Toby could scarcely restrain himself
at the prospect of this golden future that had so
suddenly opened before him. He tried to express
his gratitude, but could only do so by evincing his
willingness to commence work at once.
“No, no, that won’t do,”
said Mr. Lord, cautiously. “If your uncle
Daniel should see you working here, he might mistrust
something, and then you couldn’t get away.”
“I don’t believe he’d
try to stop me,” said Toby, confidently; “for
he’s told me lots of times that it was a sorry
day for him when he found me.”
“We won’t take any chances,
my son,” was the reply, in a very benevolent
tone, as he patted Toby on the head, and at the same
time handed him a piece of pasteboard. “There’s
a ticket for the circus, and you come around to see
me about ten o’clock to-night. I’ll
put you on one of the wagons, and by to-morrow morning
your uncle Daniel will have hard work to find you.”
If Toby had followed his inclinations,
the chances are that he would have fallen on his knees,
and kissed Mr. Lord’s hands in the excess of
his gratitude. But not knowing exactly how such
a show of thankfulness might be received, he contented
himself by repeatedly promising that he would be punctual
to the time and place appointed.
He would have loitered in the vicinity
of the candy stand in order that he might gain some
insight into the business; but Mr. Lord advised that
he remain away, lest his uncle Daniel should see him,
and suspect where he had gone when he was missed in
the morning.
As Toby walked around the circus grounds,
whereon was so much to attract his attention, he could
not prevent himself from assuming an air of proprietorship.
His interest in all that was going on was redoubled,
and in his anxiety that everything should be done
correctly and in the proper order he actually, and
perhaps for the first time in his life, forgot that
he was hungry. He was really to travel with a
circus, to become a part, as it were, of the whole,
and to be able to see its many wonderful and beautiful
attractions every day.
Even the very tent ropes had acquired
a new interest for him, and the faces of the men at
work seemed suddenly to have become those of friends.
How hard it was for him to walk around unconcernedly:
and how especially hard to prevent his feet from straying
toward that tempting display of dainties which he
was to sell to those who came to see and enjoy, and
who would look at him with wonder and curiosity!
It was very hard not to be allowed to tell his playmates
of his wonderfully good fortune; but silence meant
success, and he locked his secret in his bosom, not
even daring to talk with any one he knew, lest he should
betray himself by some incautious word.
He did not go home to dinner that
day, and once or twice he felt impelled to walk past
the candy stand, giving a mysterious shake of the
head at the proprietor as he did so. The afternoon
performance passed off as usual to all of the spectators
save Toby. He imagined that each one of the performers
knew that he was about to join them; and even as he
passed the cage containing the monkeys he fancied that
one particularly old one knew all about his intention
of running away.
Of course it was necessary for him
to go home at the close of the afternoon’s performance,
in order to get one or two valuable articles of his
own - such as a boat, a kite, and a pair of
skates - and in order that his actions might
not seem suspicious. Before he left the grounds,
however, he stole slyly around to the candy stand,
and informed Mr. Job Lord, in a very hoarse whisper,
that he would be on hand at the time appointed.
Mr. Lord patted him on the head, gave
him two large sticks of candy, and, what was more
kind and surprising, considering the fact that he
wore glasses, and was cross-eyed, he winked at Toby.
A wink from Mr. Lord must have been intended to convey
a great deal, because, owing to the defect in his
eyes, it required no little exertion, and even then
could not be considered as a really first-class wink.
That wink, distorted as it was, gladdened
Toby’s heart immensely, and took away nearly
all the sting of the scolding with which Uncle Daniel
greeted him when he reached home.
That night - despite the
fact that he was going to travel with the circus,
despite the fact that his home was not a happy or cheerful
one - Toby was not in a pleasant frame of
mind. He began to feel for the first time that
he was doing wrong; and as he gazed at Uncle Daniel’s
stern, forbidding-looking face, it seemed to have changed
somewhat from its severity, and caused a great lump
of something to come up in his throat as he thought
that perhaps he should never see it again. Just
then one or two kind words would have prevented him
from running away, bright as the prospect of circus
life appeared.
It was almost impossible for him to
eat anything, and this very surprising state of affairs
attracted the attention of Uncle Daniel.
“Bless my heart! what ails the
boy?” asked the old man, as he peered over his
glasses at Toby’s well-filled plate, which was
usually emptied so quickly. “Are ye sick,
Toby, or what is the matter with ye?”
“No, I hain’t sick,”
said Toby, with a sigh; “but I’ve been
to the circus, an’ I got a good deal to eat.”
“Oho, you spent that cent I
give ye, eh, an’ got so much that it made ye
sick?”
Toby thought of the six pea-nuts which
he had bought with the penny Uncle Daniel had given
him; and, amid all his homesickness, he could not
help wondering if Uncle Daniel ever made himself sick
with only six pea-nuts when he was a boy.
As no one paid any further attention
to Toby, he pushed back his plate, arose from the
table, and went with a heavy heart to attend to his
regular evening chores. The cow, the hens, and
even the pigs, came in for a share of his unusually
kind attention; and as he fed them all the big tears
rolled down his cheeks, as he thought that perhaps
never again would he see any of them. These dumb
animals had all been Toby’s confidants; he had
poured out his griefs in their ears, and fancied,
when the world or Uncle Daniel had used him unusually
hard, that they sympathized with him. Now he
was leaving them forever, and as he locked the stable
door he could hear the sounds of music coming from
the direction of the circus grounds, and he was angry
at it, because it represented that which was taking
him away from his home, even though it was not as
pleasant as it might have been.
Still, he had no thought of breaking
the engagement which he had made. He went to
his room, made a bundle of his worldly possessions,
and crept out of the back door, down the road to the
circus.
Mr. Lord saw him as soon as he arrived
on the grounds, and as he passed another ticket to
Toby he took his bundle from him, saying, as he did
so, “I’ll pack up your bundle with my things,
and then you’ll be sure not to lose it.
Don’t you want some candy?”
Toby shook his head; he had just discovered
that there was possibly some connection between his
heart and his stomach, for his grief at leaving home
had taken from him all desire for good things.
It is also more than possible that Mr. Lord had had
experience enough with boys to know that they might
be homesick on the eve of starting to travel with a
circus; and in order to make sure that Toby would
keep to his engagement he was unusually kind.
That evening was the longest Toby
ever knew. He wandered from one cage of animals
to another; then to see the performance in the ring,
and back again to the animals, in the vain hope of
passing the time pleasantly. But it was of no
use; that lump in his throat would remain there, and
the thoughts of what he was about to do would trouble
him severely. The performance failed to interest
him, and the animals did not attract until he had
visited the monkey-cage for the third or fourth time.
Then he fancied that the same venerable monkey who
had looked so knowing in the afternoon was gazing
at him with a sadness which could only have come from
a thorough knowledge of all the grief and doubt that
was in his heart.
There was no one around the cages,
and Toby got just as near to the iron bars as possible.
No sooner had he flattened his little pug-nose against
the iron than the aged monkey came down from the ring
in which he had been swinging, and, seating himself
directly in front of Toby’s face, looked at
him most compassionately.
It would not have surprised the boy
just then if the animal had spoken; but as he did
not, Toby did the next best thing, and spoke to him.
“I s’pose you remember
that you saw me this afternoon, an’ somebody
told you that I was goin’ to join the circus,
didn’t they?”
The monkey made no reply, though Toby
fancied that he winked an affirmative answer; and
he looked so sympathetic that he continued, confidentially,
“Well, I’m the same feller,
an’ I don’t mind telling you that I’m
awfully sorry I promised that candy man I’d go
with him. Do you know that I came near crying
at the supper table to-night; an’ Uncle Dan’l
looked real good an’ nice, though I never thought
so before. I wish I wasn’t goin’,
after all, ’cause it don’t seem a bit like
a good time now; but I s’pose I must, ‘cause
I promised to, an’ ’cause the candy man
has got all my things.”
The big tears had begun to roll down
Toby’s cheeks, and as he ceased speaking the
monkey reached out one little paw, which Toby took
as earnestly as if it had been done purposely to console
him.
“You’re real good, you
are,” continued Toby; “an’ I hope
I shall see you real often, for it seems to me now,
when there hain’t any folks around, as if you
was the only friend I’ve got in this great big
world. It’s awful when a feller feels the
way I do, an’ when he don’t seem to want
anything to eat. Now if you’ll stick to
me, I’ll stick to you, an’ then it won’t
be half so bad when we feel this way.”
During this speech Toby had still
clung to the little brown paw, which the monkey now
withdrew, and continued to gaze into the boy’s
face.
“The fellers all say I don’t
amount to anything,” sobbed Toby, “an’
Uncle Dan’l says I don’t, an’ I s’pose
they know; but I tell you I feel just as bad, now
that I’m goin’ away from them all, as if
I was as good as any of them.”
At this moment Toby saw Mr. Lord enter
the tent, and he knew that the summons to start was
about to be given.
“Good-bye,” he said to
the monkey, as he vainly tried to take him by the
hand again; “remember what I’ve told you,
an’ don’t forget that Toby Tyler is feelin’
worse to-night than if he was twice as big an’
twice as good.”
Mr. Lord had come to summon him away,
and he now told Toby that he would show him with which
man he was to ride that night.
Toby looked another good-bye at the
venerable monkey, who was watching him closely, and
then followed his employer out of the tent, among the
ropes and poles and general confusion attendant upon
the removal of a circus from one place to another.