BETTLES TO THE PACIFIC THE
ALATNA, KOBUK PORTAGE, KOBUK VILLAGE, KOTZEBUE SOUND
ALL our preparations were long since
made. Our Indian guide had been sent back to
Fort Yukon from Coldfoot, and here we engaged a young
Esquimau with his dog team and sled, to go across to
Kotzebue Sound with us. There was also a young
Dane who wished to go from the Koyukuk diggings to
the diggings at Candle Creek on the Seward Peninsula,
and him we were willing to feed in return for his
assistance on the trail. The supplies had been
carefully calculated for the journey, the toboggans
were already loaded, and we waited but a break in the
cold weather to start.
Our course from Bettles would lead
us sixty-five miles farther down the Koyukuk to the
mouth of the Alatna. The visit to the native village
and the burial of the poor fellow frozen to death
would take us ten miles farther down than that, and
we would return to the Alatna mouth. Then the
way would lie for fifty miles or so up that stream,
and then over a portage, across to the Kobuk River,
which we should descend to its mouth in Kotzebue Sound;
the whole distance being about five hundred miles
through a very little travelled country. We learned
indeed, that it had been travelled but once this winter,
and that on the first snow. It was thought at
Bettles that we might possibly procure some supplies
at a newly established mission of the Society of Friends
about half-way down the Kobuk River, but there was
no certainty about it, and we must carry with us enough
man-food to take us to salt water. Our supply
of dog fish we might safely count upon replenishing
from the natives on the Kobuk. Another thing
that caused some thought was the supply of small money.
There was no silver and no currency except large bills
on the Koyukuk, and we should need money in small
sums to buy fish with. So the agent weighed out
a number of little packets of gold-dust carefully sealed
up in stout writing-paper like medicine powders, some
worth a dollar, some worth two dollars, the value
written on the face, and we found them readily accepted
by the natives and very convenient. Two years
later I heard of some of those packets, unbroken,
still current on the Kobuk.
At last, on the 26th of January, we
got away. The thermometer stood only a few degrees
above -50 deg. when we left, but the barometer
had been falling slowly for a couple of days, and
I was convinced the cold spell was over. With
our three teams and four men we made quite a little
expedition, but dogs and men were alike soft, and for
the first two days the travel was laborious and slow;
then came milder weather and better going.
We passed the two ruined huts of Peavey,
the roofs crushed by the superincumbent snow.
In the summer of 1898 a part of the stream of gold
seekers, headed for the Klondike by way of Saint Michael,
was deflected to the Koyukuk River by reports of recent
discoveries there. A great many little steamboat
outfits made their way up this river late in the season,
until their excessive draught in the falling water
brought them to a stand. Where they stopped they
wintered, building cabins and starting “towns.”
In one or two cases the “towns” were electrically
lit from the steamboat’s dynamo. The next
summer they all left, all save those who were wrecked
by the ice, and the “towns” were abandoned.
But they had got upon the map through some enterprising
representative of the land office, and they figure
on some recent maps still. Peavey, Seaforth,
Jimtown, Arctic City, Beaver City, Bergman, are all
just names and nothing else, though at Bergman the
Commercial Company had a plant for a while.
We passed the mouth of the Alatna,
where were two or three Indian cabins, and went on
the remaining ten miles to Moses’ Village, where
the body of the man frozen to death had been brought.
Moses’ Village, named from the chief, was the
largest native village on the Koyukuk River, and we
were glad, despite our haste, that we had gone there.
The repeated requests from all the Indians we met
for a mission and school on the Koyukuk River and
the neglected condition of the people had moved me
the previous year to take up the matter. This
was my first visit, however, so far down the river.
We found the coffin unmade and the
grave undug, and set men vigorously to work at both.
The frozen body had been found fallen forward on hands
and feet, and since to straighten it would be impossible
without several days’ thawing in a cabin, the
coffin had to be of the size and shape of a packing-case;
of course the ground for the grave had to be thawed
down, for so are all graves dug in Alaska, and that
is a slow business. A fire is kindled on the
ground, and when it has burned out, as much ground
as it has thawed is dug, and then another fire is
kindled. We had our own gruesome task. The
body should be examined to make legally sure that
death came from natural causes. With difficulty
the clothes were stripped from the poor marble corpse,
my companion made the examination, and as a notary
public I swore him to a report for the nearest United
States commissioner. This would furnish legal
proof of death were it ever required; otherwise, since
there is no provision for the travelling expenses
of coroners, and the nearest was one hundred and forty
or one hundred and fifty miles away, there would have
been no inquest and no such proof.
The man had delayed his return to
Bettles too long. When his food was exhausted
and he had to go, there came on that terrible cold
spell. A little memorandum-book in his pocket
told the pitiful story. Day by day he lingered
hoping for a change, and day by day there was entry
of the awful cold. He had no thermometer, but
he knew the temperature was -50 deg. or lower
by the cracking noise that his breath made the
old-timer’s test. At last the grub was
all gone and he must go or starve. The final
entry read: “All aboard to-morrow, hope
to God I get there.” The Indians estimated
that he had been walking two days, and had “siwashed
it” at night somewhere beside a fire in the
open without bedding. Holes were burned in his
breeches in two places, where, doubtless, he had got
too near the fire. He had nothing whatever to
eat with him save a piece of bacon gnawed to the rind.
There were only two matches in his pocket, and they
were mixed up with trash of birch-bark and tobacco,
so it is likely he did not know he had them.
He had lit all the fires he could light and eaten
all the food he had to eat. Still he was plugging
along towards the native village nine miles away.
Then he lost the trail, probably in the dark, for
it was faint and much drifted, and had taken off his
snow-shoes to feel with his moccasined feet for the
hardened snow that would indicate it. That was
almost the end. He had gone across the river
and back again, feeling for the trail, and then, with
the deadly numbness already upon his brain, had wandered
in a circle. The date of his starting in the
memorandum-book and the distance travelled made it
almost certain that, at some moment between the time
when those three moons floated in the sky and the
time when that cross glared on the horizon, he had
fallen in the snow, never to rise again. Fifty-eight
below zero and a wind blowing!
One supposes that the actual death
by freezing is painless, as it is certainly slow and
gradual. The only instance of sudden gelation
I ever heard of is in Longfellow’s “Wreck
of the Hesperus,” where the skipper, having
answered one question, upon being asked another,
“Answered never a word,
For a frozen corpse was he.”
But if the actual death be painless,
the long conscious fight against it must be an agony;
for a man of any experience must realise the peril
he is in. The tingling in fingers and toes and
then in knees and elbows is a warning he recognises
only too well. He knows that, unless he can restore
warmth by restoring the circulation, he is as good
as frozen already. He increases his pace and
beats his arms against his breast. But if his
vitality be too much reduced by hunger and fatigue
and cold to make more than a slight response to the
stimulation, if the distance to warmth and shelter
be too great for a spurt to carry him there, he is
soon in worse case than before. Then the appalling
prospect of perishing by the cold must rise nakedly
before him. The enemy is in the breach, swarming
over the ramparts, advancing to the heart of the fortress,
not to be again repelled. He becomes aware that
his hands and feet are already frozen, and presently
there may be a momentary terrible recognition that
his wits begin to wander. Frantically he stumbles
on, thrashing his body with his arms, forcing his
gait to the uttermost, a prey to the terror that hangs
over him, until his growing horror and despair are
mercifully swallowed up in the somnolent torpidity
that overwhelms him. All of us who have travelled
in cold weather know how uneasy and apprehensive a
man becomes when the fingers grow obstinately cold
and he realises that he is not succeeding in getting
them warm again. It is the beginning of death
by freezing.
We buried the body on a bench of the
bluff across the river from the native village, the
natives all standing around reverently while the words
of committal were said, and set up a cross marked with
lead-pencil: “R. I. P. Eric
Ericson, found frozen, January, 1906.” Two
or three years later a friend sent me a small bronze
tablet with the same legend, and that was affixed
to the cross. There are many such lonely graves
in Alaska, for scarce a winter passes that does not
claim its victims in every section of the country.
That same winter we heard of two men frozen on the
Seward Peninsula, two on the Yukon, one on the Tanana,
and one on the Valdez trail. This day I recorded
a temperature of 10 deg., the first plus temperature
in thirty-nine days, and that previous rise above
zero was the first in twenty days.
That night we gathered all the natives,
and after long speech with poor interpretation I ventured
to promise them a mission the next year. Some
of them had been across to the Yukon years before and
had visited the mission at Tanana. Some had been
baptized there. Some had never seen a clergyman
or missionary of any sort before, and had never heard
the gospel preached. We were touched by one old
blind woman who told of a visit to a mission on the
Yukon, and how she learned to sing a hymn there.
Her son interpreted: “She say every night
she sing that hymn for speak to God.” She
was encouraged to sing it, and it turned out to be
the alphabet set to a tune! After much pleading
and with some hesitation, I baptized seventeen children,
comforting myself with the assurance of the coming
mission, which would undertake their Christian training
and instruction.
Back next day at the mouth of the
Alatna, I was again impressed with the eligibility
of that spot as a mission site. It was but ten
miles above the present native village, and, with
church and school established, the whole population
would sooner or later move to it. This gives
opportunity for regulating the building of cabins,
and the advantage of a new, clean start. Moreover,
the Alatna River is the highway between the Kobuk
and the Koyukuk, and the Esquimaux coming over in increasing
numbers, would be served by a mission at this place
as well as the Indians. I foresaw two villages,
perhaps, on the opposite sides of the river one
clustered about the church and the school, the other
a little lower down where these ancient
hereditary enemies might live side by side in peace
and harmony under the firm yet gentle influence of
the church. So I staked a mission site, and set
up notices claiming ground for that purpose, almost
opposite the mouth of the Alatna, which, in the native
tongue, is Allakaket or Allachaket.
There was some trail up the Alatna
and we made fair headway on its surface, stopping
two nights at Kobuk huts. We are out of the Indian
country now, and shall see no more Indians until we
are back on the Yukon. The mode of life, the
habits, the character of the races are very different the
first Esquimau habitation we visited proclaiming it.
These inland Esquimaux, though some of the younger
ones have never seen salt water our guide,
Roxy, for one are still essentially a salt-water
people. Their huts, even in the midst of trees,
are half-underground affairs, for they have not learned
log-building; the windows are of seal gut, and seal
oil is a staple article of their diet. Their clothing
is also marine, their parkees of the hair-seal and
their mukluks of the giant seal. Communications
are always kept up with the coast, and the sea products
required are brought across. The time for the
movement of the Kobuks back and forth was not quite
yet, though we hoped we should meet some parties and
get the benefit of their trail. Just before we
left the Alatna River we stopped at Roxy’s fish
cache and got some green fish, hewing them out of
the frozen mass with the axe. The young man had
fished here the previous summer, had cached the fish
caught too late to dry in the sun, and they had remained
where he left them for four or five months. Most
of them had begun to decay before they froze, but that
did not impair their value as dog food, though it rendered
the cooking of them a disagreeable proceeding to white
nostrils. This caching of food is a common thing
amongst both natives and whites, and it is rarely
that a cache is violated except under great stress
of hunger, when violation is recognised as legitimate.
Doughty, in his Arabia Deserta, mentions the
same custom amongst the Arabs; Sven Hedin amongst
the Tartars. Sparsely peopled waste countries
have much the same customs all over the world.
Even the outer garb in the Oriental deserts has much
resemblance to our parkee; both burnoose and parkee
are primarily windbreaks, and it makes little difference
whether the wind be charged with snow or sand.
At midday on the 3d of February we
left the Alatna River and took our way across country
for the Kobuk. We had now no trail at all save
what had been made a couple of months before by the
only other party that had crossed the portage this
winter, and it was buried under fifteen or sixteen
inches of snow. There was quite a grade to be
climbed to reach the plateau over which our course
lay, and the men, with rope over the shoulder, had
to help the dogs hauling at the sled. Indeed,
over a good deal of this portage, from time to time,
the men had to do dog work, for the country is rolling,
one ridge succeeding another, and the loose, deep
snow made heavy and slow going. One man must go
ahead breaking trail, and that was generally my task,
though when the route grew doubtful and the indications
too faint for white man’s eye, Roxy took my
place and I took his gee pole, and slipped his rope
around my chest.
Breaking trail would not be so laborious
if one could wear the large snow-shoes that are used
for hunting. But the hunting shoe, though it
carries the man without fatigue, does not help the
dogs. The small shoe known as the trail shoe,
packs the snow beneath it, and by the time the trail
breaker has gone forward, then back again, and then
forward once more, the snow is usually packed hard
enough to give the dogs some footing. Footing
the dog must have or he cannot pull; a dog wallowing
in snow to his belly cannot exert much traction on
the vehicle behind him. The notion of snow-shoeing
as a sport always seems strange to us on the trail,
for to us it is a laborious necessity and no sport
at all. The trail breaker thus goes over most
of the ground thrice, and when he is anxious at the
same time to get a fairly accurate estimate by the
pedometer of the distance travelled, he must constantly
remember to upend the instrument in his pocket when
he retraces his steps, and restore it to its recording
position when he attacks unbroken snow again.
Also he must take himself unawares, so to speak, from
time to time, and check the length of his stride with
the tape measure and alter the step index as the varying
surfaces passed over require. Conscientiously
used, with due regard to its limitations, the pedometer
will give a fair approximation of the length of a journey,
but a man can no more tell how far he has gone by
merely hanging a pedometer in his pocket than he can
tell the height above sea-level of an inland mountain
by merely carrying an aneroid barometer to the top.
It was on this Alatna-Kobuk portage
that we saw the most magnificent sunrise any of us
could remember. It had been cloudy for some days
with threat of snow which did not fall. We were
camped in a little hollow between two ridges, and
I had been busy packing up the stuff in the tent preparatory
to the start, when I stepped out with a load of bedding
in my arms, right into the midst of the spectacle.
It was simple, as the greatest things are always simple,
but so gorgeous and splendid that it was startling.
The whole southeastern sky was filled with great luminous
bands of alternate purple and crimson. At the
horizon the bands were deeper in tone and as they
rose they grew lighter, but they maintained an unmixed
purity of contrasting colour throughout. I gazed
at it until the tent was struck and the dogs hitched
and it was time to start, and then I had to turn my
back upon it, for our course lay due west, and I was
breaking trail. But on the crest of the rising
ground ahead there burst upon my delighted eyes a
still more astonishing prospect. We were come
to the first near view of the Kobuk mountains, and
the reflected light of that gorgeous sunrise was caught
by the flanks of a group of wild and lofty snow peaks,
and they stood up incandescent, with a vivid colour
that seemed to come through them as well as from them.
To right and left, mountains out of the direct path
of that light gave a soft dead mauve, but these favoured
peaks, bathed from base to summit in clear crimson
effulgence, glowed like molten metal. It was not
the reflected light of the sun, but of the flaming
sky, for even as I looked, a swift change came over
them. They passed through the tones of red to
lightest pink, not fading but brightening, and before
my companions reached me the sun’s rays sprang
upon the mountains from the horizon, and they were
golden.
It seems almost foolish to the writer
and may well seem tedious to the reader, to attempt
in words the description of such scenes; yet so deep
is the impression they produce, and so large the place
they take in the memory, that to omit them would be
to strike out much of the charm and zest of these
arctic journeys. Again and again in the years
that have passed, the recollection of that pomp of
colour on the way to the Kobuk has come suddenly upon
me, and always with a bounding of the spirit.
I can shut my eyes now and see that incomparable sunrise;
I can see again that vision of mountains filling half
the sky with their unimaginable ardency, and I think
that this world never presented nobler sight.
Surely for its pageantry of burning, living colour,
for purity and depth and intensity of tint, the Far
North with its setting of snow surpasses all other
regions of the earth.
That same day we met a couple of Kobuk
youths on their way to the Koyukuk, and they gave
us the greatest gift it was in the power of man to
give us a trail! There is no finer
illustration of the mutual service of man to man than
the meeting of parties going opposite ways across
the unbroken snows. Each is at once conferring
and receiving the greatest of favours, without loss
to himself is heaping benefit on the other; is, it
may be has often been saving
the other, and being himself saved. No more hunting
and peering for blazes, no more casting about hither
and thither when open stretches are crossed; no more
three times back and forth to beat the snow down twenty
miles a day instead of ten or twelve the
boys’ trail meant all that to us. And our
trail meant almost as much to them. So we were
rejoiced to see them, sturdy youths of sixteen or
seventeen, making the journey all by themselves.
My heart goes out to these adventurous Kobuks, amiable,
light-hearted, industrious; keen hunters, following
the mountain-sheep far up where the Indian will not
go; adepts in all the wilderness arts; heirs of the
uncharted arctic wastes, and occupying their heritage.
If I were not a white man I would far rather be one
of these nomadic inland Esquimaux than any other native
I know of.
That same day we crossed two headwater
forks of the Kokochatna, as the Kobuks call it, or
the Hogatzitna as the Koyukuks call it, or the Hog
River, as the white men call it, a tributary of the
Koyukuk that comes in about one hundred and fifty
miles below the Alatna. As we came down a steep
descent to the little east fork, it showed so picturesque
and attractive, with clumps of fine open timber on
an island, that it remains in my mind one of the many
places from the Grand Canon of the Colorado almost
to the Grand Canon of the Noatak, where I should like
to have a lodge in the vast wilderness.
We had but crossed the west fork when
we knew that we were close to the watershed between
the Kobuk and the Koyukuk, between the streams that
fall into Kotzebue Sound and those that fall by the
Koyukuk and the Yukon Rivers into Bering Sea; and
because it seemed a capital geographic feature, it
was disappointing that it was so inconspicuous.
Indeed, we were not sure which of two ridges was the
actual divide. Beyond those ridges there was
no question, for the ground sloped down to Lake Noyutak,
a body of water some three and a half miles in length
and of varying breadth that drains into the Kobuk.
Here in a cabin we found three more young Kobuks,
and spent the night, getting our first view of the
Kobuk River next day, not from an eminence, as I had
hoped, but only as we came down a bank through thick
timber and opened suddenly upon it. By the pedometer
I made the portage forty-six miles.
The upper Kobuk is a picturesque river,
the timber being especially large and handsome for
interior Alaska. We reached it just above the
mouth of the Reed River, tributary from the north.
The weather was warm too warm for good
travelling the thermometer standing at 15 –
deg., 20 deg., and one day even 30 deg.
above zero all day long, so that we were all bareheaded
and in our shirt-sleeves. From time to time, as
the course of the river varied, we had distant views
of the rocky mountains of the Endicott Range, or,
as it might be written, the Endicott Range of the
Rocky Mountains, for such, in fact, it is the
western and final extension of the great American
cordillera. On the other side of those mountains
was the Noatak River, flowing roughly parallel with
the Kobuk, and discharging into the same arm of the
sea.
The division of the labour of camping
amongst four gave us all some leisure at night, and
I found time to read through again The Cloister
and the Hearth and Westward Ho! with much
pleasure, quite agreeing with Sir Walter Besant’s
judgment that the former is one of the best historical
novels ever written. There are few more attractive
roysterers in literature to me than Denys of Burgundy,
with his “Courage, camarades, lé diable est
mort!” This matter of winter reading is a
difficult one, because it is impossible to carry many
books. My plan is to take two or three India-paper
volumes of classics that have been read before, and
renew my acquaintance with them. But reading by
the light of one candle, though it sufficed our forefathers,
is hard on our degenerate eyes.
The days were much lengthened now,
and the worst of the winter was done. There would
still be cold and storm, but hardly again of the same
intensity and duration. When the traveller gets
well into February he feels that the back of the winter
is broken, for nothing can take from him the advantage
of the ever-lengthening days, the ever-climbing sun.
On the afternoon of the third day
on the Kobuk we reached a cabin occupied by two white
men, the first we had seen since we left Bettles,
and we were the first white men they had seen all the
winter. They were waiting for the spring, having
a prospecting trip in view; simply spending the winter
eating up their grub. There was nothing whatever
to read in the cabin, and they had been there since
the freeze-up! They welcomed us, and we stayed
overnight with them, and that night there was a total
eclipse of the moon, of which we had a fine view.
We had an almanac which gave the time of totality
at Sitka, and we knew the approximate longitude of
our position, so we were able to set our watches by
it.
The next two days are noted in my
diary as two of the pleasantest days of the whole
journey two of the pleasantest days I ever
spent anywhere, I think. A clear, cloudless sky,
brilliant sunshine, white mountain peaks all about
us, gave picture after picture, and the warm, balmy
air made travelling a delight. There are few
greater pleasures than that of penetrating into a
new country, with continually changing views of beauty,
under kindly conditions of weather and trail.
In the yellow rays of the early sun, the spruce on
the river bank looked like a screen of carved bronze,
while the slender stems of birches in front of the
spruce looked like an inlaying of old ivory upon the
bronze, the whole set upon its pedestal of marble-like
snow. The second day we took a portage of nine
or ten miles across a barren flat and struck the river
again just below a remarkable stretch of bank a mile
or so in length, with never a tree or a bush or so
much as the smallest shrub growing on it. Thick
timber above suddenly ceased, thick timber below suddenly
began again, and this bare bank reached back through
open, barren flat to a low pass in the mountains.
It was a bank of solid ice, so we were told later,
and I remembered to have heard of ice bluffs on the
Kobuk, and wished that the portage had struck the
river above this spot instead of below it, that there
might have been opportunity to examine it.
A little farther down the river and
we were at the new mission of the Society of Friends,
where a cordial reception awaited us and, luxury of
luxuries, a warm bath! Again and again the wash-tub
was emptied and fresh water was heated until we all
had wallowed to our heart’s content. The
rude log buildings of the mission had been begun the
previous fall, and were not yet complete, but they
were advanced enough for occupation, and the work
of the mission went actively on. It was in charge
of rather an extraordinary man. He gave us a
sketch of his life, which was full of interest and
matter for thought. For many years he was a police
officer and jailer in the West. Then he sailed
on a whaler and thus became acquainted with the Esquimaux.
He was converted from a life of drunkenness and debauchery though
one fancied his character was not really ever so bad
as he painted it at a “Peniel”
mission in a Californian town. He went in out
of mere idle curiosity, just recovered from a spree,
and was so wrought upon that when he came out he was
a different creature, a new man, the old life with
its appetite for vicious indulgence sloughed off and
left behind him, and he now possessed with a burning
desire to do some such active service for God as aforetime
he had done for the devil. After three or four
months of some sort of training in an institution
maintained by the California Society of Friends a
body more like the Salvation Army, one judges, than
the old Quakers he volunteered for service
at a branch which the old-established mission of the
Society at the mouth of the Kobuk desired to plant
two hundred miles or so up the river, and had come
out and had plunged at once into his task. So
here he was, some six or seven months installed, teacher,
preacher, trader in a small way, and indefatigable
worker in general. Pedagogical training or knowledge
of “methods” he had none at all, but the
root of the matter was in him, and surely never was
such an insatiable school-teacher. Morning, noon,
and night he was teaching. While he was cooking
he was hearing lessons; while he was washing the dishes
and cleaning the house he was correcting exercises
in simple addition. In the schoolroom he was
full of a genial enthusiasm that seemed to impart
instruction by sheer dynamic force. “Boot,”
the lesson book said. There was no boot in the
schoolroom, all were shod in mukluks. He dives
into his dwelling-house attachment and comes back
holding up a boot. “Boot,” he says,
and “boot” they all repeat. Presently
the word “tooth” was introduced in the
lesson. Withdrawing a loose artificial tooth
of the “pivot” variety from his upper jaw,
he holds it aloft and “tooth!” he cries
out, and “toot!” they all cry, and he
claps it back into his head again.
We were present on Sunday at the services.
There was hearty singing of “Pentecostal”
hymns with catchy refrains, but we were compelled to
notice again what we had noticed amongst the little
bands of these people on the Koyukuk when we set them
to singing, that the English was unintelligible; and
since it conveyed no meaning to us could have had
little for them. This is the inevitable result
of ignoring the native tongue and adopting the easy
expedient of teaching the singing of hymns and the
recitation of formulas like the commandments in English.
For a generation or two, at least, the English learned,
save by children at a boarding-school, where nothing
but English is spoken, is fragmentary and of doubtful
import in all except the commonest matters of speech.
And at such boarding-schools there is danger of the
real misfortune and drawback of natives growing up
to live their lives amongst natives, ignorant of the
native tongue. There is no quick and easy way
of stamping out a language, thank God; there is no
quick and easy way of imparting instruction in a foreign
language. By and by all the Alaskan natives will
be more or less bilingual, but the intimate speech
and the most clearly understood speech will still
be the mother tongue. The singing done, there
was preaching through an interpreter, and then each
individual present “gave testimony,” which
consisted for the most part in the recitation of a
text of Scripture. Then there were individual
prayers by one and another of the congregation, and
then some more singing. The only hymn I could
find in the book that I knew was the fine old hymn,
“How Firm a Foundation,” and that was sung
heartily to the “Adeste Fidèles.”
They are naturally a musical race, picking up airs
with great facility, and they thoroughly enjoy singing.
After the service the missionary confided
some of his troubles to me. He had lately learned
through his interpreter that the burden of most of
the individual prayers was that the supplicator might
“catch plenty skins” and be more successful
in hunting than his fellows; and though he had done
his best to impress upon them the superior importance
of making request for spiritual benefit, he was afraid
they had made no change. “Our people ‘outside,’”
he said, “don’t understand these folk,
and I’m not sure that I thoroughly understand
them myself.” “They’re all
‘converted,’” he said; “they
all claim to have experienced a change of heart, but
some of them I know are not living like converted people,
and sometimes I have my doubts about most of them.”
My sympathy went out to him in his loneliness and
his earnestness and his disappointments. I pointed
out that the emotional response to emotional preaching
was comparatively easy to get from any primitive people,
but that to change their whole lives, to uproot old
customs of sensual indulgence, to engraft new ideas
of virtue and chastity was a long, slow process anywhere
in the world. It was chiefly in the matter of
sexual morality that his doubts and difficulties lay,
and I was able to assure him that his experience was
but the common experience of all those who had laboured
for the uplifting of savage people. Indeed, how
should it be otherwise? Until quite lately there
was almost promiscuous use of women. A man receiving
a traveller in his dwelling overnight proffered his
wife as a part of his hospitality; the temporary interchange
of wives was common; young men and young women gratified
themselves without rebuke; children were valuable
however come by, and there was no special distinction
between legitimate and illegitimate offspring.
As one reflects on these conditions and then looks
back upon conditions amongst white people, it would
seem that all the civilised races have done is to
set up a double standard of sexual morality as against
the single standard of the savage. It can hardly
be claimed that the average white man is continent,
or even much more continent than the average Esquimau,
but he has forced continence upon the greater part
of his women, reserving a dishonoured remnant for
his own irresponsible use. And there are signs
that some of those who nowadays inveigh against the
white man’s double standard are in reality desirous
of substituting, not the single standard of the Christian
ideal, but the single standard of the savage.
In the mining camps the prostitute has a sort of half-way-recognised
social position, and in polite parlance is referred
to as a “sporting lady” surely
the most horribly incongruous phrase ever coined;
she often marries a miner who will tell you that she
is as good as he is, and she is received afterwards
by all but a few as a “respectable married woman.”
There had been some trouble of this
sort at this mission. The great northern gold
seekers’ wave of ’97 and ’98 threw
a numerous band of prospectors up the Kobuk as well
as up the Koyukuk. The wave had receded and left
on the Kobuk but one little pool behind it, a handful
of men who found something better than “pay”
on the Shungnak, a few miles away. And there
was much criticism of the missionary’s methods
amongst them. Word of the arrival of strangers
had brought some of them to Long Beach, and on Sunday
night I had opportunity of addressing them, with a
view to enlisting their sympathy, if possible.
What if mistakes were made, what if some of the methods
employed were open to question? Here was a man
who beyond doubt was earnestly labouring in the best
way he knew for the improvement of these natives.
Such an effort demanded the co-operation of every
right-feeling man.
After all, however grand the physical
scenery, the meteorological phenomena, may be, the
people of any country are the most interesting thing
in it, and we found these Esquimaux extraordinarily
interesting. Dirty they certainly are; it is
almost impossible for dwellers in the arctic regions
to be clean in the winter, and the winter lasts so
long that the habit of winter becomes the habit of
the year. White and native alike accept a lower
standard of personal cleanliness than is tolerated
outside. I remember asking Bishop Rowe, before
I came to Alaska: “What do you do about
bathing when you travel in the winter?” To which
he replied laconically: “Do without.”
It is even so; travellers on the Alaskan trails as
well as natives belong to the “great unwashed.”
In the very cold weather the procuring of water in
any quantity is a very difficult thing even for house
dwellers. Every drop of it has to be carried
from a water-hole cut far out on the ice, up a steep
grade, and then quite a little distance back to the
dwelling for we do not build directly upon
these eroding banks. The water-hole is continually
freezing up and has to be continually hewed free of
ice, and as the streams dwindle with the progress
of winter, new holes must be cut farther and farther
out. On the trail, where snow must usually be
melted for water, it is obvious that bathing is out
of the question; even the water for hands and face
is sparingly doled by the cook, and two people will
sometimes use the same water rather than resort to
the painful though efficient expedient of washing
with snow. If this be so despite aluminum pots
and a full kit of camp vessels, it is much more so
with the native, whose supply of pots and pans is
very limited. I have seen a white man melt snow
in a frying-pan, wash hands and face in it, throw it
out, fry bacon and beans in it, then melt more snow
and wash his cup and plate in it. There is, however,
this to be said anent the disuse of the bath in this
country, that in cold weather most men perspire very
little indeed, and the perspiration that is exuded
passes through to the outer garments and is immediately
deposited upon them as frost; and there is this further
to be said about dirt in general, that one blessed
property of the cold is to kill all odours.
One grows tolerant of dirt in this
country; there is no denying it, and it is well that
it is so; otherwise one would be in a chronic state
of disgust with oneself and every one else. So
the dirt of the native, unless specially prominent
and offensive, is accepted as a matter of course and
ignored. This obstacle overcome, the Esquimaux
are an attractive and most interesting race, and compare
to advantage with the Indians in almost every particular.
They are a very industrious people. Go into an
Esquimau’s hut at almost any time when they
are not sleeping, and you will find every individual
occupied at some task. Here is a man working
in wood or bone with the ingenious tools they have
evolved; here are women working in skin or fur, and
some of them are admirable needlewomen; here, perhaps,
is another woman chewing mukluks and many
a white man who has kept his feet dry in overflow
water is grateful to the teeth that do not disdain
this most effective way of securing an intimate union
between sole and upper. Even the children are
busy: here is a boy whittling out bow and arrow and
they do great execution amongst rabbits and ptarmigan
with these weapons that entail no cost of powder and
shot; here is a girl beating out threads from sinew
with a couple of flat stones. Some of us, troubled
with unconscientious tailors, wish that a law could
be passed requiring all buttons to be sewn on with
sinew they never come off.
They are a very light-hearted people,
easily amused, bubbling over with laughter and merriment,
romping and skylarking with one another at every intermission
of labour. One of my white travelling companions
on this journey was in the habit of using a little
piece of rabbit skin to protect his nose in cold or
windy weather. The care of the nose is sometimes
very troublesome indeed, it freezes more readily than
any other portion of the body; and a little piece
of rabbit skin, moistened and applied to the nose,
will stay there and keep it warm and comfortable all
day. But it does not exactly enhance one’s
personal attractions.
We had stopped for camp and were all
together for the first time in four or five hours,
when Roxy noticed this rabbit-skin nose protector,
upon which the breath had condensed all the afternoon
until two long icicles depended from it, one on each
side, reaching down below the mouth; and he fell straightway
into a fit of laughter that grew uncontrollable; he
rolled on the snow and roared. A little annoyed
at this exhibition, I spoke sharply: “What’s
the matter with you, Roxy; what on earth are you cutting
up like that for?” Checking himself for a moment,
he pointed to my companion and said, “Alleesame
walrus,” and went off into another paroxysm
of laughter, rolling about and roaring. At intervals
all the evening he would break out again, and when
we sat down to eat it overcame him once more and he
rushed outside where he could give vent to his mirth
with less offence.
The boy was straightforward and conscientious.
We were camped over Sunday once, and Roxy had noticed
many marten tracks in the neighbourhood. He had
brought a few traps along with him to set out as we
went and pick up on his return, and he wanted to know
if I thought he might set some that day, although
it was the day of rest. Careful not to interfere
in any way with the religious instruction any native
has received from any source, I told him that was
a matter for him to decide himself; that each man
was responsible for his own conduct. The boy
thought awhile and he did not set his traps.
Now that young man had never received any instruction
at a mission; all his teaching had been from other
Esquimaux. This same question of working on Sunday
was the cause of some of the difficulty between the
missionary at Long Beach and the miners at Shungnak.
The sluicing or “cleaning-up” season is
short, and mining operators generally consider that
they cannot afford to lose an hour of it. The
Kobuks employed by these miners quit their work on
Sunday, and that brought the operations to a standstill.
There was something to be said on the miners’
side, but I rejoiced that the Esquimau boys showed
such steadfastness to their teaching. “If
you cannot use them six days in the week, if it has
to be seven or none, then do as the miners on the
Yukon side do, consider the country uninhabited, and
make your arrangements as though there were no Kobuks.”
That was my advice, and this may be read in connection
with Mr. Stefanson’s caustic comments on the
same rigidity of observance.
We left Long Beach with a grateful
feeling for the hospitality with which we had been
received and with a substantial respect for the earnest
missionary effort that was being put forth there.
We were able to replenish our grub supply and also
to exchange our two toboggans for one large sled,
for we were out of the toboggan country again and they
had already become a nuisance, slipping and sliding
about on the trail. Our host was up early with
a good breakfast for us, and speeded the parting guest,
which on the trail is certainly an essential part of
true hospitality, with all the honours; the natives
lined up on the bank and the younger ones running
along with us for a few hundred yards.
Soon after we left the mission we
went up a series of terraces to a desolate, barren,
wind-swept flat, the portage across which cut off a
great bend of the river and saved us many miles of
travel. To our right rose the Jade Mountains,
whence the supply of this stone which used to be of
importance for arrow-heads and other implements was
obtained and carried far and wide. A light crust
on the snow broke through at every step, though the
snow was not deep enough and the ground too uneven
to make snow-shoes useful; so we all had more or less
sore feet that night when we regained the river and
made our camp near the mouth of the Ambler, another
tributary from the north.
The next day was an exceedingly long,
tedious day. The Kobuk River, which in its upper
reaches is a very picturesque stream, began now to
be as monotonous as the lower Yukon. It had grown
to considerable size, and the bends to be great curves
of many miles at a stretch, one of which, a decided
bend to the north of the general westerly direction
of the river, we were three full hours in passing
down. It was while traversing this bend that
we witnessed a singular mirage that lent to the day
all the enlivenment it had. Before us for ten
or twelve miles stretched the broad white expanse
of the river bed, shimmering in the mellow sunlight,
and far beyond, remote but clear, rose the sharp white
peaks of the mountains that divide the almost parallel
valleys of the Kobuk and the Noatak. As we travelled,
these distant peaks began to take the most fantastic
shapes. They flattened into a level table-land,
and then they shot up into pinnacles and spires.
Then they shrank together in the middle and spread
out on top till they looked like great domed mushrooms.
Then the broad convex tops separated themselves entirely
from their stalk-like bases and hung detached in the
sky with daylight underneath. And then these
mushroom tops stretched out laterally and threw up
peaks of their own until there were distinct duplicate
ranges, one on the earth and one in the sky.
It was fascinating to watch these whimsical vagaries
of nature that went on for hours. A change in
one’s own position, from erect to stooping,
caused the most convulsive contortions, and when once
I lay down on the trail that I might view the scene
through the lowest stratum of the agitated air, every
peak shot up suddenly far into the sky like the outspreading
of one’s fingers, to subside as suddenly as
I rose to my feet again. The psalmist’s
query came naturally to the mind, “Why hop ye
so ye hills?” and our Kobuk boy Roxy, whose
enjoyment of fine landscapes and strange sights was
always a pleasure to witness, answered the unspoken
question. “God make mountains dance because
spring come,” he said prettily enough.
Then we crossed another portage and
cut off ten miles of river by it, and when we reached
the river again I wanted to stop, for it grew towards
evening and here was good camping-ground. But
we had lately met some travelling Kobuks and they
had told Roxy of a cabin “just little way”
farther on, and I yielded to the rest of the company,
who would push on to it and thus avoid the necessity
of making camp. That native “just little
way” is worse than the Scotch “mile and
a bittock”; indeed, the natives have poor notion
of distance in general, and miles have as vague meaning
to them as kilometres have to the average Anglo-Saxon.
On and on we pushed, mile after mile,
and still no cabin. In the gathering dusk we
would continually think we saw it; half-fallen trees
or sloping branches simulating snow-covered gables.
At last it grew quite dark, and when there was general
agreement that we must seek the cabin no longer, but
camp, there was no place to camp in. Either the
bank was inaccessible or there was lack of dry timber.
We went on thus, seeking rest and finding none, until
seven-thirty, and then made camp by candle-light,
in a poor place at that, having trudged thirty-five
miles that day. A night-made camp is always an
uncomfortable camp, and an uncomfortable camp means
a miserable night, which to-morrow must pay for.
We did not get to bed till nearly midnight, and it
was nine-forty-five when we started out next morning,
and we made only fifteen miles that day.
The Kobuk valley continued to open
out wider and wider and the mountains right and left
to recede. The Jade Mountains were now dim and
distant behind us, and new ranges were coming into
view. The people on this lower river are very
few. It was just about one hundred miles from
Long Beach when we reached the next native village,
a miserable collection of pole dwellings, half underground,
with perhaps a score of inhabitants. Certainly
the conditions of life deteriorated as we descended
this river. The country seems to afford nothing
but fish; we were amongst the ichthyophagi pure and
simple. Roxy, bred and born on the upper Kobuk
and never so far down before, is very scornful about
it. “Me no likee this country,” he
says; “no caribou, no ptarmigan, no rabbits,
no timber, no nothin’.” The weather
had grown raw and cold again, with a constant disagreeable
wind that took all the fun out of travelling.
We passed a place where a white man was pessimistically
picking away at a vein of coal in the river bluff.
“Yes, we been here all winter,” he said,
“working on the blamed ledge. I always knowed
it was goin’ to pinch out, and now it’s
begun to pinch. My partner’s gone to Candle
for more grub, but I told him it weren’t no
use. It’s pinchin’ out right now.
I knowed it afore we started work, but the blamed
fool wouldn’t listen to me. ‘It’ll
pinch out,’ I told him a dozen times; ’you
mark my word it’ll pinch out,’ I told
him, and now it’s begun to pinch; and I hope
he’ll be satisfied.” We were reminded
of the many coal-mines from time to time located on
the Yukon, in all or nearly all of which the vein has
“pinched out.” The deposits on the
coast may be all the fancy of the magazine writer
paints, and may hold the “incalculable wealth”
that is attributed to them, but the coal on the interior
rivers seems in scant measure and of inferior quality.
The same night we reached the native
village at the mouth of the Squirrel River, another
northern tributary the Kobuk receives most
of its waters from the north and we spent
the night and the next day, which was Sunday, in one
of the half-underground huts of the place, in company
with twelve other people. Here we found Roxy’s
brother, dubbed “Napoleon” by some white
man. They had not seen one another for years,
yet all the greeting was a mutual grunt. The Kobuks
are not demonstrative in their affections, but it
would not be right to conclude the affection lacking.
I have seen an old Esquimau woman taking part in a
dance the night after her husband was buried, yet it
would have been unjust to have concluded that she
was callous and indifferent. It is very easy
to misunderstand a strange people, and very hard to
understand them thoroughly.
The roof of the tent was dome-shaped
and it was lit by a seal-gut skylight. In the
morning while I was conducting Divine service and
attempting most lamely by the mouth of a poor interpreter
to convey some instruction, a dog fight outside adjourned
to the roof and presently both combatants came tumbling
through the gut window into the midst of the congregation.
They were unceremoniously picked up and flung out of
the door, a few stitches with a needleful of sinew
repaired the window, and the proceedings were resumed.
These gut windows have their convenience as well as
their inconvenience. When the hut gets too warm
and close even for Esquimaux, the seal gut is folded
back and the outer air rushes in to the great refreshment
of the occupants; when the hut is cool enough the
gut is replaced. A skylight is far and away the
best method of illuminating any single-story structure,
and this membrane is remarkably translucent, while
the snow that falls or frost that forms upon such
a skylight is quickly removed by beating the hand upon
the drum-like surface. All glass windows must
be double glazed, or else in the very cold weather
they are quickly covered with a thick deposit of frost
from the condensation of the moisture inside the room,
and then they admit much less light than gut does.
One of its unpleasant features is the way the membrane
snaps back and forth with a report like a pistol whenever
the door is opened and shut, but on the whole it is
a very good substitute for glass indeed.
These river Esquimaux vary greatly
in physical appearance. While many of them are
somewhat undersized and all have small feet and hands,
some are well-developed specimens of manhood.
“Riley Jim,” the chief of this tribe,
would be counted a tall, stalwart man anywhere.
And while many have coarse, squat features, here and
there is one who is decidedly attractive in appearance.
A sweet smile which is often upon the face, and small,
regular white teeth, greatly help to redeem any countenance.
A youth of about eighteen at the Squirrel River would
properly be called handsome, one thinks though
amongst native people one grows a little afraid of
forgetting standards of comparison; and his wife for
he was already a husband was a decidedly
pretty girl. A word ought to be said which applies
to all the Esquimaux we met. Although many people
live in one hut and there is no possible privacy,
yet we saw no immodesty of any sort. They sleep
entirely nude probably our own great-grandparents
did the same, at least the people of Defoe and Smollet
did, for nightshirts and pyjamas are very modern things.
There is much to be said from an hygienic point of
view in favour of that custom as against turning in
“all standing” as the Indian generally
does, or sleeping in the day underwear as most white
men do. But although every one of a dozen people
in cabin after cabin that we stayed at on the Kobuk
River above and below this place, of both sexes and
all ages, would thus strip completely and go to bed,
there was never any exposure of the body at all.
It may be, of course, that our presence imposed a greater
care in this respect, but it did not so impress us;
it seemed the normal thing. Another noticeable
feature of the lives of all these people was their
devoutness in the matter of thanks before and after
meat. Some of them would not so much as give
and receive a drink of cold water without a long responsive
grace.
As we went on down the river the country
grew bleaker and drearier and the few scattered inhabitants
were living more and more the life of the seacoast.
The dwellings resembled igloos more than cabins, being
completely covered with snow and approached by underground
passages, with heavy flaps of untanned sealskin to
close them. When we passed a fork of the river
we knew that we were entering the delta of the Kobuk,
and that another day would take us to the mission on
Kotzebue Sound. It was a long, hard day, in which
we made forty miles, but an interesting one.
With a start at six, we were at the mouth by nine-thirty.
The spruce which had for some time been dwarfing and
dwindling gave place to willows, the willows shrank
to shrubs, the shrubs changed to coarse grass thrusting
yellow tassels through the snow. The river banks
sank and flattened out and ceased, and we were on
Hotham Inlet with the long coast-line of the peninsula
that forms it stretching away north and south in the
distance. Roxy’s bewilderment was amusing.
He stopped and gazed about him and said: “Kobuk
River all pechuk!” ("Pechuk” means “played
out.”) “What’s the matter, no more
Kobuk River?” I think his mind had never really
entertained the notion of the river ending, though
of course he must often have heard of its mouth in
the salt water. He was out of his country, his
bearings all gone, a feeling of helpless insecurity
taking the place of his usual confidence, and I think
he said no more all that day.
We had to traverse the ice of Hotham
Inlet northward to its mouth, double the end of the
peninsula, and then travel south along the coast to
the mission at Kikitaruk, the peninsula being too rugged
to cross. Three considerable rivers drain into
Hotham Inlet, roughly parallel in their east and west
courses, the Noatak, the Kobuk, and the Selawik, so
that its waters must be commonly more fresh than salt,
for its bounds are narrow and the extensive delta
of its eastern shore would argue its depth slight.
Ahead of us, as we travelled north making a bee-line
for the end of the peninsula, all the afternoon, loomed
the rocky promontory of Krusenstern, one of Kotzebue’s
capes, and far beyond, stretching up the dim coast-line,
lay the way to Point Hope. It was with a sinking
of the heart that I gazed upon it, for I knew already,
though I had not announced a decision, that the road
to Point Hope could not be my road that year.
All day long the thermometer stood between -40 deg.
and -30 deg., and the constant light sea-breeze
kept scarfs wrapped closely about mouths and noses,
which always means disagreeable travel. When the
company stopped at noon to eat a little frozen lunch,
I was too chilly to cease my movement and pressed
on. The day of that blessed comfort of the trail,
the thermos flask, was not yet. By two-thirty
we had reached Pipe Spit, which still further contracts
the narrow entrance of the inlet, and turning west
for a mile or two rounded the point and then turned
south for ten miles along the coast. Just about
dark we reached the mission and stood gazing out over
the rough ice of Kotzebue Sound to the Arctic Ocean,
having made the forty miles in ten and a half hours.
We had come about one thousand miles from Fairbanks,
all of it on foot and most of it on snow-shoes.
So here was my first sight of the
Arctic Ocean. All day long I had anticipated
it, and it stirred me, a dim, grey expanse
stretching vast and vague in the dusk of the evening.
The old navigators whose stories I had read as a boy
passed before me in their wonderful, bold sailing
vessels, going in and out uncharted waters that steamships
will not venture to-day Kotzebue, Beechey,
Collinson, McClure pushing resolutely northward.
Less happy had been my first sight
of the Pacific Ocean, five years before. I had
the ill luck to come upon it by way of that Western
Coney Island, Santa Monica, and from the merry-go-rounds
and cheap eating places Balboa and Magellan and Franky
Drake fled away incontinent and would not be conjured
back; though, indeed, the original discoverers would
have had yet further occasion to gaze at one another
“with a wild surmise” if they had seen
shrieking companies “shooting the chutes.”
But here was vastness, here was desolation, here was
silence; jagged ice masses in the foreground and boundless
expanse beyond, solemn and mysterious. The Arctic
Ocean was even as I had pictured it.
The missionary in charge at Kikitaruk
had been informed by letter of our projected journey
during the previous summer and had long expected us.
We were received with kindness and hospitality, and
after supper began at once our acquaintance with his
work, for there was a service that night which it
was thought we should attend. I spoke for a few
minutes through an excellent interpreter and then
spent a couple of hours nodding over the stove, overcome
with sleep, while there was much singing and “testimony.”
The Californian Society of Friends,
established here a number of years with branches at
other points on Kotzebue Sound, has done an excellent
work amongst the Esquimaux. If they had accomplished
nothing else it would stand to the everlasting credit
of the Society’s missionaries that they have
succeeded in imbuing the natives under their charge
with a total aversion to all intoxicating liquor.
We had come down from the remotest points to which
the influence of these people has extended; we had
met their natives five hundred miles away from their
base of instruction, and everywhere we found the same
thing. It was said by the white men on the Koyukuk
that a Kobuk could not be induced to take a drink
of whisky. It seemed to us a pity that the force
of this most wholesome doctrine should be weakened
by the unsuccessful attempt to include tobacco in
the same rigorous prohibition. In several cabins
where we stayed there was no sign of smoking until
members of our party produced pipes, whereupon other
pipes were furtively produced and the tobacco that
was offered was eagerly accepted. From any rational
point of view the putting of whisky and tobacco in
the same category is surely a folly. There can
be few more harmless indulgences to the native than
his pipe, and no one knows the solace of the pipe until
he has smoked it around the camp-fire in the arctic
regions after a hard day’s journey.
The decision to turn my back on Point
Hope was, I think, the most painful decision I ever
made in my life; with all my heart I wanted to go
on. It was only one hundred and sixty or one hundred
and seventy miles away. The journey had been
made in three or four days; but we were now come to
a country where travel is impossible in bad weather
and where bad weather prevails; and that journey might
quite as likely take two weeks. I worked over
the calendar in my diary, figuring how many days of
travel still remained, allowing reasonable margins,
and I could not see that I had much more than time
to get back to Fairbanks before the break-up, which
for sufficient reason I regarded as my first duty.
The day of rest at Kikitaruk was Washington’s
birthday, the 22d of February. Eight weeks would
bring us to the 19th April, by which time the trails
would be already breaking up. Counting out Sundays,
that left forty-eight days of travelling with something
like twelve hundred miles yet to make without going
to Point Hope an average of about twenty-five
miles a day. I knew that we had made no such average
in the distance already covered, and though I knew
also that travelling improved generally as the season
advanced, I did not know how very much better going
there is on the wind-hardened snows of the coast when
travelling is possible at all. Again and again
I have regretted that I did not take the chance and
push on, but at the time I decided as I thought I ought
to decide, and one has no real compunctions when that
is the case.
So a first-hand knowledge of our own
most interesting work among the Esquimaux was not
for me on that occasion and there has arisen
no opportunity since. Mr. Knapp, who had planned
to spend the rest of the winter at Point Hope, would
get a guide and a team here and turn north after some
days’ rest, while I would turn south. Roxy
was impatient to return to Bettles. “Me
no likee this country,” was all that could be
got out of him. So I paid him his money and made
him a present of the .22 repeating rifle with which
he had killed so many ptarmigan on the journey, outfitted
him with clothes, grub, and ammunition, and let him
go; saying good-bye with regret, for he was a good
boy to us all the way.
It was late on the night of our single
day of rest when I got to bed, for there had been
squaring up of accounts and much writing, and when
I went to bed I did not sleep. Again and again
I reviewed the decision I had come to and fought against
it, though such is far from my common habit.
Even as I write, years after, the bitter rebellious
reluctance with which I turned south comes back to
me. I wished the hospital at Fairbanks at the
bottom of the deep blue sea. I protested I would
go on and complete my journey, even though it involved
“thawing out” at Tanana and getting to
Fairbanks on a steamboat in the summer. I had
a free hand, a kindly and complaisant bishop, and
none would call me strictly to account. Then
I realised that it was merely pride of purpose, self-willed
resolution of accomplishing what had been essayed in
a word, personal gratification for which I was fighting,
and with that realisation came surrender and sleep.