It was the last week of the Thorhaven
season, and a gale from the south-west tore across
the little town, blowing away all the remaining visitors excepting
a few barnacles who had moved into the cheap rooms
or furnished houses, and intended to stay for the winter.
Miss Ethel heard the familiar sounds
of windows rattling and chimneys roaring as they do
in an old house, but she was so used to them that
she never heeded; they formed part of the background
of her life without which, she vaguely apprehended,
she would appear as baldly incomplete as a figure
cut out with sharp scissors from an old print.
But as she stood there on the landing
she became gradually aware of another noise with which
she was not familiar, for the simple reason that Ellen
had never set the maid’s door and window sufficiently
wide open in a high wind to produce a gale rushing
through the house with such a flap and clatter of
blinds and curtains.
Miss Ethel frowned as she marched
into the room for she saw the casement window set
wide, banging to and fro on the metal fastener.
A little more, and it would be blown clear out, to
lie shattered on the path below. But when she
had closed it, she was suddenly struck by the entire
absence of that peculiar close odour which had always
been present when the room was occupied by the immaculate
Ellen and her predecessors. Now there was only
the fresh feeling of salt air, mingled with a very
faint fragrance of violets which came either from
the soap or from the powder on the toilet table.
A nail-polisher lay on the looking-glass, hastily
thrown down; and that also witnessed to that bodily
self-respect which Caroline shared with nearly all
those other girls in Thorhaven who would have been
in domestic service ten years ago, but now went daily
to shops and offices. They meant to be the equal
of any girls in the world, and they began by being
personally “nice” in those secret ways,
which are only apparent in the general effect.
You could meet them anywhere up and down clear
skins sometimes too heavily powdered bright
hair pink fingers with delicately tended
finger-nails.
Caroline had gone off hurriedly that
morning, because she wanted to do as much housework
as she could before leaving for the promenade.
She was sorry for Miss Ethel, who did not look at
all well, though this feeling was blunted by her pre-occupation
with her own troubles for it had become
quite plain that Godfrey was deliberately avoiding
her.
At this moment she was walking quickly
along the road, head to the wind; then, turning, found
herself sheltered from west and south to some extent
by the houses opposite the promenade. But once
in the little pay-box she had to listen all day while
the little window rattled unceasingly, and the boards
creaked as the gale swept across them.
The weather remained like that during
the whole week, and Caroline was on duty all day excepting
for her meal-times. Occasionally a gleam of
sun touched the white crests of the breakers, but immediately
afterwards a sharp spatter of rain would drive in the
faces of the few who were tempted out.
The hours seemed endless to Caroline
as she sat there listening to the howl
and rattle of the wind, and the roaring of the sea,
without knowing that she listened to them. But
very gradually she began to feel in her spirit the
effect of that deep, endless booming, and of the tremendous
procession of the breakers that came on and on all
day long. It made her almost dizzy, but when
she turned for relief to the land, the promenade and
the little town itself seemed only like leaves swept
together by chance for a moment on the edge of a torrent.
A horrid sense of the shortness of life assailed
Caroline now, as it will sometimes assail young people
when they are dispirited. She felt that cold
breath from the immense spaces of eternity to which
the young are still sensitive.
But the week would soon be over
She consoled herself by that thought as she sat before
the little window knitting a woollen coat to wear
when she went to office in Flodmouth. Every now
and then she glanced drearily at the grey waves with
the white crests, coming on and on
It was a rotten world, and she didn’t care.
What was the good of it all, anyway?
Then a subscriber passed through to
the promenade; but her reply to his remark about the
weather was as mechanical as her release of the iron
turnstile. Directly he was gone she looked out
to sea again, thinking now of a girl who had been
drowned farther along the coast not long before.
Well, she only wished the waves would come over the
promenade and take her with them, then she’d
be out of it all.
But she did not mean that really;
because certain qualities she inherited from her sturdy
Yorkshire ancestors would always prevent her from
choosing the way of the neurotic. She would be
brave enough to live out her life, though she had
ceased to expect happiness as a right.
A sharp gust of rain on the window
made her look down the promenade. Now the stray
figures would come scurrying through again to their
homes or lodgings, and she automatically prepared
to release the turnstile quickly to oblige people
in haste. Then, with a little leap of the pulses,
she saw Aunt Creddle. It was Aunt Creddle, out
at half-past eleven on baking-day, with her print,
working dress ballooning under that old coat and the
hair straggling over her face. Caroline jumped
up and ran out of the pay-box, her knitting still in
her hand, the shower of cold, sharp drops driving
across her.
“What’s the matter?”
she cried. “Has one of the children got
hurt?”
Mrs. Creddle so panted for breath
that she could only sign with a toil-scarred hand
for Caroline to go back into shelter, but on reaching
a little protection from the wind she managed to gasp
out:
“Nobody’s ill. There’s
nothing the matter. Not in a manner of speaking.
Can I come inside there?”
Caroline took her arm and put her
into the chair, then shut the door in the side of
the little wooden turret. They two seemed very
close together in the midst of the storm and wind.
“Why, whatever made you come
out like this?” said Caroline, removing the
wet cloak. “You must have wanted a job,
aunt.”
Mrs. Creddle shook her head, her hand
on her heart for she was a stout woman
and upset by her tussle with the elements. “You
may be sure that it was something that wouldn’t
keep,” she said at last. Then she burst
forth: “Carrie, your uncle has been to Mr.
Wilson! He’s been and told him that if
he ever catches you together again he’ll break
a stick over his back. He lost a couple of hours
this morning, and he went and told him. Now
he’s gone to his work, and I come on here.”
“What!” gasped Caroline,
her eyes black in a face as white as death. “Uncle’s
dared to insult me by doing a thing like that?
What made him do it?”
“He was at the Buffaloes last
night, and when they came away he heard one man say
to another that you was Wilson’s fancy lady”
She paused and added in a low tone: “They
said you’d been stopping out all night.”
“Uncle knows I didn’t,”
said Caroline, beginning to tremble. “What
beasts men are! Didn’t uncle tell them?”
“Oh yes; he told ’em right
enough. But he come home in a fine rage, I can
tell you. He said he wasn’t going to have
no more of it: and I believe he would have gone
straight to Miss Temple only she has always
behaved very decent to us, and he didn’t like
to make mischief, seeing she is so set on the feller.”
“Why didn’t uncle come
to me?” said Caroline. “Why didn’t
you make him, aunt?”
Mrs. Creddle shook her head.
“When you know as much about men as I do
“But what was his reason?” asked Caroline.
“He said it was no good saying
anything to you, because when a lass gets feller-fond
there’s no doing nothing with her. He said
he couldn’t use the strap to you now, but he
wasn’t going to have any lass belonging to him
talked about in that way.”
There was a moment’s silence.
“Did uncle tell you what Mr. Wilson said?”
Then she threw up her head. “But I expect
he threatened to go for uncle.”
“Go for him!” echoed Mrs.
Creddle. “Not he. He only wanted
to get away and not have a scandal in the place.”
“I don’t believe that,”
said Caroline. “Uncle can say what he likes,
but I don’t believe that.”
“It’s true, my lass,”
said Mrs. Creddle kindly. “I ran along
to tell you now, for fear you should come across Wilson
or your uncle before you knew. He promised on
his honour to have naught no more to do with you.”
“Did he?” said Caroline,
her blazing eyes very near to her aunt’s in
that tiny place. “Then he is a day too
late for the fair and uncle too.
You may tell uncle that. I haven’t seen
Mr. Wilson for ten days or more, and I’ll never
enter uncle’s house again as long as I live.”
“You mustn’t talk like
that, honey,” said Mrs. Creddle. “Uncle
took it to heart because he thinks such a lot of you.
But you’ll soon find some nice young feller
in your own station of life next time: don’t
go hankering after a gentleman, my dear. You
would never get one of the best sort, and the other
sort’s no good to you.” She sighed.
“But you always had high notions, Carrie, though
I don’t know where you get them from.
I suppose they’re going about.” With
that Mrs. Creddle opened the little door of the pay-box,
and let in a blast of air that nearly blew her hat
from her head; then she hurried down the wind-swept
road in order to get her husband’s dinner ready
before that already irritated breadwinner should return.
But Caroline sat down again on her
chair and threw open the little window so that the
salt air could blow across her face. She did
not want to cry, because at any minute some one might
want to come through the barrier; but after a minute
or two she had no fear of that. She began to
burn so with outraged pride that she could not yet
feel the deeper ache of wounded love. Over and
over again the words formed of themselves on the surface
of the whirling storm in her mind: “I aren’t
going to give in! I aren’t going
to be pitied!”
Then a member of the promenade band
came along, fighting with the gale, obliged to fetch
some music which he had left in the hall the night
before. “Wild morning! Can’t
say I’m sorry we close to-morrow,” he
said.
Caroline answered him, but he still
lingered, though he had never taken any particular
notice of her before, and did not know why he felt
inclined to stop to-day. He suddenly felt that
Caroline was interesting, though he was not actually
aware of that odd shining of the spirit through the
flesh like a lamp in an alabaster vase which
was characteristic of Caroline in moments of supreme,
passionate emotion. All he thought was, that
there was something unusual about the girl, and that
he was sorry he had not noticed it before.
Still, as a decent married man with
a wife and children, he took such pleasures as talking
to the girl on the promenade in strict moderation,
so very soon he went off with his mackintosh flapping.
A few minutes later Lillie came to
relieve guard, her woollen tam o’ shanter wet
and her front hair blown out of curl.
“I’ve had about enough
of this,” she said. “I’m going
to find another job before next summer.”
“Oh, I expect your job will
be putting your boy’s slippers before the fire
and getting his tea ready,” said Caroline, still
speaking from the very top of her thoughts as
careful as if she were treading on very thin ice,
not to risk the depths.
The prospective bride giggled, gratified,
and Caroline went out; but the next minute she was
startled to hear Lillie call shrilly from the little
window: “Carrie! Carrie! You’ve
forgotten your umbrella, and on a day like this!
You must be in love!”
Caroline took the umbrella, but said
nothing; she was at the end of her powers.