All children, except one, grow up.
They soon know that they will grow up, and the way
Wendy knew was this. One day when she was two
years old she was playing in a garden, and she plucked
another flower and ran with it to her mother.
I suppose she must have looked rather delightful, for
Mrs. Darling put her hand to her heart and cried, “Oh,
why can’t you remain like this for ever!”
This was all that passed between them on the subject,
but henceforth Wendy knew that she must grow up.
You always know after you are two. Two is the
beginning of the end.
Of course they lived at 14 [their
house number on their street], and until Wendy came
her mother was the chief one. She was a lovely
lady, with a romantic mind and such a sweet mocking
mouth. Her romantic mind was like the tiny boxes,
one within the other, that come from the puzzling
East, however many you discover there is always one
more; and her sweet mocking mouth had one kiss on
it that Wendy could never get, though there it was,
perfectly conspicuous in the right-hand corner.
The way Mr. Darling won her was this:
the many gentlemen who had been boys when she was
a girl discovered simultaneously that they loved her,
and they all ran to her house to propose to her except
Mr. Darling, who took a cab and nipped in first, and
so he got her. He got all of her, except the
innermost box and the kiss. He never knew about
the box, and in time he gave up trying for the kiss.
Wendy thought Napoleon could have got it, but I can
picture him trying, and then going off in a passion,
slamming the door.
Mr. Darling used to boast to Wendy
that her mother not only loved him but respected him.
He was one of those deep ones who know about stocks
and shares. Of course no one really knows, but
he quite seemed to know, and he often said stocks
were up and shares were down in a way that would have
made any woman respect him.
Mrs. Darling was married in white,
and at first she kept the books perfectly, almost
gleefully, as if it were a game, not so much as a
Brussels sprout was missing; but by and by whole cauliflowers
dropped out, and instead of them there were pictures
of babies without faces. She drew them when she
should have been totting up. They were Mrs. Darling’s
guesses.
Wendy came first, then John, then Michael.
For a week or two after Wendy came
it was doubtful whether they would be able to keep
her, as she was another mouth to feed. Mr. Darling
was frightfully proud of her, but he was very honourable,
and he sat on the edge of Mrs. Darling’s bed,
holding her hand and calculating expenses, while she
looked at him imploringly. She wanted to risk
it, come what might, but that was not his way; his
way was with a pencil and a piece of paper, and if
she confused him with suggestions he had to begin at
the beginning again.
“Now don’t interrupt,” he would
beg of her.
“I have one pound seventeen
here, and two and six at the office; I can cut off
my coffee at the office, say ten shillings, making
two nine and six, with your eighteen and three makes
three nine seven, with five naught naught in my cheque-book
makes eight nine seven who is that moving? eight
nine seven, dot and carry seven don’t
speak, my own and the pound you lent to
that man who came to the door quiet, child dot
and carry child there, you’ve done
it! did I say nine nine seven? yes, I said
nine nine seven; the question is, can we try it for
a year on nine nine seven?”
“Of course we can, George,”
she cried. But she was prejudiced in Wendy’s
favour, and he was really the grander character of
the two.
“Remember mumps,” he warned
her almost threateningly, and off he went again.
“Mumps one pound, that is what I have put down,
but I daresay it will be more like thirty shillings don’t
speak measles one five, German measles
half a guinea, makes two fifteen six don’t
waggle your finger whooping-cough, say
fifteen shillings” and so on it went,
and it added up differently each time; but at last
Wendy just got through, with mumps reduced to twelve
six, and the two kinds of measles treated as one.
There was the same excitement over
John, and Michael had even a narrower squeak; but
both were kept, and soon, you might have seen the three
of them going in a row to Miss Fulsom’s Kindergarten
school, accompanied by their nurse.
Mrs. Darling loved to have everything
just so, and Mr. Darling had a passion for being exactly
like his neighbours; so, of course, they had a nurse.
As they were poor, owing to the amount of milk the
children drank, this nurse was a prim Newfoundland
dog, called Nana, who had belonged to no one in particular
until the Darlings engaged her. She had always
thought children important, however, and the Darlings
had become acquainted with her in Kensington Gardens,
where she spent most of her spare time peeping into
perambulators, and was much hated by careless nursemaids,
whom she followed to their homes and complained of
to their mistresses. She proved to be quite a
treasure of a nurse. How thorough she was at
bath-time, and up at any moment of the night if one
of her charges made the slightest cry. Of course
her kennel was in the nursery. She had a genius
for knowing when a cough is a thing to have no patience
with and when it needs stocking around your throat.
She believed to her last day in old-fashioned remedies
like rhubarb leaf, and made sounds of contempt over
all this new-fangled talk about germs, and so on.
It was a lesson in propriety to see her escorting
the children to school, walking sedately by their
side when they were well behaved, and butting them
back into line if they strayed. On John’s
footer [in England soccer was called football, “footer”
for short] days she never once forgot his sweater,
and she usually carried an umbrella in her mouth in
case of rain. There is a room in the basement
of Miss Fulsom’s school where the nurses wait.
They sat on forms, while Nana lay on the floor, but
that was the only difference. They affected to
ignore her as of an inferior social status to themselves,
and she despised their light talk. She resented
visits to the nursery from Mrs. Darling’s friends,
but if they did come she first whipped off Michael’s
pinafore and put him into the one with blue braiding,
and smoothed out Wendy and made a dash at John’s
hair.
No nursery could possibly have been
conducted more correctly, and Mr. Darling knew it,
yet he sometimes wondered uneasily whether the neighbours
talked.
He had his position in the city to consider.
Nana also troubled him in another
way. He had sometimes a feeling that she did
not admire him. “I know she admires you
tremendously, George,” Mrs. Darling would assure
him, and then she would sign to the children to be
specially nice to father. Lovely dances followed,
in which the only other servant, Liza, was sometimes
allowed to join. Such a midget she looked in
her long skirt and maid’s cap, though she had
sworn, when engaged, that she would never see ten
again. The gaiety of those romps! And gayest
of all was Mrs. Darling, who would pirouette so wildly
that all you could see of her was the kiss, and then
if you had dashed at her you might have got it.
There never was a simpler happier family until the
coming of Peter Pan.
Mrs. Darling first heard of Peter
when she was tidying up her children’s minds.
It is the nightly custom of every good mother after
her children are asleep to rummage in their minds
and put things straight for next morning, repacking
into their proper places the many articles that have
wandered during the day. If you could keep awake
(but of course you can’t) you would see your
own mother doing this, and you would find it very
interesting to watch her. It is quite like tidying
up drawers. You would see her on her knees, I
expect, lingering humorously over some of your contents,
wondering where on earth you had picked this thing
up, making discoveries sweet and not so sweet, pressing
this to her cheek as if it were as nice as a kitten,
and hurriedly stowing that out of sight. When
you wake in the morning, the naughtiness and evil passions
with which you went to bed have been folded up small
and placed at the bottom of your mind and on the top,
beautifully aired, are spread out your prettier thoughts,
ready for you to put on.
I don’t know whether you have
ever seen a map of a person’s mind. Doctors
sometimes draw maps of other parts of you, and your
own map can become intensely interesting, but catch
them trying to draw a map of a child’s mind,
which is not only confused, but keeps going round all
the time. There are zigzag lines on it, just like
your temperature on a card, and these are probably
roads in the island, for the Neverland is always more
or less an island, with astonishing splashes of colour
here and there, and coral reefs and rakish-looking
craft in the offing, and savages and lonely lairs,
and gnomes who are mostly tailors, and caves through
which a river runs, and princes with six elder brothers,
and a hut fast going to decay, and one very small
old lady with a hooked nose. It would be an easy
map if that were all, but there is also first day
at school, religion, fathers, the round pond, needle-work,
murders, hangings, verbs that take the dative, chocolate
pudding day, getting into braces, say ninety-nine,
three-pence for pulling out your tooth yourself, and
so on, and either these are part of the island or they
are another map showing through, and it is all rather
confusing, especially as nothing will stand still.
Of course the Neverlands vary a good
deal. John’s, for instance, had a lagoon
with flamingoes flying over it at which John was shooting,
while Michael, who was very small, had a flamingo
with lagoons flying over it. John lived in a
boat turned upside down on the sands, Michael in a
wigwam, Wendy in a house of leaves deftly sewn together.
John had no friends, Michael had friends at night,
Wendy had a pet wolf forsaken by its parents, but
on the whole the Neverlands have a family resemblance,
and if they stood still in a row you could say of them
that they have each other’s nose, and so forth.
On these magic shores children at play are for ever
beaching their coracles [simple boat]. We too
have been there; we can still hear the sound of the
surf, though we shall land no more.
Of all delectable islands the Neverland
is the snuggest and most compact, not large and sprawly,
you know, with tedious distances between one adventure
and another, but nicely crammed. When you play
at it by day with the chairs and table-cloth, it is
not in the least alarming, but in the two minutes
before you go to sleep it becomes very real. That
is why there are night-lights.
Occasionally in her travels through
her children’s minds Mrs. Darling found things
she could not understand, and of these quite the most
perplexing was the word Peter. She knew of no
Peter, and yet he was here and there in John and Michael’s
minds, while Wendy’s began to be scrawled all
over with him. The name stood out in bolder letters
than any of the other words, and as Mrs. Darling gazed
she felt that it had an oddly cocky appearance.
“Yes, he is rather cocky,”
Wendy admitted with regret. Her mother had been
questioning her.
“But who is he, my pet?”
“He is Peter Pan, you know, mother.”
At first Mrs. Darling did not know,
but after thinking back into her childhood she just
remembered a Peter Pan who was said to live with the
fairies. There were odd stories about him, as
that when children died he went part of the way with
them, so that they should not be frightened.
She had believed in him at the time, but now that she
was married and full of sense she quite doubted whether
there was any such person.
“Besides,” she said to Wendy, “he
would be grown up by this time.”
“Oh no, he isn’t grown
up,” Wendy assured her confidently, “and
he is just my size.” She meant that he
was her size in both mind and body; she didn’t
know how she knew, she just knew it.
Mrs. Darling consulted Mr. Darling,
but he smiled pooh-pooh. “Mark my words,”
he said, “it is some nonsense Nana has been putting
into their heads; just the sort of idea a dog would
have. Leave it alone, and it will blow over.”
But it would not blow over and soon
the troublesome boy gave Mrs. Darling quite a shock.
Children have the strangest adventures
without being troubled by them. For instance,
they may remember to mention, a week after the event
happened, that when they were in the wood they had
met their dead father and had a game with him.
It was in this casual way that Wendy one morning made
a disquieting revelation. Some leaves of a tree
had been found on the nursery floor, which certainly
were not there when the children went to bed, and
Mrs. Darling was puzzling over them when Wendy said
with a tolerant smile:
“I do believe it is that Peter again!”
“Whatever do you mean, Wendy?”
“It is so naughty of him not
to wipe his feet,” Wendy said, sighing.
She was a tidy child.
She explained in quite a matter-of-fact
way that she thought Peter sometimes came to the nursery
in the night and sat on the foot of her bed and played
on his pipes to her. Unfortunately she never woke,
so she didn’t know how she knew, she just knew.
“What nonsense you talk, precious.
No one can get into the house without knocking.”
“I think he comes in by the window,” she
said.
“My love, it is three floors up.”
“Were not the leaves at the foot of the window,
mother?”
It was quite true; the leaves had been found very
near the window.
Mrs. Darling did not know what to
think, for it all seemed so natural to Wendy that
you could not dismiss it by saying she had been dreaming.
“My child,” the mother cried, “why
did you not tell me of this before?”
“I forgot,” said Wendy lightly. She
was in a hurry to get her breakfast.
Oh, surely she must have been dreaming.
But, on the other hand, there were
the leaves. Mrs. Darling examined them very carefully;
they were skeleton leaves, but she was sure they did
not come from any tree that grew in England. She
crawled about the floor, peering at it with a candle
for marks of a strange foot. She rattled the
poker up the chimney and tapped the walls. She
let down a tape from the window to the pavement, and
it was a sheer drop of thirty feet, without so much
as a spout to climb up by.
Certainly Wendy had been dreaming.
But Wendy had not been dreaming, as
the very next night showed, the night on which the
extraordinary adventures of these children may be
said to have begun.
On the night we speak of all the children
were once more in bed. It happened to be Nana’s
evening off, and Mrs. Darling had bathed them and
sung to them till one by one they had let go her hand
and slid away into the land of sleep.
All were looking so safe and cosy
that she smiled at her fears now and sat down tranquilly
by the fire to sew.
It was something for Michael, who
on his birthday was getting into shirts. The
fire was warm, however, and the nursery dimly lit by
three night-lights, and presently the sewing lay on
Mrs. Darling’s lap. Then her head nodded,
oh, so gracefully. She was asleep. Look at
the four of them, Wendy and Michael over there, John
here, and Mrs. Darling by the fire. There should
have been a fourth night-light.
While she slept she had a dream.
She dreamt that the Neverland had come too near and
that a strange boy had broken through from it.
He did not alarm her, for she thought she had seen
him before in the faces of many women who have no
children. Perhaps he is to be found in the faces
of some mothers also. But in her dream he had
rent the film that obscures the Neverland, and she
saw Wendy and John and Michael peeping through the
gap.
The dream by itself would have been
a trifle, but while she was dreaming the window of
the nursery blew open, and a boy did drop on the floor.
He was accompanied by a strange light, no bigger than
your fist, which darted about the room like a living
thing and I think it must have been this light that
wakened Mrs. Darling.
She started up with a cry, and saw
the boy, and somehow she knew at once that he was
Peter Pan. If you or I or Wendy had been there
we should have seen that he was very like Mrs. Darling’s
kiss. He was a lovely boy, clad in skeleton leaves
and the juices that ooze out of trees but the most
entrancing thing about him was that he had all his
first teeth. When he saw she was a grown-up,
he gnashed the little pearls at her.