May 22d,
Eight o’Clock in the Morning.
MY DEAREST EMMA,
We are now in sight of Ushant, and
shall see Admiral Cornwallis in an hour.
I am not in a little fret, on the
idea that he may keep the Victory, and turn us all
into the Amphion. It will make it truly uncomfortable;
but, I cannot help myself.
I assure you, my dear Emma, that I
feel a thorough conviction, that we shall meet again,
with honour, riches, and health, and remain together
till a good old age. I look at your and my God’s
Child’s picture; but, till I am sure of remaining
here, I cannot bring myself to hang them up.
Be assured, that my attachment, and affectionate regard,
is unalterable; nothing can shake it! And, pray,
say so to my dear Mrs. T. when you see her. Tell
her, that my love is unbounded, to her and her dear
sweet child; and, if she should have more, it will
extend to all of them. In short, my dear Emma,
say every thing to her, which your dear, affectionate,
heart and head, can think of.
We are very comfortable. Mr.
Elliot is happy, has quite recovered his spirits;
he was very low, at Portsmouth. George Elliot
is very well; say so, to Lord Minto. Murray,
Sutton in short, every body in the ship,
seems happy; and, if we should fall in with a French
man-of-war, I have no fears but they will do as we
used to do.
Hardy is gone into Plymouth, to see
our Dutchman safe. I think, she will turn out
a good prize.
Gaetano desires his duty to Miledi!
He is a good man; and, I dare say, will come back:
for, I think, it cannot be a long war; just enough
to make me independent in pecuniary matters.
If the wind stands, on Tuesday we
shall be on the coast of Portugal; and, before next
Sunday, in the Mediterranean.
To Mrs. Cadogan, say every kind thing;
to good Mrs. Nelson, the Doctor, &c. &c.
If you like, you may tell him about
the entailing of the pension: but, perhaps, he
will be so much taken up with Canterbury, that it will
do for some dull evening at Hilborough.
I shall now stop, till I have been
on board the Admiral. Only, tell Mrs. T. that
I will write her the first safe opportunity; I am not
sure of this.
I shall direct to Merton, after June
1st. Therefore, as you change, make Davison take
a direction to Nepean; but, I would not trouble him
with too many directions, for fear of embroil.
May 23d.
We were close in with Brest, yesterday;
and found, by a frigate, that Admiral Cornwallis had
a rendezvous at sea. Thither we went; but, to
this hour, cannot find him.
It blows strong. What wind we
are losing! If I cannot find the Admiral by six
o’clock, we must all go into the Amphion, and
leave the Victory, to my great mortification.
So much for the wisdom of my superiors.
I keep my letter open to the last:
for, I still hope; as, I am sure, there is no good
reason for my not going out in the Victory.
I am just embarking in the Amphion;
cannot find Admiral Cornwallis.
May God in Heaven bless you! prays your most sincere
NELSON & BRONTE.
Stephens’s publication I should like to have.
I have left my silver seal; at least, I cannot find
it.