“That day is a day of wrath-a
day of clouds
and thick darkness.-The
Bible.
“India!” repeated Leonie, “India!”
She flung round towards the sea, standing
on the very edge of the cliff, the violence of the
wind against her the only barrier between her and
certain death.
“Tell me,” she cried,
pointing to the heaving, raging mass of waters with
a hand above which shone dully a blood-soaked bandage.
“Tell me what I did to myself down there just
now. I awoke in a different place from which
I went to sleep. I had no-I am cut
and bruised. Terrible things happen wherever
I am-they follow me. I woke one night
in a pitch dark room and saw two green eyes staring
at me from the wall. They were my eyes-reflected in a looking-glass-mine-they
shine at night like a cat’s-and there’s
a voice calling-often. Oh! I
tell you I’m haunted, bewitched, cursed!”
“Come to me, beloved.”
She turned and went like a child into
the outstretched arms, and he, having wet his handkerchief
on the mist-damped grass, bent the weary head back
against his shoulder, and wiped away the blood-stains
from the despairing face.
“You walk in your sleep, Leonie,
by reason of the workings of an overwrought brain,
that is all. India is the problem, and your ayah
is the answer. I think she frightened you
somehow, made some deep impression on you, on your
baby brain, and we are going to India to find her.
It’s very simple, dear, once find the cause
we can easily find the remedy, and it will be much
better if you come with me. By the way, who
gave you that cat’s-eye?”
He had made a slip.
“When did you see it?”
answered Leonie quickly, “I never showed it to
you! Were-were you down there
near me, before you called?”
“No,” steadily lied the
man, “but the thing slipped through your blouse
one day-it’s a brute. Who gave
it to you?”
“My ayah! Do you know,
I think you are quite wrong about her. Auntie
says Mother told her that she nearly broke her heart
when I left India, seventeen years ago, and she writes
to me regularly every three months. Only last
week I had a letter from-
“Do you speak Hindustani?”
interrupted Cuxson abruptly, with a frown on his face.
“Not a word!”
“Or Sanskrit?”
“Oh! no, neither, but the letters
are in English, evidently written by one of those
letter writers, who get so much for each letter they
write for the illiterate poor. And in every
one she says how she loves me and longs for my return,
and although she is very happy in the service of some
Ranee in the north of India, she wants to give it up
and come to me.”
There was a pause, broken by the nearing
thunder and the crash of the waves against the cliffs.
“Don’t let’s worry
about that yet, dear, as everything is settled splendidly
and-
But Leonie pulled away and stood facing
him with her hands in his against his heart.
“Do you really love me?”
The whisper was almost lost in the tumult of the breakers
beneath.
“Love you, Leonie, love you!”
“What would you forgive me through love?”
“Forgive you! Everything!
Dishonour could not touch you, and everything else
I should forgive!”
Leonie tried to speak as she looked
past him to the little green track between the downs
which led to the world, and all it contained for her;
and he, obtuse male, content in the plans he had mapped
out entirely to his own satisfaction, and having blissfully
taken the girl’s consent to the programme for
granted, failed to read the agony written across her
face in capital letters.
“Tell me that you will be content,
dear. I’m rich enough, but nothing compared
with-oh! tell me, what do you like-what
do you want-what do you really care
for!”
She freed her hands and turned to
look out to sea, where the day had been born in agony
upon a bed of sullen, unbroken water.
Then she looked straight down at the
waves flinging themselves against the cliffs, drenching
her with spray, moaning, fretting at the barrier,
retiring only to do the same thing over and over again.
“What do I want, O Man whom
I love? I want a white house within high, white
walls, on the edge of the sea. I want my arms
full of children-yours and mine.
I want love, oh! love and yet more love, that is what
I want!”
The man twisted her round and held
her at arms’ length, her heels within an inch
of the edge, her body bent back over the chasm, and
her hair, spreading like a banner in the tearing wind,
swept about his shoulders and across his face, intoxicating
him with its perfume and silken caress.
Passion swept over him, he shook her
like a reed, and her foot slipped off the earth into
nothingness.
But not a word said she, though she
prayed that he might suddenly let go his hold and
send her crashing to sweet death on the rocks beneath.
You see what happens when you are
decent and honest and have a mind to keep your word-just
death rather than dishonour, and pain to others.
Whereas if only she had been dishonest,
and therefore commonplace, she would either have chucked
her given word to the devil, or the deep grey sea
over which she stood, and cleared for her own happiness
and a marriage licence; or kept her word in one sense
while making deedy little plans of triangular pattern
for future reference.
“Is that what you want, oh!
heart of mine?” said Jan Cuxson, exulting in
the sensation that his hands alone held her metaphorically
and actually safe from the depths beneath. “And
that is what I am going to give you, beloved, and
more, much more in exchange for the treasure you will
put into my hands. Oh! Leonie, my love-
And yet he did not kiss her, but pulled
her farther inland and let her go as she essayed to
free herself, having come to the absolute breaking
point.
What a wooing!
The copper coloured clouds were massed
above and about them, the trees bent and straightened
and bent again before the wind, the sea heaved in
huge unbroken waves right to the horizon; Lundy Island,
Hartland, and Baggy Point had disappeared in a driving
sheet of rain.
How beautiful she looked as she stood
in the storm, cut, bruised and dishevelled.
Just for one moment she looked into
the eyes of the man she loved, whose hands were outstretched
for the treasures she could not lay therein; and then
she turned and fled as a great streak of lightning
rent the clouds, and thunder like heavy artillery crashed
about their heads.
She had not gone twenty yards when
she stumbled and fell heavily.
Her boots were being hurled here and
there by the waves in the cove where she had left
them; her left foot was cut and bleeding badly, but
a sudden desperate courage came to her when she felt
herself raised and steadied.
“I shall carry you to the foot
of the hill near your cottage!”
She struggled as he lifted her, struggled
so violently that he put her on her feet.
“Don’t touch me, Jan,
don’t come near me, because I-because-
And the mantle of his satisfaction
and content being suddenly rent into a thousand shreds
by the knife edge of his intuition, he put both hands
on her shoulders, looked down into the misery of her
eyes, and very gently said one word.
“Because?”
“Because,” and she began
to laugh without making any sound, her mouth twitching,
her shoulders shaking, “because I am to be married
to-day at noon!”
“To-day! but you said-
“I lied.”
“You lied-to me!”
She made a little sound which reminded
him of an animal agonising in a trap, whilst the fury
of his own pain drove him to hurt her even more.
Why-lie?”
“Why?” her eyes blazed
as she defied the storm, her hell and fate. “Why?-because
I love you, because I love you so much that I wanted
to cheat life out of one month of happiness.
And I have had it-I have had it-and
I love you-
She flung her hands up to the stormy
skies and brought them down, clenched against her
breast. “I love you, God hear me,
I love you!”
And with a terrible cry that went
wailing out to sea she fled away through the lash
of the blinding storm.