Mrs. Bradford and Miss Ethel came
out of the Cottage and walked through the garden in
which on so many windy, sunshiny mornings they
had done a little weeding or planting before they
went to shop in the long street, where everybody knew
them and everybody treated them with respect.
“Yes, Miss Wilson. I’ll be sure
to let you have the middle cut, ma’am.
Beautiful day for the time of year.” But
now there was a “Take it or leave it”
attitude which grated very much on Miss Ethel’s
susceptibilities as she gave her small orders, and
she felt thankful there was no shopping to be done
on this particular morning. All the same, the
errand on which she actually was bent made the way
as painful to her as if she had been treading on sharp
stones.
“I think Godfrey might have
gone over the house with us, as he promised, instead
of just leaving the key,” she said.
“Did Caroline take the key in?
I suppose there was no message?” said Mrs.
Bradford.
“No: she said not.
I asked her.” Miss Ethel paused.
“I thought there was something rather funny
in her manner.”
“What! You don’t
think there is anything in what the Grahams said?”
exclaimed Mrs. Bradford, speaking far more alertly
than usual.
“Of course I don’t,” said Miss Ethel.
“But Mr. Graham is sure he saw
Godfrey go up to Caroline at the Gala on the promenade
the minute our backs were turned. It was when
he went back to buy those air-balloons for the children
at the Home and he happened to look round.”
“Well, what is there in that?
I don’t say he is by any means my ideal of
a young man,” said Miss Ethel. Then she
added after a pause: “You must not dream
of mentioning the subject to Caroline. It is
not our affair.”
They walked a few paces in silence,
aware that they could not afford to send Caroline
away even if she were a bad girl, and yet shamed within
themselves by the knowledge.
“The Grahams seemed to think
Godfrey has had serious money losses,” remarked
Mrs. Bradford at last. “Lucky he had Laura’s
money to fall back on.”
“Well, I think she is lucky
in having him to make the most of her capital,”
said Miss Ethel. “He has a wonderful head
for business. Any difficulties that he may have
will be only temporary.” They were both
talking without heeding particularly what they said,
nervously engrossed by the errand on which they were
bent.
But at last they turned the corner
of Emerald Avenue, and the blank fact had to be faced.
“That is our house, then. Number fifteen,”
said Miss Ethel.
So they went through the little iron
gate, and an old man came hobbling across the street
to speak to them. “Good morning, ladies,”
he said in a high trembling voice. “I
hear you’re going to live here. I hear
my darter’s a-going to have you for a neighbour.
Well! well! Who’d a-thought it?”
His intention was kindly, but his
manner showed a sort of triumph underneath: it
was in some way gratifying to him that Miss Ethel,
who used to give him tobacco and other little comforts,
had come down to the same level as his daughter.
Not that he had received anything lately, because
Miss Ethel had nothing to give, while his son-in-law
made good wages and his daughter let rooms. At
any rate Miss Ethel missed the power to give far more
than he missed the tobacco; and that from no desire
to patronize though perhaps she did like
the gratifying glow of that feeling a little but
because of the real goodness and generosity at the
bottom of her nature.
“I’m sure we shall be
glad to have such good neighbours,” she said
pleasantly.
“Yes, yes. My darter’s
family wants for nothing. They’ve gotten
one of these ’ere gramophones an all,”
chuckled the old man. “You’ll hear
it through the wall and it’ll mebbe cheer you
up if you feel dowly. But it’s hard moving
at your time of life.”
Then he went off, chuckling and muttering
to himself, and Mrs. Bradford and Miss Ethel walked
up the tiny path to the house which was to be their
home for the rest of their lives. But before
they reached the door it opened from within, and there
stood Laura Temple. She was smiling, and yet
her kind eyes were bright with tears which she could
scarcely keep from falling for the two ageing
women looked somehow so forlorn in the bright sunshine
on the threshold of all this strangeness. But
after the briefest pause Miss Ethel relieved the situation
by saying briskly: “So you have opened the
windows. Now that was good of you.”
“Oh, Nanty did that. She’s
here, too,” said Laura. Then they all went
through the narrow passage into the front room.
“There is only one corner where
I can have my chair,” said Mrs. Bradford immediately.
“Laura dear, those who lead an active life can’t
understand how important it is for anyone like me to
have a chair in the right place. But you have
not been well yourself. I can quite understand
your not wanting to go away on a honeymoon when you
are not feeling well. I shall never forget having
a bilious attack on my own honeymoon. I would
always recommend a small medicine chest as part of
the wedding outfit sore-throat remedies
and gregory powder, and so on. My dear husband
said that, so far as he was concerned, biliousness
did not destroy romance; but there are bridegrooms
and bridegrooms, and you never know until
“We’d better begin measuring
the floor,” interposed Miss Ethel uneasily,
anxious to cut short this unusual loquacity on the
part of Mrs. Bradford, which she knew to be caused
by the general upset of looking forward to an entire
change of place and routine. “Don’t
you think the old dining-room carpet will do very
well here?”
She opened the room door suddenly
to discover Miss Panton just outside suppressing her
emotion with a handkerchief pressed to her lips.
Now she was obliged to let it finally escape in a
sort of whoop. “Oh! Excuse me.
I can’t help it! It’s the thought
of you here,” she said excitedly. “I
know silence is golden, but there are tibes
And to see Miss Ethel going round on her hands and
dees with a tape beasure as if it was only an ordinary
spring cleaning” Never had
the catarrh been so marked and so marked in its effects
on her m’s and n’s.
“Nonsense! We shall be
quite comfortable here and much less work to do.
Thousands of richer people than ourselves are having
to move into smaller houses,” said Miss Ethel;
but she was touched all the same.
“I’m not sure my chair
will stand in that corner,” said Mrs. Bradford,
going back to her great preoccupation. “I
must measure it. I do wish I had it here.”
“I can easily run and get the measurements,”
said Laura.
“You’re sure it won’t
upset you,” said Miss Panton. “You
know you ought to take care.”
“Of course not,” said
Laura. “I’m nearly all right again.”
But she stood facing the strong light
which fell through the uncurtained window, and her
face looked very pale beneath the tan; it had the
queer bleached appearance which is observable in such
complexions even while the healthy brown and red
still remain. There were dark marks underneath
her eyes, too, which accentuated the faint lines near
the mouth. Miss Ethel, glancing across at her
was struck for the first time by the fact that Laura
was not a young girl any more, though the effect of
girlishness produced by her figure and the poise of
her head still remained.
Then she went away to measure the
chair, while Miss Ethel wrote some figures in a little
book and remarked that she would now go up to the
front bedroom.
“Then I’ll just stay where
I am,” said Mrs. Bradford. “There
is nothing for two to do, is there? And you
know my legs, of course”
She did not trouble to be more explicit, because her
unusual garrulity was dying down now Miss Panton and
Laura had gone, and she knew Ethel would be reasonable
enough to understand that the legs of a married lady
could not be expected to go up and down stairs as easily
as those of a spinster.
Miss Ethel herself so belonged to
the generation when a married woman was necessarily
on a different and higher level than an “old
maid,” that though she knew her sister in many
ways to be a fool, she yet bowed to the unassailable
superiority of the widow. She really did feel
that the useless legs of her widowed sister were more
worthy of consideration than her own unwedded limbs
as she trudged upstairs.
When she spread the measuring tape
across the floor in front of the window, her glance
wandered for a moment to the house opposite where a
fat woman in an untidy blouse was standing in the doorway
laughing and talking with the milkman. A small
child dragged a noisy cart along the pavement, eating
at the same time a large piece of Yorkshire pie.
Then a second woman opened the next door and joined
the fun. They were all jolly together, self-satisfied.
They had done well, and were relaxing after the rush
of the season; but they seemed very far away from Miss
Ethel as she looked out of the window.
Still she never thought of envying
them their jollity and self-satisfaction. Deep
in her heart she knew she would rather be herself
with nothing, than such as they with everything.
She had only a vague sense of uneasiness, which was
deepened by the sound of the gramophone next door
grinding out “Home, sweet Home.”
For her sake the old man who lived with
his daughter during the winter when lodgers were few had
sinned against the law which prohibited his use of
the new gramophone. This was partly because
he really wanted to cheer Miss Ethel, and partly because
he realized his daughter’s good fortune better
when he thought of the ladies listening to him through
the wall.
But Miss Ethel’s attention was
soon distracted, for a baby wailed in the house on
the other side, and a fish cart went past ringing a
loud bell to warn the women to run out with their
dishes. The bell was harsh in tone, filling
the street with clamour, and when the cart started
again after a purchase the bell pealed afresh each
time. It was some time before the desire of
Emerald Avenue for the harvest of the sea was satisfied,
but in the comparative silence which at last ensued,
Miss Ethel pressed her hand to her forehead as she
rose dizzily from her knees. For a moment or
two the house opposite looked blurred, then the haziness
passed off, and she saw the road lying empty in the
grey light the lace-curtained windows, the
sideboard with a mirror back on the far side of the
room, even the vase of faded flowers.
But despite the minute definiteness
of it all, she had a most queer feeling of unreality.
She told herself that this would probably be her
home until she died, and that there was nothing to
complain of she ought to be ashamed to
complain. But the words which were forming on
the surface of her thoughts seemed to have no relation
whatever to anything going on underneath. She
could not, or would not try to see deep down, because
that odd sense of unreality rather frightened her;
but something rose up like an emanation a
presentiment, she would have called it, had she allowed
herself to do so. But the whole idea of her
living here seemed so pervaded with bleak unreality,
as she stood there looking out of the window, that
it seemed to be wiped out of the scheme of actual
human happenings. Then from that under-swirl
of feeling rose one definite thought: “I
shall never live here.”
She turned abruptly from the window,
bracing herself by saying aloud: “Bless
me! I’m getting like the old women in Back
Hoggate. I shall soon be counting my ailing
relatives over if a spark flies out of the candle.”
But even this comparison of herself with the superstitious
inhabitants of the oldest part of Thorhaven did not
drive away that unpleasant feeling, and she felt relieved
by the sound of a human voice calling up the stairs:
“Miss Ethel! I’ve brought the key.
And I have put your lunch ready, and left the kettle
on. I thought you might be glad of a cup of
tea.”
The voice, fresh, confident, full
of abounding vitality, dispelled those queer sensations
of Miss Ethel’s. She came to the top of
the stairs and thanked Caroline, for she had learned
that she could no longer take good and willing service
for granted. The extent, indeed, to which she
had been bowed by circumstances, showed in her anxious,
almost humble manner, as she hastened to add despite
her annoyance about the gossip concerning Caroline
and Godfrey: “I hope you found the small
beef-steak pie I left for your dinner? I forgot
to tell you it was in the safe.”
“Oh, I got all I wanted, thank
you,” said Caroline, adding as she went again
down the passage: “I’ll come straight
in, Miss Ethel.”
For she had felt very sorry for these
two women as she busied herself about the house all
the morning, doing her best to make things cheerful
against their return. But on the way here, a
few minutes ago, she had met Laura Temple on the road,
and that put everything else out of her mind.
She actually held her breath as they approached, wondering
what would happen. If Laura had heard any of
the gossip that was about the town her salutation supposing
she gave one at all would be different.
But her pleasant “Good morning,
Miss Raby,” was just the same as usual; and
though there might be a stiffness about Miss Panton’s
greeting, that lady never had been cordial.
But the brief encounter had left Caroline
disturbed, confused, breathless as if she
had been running too fast for her strength. Her
knees shook under her as she went on her way towards
Emerald Avenue, though she looked just as usual able
to exchange a chaffing word with a boy of her acquaintance.
For she, no less than other human beings, would be
obliged to go through the tremendous crises of her
emotional existence in the street, or at a party,
or in a tram-car her real self kept close,
enshrouded by that strange cloak which hides every
man from his neighbour.
Still it was obvious that Laura knew
nothing. The marriage really had been put off
for the reason stated. No one could doubt that
who saw Laura’s face even casually in the street.
Caroline had nearly reached Emerald Avenue when it occurred
to her that Laura was probably going to the Cottage and would need her key.
But she could not run after her with it. She felt a physical revulsion at
the bare thought of speaking to a girl who was engaged to Godfrey talking to him
receiving his kisses
It had seemed almost easy, that first
night on the cliff top, to behave decently about it
all. But then everything had turned different.
She could scarcely realize now how it had then seemed
so clear, so entirely possible at once to give him
up, and to be always certain of his love. The
difficulties and confusions all came afterwards.
She told herself once more as she
walked along that Godfrey could not possibly be such
a cad as to throw over a poor girl who was crazy about
him just before the wedding day, nor could he be meeting
another girl on the sly at the same time.
And yet the sick trembling brought
on by the sight of Laura remained until she reached
Emerald Avenue. She had no room in her thoughts
for the sorrows of others when she arrived with the
key.
Miss Ethel came down directly she
left, having finished measuring the floors; and after
a while Laura came back to say that she had stupidly
forgotten when she met Caroline on the way to ask her
if the house were locked, so that she and Miss Panton
could not get in, of course. She thought it
strange that Caroline had not mentioned the key, as
she had it in her hand; and after wondering about
this a little they all went away, walking together
to the end of the street. Here the ladies from
the Cottage turned off towards the north, and when
they had gone a little way in silence, Miss Ethel
said: “Flamborough looks very clear to-day.
We shall have rain.” For she hoped by
starting this subject to turn her sister’s slow-moving
thoughts away from the new house. She felt just
then that she simply could not endure to discuss it.
But Mrs. Bradford did not want to talk about Flamborough.
“I do wish,” she said,
“Laura had got the measurements of my chair.
I am afraid there may not be room for it on that
side of the fire” So all
the way home, at intervals, she kept bemoaning the
possible lack of space for her chair.
Miss Ethel felt very tired.
But at last they reached the gate of the Cottage,
and as they walked up the drive they saw that a man
was at work taking up the privet hedge. He was
doing it badly, mauling the fine roots in a way that
made Mrs. Bradford for once almost energetic in her
annoyance.
“Don’t look! I can’t
bear to look at our poor hedge,” she said, turning
her head away.
Miss Ethel’s glance rested indifferently
on the man and the partially destroyed hedge.
“What does it matter?” she said, and walked
on to the front door.
“You mean, because we shall
not be here?” said Mrs. Bradford uneasily, for
even she felt there was something a little uncomfortable
in her sister’s voice and look.
But Miss Ethel’s glance passed
over the neat little lozenge-shaped leaves which lay
torn from their place but still clinging to the branches,
almost with indifference: then she went straight
into the hall, making no reply, and Mrs. Bradford
followed slowly, filled with the dull discomfort of
the cat turned out of its basket. Her feeling
was different from Miss Ethel’s less
acute but she was not in the least consoled
by her vague knowledge that she was sharing this experience
with thousands of middle-aged men and women all over
Europe.