The next morning, when the mother
lay still and pale on her bed, Erick woke up; Marianne,
who had watched for his wakening, came to his couch
and said:
“Dear Erick, your mother has
gone, last night, to heaven, and now she feels very
happy, and looks down on you and watches to see whether
you stay good and honest so that sometime you may
come to her.”
First he had answered quite quietly:
“Yes, I know, Mother has told me that it would
come so.” But when he went to his mother
and looked at her for a long, long time and she did
not open her eyes, then he sat down on a footstool
and cried quietly. As long as his mother lay there
he could not be made to leave her, and when she was
carried out, then he sat down in the spot where she
always had sat, and did not go away the whole day.
But he was quite still, and although he wept, he did
it so quietly that no sound could be heard.
The day after the officials had been
there and Marianne had taken Erick from the empty
room upstairs to her little home, she thought that
it would be best if he were to go to school and again
come in contact with other children, so that he might
become happy again and make a little noise with them;
for this quiet weeping seemed sadder to Marianne than
if he had sobbed aloud. So she told him on that
morning, that it would be best for him if he were
to go to school. In an instant Erick obeyed,
took out his books, packed them in his bag and started
on his way to school. So it went on from day
to day, and gradually it seemed to Marianne that Erick
grew more and more as he used to be; but the sunny,
joyous face which he used to have had not yet returned,
and something like shyness had come to him, which
never before had been noticed in him. It seemed
as if a safe, strong wall, which formerly had protected
him, had fallen down, and as though he looked for the
first time on things and people which surrounded him
and which were strange to him. The safe wall
had been the great love of his mother, which had encircled
him everywhere.
Two weeks had passed since Erick had
again gone to school. When lessons were over,
he had never waited until the scholars of the Middle
Lot had gathered to make a noisy journey home, but
he had run away at once and had walked the long way
alone. When he came home, he found his piece of
bread and his cup of milk ready on the table if Marianne
was not there to give it to him. When she was
there, she often said: “Go out a little
to play with the children, Erick, it will be good for
you and you will have time afterwards to do your lessons.”
Erick had always gone out, as far as the hedge before
the house, and had stopped and watched how here and
there the children were running about and playing all
kinds of games; but he had never joined them.
So also today, he stood there and
looked with surprised eyes across at the freshly mown
meadow, where a crowd of Middle Lot children were
playing with much noise “Catch me if you can.”
Big Churi was running after Kaetheli and as she knew
what heavy blows from those big fists would fall upon
her back if she should be caught, she rushed over the
field toward the hedge and into Marianne’s little
garden, almost throwing down Erick on her way.
At this instant the quick-running Churi would have
caught Kaetheli; but quick as a deer, Erick rushed
forth, opened his arms wide and so stopped Churi until
Kaetheli had shot around the cottage, fleet as an
arrow, and again to her goal on the meadow, where
she could get her breath without fear of being caught.
Churi grumbled: “Another
time you leave me alone, or-” With
this he shook his fist at Erick and then ran away,
for he hoped to catch Kaetheli before she should reach
her goal. When the latter had rested a little
she came running back again, for she indeed had felt
Erick’s chivalrous service and she was very
grateful to him. She therefore could not see
him standing so alone, but ran up to him and said cheeringly:
“Come and play with us, you must not always stand
so alone, that is lonesome.”
“No,” said Erick, “I
cannot play with you. I do not want to shout so
terribly.”
“You need not scream, that does
not belong to the game. Come along!” Saying
this, Kaetheli took Erick’s hand firmly in hers
and pulled him along.
Erick played with the rest, and now
he had begun he played with all his might. They
had stopped the game of “Catch” and were
playing a circle game. The children had formed
a large circle and held each other’s hands.
In the middle of the circle stood the excluded child.
This child had to strike someone’s hand at random
and then there was a race around the circle to see
who would first get in the open space inside.
This game was played with the greatest zeal; but suddenly
Erick pulled his hands away from his neighbors’
and ran away, so that great confusion arose.
“We will not let him play any
more,” cried Churi, much angered.
“Indeed we will,” maintained
Kaetheli firmly, “perhaps a wasp has stung him,
or perhaps they play the same game where he used to
live. When he returns he can take my hand.
Now we will go on.”
So it was done, and soon after they
were playing again with great glee, and Erick was
forgotten.
Not far from their playground stood
a blind man with a barrel-organ playing his melodies.
When Erick had heard the first notes, he had freed
himself and had run away. Now he stood at a little
distance from the organ grinder and listened with
strained attention to all the melodies. When
the man left, the boy went quietly toward the cottage,
and when Marianne saw him come, she said to herself:
“I had hoped that the children would make him
merry again, and now it seems to me that he is sadder
than he was before.”
From that time on Kaetheli looked
every evening, when the games began, to see whether
Erick was standing near the hedge, and when she saw
him there she ran to get him. Erick now played
every day with the children and when he was in the
spirit of the game, he looked quite happy. But
almost every evening the same thing occurred as on
the first. In the midst of the game Erick stopped,
ran away and did not return. Once a number of
wandering journeymen had passed by; they had sung loud
and joyously their wander-songs, one after the other.
Away was Erick, and one could see him far away, quietly
following the singing men. Once trumpet blasts
sounded across the meadow to the playing children-for
one of Middle Lot was with the players in the army
and was practising his marches-at once
Erick ran away in the direction of the sounds.
Another time a boy with a harmonica had approached
the playing children; it was Erick’s turn just
then to seek the hiders, but threatenings and pleadings
were of no avail, he did not seek any more. He
placed himself in front of the boy and listened to
him; there he remained standing and did not stir.
Churi in his hiding-place was about
to burst with anger because Erick stopped seeking.
He had hoped that Erick would exhaust himself looking
for him, for Churi had climbed up the high pear-tree
which stood in the centre of their playground, and
from there he could overlook Erick’s inactivity
and his stubborn resistance to being moved. Kaetheli
too had become impatient, for in the farthest corner
of the goat-shed, whither she had crawled, she felt
herself secure from being found, and now, all at once,
she discovered that there was no more seeking, and
she could easily guess the cause. With a good
deal of trouble she crawled out again, with many signs
of her hiding-place on her dress for she had been
obliged to sit crouched. She ran to Erick, who
was still in the same spot, near the harmonica player.
“I should like to know what
is the matter with you,” she called out.
“Every evening, just when we have the greatest
fun, all at once you run away like a hare, or you
stand there like a statue and let everything go as
it will. But that will not do! Come and seek
us. But first I must hide again.”
The tones of the harmonica had just
stopped and the boy had gone. Erick took a deep
breath and said: “I cannot play any more.
I must go home.”
He turned away and went; but that
annoyed Kaetheli. She ran after him and talked
angrily at him. “That is not nice of you,
Erick; you need not have done that. You have
spoiled the game now four or five times-that
is surely not kind of you, do you think it is?”
They had by this time arrived at Marianne’s
cottage. Erick stopped at the hedge and turned
round. He said, quite friendly: “Do
not be angry, Kaetheli, you see I have to act so.”
“Yes, but why? Tell me
now, what you do and why you have to spoil everything?”
demanded Kaetheli, rather huffed, for she could not
yet get over the fact that she had crawled all for
nothing into the incomparable hiding-place in the
goat-shed.
“I will tell you, Kaetheli,
for you must not think that I purposely spoil everything
for you. I did not think of that,” said
Erick, excusing himself. “Do you see, there
is a beautiful song which my mother sang every day,
and also on the last day, and I should so much like
to hear that song again. But no one sings it,
and I may listen wherever I like, I hear only other
things. Oh, if I could only hear that song again,
just once!”
Now Kaetheli saw how Erick’s
eyes filled with big tears, and in an instant her
anger turned into pity. “You must not be
sad on that account, for I can help you,” she
said readily. “I know so many songs; tell
me what the name of yours is, then I will say it to
you right away.”
“I try to remember it all the
time, but I cannot get the words together; but I remember
well the melody. Do you think you could guess
the words, if I sing the melody?”
“Of course I can, you just sing
on,” encouraged Kaetheli, with confidence.
Erick sang a line, and then another,
and still a bit, then he could not go further.
Kaetheli, surprised, shook her head. “I
never have heard that song, but perhaps we sing it,
only a little differently. I am sure I shall
find it. Tell me what it is about, about people
or animals?”
“At the beginning about flowers,
green trees, you know, with those beautiful branches
and-”
“Stop, I know all,” Kaetheli
interrupted him; “now I am going to sing it
to you.” And with a firm voice and full
tones Kaetheli began seriously:
“’Three
roses in the garden,
Three birds are in the
wood,
In summer it is lovely
In winter it is good.’
“Is that it?” she now
asked, full of confidence that it must be it.
But Erick shook his head decidedly, and said:
“No, no, that is not my song,
there is no similarity between it and what you sing.”
Kaetheli was much surprised.
“But the flowers and the trees are in the song,”
she said, “or perhaps, Erick, you have forgotten
the song and do not know how it goes?”
“Indeed, indeed I know,”
the latter assured her. “You see, first
there is a great feast, where they all come and throw
down many flowers and wreaths because a great lord
is coming and-”
“Perhaps a count,” Kaetheli interposed.
“Perhaps so.”
“Oh! now I know it! If
you only had spoke of the count right away; now listen!”
And again Kaetheli began with full tones:
“’I stood
on a high mountain
And looked into a vale,
A little ship came swimming
Three counts did hoist
the sail.’
“Well, Erick?”
But Erick shook his head even more
and said sadly: “Not at all, not a bit
like it! Perhaps the song is lost and no one knows
anything about it.”
“I know something else to help
you,” said helpful Kaetheli, whose tender heart
was filled with compassion. “To be sure,
it is a little late, but I can still do it.”
Then she ran away, and Erick looked
after her with great surprise, and wondered where
she was going to look for the song.
Running all the way, Kaetheli had
reached the bottom of the hill in a quarter of an
hour. On the garden wall stood Ritz. “Get
Sally, Ritz, but be quick,” Kaetheli called
up to him. That just suited Ritz, for he hoped
that something particular was in store, and before
Kaetheli reached the wall, Sally was brought out.
Breathlessly Kaetheli told her what
she wanted and now expected, since Sally knew so many
songs that she would bring out the desired one on the
spot. But it was not accomplished so quickly and
there followed a long explanation, for Sally must
know all that was to be found in the song, whether
it was joyous or sad, and then she began to guess and
to try whether it could be this one or that, but none
seemed to fit according to the descriptions, and suddenly
Kaetheli jumped up and exclaimed: “The
evening bells are ringing; I have to go home.
I am afraid that father will be at supper before me
and then he’ll scold. I thought you would
know it much quicker, Sally, such a simple song!
Think it over and bring it to me at school, but sure,
for else Erick will be sad again. Good night!”
Kaetheli was away like a shot, and
Sally went thoughtfully back to the house. Very
soon the sitting-room was lighted up, where mother
and aunt were seated at the table, and now the father
also sat down. Edi had long since waited with
his book to see whether the lamp would be lighted in
the room, for his mother had forbidden him to read
in the twilight. Ritz sat down to finish, with
many a sigh, a delayed arithmetic lesson. Now
Sally entered the room; under each arm she carried
four or five books of different sizes and makeup.
Panting under the heavy load she threw them on the
table.
“Oh, for heaven’s sake,”
cried Auntie, frightened, “now Sally will turn
into a historical searcheress.”
“No, no,” cried Sally,
“only give me a little room, I am obliged to
look for something.” She sat down at once
behind the heap of books and began her work in earnest.
But she did not remain undisturbed for long, for the
large amount of reading material which she had brought
in attracted the eyes of all, and all at once the
father, who had looked at the books from over his
paper, said:
“Sally, I see a book which is
little suited for you to read. Where did you
get the Niebelungen song?”
“I was just going to ask,”
said the mother, “what you intended to do with
A.M. Arndt’s war songs?”
Sally had taken along from all tables
and book-cases what seemed to her a collection of
songs. These two books she had found in her father’s
study and now she explained that she had to find Erick’s
lost song, and what Kaetheli had told her about what
was in it.
“Aha,” said Edi, and giggled
a little, “on that account you took that book
from the piano. Erick will be pleased with the
words you will get from this.”
He held the book before his sister
and pointed with his finger to the title: “Songs
Without Words”. Sally was not as thorough
in her thinking as her brother was. She had,
in the zeal of her intention, thought that these were
some particular kind of songs, and she now looked with
some confusion at the book in which only black notes
were to be found. Ritz, too, was now roused to
interest in the doings. He too had taken up a
book and read rather laboriously: “Battle
Sonnets” from-
“What! You have also been
to my table, Sally?” the aunt interrupted the
reader. “You children are really terrible!
At any rate you ought to have been in bed long ago;
it is high time, pack together.”
But this time Sally showed herself
unusually obstinate. She assured them that she
could not sleep, not for the whole night, if she had
not found the song. She must bring it to Kaetheli,
as she had promised to do so, and from fear that she
should not find the song Sally worked herself into
such a state of excitement that the mother interfered.
She explained to the child that they were not the
kind of books where such a song could be found, and
that the descriptions which Kaetheli had given were
much too uncertain to find any song. Sally herself
should speak with Erick about what he still knew of
his song, and then they would search for it together,
for she too would gladly help the poor boy to keep
in memory the song his mother had loved.
These words pacified Sally and so
she willingly packed together her books and put each
in its place.