A night in June brings to the mind
of most people soft airs the scent of roses a
time when the young can sit out-of-doors in the moonlight,
and the middle-aged may venture forth without risk
of catching cold. But even on such a night in
Thorhaven there is a nipping freshness at sunset which
keeps the mind alert instead of lulling the senses giving
an exquisite clearness to the thoughts of lovers:
at any rate, to the thoughts of lovers like Laura
Temple.
But visitors did not realize this,
only remarking to each other with disapproval that
it was much colder than in Flodmouth, and that you
always needed a thick coat in the evening at Thorhaven,
whatever the time of year. At the present moment,
however, most of them were hurrying away from the
wide expanse of shore and sea that glimmered under
the reflection of the sunset, for dancing was to start
at half-past eight in the glass hall which filled
the centre of the promenade.
The girl in charge of the pay-box
was busier than usual, and Caroline stood at a little
distance taking a professional interest in the number
of tickets sold. Her first feeling of importance
had worn off, but she had the correct official air
of detachment, glancing at the throng which hurried
through the barrier with a sort of indulgent superiority,
while the band under the glass roof of the hall tootled
faintly against the deep roll of the waves.
The immensity of the arched sky above, with the dim,
flat land on one side, and the expanse of darkening
sea on the other, seemed to give to those dance tunes
an indescribable melancholy. They seemed to
epitomize all the shortness and futility of the little
lives which had flickered for a few years on the edge
of that sea and then gone out.
Not that Caroline thought of this,
being a normal, healthy girl, but a shadow of the
thought fell across her bright path and she shivered
slightly, drawing her coat closer round her throat.
“Come on,” she said, turning to Wilf,
who stood near waiting for her. “That band
gives me the pip, hearing it from the outside.
You want something louder than that near the sea.”
“Well, you had the steam roundabouts
on Bank Holiday, and you didn’t like that,”
said Wilf cheerfully. “Some folks are never
satisfied.”
“Look!” said Caroline.
“There’s that friend of Miss Laura Temple’s.”
Wilf turned to watch a group coming
through the barrier. They were young people
from some of the larger houses that had been built
to accommodate business people from Flodmouth, but
evidently not of the sort that desires constant gaiety,
or they would not have lived in Thorhaven. Now
they had made up a little party to come and dance in
the promenade hall, with the simple object of enjoying
a fair floor and a band that played in tune.
As they passed Wilf and Caroline,
one said eagerly to the other: “Where’s
Laura Temple? I don’t see anything of her.
She and Godfrey Wilson were to have waited here for
us.”
“Oh, didn’t you know? Got a sore
throat and can’t
They went on, and Caroline breathed
again. She had never thought of Laura being
at a dance on the promenade, and the sudden idea of
meeting the original owner of the flame-coloured dress
gave her a little shock. The whole situation,
as it might have been, opened out in front of her
for a moment or two, bristling with unpleasantnesses,
and she glanced down at the edge of colour appearing
under her coat with a distinct regret that she had
been persuaded by Mrs. Creddle into wearing the dress.
Better far to have stopped at home.
Then there was Wilf, taking her arm
with cool possessiveness. “Come on, Carrie!
I aren’t going to stop here all night
while you think over your sins.” He laughed
and the two girls standing near him laughed too not
that they felt amused, but because laughter was the
accepted accompaniment to such conversations.
So they went along together under
the first star that hung high in the green sky, and
the Flamborough light trembled across the water just
as they entered the hot and crowded hall. The
spectators mostly middle-aged sat
in a solid phalanx round the sides of the room doing
knitting or crochet, hoping against hope to see other
folks make fools of themselves, or afford a spectacle
of some sort that might be worth watching.
Already several couples were whirling
round on the polished floor, and Caroline, who had
come bare-headed, took off her coat at once, placed
it in a corner with Wilf’s hat, and swung out
into the dance. At first Wilf and she were only
conscious of being looked at and anxious to do their
steps with credit, but after a little while Wilf became
agreeably conscious that people were interested in
them. He held his partner more jauntily and
redoubled his attention to the dance, occasionally
whispering some sally into Caroline’s ear to
show how much at ease he was, and how dashingly he
could “carry it off.”
Caroline on her part now felt an exhilarated
conviction that her own appearance in the flame-coloured
dress was the source of attraction; and every time
she passed a certain place where a dark screen hung
behind the glass, she glanced at a revolving vision
of excited eyes and glowing draperies.
The low rays of the sinking sun struck
through the glass panes on the western side of the
hall and mingled with the gas, which was already turned
on, to create a sort of strange half-light in which
nobody seemed quite real. The couples swam round
and round in this peculiar radiance, while the heavy
figures watching appeared to recede and grow more
dense.
The music ceased and they stood still,
breathing quickly, hemmed in by a large group of people.
After a while Caroline suddenly felt a touch on her
shoulder from behind. “I say, Laura, I
thought you were not” And
she turned round sharply to see Wilson with outstretched
arm peering between heads. “Oh,”
he exclaimed “so sorry! I took
you for Miss Temple. I only caught a glimpse
of your dress.”
“It’s all right,”
said Caroline abruptly, crimson to the roots of her
hair. Then the music started again and she seized
hold of Wilf’s arm. “Come along!
We don’t want to lose any of this.”
Wilson was left behind among a group
who were not dancing at the moment, but gradually
they moved away and he stood there alone, steady on
his feet almost impressively self-reliant
and sure of himself, though he was neither tall nor
handsome. As he stood idly looking on, he began
to notice the flame-coloured dress which had been Laura’s
flashing in and out of the more sober garments.
It displayed a good deal of Caroline’s figure,
which was slim and clean made something
like a Tanagra statuette, but less curved. He
found himself watching for her every time as she came
round, and finally a thought darted across his mind a
nymph on fire. Why! he chuckled softly
to himself, pleased by the apt phrase and feeling
clever that was what it was, by
gad! But where on earth had she got a gown exactly
like the one which had suited Laura so badly?
When the music stopped he moved from
his place and walked straight up to Caroline.
“I must apologize for having touched you on
the arm, but I only caught a glimpse of your dress
through the crowd,” he said, “and at first
I thought you were Miss Temple. She has a dress
exactly like the one you are wearing.”
“Oh, it’s all right,”
repeated Caroline, beginning to move off. Then
she suddenly stopped short. After all, he would
get to know. She was not going to look as if
she were ashamed of what she had done. “It
is the same dress,” she said, throwing up her
head with a jerk, as she did when she was defiant.
“Miss Temple gave it to my aunt, Mrs. Creddle,
and I’m wearing it because Aunt burnt a frock
of mine.”
“Lucky thing she did,”
said Wilson easily. “I can’t quite
see Mrs. Creddle in this gown at least,
if she is the lady I have encountered at Miss Wilson’s.”
“Ha! ha!” laughed Wilf,
feeling he owed it to his own dignity to assert himself
and join in somehow, but finding a difficulty in beginning.
“Miss Temple didn’t mean
it to be worn. It was to make best frocks for
the little ones or something like that,” said
Caroline. “But I shan’t wear it
again, so they’ll have the benefit of it all
the same.”
“Well, I’m sure the original
wearer would be delighted if she could see you in
it,” said Wilson.
“Just what I say,”
put in Wilf, seizing his chance. “Never
saw Carrie look better. She’ll be immensely
grateful to Miss Temple for the loan of it, of course.
Wonderful how the ladies can come to the rescue of
each other. Now, we men it’s
a queer thing, Mr. Wilson, when you come to think
of it, but I don’t suppose there’s two
pairs of legs alike in this hall.”
“No?” said Wilson interestedly.
“Well, I believe you are right. It is
strange what things can be discovered about life by
keeping one’s eyes open. I daresay you
don’t let much escape yours.”
“Oh, I don’t go about
with them shut, of course,” said Wilf
modestly. “But I’m like that.
It’s no credit to me. Always was from
a kid.”
Wilson glanced round, letting his
gaze pass over the little party from the new villas
with whom he was fairly well acquainted, then he turned
to Wilf. “I don’t seem to see many
people I know here. I wonder if you would mind
my having a turn with Miss Creddle?” he said.
“That is, if she does not object.”
“My name isn’t Creddle; it’s Raby,”
said Caroline.
“Oh, I don’t mind.
I’ll console myself somehow just for one dance,”
said Wilf grandly, for he was feeling greatly flattered first
by being regarded as Caroline’s keeper, and
also by the deferential attitude of this older man
who had reached the place in life where he would like
to be.
“Will you be so kind, Miss Raby?” said
Wilson.
So Caroline, unable to refuse, allowed
him to put his arm round her and guide her out into
the moving throng. After the first moment or
two when she was entirely engrossed in feeling annoyed
with Wilf, she began to experience a most peculiar
and yet agreeable sensation as if she need
not trouble about anything in the whole world ever
any more. She remained aware of the music, of
the many-coloured throng going round and round in
the last rays of the sunset which mingled so strangely
with the artificial light from the roof of the hall still
she seemed to be carried along apart from it all;
to be enclosed by something which emanated from the
man who held her, and which isolated them both.
Once or twice he made some trivial remark, but nothing
to need thinking about; and when the music stopped
she felt for a second or two a sort of dizziness like
coming too suddenly out of a dim room into a bright
sunlight.
“I must have met you somewhere
before,” he was saying. “I am sure
I remember your face.”
“Yes.” She felt
the odd dizziness leaving her. With an effort
she forced herself to become alert and keen again.
“I expect you’ve seen me collecting tickets.
I and another girl take it in turns.”
“Ah! That must be what
I am thinking of,” he said. But he searched
his mind in vain for the recollection of a girl at
that little window in the pay-box who could by any
magic of clothes and swaying steps be transformed
even for five minutes into a nymph on fire.
But Wilf came up and he had to let
her go felt, indeed, no particular desire
to detain her; for Caroline greeted her admirer with
such real relief that he had no doubt of her feelings.
She just caught hold of Wilf’s arm and began
at once to move in time to the music, while that gratified
young man nodded jauntily over her shoulder to Wilson
and sailed off, thinking himself very grown-up and
experienced and important a man with a
female for whom he was responsible one of
the initiate.
Almost immediately after that Wilson
went away, but it was three hours later before Caroline
and Wilf, having danced their fill, emerged into the
coolness of the midnight air. As they walked
down the dim promenade together, Wilf was still talking
about Wilson. “Some chaps say he is so
stand-offish, but I always hold that people treat you
as you treat them. And if the fellows say anything
of the sort to me in the train, to-morrow, I shall
just tell them they’re wrong. Most pleasant,
he can be, when he likes.”
“Why shouldn’t he be?”
said Caroline. “You’re as good as
he is.”
“I know that, but I haven’t
got what he has. You don’t understand the
world yet, Carrie, my dear,” he said largely.
“I tell you, that man can smell when there’s
going to be land in the market, if there’s anything
to be made out of it. Sort of second smell.
Ha! ha!”
Carrie laughed. “Go on!
You really are a one, Wilf!” But her
encouraging laughter was a veil to hide her thoughts the
old veil used a thousand thousand times since life
and love began.
“Look here, Carrie,” Wilf
began again, suddenly serious. “What man
has done, man can do. I didn’t mean to
tell you yet, but I will.” He lowered
his voice, glancing round at the calm immensity of
the moonlight night lest any one should hear him.
“If I go on as I am doing, I shall be worth
five thousand pounds before I die.”
Carrie clutched his arm, looking into the smooth, boyish face
so near her own, with its young curves and sharpnesses made wistful by the
moonlight. She did not know why, but was suddenly filled with a sort of
aching, protective pity when she heard those words mingling with the sound of
the sea. It was Wilfs youngness and littleness in the face of that
immensity. Five thousand pounds before I die! And the sea beating on the
shore just the same
But out of it all, the only words
she found were: “I know you will, Wilf.
You’ll do more than that. Look how your
governor spoke about your shorthand last week.”
“And that brings me,”
continued Wilf, growing more and more solemn and important,
“to what I really want to say. I’m
going to get the ring to-morrow, Carrie, so you’d
better lend me that old one of your mother’s
you have on, for a measure. I aren’t going
to ask you what stones you’d like, because I
shall get diamonds. A dress ring without diamonds
is nothing, and I mean my wife to have the best.”
“Diamonds! Oh, Wilf!”
said Carrie. But the first glow of surprise and
pleasure passed almost before it was there. “Wife!”
She didn’t want that. She wasn’t
ready for that. “Don’t think of such
a thing. We can’t be married for years
and years. Besides, I don’t want a ring.
It it hasn’t got so far, yet.
We have always been friends, but when it comes to
settling down together for life –”
He swung round. “What
on earth do you mean?” he demanded. “Are
you keeping a loophole open to throw me over for somebody
else?”
“No, no!” she said.
“I have never thought of anybody else.
I couldn’t imagine myself going with anybody
but you. Only I don’t want to be tied
yet. I want to feel free a bit longer.”
“Is that all?” he said,
then began to grow angry owing to a reaction from
his fright. “A nice fool you would make
me look if you turned me down now. I suppose
you don’t realize that my friends in the train
just wink at each other when they ask me to go anywhere
of an evening, knowing I shan’t go. Then
one chap funny chap he is always
says, ‘How’s the C.R. doing?’ You
mayn’t know where the joke comes in, but C.R.
stands for a railway as well as Carrie Raby.
And after all that, I’m to be played fast and
loose with. It’s carrying things a bit
too far. I don’t say I agree with the
times when men clubbed girls over the head and brought
them home like that, but I will say the pendulum has
swung too far. A girl can’t have a boy
of her own and be as free as if she hadn’t.
I don’t know what you think you want, Carrie.”
“I’ve no wish to be horrid,
I’m sure,” said Caroline. “I
do think it is most awfully kind and generous of you
to want to give me a ring. But I feel as if I
would rather not have one.”
“Well, have it your own way,
of course. Only I can’t make all this
out,” said Wilf. “If you didn’t
fancy me for a husband you might have found out before.
You’ve had plenty of time.”
“But I never did think
of you as a husband, somehow,” said Caroline.
“We began to walk out together like boys and
girls do, and it has gone on. I don’t
say I shall never feel different. I can’t
picture myself ever wanting to go with anybody but
you. Only there it is.” She paused,
looking out to sea, and the wash of the waves brought
back to some degree those feelings which she had experienced
when he talked about the five thousand pounds.
“I’m sorry if I’ve hurt your feelings,
Wilf. I’m sure I didn’t want to.
I only wanted to be straight with you.”
“Well, we’ll let it pass,”
said Wilf. “Girls have all sorts of funny
feelings we don’t have, I expect; and a lot would
have taken the ring first and talked afterwards.
I like a girl to be straight.”
But he did not. He was at the
stage when what he most wanted from the female sex
was a sugared insincerity which looked like crude candour
and independence. And as they walked on again,
though they were linked together, she certainly appeared
less desirable to him than she had done when she was
circling round the hall in Wilson’s arms with
her bright draperies glowing between the gaslight
and the sunset.
When they had said farewell at the
gate of the Cottage garden and he stood waiting until
he heard Caroline safely open the front door, these
discontents grew more active still. Here he was,
seeing her home, and making no objection, though some
one had actually said in his hearing that she was
Miss Wilson’s maid-servant. He had not
told her this from feelings of delicacy, but he began
to think that delicacy was rather wasted on her, and
determined to do so at the next opportunity.
Caroline opened the door softly and
was creeping up the old stairs which creaked at every
step, when Miss Ethel peered out of her bedroom and
caught a glimpse of flame colour beneath the open coat.
“Good night, Miss Ethel,” said Caroline
cheerfully.
For a moment Miss Ethel could not
bring words over her lips. That Ellen’s
niece should return thus at midnight, opening the house
door with a latch-key, while she, herself, condoned
it, though she disapproved as violently as ever.
She felt a sort of tingling shame and resentment
like a fighter who has to retreat, as she said in a
muffled tone: “Good night, Caroline.”