Miss Ethel glanced out of the bedroom
window next morning as she was opening it more widely,
and suddenly, as she looked, every muscle stiffened.
What were those three men doing a few yards beyond
the privet hedge? But her reason refused to
let in the thought that followed. It was preposterous
to imagine they would start building there first,
with all the field to choose from. Besides, she
had never heard of the land being sold the
board was still in its place. Of course, if
the land had been sold, the board would have been removed.
She knelt down to say her prayers,
beginning with the very same which she used to repeat
when she was a little girl by her mother’s knee:
only the numbers of near relatives then mentioned by
name had since dwindled, one by one, as they passed
over that bridge from life to eternal life.
Then “Our Father” but the thought
of the three men came in between, and she found herself
saying “Amen” without having prayed at
all. Then she started over again. “Thy
kingdom come.” But her mind shot away
at once from that image of divine order to the unrest
by which she was troubled. Pictures of strikes staring
headlines these crowded in upon her as
she knelt, and she rose from her knees still without
having really prayed to God.
Then she came downstairs to breakfast
to find that Caroline had cleaned the room and had
set the breakfast with a certain daintiness, while
leaving dust thick on the corners of the floor and
under the clock on the mantel-piece. Still,
it was such a relief not to have to get up and prepare
the breakfast and light the fire that Miss Ethel tried
to forget the dust. Of course, after Caroline
had gone out, she could go round with a brush and
duster, but it was a great rest in the meantime not
to start the day with tasks too arduous for her strength
and her unaccustomed muscles.
Mrs. Bradford, however, who never
felt able to help in the house-work herself, owing
to something obscure about the legs, would persist
in talking all breakfast time about the dust and Caroline’s
other shortcomings. “Never know when you
have her. This week she is eating at all sorts
of hours because she has to go to the promenade and
free the other girl at meal times; then next week
she will be here at meals only. It is your affair,
Ethel. When I came back I let you go on doing
the housekeeping, though I am a married woman.
But I know when I had a house to manage myself, I
should never have put up with such goings-on.”
“It’s all very well to
talk. Neither should I, five years ago,”
retorted Miss Ethel. “In fact, I should
not do so now if there were any alternative.
But you know perfectly well that we could not afford
to keep a good maid at the present rate of wages, even
if we could get one.”
Mrs. Bradford contented herself with
peering irritatingly through her spectacles at the
dusty places after that, because Miss Ethel’s
statement admitted of no argument; for Mr. Bradford
left his widow the honour and glory of the conjugal
state and practically nothing more tangible.
But to Miss Ethel’s generation the mere fact
of being married meant more than the present one can
understand, and she was accustomed to acquiesce in
her sister’s air of heavy superiority, though
she knew herself to be much the more intelligent of
the two.
Still her temper felt so rasped as
she went out into the kitchen carrying a tray of crockery
that she was in no mood to receive kindly any more
new suggestions made to her, and when Caroline asked
for a latch-key as a matter of course, she replied
stiffly: “I’m sorry, but I could
not think of such a thing, Caroline. I must say
I rather wonder at your asking it. Your aunt
Ellen
“Aunt Ellen lived in different
times,” said Caroline, flushing and throwing
up her head. “I am going to a dance with
my boy at the Promenade Hall, and it doesn’t
finish till twelve. I didn’t want you
to sit up so late for me, that was all.”
Miss Ethel also flushed a little on
her thin cheekbones, while the left side of her face
twitched a little as it did when she was agitated;
but that was all the sign she gave of the tumult of
irritation, impatience and hurt pride which surged
within her. That Ellen’s niece should dare
to speak to her like that! Still, she knew that
she was worn out and could not go on doing all the
work of the house, and they would never get anyone
else to help them who would be as cheap and respectable
as Caroline; so she must put up with it. By
a great effort, she managed to control her temper
and to say, almost agreeably: “Does Mrs.
Creddle know you are going to this dance with a young
man?”
“Of course she does,”
said Caroline, still rather defiant. “I’m
not ashamed of it. There’s nothing between
me and Wilf that I should want to hide from Aunt Creddle.”
For without knowing it, Miss Ethel
had touched upon a delicate point which Caroline was
far more sensitive about than Laura for
instance would have been; because girls
of Caroline’s sort have to guard their chastity
themselves, while those like Laura are careless, because
it has always been guarded for them by somebody else.
Still Miss Ethel saw that Caroline was offended,
so added after a pause: “If Mrs. Creddle
approves of your going, of course it is not my affair.
But you must see for yourself that I could not let
a girl under my roof stay out until midnight without
asking the question. That would be fair neither
to you nor to myself.”
“No,” muttered Caroline.
“I didn’t mean anything either.
Only it has been such a a rotten thing
in the past for every one to think that servant girls
must be misbehaving themselves if they stopped out
after half-past ten.”
“They often were,” said
Miss Ethel grimly. “Because if they weren’t,
they remembered it was time to come in and came.
But here is your latch-key.” And she
went out of the kitchen, not daring to trust herself
to say any more for fear she should offend Caroline
and be left without any help in the house.
But she suffered an almost physical
ache from the readjustment of her behaviour to the
changed conditions of life as she went upstairs to
her bedroom. It was constantly happening like
that there was no time for the irritation
to subside before something roused it again.
And Miss Ethel took no comfort from the fact that
all over the world people were more or less suffering
in the same way, because she only vaguely realized
that this was so.
She knew, however, that she felt humiliated
as she handed over the latch-key to Caroline, contrary
to all her own principles, just before the girl went
out to collect tickets on the promenade during the
dinner interval.
The morning was cold for the first
week in June, but a brief spell of August weather
in May had acted as a bait to the visitors that Thorhaven
lived on now, just as it used to live on the crabs
and mackerel and codling and shrimps caught in the
bay. But that time was so entirely over and
done with that there were not enough real fishermen
left to man the lifeboat, and the smell of fish and
brine had departed, even from the narrow alleys in
the old part of the town where it had been for hundreds
of years. Now the owners of the smallest and
most inconvenient cottages hung clean curtains, put
“To Let, Furnished” bills in the windows,
and went off to camp in booths, tents, out-houses
or in any place where they could find shelter.
So this morning, though it was still
so early in the year, provident mothers with little
children, and others bent on a cheaper holiday than
August could afford, were walking in light dresses
about the roads, emerging gaily from little front
gates, clustering round the little bright shops with
their piles of fruit and cakes and sweets. It
was a bright-coloured company that Caroline saw about
the streets as she went along the road towards the
familiar row of yellowish-red houses where the Creddles
lived.
Mrs. Creddle was ironing, and she
looked up from the board almost in tears as her niece
entered the kitchen. “Oh, Carrie,”
she began at once, “I thought you’d be
coming. I am in such a way. I don’t
know whatever you’ll say to me, but I’ve
burnt a great place on the front width of your dress.
I was pressing it out, because you’d got it
all crumpled up in your drawer upstairs, and then
Winnie tumbled down on the fender and made her nose
bleed. You never saw such a sight. So
somehow in my fluster I left the iron on the dress.
I can’t think how I ever came to do such a
thing.”
Caroline looked from the burnt front
breadth to Mrs. Creddle’s agitated face and
said nothing. Her disappointment was so great
that she must have “told Aunt Creddle off”
if she had opened her lips, and she did not want to
do that, because she could see the poor woman was
distressed enough already.
“Oh, well; never fret!”
she managed to say at last. “Plenty more
dances before I’m dead. We won’t
make a trouble about this one.”
“But I do,” said Mrs.
Creddle, dissolving into tears at this kindly address.
“Me that always wants you to enjoy
yourself while you can to have gone and
spoilt your only party dress! I could hit myself,
I could, if it would do any good.”
Upon this little Winnie, still tearful
from past sorrows, began to cry loudly again.
“You shan’t hit yourself, Mummy.
I won’t let you hit yourself.”
“Here!” said Caroline,
putting a parcel down on the table. “I
got some kippers as I came past the fish shop.
I know Uncle Creddle fancies one with his tea.”
“You shouldn’t have done
that, Carrie,” said Mrs. Creddle, wiping her
eyes. “Kippers is dear nowadays, and I’m
sure you have plenty to do with your money.”
“Nonsense!” said Caroline.
“I’m rolling in riches. You see
my keep costs me nothing, and I have all I earn to
spend.” She went towards the door, saying
over her shoulder: “Now, don’t you
worry about the dress. I can easily get another,
and you may cut this up into a Sunday frock for Winnie.”
“That I never shall”
began Mrs. Creddle: then her round face became
suddenly illuminated. “Why, yes, so I will.
And then you can have the one Miss Temple gave me
to make into something for the children. It’s
a queer sort of colour neither red nor yellow but
it looks all right by night. She said Mr. Wilson
didn’t like to see her in it. Of course,
she’s bigger than you, but they wear things so
short and loose nowadays that I dare say if I hem
the bottom up it will be all right. My word,
I am glad I thought of it. I hate keeping you
away from the dance.”
Caroline paused on the threshold.
“I don’t like wearing other people’s
clothes,” she said doubtfully.
“No; but Miss Temple’s
different. She gives things with such a good
heart and she never talks about what she does.
I can’t see that you need mind her,”
urged Mrs. Creddle. “There’s no time
to get another dress. It’s that, or stopping
away from the dance.”
Still Caroline hesitated, standing
there on the blue linoleum with the bright light shining
through the open door on her face. “Oh!
all right,” she exclaimed finally, then glanced
at the clock. “Goodness, I shall be late!
You can measure the dress against my old frock.
I haven’t a minute.” And she was
out, banging the door behind her.
But before she was many yards away,
the door burst open again and Mrs. Creddle’s
anxious face looked out. “Carrie!
Carrie! You don’t want to tell your uncle
if you come across him. He’d have a fit
if he knew you were going to the dance on the prom.,
let alone wearing that fine frock. You know
what he is!”
“Don’t I just!”
responded Caroline, her spirits beginning to rise
again. “Well, what he doesn’t know
he can’t grieve about, so you keep a still tongue
in your head and I’ll run round for the dress
when I leave the prom. after tea.” Then
at last she was running along the grey pavements with
the clean wind blowing towards her from the sea.
In her haste she almost ran into three
men who were coming along from the direction of the
Cottage with measuring tapes and other appliances
in their hands, but she took no particular notice of
them, never dreaming that these three commonplace
looking men in ordinary dark clothes could even now
be haunting another person’s imagination with
the sinister effect of birds of prey who mark the approach
of an invading horde.
But Miss Ethel had seen them from
her upper window, and the sight of them walking about
in the field had produced an acute physical feeling
of nausea and faintness; for her fear lest the field
should be built upon and the last seclusion spoilt,
had already made one of those deep ruts in the mind
along which every thought runs when not actually driven
in another direction. And each time Miss Ethel’s
thoughts passed that way, the rut was bound to become
deeper. Though she imagined herself so self-controlled,
and seemed so safe as she went quietly about her work
removing the dust from corners where Caroline had
left it, she was indeed a woman in real danger, still
fighting all the great forces of change arrayed against
her, and which she must give in to or be destroyed.