Day had broken cold and grey, exceedingly
cold and grey, when the man turned aside from the
main Yukon trail and climbed the high earth-bank,
where a dim and little-travelled trail led eastward
through the fat spruce timberland. It was a
steep bank, and he paused for breath at the top, excusing
the act to himself by looking at his watch. It
was nine o’clock. There was no sun nor
hint of sun, though there was not a cloud in the sky.
It was a clear day, and yet there seemed an intangible
pall over the face of things, a subtle gloom that
made the day dark, and that was due to the absence
of sun. This fact did not worry the man.
He was used to the lack of sun. It had been
days since he had seen the sun, and he knew that a
few more days must pass before that cheerful orb, due
south, would just peep above the sky-line and dip immediately
from view.
The man flung a look back along the
way he had come. The Yukon lay a mile wide and
hidden under three feet of ice. On top of this
ice were as many feet of snow. It was all pure
white, rolling in gentle undulations where the ice-jams
of the freeze-up had formed. North and south,
as far as his eye could see, it was unbroken white,
save for a dark hair-line that curved and twisted
from around the spruce-covered island to the south,
and that curved and twisted away into the north, where
it disappeared behind another spruce-covered island.
This dark hair-line was the trail the
main trail that led south five hundred miles
to the Chilcoot Pass, Dyea, and salt water; and that
led north seventy miles to Dawson, and still on to
the north a thousand miles to Nulato, and finally
to St. Michael on Bering Sea, a thousand miles and
half a thousand more.
But all this the mysterious,
far-reaching hairline trail, the absence of sun from
the sky, the tremendous cold, and the strangeness and
weirdness of it all made no impression
on the man. It was not because he was long used
to it. He was a new-comer in the land, a chechaquo,
and this was his first winter. The trouble with
him was that he was without imagination. He
was quick and alert in the things of life, but only
in the things, and not in the significances.
Fifty degrees below zero meant eighty odd degrees
of frost. Such fact impressed him as being cold
and uncomfortable, and that was all. It did
not lead him to meditate upon his frailty as a creature
of temperature, and upon man’s frailty in general,
able only to live within certain narrow limits of heat
and cold; and from there on it did not lead him to
the conjectural field of immortality and man’s
place in the universe. Fifty degrees below zero
stood for a bite of frost that hurt and that must be
guarded against by the use of mittens, ear-flaps,
warm moccasins, and thick socks. Fifty degrees
below zero was to him just precisely fifty degrees
below zero. That there should be anything more
to it than that was a thought that never entered his
head.
As he turned to go on, he spat speculatively.
There was a sharp, explosive crackle that startled
him. He spat again. And again, in the
air, before it could fall to the snow, the spittle
crackled. He knew that at fifty below spittle
crackled on the snow, but this spittle had crackled
in the air. Undoubtedly it was colder than fifty
below how much colder he did not know.
But the temperature did not matter. He was
bound for the old claim on the left fork of Henderson
Creek, where the boys were already. They had
come over across the divide from the Indian Creek
country, while he had come the roundabout way to take
a look at the possibilities of getting out logs in
the spring from the islands in the Yukon. He
would be in to camp by six o’clock; a bit after
dark, it was true, but the boys would be there, a
fire would be going, and a hot supper would be ready.
As for lunch, he pressed his hand against the protruding
bundle under his jacket. It was also under his
shirt, wrapped up in a handkerchief and lying against
the naked skin. It was the only way to keep
the biscuits from freezing. He smiled agreeably
to himself as he thought of those biscuits, each cut
open and sopped in bacon grease, and each enclosing
a generous slice of fried bacon.
He plunged in among the big spruce
trees. The trail was faint. A foot of
snow had fallen since the last sled had passed over,
and he was glad he was without a sled, travelling
light. In fact, he carried nothing but the lunch
wrapped in the handkerchief. He was surprised,
however, at the cold. It certainly was cold,
he concluded, as he rubbed his numbed nose and cheek-bones
with his mittened hand. He was a warm-whiskered
man, but the hair on his face did not protect the
high cheek-bones and the eager nose that thrust itself
aggressively into the frosty air.
At the man’s heels trotted a
dog, a big native husky, the proper wolf-dog, grey-coated
and without any visible or temperamental difference
from its brother, the wild wolf. The animal
was depressed by the tremendous cold. It knew
that it was no time for travelling. Its instinct
told it a truer tale than was told to the man by the
man’s judgment. In reality, it was not
merely colder than fifty below zero; it was colder
than sixty below, than seventy below. It was
seventy-five below zero. Since the freezing-point
is thirty-two above zero, it meant that one hundred
and seven degrees of frost obtained. The dog
did not know anything about thermometers. Possibly
in its brain there was no sharp consciousness of a
condition of very cold such as was in the man’s
brain. But the brute had its instinct.
It experienced a vague but menacing apprehension that
subdued it and made it slink along at the man’s
heels, and that made it question eagerly every unwonted
movement of the man as if expecting him to go into
camp or to seek shelter somewhere and build a fire.
The dog had learned fire, and it wanted fire, or
else to burrow under the snow and cuddle its warmth
away from the air.
The frozen moisture of its breathing
had settled on its fur in a fine powder of frost,
and especially were its jowls, muzzle, and eyelashes
whitened by its crystalled breath. The man’s
red beard and moustache were likewise frosted, but
more solidly, the deposit taking the form of ice and
increasing with every warm, moist breath he exhaled.
Also, the man was chewing tobacco, and the muzzle
of ice held his lips so rigidly that he was unable
to clear his chin when he expelled the juice.
The result was that a crystal beard of the colour
and solidity of amber was increasing its length on
his chin. If he fell down it would shatter itself,
like glass, into brittle fragments. But he did
not mind the appendage. It was the penalty all
tobacco-chewers paid in that country, and he had been
out before in two cold snaps. They had not been
so cold as this, he knew, but by the spirit thermometer
at Sixty Mile he knew they had been registered at
fifty below and at fifty-five.
He held on through the level stretch
of woods for several miles, crossed a wide flat of
nigger-heads, and dropped down a bank to the frozen
bed of a small stream. This was Henderson Creek,
and he knew he was ten miles from the forks.
He looked at his watch. It was ten o’clock.
He was making four miles an hour, and he calculated
that he would arrive at the forks at half-past twelve.
He decided to celebrate that event by eating his
lunch there.
The dog dropped in again at his heels,
with a tail drooping discouragement, as the man swung
along the creek-bed. The furrow of the old sled-trail
was plainly visible, but a dozen inches of snow covered
the marks of the last runners. In a month no
man had come up or down that silent creek. The
man held steadily on. He was not much given to
thinking, and just then particularly he had nothing
to think about save that he would eat lunch at the
forks and that at six o’clock he would be in
camp with the boys. There was nobody to talk
to and, had there been, speech would have been impossible
because of the ice-muzzle on his mouth. So he
continued monotonously to chew tobacco and to increase
the length of his amber beard.
Once in a while the thought reiterated
itself that it was very cold and that he had never
experienced such cold. As he walked along he
rubbed his cheek-bones and nose with the back of his
mittened hand. He did this automatically, now
and again changing hands. But rub as he would,
the instant he stopped his cheek-bones went numb,
and the following instant the end of his nose went
numb. He was sure to frost his cheeks; he knew
that, and experienced a pang of regret that he had
not devised a nose-strap of the sort Bud wore in
cold snaps. Such a strap passed across the cheeks,
as well, and saved them. But it didn’t
matter much, after all. What were frosted cheeks?
A bit painful, that was all; they were never serious.
Empty as the man’s mind was
of thoughts, he was keenly observant, and he noticed
the changes in the creek, the curves and bends and
timber-jams, and always he sharply noted where he
placed his feet. Once, coming around a bend,
he shied abruptly, like a startled horse, curved away
from the place where he had been walking, and retreated
several paces back along the trail. The creek
he knew was frozen clear to the bottom no
creek could contain water in that arctic winter but
he knew also that there were springs that bubbled
out from the hillsides and ran along under the snow
and on top the ice of the creek. He knew that
the coldest snaps never froze these springs, and he
knew likewise their danger. They were traps.
They hid pools of water under the snow that might
be three inches deep, or three feet. Sometimes
a skin of ice half an inch thick covered them, and
in turn was covered by the snow. Sometimes there
were alternate layers of water and ice-skin, so that
when one broke through he kept on breaking through
for a while, sometimes wetting himself to the waist.
That was why he had shied in such
panic. He had felt the give under his feet and
heard the crackle of a snow-hidden ice-skin.
And to get his feet wet in such a temperature meant
trouble and danger. At the very least it meant
delay, for he would be forced to stop and build a fire,
and under its protection to bare his feet while he
dried his socks and moccasins. He stood and
studied the creek-bed and its banks, and decided that
the flow of water came from the right. He reflected
awhile, rubbing his nose and cheeks, then skirted
to the left, stepping gingerly and testing the footing
for each step. Once clear of the danger, he took
a fresh chew of tobacco and swung along at his four-mile
gait.
In the course of the next two hours
he came upon several similar traps. Usually the
snow above the hidden pools had a sunken, candied appearance
that advertised the danger. Once again, however,
he had a close call; and once, suspecting danger,
he compelled the dog to go on in front. The
dog did not want to go. It hung back until the
man shoved it forward, and then it went quickly across
the white, unbroken surface. Suddenly it broke
through, floundered to one side, and got away to firmer
footing. It had wet its forefeet and legs, and
almost immediately the water that clung to it turned
to ice. It made quick efforts to lick the ice
off its legs, then dropped down in the snow and began
to bite out the ice that had formed between the toes.
This was a matter of instinct. To permit the
ice to remain would mean sore feet. It did not
know this. It merely obeyed the mysterious prompting
that arose from the deep crypts of its being.
But the man knew, having achieved a judgment on the
subject, and he removed the mitten from his right
hand and helped tear out the ice-particles.
He did not expose his fingers more than a minute,
and was astonished at the swift numbness that smote
them. It certainly was cold. He pulled
on the mitten hastily, and beat the hand savagely across
his chest.
At twelve o’clock the day was
at its brightest. Yet the sun was too far south
on its winter journey to clear the horizon. The
bulge of the earth intervened between it and Henderson
Creek, where the man walked under a clear sky at noon
and cast no shadow. At half-past twelve, to the
minute, he arrived at the forks of the creek.
He was pleased at the speed he had made. If
he kept it up, he would certainly be with the boys
by six. He unbuttoned his jacket and shirt and
drew forth his lunch. The action consumed no
more than a quarter of a minute, yet in that brief
moment the numbness laid hold of the exposed fingers.
He did not put the mitten on, but, instead, struck
the fingers a dozen sharp smashes against his leg.
Then he sat down on a snow-covered log to eat.
The sting that followed upon the striking of his
fingers against his leg ceased so quickly that he
was startled, he had had no chance to take a bite of
biscuit. He struck the fingers repeatedly and
returned them to the mitten, baring the other hand
for the purpose of eating. He tried to take
a mouthful, but the ice-muzzle prevented. He
had forgotten to build a fire and thaw out.
He chuckled at his foolishness, and as he chuckled
he noted the numbness creeping into the exposed fingers.
Also, he noted that the stinging which had first
come to his toes when he sat down was already passing
away. He wondered whether the toes were warm
or numbed. He moved them inside the moccasins
and decided that they were numbed.
He pulled the mitten on hurriedly
and stood up. He was a bit frightened.
He stamped up and down until the stinging returned
into the feet. It certainly was cold, was his
thought. That man from Sulphur Creek had spoken
the truth when telling how cold it sometimes got in
the country. And he had laughed at him at the
time! That showed one must not be too sure of
things. There was no mistake about it, it was
cold. He strode up and down, stamping his feet
and threshing his arms, until reassured by the returning
warmth. Then he got out matches and proceeded
to make a fire. From the undergrowth, where
high water of the previous spring had lodged a supply
of seasoned twigs, he got his firewood. Working
carefully from a small beginning, he soon had a roaring
fire, over which he thawed the ice from his face and
in the protection of which he ate his biscuits.
For the moment the cold of space was outwitted.
The dog took satisfaction in the fire, stretching
out close enough for warmth and far enough away to
escape being singed.
When the man had finished, he filled
his pipe and took his comfortable time over a smoke.
Then he pulled on his mittens, settled the ear-flaps
of his cap firmly about his ears, and took the creek
trail up the left fork. The dog was disappointed
and yearned back toward the fire. This man did
not know cold. Possibly all the generations of
his ancestry had been ignorant of cold, of real cold,
of cold one hundred and seven degrees below freezing-point.
But the dog knew; all its ancestry knew, and it had
inherited the knowledge. And it knew that it
was not good to walk abroad in such fearful cold.
It was the time to lie snug in a hole in the snow
and wait for a curtain of cloud to be drawn across
the face of outer space whence this cold came.
On the other hand, there was keen intimacy between
the dog and the man. The one was the toil-slave
of the other, and the only caresses it had ever received
were the caresses of the whip-lash and of harsh and
menacing throat-sounds that threatened the whip-lash.
So the dog made no effort to communicate its apprehension
to the man. It was not concerned in the welfare
of the man; it was for its own sake that it yearned
back toward the fire. But the man whistled, and
spoke to it with the sound of whip-lashes, and the
dog swung in at the man’s heels and followed
after.
The man took a chew of tobacco and
proceeded to start a new amber beard. Also, his
moist breath quickly powdered with white his moustache,
eyebrows, and lashes. There did not seem to be
so many springs on the left fork of the Henderson,
and for half an hour the man saw no signs of any.
And then it happened. At a place where there
were no signs, where the soft, unbroken snow seemed
to advertise solidity beneath, the man broke through.
It was not deep. He wetted himself half-way
to the knees before he floundered out to the firm
crust.
He was angry, and cursed his luck
aloud. He had hoped to get into camp with the
boys at six o’clock, and this would delay him
an hour, for he would have to build a fire and dry
out his foot-gear. This was imperative at that
low temperature he knew that much; and he
turned aside to the bank, which he climbed.
On top, tangled in the underbrush about the trunks
of several small spruce trees, was a high-water deposit
of dry firewood sticks and twigs principally,
but also larger portions of seasoned branches and
fine, dry, last-year’s grasses. He threw
down several large pieces on top of the snow.
This served for a foundation and prevented the young
flame from drowning itself in the snow it otherwise
would melt. The flame he got by touching a match
to a small shred of birch-bark that he took from his
pocket. This burned even more readily than paper.
Placing it on the foundation, he fed the young flame
with wisps of dry grass and with the tiniest dry twigs.
He worked slowly and carefully, keenly
aware of his danger. Gradually, as the flame
grew stronger, he increased the size of the twigs with
which he fed it. He squatted in the snow, pulling
the twigs out from their entanglement in the brush
and feeding directly to the flame. He knew there
must be no failure. When it is seventy-five below
zero, a man must not fail in his first attempt to
build a fire that is, if his feet are wet.
If his feet are dry, and he fails, he can run along
the trail for half a mile and restore his circulation.
But the circulation of wet and freezing feet cannot
be restored by running when it is seventy-five below.
No matter how fast he runs, the wet feet will freeze
the harder.
All this the man knew. The old-timer
on Sulphur Creek had told him about it the previous
fall, and now he was appreciating the advice.
Already all sensation had gone out of his feet.
To build the fire he had been forced to remove his
mittens, and the fingers had quickly gone numb.
His pace of four miles an hour had kept his heart
pumping blood to the surface of his body and to all
the extremities. But the instant he stopped,
the action of the pump eased down. The cold of
space smote the unprotected tip of the planet, and
he, being on that unprotected tip, received the full
force of the blow. The blood of his body recoiled
before it. The blood was alive, like the dog,
and like the dog it wanted to hide away and cover
itself up from the fearful cold. So long as he
walked four miles an hour, he pumped that blood, willy-nilly,
to the surface; but now it ebbed away and sank down
into the recesses of his body. The extremities
were the first to feel its absence. His wet feet
froze the faster, and his exposed fingers numbed the
faster, though they had not yet begun to freeze.
Nose and cheeks were already freezing, while the
skin of all his body chilled as it lost its blood.
But he was safe. Toes and nose
and cheeks would be only touched by the frost, for
the fire was beginning to burn with strength.
He was feeding it with twigs the size of his finger.
In another minute he would be able to feed it with
branches the size of his wrist, and then he could remove
his wet foot-gear, and, while it dried, he could keep
his naked feet warm by the fire, rubbing them at first,
of course, with snow. The fire was a success.
He was safe. He remembered the advice of the
old-timer on Sulphur Creek, and smiled. The
old-timer had been very serious in laying down the
law that no man must travel alone in the Klondike after
fifty below. Well, here he was; he had had the
accident; he was alone; and he had saved himself.
Those old-timers were rather womanish, some of them,
he thought. All a man had to do was to keep his
head, and he was all right. Any man who was
a man could travel alone. But it was surprising,
the rapidity with which his cheeks and nose were freezing.
And he had not thought his fingers could go lifeless
in so short a time. Lifeless they were, for
he could scarcely make them move together to grip a
twig, and they seemed remote from his body and from
him. When he touched a twig, he had to look
and see whether or not he had hold of it. The
wires were pretty well down between him and his finger-ends.
All of which counted for little.
There was the fire, snapping and crackling and promising
life with every dancing flame. He started to
untie his moccasins. They were coated with ice;
the thick German socks were like sheaths of iron half-way
to the knees; and the mocassin strings were
like rods of steel all twisted and knotted as by some
conflagration. For a moment he tugged with his
numbed fingers, then, realizing the folly of it, he
drew his sheath-knife.
But before he could cut the strings,
it happened. It was his own fault or, rather,
his mistake. He should not have built the fire
under the spruce tree. He should have built
it in the open. But it had been easier to pull
the twigs from the brush and drop them directly on
the fire. Now the tree under which he had done
this carried a weight of snow on its boughs.
No wind had blown for weeks, and each bough was fully
freighted. Each time he had pulled a twig he
had communicated a slight agitation to the tree an
imperceptible agitation, so far as he was concerned,
but an agitation sufficient to bring about the disaster.
High up in the tree one bough capsized its load of
snow. This fell on the boughs beneath, capsizing
them. This process continued, spreading out
and involving the whole tree. It grew like an
avalanche, and it descended without warning upon the
man and the fire, and the fire was blotted out!
Where it had burned was a mantle of fresh and disordered
snow.
The man was shocked. It was
as though he had just heard his own sentence of death.
For a moment he sat and stared at the spot where the
fire had been. Then he grew very calm.
Perhaps the old-timer on Sulphur Creek was right.
If he had only had a trail-mate he would have been
in no danger now. The trail-mate could have
built the fire. Well, it was up to him to build
the fire over again, and this second time there must
be no failure. Even if he succeeded, he would
most likely lose some toes. His feet must be
badly frozen by now, and there would be some time before
the second fire was ready.
Such were his thoughts, but he did
not sit and think them. He was busy all the
time they were passing through his mind, he made a
new foundation for a fire, this time in the open;
where no treacherous tree could blot it out.
Next, he gathered dry grasses and tiny twigs from
the high-water flotsam. He could not bring his
fingers together to pull them out, but he was able
to gather them by the handful. In this way he
got many rotten twigs and bits of green moss that
were undesirable, but it was the best he could do.
He worked methodically, even collecting an armful
of the larger branches to be used later when the fire
gathered strength. And all the while the dog
sat and watched him, a certain yearning wistfulness
in its eyes, for it looked upon him as the fire-provider,
and the fire was slow in coming.
When all was ready, the man reached
in his pocket for a second piece of birch-bark.
He knew the bark was there, and, though he could not
feel it with his fingers, he could hear its crisp
rustling as he fumbled for it. Try as he would,
he could not clutch hold of it. And all the time,
in his consciousness, was the knowledge that each
instant his feet were freezing. This thought
tended to put him in a panic, but he fought against
it and kept calm. He pulled on his mittens with
his teeth, and threshed his arms back and forth, beating
his hands with all his might against his sides.
He did this sitting down, and he stood up to do it;
and all the while the dog sat in the snow, its wolf-brush
of a tail curled around warmly over its forefeet,
its sharp wolf-ears pricked forward intently as it
watched the man. And the man as he beat and
threshed with his arms and hands, felt a great surge
of envy as he regarded the creature that was warm
and secure in its natural covering.
After a time he was aware of the first
far-away signals of sensation in his beaten fingers.
The faint tingling grew stronger till it evolved
into a stinging ache that was excruciating, but which
the man hailed with satisfaction. He stripped
the mitten from his right hand and fetched forth the
birch-bark. The exposed fingers were quickly
going numb again. Next he brought out his bunch
of sulphur matches. But the tremendous cold
had already driven the life out of his fingers.
In his effort to separate one match from the others,
the whole bunch fell in the snow. He tried to
pick it out of the snow, but failed. The dead
fingers could neither touch nor clutch. He was
very careful. He drove the thought of his freezing
feet; and nose, and cheeks, out of his mind, devoting
his whole soul to the matches. He watched, using
the sense of vision in place of that of touch, and
when he saw his fingers on each side the bunch, he
closed them that is, he willed to close
them, for the wires were drawn, and the fingers did
not obey. He pulled the mitten on the right
hand, and beat it fiercely against his knee.
Then, with both mittened hands, he scooped the bunch
of matches, along with much snow, into his lap.
Yet he was no better off.
After some manipulation he managed
to get the bunch between the heels of his mittened
hands. In this fashion he carried it to his mouth.
The ice crackled and snapped when by a violent effort
he opened his mouth. He drew the lower jaw in,
curled the upper lip out of the way, and scraped the
bunch with his upper teeth in order to separate a match.
He succeeded in getting one, which he dropped on
his lap. He was no better off. He could
not pick it up. Then he devised a way.
He picked it up in his teeth and scratched it on his
leg. Twenty times he scratched before he succeeded
in lighting it. As it flamed he held it with
his teeth to the birch-bark. But the burning
brimstone went up his nostrils and into his lungs,
causing him to cough spasmodically. The match
fell into the snow and went out.
The old-timer on Sulphur Creek was
right, he thought in the moment of controlled despair
that ensued: after fifty below, a man should travel
with a partner. He beat his hands, but failed
in exciting any sensation. Suddenly he bared
both hands, removing the mittens with his teeth.
He caught the whole bunch between the heels of his
hands. His arm-muscles not being frozen enabled
him to press the hand-heels tightly against the matches.
Then he scratched the bunch along his leg. It
flared into flame, seventy sulphur matches at once!
There was no wind to blow them out. He kept
his head to one side to escape the strangling fumes,
and held the blazing bunch to the birch-bark.
As he so held it, he became aware of sensation in
his hand. His flesh was burning. He could
smell it. Deep down below the surface he could
feel it. The sensation developed into pain that
grew acute. And still he endured it, holding
the flame of the matches clumsily to the bark that
would not light readily because his own burning hands
were in the way, absorbing most of the flame.
At last, when he could endure no more,
he jerked his hands apart. The blazing matches
fell sizzling into the snow, but the birch-bark was
alight. He began laying dry grasses and the tiniest
twigs on the flame. He could not pick and choose,
for he had to lift the fuel between the heels of his
hands. Small pieces of rotten wood and green
moss clung to the twigs, and he bit them off as well
as he could with his teeth. He cherished the
flame carefully and awkwardly. It meant life,
and it must not perish. The withdrawal of blood
from the surface of his body now made him begin to
shiver, and he grew more awkward. A large piece
of green moss fell squarely on the little fire.
He tried to poke it out with his fingers, but his
shivering frame made him poke too far, and he disrupted
the nucleus of the little fire, the burning grasses
and tiny twigs separating and scattering. He
tried to poke them together again, but in spite of
the tenseness of the effort, his shivering got away
with him, and the twigs were hopelessly scattered.
Each twig gushed a puff of smoke and went out.
The fire-provider had failed. As he looked
apathetically about him, his eyes chanced on the dog,
sitting across the ruins of the fire from him, in
the snow, making restless, hunching movements, slightly
lifting one forefoot and then the other, shifting its
weight back and forth on them with wistful eagerness.
The sight of the dog put a wild idea
into his head. He remembered the tale of the
man, caught in a blizzard, who killed a steer and crawled
inside the carcass, and so was saved. He would
kill the dog and bury his hands in the warm body until
the numbness went out of them. Then he could
build another fire. He spoke to the dog, calling
it to him; but in his voice was a strange note of
fear that frightened the animal, who had never known
the man to speak in such way before. Something
was the matter, and its suspicious nature sensed danger, it
knew not what danger but somewhere, somehow, in its
brain arose an apprehension of the man. It flattened
its ears down at the sound of the man’s voice,
and its restless, hunching movements and the liftings
and shiftings of its forefeet became more pronounced
but it would not come to the man. He got on
his hands and knees and crawled toward the dog.
This unusual posture again excited suspicion, and
the animal sidled mincingly away.
The man sat up in the snow for a moment
and struggled for calmness. Then he pulled on
his mittens, by means of his teeth, and got upon his
feet. He glanced down at first in order to assure
himself that he was really standing up, for the absence
of sensation in his feet left him unrelated to the
earth. His erect position in itself started to
drive the webs of suspicion from the dog’s mind;
and when he spoke peremptorily, with the sound of
whip-lashes in his voice, the dog rendered its customary
allegiance and came to him. As it came within
reaching distance, the man lost his control.
His arms flashed out to the dog, and he experienced
genuine surprise when he discovered that his hands
could not clutch, that there was neither bend nor
feeling in the lingers. He had forgotten for
the moment that they were frozen and that they were
freezing more and more. All this happened quickly,
and before the animal could get away, he encircled
its body with his arms. He sat down in the snow,
and in this fashion held the dog, while it snarled
and whined and struggled.
But it was all he could do, hold its
body encircled in his arms and sit there. He
realized that he could not kill the dog. There
was no way to do it. With his helpless hands
he could neither draw nor hold his sheath-knife nor
throttle the animal. He released it, and it plunged
wildly away, with tail between its legs, and still
snarling. It halted forty feet away and surveyed
him curiously, with ears sharply pricked forward.
The man looked down at his hands in order to locate
them, and found them hanging on the ends of his arms.
It struck him as curious that one should have to
use his eyes in order to find out where his hands were.
He began threshing his arms back and forth, beating
the mittened hands against his sides. He did
this for five minutes, violently, and his heart pumped
enough blood up to the surface to put a stop to his
shivering. But no sensation was aroused in the
hands. He had an impression that they hung like
weights on the ends of his arms, but when he tried
to run the impression down, he could not find it.
A certain fear of death, dull and
oppressive, came to him. This fear quickly became
poignant as he realized that it was no longer a mere
matter of freezing his fingers and toes, or of losing
his hands and feet, but that it was a matter of life
and death with the chances against him. This
threw him into a panic, and he turned and ran up the
creek-bed along the old, dim trail. The dog
joined in behind and kept up with him. He ran
blindly, without intention, in fear such as he had
never known in his life. Slowly, as he ploughed
and floundered through the snow, he began to see things
again the banks of the creek, the old timber-jams,
the leafless aspens, and the sky. The running
made him feel better. He did not shiver.
Maybe, if he ran on, his feet would thaw out; and,
anyway, if he ran far enough, he would reach camp
and the boys. Without doubt he would lose some
fingers and toes and some of his face; but the boys
would take care of him, and save the rest of him when
he got there. And at the same time there was
another thought in his mind that said he would never
get to the camp and the boys; that it was too many
miles away, that the freezing had too great a start
on him, and that he would soon be stiff and dead.
This thought he kept in the background and refused
to consider. Sometimes it pushed itself forward
and demanded to be heard, but he thrust it back and
strove to think of other things.
It struck him as curious that he could
run at all on feet so frozen that he could not feel
them when they struck the earth and took the weight
of his body. He seemed to himself to skim along
above the surface and to have no connection with the
earth. Somewhere he had once seen a winged Mercury,
and he wondered if Mercury felt as he felt when skimming
over the earth.
His theory of running until he reached
camp and the boys had one flaw in it: he lacked
the endurance. Several times he stumbled, and
finally he tottered, crumpled up, and fell.
When he tried to rise, he failed. He must sit
and rest, he decided, and next time he would merely
walk and keep on going. As he sat and regained
his breath, he noted that he was feeling quite warm
and comfortable. He was not shivering, and it
even seemed that a warm glow had come to his chest
and trunk. And yet, when he touched his nose
or cheeks, there was no sensation. Running would
not thaw them out. Nor would it thaw out his
hands and feet. Then the thought came to him
that the frozen portions of his body must be extending.
He tried to keep this thought down, to forget it,
to think of something else; he was aware of the panicky
feeling that it caused, and he was afraid of the panic.
But the thought asserted itself, and persisted, until
it produced a vision of his body totally frozen.
This was too much, and he made another wild run along
the trail. Once he slowed down to a walk, but
the thought of the freezing extending itself made
him run again.
And all the time the dog ran with
him, at his heels. When he fell down a second
time, it curled its tail over its forefeet and sat
in front of him facing him curiously eager and intent.
The warmth and security of the animal angered him,
and he cursed it till it flattened down its ears appeasingly.
This time the shivering came more quickly upon the
man. He was losing in his battle with the frost.
It was creeping into his body from all sides.
The thought of it drove him on, but he ran no more
than a hundred feet, when he staggered and pitched
headlong. It was his last panic. When
he had recovered his breath and control, he sat up
and entertained in his mind the conception of meeting
death with dignity. However, the conception did
not come to him in such terms. His idea of it
was that he had been making a fool of himself, running
around like a chicken with its head cut off such
was the simile that occurred to him. Well, he
was bound to freeze anyway, and he might as well take
it decently. With this new-found peace of mind
came the first glimmerings of drowsiness. A
good idea, he thought, to sleep off to death.
It was like taking an anæsthetic. Freezing
was not so bad as people thought. There were
lots worse ways to die.
He pictured the boys finding his body
next day. Suddenly he found himself with them,
coming along the trail and looking for himself.
And, still with them, he came around a turn in the
trail and found himself lying in the snow. He
did not belong with himself any more, for even then
he was out of himself, standing with the boys and looking
at himself in the snow. It certainly was cold,
was his thought. When he got back to the States
he could tell the folks what real cold was. He
drifted on from this to a vision of the old-timer
on Sulphur Creek. He could see him quite clearly,
warm and comfortable, and smoking a pipe.
“You were right, old hoss; you
were right,” the man mumbled to the old-timer
of Sulphur Creek.
Then the man drowsed off into what
seemed to him the most comfortable and satisfying
sleep he had ever known. The dog sat facing him
and waiting. The brief day drew to a close in
a long, slow twilight. There were no signs of
a fire to be made, and, besides, never in the dog’s
experience had it known a man to sit like that in
the snow and make no fire. As the twilight drew
on, its eager yearning for the fire mastered it, and
with a great lifting and shifting of forefeet, it
whined softly, then flattened its ears down in anticipation
of being chidden by the man. But the man remained
silent. Later, the dog whined loudly. And
still later it crept close to the man and caught the
scent of death. This made the animal bristle
and back away. A little longer it delayed, howling
under the stars that leaped and danced and shone brightly
in the cold sky. Then it turned and trotted
up the trail in the direction of the camp it knew,
where were the other food-providers and fire-providers.