Almeida, as soon as she was left alone,
began to review the scene that had just past; and
was every moment affected with new wonder, grief, and
resentment. She now deplored her own misfortune;
and now conceived a design to punish the author of
it, from whose face she supposed the hand of adversity
had torn the mask under which he had deceived her:
it appeared to her very easy, to take a severe revenge
upon HAMET for the indignity which she supposed he
had offered her, by complaining of it to ALMORAN;
and telling him, that he had gained admittance to her
by bribing the eunuch who kept the door. The
thought of thus giving him up, was one moment rejected,
as arising from a vindictive spirit; and the next
indulged, as an act of justice to ALMORAN, and a punishment
due to the hypocrisy of HAMET: to the first she
inclined, when her grief, which was still mingled
with a tender remembrance of the man she loved, was
predominant; and to the last, when her grief gave way
to indignation.
Thus are we inclined to consider the
same action, either as a virtue, or a vice, by the
influence of different passions, which prompt us either
to perform or to avoid it. Almeida, from
deliberating whether she should accuse HAMET to ALMORAN,
or conceal his fault, was led to consider what punishment
he would either incur or escape in consequence of
her determination; and the images that rushed into
her mind, the moment this became the object of her
thoughts, at once determined her to be silent:
‘Could I bear to see,’ said she, ’that
hand, which has so often trembled with delight when
it enfolded mine, convulsed and black! those eyes,
that as often as they gazed upon me were dissolved
in tears of tenderness and love, start from the sockets!
and those lips that breathed the softest sighs of
elegant desire, distorted and gasping in the convulsions
of death!’
From this image, her mind recoiled
in an agony of terror and pity; her heart sunk within
her; her limbs trembled she sunk down upon the sofa,
and burst into tears.
By this time, HAMET, on whose form
the likeness of ALMORAN was still impressed, had reached
the palace. He went instantly towards the apartment
of the women. Instead of that chearful alacrity,
that mixture of zeal and reverence and affection,
which his eye had been used to find where-ever it
was turned, he now observed confusion, anxiety and
terror; whoever he met, made haste to prostrate themselves
before him, and feared to look up till he was past.
He went on, however, with a hasty pace; and coming
up to the eunuch’s guard, he said with an impatient
tone; ‘To Almeida.’ The slave
immediately made way before him, and conducted him
to the door of the apartment, which he would not otherwise
have been able to find, and for which he could not
directly enquire.
When he entered, his countenance expressed
all the passions that his situation had roused in
his mind. He first looked sternly round him, to
see whether ALMORAN was not present; and then fetching
a deep sigh he turned his eyes, with a look of mournful
tenderness, upon Almeida. His first view
was to discover, whether ALMORAN had already supplanted
him; and for this purpose he collected the whole strength
of his mind: he considered that he appeared now,
not as HAMET, but as ALMORAN; and that he was to question
Almeida concerning ALMORAN, while she had mistaken
him for HAMET; he was therefore to maintain the character,
at whatever expence, till his doubts were resolved,
and his fears either removed or confirmed: he
was so firmly persuaded, that ALMORAN had been there
before him, that he did not ask the question, but supposed
the fact; he restrained alike both his tenderness
and his fears; and looking earnestly upon Almeida,
who had risen up in his presence with blushes and
confusion, ‘To me,’ says he, ’is
Almeida still cold? and has she lavished all
her love upon HAMET?’
At the name of HAMET, the blushes
and confusion of Almeida increased: her
mind was still full of the images, which had risen
from the thought of what HAMET might suffer, if ALMORAN
should know that he had been with her; and though
she feared that their interview was discovered, yet
she hoped it might be only suspected, and in that
case the removal or confirmation of the suspicions,
on which the fate of HAMET depended, would devolve
upon her.
In this situation, she, who a few
moments before doubted, whether she should not voluntarily
give him up, when nothing more was necessary for his
safety than to be silent; now determined, with whatever
reluctance, to secure him, though it could not he
done without dissimulation, and though it was probable
that in this dissimulation she would be detected.
Instead, therefore, of answering the question, she
repeated it: ’On whom said my lord, on
HAMET?’ HAMET, whose suspicions were increased
by the evasion, replied with great emotion, ’Aye,
on HAMET; did he not this moment leave you?’
‘Leave me this moment?’ said Almeida,
with yet greater confusion, and deeper blushes.
HAMET, in the impatience of his jealousy, concluded,
that the passions which he saw expressed in her countenance,
and which arose from the struggle between her regard
to truth and her tenderness for HAMET, proceeded from
the consciousness of what he had most reason to dread,
and she to conceal, a breach of virtue, to which she
had been betrayed by his own appearance united with
the vices of his brother: he, therefore, drew
back from her with a look of inexpressible anguish,
and stood some time silent. She observed, that
in his countenance there was more expression of trouble,
than rage; she, therefore, hoped to divert him from
persuing his enquiries, by at once removing his jealousy;
which she supposed would be at an end, as soon as
she should disclose the resolution she had taken in
his favour. Addressing him, therefore, as ALMORAN,
with a voice which though it was gentle and soothing,
was yet mournful and tremulous; ’Do not turn
from me,’ said she, with those unfriendly and
frowning looks; give me now that love which so lately
you offered, and with all the future I will atone
the past.’
Upon HAMET, whose heart involuntarily
answered to the voice of Almeida, these words
had irresistible and instantaneous force; but recollecting,
in a moment, whose form he bore, and to whom they were
addressed, they struck him with new astonishment,
and increased the torments of his mind. Supposing
what he at first feared had happened, and that ALMORAN
had seduced her as HAMET; he could not account for
her now addressing him, as ALMORAN, with words of
favour and compliance: he, therefore, renewed
his enquiries concerning himself, with apprehensions
of a different kind. She, who was still solicitous
to put an end to the enquiry, as well for the sake
of HAMET, as to prevent her own embarrassment, replied
with a sigh, ’Let not thy peace be interrupted
by one thought of HAMET; for of HAMET Almeida
shall think no more.’ HAMET, who, though
he had fortified himself against whatever might have
happened to her person, could not bear the alienation
of her mind, cried our, with looks of distraction
and a voice scarcely human, ’Not think of HAMET!’
Almeida, whose astonishment was every moment increasing,
replied, with a tender and interesting enquiry, ’Is
ALMORAN then offended, that Almeida mould think
of HAMET no more?’ HAMET, being thus addressed
by the name of his brother, again recollected his situation;
and now first conceived the idea, that the alteration
of ALMEIDA’S sentiments with respect to himself,
might be the effect of some violence offered her by
ALMORAN in his likeness; he, therefore, recurred to
his first purpose, and determined, by a direct enquiry,
to discover whether she had seen him under that appearance.
This enquiry he urged with the utmost solemnity and
ardour, in terms suitable to his present appearance
and situation: ‘Tell me,’ said he,
’have these doors been open to HAMET? Has
he obtained possession of that treasure, which, by
the voice of Heaven, has been allotted to me?’
To this double question, Almeida
answered by a single negative; and her answer, therefore,
was both false and true: it was true that her
person was still inviolate, and it was true also that
HAMET had not been admitted to her; yet her denial
of it was false, for she believed the contrary; ALMORAN
only had been admitted, but she had received him as
his brother. HAMET, however, was satisfied with
the answer, and did not discover its fallacy.
He looked up to Heaven, with an expression of gratitude
and joy; and then turning to Almeida, ‘Swear
then,’ said he, ’that thou hast granted
to HAMET, no pledge of thy love which should be reserved
for me.’ Almeida, who now thought nothing
more than the asseveration necessary to quiet his
mind, immediately complied: ’I swear,’
said she, ’that to HAMET I have given nothing,
which thou wouldst wish me to with-hold: the
power that has devoted my person to thee, has disunited
my heart from HAMET, whom I renounce in thy presence
for ever.’
HAMET, whose fortitude and recollection
were again overborne, was thrown into an agitation
of mind, which discovered itself by looks and gestures
very different from those which Almeida had expected,
and overwhelmed her with new confusion and disappointment:
that he, who had so lately solicited her love with
all the vehemence of a desire impatient to be gratified,
should now receive a declaration that she was ready
to comply with marks of distress and anger, was a
mystery which she could not solve. In the mean
time, the struggle in his breast became every moment
more violent: ‘Where then,’ said he,
’is the constancy which you vowed to HAMET;
and for what instance of his love is he now forsaken?’
Almeida was now more embarrassed
than before; she felt all the force of the reproof,
supposing it to have been given by ALMORAN; and she
could be justified only by relating the particular,
which at the expence of her sincerity she had determined
to conceal. ALMORAN was now exalted in her opinion,
while his form was animated by the spirit of HAMET;
as much as HAMET had been degraded, while his form
was animated by the spirit of ALMORAN. In his
resentment of her perfidy to his rival, though it
favoured his fondest and most ardent wishes, there
was an abhorrence of vice, and a generosity of mind,
which she supposed to have been incompatible with
his character. To his reproach, she could reply
only by complaint; and could no otherwise evade his
question, than by observing the inconsistency of his
own behaviour: ‘Your words,’ said
she, ’are daggers to my heart. You condemn
me for a compliance with your own wishes; and for
obedience to that voice, which you supposed to have
revealed the will of Heaven. Has the caprice of
desire already wandered to a new object? and do you
now seek a pretence to refuse, when it is freely offered,
what so lately you would have taken by force?’
HAMET, who was now fired with resentment
against Almeida, whom yet he could not behold
without desire; and who, at the same moment, was impatient
to revenge his wrongs upon ALMORAN; was suddenly prompted
to satisfy all his passions, by taking advantage of
the wiles of ALMORAN, and the perfidy of Almeida,
to defeat the one and to punish the other. It
was now in his power instantly to consummate his marriage,
as a priest might be procured without a moment’s
delay, and as ALMEIDA’S consent was already
given; he would then obtain the possession of her
person, by the very act in which she perfidiously resigned
it to his rival; to whom he would then leave the beauties
he had already possessed, and cast from him in disdain,
as united with a mind that he could never love.
As his imagination was fired with the first conception
of this design, he caught her to his breast with a
fury, in which all the passions in all their rage
were at once concentered: ’Let the priest,’
said he, ’instantly unite us. Let us comprize,
in one moment, in this instant, now, our whole
of being, and exclude alike the future and the past!’
Then grasping her still in his arms, he looked up to
heaven: ‘Ye powers,’ said he, ’invisible
but yet present, who mould my changing and unresisting
form; prolong, but for one hour, that mysterious charm,
that is now upon me, and I will be ever after subservient
to your will!’
Almeida, who was terrified at
the furious ardor of this unintelligible address,
shrunk from his embrace, pale and trembling, without
power to reply. HAMET gazed tenderly upon her;
and recollecting the purity and tenderness with which
he had loved her, his virtues suddenly recovered their
force; he dismissed her from his embrace; and turning
from her, he dropped in silence the tear that started
to his eye, and expressed, in a low and faultering
voice, the thoughts that rushed upon his mind:
‘No,’ said he; HAMET shall still disdain
the joy, which is at once sordid and transient:
in the breast of HAMET, lust shall not be the pander
of revenge. Shall I, who have languished for
the pure delight which can arise only from the interchange
of soul with soul, and is endeared by mutual confidence
and complacency; shall I snatch under this disguise,
which belies my features and degrades my virtue, a
casual possession of faithless beauty, which I despise
and hate? Let this be the portion of those, that
hate me without a cause; but let this be far from me!’
At this thought, he felt a sudden elation of mind;
and the conscious dignity of virtue, that in such
a conflict was victorious, rendered him, in this glorious
moment, superior to misfortune: his gesture became
calm, and his countenance sedate; he considered the
wrongs he suffered, not as a sufferer, but as a judge;
and he determined at once to discover himself to Almeida,
and to reproach her with her crime. He remarked
her confusion without pity, as the effect not of grief
but of guilt; and fixing his eyes upon her, with the
calm severity of a superior and offended being, ‘Such,’
said he, ’is the benevolence of the Almighty
to the children of the dust, that our misfortunes
are, like poisons, antidotes to each other.’
Almeida, whose faculties were
now suspended by wonder and expectation, looked earnestly
at him, but continued silent. ‘Thy looks,’
said HAMET, are full of wonder; but as yet thy wonder
has no cause, in comparison of that which shall be
revealed. Thou knowest the prodigy, which so
lately parted HAMET and Almeida: I am that
HAMET, thou art that Almeida.’ Almeida
would now have interrupted him; but HAMET raised his
voice, and demanded to be heard: ‘At that
moment,’ said he, ’wretched as I am, the
child of error and disobedience, my heart repined in
secret at the destiny which had been written upon
my head; for I then thought thee faithful and constant:
but if our hands had been then united, I should have
been more wretched than I am; for I now know that thou
art fickle and false. To know thee, though it
has pierced my soul with sorrow, has yet healed the
wound which was inflicted when I lost thee: and
though I am now compelled to wear the form of ALMORAN,
whose vices are this moment disgracing mine, yet in
the balance I shall be weighed as HAMET, and I shall
suffer only as I am found wanting.’
Almeida, whose mind was now in
a tumult that bordered upon distraction, bewildered
in a labyrinth of doubt and wonder, and alike dreading
the consequence of what she heard, whether it was
false or true, was yet impatient to confute or confirm
it; and as soon as she had recovered her speech, urged
him for some token of the prodigy he asserted, which
he might easily have given, by relating any of the
incidents which themselves only could know. But
just at this moment, ALMORAN, having at last disengaged
himself from Osmyn, by whom he had been long detained,
resumed his own figure: and while the eyes of
Almeida were fixed upon HAMET, his powers were
suddenly taken from him, and restored in an instant;
and she beheld the features of ALMORAN vanish, and
gazed with astonishment upon his own: ‘Thy
features change!’ said she, ’and thou
indeed art HAMET.’ ‘The sudden trance,’
said he, ’has restored me to myself; and from
my wrongs where shalt thou be hidden?’ This reproach
was more than she could sustain, but he caught her
as she was falling, and supported her in his arms.
This incident renewed in a moment all the tenderness
of his love: while he beheld her distress, and
pressed her by the embrace that sustained her to his
bosom, he forgot every injury which he supposed she
had done him; and perceived her recover with a pleasure,
that for a moment suspended the sense of his misfortunes.
Her first reflection was upon the
snare, in which she had been taken; and her first
sensation was joy that she had escaped: she saw
at once the whole complication of events that had
deceived and distressed her; and nothing more was
now necessary, than to explain them to HAMET; which,
however, she could not do, without discovering the
insincerity of her answers to the enquiries which
he had made, while she mistook him for his brother:
‘If in my heart,’ says she, ’thou
hast found any virtue, let it incline thee to pity
the vice that is mingled with it: by the vice
I have been ensnared, but I have been delivered by
the virtue. ALMORAN, for now I know that it was
not thee, ALMORAN, when he possessed thy form, was
with me: he prophaned thy love, by attempts to
supplant my virtue; I resisted his importunity, and
escaped perdition; but the guilt of ALMORAN drew my
resentment upon HAMET. I thought the vices which,
under thy form, I discovered in his bosom, were thine;
and in the anguish of grief, indignation, and disappointment,
my heart renounced thee: yet, as I could not
give thee up to death, I could not discover to ALMORAN
the attempt which I imputed to thee; when you questioned
me, therefore, as ALMORAN, I was betrayed to dissimulation,
by the tenderness which still melted my heart for
HAMET.’ ‘I believe thee,’ said
HAMET, catching her in a transport to his breast:
’I love thee for thy virtue; and may the pure
and exalted beings, who are superior to the passions
that now throb in my heart, forgive me, if I love thee
also for thy fault. Yet, let the danger to which
it betrayed thee, teach us still to walk in the strait
path, and commit the keeping of our peace to the Almighty;
for he that wanders in the maze of falsehood, shall
pass by the good that he would meet, and shall meet
the evil that he would shun. I also was tempted;
but I was strengthened to resist: if I had used
the power, which I derived from the arts that have
been practised against me, to return evil for evil;
if I had not disdained a secret and unavowed revenge,
and the unhallowed pleasures of a brutal appetite;
I might have possessed thee in the form of ALMORAN,
and have wronged irreparably myself and thee:
for how could I have been admitted, as HAMET, to the
beauties which I had enjoyed as ALMORAN? and how couldst
thou have given, to ALMORAN, what in reality had been
appropriated by HAMET?’