“Well, Daffydowndilly, what
is on your mind?” began Grace when the last
gay good-night had sounded and Arline had closed the
door of her dainty blue and white room.
“Let’s get comfy first.
I can talk a great deal better.” Arline
began a listless unfastening of her fluffy lingerie
frock, her eyes fixed moodily on Grace.
“All right.” Grace
had already divested herself of her gown of soft white
China silk and was now seated before the dressing table
energetically brushing her wealth of golden brown hair.
Nothing more was said until, with
a little fluttering sigh, Arline had curled up like
a kitten at Grace’s feet, her golden head resting
against her friend’s knee. Smiling tenderly
down on her, Grace could not help noting how utterly
like a tired child she looked in her baby-blue negligee.
“Now is the time for all good Sempers and true
to come to the aid of their comrades,” she encouraged
with a smile.
“Grace,” Arline lifted
solemn blue eyes, “have you ever for one minute
been sorry that you gave up your work for for the
sake of love?”
“No.” Grace shook
a decided head. Inwardly she wondered a little
at the question. “It took me a long time
to come to a decision, though,” she added frankly.
“Would you mind telling me about
it?” Arline flushed as she made the request.
“Please don’t think me prying, but ”
She hesitated. “Well, I have a strong reason
for asking. It would help me, I think, if you
cared to give me your confidence.”
For a moment Grace made no response.
Aside from her most intimate Oakdale friends and Emma
Dean she had never divulged to any one else the story
of that last year of struggle against love which had
ended in her unconditional surrender to it. To
her it was as something bitter-sweet, to be locked
in her memory for all time. Yet the wistfulness
of Arline’s appeal touched her deeply.
“I am willing to tell you about
it,” she said slowly. “You know, of
course, that Tom Gray and I had known each other almost
from childhood. We grew up together as good comrades.
We were always together during vacations with our
six other friends. His aunt, Mrs. Gray, whom you
know, was fond of having us with her. It never
entered my head that Tom cared for me in more than
a friendly way, until I came home from Overton at
the end of my junior year. When I began to understand
that he really loved me, I didn’t like it at
all. As I grew older I liked the idea still less.
I wanted to work; not marry Tom. He asked me to
marry him the next winter, but I said ‘no,’
After that I kept on saying ‘no,’ and
last winter we threshed the matter out soon after Anne’s
wedding.
“I felt very well pleased with
myself for a while. Then things went wrong at
Overton and Tom joined a naturalist on an expedition
to South America. Right then it came to me that
I had suddenly met with a dreadful loss. I tried
to make myself believe that I didn’t care.
While I was at home during the Easter vacation I woke
up. But it was too late. I went back to
Overton, but I wasn’t happy. He had often
told me that there would come a time when not even
my work could crowd out love. I knew that the
time had come. I had had some trouble with Miss
Wharton, the dean, and expecting to be asked to resign
my position at Harlowe House. I resigned of my
own accord. It was Kathleen West who straightened
out that tangle for me. She sent for Miss Wilder,
who happened to be coming home just at that time.
My resignation wasn’t accepted, and I would
perhaps have gone on for another year at Overton,
but ” Grace paused, her fine face
grew tender. “Tom came back,” she
continued, a faint tremor in her even tones, “and
so I gladly gave up my work for love. That’s
the whole story. I never expected to tell it to
any one. Somehow it has always been sacred to
me. I couldn’t bear to talk of it, even
to Mother.”
“It’s a wonderful story.
When I asked you about giving up work for love, I
never dreamed that you had gone through with any such
struggle. I feel as though I’ve intruded
on very private property. But just knowing about
it has comforted me.” Arline raised
her head from Grace’s knee with sudden energy.
“It’s this way, Grace. I have almost
decided to break my engagement.”
“Why, Arline Thayer!”
Amazement was written on Grace’s features.
“I am sorry to hear that. Until to-night
I had thought of you as being absolutely happy.”
“I’m not. I’m
dreadfully unhappy.” Arline drew a quick,
almost sobbing breath. “You’ve never
met Stanley Forde, my fiance, so you don’t know
how handsome he is and how nice he can be if
he chooses. But he’s turning out a a well,
a kind of tyrant. He doesn’t like me to
do settlement work. I’ve always thought
he wasn’t very highly pleased over it, but he
never said a word until the other night. Even
then he didn’t say much. But, as Elfreda
says, ‘I can see’ that if I marry him he’s
going to say more about it afterward. Then we’ll
quarrel and that would be dreadful. I could never
endure it. You know how I hate quarrels.
At college I never had anything to say to or do with
the girls who were trouble-makers. What am I
to do, Grace? Break my engagement while there
is still time or or ” Arline
subsided with a little sob.
“Poor Daffydowndilly.”
Bending, Grace wound her arms about the dainty, child-like
figure. “It’s a hard problem hard
because I suppose you must care a great deal for him.”
“I think I must love him, or
I wouldn’t wish to marry him,” came the
muffled reply. “Still I won’t give
up my work. Those poor settlement children need
me. He can’t understand that. He knows
nothing of what it means to be terribly poor.
He doesn’t like the idea of my coming into such
close contact with them. It doesn’t hurt
me and it helps them,” ended Arline piteously.
“One who knows you well should
understand that you are doing worthy work,”
returned Grace gravely. “Still if I were
you I would not act too hastily. It seems to
me that you ought to come to a frank understanding
of the matter with your fiance at once.”
“And if he refuses to allow
me ” broke in Arline quickly.
“Then you must decide within
yourself whether he is worth the sacrifice,”
Grace answered with deep positiveness. Privately
she did not consider that a young man, who took it
upon himself to interfere with an enterprise which
benefited many and harmed none, was quite worthy of
her generous little comrade. “It’s
like this, Arline. You must be true to yourself,
no matter what it may cost you. Even your fiance’s
love won’t make up for having failed some one
else in order to keep it. What does your father
think of it?”
“Oh, he doesn’t know,”
came the quick response. “He is very fond
of Stanley. He is pleased with our engagement.
Still he has always been interested in my work.
But I’d rather fight it out alone. If I
were some day to go to him and say, ‘I have
broken my engagement,’ he would be dreadfully
disappointed, but not angry. That’s just
the trouble. I’ve always done exactly as
I pleased. It’s hard now to think of doing
what some one else dictates. Sometimes I feel
that I love Stanley a great deal; then again I feel
differently about it. I’m really in a terrible
muddle. I wish I were just Daffydowndilly back
at good old Overton again.”
“I wouldn’t stay in a
muddle then,” advised practical Grace. “I’d
settle matters once and for all, and whichever way
I might decide, I’d make myself believe that
it was for the best. But first of all I’d
be very sure that love was love.” She had
reached the wise conclusion that true love and Arline
were as yet strangers.
“I can’t say anything
to Stanley just now. He’s in Oregon and
won’t be back until the last of August.
I don’t care to write him. I must wait
until I see him. But I shall think over all you’ve
said and try very hard to be true to myself.”
Arline rose and standing beside Grace slid a loving
arm about her neck. “I knew you could help
me,” she said. “I feel ever so much
better. Now I mustn’t keep you any longer.
Thank you, Loyalheart. You’ve been very
sweet to poor, muddled Daffydowndilly.”
“You are a dear child and deserve
the best that life can give you.” Grace
returned the gentle embrace with a tenderness that
bespoke unutterable regard. It hurt her to know
that gay, light-hearted Arline Thayer who had always
appeared to slip through life so smoothly, should
have run against an ugly snag.
Long after they had said good-night,
Grace lay looking out at the calm moonlight and pondering
over the great changes that less than a year had brought
her. Her own happiness so complete, she longed
for the whole world to be happy with her. Her
ever-ready sympathy went out to all those in it whose
difficult love-problems tended toward renunciation.
She wished whole-heartedly that she might waken to
the sunlight of a day when she could say joyfully
and with supreme truth: “All’s right
with the world.”