It was not many days after the events
mentioned in the last chapter. Dora sat by her
father’s bedside, her head buried in the pillows,
vainly striving to choke down her tears and sobs.
It seemed as if her heart must break. The Major
lay back on his pillow, white and still, with a peaceful
smile on his calm face. Dora could not understand
it, could not take it in, but she knew it. Her
father was gone to join her mother in heaven.
In the morning her father had not
come as usual to her bedside to awaken her, so when
at last she opened her eyes, she went to seek him,
and she found him still in bed, and lying so quiet
that she seated herself quite softly by his side,
that she might not disturb him.
Presently the servant came up with
the breakfast, and looking through the open door into
the bed-room where Dora sat by her father’s bed-side,
she called out in terror,
“Oh God, he is dead! I
will call your aunt, child,” and hurried away.
Dora’s heart seemed cut in two
by these words. She put her head upon the pillow
and sobbed and wept. Presently she heard her aunt
come into the room, and she raised her head and tried
to control herself, for she dreaded the scene that
she knew was coming. And it came cries
and sobs, loud groans and lamentations. Aunt
Ninette declared that she could never bear this terrible
blow; she did not know which way to turn, nor what
to do first.
In the open drawer of the table by
the side of the bed, lay several papers, and as she
laid them together, meaning to lock them up, she saw
a letter addressed to herself. She opened it
and read as follows:
“Dear Sister Ninette,
“I feel that I shall shall soon
leave you, but I will not talk to you about it,
for the sad time will come only too quickly. One
only wish that I have greatly at heart I now lay
before you, and that is, that you will take my
child under your protection for as long as she
may need your care. I shall leave very little
money behind me, but I beg you to employ this
little in teaching Dora something that will enable
her, with God’s help, to support herself
when she is old enough.
“Do not, my dear sister, give
way to your grief; try to believe as I believe,
that God will always take our children under his care,
when we are obliged to leave them and can no longer
provide for them ourselves. Receive my heartfelt
thanks for all the kindness you have shown to
me and my child. God will reward you for
it all.”
Aunt Ninette read and re-read these
touching lines, and could not help growing calmer
as she read. She turned to the silently weeping
Dora with these words,
“Come, my child, your home henceforth
will be with us. You and I will try to remember
that all is well with your father; otherwise we shall
break down under our sorrow.”
Dora arose at once and prepared to
follow her aunt, but her heart was heavy within her;
she felt as if all was over and she could not live
much longer.
As she came up the stairs behind her
aunt, Aunt Ninette omitted for the first time to caution
her to step lightly, and indeed there was no need
now of the usual warning when they approached Uncle
Titus’ room, for the little girl was so sad,
so weighed down with her sorrow as she entered her
new home, that it seemed as if she could never again
utter a sound of childish merriment.
A little room under the roof, hitherto
used as a store-room, was changed into a bed-room
for Dora, though not without some complainings from
Aunt Ninette. However, the furniture was brought
over from the Major’s rooms, and after a slight
delay, all was comfortably arranged for the child.
When supper-time came, Dora followed
her aunt, without a word, into the dining-room, where
they were joined by Uncle Titus, who however seldom
spoke, so deeply was he absorbed in his own thoughts.
After supper, Dora went up to her little room under
the roof, and with her face buried in her pillow,
cried herself softly to sleep.
On the following morning she begged
to be allowed to go over to look once again at her
father, and after some objection, her aunt agreed to
go with her, and they crossed the narrow street.
Dora took a silent farewell of her
dear father, weeping all the time but making no disturbance.
Only when she again reached her little bed-room, did
she at last give way to her sobs without restraint,
for she knew that soon her good father would be carried
away, and that she could never, never see him again
on earth.
And now began a new order of life
for Dora. She had not been to school, during
the short time that she and her father had lived together
in Karlsruhe. Her father went over with her the
lessons she had learned in Hamburg, but he did not
seem to care to begin any new study, preferring to
leave everything for her aunt to arrange.
It happened that one of Aunt Ninette’s
friends was the teacher of a private school for girls,
so that it was soon settled that Dora was to go to
her every morning to learn what she could. Also
a seamstress was engaged to teach her the art of shirt-making
in the afternoon, for it was a theory of Aunt Ninette’s
that the construction of shirts of all kinds was a
most useful branch of knowledge, and she proposed that
Dora should learn this art, with a view of being able
to support herself with her needle. She argued
that since the shirt is the first garment to be put
on in dressing, it should be the first that one should
learn to make, and with this as a foundation, Dora
could go on through the whole art of sewing, till
in time she might even arrive at the mighty feat of
making dresses! With which achievement Aunt Ninette
would feel more than satisfied, but this great end
would never be reached, unless the first steps were
taken in the right direction.
So every morning Dora sat on the school-bench
studying diligently, and every afternoon on a little
chair close to the seamstress’ knee, sewing on
a big shirt that made her very warm and uncomfortable.
The mornings were not unpleasant;
for she was in the company of other children who were
all studying, and Dora was ambitious and willing to
learn. So the hours flew quickly, for she was
too busy to dwell much on the loss of her dear father,
and to think that he was gone forever. But the
afternoons were truly dreadful. She must sit through
the long hot hours, close by the seamstress, almost
smothered by the big piece of cotton cloth, which
her little fingers could hardly manage, and she grew
restless and irritable, for her hands were moist, and
the needle refused to be driven through the thick
cloth. How often she glanced up at the clock
on the wall during those long hours, when the minute
hand was surely stuck at half-past three, and the
regular tic-tac seemed to fill the quiet room
with its sleepy droning. So hot, so still, so
long were the hours of those summer afternoons!
The silence was broken now and then
by the sounds of a distant piano. “What
a happy child that must be!” thought little Dora,
“who can sit at the piano and practise exercises,
and all sorts of pretty tunes!” She could think
of nothing more delightful; she listened with hungry
ears, and drank in every note that reached her.
In the narrow street where the seamstress lived she
could hear the music distinctly, for no wagons passed,
and the voices of foot-passengers did not reach up
so high as to her room. So Dora listened to the
sweet melodies which were her only refreshment during
those hot long hours, and even the running scales were
a pleasure to her ear. But then the thought of
her father came back to her, and she felt bitterly
the terrible contrast between these hot lonely afternoons
and those which she used to spend with him under the
cool shade of the lindens. Then she thought of
that glorious sunset, and of her father, as he stood
transfigured in the golden light. She remembered
his comforting words, his assurance that some day
they two and the mother would stand thus together,
shining in the eternal light of Heaven. But Dora
sighed at the thought of the long weary time before
she should join them, unless indeed some accident
should happen to her, or she should fall ill and die,
from this too heavy task of shirt-making. After
all, her best consolation was her father’s verse;
and then too, he had been so sure of its truth:
“God holds us in his
hand,
God knows the best to
send.”
She believed it too; and as she repeated
the lines to herself, her heart grew lighter, and
even her needle moved more easily, as if inspired by
the cheering thoughts. Yet the days were long
and wearisome, and their stillness followed her when
she went home to her uncle and aunt.
She reached home just in time for
supper. Uncle Titus always held the newspaper
before his face, and read and ate behind its ample
shelter. Aunt Ninette spoke in whispers all the
while, and asked only the most necessary questions,
in order not to disturb her husband. Dora said
little; and less every day, as she grew accustomed
to this silent life. Even when she came home
from school at noon for the short interval before the
time for her sewing lessons, there was no need to
caution her against noise; for the child moved ever
less and less like a living being, and grew more like
a shadow day by day.
Yet by nature she was a lively little
maiden, and took so keen an interest in all about
her, that her father often used joyfully to observe
it, saying,
“That child is exactly like
her dear mother; just the same movements, the same
indomitable spirit and enjoyment of life!”
But now all this vivacity seemed extinguished.
Dora was very careful never to provoke her aunt to
complaints, which she dreaded exceedingly. Yet
for all her pains it would happen sometimes, most
unexpectedly and when she was least looking for a
storm, that one would break over her head, and frighten
all her thoughts and words back into her childish heart;
nay, almost check the flow of youth in her veins.
One evening, she came home from her
work filled with enthusiasm, by a song she had been
listening to, played by her unseen musician. Dora
knew the words well:
“Live your life merrily
While the
lamp glows,
Ere it can fade and
die,
Gather the
rose.”
Dora had often sung this song, but
she had never dreamed that it could be played on the
piano, and it sounded so beautiful, so wonderful to
her, that she said to her aunt, as she entered the
dining-room,
“Oh, Aunt Ninette, how delightful
it must be to know how to play on the piano!
Do you think that I can ever learn it in my life?”
“Oh, in heaven’s name,
how can you ask me such a thing? How can you worry
me so? How could you do anything of the kind in
our house? Think of the terrible din that a piano
makes! And where would the money come from if
you could find the time? Oh, Dora, where did you
get hold of that unfortunate idea? I should think
I had enough to worry me already, without your asking
me such a thing as this into the bargain.”
Dora hastened to assure her aunt that
she had no intention of asking for any thing, and
the storm blew over. But never again did she dare
even to speak of music, no matter how eagerly she
had listened to the piano, during her long sewing
lessons.
Every evening after Dora had learned
all her lessons for school, while her aunt in utter
silence knitted or nodded, the child climbed up to
her little attic room; and before she closed her tiny
window, she leaned out into the night to see whether
the stars were shining, and looking down upon her
from the high heavens. Five there were always
up there just above her head; they stood close together
and Dora looked at them so often and so steadily,
that she began to consider them as her own special
property or rather as friends who came every
night and twinkled down into her heart, to tell her
that she was not utterly alone. One night the
idea came to her that these bright stars were loving
messengers, who brought her kisses and caresses from
her dear parents. And from these heavenly messengers
the lonely child gained nightly comfort when she climbed
to her little chamber in the roof, with her feeble
candle for her only companion. She sent her prayers
up to heaven through the tiny window, and received
full assurance in return, that her Father in heaven
saw her, and would not forsake her. Her father
had told her that God would always help those who
trusted him and prayed to him, and she had no fear.
And so the long hot summer passed,
and Autumn came. Then followed a long, long winter
with its cold and darkness; such cold that Dora often
thought that even the hot summer days were better,
for she no longer dared to open the window to look
for her friends the stars, and often she could hardly
get to sleep, it was so cold in the little room, under
the roof. At last the Spring rolled round again,
and the days passed one like another, in the quiet
dwelling of Uncle Titus. Dora worked harder than
ever on the big shirts, for she had learned to sew
so well, that she had to help the seamstress in earnest
now. When the hot days came again, something
happened; and now Aunt Ninette had reason enough to
lament. Uncle Titus had an attack of dizziness,
and the doctor was sent for.
“I suppose it is thirty years
since you went beyond the limits of the town of Karlsruhe,
and in all that time you have never left your desk
except to eat and sleep. Am I right?” asked
the physician, after he had looked steadily at Uncle
Titus and tapped him a little here and there.
There was no denying that the doctor
had stated the case truly.
“Very well,” he said,
“now off with you! go away at once; to-day rather
than to-morrow. Go to Switzerland. Go to
the fresh mountain air; that is all the medicine you
need. Don’t go too high up, but stay there
six weeks at least. Have you any preference as
to the place? No? Well, set yourself to
thinking and I will do the same, and to-morrow I shall
call again to find you ready for the journey.”
With this off started the doctor,
but Aunt Ninette would not let him escape so easily.
She followed close at his heels with a whole torrent
of questions, which she asked over and over again,
and she would have an answer. The doctor had
fairly deserved this attack, by his astounding prescription.
His little game of snapping it suddenly upon them,
and then quickly making his escape, had not succeeded;
he lost three times as much time outside the door
as if he had staid quietly in the room. When at
last Aunt Ninette returned to her husband, there he
sat at his desk again, writing as usual!
“My dear Titus,” cried
the good woman really in great astonishment, “is
it possible that you did not hear what we are ordered
to do? To drop everything and go away at once,
and stay away for six weeks! And where? We
have not an idea where! And there’s no way
of knowing who our neighbors will be! It is terrible,
and there you sit and write as if there were nothing
else to be done in the world!”
“My love, it is exactly because
I must go away so soon, that I wish to make the most
of the little time I have left,” said Uncle Titus,
and he went on with his writing.
“My dear Titus, your way of
accepting the unexpected is most admirable, but this
must be talked over, I assure you. The consequences
may be very serious, and the matter must not be lightly
treated. Do think at once where we are to go!
Aunt Ninette spoke very impressively.
“Oh, it makes no difference
where we go, if it is only quiet, and out in the country
some where,” said the good man, as he calmly
continued his writing.
“Of course, that is the very
thing” said his wife, “to find a quiet
house, not full of people nor in a noisy neighborhood.
We might happen on a school close by, or a mill, or
a waterfall. There are so many of those dreadful
things in Switzerland. Or some noisy factory,
or a market place, always full of country folk, all
the people of the whole canton pouring in there together
and making a terrible uproar. But I have an idea,
my dearest Titus, I have thought of a way to settle
it. I shall write to an old uncle of my brother’s
wife. You remember the family used to live in
Switzerland; I am sure I can find out from him just
what it is best for us to do.”
“That seems to me rather a round-about
way,” said her husband, “and if I remember
right the family had some unpleasant experiences in
Switzerland, and are not likely to have kept up any
connection with it.”
“Oh, let me see to that; I will
take care that all is as it should be, my dear Titus,”
said aunt Ninette decidedly, and off she went, and
without more delay wrote and dispatched a letter to
her brother’s wife’s uncle. This
done, she hurried away to Dora’s sewing teacher,
who was a most respectable woman, and arranged that
while they were in Switzerland, Dora should spend
the days with her, going to school as usual in the
morning and sewing all the afternoon, and that the
woman should go home with Dora to pass the nights.
Dora was informed of this plan when
she came home that evening. She received the
news in silence, and after supper in silence went to
her little attic room. There as she sat upon
her little bed, she realized fully what her life would
be when her uncle and aunt had gone away, and as she
compared it sadly with the happy companionship of her
dear father, her sorrow and solitude seemed too terrible
to bear, and she hid her face in her hands and gave
way to bitter tears. Her uncle and aunt might
die too, she thought, and she should be left alone
with no one to care for her, no one in the world to
whom she belonged, and nothing to do but to sit forever
sewing on endless shirts. For ever and ever! for
she knew she must earn her living by sewing.
Well, she was quite willing to do that; but oh! not
to be left all alone.
The poor child was so wholly absorbed
in these painful thoughts, as they passed again and
again through her mind, that she lost all sense of
time, till at last she was aroused, by the clock on
the neighboring tower striking so many times that
she was frightened. She raised her head.
It was perfectly dark. Her little candle had
burned out, and not a glimmer of light came from the
street. But the stars; yes, there were the five
stars above still shining so joyfully, that it seemed
to Dora as if her father were looking down upon her
with loving eyes, and saying cheeringly,
“God holds us in his
hand
God knows the best to send.”
The sparkling starlight sank deep
into her heart, and made it lighter. She grew
calmer. Her father knew, she said to herself,
she would trust his knowledge, and not fear what the
future might hold in store. And after she laid
her head on her pillow, she kept her eyes fixed upon
the beautiful stars until they closed in sleep.
On the following evening the doctor
came as he had promised. He began to suggest
various places to Uncle Titus, but Aunt Ninette assured
him rather curtly, that she was already on the track
of something that promised to be satisfactory.
There were a great many things to be taken into consideration,
she said, since Uncle Titus was to make so vast a change
in his habits. The utmost prudence must be exercised
in the selection of the situation, and of the house
also. This was her present business, and when
everything was settled she would inform the doctor
of her arrangements.
“Very well, only don’t
be long about it; be off as soon as you can, the quicker
the better,” said the physician warningly, and
he was making a hasty retreat, when he almost fell
over little Dora who had stolen so quietly into the
room that he had not seen her.
“There, there, I hope I did
not hurt you,” he said, tapping the frightened
child upon the shoulder. “It will do this
thin little creature a world of good too, this trip
to Switzerland,” he continued. “She
must drink plenty of milk, lots of milk.”
“We have decided to leave Dora
behind,” remarked Aunt Ninette drily.
“As you please; it is your affair,
Mrs. Ehrenreich; but you must let me observe that
if you do not look out, you will have another case
on your hands, as bad as your husband’s, if
not worse. Good-morning madam,” and he
vanished.
“Doctor, doctor! what do you
mean? What did you say?” cried Aunt Ninette
in her most plaintive tone, running down the stairs
to overtake him.
“I mean that the little person
up there has quite too little good blood in her veins,
and that she cannot last long, unless she gets more
and better nourishment.”
“For heaven’s sake!
What unfortunate people we are!” cried Mrs.
Ehrenreich, wringing her hands in distress, as she
came back into her husband’s room. “My
dearest Titus, just lay down your pen for one moment.
You did not hear the dreadful things the doctor said
would happen to Dora, if she did not have more and
better blood?”
“Oh, take her with us to Switzerland.
She never makes any noise,” and Uncle Titus
went on with his writing.
“My dearest Titus, how can you
decide such a thing in one second? To be sure
she never makes any noise, and that is the most important
thing. But there are so many other things to
consider, and arrange for, and think over! Oh
dear! Oh dear me!”
But Uncle Titus was again absorbed
in his work, and paid not the slightest heed to his
wife’s lamentations. So, seeing that she
could expect no help from him, she went into her own
room, thought everything over carefully again and
again, and at last decided that it was best to follow
the doctor’s advice, and take Dora with them.
In a day or two the expected letter
came from Hamburg. It was very short. The
old uncle knew nothing about his brother’s residence
in Switzerland, now thirty years back. Tannenburg
was certainly quiet enough, for his brother had always
complained of the want of society there, and that was
all he knew about it. But this was satisfactory
so far, and Aunt Ninette decided at once to write
to the clergyman at Tannenburg for farther particulars.
Solitude and quiet! this was just what Uncle Titus
needed.
This second letter brought an immediate
answer which confirmed her hopes. “Tannenburg
is a small place, with scattered houses,” wrote
the clergyman. “There is just such a dwelling
as you describe, now ready for lodgers. It is
occupied by the widow of the school-teacher, an elderly
and very worthy woman, who has two good-sized rooms
and a little bed-room which she will be glad to let.”
And the widow’s address was added, in case Mrs.
Ehrenreich should wish farther information.
Mrs. Ehrenreich wrote immediately,
setting forth her wishes at full length and in great
detail. She expressed her satisfaction that the
houses in Tannenburg were so far apart, and she hoped
that the one in question was not situated in such
a way as to be undesirable for the residence of an
invalid. She wished to make sure that there was
in the vicinity no smithy, no locksmith, no stables,
no stone-breaker’s yard, no slaughter-house nor
mill, no school, and particularly no waterfall.
The answer from the widow, very prettily
expressed, contained the agreeable assurance, that
not one of these dreaded nuisances was to be found
in her neighborhood. The school and the mill were
so far away that not a sound could reach her dwelling
from either, and there was no waterfall in that part
of the country. Also there was not a house to
be seen far or near, except the large residence of
Mr. Birkenfeld, standing surrounded by beautiful gardens,
fields and meadows. The Birkenfelds were the
most respected family in the neighborhood. He
was a member of every committee, and was a most benevolent
man, and his wife was full of good works. The
widow added that she herself owed a great deal to the
kindness of this family, particularly with regard
to her little house which was their property, and
which Mr. Birkenfeld had allowed her to occupy ever
since her husband’s death. He had proved
to be the kindest of landlords.
After a letter like this there was
no need for farther delay; everything had been provided
for. Dora now heard for the first time that she
was to go with them, and with a light heart and a
willing hand, she packed the heavy materials for six
large shirts, which she was to make while they were
in Switzerland. The prospect of sewing on the
shirts in a new place, and with different surroundings,
excited her so much that she looked on it all as a
holiday. At last all was ready. The trunks
and chests were carried down to the street door, and
the servant-girl was sent out for a cabman with a
hand-cart, to take them away.
Dora had been ready for a long time,
and stood at the head of the stairs with beating heart
filled with expectations of all the new things that
she was to see for the next six weeks. The idea
of this coming freedom almost overcame her with its
bewildering delight, after all those long, long days
in the seamstress’ little, stifling room.
At last her uncle and aunt came from
their room laden with innumerable umbrellas and parasols,
baskets and bundles, got down stairs with some difficulty,
and mounted the carriage that was waiting below.
And they were fairly off for the country, and
quiet.