There was an ancient feud between
the families; and Bjarne Blakstad was not the man
to make it up, neither was Hedin Ullern. So they
looked askance at each other whenever they met on
the highway, and the one took care not to cross the
other’s path. But on Sundays, when the
church-bells called the parishioners together, they
could not very well avoid seeing each other on the
church-yard; and then, one day, many years ago, when
the sermon had happened to touch Bjarne’s heart,
he had nodded to Hedin and said: “Fine
weather to-day;” and Hedin had returned the
nod and answered: “True is that.”
“Now I have done my duty before God and men,”
thought Bjarne, “and it is his turn to take the
next step.” “The fellow is proud,”
said Hedin to himself, “and he wants to show
off his generosity. But I know the wolf by his
skin, even if he has learned to bleat like a ewe-lamb.”
What the feud really was about, they
had both nearly forgotten. All they knew was
that some thirty years ago there had been a quarrel
between the pastor and the parish about the right
of carrying arms to the church. And then Bjarne’s
father had been the spokesman of the parish, while
Hedin’s grandsire had been a staunch defender
of the pastor. There was a rumor, too, that they
had had a fierce encounter somewhere in the woods,
and that the one had stabbed the other with a knife;
but whether that was really true, no one could tell.
Bjarne was tall and grave, like the
weather-beaten fir-trees in his mast-forest.
He had a large clean-shaven face, narrow lips, and
small fierce eyes. He seldom laughed, and when
he did, his laugh seemed even fiercer than his frown.
He wore his hair long, as his fathers had done, and
dressed in the styles of two centuries ago; his breeches
were clasped with large silver buckles at the knees,
and his red jerkin was gathered about his waist with
a leathern girdle. He loved everything that was
old, in dress as well as in manners, took no newspapers,
and regarded railroads and steamboats as inventions
of the devil. Bjarne had married late in life,
and his marriage had brought him two daughters, Brita
and Grimhild.
Hedin Ullern was looked upon as an
upstart. He could only count three generations
back, and he hardly knew himself how his grandfather
had earned the money that had enabled him to buy a
farm and settle down in the valley. He had read
a great deal, and was well informed on the politics
of the day; his name had even been mentioned for storthingsmand,
or member of parliament from the district, and it
was the common opinion, that if Bjarne Blakstad had
not so vigorously opposed him, he would have been
elected, being the only “cultivated” peasant
in the valley. Hedin was no unwelcome guest in
the houses of gentlefolks, and he was often seen at
the judge’s and the pastor’s omber parties.
And for all this Bjarne Blakstad only hated him the
more. Hedin’s wife, Thorgerda, was fair-haired,
tall and stout, and it was she who managed the farm,
while her husband read his books, and studied politics
in the newspapers; but she had a sharp tongue and her
neighbors were afraid of her. They had one son,
whose name was Halvard.
Brita Blakstad, Bjarne’s eldest
daughter, was a maid whom it was a joy to look upon.
They called her “Glitter-Brita,” because
she was fond of rings and brooches, and everything
that was bright; while she was still a child, she
once took the old family bridal-crown out from the
storehouse and carried it about on her head. “Beware
of that crown, child,” her father had said to
her, “and wear it not before the time.
There is not always blessing in the bridal silver.”
And she looked wonderingly up into his eyes and answered:
“But it glitters, father;” and from that
time forth they had named her Glitter-Brita.
And Glitter-Brita grew up to be a
fair and winsome maiden, and wherever she went the
wooers flocked on her path. Bjarne shook his head
at her, and often had harsh words upon his lips, when
he saw her braiding field-flowers into her yellow
tresses or clasping the shining brooches to her bodice;
but a look of hers or a smile would completely disarm
him. She had a merry way of doing things which
made it all seem like play; but work went rapidly
from her hands, while her ringing laughter echoed
through the house, and her sunny presence made it bright
in the dusky ancestral halls. In her kitchen
the long rows of copper pots and polished kettles
shone upon the walls, and the neatly scoured milk-pails
stood like soldiers on parade about the shelves under
the ceiling. Bjarne would often sit for hours
watching her, and a strange spring-feeling would steal
into his heart. He felt a father’s pride
in her stately growth and her rich womanly beauty.
“Ah!” he would say to himself, “she
has the pure blood in her veins and, as true as I live,
the farm shall be hers.” And then, quite
contrary to his habits, he would indulge in a little
reverie, imagining the time when he, as an aged man,
should have given the estate over into her hands, and
seeing her as a worthy matron preside at the table,
and himself rocking his grandchildren on his knee.
No wonder, then, that he eyed closely the young lads
who were beginning to hover about the house, and that
he looked with suspicion upon those who selected Saturday
nights for their visits. When Brita was twenty
years old, however, her father thought that it was
time for her to make her choice. There were many
fine, brave lads in the valley, and, as Bjarne thought,
Brita would have the good sense to choose the finest
and the bravest. So, when the winter came, he
suddenly flung his doors open to the youth of the parish,
and began to give parties with ale and mead in the
grand old style. He even talked with the young
men, at times, encouraged them to manly sports, and
urged them to taste of his home-brewed drinks and
to tread the spring-dance briskly. And Brita
danced and laughed so that her hair flew around her
and the silver brooches tinkled and rang on her bosom.
But when the merriment was at an end, and any one
of the lads remained behind to offer her his hand,
she suddenly grew grave, told him she was too young,
that she did not know herself, and that she had had
no time as yet to decide so serious a question.
Thus the winter passed and the summer drew near.
In the middle of June, Brita went
to the saeter with the cattle; and her sister,
Grimhild, remained at home to keep house on the farm.
She loved the life in the mountains; the great solitude
sometimes made her feel sad, but it was not an unpleasant
sadness, it was rather a gentle toning down of all
the shrill and noisy feelings of the soul. Up
there, in the heart of the primeval forest, her whole
being seemed to herself a symphony of melodious whispers
with a vague delicious sense of remoteness and mystery
in them, which she only felt and did not attempt to
explain. There, those weird legends which, in
former days, still held their sway in the fancy of
every Norsewoman, breathed their secrets into her
ear, and she felt her nearness and kinship to nature,
as at no other time.
One night, as the sun was low, and
a purple bluish smoke hung like a thin veil over the
tops of the forest, Brita had taken out her knitting
and seated herself on a large moss-grown stone, on
the croft. Her eyes wandered over the broad valley
which was stretched out below, and she could see the
red roofs of the Blakstad mansion peeping forth between
the fir-trees. And she wondered what they were
doing down there, whether Grimhild had done milking,
and whether her father had returned from the ford,
where it was his habit at this hour to ride with the
footmen to water the horses. As she sat thus
wondering, she was startled by a creaking in the dry
branches hard by, and lifting her eye, she saw a tall,
rather clumsily built, young man emerging from the
thicket. He had a broad but low forehead, flaxen
hair which hung down over a pair of dull ox-like eyes;
his mouth was rather large and, as it was half open,
displayed two massive rows of shining white teeth.
His red peaked cap hung on the back of his head and,
although it was summer, his thick wadmal vest was
buttoned close up to his throat; over his right arm
he had flung his jacket, and in his hand he held a
bridle.
“Good evening,” said Brita,
“and thanks for last meeting;” although
she was not sure that she had ever seen him before.
“It was that bay mare, you know,”
stammered the man in a half apologetic tone, and shook
the bridle, as if in further explanation.
“Ah, you have lost your mare,”
said the girl, and she could not help smiling at his
helplessness and his awkward manner.
“Yes, it was the bay mare,”
answered he, in the same diffident tone; then, encouraged
by her smile, he straightened himself a little and
continued rather more fluently: “She never
was quite right since the time the wolves were after
her. And then since they took the colt away from
her the milk has been troubling her, and she hasn’t
been quite like herself.”
“I haven’t seen her anywhere
hereabouts,” said Brita; “you may have
to wander far, before you get on the track of her.”
“Yes, that is very likely. And I am tired
already.”
“Won’t you sit down and rest yourself?”
He deliberately seated himself in
the grass, and gradually gained courage to look her
straight in the face; and his dull eye remained steadfastly
fixed on her in a way which bespoke unfeigned surprise
and admiration. Slowly his mouth broadened into
a smile; but his smile had more of sadness than of
joy in it. She had, from the moment she saw him,
been possessed of a strangely patronizing feeling toward
him. She could not but treat him as if he had
been a girl or some person inferior to her in station.
In spite of his large body, the impression he made
upon her was that of weakness; but she liked the sincerity
and kindness which expressed themselves in his sad
smile and large, honest blue eyes. His gaze reminded
her of that of an ox, but it had not only the ox’s
dullness, but also its simplicity and good-nature.
They sat talking on for a while about
the weather, the cattle, and the prospects of the
crops.
“What is your name?” she asked, at last.
“Halvard Hedinson Ullern.”
A sudden shock ran through her at
the sound of that name; in the next moment a deep
blush stole over her countenance.
“And my name,” she said, slowly, “is
Brita Bjarne’s daughter Blakstad.”
She fixed her eyes upon him, as if
to see what effect her words produced. But his
features wore the same sad and placid expression; and
no line in his face seemed to betray either surprise
or ill-will. Then her sense of patronage grew
into one of sympathy and pity. “He must
either be weak-minded or very unhappy,” thought
she, “and what right have I then to treat him
harshly.” And she continued her simple,
straightforward talk with the young man, until he,
too, grew almost talkative, and the sadness of his
smile began to give way to something which almost
resembled happiness. She noticed the change and
rejoiced. At last, when the sun had sunk behind
the western mountain tops, she rose and bade him good-night;
in another moment the door of the saeter-cottage closed
behind her, and he heard her bolting it on the inside.
But for a long time he remained sitting on the grass,
and strange thoughts passed through his head.
He had quite forgotten his bay mare.
The next evening when the milking
was done, and the cattle were gathered within the
saeter enclosure, Brita was again sitting on the large
stone, looking out over the valley. She felt
a kind of companionship with the people when she saw
the smoke whirling up from their chimneys, and she
could guess what they were going to have for supper.
As she sat there, she again heard a creaking in the
branches, and Halvard Ullern stood again before her,
with his jacket on his arm, and the same bridle in
his hand.
“You have not found your bay
mare yet?” she exclaimed, laughingly. “And
you think she is likely to be in this neighborhood?”
“I don’t know,”
he answered; “and I don’t care if she isn’t.”
He spread his jacket on the grass,
and sat down on the spot where he had sat the night
before. Brita looked at him in surprise and remained
silent; she didn’t know how to interpret this
second visit.
“You are very handsome,”
he said, suddenly, with a gravity which left no doubt
as to his sincerity.
“Do you think so?” she
answered, with a merry laugh. He appeared to her
almost a child, and it never entered her mind to feel
offended. On the contrary, she was not sure but
that she felt pleased.
“I have thought of you ever
since yesterday,” he continued, with the same
imperturbable manner. “And if you were not
angry with me, I thought I would like to look at you
once more. You are so different from other folks.”
“God bless your foolish talk,”
cried Brita, with a fresh burst of merriment.
“No, indeed I am not angry with you; I should
just as soon think of being angry with with
that calf,” she added for want of another comparison.
“You think I don’t know
much,” he stammered. “And I don’t.”
The sad smile again settled on his countenance.
A feeling of guilt sent the blood
throbbing through her veins. She saw that she
had done him injustice. He evidently possessed
more sense, or at least a finer instinct, than she
had given him credit for.
“Halvard,” she faltered,
“if I have offended you, I assure you I didn’t
mean to do it; and a thousand times I beg your pardon.”
“You haven’t offended
me, Brita,” answered he, blushing like a girl.
“You are the first one who doesn’t make
me feel that I am not so wise as other folks.”
She felt it her duty to be open and
confiding with him in return; and in order not to
seem ungenerous, or rather to put them on an equal
footing by giving him also a peep into her heart,
she told him about her daily work, about the merry
parties at her father’s house, and about the
lusty lads who gathered in their halls to dance the
Halling and the spring-dance. He listened attentively
while she spoke, gazing earnestly into her face, but
never interrupting her. In his turn he described
to her in his slow deliberate way, how his father
constantly scolded him because he was not bright,
and did not care for politics and newspapers, and
how his mother wounded him with her sharp tongue by
making merry with him, even in the presence of the
servants and strangers. He did not seem to imagine
that there was anything wrong in what he said, or that
he placed himself in a ludicrous light; nor did he
seem to speak from any unmanly craving for sympathy.
His manner was so simple and straightforward that
what Brita probably would have found strange in another,
she found perfectly natural in him.
It was nearly midnight when they parted{.}
She hardly slept at all that night, and she was half
vexed with herself for the interest she took in this
simple youth. The next morning her father came
up to pay her a visit and to see how the flocks were
thriving. She understood that it would be dangerous
to say anything to him about Halvard, for she knew
his temper and feared the result, if he should ever
discover her secret. Therefore, she shunned an
opportunity to talk with him, and only busied herself
the more with the cattle and the cooking. Bjarne
soon noticed her distraction, but, of course, never
suspected the cause. Before he left her, he asked
her if she did not find it too lonely on the saeter,
and if it would not be well if he sent her one of the
maids for a companion. She hastened to assure
him that that was quite unnecessary; the cattle-boy
who was there to help her was all the company she wanted.
Toward evening, Bjarne Blakstad loaded his horses with
buckets, filled with cheese and butter, and started
for the valley. Brita stood long looking after
him as he descended the rocky slope, and she could
hardly conceal from herself that she felt relieved,
when, at last, the forest hid him from her sight.
All day she had been walking about with a heavy heart;
there seemed to be something weighing on her breast,
and she could not throw it off. Who was this
who had come between her and her father? Had
she ever been afraid of him before, had she been glad
to have him leave her? A sudden bitterness took
possession of her, for in her distress, she gave Halvard
the blame for all that had happened. She threw
herself down on the grass and burst into a passionate
fit of weeping; she was guilty, wretchedly miserable,
and all for the sake of one whom she had hardly known
for two days. If he should come in this moment,
she would tell him what he had done toward her; and
her wish must have been heard, for as she raised her
eyes, he stood there at her side, the sad feature
about his mouth and his great honest eyes gazing wonderingly
at her. She felt her purpose melt within her;
he looked so good and so unhappy. Then again
came the thought of her father and of her own wrong,
and the bitterness again revived.
“Go away,” cried she,
in a voice half reluctantly tender and half defiant.
“Go away, I say; I don’t want to see you
any more.”
“I will go to the end of the
world if you wish it,” he answered, with a strange
firmness.
He picked up his jacket which he had
dropped on the ground, then turned slowly, gave her
mother long look, an infinitely sad and hopeless one,
and went. Her bosom heaved violently remorse,
affection and filial duty wrestled desperately in
her heart.
“No, no,” she cried, “why
do you go? I did not mean it so. I only
wanted ”
He paused and returned as deliberately as he had gone.
Why should I dwell upon the days that
followed how her heart grew ever more restless,
how she would suddenly wake up at nights and see those
large blue eyes sadly gazing at her, how by turns she
would condemn herself and him, and how she felt with
bitter pain that she was growing away from those who
had hitherto been nearest and dearest to her.
And strange to say, this very isolation from her father
made her cling only the more desperately to him.
It seemed to her as if Bjarne had deliberately thrown
her off; that she herself had been the one who took
the first step had hardly occurred to her. Alas,
her grief was as irrational as her love. By what
strange devious process of reasoning these convictions
became settled in her mind, it is difficult to tell.
It is sufficient to know that she was a woman and that
she loved. She even knew herself that she was
irrational, and this very sense drew her more hopelessly
into the maze of the labyrinth from which she saw no
escape.
His visits were as regular as those
of the sun. She knew that there was only a word
of hers needed to banish him from her presence forever.
And how many times did she not resolve to speak that
word? But the word was never spoken. At
times a company of the lads from the valley would come
to spend a merry evening at the saeter; but she heeded
them not, and they soon disappeared. Thus the
summer went amid passing moods of joy and sorrow.
She had long known that he loved her, and when at last
his slow confession came, it added nothing to her happiness;
it only increased her fears for the future. They
laid many plans together in those days; but winter
came as a surprise to both, the cattle were removed
from the mountains, and they were again separated.
Bjarne Blakstad looked long and wistfully
at his daughter that morning, when he came to bring
her home. She wore no more rings and brooches,
and it was this which excited Bjarne’s suspicion
that everything was not right with her. Formerly
he was displeased because she wore too many; now he
grumbled because she wore none.
II
The winter was half gone; and in all
this time Brita had hardly once seen Halvard.
Yes, once, it was Christmas-day, she
had ventured to peep over to his pew in the church,
and had seen him, sitting at his father’s side,
and gazing vacantly out into the empty space; but as
he had caught her glance, he had blushed, and began
eagerly to turn the leaves of his hymn-book.
It troubled her that he made no effort to see her;
many an evening she had walked alone down at the river-side,
hoping that he might come; but it was all in vain.
She could not but believe that his father must have
made some discovery, and that he was watched.
In the mean time the black cloud thickened over her
head; for a secret gnawed at the very roots of her
heart. It was a time of terrible suspense and
suffering such as a man never knows, such
as only a woman can endure. It was almost a relief
when the cloud burst, and the storm broke loose, as
presently it did.
One Sunday, early in April, Bjarne
did not return at the usual hour from church.
His daughters waited in vain for him with the dinner,
and at last began to grow uneasy. It was not
his habit to keep irregular hours. There was
a great excitement in the valley just then; the America-fever
had broken out. A large vessel was lying out in
the fjord, ready to take the emigrants away; and there
was hardly a family that did not mourn the loss of
some brave-hearted son, or of some fair and cherished
daughter. The old folks, of course, had to remain
behind; and when the children were gone, what was
there left for them but to lie down and die? America
was to them as distant as if it were on another planet.
The family feeling, too, has ever been strong in the
Norseman’s breast; he lives for his children,
and seems to live his life over again in them.
It is his greatest pride to be able to trace his blood
back into the days of Sverre and St. Olaf, and with
the same confidence he expects to see his race spread
into the future in the same soil where once it has
struck root. Then comes the storm from the Western
seas, wrestles with the sturdy trunk, and breaks it;
and the shattered branches fly to all the four corners
of the heavens. No wonder, then, like a tree that
has lost its crown, his strength is broken and he
expects but to smoulder into the earth and die.
Bjarne Blakstad, like the sturdy old
patriot that he was, had always fiercely denounced
the America rage; and it was now the hope of his daughters
that, perhaps, he had stayed behind to remind the restless
ones among the youth of their duty toward their land,
or to frighten some bold emigration agent who might
have been too loud in his declamations. But it
was already eight o’clock and Bjarne was not
yet to be seen. The night was dark and stormy;
a cold sleet fiercely lashed the window-panes, and
the wind roared in the chimney. Grimhild, the
younger sister, ran restlessly out and in and slammed
the doors after her. Brita sat tightly pressed
up against the wall in the darkest corner of the room.
Every time the wind shook the house she started up;
then again seated herself and shuddered. Dark
forebodings filled her soul.
At last, the clock had
just struck ten, there was a noise heard
in the outer hall. Grimhild sprang to the door
and tore it open. A tall, stooping figure entered,
and by the dress she at once recognized her father.
“Good God,” cried she, and ran up to him.
“Go away, child,” muttered
he, in a voice that sounded strangely unfamiliar,
and he pushed her roughly away. For a moment he
stood still, then stalked up to the table, and, with
a heavy thump, dropped down into a chair. There
he remained with his elbows resting on his knees, and
absently staring on the floor. His long hair hung
in wet tangles down over his face, and the wrinkles
about his mouth seemed deeper and fiercer than usual.
Now and then he sighed, or gave vent to a deep groan.
In a while his eyes began to wander uneasily about
the room; and as they reached the corner where Brita
was sitting, he suddenly darted up, as if stung by
something poisonous, seized a brand from the hearth,
and rushed toward her.
“Tell me I did not see it,”
he broke forth, in a hoarse whisper, seizing her by
the arm and thrusting the burning brand close up to
her face. “Tell me it is a lie a
black, poisonous lie.”
She raised her eyes slowly to his
and gazed steadfastly into his face. “Ah,”
he continued in the same terrible voice, “it
was what I told them down there at the church a
lie an infernal lie. And I drew blood blood,
I say I did from the slanderer.
Ha, ha, ha! What a lusty sprawl that was!”
The color came and departed from Brita’s
cheeks. And still she was strangely self possessed.
She even wondered at her own calmness. Alas,
she did not know that it was a calmness that is more
terrible than pain, the corpse of a forlorn and hopeless
heart.
“Child,” continued Bjarne,
and his voice assumed a more natural tone, “why
dost thou not speak? They have lied about thee,
child, because thou art fair, they have envied thee.”
Then, almost imploringly, “Open thy mouth, Brita,
and tell thy father that thou art pure pure
as the snow, child my own my
beautiful child.”
There was a long and painful pause,
in which the crackling of the brand, and the heavy
breathing of the old man were the only sounds to break
the silence. Pale like a marble image stood she
before him; no word of excuse, no prayer for forgiveness
escaped her; only a convulsive quivering of the lips
betrayed the life that struggled within her. With
every moment the hope died in Bjarne’s bosom.
His visage was fearful to behold. Terror and
fierce indomitable hatred had grimly distorted his
features, and his eyes burned like fire-coals beneath
his bushy brows.
“Harlot,” he shrieked, “harlot!”
A cold gust of wind swept through
the room. The windows shook, the doors flew open,
as if touched by a strong invisible hand and
the old man stood alone, holding the flickering brand
above his head.
It was after midnight, the wind had
abated, but the snow still fell, thick and silent,
burying paths and fences under its cold white mantle.
Onward she fled onward and ever onward.
And whither, she knew not. A cold numbness had
chilled her senses, but still her feet drove her irresistibly
onward. A dark current seemed to have seized her,
she only felt that she was adrift, and she cared not
whither it bore her. In spite of the stifling
dullness which oppressed her, her body seemed as light
as air. At last, she knew not where, she
heard the roar of the sea resounding in her ears,
a genial warmth thawed the numbness of her senses,
and she floated joyfully among the clouds among
golden, sun-bathed clouds. When she opened her
eyes, she found herself lying in a comfortable bed,
and a young woman with a kind motherly face was sitting
at her side. It was all like a dream, and she
made no effort to account for what appeared so strange
and unaccountable.
What she afterward heard was that
a fisherman had found her in a snow-drift on the strand,
and that he had carried her home to his cottage and
had given her over to the charge of his wife.
This was the second day since her arrival. They
knew who she was, but had kept the doors locked and
had told no one that she was there. She heard
the story of the good woman without emotion; it seemed
an intolerable effort to think. But on the third
day, when her child was born, her mind was suddenly
aroused from its lethargy, and she calmly matured her
plans; and for the child’s sake she resolved
to live and to act. That same evening there came
a little boy with a bundle for her. She opened
it and found therein the clothes she had left behind,
and her brooches. She knew that it
was her sister who had sent them; then there was one
who still thought of her with affection. And
yet her first impulse was to send it all back, or
to throw it into the ocean; but she looked at her
child and forbore.
A week passed, and Brita recovered.
Of Halvard she had heard nothing. One night,
as she lay in a half doze, she thought she had Seen
a pale, frightened face pressed up against the window-pane,
and staring fixedly at her and her child; but, after
all, it might have been merely a dream. For her
fevered fancy had in these last days frequently beguiled
her into similar visions. She often thought of
him, but, strangely enough, no more with bitterness,
but with pity. Had he been strong enough to be
wicked, she could have hated him, but he was weak,
and she pitied him. Then it was that; one evening,
as she heard that the American vessel was to sail
at daybreak, she took her little boy and wrapped him
carefully in her own clothes, bade farewell to the
good fisherman and his wife, and walked alone down
to the strand. Huge clouds of fantastic shapes
chased each other desperately along the horizon, and
now and then the slender new moon glanced forth from
the deep blue gulfs between. She chose a boat
at random and was about to unmoor it, when she saw
the figure of a man tread carefully over the stones
and hesitatingly approach her.
“Brita,” came in a whisper from the strand.
“Who’s there?”
“It is I. Father knows it all,
and he has nearly killed me; and mother, too.”
“Is that what you have come to tell me?”
“No, I would like to help you
some. I have been trying to see you these many
days.” And he stepped close up to the boat.
“Thank you; I need no help.”
“But, Brita,” implored
he, “I have sold my gun and my dog, and everything
I had, and this is what I have got for it.”
He stretched out his hand and reached her a red handkerchief
with something heavy bound up in a corner. She
took it mechanically, held it in her hand for a moment,
then flung it far out into the water. A smile
of profound contempt and pity passed over her countenance.
“Farewell, Halvard,” said
she, calmly, and pushed the boat into the water.
“But, Brita,” cried he,
in despair, “what would you have me do?”
She lifted the child in her arms,
then pointed to the vacant seat at her side.
He understood what she meant, and stood for a moment
wavering. Suddenly, he covered his face with
his hands and burst into tears. Within half an
hour, Brita boarded the vessel, and as the first red
stripe of the dawn illumined the horizon, the wind
filled the sails, and the ship glided westward toward
that land where there is a home for them whom love
and misfortune have exiled.
It was a long and wearisome voyage.
There was an old English clergyman on board, who collected
curiosities; to him she sold her rings and brooches,
and thereby obtained more than sufficient money to
pay her passage. She hardly spoke to any one
except her child. Those of her fellow-parishioners
who knew her, and perhaps guessed her history, kept
aloof from her, and she was grateful to them that they
did. From morning till night, she sat in a corner
between a pile of deck freight and the kitchen skylight,
and gazed at her little boy who was lying in her lap.
All her hopes, her future, and her life were in him.
For herself, she had ceased to hope.
“I can give thee no fatherland,
my child,” she said to him. “Thou
shalt never know the name of him who gave thee life.
Thou and I, we shall struggle together, and, as true
as there is a God above, who sees us, He will not
leave either of us to perish. But let us ask no
questions, child, about that which is past. Thou
shalt grow and be strong, and thy mother must grow
with thee.”
During the third week of the voyage,
the English clergyman baptized the boy, and she called
him Thomas, after the day in the almanac on which he
was born. He should never know that Norway had
been his mother’s home; therefore she would
give him no name which might betray his race.
One morning, early in the month of June, they hailed
land, and the great New World lay before them.
III
Why should I speak of the ceaseless
care, the suffering, and the hard toil, which made
the first few months of Brita’s life on this
continent a mere continued struggle for existence?
They are familiar to every emigrant who has come here
with a brave heart and an empty purse. Suffice
it to say that at the end of the second month, she
succeeded in obtaining service as milkmaid with a
family in the neighborhood of New York. With
the linguistic talent peculiar to her people, she
soon learned the English language and even spoke it
well. From her countrymen, she kept as far away
as possible, not for her own sake, but for that of
her boy; for he was to grow great and strong, and the
knowledge of his birth might shatter his strength and
break his courage. For the same reason she also
exchanged her picturesque Norse costume for that of
the people among whom she was living. She went
commonly by the name of Mrs. Brita, which pronounced
in the English way, sounded very much like Mrs. Bright,
and this at last became the name by which she was
known in the neighborhood.
Thus five years passed; then there
was a great rage for emigrating to the far West, and
Brita, with many others, started for Chicago.
There she arrived in the year 1852, and took up her
lodgings with an Irish widow, who was living in a
little cottage in what was then termed the outskirts
of the city. Those who saw her in those days,
going about the lumber-yards and doing a man’s
work, would hardly have recognized in her the merry
Glitter-Brita, who in times of old trod the spring-dance
so gayly in the well-lighted halls of the Blakstad
mansion. And, indeed, she was sadly changed!
Her features had become sharper, and the firm lines
about her mouth expressed severity, almost sternness.
Her clear blue eyes seemed to have grown larger, and
their glance betrayed secret, ever-watchful care.
Only her yellow hair had resisted the force of time
and sorrow; for it still fell in rich and wavy folds
over a smooth white forehead. She was, indeed,
half ashamed of it, and often took pains to force
it into a sober, matronly hood. Only at nights,
when she sat alone talking with her boy, she would
allow it to escape from its prison; and he would laugh
and play with it, and in his child’s way even
wonder at the contrast between her stern face and
her youthful maidenly tresses.
This Thomas, her son, was a strange
child. He had a Norseman’s taste for the
fabulous and fantastic, and although he never heard
a tale of Necken or the Hulder, he would often
startle his mother by the most fanciful combinations
of imagined events, and by bolder personifications
than ever sprung from the legendary soil of the Norseland.
She always took care to check him whenever he indulged
in these imaginary flights, and he at last came to
look upon them as something wrong and sinful.
The boy, as he grew up, often strikingly reminded
her of her father, as, indeed, he seemed to have inherited
more from her own than from Halvard’s race.
Only the bright flaxen hair and his square, somewhat
clumsy stature might have told him to be the latter’s
child. He had a hot temper, and often distressed
his mother by his stubbornness; and then there would
come a great burst of repentance afterwards, which
distressed her still more. For she was afraid
it might be a sign of weakness. “And strong
he must be,” said she to herself, “strong
enough to overcome all resistance, and to conquer
a great name for himself, strong enough to bless a
mother who brought him into the world nameless.”
Strange to say, much as she loved
this child, she seldom caressed him. It was a
penance she had imposed upon herself to atone for her
guilt. Only at times, when she had been sitting
up late, and her eyes would fall, as it were, by accident
upon the little face on the pillow, with the sweet
unconsciousness of sleep resting upon it like a soft,
invisible veil, would she suddenly throw herself down
over him, kiss him, and whisper tender names in his
ear, while her tears fell hot and fast on his yellow
hair and his rosy countenance. Then the child
would dream that he was sailing aloft over shining
forests, and that his mother, beaming with all the
beauty of her lost youth, flew before him, showering
golden flowers on his path. These were the happiest
moments of Brita’s joyless life, and even these
were not unmixed with bitterness; for into the midst
of her joy would steal a shy anxious thought which
was the more terrible because it came so stealthily,
so soft-footed and unbidden. Had not this child
been given her as a punishment for her guilt?
Had she then a right to turn God’s scourge into
a blessing? Did she give to God “that which
belongeth unto God,” as long as all her hopes,
her thoughts, and her whole being revolved about this
one earthly thing, her son, the child of her sorrow?
She was not a nature to shrink from grave questions;
no, she met them boldly, when once they were there,
wrestled fiercely with them, was defeated, and again
with a martyr’s zeal rose to renew the combat.
God had Himself sent her this perplexing doubt and
it was her duty to bear His burden. Thus ran
Brita’s reasoning. In the mean while the
years slipped by, and great changes were wrought in
the world about her.
The few hundred dollars which Brita
had been able to save, during the first three years
of her stay in Chicago, she had invested in a piece
of land. In the mean while the city had grown,
and in the year 1859 she was offered five thousand
dollars for her lot; this offer she accepted and again
bought a small piece of property at a short distance
from the city. The boy had since his eighth year
attended the public school, and had made astonishing
progress. Every day when school was out, she would
meet him at the gate, take him by the hand and lead
him home. If any of the other boys dared to make
sport of her, or to tease him for his dependence upon
her, it was sure to cost that boy a black eye{.} He
soon succeeded in establishing himself in the respect
of his school-mates, for he was the strongest boy
of his own age, and ever ready to protect and defend
the weak and defenseless. When Thomas Bright (for
that was the name by which he was known) was fifteen
years old he was offered a position as clerk in the
office of a lumber-merchant, and with his mother’s
consent he accepted it. He was a fine young lad
now, large and well-knit, and with a clear earnest
countenance. In the evening he would bring home
books to read, and as it had always been Brita’s
habit to interest herself in whatever interested him,
she soon found herself studying and discussing with
him things which had in former years been far beyond
the horizon of her mind. She had at his request
reluctantly given up her work in the lumber-yards,
and now spent her days at home, busying herself with
sewing and reading and such other things as women
find to fill up a vacant hour.
One evening, when Thomas was in his
nineteenth year, he returned from his office with
a graver face than usual. His mother’s quick
eye immediately saw that something had agitated him,
but she forbore to ask.
“Mother,” said he at last,
“who is my father? Is he dead or alive?”
“God is your father, my son,”
answered she, tremblingly. “If you love
me, ask me no more.”
“I do love you, mother,”
he said, and gave her a grave look, in which she thought
she detected a mingling of tenderness and reproach.
“And it shall be as you have said.”
It was the first time she had had
reason to blush before him, and her emotion came near
overwhelming her; but with a violent effort she stifled
it, and remained outwardly calm. He began pacing
up and down the floor with his head bent and his hands
on his back. It suddenly occurred to her that
he was a grown man, and that she could no longer hold
the same relation to him as his supporter and protector.
“Alas,” thought she, “if God will
but let me remain his mother, I shall bless and thank
Him.”
It was the first time this subject
had been broached, and it gave rise to many a doubt
and many a question in the anxious mother’s mind.
Had she been right in concealing from him that which
he might justly claim to know? What had been
her motive in keeping him ignorant of his origin and
of the land of his birth? She had wished him to
grow to the strength of manhood, unconscious of guilt,
so that he might bear his head upright, and look the
world fearlessly in the face. And still, had there
not in all this been a lurking thought of herself,
a fear of losing his love, a desire to stand pure
and perfect in his eye? She hardly dared to answer
these questions, for, alas, she knew not that even
our purest motives are but poorly able to bear a searching
scrutiny. She began to suspect that her whole
course with her son had been wrong from the very beginning.
Why had she not told him the stern truth, even if he
should despise her for it, even if she should have
to stand a blushing culprit in his presence?
Often, when she heard his footsteps in the hall, as
he returned from the work of the day, she would man
herself up and the words hovered upon her lips:
“Son, thou art a bastard born, a child of guilt,
and thy mother is an outcast upon the earth.”
But when she met those calm blue eyes of his, saw
the unsuspecting frankness of his manner and the hopefulness
with which he looked to the future, her womanly heart
shrank from its duty, and she hastened out of the room,
threw herself on her bed, and wept. Fiercely she
wrestled with God in prayer, until she thought that
even God had deserted her. Thus months passed
and years, and the constant care and anxiety began
to affect her health. She grew pale and nervous,
and the slightest noise would annoy her. In the
mean while, her manner toward the young man had become
strangely altered, and he soon noticed it, although
he forbore to speak. She was scrupulously mindful
of his comfort, anxiously anticipated his wants, and
observed toward him an ever vigilant consideration,
as if he had been her master instead of her son.
When Thomas was twenty-two years of
age, he was offered a partnership in his employer’s
business, and with every year his prospects brightened.
The sale of his mother’s property brought him
a very handsome little fortune, which enabled him
to build a fine and comfortable house in one of the
best portions of the city. Thus their outward
circumstances were greatly improved, and of comfort
and luxury Brita had all and more than she had ever
desired; but her health was broken down, and the physicians
declared that a year of foreign travel and a continued
residence in Italy might possibly restore her.
At last, Thomas, too, began to urge her, until she
finally yielded. It was on a bright morning in
May that they both started for New York, and three
days later they took the boat for Europe. What
countries they were to visit they had hardly decided,
but after a brief stay in England we find them again
on a steamer bound for Norway.
IV
Warm and gentle as it is, June often
comes to the fjord-valleys of Norway with the voice
and the strength of a giant. The glaciers totter
and groan, as if in anger at their own weakness, and
send huge avalanches of stones and ice down into the
valleys. The rivers swell and rush with vociferous
brawl out over the mountainsides, and a thousand tiny
brooks join in the general clamor, and dance with noisy
chatter over the moss-grown birch-roots. But
later, when the struggle is at an end, and June has
victoriously seated herself upon her throne, her voice
becomes more richly subdued and brings rest and comfort
to the ear and to the troubled heart. It was
while the month was in this latter mood that Brita
and her son entered once more the valley whence, twenty-five
years ago, they had fled. Many strange, turbulent
emotions stirred the mother’s bosom, as she
saw again the great snow-capped mountains, and the
calm, green valley, her childhood’s home, lying
so snugly sheltered in their mighty embrace.
Even Thomas’s breast was moved with vaguely
sympathetic throbs, as this wondrous scene spread itself
before him. They soon succeeded in hiring a farm-house,
about half an hour’s walk from Blakstad, and,
according to Brita’s wish, established themselves
there for the summer. She had known the people
well, when she was young, but they never thought of
identifying her with the merry maid, who had once
startled the parish by her sudden flight; and she,
although she longed to open her heart to them, let
no word fall to betray her real character. Her
conscience accused her of playing a false part, but
for her son’s sake she kept silent.
Then, one day, it was the
second Sunday after their arrival, she rose
early in the morning, and asked Thomas to accompany
her on a walk up through the valley. There was
Sabbath in the air; the soft breath of summer, laden
with the perfume of fresh leaves and field-flowers,
gently wafted into their faces. The sun glittered
in the dewy grass, the crickets sung with a remote
voice of wonder, and the air seemed to be half visible,
and moved in trembling wavelets on the path before
them. Resting on her son’s arm, Brita walked
slowly up through the flowering meadows; she hardly
knew whither her feet bore her, but her heart beat
violently, and she often was obliged to pause and press
her hands against her bosom, as if to stay the turbulent
emotions.
“You are not well, mother,”
said the son. “It was imprudent in me to
allow you to exert yourself in this way.”
“Let us sit down on this stone,”
answered she. “I shall soon be better.
Do not look so anxiously at me. Indeed, I am not
sick.”
He spread his light summer coat on
the stone and carefully seated her. She lifted
her veil and raised her eyes to the large red-roofed
mansion, whose dark outlines drew themselves dimly
on the dusky background of the pine forest. Was
he still alive, he whose life-hope she had wrecked,
he who had once driven her out into the night with
all but a curse upon his lips? How would he receive
her, if she were to return? Ah, she knew him,
and she trembled at the very thought of meeting him.
But was not the guilt hers? Could she depart
from this valley, could she die in peace, without
having thrown herself at his feet and implored his
forgiveness? And there, on the opposite side
of the valley, lay the home of him who had been the
cause of all her misery. What had been his fate,
and did he still remember those long happy summer
days, ah! so long, long ago? She had dared to
ask no questions of the people with whom she lived,
but now a sudden weakness had overtaken her, and she
felt that to-day must decide her fate; she could no
longer bear this torture of uncertainty. Thomas
remained standing at her side and looked at her with
anxiety and wonder. He knew that she had concealed
many things from him, but whatever her reasons might
be, he was confident that they were just and weighty.
It was not for him to question her about what he might
have no right to know. He felt as if he had never
loved her as in this moment, when she seemed to be
most in need of him, and an overwhelming tenderness
took possession of his heart. He suddenly stooped
down, took her pale, thin face between his hands and
kissed her. The long pent-up emotion burst forth
in a flood of tears; she buried her face in her lap
and wept long and silently. Then the church-bells
began to peal down in the valley, and the slow mighty
sound floated calmly and solemnly up to them.
How many long-forgotten memories of childhood and youth
did they not wake in her bosom memories
of the time when the merry Glitter-Brita, decked with
her shining brooches, wended her way to the church
among the gayly-dressed lads and maidens of the parish?
A cluster of white-stemmed birches
threw its shadow over the stone where the penitent
mother was sitting, and the tall grass on both sides
of the path nearly hid her from sight. Presently
the church-folk began to appear, and Brita raised
her head and drew her veil down over her face.
No one passed without greeting the strangers, and the
women and maidens, according to old fashion, stopped
and courtesied. At last, there came an old white-haired
man, leaning on the arm of a middle-aged woman.
His whole figure was bent forward, and he often stopped
and drew his breath heavily.
“Oh, yes, yes,” he said,
ill a hoarse, broken voice, as he passed before them,
“age is gaining on me fast. I can’t
move about any more as of old. But to church
I must this day. God help me! I have done
much wrong and need to pray for forgiveness.”
“You had better sit down and
rest, father,” said the woman. “Here
is a stone, and the fine lady, I am sure, will allow
a weak old man to sit down beside her.”
Thomas rose and made a sign to the
old man to take his seat.
“O yes, yes,” he went
on murmuring, as if talking to himself. “Much
wrong much forgiveness. God help us
all miserable sinners. He who hateth
not father and mother and daughter is not
worthy of me. O, yes yes God
comfort us all. Help me up, Grimhild. I think
I can move on again, now.”
Thomas, of course, did not understand
a word of what he said, but seeing that he wished
to rise, he willingly offered his assistance, supported
his arm and raised him.
“Thanks to you, young man,”
said the peasant. “And may God reward your
kindness.”
And the two, father and daughter,
moved on, slowly and laboriously, as they had come.
Thomas stood following them with his eyes, until a
low, half-stifled moan suddenly called him to his
mother’s side. Her frame trembled violently.
“Mother, mother,” implored
he, stooping over her, “what has happened?
Why are you no more yourself?”
“Ah, my son, I can bear it no
longer,” sobbed she. “God forgive
me thou must know it all.”
He sat down at her side and drew her
closely up to him and she hid her face on his bosom.
There was a long silence, only broken by the loud
chirruping of the crickets.
“My son,” she began at
last, still hiding her face, “thou art a child
of guilt.”
“That has been no secret to
me, mother,” answered he, gravely and tenderly,
“since I was old enough to know what guilt was.”
She quickly raised her head, and a
look of amazement, of joyous surprise, shone through
the tears that veiled her eyes. She could read
nothing but filial love and confidence in those grave,
manly features, and she saw in that moment that all
her doubts had been groundless, that her long prayerful
struggle had been for naught.
“I brought thee into the world
nameless,” she whispered, “and thou hast
no word of reproach for me?”
“With God’s help, I am
strong enough to conquer a name for myself, mother,”
was his answer.
It was the very words of her own secret
wish, and upon his lips they sounded like a blessed
assurance, like a miraculous fulfillment of her motherly
prayer.
“Still, another thing, my child,”
she went on in a more confident voice. “This
is thy native land, and the old man who
was just sitting here at my side was my
father.”
And there, in the shadow of the birch-trees,
in the summer stillness of that hour, she told him
the story of her love, of her flight, and of the misery
of these long, toilsome five and twenty years.
Late in the afternoon, Brita and her
son were seen returning to the farm-house. A
calm, subdued happiness beamed from the mother’s
countenance; she was again at peace with the world
and herself, and her heart was as light as in the
days of her early youth. But her bodily strength
had given out, and her limbs almost refused to support
her. The strain upon her nerves and the constant
effort had hitherto enabled her to keep up, but now,
when that strain was removed, exhausted nature claimed
its right. The next day she could not
leave her bed, and with every hour her strength failed.
A physician was sent for. He gave medicine, but
no hope. He shook his head gravely, as he went,
and both mother and son knew what that meant.
Toward evening, Bjarne Blakstad was
summoned, and came at once. Thomas left the room,
as the old man entered, and what passed in that hour
between father and daughter, only God knows. When
the door was again opened, Brita’s eyes shone
with a strange brilliancy, and Bjarne lay on his knees
before the bed, pressing her hand convulsively between
both of his.
“This is my son, father,”
said she, in a language which her son did not understand;
and a faint smile of motherly pride and happiness flitted
over her pale features. “I would give him
to thee in return for what thou hast lost; but God
has laid his future in another land.”
Bjarne rose, grasped his grandson’s
hand, and pressed it; and two heavy tears ran down
his furrowed cheeks. “Alas,” murmured
he, “my son, that we should meet thus.”
There they stood, bound together by
the bonds of blood, but, alas, there lay a world between
them.
All night they sat together at the
dying woman’s bedside. Not a word was spoken.
Toward morning, as the sun stole into the darkened
chamber, Brita murmured their names, and they laid
their hands in hers.
“God be praised,” whispered
she, scarcely audibly, “I have found you both my
father and my son.” A deep pallor spread
over her countenance. She was dead.
Two days later, when the body was
laid out, Thomas stood alone in the room. The
windows were covered with white sheets, and a subdued
light fell upon the pale, lifeless countenance.
Death had dealt gently with her, she seemed younger
than before, and her light wavy hair fell softly over
the white forehead. Then there came a middle-aged
man, with a dull eye, and a broad forehead, and timidly
approached the lonely mourner. He walked on tip-toe
and his figure stooped heavily. For a long while
he stood gazing at the dead body, then he knelt down
at the foot of the coffin, and began to sob violently.
At last he arose, took two steps toward the young
man, paused again, and departed silently as he had
come. It was Halvard.
Close under the wall of the little
red-painted church, they dug the grave; and a week
later her father was laid to rest at his daughter’s
side.
But the fresh winds blew over the
Atlantic and beckoned the son to new fields of labor
in the great land of the future.