Evan’s pal Charley Straiker
occupied the adjoining room on the top floor of 45A
and the two pooled their household arrangements.
It was Evan’s week to cook the dinners, consequently
when dinner was eaten his was the privilege of occupying
the easy chair with the stuffing coming out and cock
his feet on the cold stove while Evan washed up.
During the afternoon Evan had painted
and delivered a label that had been ordered of him,
and had cleaned up generally as if in preparation
for a journey. But he had not yet said a word
to Charley of the events of the morning. As
a matter of fact Evan had a prudent tongue, which
Charley most decidedly had not, and it had occurred
to Evan that he had better find out where he was at,
before entrusting the tale to his garrulous partner.
Evan drew at his pipe and gloomed
at the wall. Now that the mild excitement induced
by the morning’s events was over, a heaviness
had returned to his spirit. Meanwhile Charley
ran on like a brook.
Charley was a lean and sprawling youth
with lank blonde hair, a long nose, and an incorrigible
smile that spread to the furthest confines of his
face. To quote himself, he was a bum artist and
a squarehead. He took people at their own valuation
and was consequently a universal favourite.
“Carmen rented her back parlour
this afternoon,” he was saying Carmen
being their own moniker for their landlady Miss Carmelita
Sisson. “To a female. What do you
know about it? Carmen hates ’em round the
house. Too nosey, she says. But the room’s
been vacant since spring, and roomers in summertime
are as scarce as snowballs. So she succumbed.
“Haven’t seen her yet I
mean the new roomer, but my hope and my prayer is
that she’s a looker. I think she is because
Carmen sniffed. Does our Carmen love the beautiful
of her sex? She does not! She’s
a singing-teacher, Madame Squallerina, Carmen called
her, with the rare wit for which she is famed.
Already moved in with her piano and all. I heard
her moving round, but the door was closed. I’m
afraid she’s not going to be sociable.
Hell! the parlor floor always looks down on the attic!
That’s a joke in case you don’t know it;
parlor floor looking down on the attic!
“Wish I could think of a good
excuse to knock on her door. It ’ud be
a stunt, wouldn’t it, to raise an alarm of fire
in this old tinder-box. Say, if there’s
ever a fire I bags the new roomer to save that
is until I get a look at her. If it’s
over a hundred and fifty, I’ll give the job
to you, Strong-arm.”
This failed to draw a smile from Evan.
“Say, you’re as lively
as the dressing-room of a defeated team. Wot
th’ hell’s the matter? Come on out
and see a movie. I’ll blow.”
“I’m off pictures,”
said Evan. “Go on yourself. Maybe
you’ll meet Squallerina on the stairs.
Take her.”
“You’ve said it,” said Charley.
“I’m off.”
The gas made the room hot, and Evan
turned it out. The instant he did so, he became
aware of the moonlight outside, and he went and rested
his elbows on the sill in his customary attitude.
The moon herself was behind the house,
but the Square beneath his window was mantled in a
tender bloom of light. As every painter knows,
moonlight is most beautiful when the moon herself is
out of the picture. By moonlight the dejected
old trees of the Square were shapes of perfect beauty,
the grass was overlaid with a delicate scarf of light;
the very figures on the benches were as strangely still
as if the moon had laid a spell on them.
But all this beauty only had the effect
of putting an edge on Evan’s dissatisfaction.
The gnawing inside him was a hundred times worse by
moonlight. “What’s the matter with
me?” he thought querulously. “I
wished for something to happen. Well, something
did happen, but there’s no fun in it.
There’s no fun in anything any more. Moonlight
makes me hate myself. Oh, damn moonlight anyhow!
It turns a man inside out!”
He flung away from the window and
planted himself in his chair with his back to it.
Presently he became aware of a sound
new in that house. His door stood open for ventilation
and it came floating up the old stairs. He was
aware of a vague pleasure before he localised the sound.
It was music; a piano but not the usual
rooming-house instrument; a piano in tune, softly
played. It drew him to the door and to the banisters
outside, a poignant, haunting melody rippling in a
minor treble, a melody that queerly sharpened the
knife that stabbed him, yet drew him on irresistibly.
He stole down the dark stairs, guiding
himself with a hand on the rail, his eyes as abstracted
as a sleep walker’s. The sounds were issuing
from the back parlour of course. The door was
partly open so she was not as unsociable
as Charley had feared, or perhaps it was only that
it was hot. The room was dark inside.
Evan leaned against the banisters with bent head,
scarcely daring to breathe for fear of breaking the
lovely spell.
The music came to an end and his spirit
dropped back to earth. He lingered, silently
praying for it to resume and give him wings again.
Instead, the door was suddenly opened wider and he
saw the tenant of the room on the threshold.
All he could see of her was that she was a little
woman with a lot of hair. The moonlight shimmering
through the edges of her hair made a halo around her
head. Moonlight made two square patches on the
floor of the room.
It was too late for him to escape.
“I I beg your pardon,” he
stammered. “I couldn’t help listening.”
“Oh!” she said. “Who are you?”
“Evan Weir. I live up-stairs.”
“Oh!” she said again, but with a different
inflection.
By her voice Evan knew she was young
and adorable. It was a low-pitched voice for
so little a woman, low and thrilling; a mezzo-soprano.
His spirit went to meet that voice.
For a moment or two they stood silently
facing each other in the dark. Evan was not conscious
of any embarrassment; he was too deeply moved.
His conscious self was in abeyance. Moonlight,
music and woman had bewitched him. He was in
the grip of forces that played on him like an instrument.
But someone had to speak in the end. It was
Evan.
“What was that you were playing?” he asked
simply.
“The moonlight sonata,” she answered.
“Of course! That’s
why it sounded so exactly right. Won’t
you play again please?”
She could not but have been aware
how genuinely moved he was, but however it may have
pleased her, womanlike, she sought to pull down the
conversation to a safer plane.
“Oh, I can’t!” she
said. “I have unpacking to do. I
was coming out to get a match to light the gas.
I can’t find any.”
“I’ll light the gas for
you,” he said eagerly. She stood aside
to let him enter. The simple act thrilled him
anew; she was not afraid of him; her spirit greeted
his. When she turned around he could see her
face etherealised in the moonlight, a lovely pale oval
with two dark pools. There was a subtle perfume
in the room that made him a little dizzy. In
the act of striking a match he paused.
“Oh, it’s a shame!” he said involuntarily.
“What is?” she asked.
“To light the gas on such a night.”
She laughed. It was a delicious
little sound. It seemed to bid him be at home
there. “One must!” she said.
“What would the landlady say?”
But the tone of the denial encouraged
him to insist. “A little more music,”
he begged. “I never heard anything so lovely.”
She went to the piano bench obediently.
“Sit down if you can find a place,” she
said over her shoulder.
Instead he came and leaned his elbows
on the edge of the piano case. Once more her
fingers rippled over the keys, and another delicate
minor air ravished his soul. She did not seem
to strike the keys, but to draw out the sounds with
the magical waving of her pale hands. She kept
her head down, and he could not see into her face.
Nor could he be sure of the colour of her hair, but
only that it was shining.
In the middle of the piece the flying
fingers began to falter. No doubt the intense
gaze he was bending on the top of her head confused
her. At any rate she broke off abruptly and jumped
up.
A cry broke from Evan: “Oh, please go on!”
“I cannot! I cannot!”
she said. “Light the gas.”
As he still hesitated she stamped her foot with delightful
imperiousness. “You must light
the gas!”
With a sigh he struck the match.
The gas flared up with a plop. Their curious
eyes flew to each other’s faces. Evan saw well,
he was not disappointed. His instinct had rightly
told him in the dark that she was adorable.
Not regularly beautiful; the most charming women are
not. There were fascinating contradictions.
The bright hair was gloriously red: the eyes
too large for her face and brown, extraordinary eyes
revealing a strong soul. They were capable both
of melting and of flashing, but especially of flashing;
the soul was imperious. As for the rest of her,
the dear straight little nose was non-committal, the
mouth fresh and childlike, with a slight, appealing
droop in the corners. In short, Nature the great
experimentalist had in this case endowed a most sweet
and kissable little body with the soul of a warrior.
Evan could not have argued this all
out, but his inner self perceived it. His feelings
as he gazed at her were mixed. The dear little
thing! the enchanting playmate; his arms fairly ached
to gather her in. At the same time the deeper
sight was whispering to him that this was no playmate
for a man’s idleness, but a soul as strong as
his own or stronger, to whom he must yield
all or nothing, and he was afraid.
As for her, she simply looked at him
inscrutably. He could not tell if she were pleased
with what she saw.
Finally self-consciousness returned
to both with a rush. They blushed and turned
from each other.
“You must go now,” the girl said gently.
He understood from her tone that she
did not greatly desire him to go, but that it was
up to him to find a reason for staying.
“Let me help you get your things
in order,” he said eagerly. “You
can’t shove trunks and furniture around.”
She hesitated, thinking perhaps of
the censorious landlady.
Evan made haste to follow up his advantage.
“This trunk. Where will you have it put?”
She gave in to him with the ghost
of a shrug. “It has nothing in it that
I shall want,” she said. “Shove it
as far back in the closet as it will go.”
In the closet her dresses were already
hanging. The delicate perfume he had already
remarked made his head swim again. As he bent
down to shove the trunk back, her skirts brushed his
cheek like a caress. They were burning when
he came out. Perhaps she guessed; at any rate
she quickly turned her head.
“You don’t want the sofa
in the middle of the room,” Evan said to create
a diversion.
“Put it with its back against
the fireplace, please. I shall not be having
a fire for months to come. That will leave the
space by the window for my writing-table.”
While they discussed such safe matters
as the disposal of the furniture they never ceased
secretly to take stock of each other. What people
say to each other at any time only represents a fraction
of the intercourse that is taking place. Under
cover of the most trifling conversation there may
be exciting reconnaisances going on, scout-work and
even pitched battles of the spirit.
Evan could not make her out at all.
She seemed to single him out, to encourage him as
far as a self-respecting woman might, yet an instinct
warned him not to bank on it. There was an unflattering
impersonal quality in her encouragement; behind it
one glimpsed formidable reserves. She was wrapped
in reticence like a mantle. Evan had a feeling
that if she had been really drawn to him she would
not have been so nice to him. On the other hand
“coquette” did not fit her at all; not
with those eyes. Evan thought he knew a coquette
when he saw one; their blandishments were not such
as hers.
So for a while all went swimmingly,
and the moments flew. Evan managed to make the
business of arranging the furniture last out the greater
part of the evening. To save her face she bade
him go at intervals, but he always contrived to find
an excuse to delay his departure.
There was no reticence in Evan.
He loved her at sight and his instinct was to open
his heart. Of course he was not quite guileless;
the portrait of himself that he drew for her was not
exactly an unflattering one, but it was a pretty honest
one under the circumstances. He was careful
not to bore her, and to grace his tale with humour.
Oddly enough the more of himself that
he offered her, the less pleased she seemed to be.
As the evening wore on she developed a tartness that
was inexplicable to Evan. He cast back in his
mind in vain to discover the cause of his offense.
Yet she would not let him stop talking about himself
either, but drew him on with many questions, interested
in his tale it would seem, merely for the sake of
making sarcastic comments. As for talking about
herself, nothing would induce her to do so.
It was a more unamiable side of her
character that she revealed, but the enamoured Evan,
even while she flouted him, forgave her. “Something
is the matter,” he said to himself. “This
is not her true self.” He told her of
the black dog that had been on his back all day.
“But now I’m cured,” he said, looking
at her full.
She chose to ignore the implication.
Evan began leading up to a desire
that he had not yet dared to express. “My
partner said you were a singer,” he said.
“Have you been discussing me?” she said
with an affronted air.
“Why, yes. Nothing so
exciting as your coming ever happened in this old
house.”
“I teach singing,” she said carelessly.
“Won’t you sing me a song?”
She decisively shook her head. “Not to-night.”
“But why?”
“Dozens of reasons. One is enough; I don’t
feel like it.”
“To-morrow night, then?”
“Aren’t you taking a good deal for granted?”
“But you said not to-night. That suggests
another night.”
“Oh, one doesn’t weigh every word.”
“Well, I’ll be listening out to-morrow
night on the chance.”
For some reason this annoyed her excessively.
A bright little spot appeared on each cheek-bone.
“Then you’ll force me to keep silent
however I feel.”
“Why what’s the matter?”
said Evan blankly.
“You imply that if I happen
to sing you will regard it as an invitation to come
down here.”
“Why, I never thought of such a thing,”
he said in dismay.
His honesty was so unquestionable
that she got angry all over again, because she had
made the mistake of imputing such a thought to him.
Indeed a disinterested observer could not but have
seen that some perverse little imp was playing the
devil with this charming girl. Angry at him or
angry at herself or both, she had ceased
to be mistress of the situation and her forces were
thrown into confusion. Whatever she said, it
instantly occurred to her that it was the wrong thing
to say.
“You’re spoiled like all
the rest,” she said. “A woman cannot
be decently civil to you, but you immediately begin
to presume upon it.” This was said with
a smile that was supposed to be tolerant, but she
was angry clear through, and of course it showed.
It was all a mystery to Evan.
With a hand on the table he had just moved, he was
staring down at it as if he had discovered something
of absorbing interest in the grain of the wood.
He knew she was unreasonable, but he did not blame
her; he was merely trying to think how to accommodate
himself to her unreasonableness; he was pretty sure
that whatever he might say would only make matters
worse, so he kept silent.
But no red-haired woman can endure
silences either. “If you’ve nothing
further to say you’d better go,” she said
at last.
“I was wondering what I had
done to offend you,” said Evan.
She laughed, but it had not a mirthful
sound. “How funny you are! Strangers
don’t quarrel. They’ve nothing to
quarrel about!”
“But you are angry.”
“Nonsense!” she said languidly.
“I’m very much obliged to you for your
help. But there’s nothing else you can
do.”
“Meaning I’d better beat it.”
She was magnificently silent.
“I’m going. But it’s hard
to go, not knowing what’s the matter.”
She had the air of one dealing with
a trying child. “How often must I tell
you that there’s nothing in the world the matter?”
“You are not the same as you were when I came.”
For some reason this flicked her on
the raw. She flushed. She stamped her
foot. “You’re you’re
impossible!” she cried. “Will you
go!”
As Evan backed out she all but shut
the door in his face. How astonished would he
have been could he have seen through the door how
she flung herself face down on the sofa and wept.
That was the softer girlish part of her. But
not for long. She sat up and digging her chin
into her palm thought long and hard. That was
the warrior.
“I will not give in to him and
spoil everything,” she whispered. “I
will not!”
Meanwhile, out in the dark hall Evan
was leaning against the banisters trying to puzzle
out what had happened. At first only a blank
dismay faced him. Women were inexplicable.
But presently a slow smile began to spread across
his face. He said to himself:
“Well, whatever it is, she’s
not exactly indifferent to me. I’ve made
an impression. That’s something for the
first meeting. And she’s in the house.
And to-morrow’s another night!”
He went up-stairs with a better heart.
He went straight to his window-sill
and cooled his hot cheeks in the night air.
The old trees still stood sentry duty in the moonlight,
the people sat still as dolls left out all night,
the noises of the town were reduced to a pleasant
murmur.
“God! what a good old world
it is!” thought Evan, unconscious of his perfect
inconsistency. “How good it is to be young
and alive; to see; to feel; to laugh; to love; to
know things! I guess I’m a little drunk
on it now, but I want more, more! I shall never
have my fill!”
As he lay in bed it suddenly occurred
to him that he was head over heels in love with a
woman whose name he did not know.