So many of my dreams have come true,
that I sometimes incline to believe that dreams are
in reality the only truths. I fancy this dream,
at any rate, will be fulfilled.
A hard gale rushed over a torn sea,
and the drift was swept so that the moon was obscured
with every fresh gust. High overhead a clear,
steely sky was flecked here and there with fleecy
white, and, ever and again, the moon slipped her mantle
of cloud from her rounded shoulder, and looked around
her with large, calm glances. But there was an
evil-looking sky away to the eastward, and the black
wreaths ’of cloud crept steadily upward, obscuring
little by little the fair, glittering sky. The
swift waves gathered volume, and soon their hollows
were like great Panpipes through which the gale blew
with many doleful sounds. Everything to be seen
on sea or sky promised a wild night, and the powerful
schooner yacht which was charging along over the running
seas was already reefed down closely. Light bursts
of spray came aboard aft like flying whip-lashes,
and the man at the wheel stolidly shook his head as
the jets cut him. Right forward a slight sea sometimes
came over with a crash, but the vessel was in no trouble,
and she looked as if she could hold her own in a much
worse breeze. I believe that only poets and landsmen
are fond of bad weather; and the steersman occasionally
threw a demure, quizzical glance at a young girl who
was hanging on by one hand to the companion hatch.
The wind had heightened her colour, and the chance
gleams of the moon showed the girl’s face as
a flash of warm brightness in the chill dreariness
of the night. It was a strange place and strange
weather for a young lady to be out in, for the autumn
was far advanced, and the deadly gales might be expected
at any time; but this young person was in no way discomposed.
There was something almost weird in the sight of that
glowing young face, placid amid the fitful drifts;
the screaming gusts caught at tiny stray curls of her
dark hair; the vessel advanced with short plunges,
and the flashing broad stream went past with that
eerie moan which always makes me think of dire things.
The girl looked quietly forward, and it seemed as if
her spirit was unmoved by the tumult. She looked
almost stern, for her broad brows were a little bent,
but her mouth was firm and kindly, and her very impassivity
gave sign of even temper. I do not like the miniature
style of portrait-painting, so I shall not catalogue
the features of this girl in the orthodox fashion.
She would have drawn your eye in any crowd, for she
had that look of slight abstraction which always marks
those who are used at intervals to forget material
things; and the composed mouth and rather square chin
hinted at a certain capacity for practical affairs.
The storm stirred her blood, and she murmured at last,
“Terrors take hold on him as waters; a tempest
stealeth him away in the night. The east wind
carrieth him away, and he departeth; and as a storm
hurleth him out of his place.”
I would have ventured to tell you
a good deal about that young lady’s character,
had I never heard her speak another word. The
association, the choice of words, the sombre music
of the old English-all were enough to show
the bent of her mind.
At last she turned, and said, “When
do you think we shall sight them?”
The man at the wheel shouted, “Somewheres
towards midnight, Miss. We’re a-goin’
through it middling smart, and we can always draw on
them.”
Then the girl went below into the
warm glow of the saloon. A sweet-faced lady smiled
softly, and said, “Is it poetry to-night, or
a new scheme for regenerating everything?” The
tone was caressing and half-admiring, and the younger
lady’s still smile in reply was like a revelation;
it showed that she accepted banter, but was too serious
to return it. Marion Dearsley and her aunt, Mrs.
Walton, understood each other: the matron pretended
to laugh at her niece’s gravity, but the genuine
relation between the pair was that of profound mutual
confidence and fondness.
The soft gleam of the lamps showed
a very pleasant group in the roomy, comfortable saloon.
A stout, black-bearded man lounged carelessly on a
sofa, supporting himself with one huge hand as the
vessel kicked awkwardly. He looked as if he had
been born with a smile, and every line of his great
face was disposed so as to express vast contentment
and good-humour. You could not call him finely
bred, but when he observed, in terrific bass tones,
“Hah! Miss Dearsley, you have gazed on the
what’s-his-name; you love the storm; you find
it fahscinating-oh! fahscinating; ah! fahscinating!
I like an ignoble cabin and a pipe, but the what’s-his-name
is fahscinating-ah! fahscinating.”
His infectious good-humour was better than any graces.
Then his pride in his phrases was very fine to behold,
and he regarded his repetition of his sonorous adjective
as quite an original thing in the way of pure rhetoric.
Tom Lennard was by inheritance a merchant, by choice
a philanthropist; he was naturally religious, but
he could not help regarding his philanthropic work
as a great frolic, and he often scandalized reformers
of a more serious disposition. The excellent Joseph
Naylor, who was never seen to smile, and who was popularly
supposed to sleep in his black frock-coat and high
stock, once met Tom on a platform. When Tom was
introduced to the prim, beneficent Joseph his enthusiasm
overcame him; he brought his colossal paw down on
Mr. Naylor’s shoulder so that the poor man showed
signs of shutting up like a concertina inside the
frock-coat; he squeezed Joseph’s hand so fervently
that the poor victim looked like a dentist’s
patient, and Thomas roared like an amiable Bull of
Bashan, “Bah! Aw’m glad to see this
day, sir. To think we should meet at last!
Ah! fahscinating!-oh! fahscinating.”
Mr. Naylor bore the shock like a true
philosopher, but at home that evening he mildly observed,
“My dear, our new ally, Mr. Lennard, is most
friendly, most cordial, quite impressively cordial;
but do you know I should not like to sign a cheque
just now. His cordiality has had distinct effect
on my joints, and I wish really that his left hand
were lighter. Social intercourse can only be
carried on with difficulty when you feel as if a large
sack had fallen on you from the third floor of a warehouse.”
The good Joseph always drew back with
a timid air of maidenly modesty when Tom approached
him, and I quite sympathize with this bashfulness.
It has never been my fortune to exchange courtesies
with a large and healthy polar bear, so I cannot describe
the operation, but I should imagine that Tom’s
salute would aid one’s imagination.
This delightful rough diamond called
on Miss Dearsley to choose the lee side, and then
he addressed himself to a superb young fellow who was
leaning against the wainscot, and easily following
the pitching of the ship. “Look here, Ferrier,
you can’t find one bigot in this ship’s
company, but we’ve all had a lot of experience,
and we find that religion’s your only blasting-powder
to break up the ugly old rocks that we used to steer
among. We find that we must have a clear passage;
we fix our charge. Whoof! there you are; good
sailing-room; bee-yootiful-oh! fahscinating.”
“I quite follow you, and I sympathize
with you so far as I am concerned personally; but
when Fullerton persuaded me to come out I only thought
of the physical condition of your people, and that
is why I asked for Mr. Blair’s yacht so that
I might have a genuine, fair show. You see, I
fear I am wanting in imagination, and the sight of
physical pain touches me so directly, that I never
can spare a very great deal of sympathy for that obscure
sort of pain that I cannot see; I’m hand and
glove with you, of course, and I shall go through
with the affair to the finish; but you must doctor
the souls, and let me attend to the bodies for the
present.”
The speaker was a powerful, broad
fellow, with a kind of military carriage; his tall
forehead was crossed by soft lines of tranquil thought,
and he had the unmistakable look of the true student.
Lewis Ferrier came south to Cambridge after he had
done well at Edinburgh. He might have been Senior
Wrangler had he chosen, but he read everything that
he should not have read, and he was beaten slightly
by a typical examinee of the orthodox school.
Still, every one knew that Ferrier was the finest
mathematician of his year, and there was much muttering
and whispering in academic corners when he decided
at last to go in for medicine. He said, “I
want something practical,” and that was all the
explanation he ever gave to account for his queer change.
He took a brilliant medical degree, and he decided
to accept a professorship of Biology before attempting
to practise. His reasons for being out on the
North Sea in an autumn gale will come out by degrees.
A gentle-looking man stepped up to
Ferrier and laid a white hand on his arm. “We
shall never interfere with you in the least degree,
my dear Ferrier. We’ll take such help as
you can give. We need all we can get. When
you are fairly in the thick of our work you will perhaps
understand that we have vital need of religion to
keep us up at all. You can’t tell what
an appalling piece of work there is before us; but
I give you my word that if religion were not a vital
part of my being, if I did not believe that God is
watching every action and leading us in our blind
struggles, I should faint at my task; I should long
for extinction, though only cowards seek it of their
own accord.”
A quiet, short man broke in here.
He had sat smiling softly as the talk went on.
His face was gently humorous, and all the signs of
a placid and pure life were there. This smiling
philosopher said, “That’s right, Fullerton.
Ferrier’s like my old mare used to be in the
days when she was a little peacocky and fiery-she
always wanted to rush her journeys. She steps
soberly now. We’ll teach him something before
we’ve done with him. You know, my dear
boy, you must understand that the greater number of
these men are, well-uncultivated, do you
understand. They’re not so squalid, perhaps,
as Lapps or Esquimaux, but they’re mostly as
dense. We’ve fought hard for a long time,
and we’re making some headway; but we can do
little, and if we could not get at our men by religion
we couldn’t manage at all. I’ve brought
you into a queer country, and you must be prepared
for a pretty set of surprises. My sister and my
niece have been out before, and I persuaded Mrs. Walton
and Miss Dearsley to take a turn. As soon as
my people have got over their troubles we’ll
all make a dead set at you, you audacious young materialist
that you are.” Then John Blair smiled gently
once more, and there was a certain pride visible as
his sad eyes twinkled on his young favourite.
This company of kind folks were all
of the sort called evangelical, and they were bound
on a strange errand, the like of which had brought
one of the men out to sea many times before.
The yacht was now chasing one of the great North Sea
trawling fleets, and Fullerton’s idea was to
let the gallant young doctor see something of the
wild work that goes on among the fishing-boats when
the weather is ugly.
The dark, solemn young lady sat very
still while the men talked, and her face had that
air of intense attention which is so impressive when
it is not simulated. I think she was a spiritual
relative of Joan of Arc and Madame Roland. It
seems dreadful to say so, but I am not sure that she
would not have played Charlotte Corday’s part
had occasion arisen. In low, full tones she asked,
“Did no one ever work among the fishers before
Mr. Fullerton found them out?” “No one,
except the fellows who sold vile spirits, my dear,”
said Blair.
“Not a single surgeon?”
“Not one. That’s
why we decided to kidnap Ferrier. We want to give
him a proper school of surgery to practise in-genuine
raw material, and plenty of it, and you must help
us to keep him in order. Fancy his trying to
convert us; he’ll try to convert you next, if
you don’t mind!”
The girl paid no heed to the banter.
She went on as if in a reverie.
“It is enough to bring a judgment
on a nation, all the idle women and idle men.
Mamma told me that a brewer’s wife paid two thousand
pounds for flowers in one month. Why cannot you
speak to women?”
“We mustn’t blame the
poor ladies,” said Fullerton: “how
could they know? Plenty of people told them about
Timbuctoo, and Jerusalem, and Madagascar, and North
and South America, but this region’s just a trifle
out of the way. A lady may easily sign a cheque
or pack a missionary’s medicine-chest, but she
could not come out here among dangers and filth and
discomfort, and the men ashore are not much pluckier.
No; in my experience of English people I’ve
always found them lavish with their help, only you
must let them know what to help. There’s
the point.”
“And you’ve begun, dear Mr. Fullerton,
have you not?”
“Yes; but the end is far off.
We were so late-so late in beginning, and
I must pass away, and my place will know me no more;
and many and many another will pass away. Oh,
yes! we shall travel from gulf to gulf; but I think,
sometimes, that my soul will be here on the wild nights.
I must be near my men-my poor men!-and
I’ll meet them when their voyage is over.”
The enthusiast spoke solemnly, and
his queer diction somehow was not unbecoming or grotesque.
I suppose George Fox and Savonarola did not use quite
the ordinary language of their day and generation.
The doctor listened with a kind look
on his strong face, and when the dark young girl quietly
whispered “Amen!” our professor quite simply
repeated the word.
Tom Lennard had been going through
a most complicated series of acrobatic movements,
and he now broke in-
“Ah! Harry Fullerton, if
you’re not an angel, you’re pretty near
one. Ah! that eloquence is of the most-the
most-a kind of-ah! fahscinating-oh-h-h!
fahscinating! But I believe this vessel has a
personal spite against me, or else the sea’s
rising.”
“It is, indeed,” said
Mr. Blair, who had peeped out from the companion.
“We’re actually running up to the fleet,
and the rocket has gone up for them to haul trawls.
It looks very bad, very bad. You’re not
frightened, Mrs. Walton, I hope?”
The reserved, silent lady said-
“Oh, no! Marion and I seem
to take kindly to bad weather. I believe if she
could wear a sou’-wester she would hang on to
the rigging. It’s her combative instinct.
But I do hope there is no danger for the poor fishermen?”
Mr. Blair very quietly said-
“If their vessels were like
ours there would be no fear. We haven’t
an unsound rope or block, but many of the smacks are
shockingly ill-found, and one rope or spar may cost
a crew their lives if it’s faulty. The
glass has gone down badly, and we are in for a gale,
and a heavy one. But my ship would be quite comfortable
in the Bay of Biscay.”
A trampling on deck sounded.
“See if the ladies can look from the companion,”
said Tom Lennard. “The sight should be splendid.
You and I must shove on oilskins, Blair and see if
we can keep our legs.”
This was almost the end of the night’s
conversation. Those good mission-folks, as has
been seen, contrived to get on without saying either
clever things or bitter things, and persons who possess
the higher intellect may fancy that this was a sign
of a poor spirit. Perhaps; and yet I have read
somewhere that the poor in spirit may not fare so
very badly in the long run.