Pale blue sky with scudding clouds a
dun sea dappled with pale silver and that
intense greyish-white light on promenade, bleak-fronted
houses and sparsely scattered visitors, which always
makes everything so distinct as to seem unreal on such
a day in Thorhaven like an old copper-print.
As Caroline sat in her pay-box at
the gate of the promenade, she had plenty of time
to note these atmospheric conditions, but she only
felt them. That grey, clear, windy brightness
was mingled for all the rest of her life with what
was to happen during the months between this morning
and the end of September, when the job would be over.
But now she was entirely immersed in her ticket issuing,
when there was any to do, and in feeling excited and
self-conscious and important when there was not.
Book, pencil, pile of tickets were all meticulously
ready, and she would not put her window down for a
moment despite the north-east wind which swept round
the little shelter.
But so early in the season there was
scarcely a person to be seen about on the broad, grey
stretch of the promenade, and the gardener’s
back as he worked hard at bedding out plants, looked
in some way as if it still belonged to the easy-shirt-sleeved
winter time, when Thorhaven was not expecting visitors.
At last a little brisk woman with a neat figure came
up to the turnstile, and Caroline greeted her with
just that surprising warmth shown to casual acquaintances
by stall-holders at a bazaar. “A season-ticket?
Certainly. A pity not to get all the good out
of it you can. Some people silly enough to wait
until the season is half over and then pay just the
same” But the woman appreciated
this cordiality at its true worth and was unresponsive.
“So you’ve got the job. They’d
be sorry to part with Maggie.” Then pursing
her lips, she placed her season ticket in her purse,
and said with condescending asperity: “I
want to go through, please.”
So Caroline, thus reminded, hastily
released the turnstile with her knee from within,
and felt momentarily abashed. After a while,
however, a solitary visitor approached the little window,
and she was doubly brisk and official to make up for
it.
“Day-ticket? But are you
staying a week? If so, you’ll find it much
more to your advantage”
Until the visitor, who did not really want a weekly
ticket at all, but happened to be of that ever-growing
class which is cowed at once by any sign of bureaucratic
authority, did as Caroline suggested.
But little by little this first eagerness
wore off, and by the time she returned from the tea
interval during which her place had been
taken by the girl who acted as “supply” she
had already begun to show faint beginnings of the
slightly contemptuous, detached air of the official.
She was pleasant still, but as a favour, and with the
whole power of the Thorhaven Council at her back
“Three in family, I think? I suppose you
take one for Mildred?” And she expected Mrs.
Creddle’s neighbour to feel a little flattered
by her remembering the size of the family.
But though justly irritated by that
“Three in family, I think” when
Caroline had pulled pigtails with Mildred only yesterday,
as it were the good woman was actually
pleased when Caroline “held up” a stout
person in a fur coat and a motor veil to add pleasantly:
“I suppose you are expecting visitors this week?”
Which remark is the recognized conversational small
change in Thorhaven, during spring and summer, scarcely
more personal than the “Fine day!” of the
country labourers who live in the still untouched
country beyond the Cottage.
But if Mrs. Creddle’s neighbour
said to herself that Caroline would soon be too big
for her boots, there remained a slight glow of satisfaction
in being acknowledged as an old acquaintance while
an affluent person from a car was kept waiting.
It is therefore not surprising that Wilfred Ball
felt the same glow greatly intensified when he strolled
up to the pay-box, twirling his walking-stick, to take
his stand near by as the future proprietor of the girl
inside. Perhaps the young husband of a great
prima donna may feel nearly as sophisticated
and proud and “in it” when he strolls carelessly
into the dressing-room where the bouquets of admirers
overflow upon the floor but this is scarcely
likely, for he would not have the morning freshness
still on him of a life spent so far between Thorhaven
and Flodmouth.
Every now and then he took a little
walk up and down the promenade, either alone or with
a casual acquaintance, but he soon returned to enjoy
close at hand this epoch-making evening. For
now, he felt, there was nothing that could keep the
Wilfred Balls back from those pinnacles of affluence
which a combination of the more easily assimilated
comic papers and articles on Self-Help had enabled
him to envisage: Self-Help kind showing how a
poor man might grow rich, and the comic papers how
he might spend his money when he got it.
As the wife of a wealthy man, Caroline
would be All Right. He had had his doubts before,
at times, because he really felt it was a come-down
for a young fellow in a seed-merchant’s office
to be engaged to a servant. And remorse had
something to do now with his ardour, because he really
had begun to wonder if he could “keep on”
with it, when Caroline was a true servant, living
in, like the little maids all up and down the new
streets. He had seen himself standing at a corner
waiting for her under a lamp-post on her nights out,
and had found his faithfulness wavering.
Still, she was Caroline and
they had “gone together” ever since the
time when he first perceived that a “girl”
was as necessary to man’s estate as a dressy
lounge suit and a Homburg hat. He did not like
to behave badly to her. And now he had been
rewarded. He had achieved the difficult feat
mentioned in those articles he so casually read in
the train, of keeping one eye on the main chance and
the other on the example of Sir Galahad. Now
he was still engaged to somebody who took tickets
on the prom. and was a young lady and was
yet Caroline. No wonder he stood and beamed,
and walked away and twirled his stick and cocked his
hat, and then came back and beamed again.
Other youths of her acquaintance,
or enterprising strangers going through the barrier,
had to content themselves with a “Good evening,
miss,” or at most some more or less dashing remark
about the weather; but he was the one to help
her on with her coat when the brilliant shades of
blue and yellow on the sentry-box had faded into grey:
it was his privilege to walk her off with a
hand through her arm, feeling sure that the three
elderly spinsters and the one middle-aged gentleman
who chanced to be about just there wondered who that
gay dog was, and thought him no end of a fellow.
“Well, Carrie, how did you like
it?” he said as they went along.
“Oh, it was all right,”
said Caroline in an off-handed fashion but
she also had an elated consciousness of being important,
and did not care a bit though her feet were stone-cold
from sitting still in the sentry-box.
So talking eagerly, they went down
the main road until the last avenue was left behind
and the loneliness of stars and sea-wind fronted them.
Only one light glimmered above the privet hedge from
an upper room in the Cottage.
At the gate they stopped to kiss and
say good night as usual, but the excitement of a new
experience had stirred Caroline’s emotions, and
Wilf’s pride in her had also roused the possessive
instinct in him, so that the kiss they exchanged was
a little different from the almost passionless salute
to which they had long grown accustomed. Wilf’s
eyes shone and Caroline’s cheeks were flushed
when they drew back from each other. She began
to speak quickly, nervously. “Well, so
long! They’ll think I’m never coming.”
“Here! Hold on a minute.”
He caught her round the waist. “I say,
Carrie, it’s rotten you having to go in, and
me stopping outside. I wish you’d never
promised to.”
“It wouldn’t have made
any difference if I had been staying at Uncle Creddle’s.
They wouldn’t want company at this time of night,”
she answered, peering up at him uneasily through the
starry twilight.
“Carrie!” He held her
closer, his thin, boyish arms trembling a little.
“I wish to goodness we could have a home of
our own. There’s some houses going to
be built in that field there. I wish we could
apply for one of them.”
“Well, we can’t,”
said Caroline, touched by some wistful tone in the
lad’s voice to a deeper tenderness for him than
she had hitherto known. “We have nothing
to get married on. People would only laugh at
us.”
“But you wish it, same as me,
Carrie? If I was one of them rich young chaps
that can plank down the money for a half-year’s
rent and a mahog’ny suite, like I do for a packet
of cigs., you’d be ready to get married, Carrie?”
It was the first time they had seriously
talked of marriage, though they had been “going
together” ever since Caroline knew that a ‘boy’
was as essential to her grown-up panoply as hairpins,
and she felt something indefinable at the back of
her mind which was not pleasure; and yet it was not
fear She turned from her own emotions
with a sort of relief. “Goodness!
There’s the church clock striking a quarter
to eleven. We must have been three-quarters of
an hour coming from the prom. here. I know Miss
Ethel goes to bed at ten, and she’ll have been
sitting up for me.”
“Never mind. You’re
only stopping to oblige. They ought to be jolly
thankful to you, whatever time you turn up,”
babbled Wilf all impatient excitement.
“Carrie, just one more. I must
He clung to her, then let her go.
She ran up the path towards the house while he stood
there, listening to her footsteps and yet restraining
himself from following her, as a matter of course.
For the idea of running after her and holding her
in his arms by force, as he wanted to do, simply never
entered his mind. Despite that dark lane and
the evening hour, the chivalry of the ordinary decent
Anglo-Saxon man which some races are unable
to understand stood like a sentinel at
the door of his desires.
Caroline entered the door of the Cottage
in a state of hurry and excitement; but the empty
kitchen seemed to act on it like a sort of emotional
cold douche. The varnished walls, the neatly
set chairs, the clock ticking so loudly above the
mantel-shelf, all seemed somehow unnatural, with the
unnaturalness of empty houses where steps go echoing echoing though
nobody is there.
She hastily put the kettle on the
gas-ring, then prepared a glass for Miss Ethel’s
hot water and two cups for Mrs. Bradford’s cocoa
and her own. But as the water would not boil
all at once she stood there watching the little blue
and yellowish flames of that unsatisfactory Thorhaven
gas splutter under the kettle. All sorts of thoughts
went scurrying about her mind as the clock measured
the seconds tick-tock! tick-tock! over
her head.
How silly of Wilf to begin to talk about marrying at all.
But, of course, if you were engaged only she and Wilf werent engaged.
Theyd been going together, of course, but she had no ring. She had
never considered herself really engaged. Neither had Aunt Creddle
But the kettle suddenly boiled over,
so she filled the glass and the cups, and hurried
off with the tray, her head still so full of her own
engrossing thoughts that she did not become aware that
visitors were present until she was well inside the
room.
“Oh, Caroline, you can just
put the tray down on the round table,” said
Miss Ethel, high and cool. It was plain that
she thought the hour very late, and that Caroline’s
red cheeks, disordered hair and hat rakishly on one
side did not please her.
Caroline’s face became still
more flushed and she flung up her head as she crossed
the room, then put down the tray with a considerable
clatter. But the clatter was unintentional though
Miss Ethel would not have believed this and
was due to a small piece of needlework on the table
which caused the cup and glass to stand unevenly on
the tray. Caroline heard the sharp indrawing
of Miss Ethel’s breath on the way to the door,
and her whole being was in a prickly heat of defiance
and embarrassment “Only wait until
to-morrow morning! To-morrow morning, they would
just hear about it. They might look somewhere
else for a girl who would let herself be spoken to
as if she was something unpleasant that crawled
But through the fiery mist that seemed
to blind her as she re-crossed the room, she heard
another voice speaking: “Good evening, Miss
Raby. How did you like your first day at the
promenade?”
It was a lovely voice, clear yet mellow,
and Caroline, despite all her anger and wounded pride,
felt obliged to answer civilly: “Oh, I liked
it all right, Miss Temple, thank you.”
The door closed; there was a pause
while Caroline’s high heels clacked faintly
across the tiled floor of the hall, and then a sound
burst forth like the sudden chattering of rooks when
they are startled in their nests by a shot fired close
at hand.
“Well, I never! Coming
in at a quarter to eleven and taking that attitude!”
said Mrs. Bradford, in her heavy wheezy contralto.
“It’s the same in everything.
The world’s upside down,” jerked out
Miss Ethel, flushed and tight-lipped. “Oh,
we little knew what a lovely world we lived in twenty
years ago. We took it all for granted.
Good servants: low prices. People knowing
their duty.”
“Did they, though?” said
Laura Temple. “I think it must have been
perfectly horrid to be a maid-servant in those days.
Only out one night a week, and once on Sunday at
most, and kept as close during the rest of the time
as if you were in a nunnery.”
“They were happy, though,”
said Miss Ethel. “Happier, I think, than
these girls are now. Look at Ellen! Wasn’t
she the picture of content?”
Then Mrs. Graham’s high voice
shrilled across the buzz of talk. “Mine
actually wears silk stockings on her evenings out silk
stockings!”
“What I say,” boomed Mr.
Graham soothingly, “best make up your minds to
let things go. You can’t alter them.
My wife here worked herself up into such a state
of nerves during the war that she had to take bromide
for months, and I’m not going to let that happen
again. I don’t allow any discussion of
national difficulties, either at home or abroad.
We read the head-lines in the newspaper so that we
know what has actually happened, and we leave other
people’s speculations about things alone.
Only way to go on living with any comfort.”
Mrs. Graham looked across at her husband
with affection, and murmured aside to Laura Temple:
“It is really on Arthur’s account that
we have banned discussion on strikes and Ireland and
so on. He gets indigestion if he dwells on painful
topics. So I just make things as comfortable
as I can in our own house, and let the world take care
of itself. A wife’s first duty is to make
her husband happy, as you will find out before long,
my dear.”
Laura smiled back at Mrs. Graham,
with the colour deepening a shade under the soft brown
eyes which exactly matched her voice.
“There’s no idea of our
being married yet, Mrs. Graham,” she said.
“For one thing, our house will not be ready for
some time.” But behind her quiet words
she was saying to herself that never, never would she
and Godfrey emulate Mr. and Mrs. Graham’s system
of guarding the common existence from anything found
disturbing to comfort, with a tame good conscience
ready to call it conjugal devotion.
“I expected to see Mr. Wilson
with you to-night,” murmured Mrs. Graham:
then she leaned nearer to Laura and said in a still
lower tone: “I suppose he is in disgrace
here for being the agent for the sale of that field
beyond the privet hedge?”
“Yes. They think he might
somehow have avoided selling it because he is a connection
of theirs,” replied Laura. “But the
Warringborns would only have taken their business
to another firm, of course. Godfrey says a man
must look after himself in these days. You can’t
afford to offend a valuable client for the sake of
a second cousin.”
“Ridiculous!” said Mrs.
Graham. Then she paused a moment until her husband’s
voice again made confidences possible. “Oh,
they will get used to the idea of houses being built
there in time. Look how disturbed they were
about Emerald Avenue when it was first started.”
“Yes.” Laura paused,
her charming, irregular face with its creamy complexion
and frame of brown wavy hair turned to the speaker,
and her broad forehead wrinkled a little, as it was
when she was puzzled or perturbed. “But
I really am sorry for them now. You see, the
privet hedge hid all those streets from the garden.
They could forget there were any there. Now
they won’t be able to forget.” She
paused. “I simply daren’t tell them
who has bought Thorhaven Hall. I know it gave
even me a shock, because I always used to feel an awed
sensation the sort you have going into
a strange church or a museum when you are little whenever
I called at the Hall. It was so dark and big
and quiet, and the old butler took your name as if
you were at a funeral, and ought to be awfully honoured
to have been asked to attend. I simply can’t
imagine the Perritt’s there.”
Mrs. Graham rose. “Oh,
I believe the Perritt children are very sweet.
And there is something rather nice about Mrs. Perritt,
I’m told.”
Miss Ethel looked across the room,
and it was evident that she heard the last remark,
for she said in a dry tone: “Lots of people
would discover something sweet about me if I came
into ten thousand a year; nothing like money for enabling
the eye to detect hidden charms.”
Mrs. Graham laughed somewhat uneasily.
“How amusing you are, Miss Ethel! I often
tell Arthur it is quite refreshing to have a chat with
you.” But for all that, she began to move
towards the door.
Laura also rose, and it could be now
seen that her tall figure was a trifle angular and
immature, and must remain so, for she was already
twenty-eight years old. “I will come as
far as your house, Mrs. Graham,” she said.
“Godfrey promised to call for me there.”
“Well! No good crying
over spilt milk,” said Mr. Graham, standing and
shaking down his trousers after a habit
he had with his hands in his pockets.
“Things will never be the same again in our
day, Miss Ethel.”
“No.” Mrs. Bradford,
who had been silent, as she often was, unexpectedly
entered the conversation, saying in her heavy voice:
“Things will never be the same again.”
And a brief silence followed her words. You
could fancy them echoing in every heart there.
“I remember getting oranges
twelve a penny in Flodmouth,” continued Mrs.
Bradford, stirred to unwonted intellectual effort.
“Twelve a penny! Perhaps you don’t
believe me, but I did.”
No one taking up the gage which Mrs.
Bradford thus threw down, the guests said farewell
and then went out into the starlight.
As they walked along, all Laura’s
thoughts were about the lover waiting for her; but
Mr. and Mrs. Graham could not get rid of that slight
sense of inward discomfort stirred afresh
by Mrs. Bradford’s first remark which
many middle-aged people experience as a result of Fate’s
ruthlessly quick forcing of new wine into old bottles.
As they passed the new streets there
was an odd light here and there in the shadowy rows
of houses, and when they turned the corner the sea-wind
was full in their faces. The glass roof of the
Promenade Hall glimmered faintly under the immense
sweep of starlit sky, and the quiet waves drew away “C-raunch!
C-r-raunch!” from the piece of gravelled
shore which the tide had reached. The good-sized,
semi-detached houses built in a row opposite the promenade
stood all so black and lifeless that Mr. Graham’s
click of the iron gate sounded quite roistering on
the still night. Then the front door opened and
light streamed out, illuminating the figure of a man
of medium height, rather stockily built, who came
quickly down the little path, calling out as he approached:
“I’d almost given you up, Laura.
I should have fetched you from the Cottage, only I
thought the old girls would cut up rough. I
suppose they haven’t forgiven me for that notice
board yet? They think I’m a low fellow,
I know.”
“No, no,” said Laura,
smiling. “A man with the Wilson blood in
his veins couldn’t be really low, Godfrey only
misguided. You know they think even a bad Wilson
must after all be slightly better at the bottom than
other people.”
“Jolly good theory,” he
said, throwing out his broad chest and laughing down
at his lady, who had slipped her hand through his arm.
“I hope they converted you.”
Then they all laughed though
there was nothing at all amusing in his remark simply
because he was so sure of himself and seemed to expect
it, Laura glanced up at his large-featured face with
soft brown eyes full of admiring affection, and the
scar on his cheek from a shrapnel wound still had
power to move her. For he had “done splendidly”
in the war, enlisting in 1915 and showing marked courage,
though his very highly-developed instinct for self-preservation
had enabled him to escape dangers where some men might
have been caught. No wonder that as Laura stood
there with her hand through his strong arm, she thrilled
to the certainty that he would break with ease through
every obstacle in life, both for himself and her.
“I’m sorry to have kept
you so long,” she said. “But I think
we have fixed up everything about the Fête for the
Women’s Convalescent Home now. We are
so short of funds that we must do something.”
“Yes,” said Mr. Graham,
“the people who used to support it haven’t
the money to give any longer; and those who have it,
won’t give, I suppose.”
“Oh, don’t let us start
that all over again,” said Mrs. Graham.
“Arthur, you will take cold standing here in
the night air. Laura, won’t you come in
for a few minutes?”
But Laura had no desire to share that
cosy half-hour by the fire during which Mr. Graham
would press his Lizzie to pile on coal and put more
sugar in her cocoa for the good of her health, and
she would press him to take a little whisky and hot
water in spite of the high price for
the same reason.