“Dear Brick and Bill:
“I don’t know what to
tell first. It’s all so strange and grand the
people are just people, but the things are wonderful.
The people want it to be so; they act, and think according
to the things around them. They pride themselves
on these things and on being amongst them, and I am
trying to learn to do that, too. When I lived
in the cove it seems a long, long time
ago my thoughts were always away from dirt-floors
and cook-stoves and cedar logs and wash-pans.
But the people in the big world keep their minds
tied right up to such things only the things
are finer they are marble floors and magnificent
restaurants and houses on what they call the ‘best
streets.’ At meals, there are all kinds
of little spoons and forks, and they think to use a
wrong one is something dreadful; that is why I say
the forks and spoons seem more important than they
are, but they want it to be so.
“They have certain ways of doing
everything, and just certain times for doing them,
and if you do a wrong thing at a right time, or a right
thing at a wrong time, it shows you are from the West.
At first, I couldn’t say a word, or turn around,
without showing that I was from the West. But
although I’ve been from home only a few days,
I’m getting so that nobody can tell that I’m
more important than the furniture around me.
I’m trying to be just like the one I’m
with, and I don’t believe an outsider can tell
that I have any more sense than the rest of them.
“Miss Sellimer is so nice to
me. I told her right at the start that I didn’t
know anything about the big world, and she teaches
me everything. I’d be more comfortable
if she could forget about my saving her life, but
she never can, and is so grateful it makes me feel
that I’m enjoying all this on false pretenses
for you know my finding her was only an accident.
Her mother is very pleasant to me much
more so than to her. Bill, you know how you
speak to your horse, sometimes, when it acts contrary?
That’s the way Miss Sellimer speaks to her
mother, at times. However, they don’t seem
very well acquainted with each other. Of course
if they’d lived together in a cove for years,
they’d have learned to tell each other their
thoughts and plans, but out in the big world there
isn’t time for anything except to dress and
go.
“I’m learning to dress.
I used to think a girl could do that to please herself,
but no, the dresses are a thousand times more important
than the people inside them. It wouldn’t
matter how wise you are if your dress is wrong, nor
would it matter how foolish, if your dress is like
everybody else’s. A person could be independent
and do as she pleased, but she wouldn’t be in
society. And nobody would believe she was independent,
they would just think she didn’t know any better,
or was poor. Because, they don’t know
anything about being independent; they want to be
governed by their things. A poor person isn’t
cut off from society because he hasn’t money,
but because he doesn’t know how to deal with
high things, not having practised amongst them.
It isn’t because society people have lots of
money that they stick together, but because all of
them know what to do with the little forks and spoons.
“It is like the dearest, jolliest
kind of game to me, to be with these people, and say
just what they say, and like what they like, and act
as they act and that’s the difference
between me and them; it’s not a game to them,
it’s deadly earnest. They think they’re
living!
“Do you think I could play at
this so long that one day I’d imagine I was
doing what God had expected of me when he sent me to
you, Brick? Could I stay out in the big world
until I’d think of the cove as a cramped little
pocket in the wilderness with two pennies jingling
at the bottom of it named Brick and Bill? If
I thought there was any danger of that, I’d
start home in the morning!
“We are in a Kansas City hotel
where all the feathers are in ladies’ hats and
bonnets instead of in the gentlemen’s hair.
To get to our rooms you go to a dark little door
and push something that makes a bell ring, and then
you step into a dugout on pulleys, that shoots up in
the air so quick it makes you feel a part of you has
fallen out and got lost. The dugout doesn’t
slow up for the third story, it just stops that
quick they call it an ‘elevator’
and it certainly does elevate! You step out in
a dim trail where there are dusky kinds of lights,
although it may be the middle of the day, and you follow
the trail over a narrow yellow desert, turn to your
right and keep going till you reach a door with your
number on it. When you are in your room, you
see the things that are considered more important than
the people.
“There’s an entire room
set apart for the sole purpose of bathing! and
the room with the bed in it is separate from the sitting-room.
You can go in one and stay a while, and go in another
and stay a while, and then go in the third and
you have a different feeling for each room that you’re
in. I’d rather see everything at once,
as I can in my cabin. And that bed! If
my little bed at home could be brought here and set
up beside this hotel wonder, the very walls would cry
out.... I wish I could sleep in my little bed
tonight, and hear the wind howling over the mountain.
“The dining-room is the finest
thing I ever saw; I doubt if the kings and queens
of old times ever ate in richer surroundings.
There are rows of immense mirrors along the wall and
gold borders and then the tables!
I wonder what would happen if anybody should spread
newspapers on one of these wonderful tables and use
them for a tablecloth? At home, we can just
reach out and take what we want off the stove, and
help our plates without rising. It’s so
different here! After you’ve worried over
crooked lists of things to eat that you’ve never
heard of, and have hurried to select so the waiter
won’t have to lose any time, the waiter goes
away. And when he puts something before you,
you don’t know what to call it, because it’s
been so long, you’ve forgotten its name on that
awful pasteboard. But there’s something
pleasant when you’ve finished, in just getting
up and walking away, not caring who cleans up the
dishes!
“I’ve been to the opera-house,
but it wasn’t an opera, it was a play.
That house I wish you could see it! the
inside, I mean, for outside it looks like it needs
washing. The chairs well, if you sent
that stool of ours to a university you couldn’t
train it up to look anything like those opera-chairs.
And the dresses the diamonds....
Everything was perfectly lovely except what we had
come to see, and my party thought it was too funny
for anything; but it wasn’t funny to me.
The story they acted was all about a young couple
fooling their parents and getting married without
father and mother knowing, and a baby brought in at
the last that nobody would claim though it was said
to be somebody’s that shouldn’t have had
one the audience just screamed with laughter
over that; I thought they never would quiet down.
Out in The big world, babies and old fathers and
mothers seem to be jokes. The star of the evening
was a married actress with ‘Miss’ before
her name. You could hear every word she spoke,
but the others didn’t seem to try to make themselves
plain I guess that’s why they aren’t
stars, too.
“I’ve lived more during
the last week than I had the previous fifty-one.
We must have been to everything there is, except a
church. Yesterday was Sunday, and I asked Mrs.
Sellimer about it, but she said people didn’t
go to church any more.
“Maybe you wonder why I don’t
tell you about our crowd, but I guess it’s because
I feel as if they didn’t matter. I wouldn’t
say that to anybody in the world but to you, Brick
and Bill, and if I hadn’t promised to write
you every single thing, I wouldn’t even tell
you, because they are so good to me. It sounds
untrue to them, doesn’t it? But you won’t
tell anybody, because you’ve nobody to tell!
And besides, they could be different in a minute
if they wanted to be; it isn’t as if they were
helpless.
“Miss Sellimer is witty and
talented, and from the way she treats me, I know she
has a tender heart. And her mother is a perfect
wonder of a manager, and never makes mistakes except
such as happen to be the fad of the hour. And
Mr. Edgerton Compton could be splendid, for he seems
to know everything, and when we travel with him, or
go to the parks and all that, people do just as he
says, as if he were a prince; he has a magnificent
way of showering money on porters and waiters and cabmen
that is dazzling; and he holds himself perfectly without
trying, and dresses so that you are glad you’re
with him in a crowd; he knows what to do all
the time about everything. But there he
stops. I mean, he isn’t trying to do anything
that matters. Neither are any of the rest.
“What they are working at now,
is all they expect to work at as long as they live and
it takes awfully hard work to keep up with their set.
They call it ‘keeping in the swim,’ and
let me tell you what it reminds me of a
strong young steer out in a ‘tank,’ using
all the strength he has just to keep on top of the
water, instead of swimming to shore and going somewhere.
Society people don’t go anywhere; they use all
their energy staying right where they are; and if
one of them loses grip and goes under Goodness!
“I know what Mrs. Sellimer has
set her heart on, because she has already begun instructing
me in her ideals. She wants her daughter to
marry a rich man, and Mr. Edgerton Compton isn’t
rich, he only looks like he is. Mrs. Sellimer
feels that she’s terribly poor, herself; it’s
the kind of poverty that has all it wants to eat and
wear, but hasn’t as many horses and servants
as it wants. It’s just as hard on her
as it would be on you if the bacon gave out and you
couldn’t go for more. Annabel that’s
Miss Sellimer likes Mr. Compton very, very
much, but she feels like her mother about marrying
a rich man, and I don’t think he has much chance.
One trouble is that he thinks he must marry a rich
girl, so they just go on, loving each other, and looking
about for ‘chances.’
“I feel like I oughtn’t
to be wasting my time telling about my friends when
there are all these wonderful lights and carpets and
decorations and conveniences, so much more interesting.
Whenever you want hot water, instead of bringing
a bucketful from the spring and building a fire and
sitting down to watch it simmer, you just turn a handle
and out it comes, smoking; and whenever you want ice-water,
you touch a button and give a boy ten cents.
“The funny thing to me is that
Annabel and Mr. Compton both think they have
to marry somebody rich, or not marry at all.
They really don’t know they could marry
each other, because imagining they would be unable
to keep the wolf from the door. That’s
because they can’t imagine themselves living
behind anything but a door on one of the ‘best
streets.’ We know, don’t we, Brick
and Bill, that it takes mighty little to keep the
coyote from the dugout! And there’s something
else we know that these people haven’t dreampt
of that there’s happiness and love
in many and many a dugout. I don’t know
what’s behind the doors on the ‘best streets.’
“We are not going straight on
to Chicago. A gentleman has invited the Sellimers,
which of course includes me, to a house-party in the
country not far from Kansas City. He is a very
rich man of middle age, so they tell me, a widower,
who is interested in our sex and particularly in Annabel
Sellimer. Mr. Edgerton Compton isn’t invited.
You see, he’s a sort of rival a
poor rival. This middle-aged man has known the
Sellimers a long time, and he has been trying to win
Annabel for a year or two. If it hadn’t
been for Mr. Compton she’d have married his
house before now, I gather. The house is
said to be immense, in a splendid estate near the
river. I am all excitement when I think of going
there for ten days. There are to be fifty guests
and the other forty-nine are invited as a means of
getting Annabel under his roof. Won’t I
feel like a little girl in an old English novel!
The best of it is that nobody will bother me I’m
too poor to be looked at a second time, I mean, what
they call poor. Sometimes I laugh when I’m
alone, for I feel like I’m a gold mine filled
with rich ore that nobody has discovered. Remember
the ‘fool’s gold’ we used to see
among the granite mountains? I think the gold
that lies on the surface must always be fool’s
gold. The name of the country-house we are to
visit is the same as that of the man who owns it ”
Wilfred Compton held the letter closer to the light.
Brick Willock spoke impatiently:
“No use to stare at that there word we
couldn’t make it out. I guess she got it
wrong, first, then wrote it over. Just go ahead.”
Bill suggested, “I think the first letter is
an ‘S.’”
Wilfred scrutinized the name closely.
“Besides,” said Willock,
“we knows none of them high people, the name
wouldn’t be nothing to us and her
next letter will likely have it more’n once.”
Wilfred resumed the letter:
“I must tell you good-by, now, for Annabel’s
maid has come to help me dress for dinner, and it takes
longer than it did to do up the washing, at the cove;
and is more tiresome. But I like it. I
like these fine, soft, beautiful things. I like
the big world, and I would like to live in it forever
and ever, if you could bring the dugout and be near
enough for me to run in, any time of the day.
I wish I could run in this minute and tell you the
thousands and thousands of things I’ll never
have time to write.
“Your loving, adoring, half-homesick,
half-bewildered, somewhat dizzy little girl,
“Lahoma.
“P. S. Nobody has been
able to tell from word or look of mine that I have
ever been surprised at a single thing I have heard
or seen. You may be quite sure of that.”
“I bet you!” cried Willock
admiringly. “Now, what do you think
of it?”
“She won’t be there long,”
remarked Bill, waving his arm, “till she finds
out what I learned long ago that there’s
nothing to it. If you want to cultivate a liking
for a dugout, just live a while in the open.”
“I don’t know as to that,”
Willock said. “I sorter doubts if Lahoma
will ever care for dugouts again, except as she stays
on the outside of ’em, and gets to romancing.
A mouthful of real ice-cream spoils your taste everlasting
for frozen starch and raw eggs.”
“Lahoma is a real person,”
declared Bill, “and a dugout is grounded and
bedded in a real thing this very solid and
very real old earth, if you ask to know what I mean.”
“Lord, I knows what you
mean,” retorted Willock. “You’ve
lived in a hole in the ground most of your life, and
are pretty near ripe to be laid away in another one,
smaller I grant you, but dark and deep, according.
We’ll never get Lahoma back the same as when
we let her flutter forth hunting a green twig over
the face of the waters. She may bring back the
first few leaves she finds, but a time’s going
to come....” He broke off abruptly, his
eyes wide and troubled, as if already viewing the
dismal prospect.
“Maybe I am old,”
Bill grudgingly conceded, “but I don’t
set up to be no Noah’s ark.”
“Oh,” cried Willock, his
sudden sense of future loss causing him to speak with
unwonted irony, “maybe you’re just a Shem,
or Ham or that other kind of Fat What’s
the matter, Wilfred? Can’t you let go of
that letter?”
“I’ve made out the name
of that widower who’s paying court to my old
sweetheart,” he said, “but it’s one
I never heard of before; that’s why it looked
so strange it’s Gledware.”
Willock uttered a sharp exclamation.
“Let me see it.” He started up
abruptly, and bent over the page.
“What of it?” asked Bill
in surprise. Willock had uttered words to which
the dugout was unaccustomed.
“That’s what it is,”
Willock growled; “it’s Gledware!”
His face had grown strangely dark and forbidding,
and Wilfred, who had never imagined it could be altered
by such an expression, handed him the letter with
a sense of uneasiness.
“What of it?” reiterated
Bill. “Suppose it is Gledware; who
is he?”
“Do you know such a man?” Wilfred demanded.
“Out with it!” cried Bill,
growing wrathful as the other glowered at the fire.
“What’s come over you? Look here,
Brick Willock, Lahoma is your cousin, but I claim
my share in that little girl and I ask you sharp and
flat ”
“Oh you go to !” cried Willock
fiercely. “All of you.”
Wilfred said lightly, “Red Feather has already
gone there, perhaps.”
“Eh?” Willock wheeled
about as if roused to fresh uneasiness. The
Indian chief had glided from the room, as silent and
as unobtrusive as a shadow.
Willock sank on the bench beside Bill
Atkins and said harshly, “Where’s my pipe?”
“Don’t you ask me
where your pipe is,” snapped Bill. “Yonder
it is in the comer where you dropped it.”
Willock picked it up, and slowly recovered
himself. “You see,” he observed
apologetically, “I need Lahoma about, to keep
me tame. I was wondering the other day if I
could swear if I wanted to. I guess I could.
And if put to it, I guess I could take up my old life
and not be very awkward about it, either I
used to be a tax-collector, and of course got rubbed
up against many people that didn’t want to pay.
That there Gledware well! maybe it isn’t
this one Lahoma writes about, but the one I knew is
just about middle age, and he’s a widower, all
right, or the next thing to it I didn’t
like Gledware. That was all. I hate for
Lahoma to be throwed with anybody of the name but
I guess it’s all right. Lahoma ain’t
going to let nobody get on her off-side, when the
wind’s blowing.”
Bill inquired anxiously, “Did
that Gledware you knew, live near Kansas City?”
“He lived over in Indian Territory,
last time I heard of him. But he was a roving
devil he might be anywhere. Only he
wasn’t rich; why, he didn’t have nothing
on earth except a little yes, except a little.”
“Then he can’t be the
owner of a big estate,” remarked Wilfred, with
relief.
“I don’t know that.
Folks goes into the Territory, and somehow they contrives
to come out loaded down. But I hope to the Almighty
it’s a different Gledware!”
“Lahoma can hold her own,”
Bill remarked confidently. “You just wait
till her next letter comes, and see if she ain’t
flying her colors as gallant as when she sailed out
of the cove.”
Wilfred reflected that his invitation
to remain had been sincere; there was nothing to hurry
him back to the Oklahoma country he would,
at least, stay until the next letter came. His
interest in Lahoma was of course vague and dreamy,
founded rather on the fancies of a thousand-and-one-nights
than upon the actual interview of a brief hour.
But the remarkable change that had taken possession
of Willock at the mention of Gledware’s name,
had impressed the young man profoundly. In that
moment, all the geniality and kindliness of the huge
fellow had vanished, and the great whiskered face
had looked so wild and dangerous, the giant fists
had doubled so threateningly, that long after the
brow smoothed and the muscles relaxed, it was impossible
to forget the ferocious picture.
“That’s what I’ll
do,” Wilfred declared, settling back in his seat,
“I’ll wait until that next letter comes.”