THE private theatre in the palace
was a room of very moderate size, for the audience
was necessarily very small; in fact, the stage was
larger than the auditorium. The play took place
in the afternoon, and there was no artificial light;
many of the operatic performances in Italy, indeed,
took place in the open air.
Yet, though the time of day and the
natural light deprived the theatre of much of the
strangeness and glamour with which it is usually associated,
and which so much impress a youth who sees it for the
first time, the effect of the first performance upon
Mark was very remarkable. He was seated immediately
behind the Prince. Far from being delighted with
the play, he was overpowered as it went on by an intense
melancholy horror. When the violins, the flutes,
and the fifes began the overture, a new sense seemed
given to him, which was not pleasure but the intensest
dread. If the singing of the Signorina had been
a shock to him, accustomed as he was only to the solemn
singing of his childhood, what must this elfish, weird,
melodious music have seemed, full of gay and careless
life, and of artless unconscious airs which yet were
miracles of art? He sat, terrified at these delicious
sounds, as though this world of music without thought
or conscience were a wicked thing. The shrill
notes of the fifes, the long tremulous vibration of
the strings, seemed to draw his heart after them.
Wherever this wizard call might lead him it seemed
he would have to follow the alluring chords.
But when the acting began his terror
became more intense. The grotesque figures seemed
to him those of devils, or at the best of fantastic
imps or gnomes. He could understand nothing of
the dialogue, but the gestures, the laughter, the
wild singing, were shocking to him. When the
Signorina appeared, the strange intensity of her colour,
the brilliancy of her eyes, and what seemed to him
the freedom of her gestures and the boldness of her
bewitching glances, far from delighting, as they seemed
to do all the others, made him ready to weep with shame
and grief. He sank back in his seat to avoid
the notice of the Prince, who, indeed, was too much
absorbed in the music and the acting to remember him.
The beauty of the music only added
to his despair; had it been less lovely, had the acting
not forced now and then a glance of admiring wonder
or struck a note of high-toned touching pathos even,
it would not all have seemed so much the work of evil.
When the comedy was over he crept silently away to
his room; and in the excitement of congratulation
and praise, as actors and audience mingled together,
and the Signorina was receiving the commendations
of the Prince, he was not missed.
He could not stay in this place that
at least was clear to him. He must escape.
He must return to nature, to the woods and birds, to
children and to children’s sports. These
gibing grimaces, these endless bowings and scrapings
and false compliments, known of all to be false, would
choke him if he stayed. He must escape from the
house of frivolity into the soft, gracious outer air
of sincerity and truth.
He cried himself to sleep: all
through the night, amid fitful slumber, the crowd
of masques jostled and mocked at him; the weird strains
of unknown instruments reached his half-conscious
bewildered sense. Early in the morning he awoke.
There had been rain in the night, and the smiling
morning beckoned him out.
He stole down some back stairs, and
found a door which opened on gardens and walks at
the back of the palace. This he managed to open,
and went out.
The path on which the door opened
led him through rows of fruit-trees and young plantations.
A little forest of delicate boughs and young leaves
lifted itself up against the blue sky, and a myriad
drops sparkled in the morning sun. The fresh
cool air, the blue sky, the singing of the birds,
restored Mark to himself. He seemed to see again
the possibility of escape from evil, and the hope of
righteousness and peace. His whole spirit went
out in prayer and love to the Almighty, who had made
these lovely things. He felt as he had been wont
to do when, on a fine Sunday, he had walked home with
his children in order, relating to them the most beautiful
tales of God. He wandered slowly down the narrow
paths. The fresh-turned earth between the rows
of saplings, the beds of herbs, the moist grass, gave
forth a scent at once delicate and searching.
The boy’s cheerfulness began to return.
The past seemed to fade. He almost thought himself
the little schoolmaster again.
After wandering for some time through
this delicious land of perfume, of light, and sweet
sound, he came to a very long but narrow avenue of
old elm trees that led down a gradual slope, as it
seemed, into the heart of the forest. Beneath
the avenue a well-kept path seemed to point with a
guiding hand.
He followed the path for some distance,
and had just perceived what seemed to be an old manor-house,
standing in a courtyard at the farther end, when he
was conscious of a figure advancing along the path
to meet him: as it approached he saw that it
was that of a lady of tall and commanding appearance,
and apparently of great beauty; she wore the dress
of some sisterhood. When he was near enough to
see her face he found that it was indeed beautiful,
with an expression of the purest sincerity and benevolence.
The lady stopped and spoke to Mark at once.
“You must be the new tutor to
their Highnesses,” she said; “I have heard
of you.”
Mark said that he was.
“You do not look well,”
said the lady, very kindly; “are you happy at
the palace?”
“Are you the Princess Isoline?”
said Mark, not answering the question; “I think
you must be, you are so beautiful.”
“I am the Princess Isoline,”
said the lady; “walk a little way with me.”
Mark turned with the lady and walked
back towards the palace. After a moment or two
he said: “I am not happy at Joyeuse,
I am very miserable, I want to run away.”
“What makes you so unhappy?
Are they not kind to you? The Prince is very
kind, and the children are good children I
have always thought.”
“They are all very kind, too
kind to me,” said the boy. “I cannot
make you understand why I am so miserable, I cannot
tell myself the Prince is worse than all ”
“Why is the Prince the worst
of all?” said the lady, in a very gentle voice.
“All the rest I know are wrong,”
replied the boy, passionately “the
actors, the Signorina, the pages, and all; but when
the Prince looks at me with his quiet smile when
the look comes into his eyes as though he could see
through time even into eternity when he
looks at me in his kindly, pitying way I
begin to doubt. Oh, Highness, it is terrible to
doubt! Do you think that the Prince is right?”
The Princess was silent for a moment
or two; it was not that she did not understand the
boy, for she understood him very well.
“No, I think you are right and
not the Prince,” she said at length, in her
quiet voice.
There was a pause: neither seemed
to know what to say next. They had now nearly
reached the end of the avenue next the palace; the
Princess stopped.
“Come back with me,” she
said, “I will show you my house.”
They walked slowly along the narrow
pathway towards the old house at the farther end.
The Princess was evidently considering what to say.
“Why do you know that they are
all wrong?” she said at last.
“Highness,” said the boy
after a pause, “I have never lived amongst, or
seen anything, since I was born, but what was natural
and real the forest, the fruit-trees in
blossom, the gardens, and the flowers. I have
never heard anything except of God of the
wretchedness of sin of beautiful stories
of good people. My grandfather, when he was alive,
used to talk to me, as I sat with him at his charcoal-burning
in the forest, of my forefathers who were all honest
and pious people. There are not many Princes
who can say that.”
The Princess did not seem to notice
this last uncourtly speech.
“‘I shall then find all
my forefathers in Heaven,’ I would say to him,”
continued Mark. “’Yes, that thou wilt!
we shall then be of high nobility. Do not lose
this privilege.’ If I lose this privilege,
how sad that will be! But here, in the palace,
they think nothing of these things instead
of hymns they sing the strangest, wildest songs, so
strange and beautiful that I fear and tremble at them
as if the sounds were wicked sounds.”
So talking, the Princess and the boy
went on through the lovely wood; at last they left
the avenue and passed into the courtyard of a stately
but decayed house. The walls of the courtyard
were overgrown with ivy, and trees were growing up
against the house and shading some of the windows.
The Princess passed on without speaking, and entered
the hall by an open door. As they entered, Mark
could hear the sound of looms, and inside were several
men and women at different machines employed in weaving
cloth. The Princess spoke to several, and leading
Mark onward she ascended a wide staircase, and reached
at last a long gallery at the back of the house.
Here were many looms, and girls and men employed in
weaving. The long range of lofty windows faced
the north, and over the nearer woods could be seen
the vast sweep of the great Thuringian Forest, where
Martin Luther had lived and walked. The risen
sun was gilding the distant woods. A sense of
indescribable loveliness and peace seemed to Mark
to pervade the place.
“How happy you must be here,
gracious Highness!” he exclaimed.
They were standing apart in one of
the windows towards the end of the long room, and
the noise of the looms made a continuous murmur that
prevented their voices being heard by the others who
were near.
The Princess looked at Mark for some
moments without reply.
“I must speak the truth always,”
she said at last, “but more than ever to such
as thou art. I am not happy.”
The boy looked at her as though his heart would break.
“Not happy,” he said in a low voice, “and
you so good.”
“The good are not happy,”
said the Princess, “and the happy are not good.”
There was a pause; then the Princess went on:
“The people who are with me
are good, but they are not happy. They have left
the world and its pleasures, but they regret them;
they live in the perpetual consciousness of this self-denial this
fancy that they are serving God better than others
are; they are in danger of becoming jealous and hypocritical.
I warn you never to join a particular society which
proposes, as its object, to serve God better than others.
You are safer, more in the way of serving God in the
palace, even amid the singing and the music which
seems to you so wicked. They are happy; they
are thoughtless, gay, like the birds. They have
at least no dark gloomy thoughts of God, even if they
have no thoughts of Him at all. They may be won
to Him, nay, they may be nearer to Him now than some
who think themselves so good. Since I began this
way of life I have heard of many such societies, which
have crumbled into the dust with derision, and are
remembered only with reproach.”
Mark stood gazing at the distant forest
without seeing it. He did not know what to think.
“I do not know why I have told
you this,” said the Princess; “I had no
thought of saying such words when I brought you here.
I seem to have spoken them without willing it.
Perhaps it was the will of God.”
“Why do you go on with this
life,” said Mark sadly, “if it be not good?
The Prince would be glad if you would come back to
the palace. He has told me so.”
It seemed to the boy that life grew
more and more sad. It seemed that, baffled and
turned back at every turn, there was no reality, no
sincere walk anywhere possible. The worse seemed
everywhere the better, the children of this world
everywhere wiser than the children of light.
“I cannot go back now,”
said the Princess. “When you are gone I
shall forget this; I shall think otherwise. There
is something in your look that has made me speak like
this.”
“Then are these people really
not happy?” said Mark again.
“Why should they be happy?”
said the Princess, with some bitterness in her voice.
“They have given up all that makes life pleasant fine
clothes, delicate food, cunning harmonies, love, gay
devices, and sports. Why should they be happy?
They have dull work, none to amuse or enliven the
long days.”
“I was very happy in my village
outside the palace gates,” said Mark quietly;
“I had none of these things; I only taught the
little peasants, yet I was happy. From morning
to night the path was straight before me, a
bright and easy path; and the end was always light.
Now all is difficult and strange. Since I passed
through the gates with the golden scrolls, which I
thought were like the heavenly Jerusalem, all goes
crooked and awry; nothing seems plain and righteous
as in the pleasant old days. I have come into
an enchanted palace, the air of which I cannot breathe
and live; I must go back.”
“No, not so,” said the
Princess, “you are wanted here. Where you
were you were of little good. There were at least
others who could do your work. Here none can
do it but you. They never saw any one like you
before. They know it and speak of it. All
are changed somewhat since you came; you might, it
is true, come to me, but I should not wish it.
The air of this house would be worse for you even
than that of the palace which you fear so much.
Besides, the Prince would not be pleased with me.”
Mark looked sadly before him for some
moments before he said:
“Even if it be true what you
say, still I must go. It is killing me. I
wish to do right and good to all; but what good shall
I do if it takes all my strength and life? I
shall ask the Prince to let me go back.”
“No,” said the Princess,
“not that never that. It is impossible,
you cannot go back!”
“Cannot go back!” cried
Mark. “Why? The Prince is very kind.
He will not keep me here to die.”
“Yes, the Prince is very kind,
but he cannot do that; what is passed can never happen
again. It is the children’s phrase, ‘Do
it again.’ It can never be done again.
You have passed, as you say, the golden gates into
an enchanted world; you have known good and evil; you
have tasted of the fruit of the so-called Tree of
Life; you cannot go back to the village. Think.”
Mark was silent for a longer space
this time. His eyes were dim, but he seemed to
see afar off.
“No,” he said at last,
“it is true, I cannot go back. The village,
and the school, and the children have passed away.
I should not find them there, as they were before.
If I cannot come to you, there is nothing for me but
to die.”
“The Pagans,” said the
Princess, “the old Pagans, that knew their gods
but dimly, used to say “The God-beloved
die young.” It has been said since by Christian
men. Do not be afraid to die. Instead
of your form and voice there will be remembrance and
remorse; instead of indifference and sarcasm there
will be contrition; in place of thoughtless kindliness
a tender love. Do not be afraid to die. The
charm is working now; it will increase when sight
is changed for memory, and the changeful irritation
of time for changeless recollection and regret.
The body of the sown grain is transfigured into the
flower of a spiritual life, and from the dust is raised
a mystic presence which can never fade. Do not
be afraid to die.”
Mark walked slowly back to the palace.
He could not think; he was stunned and bewildered.
He wished the Princess Isoline would have let him
come to her. Then he thought all might yet be
well. When he reached the palace he found everything
in confusion. The Princess and her friend the
servente had suddenly arrived.