldn’t
please write out the music for them.”
Thus month after month passed by,
and every day brought its own misery. Mrs. Van
Kirk’s patronizing manners, and ostentatious
kindness, often tested his patience to the utmost.
If he was guilty of an innocent witticism or a little
quaintness of expression, she always assumed it to
be a mistake of terms and corrected him with an air
of benign superiority. At times, of course, her
corrections were legitimate, as for instance, when
he spoke of Wearing a cane, instead of carrying
one, but in nine cases out of ten the fault lay in
her own lack of imagination and not in his ignorance
of English. On such occasions Edith often took
pity on him, defended him against her mother’s
criticism, and insisted that if this or that expression
was not in common vogue, that was no reason why it
should not be used, as it was perfectly grammatical,
and, moreover, in keeping with the spirit of the language.
And he, listening passively in admiring silence to
her argument, thanked her even for the momentary pain
because it was followed by so great a happiness.
For it was so sweet to be defended by Edith, to feel
that he and she were standing together side by side
against the outer world. Could he only show her
in the old heroic manner how much he loved her!
Would only some one that was dear to her die, so that
he, in that breaking down of social barriers which
follows a great calamity, might comfort her in her
sorrow. Would she then, perhaps, weeping, lean
her wonderful head upon his breast, feeling but that
he was a fellow-mortal, who had a heart that was loyal
and true, and forgetting, for one brief instant, that
he was a foreigner. Then, to touch that delicate
Elizabethan frill which wound itself so daintily about
Edith’s neck what inconceivable rapture!
But it was quite impossible. It could never be.
These were selfish thoughts, no doubt, but they were
a lover’s selfishness, and, as such, bore a
close kinship to all that is purest and best in human
nature.
It is one of the tragic facts of this
life, that a relation so unequal as that which existed
between Halfdan and Edith, is at all possible.
As for Edith, I must admit that she was well aware
that her teacher was in love with her. Women
have wonderfully keen senses for phenomena of that
kind, and it is an illusion if any one imagines, as
our Norseman did, that he has locked his secret securely
in the hidden chamber of his heart. In fleeting
intonations, unconscious glances and attitudes, and
through a hundred other channels it will make its way
out, and the bereaved jailer may still clasp his key
in fierce triumph, never knowing that he has been
robbed. It was of course no fault of Edith’s
that she had become possessed of Halfdan’s heart-secret.
She regarded it as on the whole rather an absurd affair,
and prized it very lightly. That a love so strong
and yet so humble, so destitute of hope and still so
unchanging, reverent and faithful, had something grand
and touching in it, had never occurred to her.
It is a truism to say that in our social code the
value of a man’s character is determined by his
position; and fine traits in a foreigner (unless he
should happen to be something very great) strike us
rather as part of a supposed mental alienism, and as
such, naturally suspicious. It is rather disgraceful
than otherwise to have your music teacher in love
with you, and critical friends will never quite banish
the suspicion that you have encouraged him.
Edith had, in her first delight at
the discovery of Halfdan’s talent, frankly admitted
him to a relation of apparent equality. He was
a man of culture, had the manners and bearing of a
gentleman, and had none of those theatrical airs which
so often raise a sort of invisible wall between foreigners
and Americans. Her mother, who loved to play the
patron, especially to young men, had invited him to
dinner-parties and introduced him to their friends,
until almost every one looked upon him as a protege
of the family. He appeared so well in a parlor,
and had really such a distinguished presence, that
it was a pleasure to look at him. He was remarkably
free from those obnoxious traits which generalizing
American travelers have led us to believe were inseparable
from foreign birth; his finger-nails were in no way
conspicuous; he did not, as a French count, a former
adorer of Edith’s, had done, indulge an unmasculine
taste for diamond rings (possibly because he had none);
his politeness was unobtrusive and subdued, and of
his accent there was just enough left to give an agreeable
color of individuality to his speech. But, for
all that, Edith could never quite rid herself of the
impression that he was intensely un-American.
There was a certain idyllic quiescence about him,
a child-like directness and simplicity, and a total
absence of “push,” which were startlingly
at variance with the spirit of American life.
An American could never have been content to remain
in an inferior position without trying, in some way,
to better his fortunes. But Halfdan could stand
still and see, without the faintest stirring of envy,
his plebeian friend Olson, whose education and talents
could bear no comparison with his own, rise rapidly
above him, and apparently have no desire to emulate
him. He could sit on a cricket in a corner, with
Clara on his lap, and two or three little girls nestling
about him, and tell them fairy stories by the hour,
while his kindly face beamed with innocent happiness.
And if Clara, to coax him into continuing the entertainment,
offered to kiss him, his measure of joy was full.
This fair child, with her affectionate ways, and her
confiding prattle, wound herself ever more closely
about his homeless heart, and he clung to her with
a touching devotion. For she was the only one
who seemed to be unconscious of the difference of blood,
who had not yet learned that she was an American and
he a foreigner.
VI
Three years had passed by and still
the situation was unchanged. Halfdan still taught
music and told fairy stories to the children.
He had a good many more pupils now than three years
ago, although he had made no effort to solicit patronage,
and had never tried to advertise his talent by what
he regarded as vulgar and inartistic display.
But Mrs. Van Kirk, who had by this time discovered
his disinclination to assert himself, had been only
the more active; had “talked him up” among
her aristocratic friends; had given musical soirees,
at which she had coaxed him to play the principal
rôle, and had in various other ways exerted herself
in his behalf. It was getting to be quite fashionable
to admire his quiet, unostentatious style of playing,
which was so far removed from the noisy bravado and
clap-trap then commonly in vogue. Even professional
musicians began to indorse him, and some, who had
discovered that “there was money in him,”
made him tempting offers for a public engagement.
But, with characteristic modesty, he distrusted their
verdict; his sensitive nature shrank from anything
which had the appearance of self-assertion or display.
But Edith ah, if it had
not been for Edith he might have found courage to
enter at the door of fortune, which was now opened
ajar. That fame, if he should gain it, would
bring him any nearer to her, was a thought that was
alien to so unworldly a temperament as his. And
any action that had no bearing upon his relation to
her, left him cold seemed unworthy of the
effort. If she had asked him to play in public;
if she had required of him to go to the North Pole,
or to cut his own throat, I verily believe he would
have done it. And at last Edith did ask him to
play. She and Olson had plotted together, and
from the very friendliest motives agreed to play into
each other’s hands.
“If you only would consent
to play,” said she, in her own persuasive way,
one day as they had finished their lesson, “we
should all be so happy. Only think how proud
we should be of your success, for you know there is
nothing you can’t do in the way of music if you
really want to.”
“Do you really think so?”
exclaimed he, while his eyes suddenly grew large and
luminous.
“Indeed I do,” said Edith, emphatically.
“And if if I played well,”
faltered he, “would it really please you?”
“Of course it would,”
cried Edith, laughing; “how can you ask such
a foolish question?”
“Because I hardly dared to believe it.”
“Now listen to me,” continued
the girl, leaning forward in her chair, and beaming
all over with kindly officiousness; “now for
once you must be rational and do just what I tell
you. I shall never like you again if you oppose
me in this, for I have set my heart upon it; you must
promise beforehand that you will be good and not make
any objection. Do you hear?”
When Edith assumed this tone toward
him, she might well have made him promise to perform
miracles. She was too intent upon her benevolent
scheme to heed the possible inferences which he might
draw from her sudden display of interest.
“Then you promise?” repeated
she, eagerly, as he hesitated to answer.
“Yes, I promise.”
“Now, you must not be surprised;
but mamma and I have made arrangements with Mr. S
that you are to appear under his auspices at a concert
which is to be given a week from to-night. All
our friends are going, and we shall take up all the
front seats, and I have already told my gentlemen
friends to scatter through the audience, and if they
care anything for my favor, they will have to applaud
vigorously.”
Halfdan reddened up to his temples,
and began to twist his watch-chain nervously.
“You must have small confidence
in my ability,” he murmured, “since you
resort to precautions like these.”
“But my dear Mr. Birch,”
cried Edith, who was quick to discover that she had
made a mistake, “it is not kind in you to mistrust
me in that way. If a New York audience were as
highly cultivated in music as you are, I admit that
my precautions would be superfluous. But the papers,
you know, will take their tone from the audience,
and therefore we must make use of a little innocent
artifice to make sure of it. Everything depends
upon the success of your first public appearance, and
if your friends can in this way help you to establish
the reputation which is nothing but your right, I
am sure you ought not to bind their hands by your
foolish sensitiveness. You don’t know the
American way of doing things as well as I do, therefore
you must stand by your promise, and leave everything
to me.”
It was impossible not to believe that
anything Edith chose to do was above reproach.
She looked so bewitching in her excited eagerness for
his welfare that it would have been inhuman to oppose
her. So he meekly succumbed, and began to discuss
with her the programme for the concert.
During the next week there was hardly
a day that he did not read some startling paragraph
in the newspapers about “the celebrated Scandinavian
pianist,” whose appearance at S
Hall was looked forward to as the principal event
of the coming season. He inwardly rebelled against
the well-meant exaggerations; but as he suspected that
it was Edith’s influence which was in this way
asserting itself in his behalf, he set his conscience
at rest and remained silent.
The evening of the concert came at
last, and, as the papers stated the next morning,
“the large hall was crowded to its utmost capacity
with a select and highly appreciative audience.”
Edith must have played her part of the performance
skillfully, for as he walked out upon the stage, he
was welcomed with an enthusiastic burst of applause,
as if he had been a world-renowned artist. At
Edith’s suggestion, her two favorite nocturnes
had been placed first upon the programme; then followed
one of those ballads of Chopin, whose rhythmic din
and rush sweep onward, beleaguering the ear like eager,
melodious hosts, charging in thickening ranks and
columns, beating impetuous retreats, and again uniting
with one grand emotion the wide-spreading army of sound
for the final victory. Besides these, there was
one of Liszt’s “Rhapsodies Hongroises,”
an impromptu by Schubert, and several orchestral pieces;
but the greater part of the programme was devoted to
Chopin, because Halfdan, with his great, hopeless
passion laboring in his breast, felt that he could
interpret Chopin better than he could any other composer.
He carried his audience by storm. As he retired
to the dressing-room, after having finished the last
piece, his friends, among whom Edith and Mrs. Van
Kirk were the most conspicuous, thronged about him,
showering their praises and congratulations upon him.
They insisted with much friendly urging upon taking
him home in their carriage; Clara kissed him, Mrs.
Van Kirk introduced him to her lady acquaintances as
“our friend, Mr. Birch,” and Edith held
his hand so long in hers that he came near losing
his presence of mind and telling her then and there
that he loved her. As his eyes rested on her,
they became suddenly suffused with tears, and a vast
bewildering happiness vibrated through his frame.
At last he tore himself away and wandered aimlessly
through the long, lonely streets. Why could he
not tell Edith that he loved her? Was there any
disgrace in loving? This heavenly passion which
so suddenly had transfused his being, and year by
year deadened the substance of his old self, creating
in its stead something new and wild and strange which
he never could know, but still held infinitely dear had
it been sent to him merely as a scourge to test his
capacity for suffering?
Once, while he was a child, his mother
had told him that somewhere in this wide world there
lived a maiden whom God had created for him, and for
him alone, and when he should see her, he should love
her, and his life should thenceforth be all for her.
It had hardly occurred to him, then, to question whether
she would love him in return, it had appeared so very
natural that she should. Now he had found this
maiden, and she had been very kind to him; but her
kindness had been little better than cruelty, because
he had demanded something more than kindness.
And still he had never told her of his love.
He must tell her even this very night while the moon
rode high in the heavens and all the small differences
between human beings seemed lost in the vast starlit
stillness. He knew well that by the relentless
glare of the daylight his own insignificance would
be cruelly conspicuous in the presence of her splendor;
his scruples would revive, and his courage fade.
The night was clear and still.
A clock struck eleven in some church tower near by.
The Van Kirk mansion rose tall and stately in the
moonlight, flinging a dense mass of shadow across the
street. Up in the third story he saw two windows
lighted; the curtains were drawn, but the blinds were
not closed. All the rest of the house was dark.
He raised his voice and sang a Swedish serenade which
seemed in perfect concord with his own mood.
His clear tenor rose through the silence of the night,
and a feeble echo flung it back from the mansion opposite:
The curtain was drawn aside, the window
cautiously raised, and the outline of Edith’s
beautiful head appeared dark and distinct against the
light within. She instantly recognized him.
“You must go away, Mr. Birch,”
came her voice in an anxious whisper out of the shadow.
“Pray go away. You will wake up the people.”
Her words were audible enough, but
they failed to convey any meaning to his excited mind.
Once more his voice floated upward to her opened window:
“And I yearn to
reach thy dwelling,
Yearn to
rise from earth’s fierce turmoil;
Sweetest
star upward to thee,
Yearn to
rise, bright star to thee.”
“Dear Mr. Birch,” she
whispered once more in tones of distress. “Pray
do go away. Or perhaps,” she interrupted
herself “ wait one moment and I will
come down.”
Presently the front door was noiselessly
opened, and Edith’s tall, lithe form, dressed
in a white flowing dress, and with her blonde hair
rolling loosely over her shoulders, appeared for an
instant, and then again vanished. With one leap
Halfdan sprang up the stairs and pushed through the
half-opened door. Edith closed the door behind
him, then with rapid steps led the way to the back
parlor where the moon broke feebly through the bars
of the closed shutters.
“Now Mr. Birch,” she said,
seating herself upon a lounge, “you may explain
to me what this unaccountable behavior of yours means.
I should hardly think I had deserved to be treated
in this way by you.”
Halfdan was utterly bewildered; a
nervous fit of trembling ran through him, and he endeavored
in vain to speak. He had been prepared for passionate
reproaches, but this calm severity chilled him through,
and he could only gasp and tremble, but could utter
no word in his defense.
“I suppose you are aware,”
continued Edith, in the same imperturbable manner,
“that if I had not interrupted you, the policeman
would have heard you, and you would have been arrested
for street disturbance. Then to-morrow we should
have seen it in all the newspapers, and I should have
been the laughing-stock of the whole town.”
No, surely he had never thought of
it in that light; the idea struck him as entirely
new. There was a long pause. A cock crowed
with a drowsy remoteness in some neighboring yard,
and the little clock on the mantel-piece ticked on
patiently in the moonlit dusk.
“If you have nothing to say,”
resumed Edith, while the stern indifference in her
voice perceptibly relaxed, “then I will bid you
good-night.”
She arose, and with a grand sweep
of her drapery, moved toward the door.
“Miss Edith,” cried he,
stretching his hands despairingly after her, “you
must not leave me.”
She paused, tossed her hair back with
her hands, and gazed at him over her shoulder.
He threw himself on his knees, seized the hem of her
dress, and pressed it to his lips. It was a gesture
of such inexpressible humility that even a stone would
have relented.
“Do not be foolish, Mr. Birch,”
she said, trying to pull her dress away from him.
“Get up, and if you have anything rational to
say to me, I will stay and listen.”
“Yes, yes,” he whispered,
hoarsely, “I shall be rational. Only do
not leave me.”
She again sank down wearily upon the
lounge, and looked at him in expectant silence.
“Miss Edith,” pleaded
he in the same hoarse, passionate undertone, “have
pity on me, and do not despise me. I love you oh if
you would but allow me to die for you, I should be
the happiest of men.”
Again he shuddered, and stood long
gazing at her with a mute, pitiful appeal. A
tear stole into Edith’s eye and trickled down
over her cheek.
“Ah, Mr. Birch,” she murmured,
while a sigh shook her bosom, “I am sorry very
sorry that this misfortune has happened to you.
You have deserved a better fate than to love me to
love a woman who can never give you anything in return
for what you give her.”
“Never?” he repeated mournfully, “never?”
“No, never! You have been
a good friend to me, and as such I value you highly,
and I had hoped that you would always remain so.
But I see that it cannot be. It will perhaps
be best for you henceforth not to see me, at least
not until pardon the expression you
have outlived this generous folly. And now, you
know, you will need me no more. You have made
a splendid reputation, and if you choose to avail yourself
of it, your fortune is already made. I shall
always rejoice to hear of your success, and and
if you should ever need a friend, you must come
to no one but me. I know that these are feeble
words, Mr. Birch, and if they seem cold to you, you
must pardon me. I can say nothing more.”
They were indeed feeble words, although
most cordially spoken. He tried to weigh them,
to measure their meaning, but his mind was as if benumbed,
and utterly incapable of thought. He walked across
the floor, perhaps only to do something, not feeling
where he trod, but still with an absurd sensation
that he was taking immoderately long steps. Then
he stopped abruptly, wrung his hands, and gazed at
Edith. And suddenly, like a flash in a vacuum,
the thought shot through his brain that he had seen
this very scene somewhere in a dream, in
a remote childhood, in a previous existence, he did
not know when or where. It seemed strangely familiar,
and in the next instant strangely meaningless and unreal.
The walls, the floor everything began to
move, to whirl about him; he struck his hands against
his forehead, and sank down into a damask-covered
easy-chair. With a faint cry of alarm, Edith sprang
up, seized a bottle of cologne which happened to be
within reach, and knelt down at his side. She
put her arm around his neck, and raised his head.
“Mr. Birch, dear Mr. Birch,”
she cried, in a frightened whisper, “for God’s
sake come to yourself! O God, what have I done?”
She blew the eau-de-cologne
into his face, and, as he languidly opened his eyes,
he felt the touch of her warm hand upon his cheeks
and his forehead.
“Thank heaven! he is better,”
she murmured, still continuing to bathe his temples.
“How do you feel now, Mr. Birch?” she added,
in a tone of anxious inquiry.
“Thank you, it was an unpardonable
weakness,” he muttered, without changing his
attitude. “Do not trouble yourself about
me. I shall soon be well.”
It was so sweet to be conscious of
her gentle ministry, that it required a great effort,
an effort of conscience, to rouse him once more, as
his strength returned.
“Had you not better stay?”
she asked, as he rose to put on his overcoat.
“I will call one of the servants and have him
show you a room. We will say to-morrow morning
that you were taken ill, and nobody will wonder.”
“No, no,” he responded,
energetically. “I am perfectly strong now.”
But he still had to lean on a chair, and his face
was deathly pale.
“Farewell, Miss Edith,”
he said; and a tender sadness trembled in his voice.
“Farewell. We shall probably never
meet again.”
“Do not speak so,” she
answered, seizing his hand. “You will try
to forget this, and you will still be great and happy.
And when fortune shall again smile upon you, and and you
will be content to be my friend, then we shall see
each other as before.”
“No, no,” he broke forth,
with a sudden hoarseness. “It will never
be.”
He walked toward the door with the
motions of one who feels death in his limbs; then
stopped once more and his eyes lingered with inexpressible
sadness on the wonderful, beloved form which stood
dimly outlined before him in the twilight. Then
Edith’s measure of misery, too, seemed full.
With the divine heedlessness which belongs to her sex,
she rushed up toward him, and remembering only that
he was weak and unhappy, and that he suffered for
her sake, she took his face between her hands and kissed
him. He was too generous a man to misinterpret
the act; so he whispered but once more: “Farewell,”
and hastened away.
VII
After that eventful December night,
America was no more what it had been to Halfdan Bjerk.
A strange torpidity had come over him; every rising
day gazed into his eyes with a fierce unmeaning glare.
The noise of the street annoyed him and made him childishly
fretful, and the solitude of his own room seemed still
more dreary and depressing. He went mechanically
through the daily routine of his duties as if the soul
had been taken out of his work, and left his life all
barrenness and desolation. He moved restlessly
from place to place, roamed at all times of the day
and night through the city and its suburbs, trying
vainly to exhaust his physical strength; gradually,
as his lethargy deepened into a numb, helpless despair,
it seemed somehow to impart a certain toughness to
his otherwise delicate frame. Olson, who was now
a junior partner in the firm of Remsen, Van Kirk and
Co., stood by him faithfully in these days of sorrow.
He was never effusive in his sympathy, but was patiently
forbearing with his friend’s whims and moods,
and humored him as if he had been a sick child intrusted
to his custody. That Edith might be the moving
cause of Olson’s kindness was a thought which,
strangely enough, had never occurred to Halfdan.
At last, when spring came, the vacancy
of his mind was suddenly invaded with a strong desire
to revisit his native land. He disclosed his plan
to Olson, who, after due deliberation and several visits
to the Van Kirk mansion, decided that the pleasure
of seeing his old friends and the scenes of his childhood
might push the painful memories out of sight, and
renew his interest in life. So, one morning, while
the May sun shone with a soft radiance upon the beautiful
harbor, our Norseman found himself standing on the
deck of a huge black-hulled Cunarder, shivering in
spite of the warmth, and feeling a chill loneliness
creeping over him at the sight of the kissing and
affectionate leave-takings which were going on all
around him. Olson was running back and forth,
attending to his baggage; but he himself took no thought,
and felt no more responsibility than if he had been
a helpless child. He half regretted that his
own wish had prevailed, and was inclined to hold his
friend responsible for it; and still he had not energy
enough to protest now when the journey seemed inevitable.
His heart still clung to the place which held the
corpse of his ruined life, as a man may cling to the
spot which hides his beloved dead.
About two weeks later Halfdan landed
in Norway. He was half reluctant to leave the
steamer, and the land of his birth excited no emotion
in his breast. He was but conscious of a dim
regret that he was so far away from Edith. At
last, however, he betook himself to a hotel, where
he spent the afternoon sitting with half-closed eyes
at a window, watching listlessly the drowsy slow-pulsed
life which dribbled languidly through the narrow thoroughfare.
The noisy uproar of Broadway chimed remotely in his
ears, like the distant roar of a tempest-tossed sea,
and what had once been a perpetual annoyance was now
a sweet memory. How often with Edith at his side
had he threaded his way through the surging crowds
that pour, on a fine afternoon, in an unceasing current
up and down the street between Union and Madison Squares.
How friendly, and sweet, and gracious, Edith had been
at such times; how fresh her voice, how witty and
animated her chance remarks when they stopped to greet
a passing acquaintance; and, above all, how inspiring
the sight of her heavenly beauty. Now that was
all past. Perhaps he should never see Edith again.
The next day he sauntered through
the city, meeting some old friends, who all seemed
changed and singularly uninteresting. They were
all engaged or married, and could talk of nothing
but matrimony, and their prospects of advancement
in the Government service. One had an influential
uncle who had been a chum of the present minister of
finance; another based his hopes of future prosperity
upon the family connections of his betrothed, and
a third was waiting with a patient perseverance, worthy
of a better cause, for the death or resignation of
an antiquated chef-de-bureau, which, according to the
promise of some mighty man, would open a position
for him in the Department of Justice. All had
the most absurd theories about American democracy,
and indulged freely in prophecies of coming disasters;
but about their own government they had no opinion
whatever. If Halfdan attempted to set them right,
they at once grew excited and declamatory; their opinions
were based upon conviction and a charming ignorance
of facts, and they were not to be moved. They
knew all about Tweed and the Tammany Ring, and believed
them to be representative citizens of New York, if
not of the United States; but of Charles Sumner and
Carl Schurz they had never heard. Halfdan, who,
in spite of his misfortunes in the land of his adoption,
cherished a very tender feeling for it, was often so
thoroughly aroused at the foolish prejudices which
everywhere met him, that his torpidity gradually thawed
away, and he began to look more like his former self.
Toward autumn he received an invitation
to visit a country clergyman in the North, a distant
relative of his father’s, and there whiled away
his time, fishing and shooting, until winter came.
But as Christmas drew near, and the day wrestled feebly
with the all-conquering night, the old sorrow revived.
In the darkness which now brooded over land and sea,
the thoughts needed no longer be on guard against themselves;
they could roam far and wide as they listed.
Where was Edith now, the sweet, the wonderful Edith?
Was there yet the same dancing light in her beautiful
eyes, the same golden sheen in her hair, the same merry
ring in her voice? And had she not said that
when he was content to be only her friend, he might
return to her, and she would receive him in the old
joyous and confiding way? Surely there was no
life to him apart from her: why should he not
be her friend? Only a glimpse of her lovely face ah,
it was worth a lifetime; it would consecrate an age
of misery, a glimpse of Edith’s face. Thus
ran his fancies day by day, and the night only lent
a deeper intensity to the yearnings of the day.
He walked about as in a dream, seeing nothing, heeding
nothing, while this one strong desire to
see Edith once more throbbed and throbbed
with a slow, feverish perseverance within him.
Edith Edith, the very name had a strange,
potent fascination. Every thought whispered “Edith,” his
pulse beat “Edith,” and his
heart repeated the beloved name. It was his pulse-beat, his
heartbeat, his life-beat.
And one morning as he stood absently
looking at his fingers against the light and
they seemed strangely wan and transparent the
thought at last took shape. It rushed upon him
with such vehemence, that he could no more resist
it. So he bade the clergyman good-bye, gathered
his few worldly goods together and set out for Bergen.
There he found an English steamer which carried him
to Hull, and a few weeks later, he was once more in
New York.
It was late one evening in January
that a tug-boat arrived and took the cabin passengers
ashore. The moon sailed tranquilly over the deep
blue dome of the sky, the stars traced their glittering
paths of light from the zenith downward, and it was
sharp, bitter cold. Northward over the river
lay a great bank of cloud, dense, gray and massive,
the spectre of the coming snow-storm. There it
lay so huge and fantastically human, ruffling itself
up, as fowls do, in defense against the cold.
Halfdan walked on at a brisk rate strange
to say, all the street-cars he met went the wrong
way startling every now and then some precious
memory, some word or look or gesture of Edith’s
which had hovered long over those scenes, waiting
for his recognition. There was the great jewel-store
where Edith had taken him so often to consult his taste
whenever a friend of hers was to be married. It
was there that they had had an amicable quarrel over
that bronze statue of Faust which she had found beautiful,
while he, with a rudeness which seemed now quite incomprehensible,
had insisted that it was not. And when he had
failed to convince her, she had given him her hand
in token of reconciliation and Edith had
a wonderful way of giving her hand, which made any
one feel that it was a peculiar privilege to press
it and they had walked out arm in arm into
the animated, gas-lighted streets, with a delicious
sense of snugness and security, being all the more
closely united for their quarrel. Here, farther
up the avenue, they had once been to a party, and
he had danced for the first time in his life with
Edith. Here was Delmonico’s, where they
had had such fascinating luncheons together; where
she had got a stain on her dress, and he had been
forced to observe that her dress was then not really
a part of herself, since it was a thing that could
not be stained. Her dress had always seemed to
him as something absolute and final, exalted above
criticism, incapable of improvement.
As I have said, Halfdan walked briskly
up the avenue, and it was something after eleven when
he reached the house which he sought. The great
cloud-bank in the north had then begun to expand and
stretched its long misty arms eastward and westward
over the heavens. The windows on the ground-floor
were dark, but the sleeping apartments in the upper
stories were lighted. In Edith’s room the
inside shutters were closed, but one of the windows
was a little down at the top. And as he stood
gazing with tremulous happiness up to that window,
a stanza from Heine which he and Edith had often read
together, came into his head. It was the story
of the youth who goes to the Madonna at Kevlar and
brings her as a votive offering a heart of wax, that
she may heal him of his love and his sorrow.
“I bring this
waxen image,
The image
of my heart,
Heal thou
my bitter sorrow,
And cure
my deadly smart!”
Then came the thought that for him,
too, as for the poor youth of Cologne, there was healing
only in death. And still in this moment he was
so near Edith, should see her perhaps, and the joy
at this was stronger than all else, stronger even
than death. So he sat down beside the steps of
the mansion opposite, where there was some shelter
from the wind, and waited patiently till Edith should
close her window. He was cold, perhaps, but,
if so, he hardly knew it, for the near joy of seeing
her throbbed warmly in his veins. Ah, there the
blinds were thrown open; Edith, in all the lithe magnificence
of her wonderful form, stood out clear and beautiful
against the light within; she pushed up the lower
window in order to reach the upper one, and for a moment
leaned out over the sill. Once more her wondrous
profile traced itself in strong relief against the
outer gloom. There came a cry from the street
below, a feeble involuntary one, but still distinctly
audible. Edith peered anxiously out into the
darkness, but the darkness had grown denser and she
could see nothing. The window was fastened, the
shutters closed, and the broad pathway of light which
she had flung out upon the night had vanished.
Halfdan closed his eyes trying to
retain the happy vision. Yes, there she stood
still, and there was a heavenly smile upon her lips ugh,
he shivered the snow swept in a wild whirl
up the street. He wrapped his plaid more closely
about him, and strained his eyes to catch one more
glimpse of the beloved Edith. Ah, yes; there she
was again; she came nearer and nearer, and she touched
his cheek, gently, warily smiling all the while with
a strange wistful smile which was surely not Edith’s.
There, she bent over him, touched him again, how
cold her hands were; the touch chilled him to the
heart. The snow had now begun to fall in large
scattered flakes, whirling fitfully through the air,
following every chance gust of wind, but still falling,
falling, and covering the earth with its white, death-like
shroud.
But surely there was Edith
again, how wonderful! in a long
snow-white robe, grave and gracious, still with the
wistful smile on her lips. See, she beckons to
him with her hand, and he rises to follow, but something
heavy clings to his feet and he cannot stir from the
spot. He tries to cry for help, but he cannot, can
only stretch out his hands to her, and feel very unhappy
that he cannot follow her. But now she pauses
in her flight, turns about, and he sees that she wears
a myrtle garland in her hair like a bride. She
comes toward him, her countenance all radiant with
love and happiness, and she stoops down over him and
speaks:
“Come; they are waiting for
us. I will follow thee in life and in death,
wherever thou goest. Come,” repeats Edith,
“they have long been waiting. They are
all here.”
And he imagines he knows who they
all are, although he has never heard of them, nor
can he recall their names.
“But but,” he stammers, “I I am
a foreigner "
It appeared then that for some reason
this was an insurmountable objection. And Edith’s
happiness dies out of her beautiful face, and she
turns away weeping.
“Edith, beloved!”
Then she is once more at his side.
“Thou art no more a foreigner to me, beloved.
Whatever thou art, I am.”
And she presses her lips to his it
was the sweetest kiss of his life the kiss
of death.
The next morning, as Edith, after
having put the last touch to her toilet, threw the
shutters open, a great glare of sun-smitten snow burst
upon her and for a moment blinded her eyes. On
the sidewalk opposite, half a dozen men with snow-shovels
in their hands and a couple of policeman had congregated,
and, judging by their manner, were discussing some
object of interest. Presently they were joined
by her father, who had just finished his breakfast
and was on his way to the office. Now he stooped
down and gazed at something half concealed in the snow,
then suddenly started back, and as she caught a glimpse
of his face, she saw that it was ghastly white.
A terrible foreboding seized her. She threw a
shawl about her shoulders and rushed down-stairs.
In the hall she was met by her father, who was just
entering, followed by four men, carrying something
between them. She well knew what it was.
She would fain have turned away, but she could not:
grasping her father’s arm and pressing it hard,
she gazed with blank, frightened eyes at the white
face, the lines of which Death had so strangely emphasized.
The snow-flakes which hung in his hair had touched
him with their sudden age, as if to bridge the gulf
between youth and death. And still he was beautiful the
clear brow, the peaceful, happy indolence, the frozen
smile which death had perpetuated. Smiling, he
had departed from the earth which had no place for
him, and smiling entered the realm where, among the
many mansions, there is, perhaps, also one for a gentle,
simple-hearted enthusiast.