Ferrier was anything but a fatalist,
yet he had a happy and useful way of taking short
views of life. In times of extreme depression
he used to say to himself, “Things seem black
just now, but I know when I get over the trouble I
shall look over the black gap of misery and try to
imagine what is on the other side.” It
is a good plan. Many a suicide would have been
averted if the self-slain beings had chosen to take
a short view instead of harbouring visions of huge
banked-up troubles.
No young fellow was ever in a much
more awkward position than that of Ferrier. The
Haughty Belle smack, in spite of her highly
fashionable name, was one of the ramshackle tubs which
still contrive to escape the censure of the Board
of Trade; and Bill Larmor, the skipper, skilful as
he was, could not do himself justice in a craft that
wallowed like a soaked log. Then poor Withers,
the maimed man, was a constant care; all the labour
of two hands at the pumps was of little avail, and,
last of all, the unhappy little boy could hardly count
at all as a help.
But the bricklayer’s saying,
“It’s dogged as does it,” holds all
over the world, and brave men drive death and despair
back to their fastnesses. Ferrier thought, “I’m
all well except for the active inhabitants of the
cabin. They seem to be colonizing my person and
bringing me under cultivation; barring that I’m
not so ill off. If I can ease my patient, that
is something to the good.” So he claimed
the boy’s assistance for the night, and determined
to divide his time between soothing Withers and lending
a hand on deck. Skipper Larmor was composed,
as men of his class generally are; you rarely hear
them raise their voices, and they seldom show signs
of being flurried. As quietly as though he had
been wishing his passenger good evening, he said-
“We’re blowing away from
them, sir, and we can’t du much. I hope
the yacht will be able to stand by us. Later
on we’ll show them a few flares, and if things
get over and above bad I must send some rockets up.”
“I’m mainly anxious about
my man below. If we only had any kind of easy
mattress for him I should not be so anxious, but he’s
thrown about, and every bad jerk that comes wakes
him out of his doze. A healthy life-guardsman
would be helpless after one night like this!”
“As I said, sir; Lord, help
us; we must bear what’s sent.”
The Haughty Belle became more
and more inert, and the breeze grew more and more
powerful. The Mediterranean is like a capricious
woman; the North Sea is like a violent and capricious
man. The foredoomed smack was almost like a buoy
in a tideway; the sea came over her, screaming as
it met her resistance, like the back-draught among
pebbles. Ferrier found to his dismay that, even
if he wanted to render any assistance, he was too
much of a landsman to keep his feet in that inexorable
cataract, and he saw, too, that the vessel was gradually
rolling more and more to starboard. The pumps
were mastered, and even on deck the ugly squelch,
squelch of the mass of water below could be heard.
Every swing of that liquid pendulum smote on our young
man’s heart, and he learned, in a few short
hours, the meaning of Death.
Can a seaman be other than superstitious
or religious? The hamper of ropes that clung
round the mainmast seemed to gibber like a man in fever
as the gale threaded the mazes; the hollow down-draught
from the foresail cried in boding tones; it seemed
like some malignant elf calling “Woe to you!
Woe for ever! Darkness is coming, and I and Death
await you with cold arms.” Every timber
complained with whining iteration, and the boom of
the full, falling seas tolled as a bell tolls that
beats out the last minutes of a mortal’s
life. The Cockney poet sings-
“A cheer for the hard, glad weather,
The quiver and beat of the sea!”
Shade of Rodney! What does the
man know about it? If his joints were aching
and helpless with the “hardness,” he would
not think the weather so “glad”; if the
“beat of the sea” made every nerve of him
quiver with the agony of salt-water cracks, I reckon
he would want to go home to his bath and bed; and
if the savage combers gnashed at him like white teeth
of ravenous beasts, I take it that his general feelings
of jollity would be modified; while last of all, if
he saw the dark portal-goal of all mortals-slowly
lifting to let him fare on to the halls of doom, I
wager that poet would not think of rhymes. If
he had to work!-But no, a real sea poet
does not work.
Ferrier was a good and plucky man,
but the moments went past him, leaving legacies of
fear. Was he to leave the kindly world? Oh!
thrilling breath of spring, gladness of sunlight, murmur
of trees, gracious faces of women! Were all to
be seen no more? Every joyous hour came back
to memory; every ungrateful thought spoken or uttered
was now remembered with remorse. Have you looked
in the jaws of death? I have, and Ferrier did
so. When the wheels of being are twirling slowly
to a close, when the animal in us is cowed into stupor,
then the spirit craves passionately for succour; and
let a man be never so lightsome, he stretches lame
hands of faith and gropes, even though he seem to gather
but dust and chaff.
Roar on roar, volley on volley, sweep
on sweep of crying water-so the riot of
the storm went on; the skipper waited helplessly like
a dumb drudge, and a hand of ice seemed to clutch
at Ferrier’s heart.
He went down to see Withers and found
him patient as before.
“She du seem to have got a lot
of water in her, sir. I never felt quite like
this since once I was hove down. Say, here, sir.”
The man spoke with a husky voice.
“If so be you has to try the
boat, don’t you mind me. If you try to
shove me aboard you’ll lose your lives.
I’ve thought it round, and, after all, they
say it’s only three minutes.”
“But, my man, we won’t
leave you; besides, she’s not gone yet.
A tub will float in a seaway; why shouldn’t
the vessel?”
“I knows too much, sir, too
much. Excuse me, sir, have you done what they
call found Christ? I’m not much in that
line myself, but don’t you think maybe an odd
word wouldn’t be some help like in this frap?
I’m passin’ away, and I don’t want
to leave anything out.”
Lewis slipped up on deck and signed for Larmor.
“Our man wants to pray.
Don’t you think we may all meet? You can
do nothing more than let the vessel drift. Leave
one hand here ready to show a flare, and come down.”
“I don’t much understand it, sir; but Bob
and me will come.”
Then, knee deep in water, the forlorn
little company prayed together. I do not care
to report such things-it verges on vulgarism;
but I will tell you a word or two that came from the
maimed man. “O Lord, give me a chance if
you see fit; but let me go if any one is to go, and
save my commerades. I’ve been a bad ’un,
and I haven’t no right to ask nothing.
Save the others, and, if I have no chance in this world
of a better life, give me a look in before you take
me.”
Who could smile at the gruff, innocent
familiarity? A very great poet has said, “Consort
much with powerful uneducated persons.”
Fellows like Withers make one believe this.
The prayer was not, perhaps, intelligent;
but He who searches the hearts would rightly appraise
those words, “I’ve been a bad ’un.”
Ferrier felt lightened, and he shook hands with Larmor
before they once more faced the war of the night.
The fire was out, it was bitter chill,
yet hope was left – a faint sparkle-but
still a stay for the soul of the tempest-tossed men.
The climax of the breeze seemed approaching at four
o’clock; and, as Larmor said, “it couldn’t
be very much worse.” The skipper was then
hanging as he best could to the mizen rigging; Lewis
had his arms tightly locked on the port side round
the futtock shrouds, and was cowering to get clear
of the scourging wind. There was a wild shriek
forward.
“Water, skipper!”
Lewis looked up. There it was,
as high as the mast-head, compact as a wall, and charging
with the level velocity of a horse regiment. The
doctor closed his eyes and thought, “Now for
the grand secret.” Then came the immense
pressure-the convulsive straining, the failing
light, the noise in the ears. First the young
man found himself crushed under some strangling incubus;
then, with a shrieking gasp, he was in the upper air.
But he was under a hamper of ropes that strung him
down as if he were in a coop, and his dulled senses
failed for a moment to tell what ailed him. At
last, after seconds that seemed like ages, it dawned
on him; the masts had snapped like carrots, both were
over the side, and the hulk was only a half-sunken
plaything for the seas to hurl hither and thither.
Larmor? Gone! How long? These things
chased each other through his dim mind; he slipped
his arm out and crept clear; then a perception struck
him with the force of a material thing; a return wave
leaped up with a slow, spent lunge on the starboard
side, and a black something-wreckage?
No. A shudder of the torn nerves told the young
man what it was. He slid desperately over and
made his clutch; the great backwash seemed as though
it would tear his arm out of the socket, but he hung
on, and presently a lucky lift enabled him to haul
Larmor on board! All this passed in a few lying
instants, but centuries – aeons-could
not count its length in the anguish-stricken human
soul.
I once knew a sailor who was washed
through a port in a Biscay gale; the return sea flung
him on board again. I asked, “What did you
think?”
He answered, “I thought, ‘I’m overboard.’”
“And when you touched deck again, what did you
think?”
“I thought, ‘Blowed if I’m not aboard
again.’”
“Did the time seem long?”
“Longer than all my lifetime.”
Not more than half a minute had passed
since the hulk shook herself clear, but Larmor and
Lewis had lived long. The doctor took out the
handy flask and put it to the skipper’s lips;
the poor man’s eyes were bright and conscious,
but his jaw hung. He pointed to his chin, and
the doctor knew that the blow of falling mast or wreckage
had dislocated the jaw.
In all the wide world was there such
another drama of peril and tenor being enacted?
Lewis’s hands almost refused their office; he
was unsteady on his legs, but he gathered his powers
with a desperate effort of the will, and set the man’s
jaw. “Stop, stop! You mustn’t
speak. Wait.” With a dripping handkerchief
and his own belt Ferrier bound Larmor’s jaw
up; then for the first time he looked for the fellows
forward.
Both gone! Oh! friends who trifle
cheerily with that dainty second course, what does
your turbot cost? Reckon it up by rigid arithmetic,
and work out the calculation when you are on your knees
if you can. All over the North Sea that night
there were desolate places that rang to the cry of
parting souls; after vain efforts and vain hopes, the
drowning seamen felt the last lethargy twine like a
cold serpent around them; the pitiless sea smote them
dumb; the pitiless sky, rolling over just and unjust,
lordly peer and choking sailor, gave them no hope;
there was a whole tragedy in the breasts of all those
doomed ones-a tragedy keen and subtle as
that enacted when a Kaiser dies. You may not
think so, but I know. Forlorn hope of civilization,
they met the onset of the sea and quitted themselves
like men; and, when the proud sun rose at last, the
hurrying, plundering, throbbing, straining world of
men went on as usual; the lovers spoke sweet words;
the strong man rejoiced exceedingly in his strength;
the portly citizen ordered his fish for dinner, and
the dead fishermen wandered hither and thither in the
dark sea-depths, their eyes sealed with the clammy
ooze.
That is an item in the cost of fish
which occurs to a prosaic arithmetician.
Lewis Ferrier had certainly much the
worst so far in his defensive battle with wind and
wave. Here was a landsman on a swept hulk with
a dumb captain, a maimed man; two hands overboard,
and a boy as the available ship’s company.
Never mind. He got Larmor below, and the dogged
skipper made signs by hissing and moving his fist swiftly
upward. “The rockets?” Larmor nodded,
and pointed to a high locker. Lewis found the
rockets easily enough; he also found a ginger-beer
bottle full of matches; but of what use would matches
be in that torrent of blown spray? The cabin
was worse awash than ever, and there was no possibility
of making a fire. Ferrier felt in his inside breast
pocket. Ah! the tin box of fusees was there-all
dry and sound inside. He beckoned Larmor, and
signed to him expressively; then he crouched under
the hatch and pressed the flaming ball to the root
of the rocket. One swing, and the rushing messenger
was through the curtain of drift, and away in the
upper air. Larmor clapped his poor hands and bowed
graciously. Two minutes, three minutes, five
minutes they waited; no reply came. With steadiness
born of grim despair the doctor sent away another rocket.
With fiercely eager eyes he and Larmor strove to pierce
the lashing mist, and then!-oh, yes, the
long crimson stream flew, wavered in the gale, and
broke into scattered star-drift. Larmor and the
doctor put their arms round each other and sobbed.
Then they told poor death-like Withers, and his wan
eyes flickered with the faint image of a smile.
Ferrier gave him the remainder of the wine, and the
helpless seaman patted his benefactor’s hand
like a pleased child.
The gale dropped as suddenly as it
had risen, but it left an immense smooth sea behind,
for the whole impetus of two successive breezes had
set the surface water hurling along, and it mostly
takes a day to smooth the tumult down.
To say that the Haughty Belle
was in danger would be to put the matter mildly; the
wonder was that she did not settle sooner. The
only hope was that the wind might bring the signalling
vessel down before it fell away altogether.
Larmor pointed to the boat (which
had remained sound for a mercy), and the doctor saw
that he wanted her got ready. He sung out to the
boy, “Ask Withers to steady himself the best
way he can, and you come up and tell me how to clear
the boat.” Only one of the wire ropes needed
to be thrown off; then the boy squeaked shrilly, “Make
the painter fast to a belaying-pin for fear a sea
lifts the boat over,” and then Ferrier was satisfied.
His strength was like the strength of madness, and
he felt sure that he could whirl the boat over the
side himself without the aid of the falls. His
evolutions while he was working on the swashing deck
were not graceful or dignified, but he was pleased
with himself; the fighting spirit of Young England
was roused in him, and, in spite of numbing cold,
the bite of hunger, and all his bruises, he sang out
cheerily, “Never mind, skipper; I’ll live
to be an old salt yet.”
Only one quarter of an hour passed,
and then a vessel came curtseying gracefully down.
“What’s that?” shouted Ferrier.
Larmor pointed to the questioner.
“Do you mean it’s the yacht?”
The skipper nodded. The doctor
would have fallen had he not brought all his force
to bear; the strain was telling hard, and soon Lewis
Ferrier’s third stage of education was too be
completed.
The schooner swam swiftly on, like
a pretty swan. Ah! sure no ship come to bear
the shipwrecked men to fairyland could have seemed
lovelier than that good, solid yacht. Right alongside
she came, on the leeward quarter of the hulk. Four
ladies were on deck.
“Ah! the invalid ghosts are
up. That ship hasn’t suffered very much,”
said Lewis.
When Tom Lennard caught sight of Ferrier
he gathered his choicest energies together for the
production of a howl. This vocal effort is stated
by competent critics to have been the most effective
performance ever achieved by the gifted warbler.
He next began a chaste but somewhat too vigorous war-dance,
but this original sign of welcome was soon closed
by a specially vindictive roll of the vessel, and Thomas
descended to the scuppers like another Icarus.
Ah! blessed sight! The boat,
the good, friendly faces of the seamen; and there,
in the stern sheets, the pallid, spiritual face of
Henry Fullerton, looking, as Ferrier thought, like
a vision from a stormless world of beatified souls.
“Two of you men must come and help to lug my
patient up.”
Could you only have seen that gallant
simpleton’s endurance of grinding pain, and
his efforts to suppress his groans, you would have
had many strange and perhaps tender thoughts.
Mr. Blair was watching the operations from the yacht,
and he said-
“Yes, Lennard, the doctor is
right; we need a hospital here. Look at that
poor bundle of agonies coming over the side. How
easy it would be to spare him if we only had the rudiments
of proper apparatus here! Yes, we must have a
hospital.”
Tom answered: “Yes, and
look at the one with the head broken. He’ll
suffer a bit when he jumps.”
And indeed he did, but he bore the
jar like the Trojan that he was-the good,
simple sea-dog.
“Hurry away now, all. I
wouldn’t give the poor old Belle another
half-hour,” said the mate.
In a minute or two the cripples were
safe, and Ferrier was in the power of Blair and Lennard,
who threatened to pull his bruised arms away.
The two gentlemen pretended to be in an uproarious
state of jollity, and to hear them trying to say,
“Ha! ha!” like veritable war-horses, while
the tears rolled down their cheeks, was a very instructive
experience.
And now I must speak of a matter which
may possibly offend the finer instincts of a truly
moral age. Mrs. Walton totally forgot matronly
reserve; she stepped up to Mr. Ferrier, and, saying,
“My brave fellow” (it is a wicked world,
and I must speak truth about it)-yes, she
said, “My brave fellow!” and then she
kissed him! Blair’s sister, Mrs. Hellier,
was more Scotch in accent than her brother, and she
crowned the improprieties of this most remarkable
meeting by giving the modest young savant two
kisses-I am accurate as to the number-and
saying, “My bonny lad, you needn’t mind
me; I have three sons as big as yourself.”
Then the battered hero was welcomed by two joyous girls,
and the young Scotch niece said, “We fairly
thought you were gone, Mr. Ferrier, and all of us
cried, and Miss Dearsley worst of all.”
Half dazed, starving, weary to the edge of paralysis,
the young doctor staggered below, ate cautiously a
little bread and milk, bathed himself, and ended this
phase of his lesson with an ecstatic stretch on a
couch that was heavenly to his wrenched limbs.
Before he sank over into the black sleep of exhausted
men, he saw Henry Fullerton’s beautiful eyes
bent on him. The evangelist patted the young
doctor’s shoulder and said, “God has sent
a sign to show that you are a chosen worker; you durst
not reject it; you have gone through the valley of
the shadow of death, and you must not neglect the
sign lest you displease the One who made you His choice.
I’ve heard already what the men say about you.
Now sleep, and I’ll bring you some soup when
you wake.”
Like all the men who move the world,
Fullerton was a practical man doubled with a mystic.
A mystic who has a wicked and supremely powerful intellect
may move the nations of men and dominate them-for
a time-yes, for a time. Your Napoleon,
Wallenstein, Strafford have their day, and the movement
of their lips may at any time be the sign of extinction
for thousands; the murder-shrieks of nations make the
music that marks their progress; strong they are and
merciless. But they lean on the sword; they pass
into the Night, leaving no soul the better for their
tremendous pilgrimage.
But the good mystic plants influences
like seed, and the goodly growths cover the waste
places of the earth with wealth of fruit and glory
of bloom. I think of a few of the good mystics,
and I would rather be one of them than rule over an
empire. Penn, George Fox, and General Gordon-these
are among the salt of the earth.
So the young man slept on, and the
good folk who had come through peril as well, talked
of him until I think his dreams must have been coloured
with their praises. The wounded seamen were carefully
bestowed, and Tom Betts crawled out to greet them.
When Marion went down to see Withers,
she said, “I was so grieved to see how you had
to be thrown about; but never mind, I have made up
my mind that very few more men shall suffer like that.
Now sleep, and the doctor shall see you when he has
rested-at least, I know he will.”
Then Withers took Miss Dearsley’s
hand in his brown, ragged, cracked paw, and kissed
it-which is offence number three against
the proprieties. But then you know the soldiers
used to kiss Florence Nightingale’s shadow!
Didn’t they?