A quarter of an hour later, with Mary
Josephine at his side, he was walking down the green
slope toward the Saskatchewan. In that direction
lay the rims of timber, the shimmering valley, and
the broad pathways that opened into the plains beyond.
The town was at their backs, and Keith
wanted it there. He wanted to keep McDowell,
and Shan Tung, and Miriam Kirkstone as far away as
possible, until his mind rode more smoothly in the
new orbit in which it was still whirling a bit unsteadily.
More than all else he wanted to be alone with Mary
Josephine, to make sure of her, to convince himself
utterly that she was his to go on fighting for.
He sensed the nearness and the magnitude of the impending
drama. He knew that today he must face Shan Tung,
that again he must go under the battery of McDowell’s
eyes and brain, and that like a fish in treacherous
waters he must swim cleverly to avoid the nets that
would entangle and destroy him. Today was the
day-the stage was set, the curtain about
to be lifted, the play ready to be enacted. But
before it was the prologue. And the prologue
was Mary Josephine’s.
At the crest of a dip halfway down
the slope they had paused, and in this pause he stood
a half-step behind her so that he could look at her
for a moment without being observed. She was bareheaded,
and it came upon him all at once how wonderful was
a woman’s hair, how beautiful beyond all other
things beautiful and desirable. In twisted, glowing
seductiveness it was piled up on Mary Josephine’s
head, transformed into brown and gold glories by the
sun. He wanted to put forth his hand to it, and
bury his fingers in it, and feel the thrill and the
warmth and the crush of the palpitant life of it against
his own flesh. And then, bending a little forward,
he saw under her long lashes the sheer joy of life
shining in her eyes as she drank in the wonderful panorama
that lay below them to the west. Last night’s
rain had freshened it, the sun glorified it now, and
the fragrance of earthly smells that rose up to them
from it was the undefiled breath of a thing living
and awake. Even to Keith the river had never
looked more beautiful, and never had his yearnings
gone out to it more strongly than in this moment,
to the river and beyond-and to the back
of beyond, where the mountains rose up to meet the
blue sky and the river itself was born. And he
heard Mary Josephine’s voice, joyously suppressed,
exclaiming softly,
“Oh, Derry!”
His heart was filled with gladness.
She, too, was seeing what his eyes saw in that wonderland.
And she was feeling it. Her hand, seeking his
hand, crept into his palm, and the fingers of it clung
to his fingers. He could feel the thrill of the
miracle passing through her, the miracle of the open
spaces, the miracle of the forests rising billow on
billow to the purple mists of the horizon, the miracle
of the golden Saskatchewan rolling slowly and peacefully
in its slumbering sheen out of that mighty mysteryland
that reached to the lap of the setting sun. He
spoke to her of that land as she looked, wide-eyed,
quick-breathing, her fingers closing still more tightly
about his. This was but the beginning of the
glory of the west and the north, he told her.
Beyond that low horizon, where the tree tops touched
the sky were the prairies-not the tiresome
monotony which she had seen from the car windows,
but the wide, glorious, God-given country of the Northwest
with its thousands of lakes and rivers and its tens
of thousands of square miles of forests; and beyond
those things, still farther, were the foothills, and
beyond the foothills the mountains. And in those
mountains the river down there had its beginning.
She looked up swiftly, her eyes brimming
with the golden flash of the sun. “It is
wonderful! And just over there is the town!”
“Yes, and beyond the town are the cities.”
“And off there-”
“God’s country,” said Keith devoutly.
Mary Josephine drew a deep breath.
“And people still live in towns and cities!”
she exclaimed in wondering credulity. “I’ve
dreamed of ’over here,’ Derry, but I never
dreamed that. And you’ve had it for years
and years, while I-oh, Derry!”
And again those two words filled his
heart with gladness, words of loving reproach, atremble
with the mysterious whisper of a great desire.
For she was looking into the west. And her eyes
and her heart and her soul were in the west, and suddenly
Keith saw his way as though lighted by a flaming torch.
He came near to forgetting that he was Conniston.
He spoke of his dream, his desire, and told her that
last night-before she came-he
had made up his mind to go. She had come to him
just in time. A little later and he would have
been gone, buried utterly away from the world in the
wonderland of the mountains. And now they would
go together. They would go as he had planned to
go, quietly, unobtrusively; they would slip away and
disappear. There was a reason why no one should
know, not even McDowell. It must be their secret.
Some day he would tell her why. Her heart thumped
excitedly as he went on like a boy planning a wonderful
day. He could see the swifter beat of it in the
flush that rose into her face and the joy glowing
tremulously in her eyes as she looked at him.
They would get ready quietly. They might go tomorrow,
the next day, any time. It would be a glorious
adventure, just they two, with all the vastness of
that mountain paradise ahead of them.
“We’ll be pals,”
he said. “Just you and me, Mary Josephine.
We’re all that’s left.”
It was his first experiment, his first
reference to the information he had gained in the
letters, and swift as a flash Mary Josephine’s
eyes turned up to him. He nodded, smiling.
He understood their quick questioning, and he held
her hand closer and began to walk with her down the
slope.
“A lot of it came back last
night and this morning, a lot of it,” he explained.
“It’s queer what miracles small things
can work sometimes, isn’t it? Think what
a grain of sand can do to a watch! This was one
of the small things.” He was still smiling
as he touched the scar on his forehead. “And
you, you were the other miracle. And I’m
remembering. It doesn’t seem like seven
or eight years, but only yesterday, that the grain
of sand got mixed up somewhere in the machinery in
my head. And I guess there was another reason
for my going wrong. You’ll understand,
when I tell you.”
Had he been Conniston it could not
have come from him more naturally, more sincerely.
He was living the great lie, and yet to him it was
no longer a lie. He did not hesitate, as shame
and conscience might have made him hesitate.
He was fighting that something beautiful might be
raised up out of chaos and despair and be made to exist;
he was fighting for life in place of death, for happiness
in place of grief, for light in place of darkness-fighting
to save where others would destroy. Therefore
the great lie was not a lie but a thing without venom
or hurt, an instrument for happiness and for all the
things good and beautiful that went to make happiness.
It was his one great weapon. Without it he would
fail, and failure meant desolation. So he spoke
convincingly, for what he said came straight from the
heart though it was born in the shadow of that one
master-falsehood. His wonder was that Mary Josephine
believed him so utterly that not for an instant was
there a questioning doubt in her eyes or on her lips.
He told her how much he “remembered,”
which was no more and no less than he had learned
from the letters and the clippings. The story
did not appeal to him as particularly unusual or dramatic.
He had passed through too many tragic happenings in
the last four years to regard it in that way.
It was simply an unfortunate affair beginning in misfortune,
and with its necessary whirlwind of hurt and sorrow.
The one thing of shame he would not keep out of his
mind was that he, Derwent Conniston, must have been
a poor type of big brother in those days of nine or
ten years ago, even though little Mary Josephine had
worshiped him. He was well along in his twenties
then. The Connistons of Darlington were his uncle
and aunt, and his uncle was a more or less prominent
figure in ship-building interests on the Clyde.
With these people the three-himself, Mary
Josephine, and his brother Egbert-had lived,
“farmed out” to a hard-necked, flinty-hearted
pair of relatives because of a brother’s stipulation
and a certain English law. With them they had
existed in mutual discontent and dislike. Derwent,
when he became old enough, had stepped over the traces.
All this Keith had gathered from the letters, but
there was a great deal that was missing. Egbert,
he gathered, must have been a scapegrace. He was
a cripple of some sort and seven or eight years his
junior. In the letters Mary Josephine had spoken
of him as “poor Egbert,” pitying instead
of condemning him, though it was Egbert who had brought
tragedy and separation upon them. One night Egbert
had broken open the Conniston safe and in the darkness
had had a fight and a narrow escape from his uncle,
who laid the crime upon Derwent. And Derwent,
in whom Egbert must have confided, had fled to America
that the cripple might be saved, with the promise
that some day he would send for Mary Josephine.
He was followed by the uncle’s threat that if
he ever returned to England, he would be jailed.
Not long afterward “poor Egbert” was found
dead in bed, fearfully contorted. Keith guessed
there had been something mentally as well as physically
wrong with him.
“-And I was going
to send for you,” he said, as they came to the
level of the valley. “My plans were made,
and I was going to send for you, when this came.”
He stopped, and in a few tense, breathless
moments Mary Josephine read the ninth and last letter
he had taken from the Englishman’s chest.
It was from her uncle. In a dozen lines it stated
that she, Mary Josephine, was dead, and it reiterated
the threat against Derwent Conniston should he ever
dare to return to England.
A choking cry came to her lips. “And that-that
was it?”
“Yes, that-and the
hurt in my head,” he said, remembering the part
he must play. “They came at about the same
time, and the two of them must have put the grain
of sand in my brain.”
It was hard to lie now, looking straight
into her face that had gone suddenly white, and with
her wonderful eyes burning deep into his soul.
She did not seem, for an instant,
to hear his voice or sense his words. “I
understand now,” she was saying, the letter crumpling
in her fingers. “I was sick for almost
a year, Derry. They thought I was going to die.
He must have written it then, and they destroyed my
letters to you, and when I was better they told me
you were dead, and then I didn’t write any more.
And I wanted to die. And then, almost a year
ago, Colonel Reppington came to me, and his dear old
voice was so excited that it trembled, and he told
me that he believed you were alive. A friend
of his had just returned from British Columbia, and
this friend told him that three years before, while
on a grizzly shooting trip, he had met a man named
Conniston, an Englishman. We wrote a hundred
letters up there and found the man, Jack Otto, who
was in the mountains with you, and then I knew you
were alive. But we couldn’t find you after
that, and so I came-”
He would have wagered that she was
going to cry, but she fought the tears back, smiling.
“And-and I’ve found you!”
she finished triumphantly.
She snuggled close to him, and he
slipped an arm about her waist, and they walked on.
She told him about her arrival in Halifax, how Colonel
Reppington had given her letters to nice people in
Montreal and Winnipeg, and how it happened one day
that she found his name in one of the Mounted Police
blue books, and after that came on as fast as she
could to surprise him at Prince Albert. When she
came to that point, Keith pointed once more into the
west and said:
“And there is our new world.
Let us forget the old. Shall we, Mary Josephine?”
“Yes,” she whispered,
and her hand sought his again and crept into it, warm
and confident.