The Ancient Mariner takes the Little People on a Little
Voyage; and the Little People become convinced that
an
Arctic Winter, an Aurora Borealis, and an Ancient
Mariner, are very Wonderful Things.
A lively breeze was blowing over the
little village of Rockdale, and in a lively way the
tall trees were bending down their heads, and swinging
to and fro as if they liked it; for the leaves were
beating time, and were singing joyously, and appeared
to be saying all the while how glad they would be
to keep beating time and singing on forever, if the
wind would only please to be so good as to help them
on in the joyous business; and the tall grass and
grain were shining in the sun, and rolling round in
a very reckless manner, as if they meant to show off
their great billows of green and gold, and make the
staid and sober little waves that were ruffling up
the surface of the bright blue waters of the bay quite
ashamed.
Ha, ha! laughed our ancient friend, the Captain, when he saw what a day it
was. Ha, ha! what a day indeed! and right away he began to call loudly
for his boy, Main Brace,
“Main Brace, Main Brace, come
here! Come, bear a hand, and be lively there,
you plum-duff, chuckle-headed young landlubber, and
waddle along aft here on your sausage legs.”
A feeble voice is heard to answer
from the galley, “Ay, ay, sir; comin’,
sir, comin’”; and the plum-duff head and
the sausage legs follow feebly in after the voice,
looking surprised.
“Main Brace,” begins the Captain.
“Ay, ay, sir,” responds
Main Brace; and the plum-duff head lets fall its lower
jaw, and looks amazed, the Captain is so much in earnest.
“Some bait, Main Brace!
Do you hear, my lad? Be lively, boy, and get
some bait; and then overhaul the Alice, and
stand by to be ready when I come down. We’ll
go a-fishing to-day, do you hear, my boy?
And we’ll have a jolly time, do you
hear that? So be lively now, and be off with
your plum-duff head and your sausage legs. I tell
you, away, away! for we’ll go a-sailin’.
Away, away! for we’ll go a-sailin’, a-sailin’,
a-sailin’. Away, away! for we’ll go
a-sailin’, a-sailin’ on the
sea.”
Without another word the sausage legs
made off with the plum-duff head, which had no sooner
got outside the door than it began to let out in dislocated
fragments, from a mouth that gradually expanded until
it reached from ear to ear, “Away, away! we’ll
go a-fishin’, a-fishin’, a-fishin’;
away, away! we’ll go a-sailin’, a-sailin’,
a-sailin’; away, away! we’ll all be jolly,
jolly, jolly, we’ll all be jolly”;
and so on until the sausage legs had carried the plum-duff
head and the refrain together so far down among the
trees, towards the water, that all the other “jollys”
and the sailin’s and the “fishin’s,”
and the rest of it, were blown clean away by the wind.
And off went the Captain, too, hurrying
up to the top of the hill behind the cottage, as if
the cosey little thing was all afire, and the dear
old soul was running up for help; and when he reached
the top of the hill, he began swinging round his old
tarpaulin hat, making the long blue ribbons fairly
whistle and speak, as if they would say, “Old
man, old man, stop a bit, and take breath! can’t
you now? and say, what’s this all about, for
goodness’ sake!”
But the old man knew well enough himself
what it was all about; for he was signalling his little
friends; and every circle of his big arm, and every
shake of his long gray beard, and every swing of his
old tarpaulin hat, seemed to sing out, “Hurrah,
hurrah, for a jolly day! hurrah, hurrah, my children
gay! hurrah, hurrah, let’s up and away, upon
the bright blue waters!”
By and by the children caught sight
of the old tarpaulin hat and the blue ribbons and
the Captain himself, all in this state of violent
excitement; and down they bore at once upon the ancient
mariner, as if he were a regular bluff-bowed old East
Indiaman, full of golden ingots, and they were clipper-built,
copper-fastened, rakish fore-and-afters of the piratical
pattern.
“Heyday!” (the old man
never thought he had begun until he had thrown off
a heyday or so), “heyday, my hearties!”
said the ancient mariner, as the children came up
to him, “heyday, my dears! keep on
that same course before the wind, and you’ll
fetch up in the right port”; and so, without
further ado, he hurried “my hearties” down
to the beach, and aboard the yacht; and then very
soon Main Brace (whose mouth had never left off expanding
at the prospect of “a fishin’” and
“a sailin’” and “a jolly day”
generally) had the anchor away; and then the Captain
spread the white sails to the lively breeze; and there
never was, since the world began, a merrier little
party, in a merrier little craft, afloat upon blue
water on a merrier day. Indeed, the day was so
merry, and the craft was so merry, and the waves were
so merry as they came leaping round the yacht, and
the wind was so merry as it bulged out the sail and
went whistling through the rigging, and the little
party in the yacht were so merry, and everything and
everybody was so merry, that it would be strange indeed
if the fish were not merry too; and the finny creatures
played round the pretty hooks, too merry by half to
touch them; and then they came merrily up, and poked
their heads out close to the top of the water, and
stared at the merry-makers in the yacht, and they
seemed to be whispering to one another, “O, what
a jolly lot of coves they are, to be sure! O,
don’t they wish they may catch us? don’t
they though?” and then they dropped down again
to look at the pretty hooks; but only the sober-sided
ones that had no idea of being merry went near enough
to bite, and these were surely bitten in return; for,
if the hook once got into their red gills, they found
themselves jerked up before they could say Lobster,
and heard merry voices shouting round them, to their
great astonishment.
And of these sober-sided fishes who
were so unfortunate as to have no idea of being merry,
the Captain and his little friends caught as many
as they wanted; and then the Captain said to his little
friends, “Put away your fishing-tackle now,
and come down below into the little cabin, and I’ll
surprise you.” And, sure enough, he did
surprise them, quite as much, perhaps,
as if some fairy queen had come, and called them to
a fairy banquet; as much indeed, perhaps, as if they
had themselves suddenly been turned to fairies, and
were doing something that was never even dreamed of
by mortal child before; for, while they had been fishing,
Main Brace had, by direction of the Captain, been building
up a fire in the little stove, and in the very centre
of the cabin he had set out a little table, and upon
the little table there was spread the whitest little
cloth, and on the cloth were set all round the daintiest
little plates and knives and forks, and the neatest
little napkins, and the cunningest little cups, that
were ever seen.
“And now,” spoke up the
Captain, laughing all the while to see his little
friends so much surprised, “fall to, fall to!
for we’re going to have a jolly feast, or my
name isn’t Ancient Mariner, nor John Hardy either.”
And the Captain poured out some fresh foaming milk
into the cunning little cups, from a big stone jug;
and he brought some fresh white rolls and some golden
butter from a little locker; and soon afterward he
drew from the little stove some dainty little fish,
and dropped one, all crisp and hissing hot, upon each
dainty little plate; and now for half an hour there
was busy work enough for the dainty little knives
and forks. The Captain’s little stove proved
to be everything that one could wish for in that line;
and the Captain’s style of cooking showed plainly
enough, as William said, that “the Captain had
not travelled round the world, and been an ancient
mariner, for nothing.”
When the meal was over, and everything
was cleared away, and the little cabin was once more
in ship-shape order, William proposed the Captain’s
health, tossing back his head, and drinking
a great quantity of imaginary wine from an imaginary
glass. “Here’s to the health of Captain
Hardy, ancient mariner, and other things too numerous
to mention, the jolliest Jack Tar that
ever reefed a sail, or walked on the windward side
of a quarter-deck! May Davy Jones be a long while
waiting for him; and when he does go into Davy’s
locker, may he go an Admiral!” And then the
children all together “Hip, hip, hurrahed”
the Captain, until the old man had nearly split himself
with laughing at their childish merriment.
“And now for the story,”
said the Captain, when the laugh was ended. “What
do you say to that?”
“The story, yes,
yes, the story,” shouted all the children, merrier
than ever.
“Down here, or up on deck?”
“Down here, just where we are; it’s such
a splendid place!”
“Then down here it shall be,”
went on the Captain, right well pleased. “Down
here it shall be, my dears, if I can only pick up the
yarn again where I broke it off. Let me see”;
and the old man put a finger to his nose, as he always
did when he was thoughtful.
“Aha!” cried he, at length,
“I’ve got my bearings now, as neat as a
light-house in a fog. You know, my dears, when
we left off last time, we had gone so far along with
the story that you could see the Dean and I had got
ourselves in soundings, as it were. We had seen
the light-ship off the harbor, and were steering for
it, so to speak. We had, by working very hard,
and by persevering very much, and by using our wits
as best we could, gathered about us everything that
was needed to insure our present safety, and some
things to make us comfortable. We had a hut to
shelter us, and clothes to keep us warm, and fire to
cook our food.
“But the winter was now coming
on very fast, and we knew well enough what that was
likely to be. The grass and moss and flowers were
dead or dying; the ice was forming on the little pools,
and here and there upon the sea; little spurts of
snow were coming now and then; the winds were getting
to be more fierce and angry, and every day was growing
colder and more dark. We knew that the long winter
was close upon us, and that the shadow of the night
would soon be resting on us all the time. The
birds had hatched their young, and quitted their nests,
and were flying off to the sunny south, where we so
longed to go, and so longed to send a message by them
to the loved ones far away. It made us sad O,
how very, very sad! to see the birds so
happy on the wing, and sailing off and leaving us
upon the island all alone. Alone, all,
all alone! Alone upon a desert island in the
Frozen Sea! Alone in cold and darkness! All,
all alone!
“We made ourselves warm coats
and stockings out of the skins of the birds that we
had caught; and we made caps, too, out of them, plucking
off the feathers, and leaving only the soft, warm,
mouse-colored down upon the skin. And out of
the seal’s skin we made mittens and nice soft
boots, or rather, as I might call them, moccasins.
“The birds began to go away
about the middle of August, as nearly as we could
tell, but it was more than a month after that before
they had all left the island. Meanwhile we had
caught a great number of them, two hundred
and sixty-six in all; and we had collected, besides,
ninety dozen of their eggs. These birds and eggs
were all carefully stowed away in our storehouses
of ice and rocks near the glacier.
“In the matter of food, we had,
therefore, done very well; but we felt the need of
some more blubber for our fire, and some warmer clothing
than the birds’ skins. To supply this latter
want, we tried very hard to catch some foxes; but
it was a long time before we were successful; for
not until all the ducks had gone away would the foxes
trouble themselves to go inside our traps. These
traps were made of stones, and in building them I
had derived the only benefit which had ever resulted
to me from my indolent life on the farm. I was
always fond of shirking away from my duties, and going
into the woods to set rabbit-traps; and, remembering
how I made them of wood, I easily contrived a stone
one of the same pattern, and it was found afterwards
to answer perfectly; for when there were no longer
eggs and ducks for them to eat, the foxes went into
our traps, which we baited with flesh from the dead
narwhal. The pelts of these foxes were thick
and warm; and, by the time the weather got very cold,
we had obtained a good number, and of them we made
suits of clothes at our leisure. There were two
kinds of foxes; one was a sort of blue gray, and the
other was quite white.
“As the weather grew colder,
the little streams which had thus far supplied us
with water all froze up; and we had now nothing to
depend upon but the freshly fallen snow, which we
had, of course, to melt. Thus you see how important
it was that I should have found the soapstone in season,
and made a pot of it, else we should not only have
been obliged to go without boiled food, but likewise
without water. As for fuel, we were for the present
relieved from all anxiety by a dead walrus and a small
white whale which drifted in upon the beach during
a westerly gale. The waves being very strong,
they were landed so high up on the beach that there
was little fear of their being washed away again.
“It was no easy matter to cut
these animals up with our one jack-knife, since, before
we could get it done, they had frozen quite hard.
The temperature had gone down until it was already
below freezing all the time; and very soon a great
deal of snow fell, and was drifted into heaps by the
wind. The sea, soon after this, became frozen
over quite solid all about the island, although we
could still see plenty of clear, open water in the
distance. There was one satisfaction, at least,
in this freezing up of the sea: we could walk
out upon it, and go all around the island without
having to clamber over the rough rocks.
“You have now seen pretty much
what our life was on the island, and how we were prepared
for the winter. Well, the winter came by and by
in good earnest, I can tell you. The sunlight
all went away, and then, soon afterward, the autumn
twilight went away; and then came the darkness that
I told you is constant, in the winter, up towards the
North Pole, for the winter there is but one long night,
you know.”
Here William, who was, as we have
seen, of an inquiring turn of mind, interrupted the
Captain to ask if he would not be so good as to mention
again how dark it was in this polar winter.
“Dark as midnight,” replied the Captain,
promptly.
“Dark all the time, did you say, Captain Hardy?”
“Yes, dark all the time, my
lad, dark in the morning, dark in the evening,
dark at midnight, dark at noon, dark, all the time,
as any night you ever saw; only, everything being
white with snow, of course makes the night lighter
than it does here, where the trees and the houses,
and other dark objects, help along the blackness and
make it more gloomy, absorbing the light,
you see, while the snow reflects it.”
“But what,” asked William,
“did you do for light in this dark time, since
you did not have a lamp?”
“Easy there, my lad,”
replied the Captain; “I’m just coming to
that, you see. Somebody has said that ‘necessity
is the mother of invention,’ or words to that
effect; and darkness, I think, may be considered a
‘mother’ of that description. First
we made an open dish of soapstone, and put some oil
in it; and then we made a wick out of the dry moss,
and set fire to it; but this was found to make so
much smoke that it drove us out of the hut, and it
was given up. But we did not throw away the dish,
and after a while it occurred to us to powder the dry
moss by rubbing it between the hands, and with this
powdered moss we lined our soapstone dish all over
on the inside with a layer a quarter of an inch thick.
After smoothing this down all around the edge (this
dish, which we called a lamp, was much like a saucer,
only rougher and much larger), we filled it half full
of oil, and again set fire to it all around the edge;
and this time it worked beautifully, smoking
very little, and giving us plenty of light.”
“How cunning!” exclaimed the children,
all at once.
“Rather so,” replied the
Captain, “but hardly more so than the two little
drinking-cups we carved out of the same kind of soapstone
that we made the lamp and pot of.”
“It must have felt very queer,
Captain Hardy,” said Fred, inquiringly, “to
be in darkness all the time. I can’t imagine
such a thing as the winter being all the time dark, can
you, Will?”
“No, I can’t,” replied William, “can
you, Sister Alice?”
“Yes, I think I can,” said Alice, quickly.
“Why, how’s that, my little
dear?” asked the Captain, greatly interested.
“O,” said Alice, in her
gentle way, “I’ve only to think of poor
blind Jo going round with his little dog, begging
from door to door, and never seeing anything in all
the world, no sun, no moon, no stars, no
any light to him at all. Poor Jo’s bright
summer went out long ago; and both light and warmth
were gone, never to come back again, when old Martha
died! and all’s night to Jo, and that’s
how I know what it is to be in darkness all the time”;
and as little Alice made this little speech about
poor blind Jo, the beggar-man, her lovely face looked
thoughtful beyond its years; and, as she finished,
the Captain saw a tear stealing from her soft blue
eye for poor Jo’s sake; and he caught her in
his arms right off, without stopping to think at all
what he was doing, and he kissed away the tear; and,
as he did it, a much bigger one came tearing out of
his own great hazel eye, and hurried down into his
shaggy beard to hide, as if it were quite frightened
at what it had been doing with itself.
“Spoken like the little lady
that you are, my dear,” broke out the Captain;
“always thinking of the unfortunate. And
you are very right, my child. Poor blind Jo’s
darkness is much worse than ours ever was, up in the
Frozen Sea, upon the lonely island, far
worse indeed, poor man! for you must know that the
stars were shining brightly there upon us all the
time; and then the moon came every month; and when
it came, it came for good and all, and never set for
several days; and then sometimes the aurora borealis
would flash across the heavens, and clear away the
darkness for a little while, as if it were a huge broom
sweeping cobwebs from the skies, and letting in the
light of day beneath the stars. O, what a splendid
sight it was!”
“O, tell us all about it, Captain
Hardy, won’t you?” asked all the children,
with one voice.
“Of course, I will,” replied
the Captain, “only I can do no sort of justice
to that species of natural scenery, don’t you
see? That’s a touch beyond John Hardy’s
powers of description, as I can well assure you.”
The children all declared that they
never could think anything beyond John Hardy’s
powers, and they believed it too.
“Well, well! Now let me
see, my dears, what I can do for you. First, you
know the scientific chaps, especially my friend the
Doctor, down in Boston, say that the aurora borealis
is electricity broke loose, and tearing through the
air, from pole to pole, for some purpose of its own.
It can’t be caught, nor bottled up, as Franklin
bottled up the lightning, nor analyzed; in
short, nothing can be done with it; and so it goes
tearing through the skies, as I have said before, from
pole to pole, just where it likes.
“Now this is what it is, so
far as one can see. When you go away beyond the
Arctic Circle, you see great fiery streams start up
from a fiery arch that stretches right across the
sky before you; and from this fiery arch the fiery
streams of light shoot up, and then fall back again, sometimes
lasting for a little while, and waving in the sky,
to and fro, like a silken curtain of many colors fluttering
in the wind; and then again seeming to be phantom
things playing hide-and-seek among the stars; sometimes
like wicked spirits of the night, bent on mischief;
sometimes like tongues of flame from some great fire
in some great world beyond the earth, making one almost
afraid that the heavens will break out presently in
a roaring blaze, and rain a shower of living coals
and ashes on his head.
“And O, how grand the colors
are sometimes! The great arch of light that spans
the sky is often bright with all the colors of the
rainbow, changing every instant. And
from these flickering belts of light the fiery streams
fly up with lightning speed, green, and
orange, and blue, and purple, and bright crimson, all
mingling here and there and everywhere above, while
down beneath comes out in bold relief before the eye
the broad, white plain of ice and snow upon the ocean,
the great icebergs that lie here and there upon it,
the tall white mountains of the land, and the dark
islands in the sea; and then the flood of light dies
away, and the dark islands in the sea, and the tall
white mountains, and the icebergs, and the white plain
around, all vanish from the sight, and the mind retains
only an impression that the icebergs, with all these
bright hues reflected on them from above, had come
from space and darkness, like the meteors, then to
vanish, and leave the darkness more profound.
“And thus the auroral light
and color keep pulsating in the air, up and down,
up and down; and thus the icebergs seem to come and
go; and the very stars above seem to be rushing out
with a bold bright glare, and going back again as
quickly, singed and withered, as it were, into puny
sparks, and, utterly disheartened with the effort to
keep their places in the face of such a flood of brightness,
are at length resolved no more to try to twinkle,
twinkle through the night.
“And that is all I can tell
you about the aurora borealis, for that is
all I know about it.”
“O, isn’t he a great one?”
whispered William to Fred, who sat close beside him
on the locker, “isn’t he, indeed? to
say he can’t describe an aurora borealis,
when he has blood, thunder, fire, and all creation
on his tongue.”
“But,” went on the Captain,
“in spite of this auroral light and the moonlight,
the winter was dreary enough. At first we wanted
to sleep all the time; and we had much trouble to
keep ourselves from giving way to this desire.
If we had done so, it would have made us very unhealthy
and altogether miserable. We had to keep up our
spirits, whatever else we did; and after a while,
to help us with this, we got into regular habits;
and we set a great clock up in the sky to tell us the
time of day.”
“A clock up in the sky!”
exclaimed both the boys; “why, Captain Hardy,
how was that?”
“Why, don’t you see, my
lads, the ‘Great Bear’ and all the other
constellations of the north go round and round the
Pole-star, which is right above your head; and it
so happened that I knew the ‘Great Bear,’
and the two stars in its side called ‘the Pointers’
because they point to the Pole-star. Now these
two ‘Pointers,’ going around once in the
four-and-twenty hours, pointed up from the south at
one time, and up from the north at another time, and
up from the east and from the west in the same way;
and thus you see we had a clock up in the sky to tell
us the time of day, for we had an iceberg picked out
all around for every hour, and when ‘the Pointers’
stood over that particular berg we knew what time
it was.
“We should have got along through
the winter much more comfortably if we had had some
books, or some paper to write on, and pen and ink to
write with; but these things were quite beyond the
reach of our ingenuity. So our life was very
monotonous; doing our daily duties, that
is, whatever we might find to do, and,
after wading through the deep snow in doing it, we
came back again to our little hut to get warm, and
to eat and talk and sleep.
“And much talking we did, as
I can assure you, about each other, and each other’s
life, and what great things we would do when we got
away from the island, hopeless though that seemed.
Thus we came gradually to know each other’s
history, and thus there came to be greater sympathy
between us, and more indulgence of each other’s
whims and fancies, as we got better and better acquainted.
“The Dean had quite a story
to relate of himself. He told me that he was
born in the great city of New York. His father
died before he could remember, and his mother was
very poor; but so long as she kept her health she
managed, in one way or another, to live along from
day to day by sewing; and she managed, too, to send
the Dean to school. She loved her bright-haired
little boy so very, very much that she would have
spent the last cent she could ever earn, could she
only give her darling Dean a little knowledge that
might help him on in the world when he grew to be
a man. And so she stinted herself and saved, all
unknown to her darling Dean; and she had not clothing
or fire enough to keep her warm in the bleak winter,
when the Dean was out, though she had a fine fire
when the Dean came back. All would have been well
enough if the poor woman had not, with her hard work
and her efforts to save, become thin and weak, and
then grown sick with fever; and now there was nothing
for her but the hospital, for there was no money to
pay for medicines, or doctor’s bills, to say
nothing of rent and fire and clothes.
“And now for the first time
the Dean began to realize the situation; and a vague
impression crossed his mind, that the poor, pale woman,
now restless with pain on a narrow bed in a great
long ward of a dreary hospital, his own
dear mother, suffering here with strange hands only
to comfort her, had been brought to this
for his sake; and when she grew better, after a long,
long time, but was still far from well, he thought
and thought, and cried and cried, and prayed and prayed,
and wished that he might do something to show his
gratitude, and make amends.
“By and by he got into a factory,
and worked there early and late, until he too grew
sick, and was carried to the hospital, and was laid
beside his poor sick mother, on a narrow bed.
But he soon got well again, though his mother did
not, and then (he could do nothing else) he went to
sea as cabin-boy of a ship sailing to Havana; and he
came back too; and, with a proud heart beating in
his little breast, he carried a little purse of gold
and silver coins that the captain gave him to his
poor sick mother; and then he went away again on the
same ship, and came back once more with another purse
of money, twice as big as the first; but the good
captain that had been so kind to him, and rewarded
him so well, fell sick, and died of yellow fever on
the passage home, and the mate, who got command of
the ship, being a different sort of man, disliked
the Dean, and told him not to come back any more.
And so the poor Dean didn’t know what to do;
until one of his old shipmates met him in the street,
and took him off to New Bedford, and shipped him as
cabin-boy of the Blackbird. ‘And
now here I am,’ said the poor little Dean, ’and
all the rest you know, cast away in the
cold, in this awful place, while my poor sick mother
has no money and no friends in all the world, and
is thinking all the time what a wretch I am to run
away and desert her, when, God knows, I meant to do
nothing of the sort!’ and so the Dean burst
out crying, and, to tell you the truth, I could not
help crying a little too.
“But the Dean was a right plucky
little fellow, I can tell you; and so full of hope
and ambition was he, that nothing could keep him down
very long; and nothing, I believe, could ever make
him despond for a single minute but thinking of his
mother, sick and far away, without friends or money,
lying on a narrow bed, all through the weary, dreary
days and nights, in the dreary ward of a crowded hospital.
Poor Dean! he had something to make him cry, and something
always to make him sad, if he had a mind to be; but
what had I in comparison? I who had gone
away from home with no good motive like the Dean’s.
“After the recital of this story
of the Dean’s, we were both very sad, until
the Dean suddenly roused himself, and said, ’Let’s
go and look at our traps, Hardy’; and so we
sallied out into the moonlight, and waded through
the snow, to see if there were any foxes for us.
To get outside our hut was not so easy a matter now
as it was when we first built it; for, in order to
keep the cold winds away, we had made a long, low,
narrow passage, with a crook in it, through which we
crawled on our hands and knees, before we reached
the door.
“We walked all the way around
the island, and visited all our traps, of which we
had seventeen, but only two of them had foxes in them;
the others were either filled with snow, or were completely
covered over with it, for the wind had been blowing
very hard the day before.
“As we got farther and farther
into the winter, we met with some very strange adventures, altogether
different from anything I have told you of before;
but you see the sun will soon be going down behind
the trees, and we are a good long way from the ‘Mariner’s
Rest,’ so ‘up anchor’ ’s the
word now, my dears, and ‘under way’ again.”
The merry little yacht was not long
in carrying the merry little party over to the Captain’s
favorite anchorage; and then they were all soon ashore,
and after many merry and many pleasant speeches, our
little friends parted from the ancient mariner once
more, leaving him standing in the shadow of the great
tall trees, with a string of fish in one hand; while
Fred and William, with Main Brace to help them, and
with merry Alice running on ahead, each carried off
a string for their next day’s breakfast, a
trophy to be proud of, as they thought.