For an appreciable number of seconds
after the door had closed Christina continued to gaze
in its direction, her head well up, her face stern
and rather pale. Then, quite suddenly, her bosom
gave a quick heave, her lips parted, trembling, her
eyes blinked, her whole attitude became lax.
But she was not going to cry; certainly not!
She was far too angry for tears; angry with herself
no less than Macgregor. He had actually departed
without being dismissed; worse still, he had had the
last word! An observer the thought
struck her would have assumed that she,
weak wretch, had humbly allowed him to go and leave
her in the wrong! Her maiden pride had somehow
failed her, for she ought to have sent him forth crushed.
And yet, surely, she had hurt, punished, humiliated
him. Oh, no doubt of that! And for a moment
her illogical heart wavered. She drew out her
hanky, muttering ’how I hate him!’ and
blew her pretty nose. Then she clenched her
hands and set her teeth. Then she went lax again.
Then oh, dear! he had even insulted her
by leaving her to pick up the cast-off ring! for,
of course, she could not leave it there for Miss Tod
or a customer to see.
Haughtily she moved round the counter
and with scornful finger-tips took up the tiny wreckage
of a great hope. The gold was twisted and bruised,
the little pearls were loose in their places.
All at once she felt a horrid pain in her throat.
. . .
Miss Tod appeared, fresh from the joys of strong tea.
‘Oh, lassie, ha’e ye hurted yersel’?’
Christina choked, recovered herself
and cried: ’I’ve sold a blighter
a sixpenny notebook for threepence, an’ I’ll
never get over it as long as I live. B but
I hope that’ll no be long!’
Just then Heaven sent a customer.
And perhaps Heaven sent the telegram
that Macgregor found on his return home, rather late
in the afternoon. The war has changed many things
and people, but mothers most of all. Mrs. Robinson
made no mention of the ‘extra special’
dinner prepared so vainly in her son’s honour.
‘Yer fayther missed ye,’ was her only
reference to his absence from the meal.
The telegram was an order to return
to duty. The mother and sister saw his eyes
change, his shoulders stiffen.
‘Maybe something’s gaun
to happen at last,’ he said; and almost in the
same breath, though in a different voice ’Christina’s
finished wi’ me. It was ma ain fau’t.
Ye needna speak aboot it. I I’m
no heedin’ greatly.’
He cleared his throat. ‘I’ll awa’
up to the works an’ say guid-bye to father.
Jimsie can come, if he likes. Ye needna tell
him the noo what I tell’t ye.’
Jimsie, summoned from play, was proud
to go with his big brother. He was ill next day
owing to a surfeit of good things consumed at high
pressure, but not too ill to discuss what he would
purchase with the half-crown that seemed to have stuck
to his hot little paw.
Back from the works, Macgregor found
tea awaiting him. His mother and sister were
not a little relieved by his cheerfulness, though
they were to doubt its sincerity later. But the
boy had never made a greater effort for the sake of
those who loved him than in that little piece of dissembling.
The parting was brief. An embrace,
a kiss, a word or two that meant little yet all and
he was out of the home.
His laugh, slightly subdued, came
up the well of the staircase ’Maybe
it’s anither false alarm!’
’They looked over the rail,
mute but trying to smile, and saw the last of him a
hurrying sturdy, boyish figure, kilt swinging and
hand aloft in final farewell.
His route took him through the street
of Miss Tod’s shop. It was characteristic
of Macgregor that he did not choose another and less
direct course. He neither hesitated nor looked
aside as he marched past the shop. The sense
of injustice still upheld him. ’She never
gi’ed me a chance!’ . . . And so
back to Duty.
Not more than five minutes later Private
William Thomson came along in hot haste and banged
into the shop.
‘Macgreegor no here?’
he demanded, and looked astounded.
‘No,’ answered Christina,
without laying down the book she had been trying to
read.
‘Jist left ye?’
‘No.’
‘When did ye see him?’
‘This morning.’
’Gor! I could ha’e
bet onything I wud ha’e catched him here.
He had jist left the hoose when I ’
‘Why are you so excited?’ she coldly inquired.
‘Me? I’m no excited.
Jist been canoodlin’ wi’ ma aunt.
She sprung five bob! Come oot an’ I’ll
stan’ ye a slider.’
‘I regret I cannot accept your kind invitation.’
‘Haw, haw! It’s you
for the language! But I say!’ He leaned
over the counter. ‘What way are ye no
greetin’?’
She flushed hotly, wondering how much
he knew or guessed, but replied coolly enough:
‘I have nothing to weep about. Have you?’
‘Plenty, by Jings! I expected
to see yer eyes an’ nose rid, onyway, Christina.’
‘Indeed! Is that how it affects you?’
He looked hard at her. ‘My!
ye’re a game yin!’ he said admiringly.
‘Weel, I maun slope,’ he went on, with
a sigh that sounded absurd, coming from him.
’I suppose ye’ve nae message for Macgreegor something
ye forgot to say at the last meenute? Eh?’
Christina was at a loss. Apparently
he knew nothing, yet his manner was odd.
‘No message, thank you,’ said she slowly.
‘Then I’ll bid ye guid-bye an’
I could bet ye a bob ye’ll never see me again.
So I’ll tell ye something.’ His
words came with a rush. ’Ye’re aboot
the nicest girl I ever kent, Christina. Macgreegor’s
a luckier deevil nor he deserves. But I’ll
look efter him for ye in Flanders. Trust me
for that. Noo that we’re really boun’
for the Front, in a day or so, things is different at
least I’m feelin’ different. Dinna
laugh! I I dinna want to ha’e
ony enemies but the Germans. I’ve jist
been an’ kissed ma aunt dammit!
An’ noo’ he caught her hand,
pulled her to him ’I’m gaun
to kiss you! There!’ He turned and
bolted.
Christina’s hand went to her
cheek, and fell back to her side. Her colour
ebbed as swiftly as it had flowed. She began
to shake. ‘Bound for the Front, in a day
or so.’ . . .
Later she went to the sitting-room
where her employer was once more absorbing comfort
from a cup. ‘Miss Tod,’ she said
quietly, ’I want to gang hame.’
In the evening she posted a small
package with this note enclosed
’I am sending the ring Mrs.
McOstrich said I was to give you when the time came
for you to go. I hope it will bring you good
luck. God bless you.
‘CHRISTINA.’
She lay awake most of the night, wondering
if she might not have written more, wondering what
answer he would send, wondering wondering.
. . .
And as she fell asleep in the grey
of morning, hours before the package would be delivered
at the camp, a long train, at an outlying station,
started on its way south, and six hundred eager lads
shouted in the face of all things.
‘We’re awa’ this
time, by Goad!’ yelled Willie in his friend’s
ear.
And Macgregor laughed wildly and wrung
his friend’s hand.