THE INCIPIENCE OF MY SUBJECTION TO THE WONDER
I
Victor Stott was in his eighth year
when I met him for the third time. I must have
stayed longer than I imagined by the pond on the Common,
for Mrs. Stott and her son had had tea, and the boy
was preparing to go out. He stopped when he saw
me coming; an unprecedented mark of recognition, so
I have since learned.
As I saw him then, he made a remarkable,
but not a repulsively abnormal figure. His baldness
struck one immediately, but it did not give him a
look of age. Then one noticed that his head was
unmistakably out of proportion to his body, yet the
disproportion was not nearly so marked as it had been
in infancy. These two things were conspicuous;
the less salient peculiarities were observed later;
the curious little beaky nose that jutted out at an
unusual angle from the face, the lips that were too
straight and determined for a child, the laxity of
the limbs when the body was in repose-lastly,
the eyes.
When I met Victor Stott on this, third,
occasion, there can be no doubt that he had lost something
of his original power. This may have been due
to his long sojourn in the world of books, a sojourn
that had, perhaps, altered the strange individuality
of his thought; or it may have been due, in part at
least, to his recent recognition of the fact that the
power of his gaze exercised no influence over creatures
such as the Harrison idiot. Nevertheless, though
something of the original force had abated, he still
had an extraordinary, and, so far as I can learn,
altogether unprecedented power of enforcing his will
without word or gesture; and I may say here that in
those rare moments when Victor Stott looked me in
the face, I seemed to see a rare and wonderful personality
peering out through his eyes,-the personality
which had, no doubt, spoken to Challis and Lewes through
that long afternoon in the library of Challis Court.
Normally one saw a curious, unattractive, rather repulsive
figure of a child; when he looked at one with that
rare look of intention, the man that lived within
that unattractive body was revealed, his insight,
his profundity, his unexampled wisdom. If we mark
the difference between man and animals by a measure
of intelligence, then surely this child was a very
god among men.
II
Victor Stott did not look at me when
I entered his mother’s cottage; I saw only the
unattractive exterior of him, and I blundered into
an air of patronage.
“Is this your boy?” I
said, when I had greeted her. “I hear he
is a great scholar.”
“Yes, sir,” replied Ellen
Mary quietly. She never boasted to strangers.
“You don’t remember me,
I suppose?” I went on, foolishly; trying, however,
to speak as to an equal. “You were in petticoats
the last time I saw you.”
The Wonder was standing by the window,
his arms hanging loosely at his sides; he looked out
aslant up the lane; his profile was turned towards
me. He made no answer to my question.
“Oh yes, sir, he remembers,”
replied Ellen Mary. “He never forgets anything.”
I paused, uncomfortably. I was
slightly huffed by the boy’s silence.
“I have come to spend the summer
here,” I said at last. “I hope he
will come to see me. I have brought a good many
books with me; perhaps he might care to read some
of them.”
I had to talk at the boy; there
was no alternative. Inwardly I was thinking that
I had Kant’s Critique and Hegel’s Phenomenology
among my books. “He may put on airs of
scholarship,” I thought; “but I fancy that
he will find those two works rather above the level
of his comprehension as yet.” I did not
recognise the fact that it was I who was putting on
airs, not Victor Stott.
“’E’s given up reading
the past six weeks, sir,” said Ellen Mary, “but
I daresay he will come and see your books.”
She spoke demurely, and she did not
look at her son; I received the impression that her
statements were laid before him to take up, reject,
or pass unnoticed as he pleased.
I was slightly exasperated. I
turned to the Wonder. “Would you care to
come?” I asked.
He nodded without looking at me, and
walked out of the cottage.
I hesitated.
“’E’ll go with you
now, sir,” prompted Ellen Mary. “That’s
what ’e means.”
I followed the Wonder in a condition
of suppressed irritation. “His mother might
be able to interpret his rudeness,” I thought,
“but I would teach him to convey his intentions
more clearly. The child had been spoilt.”
III
The Wonder chose the road over the
Common. I should have gone by the wood, but when
we came to the entrance of the wood, he turned up on
to the Common. He did not ask me which way I
preferred. Indeed, we neither of us spoke during
the half-mile walk that separated the Wood Farm from
the last cottage in Pym.
I was fuming inwardly. I had
it in my mind at that time to put the Wonder through
some sort of an examination. I was making plans
to contribute towards his education, to send him to
Oxford, later. I had adumbrated a scheme to arouse
interest in his case among certain scholars and men
of influence with whom I was slightly acquainted.
I had been very much engrossed with these plans as
I had made my way to the Stotts’ cottage.
I was still somewhat exalted in mind with my dreams
of a vicarious brilliance. I had pictured the
Wonder’s magnificent passage through the University;
I had acted, in thought, as the generous and kindly
benefactor.... It had been a grandiose dream,
and the reality was so humiliating. Could I make
this mannerless child understand his possibilities?
Had he any ambition?
Thinking of these things, I had lagged
behind as we crossed the Common, and when I came to
the gate of the farmyard, the Wonder was at the door
of the house. He did not wait for me, but walked
straight into my sitting-room. When I entered,
I found him seated on the low window-sill, turning
over the top layer of books in the large case which
had been opened, but not unpacked. There was
no place to put the books; in fact, I was proposing
to have some shelves put up, if Mrs. Berridge had no
objection.
I entered the room in a condition
of warm indignation. “Cheek” was the
word that was in my mind. “Confounded cheek,”
I muttered. Nevertheless I did not interrupt
the boy; instead, I lit a cigarette, sat down and
watched him.
I was sceptical at first. I noted
at once the sure touch with which the boy handled
my books, the practised hand that turned the pages,
the quick examination of title-page and the list of
contents, the occasional swift reference to the index,
but I did not believe it possible that any one could
read so fast as he read when he did condescend for
a few moments to give his attention to a few consecutive
pages. “Was it a pose?” I thought,
yet he was certainly an adept in handling the books.
I was puzzled, yet I was still sceptical-the
habit of experience was towards disbelief-a
boy of seven and a half could not possibly have the
mental equipment to skim all that philosophy....
My books were being unpacked very
quickly. Kant, Hegel, Schelling, Fichte, Leibnitz,
Nietzsche, Hume, Bradley, William James had all been
rejected and were piled on the floor, but he had hesitated
longer over Bergson’s Creative Evolution.
He really seemed to be giving that some attention,
though he read it-if he were reading it-so
fast that the hand which turned the pages hardly rested
between each movement.
When Bergson was sent to join his
predecessors, I determined that I would get some word
out of this strange child-I had never yet
heard him speak, not a single syllable. I determined
to brave all rebuffs. I was prepared for that.
“Well?” I said, when Bergson
was laid down. “Well! What do you make
of that?”
He turned and looked out of the window.
I came and sat on the end of the table
within a few feet of him. From that position
I, too, could see out of the window, and I saw the
figure of the Harrison idiot slouching over the farmyard
gate.
A gust of impatience whirled over
me. I caught up my stick and went out quickly.
“Now then,” I said, as
I came within speaking distance of the idiot, “get
away from here. Out with you!”
The idiot probably understood no word
of what I said, but like a dog he was quick to interpret
my tone and gesture. He made a revoltingly inhuman
sound as he shambled away, a kind of throaty yelp.
I walked back to the house. I could not avoid
the feeling that I had been unnecessarily brutal.
When I returned the Wonder was still
staring out of the window; but though I did not guess
it then, the idiot had served my purpose better than
my determination. It was to the idiot that I owed
my subsequent knowledge of Victor Stott. The
Wonder had found a use for me. He was resigned
to bear with my feeble mental development, because
I was strong enough to keep at bay that half-animal
creature who appeared to believe that Victor Stott
was one of his own kind-the only one he
had ever met. The idiot in some unimaginable
way had inferred a likeness between himself and the
Wonder-they both had enormous heads-and
the idiot was the only human being over whom the Wonder
was never able to exercise the least authority.
IV
I went in and sat down again on the
end of the table. I was rather heated. I
lit another cigarette and stared at the Wonder, who
was still looking out of the window.
There was silence for a few seconds,
and then he spoke of his own initiative.
“Illustrates the weakness of
argument from history and analogy,” he said
in a clear, small voice, addressing no one in particular.
“Hegel’s limitations are qualitatively
those of Harrison, who argues that I and he are similar
in kind.”
The proposition was so astounding
that I could find no answer immediately. If the
statement had been made in boyish language I should
have laughed at it, but the phraseology impressed me.
“You’ve read Hegel, then?” I asked
evasively.
“Subtract the endeavour to demonstrate
a preconceived hypothesis from any known philosophy,”
continued the Wonder, without heeding my question,
“and the remainder, the only valuable material,
is found to be distorted.” He paused as
if waiting for my reply.
How could one answer such propositions
as these offhand? I tried, however, to get at
the gist of the sentence, and, as the silence continued,
I said with some hesitation: “But it is
impossible, surely, to approach the work of writing,
say a philosophy, without some apprehension of the
end in view?”
“Illogical,” replied the
Wonder, “not philosophy; a system of trial and
error-to evaluate a complex variable function.”
He paused a moment, and then glanced down at the pile
of books on the floor. “More millions,”
he said.
I think he meant that more millions
of books might be written on this system without arriving
at an answer to the problem, but I admit that I am
at a loss, that I cannot interpret his remarks.
I wrote them down an hour or two after they were uttered,
but I may have made mistakes. The mathematical
metaphor is beyond me. I have no acquaintance
with the higher mathematics.
The Wonder had a very expressionless
face, but I thought at this moment that he wore a
look of sadness; and that look was one of the factors
which helped me to understand the unbridgeable gulf
that lay between his intellect and mine. I think
it was at this moment that I first began to change
my opinion. I had been regarding him as an unbearable
little prig, but it flashed across me as I watched
him now, that his mind and my own might be so far
differentiated that he was unable to convey his thoughts
to me. “Was it possible,” I wondered,
“that he had been trying to talk down to my
level?”
“I am afraid I don’t quite
follow you,” I said. I had intended to
question him further, to urge him to explain, but it
came to me that it would be quite hopeless to go on.
How can one answer the unreasoning questions of a
child? Here I was the child, though a child of
slightly advanced development. I could appreciate
that it was useless to persist in a futile “Why,
why?” when the answer could only be given in
terms that I could not comprehend. Therefore
I hesitated, sighed, and then with that obstinacy
of vanity which creates an image of self-protection
and refuses to relinquish it, I said:
“I wish you could explain yourself;
not on this particular point of philosophy, but your
life -” I stopped, because
I did not know how to phrase my demand. What
was it, after all, that I wanted to learn?
“That I can’t explain,”
said the Wonder. “There are no data.”
I saw that he had accepted my request
for explanation in a much wider sense than I had intended,
and I took him up on this.
“But haven’t you any hypothesis?”
“I cannot work on the system of trial and error,”
replied the Wonder.
Our conversation went no further this
afternoon, for Mrs. Berridge came in to lay the cloth.
She looked askance, I thought, at the figure on the
window-sill, but she ventured no remark save to ask
if I was ready for my supper.
“Yes, oh! yes!” I said.
“Shall I lay for two, sir?” asked Mrs.
Berridge.
“Will you stay and have supper?”
I said to the Wonder, but he shook his head, got up
and walked out of the room. I watched him cross
the farmyard and make his way over the Common.
“Well!” I said to Mrs.
Berridge, when the boy was out of sight, “that
child is what in America they call ‘the limit,’
Mrs. Berridge.”
My landlady put her lips together,
shook her head, and shivered slightly. “He
gives me the shudders,” she said.
V
I neither read nor wrote that evening.
I forgot to go out for a walk at sunset. I sat
and pondered until it was time for bed, and then I
pondered myself to sleep. No vision came to me,
and I had no relevant dreams.
The next morning at seven o’clock
I saw Mrs. Stott come over the Common to fetch her
milk from the farm. I waited until her business
was done, and then I went out and walked back with
her.
“I want to understand about
your son,” I said by way of making an opening.
She looked at me quickly. “You
know, ’e ’ardly ever speaks to me, sir,”
she said.
I was staggered for a moment.
“But you understand him?” I said.
“In some ways, sir,” was her answer.
I recognised the direction of the
limitation. “Ah! we none of us understand
him in all ways,” I said, with a touch of patronage.
“No, sir,” replied Ellen
Mary. She evidently agreed to that statement
without qualification.
“But what is he going to do?”
I asked. “When he grows up, I mean?”
“I can’t say, sir. We must leave
that to ’im.”
I accepted the rebuke more mildly
than I should have done on the previous day.
“He never speaks of his future?” I said
feebly.
“No, sir.”
There seemed to be nothing more to
say. We had only gone a couple of hundred yards,
but I paused in my walk. I thought I might as
well go back and get my breakfast. But Mrs. Stott
looked at me as though she had something more to say.
We stood facing each other on the cart track.
“I suppose I can’t be of any use?”
I asked vaguely.
Ellen Mary became suddenly voluble.
“I ‘ope I’m not
askin’ too much, sir,” she said, “but
there is a way you could ’elp if you would.
’E ’ardly ever speaks to me, as I’ve
said, but I’ve been opset about that ’Arrison
boy. ’E’s a brute beast, sir, if you
know what I mean, and ’e” (she differentiated
her pronouns only by accent, and where there is any
doubt I have used italics to indicate that her son
is referred to) “doesn’t seem to ’ave
the same ’old on ’im as ’e
does over others. It’s truth, I am not easy
in my mind about it, sir, although ’e
’as never said a word to me, not being afraid
of anything like other children, but ’e seems
to have took a sort of a fancy to you, sir”
(I think this was intended as the subtlest flattery),
“and if you was to go with ’im when ’e
takes ’is walks-’e’s much
in the air, sir, and a great one for walkin’-I
think ’e’d be glad of your cump’ny,
though maybe ’e won’t never say it in so
many words. You mustn’t mind ’im
being silent, sir; there’s some things we can’t
understand, and though, as I say, ’e ’asn’t
said anything to me, it’s not that I’m
scheming be’ind ’is back, for I know ’is
meaning without words being necessary.”
She might have said more, but I interrupted
her at this point. “Certainly, I will come
and fetch him,”-I lapsed unconsciously
into her system of denomination-“this
morning, if you are sure he would like to come out
with me.”
“I’m quite sure, sir,” she said.
“About nine o’clock?” I asked.
“That would do nicely, sir,” she answered.
As I walked back to the farm I was
thinking of the life of those two occupants of the
Stotts’ cottage. The mother who watched
her son in silence, studying his every look and action
in order to gather his meaning; who never asked her
son a question nor expected from him any statement
of opinion; and the son wrapped always in that profound
speculation which seemed to be his only mood.
What a household!
It struck me while I was having breakfast
that I seemed to have let myself in for a duty that
might prove anything but pleasant.
VI
There is nothing to say of that first
walk of mine with the Wonder. I spoke to him
once or twice and he answered by nodding his head;
even this notice I now know to have been a special
mark of favour, a condescension to acknowledge his
use for me as a guardian. He did not speak at
all on this occasion.
I did not call for him in the afternoon;
I had made other plans. I wanted to see the man
Challis, whose library had been at the disposal of
this astonishing child. Challis might be able
to give me further information. The truth of
the matter is that I was in two minds as to whether
I would stay at Pym through the summer, as I had originally
intended. I was not in love with the prospect
which the sojourn now held out for me. If I were
to be constituted head nursemaid to Master Victor
Stott, there would remain insufficient time for the
progress of my own book on certain aspects of the
growth of the philosophic method.
I see now, when I look back, that
I was not convinced at that time, that I still doubted
the Wonder’s learning. I may have classed
it as a freakish pedantry, the result of an unprecedented
memory.
Mrs. Berridge had much information
to impart on the subject of Henry Challis. He
was her husband’s landlord, of course, and his
was a hallowed name, to be spoken with decency and
respect. I am afraid I shocked Mrs. Berridge
at the outset by my casual “Who’s this
man Challis?” She certainly atoned by her own
manner for my irreverence; she very obviously tried
to impress me. I professed submission, but was
not intimidated, rather my curiosity was aroused.
Mrs. Berridge was not able to tell
me the one thing I most desired to know, whether the
lord of Challis Court was in residence; but it was
not far to walk, and I set out about two o’clock.
VII
Challis was getting into his motor
as I walked up the drive. I hurried forward to
catch him before the machine was started. He saw
me coming and paused on the doorstep.
“Did you want to see me?” he asked, as
I came up.
“Mr. Challis?” I asked.
“Yes,” he said.
“I won’t keep you now,”
I said, “but perhaps you could let me know some
time when I could see you.”
“Oh, yes,” he said, with
the air of a man who is constantly subjected to annoyance
by strangers. “But perhaps you wouldn’t
mind telling me what it is you wish to see me about?
I might be able to settle it now, at once.”
“I am staying at the Wood Farm,”
I began. “I am interested in a very remarkable
child -”
“Ah! take my advice, leave him
alone,” interrupted Challis quickly.
I suppose I looked my amazement, for
Challis laughed. “Oh, well,” he said,
“of course you won’t take such spontaneous
advice as that. I’m in no hurry. Come
in.” He took off his heavy overcoat and
threw it into the tonneau. “Come round
again in an hour,” he said to the chauffeur.
“It’s very good of you,”
I protested, “I could come quite well at any
other time.”
“I’m in no hurry,”
he repeated. “You had better come to the
scene of Victor Stott’s operations. He
hasn’t been here for six weeks, by the way.
Can you throw any light on his absence?”
I made a friend that afternoon.
When the car came back at four o’clock, Challis
sent it away again. “I shall probably stay
down here to-night,” he said to the butler,
and to me: “Can you stay to dinner?
I must convince you about this child.”
“I have dined once to-day,”
I said. “At half-past twelve. I have
no other excuse.”
“Oh! well,” said Challis,
“you needn’t eat, but I must. Get
us something, Heathcote,” he said to the butler,
“and bring tea here.”
Much of our conversation after dinner
was not relevant to the subject of the Wonder; we
drifted into a long argument upon human origins which
has no place here. But by that time I had been
very well informed as to all the essential facts of
the Wonder’s childhood, of his entry into the
world of books, of his earlier methods, and of the
significance of that long speech in the library.
But at that point Challis became reserved. He
would give me no details.
“You must forgive me; I can’t go into
that,” he said.
“But it is so incomparably important,”
I protested.
“That may be, but you must not
question me. The truth of the matter is that
I have a very confused memory of what the boy said,
and the little I might remember, I prefer to leave
undisturbed.”
He piqued my curiosity, but I did
not press him. It was so evident that he did
not wish to speak on that head.
He walked up with me to the farm at
ten o’clock and came into my room.
“We need not keep you out of
bed, Mrs. Berridge,” he said to my flustered
landlady. “I daresay we shall be up till
all hours. We promise to see that the house is
locked up.” Mr. Berridge stood a figure
of subservience in the background.
My books were still heaped on the
floor. Challis sat down on the window-sill and
looked over some of them. “Many of these
Master Stott probably read in my library,” he
remarked, “in German. Language is no bar
to him. He learns a language as you or I would
learn a page of history.”
Later on, I remember that we came
down to essentials. “I must try and understand
something of this child’s capacities,”
I said in answer to a hint of Challis’s that
I should leave the Wonder alone. “It seems
to me that here we have something which is of the
first importance, of greater importance, indeed, than
anything else in the history of the world.”
“But you can’t make him speak,”
said Challis.
“I shall try,” I said.
“I recognise that we cannot compel him, but I
have a certain hold over him. I see from what
you have told me that he has treated me with most
unusual courtesy. I assure you that several times
when I spoke to him this morning he nodded his head.”
“A good beginning,” laughed Challis.
“I can’t understand,”
I went on, “how it is that you are not more
interested. It seems to me that this child knows
many things which we have been patiently attempting
to discover since the dawn of civilisation.”
“Quite,” said Challis.
“I admit that, but ... well, I don’t think
I want to know.”
“Surely,” I said, “this key to all
knowledge -”
“We are not ready for it,”
replied Challis. “You can’t teach
metaphysics to children.”
Nevertheless my ardour was increased,
not abated, by my long talk with Challis.
“I shall go on,” I said,
as I went out to the farm gate with him at half-past
two in the morning.
“Ah! well,” he answered,
“I shall come over and see you when I get back.”
He had told me earlier that he was going abroad for
some months.
We hesitated a moment by the gate,
and instinctively we both looked up at the vault of
the sky and the glimmering dust of stars.
The same thought was probably in both
our minds, the thought of the insignificance of this
little system that revolves round one of the lesser
lights of the Milky Way, but that thought was not to
be expressed save by some banality, and we did not
speak.
“I shall certainly look you
up when I come back,” said Challis.
“Yes; I hope you will,” I said lamely.
I watched the loom of his figure against
the vague background till I could distinguish it no
longer.