My friend Bessie Haines had no mother,
but her father was such a very large man that I remember
thinking, when I was quite a child, that a kind Providence
had intended to make up her loss in that way.
She and I did not live in the same city, but managed
to keep up a lively friendship through the medium
of correspondence and half-yearly visits.
I was a complete orphan, and my uncle,
with whom I lived, was her father’s attached
friend.She had a very happy home, and I was glad
to enjoy it with her, particularly when my uncle accompanied
me, for then her father and he became absorbed in
each other, and left us to our own devices not
very evil ones, but too childish and trifling to claim
the sympathy of such very grave men as they were.
We had both become tall, womanly girls,
but Uncle Pennyman and Mr. Haines called us children,
and treated us as such; and Bessie was just writing
to me about her father’s telling her she must
begin to think of serious things, when my uncle remarked
to me that the time was approaching when I should
prepare myself to assume the duties and responsibilities
of a rational female.Just as if we had waited
to be told this, when in fact Bessie and I had been
consulting about our bonnets and dresses in the most
grave and mature manner for years past, and arranging
our future on plans that for variety and agreeability
could not have been surpassed had we been brought
up on the Arabian Nights and Moore’s Poems,
instead of Baxter’s Saint’s Rest
and Pollok’s Course of Time.
“There are several questions
of vital importance that have been growing daily stronger
in my mind,” said my uncle Pennyman.“My
friend Thomas Haines has a gift in clearing points
and expounding meanings; so that I feel it to be for
my mind’s edifying and my soul’s profit
to go to him for counsel.”
I was delighted to hear this.
I wanted to see Bessie, and I blessed the bond that
united these good brothers in Israel and drew us together
so often.Mr. Haines was good at texts, and my
uncle was wonderfully expert at dreams.Mr. Haines
was a great dreamer, and my uncle constantly stumbled
over passages needing elucidation.So we lived
in harmonious intercourse, and Bessie and I talked
of all our plans and delights while they got themselves
entangled in obscurities with a commentary under each
arm.
It would have appeared, from Mr. Haines’
dreams, that Bessie’s mother had been a most
fussy and bothering lady, though I was told by the
housekeeper, who knew her well, that she was the mildest
and most timid of little wives while living.
According to these visions, she was
constantly troubled in her spiritual state on the
greatest variety of small subjects; and my expert uncle,
in expounding her communications, was always able
to draw from them strong religious lessons, and to
administer much strengthening comfort to his friend
the dreamer.
“I was hoping papa would soon
have a vision,” said Bessie when we were settled
together all comfortably, and she had told me how glad
she was to see me again.“Mrs. Tanner said
last week that she was sure he was going to have another,
because the spire which he felt he was directed in
his last dream to put on the little chapel was all
complete, and the missionary outfit which he had believed
himself called upon to provide was ready and gone
to the South Seas, and he naturally looked for more
work.When he said last week, ’Bessie,
I have sent for Brother Pennyman concerning a visitation
in the night,’ I was so glad, for, Winnie dear would
you believe it? I have been dreaming too,
and I want you to tell me if I have read my dream
aright.”
Now, this was the most wonderful thing
that Bessie Haines could have told me the
most startling and least to be expected altogether;
for if ever there was a wide-awake girl, it was she.
I suppose my perfectly frank stare
said as much, for she blushed a little, and continued
with a very suspicious flutter, which I had learnt,
in the case of young engaged persons I knew, to look
on as a bad symptom:
“I do not mean dreaming with
my eyes shut, you know, but having deep, serious thoughts,
unlike the gay fancies that have held me captive all
my life.”
“Dress trimmings and poetry?” I suggested.
“Yes, yes all the
useless, perishable fancies of thoughtless youth,”
she replied.
This sounded more like an Essay on
Vanity than Bessie Haines, and I really was astonished,
and had nothing to say for a little while, during which
she, being full of her subject, went on:
“I can scarcely trace the beginning
of the the awakening, shall I call it?”
“You called it a dream before.”
“Yes, dear Winnie, but it is
so hard to know how to classify new emotions, and
this is such a peculiar one that it seems nameless.
You know papa feels bound, ever since that water-dream
he had, to go down to the Mariners’ Chapel on
Sunday afternoon, and I used to read solemn poetry
when it was too warm or too cold to go with him.
Well, about two months ago it was fearfully warm,
and papa had come home a fortnight earlier from the
shore, on account of a suspicion he had that he had
dreamed something and had forgotten it as soon as
he awoke.This indistinct warning made him think
we had better go home at all events, and home we came
the first week in September, to the roasting, dusty
city.But I did not then know that I was perhaps
drawn back for a purpose; and oh, dear Winnie, there
may be something in papa’s visions, after all.”
“He has had a good many of them,” I said.
“So he has,” assented
Bessie; “and I was inclined to be impatient at
this one, since it brought me home in the heat, and
the house seemed so lonely, because Mrs. Tanner was
still in the country with her married daughter.”
“She having received no spectral warning,”
I hinted.
“Oh dear! no.Mrs. Tanner
never dreams:she’s opposed to it.
Well, the first Sunday was so warm that I took up
Solemn Thoughts in Verse instead of the Mariners’;
and after I had read eight pages, it really seemed
as if I had better have tried the heat out of doors,
it was getting so gloomy within.So I got up
and dressed, meaning to walk out and meet papa, and
return with him.I don’t know whether it
was the Solemn Thoughts that confused me, or
whether I was not paying attention, but I actually
lost my way by turning at the wrong corner, and so
came down Barton street toward a little chapel that
I had often noticed before.Two dreadfully red-faced
and short-haired little boys were at the entrance by
the small iron gate.They had disagreed about
something, I suppose, just as I came up, and they
instantly began to fight, with the wickedest determination
visible in their freckled little faces.At first,
they kicked at each other, and growled out some awful
words without the least sense, but with a great deal
of profanity in them, and then they laid down their
little books and tracts, and apparently tried to pull
each other’s head off.Of course it made
me quite wretched to see them hurt each other in that
shocking way, and so I interfered and tried to reconcile
them, but the naughty little souls must have had a
certain amount of kicking and scratching on hand to
dispose of, for they united in bestowing it all on
me the moment I came between them.
“I was just trying to save my
dress and lace sacque from their boots and claws,
when a reverend gentleman appeared at the door, and
the bad boys became sneaking cowards at sight of him.
I picked up their little tracts, while he tried to
apologize for them; and it was so sad, Winnie, to think
that those dear children had not profited by their
lessons:one was called ‘Love One Another,’
and the other, ‘Be Meek and Lowly.’
“While we were talking a lady
joined us, and I went into the school at their invitation.
“Winnie, do you know anything
practical about Sunday-school?”
“I went to one, and was for
years in the class of an elderly maiden lady who urged
us all to learn Scripture and hymns.I was so
expert and high in favor that I could repeat forty
verses at a time as glibly as a parrot.”
“But I don’t quite mean
that sort of thing,” said Bessie.“I
mean a real, earnest teaching-place, where children
are gathered in and told all about Christ’s
love and mercy where they are softened and
won to better thoughts and kinder actions, and their
poor little minds filled with shining truth, instead
of street dirt and abuse.”
“I never thought about it before,
but such an institution could not help being a popular
one, and a very useful one too,” I confessed.
“Oh, I am so glad, so very glad,
that you approve, dear, for I am engaged in that work;
and I did not want to write it to you, for somehow
it seemed so strange for such a thoughtless, silly
girl as I have been to attempt such a serious thing.”
“As teaching in a Sunday-school?”
“Yes, in a sort of mission school
for little scholars of the lower classes.Miss
Mary Pepper and I have at this time nearly two hundred
boys and girls of all ages, and some of them are very
interesting and lovable, while others are ”
“Like the two gladiators who introduced you
to the scene?”
“Yes.I am afraid there
are quite a number of that kind; but, Winnie, you
must like Miss Mary Pepper.Oh, she is one of
the most excellent women I ever knew, so truly, so
nobly, so devotedly good.You cannot imagine what
a comfort it is to me to be with her to
feel that I am under her influence, and may learn
from her to be a little like her.”
“Miss Mary Pepper?” I
repeated:“then she is a young lady?”
“No not young:indeed, she is
rather elderly.”
“An old maid,” I remarked,
coldly.“She is pretty and sweet, though
faded, I suppose.”
“Why, no not to look
at:her nature is beautiful, but her manner and
figure are rather rather unprepossessing
at first.”
“A stiff, hard, straight-laced
old maid,” I said, contemptuously.“Well,
really, I cannot see the fascination ”
Bessie’s face flushed painfully:
“I confess that dear Miss Pepper’s person
is not so beautiful as her nature, but, Winnie, it
is the cause of doing good and trying to be good that
draws us together so closely; and of course I do not
love her as I love you, my dear, precious first friend.”
These last words were full of balm,
for of course it was the sting of jealousy that had
made my heart resent the venerable Pepper’s powerful
influence over my dear Bessie.Being once assured
that it was a second-rate power, and that I still
held my supremacy, I entered into the Sunday-school
question like a second Raikes, and volunteered to help,
and try to learn the way to the young hearts that
beat under the pugilistic exterior of the juveniles
of Canon lane, where the mission chapel was.
Then, having become one on this serious
subject, we began to wonder what Mr. Haines’
dream might portend this time, and prepare our minds
for the verse from the prophecies over which dear
Uncle Pennyman had made his latest stumble.
“Mrs. Tanner thinks it was something
about a journey, and she is quite out of sorts on
the subject:for, as she says, the house can’t
be shut up without worriment, and as to staying in
it alone she really has not got the nerve.”
“I do not think that Uncle Pennyman
will interpret it that way, because he cannot go too,
as he is at present very deep in the minor prophets,
and has fallen out of humor with all the commentaries.”
“I am so glad!” said Bessie,
placidly “so glad, I mean, that we
need not go:I think every one must find his
life-work at home.”
I stared a little at this, because
I knew that only a few months before Bessie Haines
had wanted very much to find style and fashion abroad;
but I remembered the Sunday-school, and tried to be
as serious and convinced as I could; and to that end
I talked a good deal of church interests, and the
prophecies, and Light in Obscurity, a new work
which had utterly confused me at the first chapter,
but which I had read through to Uncle Pennyman one
warm July day when he stayed at home to keep Tom’s
birth-day.
That reminds me:I have not mentioned
Tom, but as he was away at college, and Bessie never
seemed to like to talk of him I’m
sure I can’t see why it is quite
natural that he slipped out of my memory.
He was a ward of Uncle Pennyman, who
called him his son, and indeed had adopted him formally.
How two such opposite people ever
came to love each other as they did, I never can explain.
It was not a natural, commonplace affection:it
was a strong, deep, earnest love, as firm in the hearts
of both as the life that caused their throbbings.
Tom was wild and full of frolic:
if there is a graver word than gravity, it should
be used to describe Uncle Pennyman’s demeanor.
Tom was quick and restless by nature, but his good
sense and determination to make a niche for himself
in life, and fill it respectably, had toned down his
exuberant spirits into active energy; while Uncle
Penny man’s naturally slow tendencies had become
aggravated by the ponderous character of his pursuits
and tastes:all hurry was obnoxious to him, and
he firmly believed that haste was another name for
sin.Yet the solemn, slow old man loved the busy,
merry young one, and neither saw any fault or failing
in the other.
There was no earthly relationship
between Thomas Gray Pennyman and me, and yet I was
always spoken of as his sister by my dear, worrying
old uncle.Tom did not seem to like it, and I
knew I did not.
People often said to me, “What
a splendid brother you have, Miss Pennyman but what
a pity that all these handsome brothers have to be
given up to stronger ties!”
How utterly silly!I never had
any patience with such nonsense.
There was not much comfort in talking
to Bessie about him.I’m sure I do not
know why, but I suppose she saw that I avoided the
subject; so I was really quite surprised when she
said to me, laughing and looking a little mischievous
“Mr. Tom is to join us by and
by, your uncle says.I hope we may be able to
make it pleasant for him.I believe he likes Mrs.
Tanner:he used to like her buns when he was
a boy, and I hope he has not forgotten the fancy.”
Tom coming to visit the Haines!
Such a thing had never happened before, and must mean
something now.I began to feel quite uneasy, though
I really could not have explained why.
We never had much of my uncle’s
or Mr. Haines’ society except in the evening:
they spent the day going about together and worrying
texts of Scripture with other good old men, before
whom Mr. Haines liked to show off uncle’s Bible
knowledge.They took some pious excursions in
company, and had a solemnly festive time, I have no
doubt, for they always came in looking perfectly satisfied
with the result of their day.
It generally took some time to hear
the dream and find its proper interpretation.
While it was pending the expounder generally gave out
his puzzling verses, and then both pondered a good
while before they arrived at their conclusions and
made them known.
Both the dream and the text must have
been of an unusually difficult nature this time, for
a whole week went by without either transpiring; and
although Bessie and I watched for some allusions to
them in our morning and evening family worship, at
which the two good men officiated alternately, yet
not a hint could we gain until one night at the end
of the week it seemed from Uncle Pennyman’s
prayer that the matter in some wise referred to Bessie,
since Divine guidance was sought under many rhetorical
forms for the welfare, future and temporal, of “the
young handmaiden, the daughter of thy servant, who
would fain know thy will concerning her.”
“Bessie,” said I that
night, when we got up stairs, “I think I have
found out what your father’s last dream was:
I solemnly believe that he means to send you out as
a missionary.”
Now I thought I had said something
calculated to make Bessie turn pale and gasp, but
I could scarcely believe it when I looked up, expecting
to find her almost fainting, and saw her pensively,
but by no means alarmedly, shaking her head.
“I am not devoted enough, Winnie,
love,” she remarked.“I have not the
grand self-abnegating spirit necessary for such a work.
No; mine is a home field.”
If I had not known about the young
warriors of Canon lane, I should have thought her
demented:as it was, I could scarcely wait for
the next day, which was Sunday, to be introduced to
the scene which had already produced such a marked
change in her character and tastes.
It transpired during breakfast that
Uncle Pennyman’s peace had been disturbed by
a verse in the book of Nahum, that talked about the
lions and lionesses, and their whelps and prey, in
what appeared to him a mysterious manner.Mr.
Haines, who was a dear, good man, elaborated it so
that we all felt as if we had made a visit to the
Zoological Gardens, and afterward been carried into
Babylonish captivity.My uncle followed his words
with a brightening face, and when they grew particularly
mixed and long-syllabled, he would exclaim softly,
“It is a great gift! a great
gift!” and seem really overcome with the magnitude
of his friend’s powers.
I never saw any harm in Uncle Pennyman’s
texts:they never worried any one but himself;
though I must confess that verse about Ephraim being
a cake not turned affected us a little.But that
was because he had the ague, and Mr. Haines was attending
some kind of convention; and what with the chills,
and that unexplained cake of Ephraim’s, we were
kept a little uncomfortable for a time.
But Mr. Haines’ visions were
perplexing:no one could tell where their signification
might point; and this sending for Tom (of course he
would never have thought of coming if he had not been
sent for) made me quite uneasy.
I began to fear that this would be
the first time I had ever gone to see Bessie without
enjoying the visit; and as we walked along to Canon
Lane Chapel together, her manner was so absent and
fluttered that I really did not know what to do.
“It is a delightful and meritorious
thing to be pious, no doubt,” I said to myself,
“but it has not improved the manner of my dear
Bessie:on the contrary, I should say it has
entirely shaken her nerves, and given her palpitation
of the heart.”
When we reached the chapel we found
quite a number and variety of youths already collected
around the door, and when we went into a large and
airy room, well lighted and filled with seats, a goodly
selection awaited us there.
A lady stood on a small platform with
a bell in her hand:she had a large, bony figure,
and a long, bony face, and turned her eyes toward us
without changing their expression into any beam of
recognition, as she used her voice without any softening
tone or tender cadence whatever:
“Miss Haines, good-afternoon.
Mary Bryan, where’s your brother?John Mott,
you have dropped your tract.Miss Pennyman, glad
to see you.Sarah Harper, give your sister a
seat.”
Bessie had pushed me on her attention
between the monotonous sentences she jerked out at
her scholars, and she gave me five words just like
the rest, and dropped me off again.
Bessie seemed to become calmer after
she had looked around the room once in a hasty, fluttered
way, and placing a chair for me, she threw herself
energetically into her philanthropic work.
I never knew before what a serious
thing it was to be a Sunday-school teacher, or how
varied the requirements for such duty were.Thirst
seemed to be a prevailing agony among the scholars,
and it seized its victims as an epidemic does without
warning.They would just reach their seats and
drop into them listlessly, or gain them by energetic
contest with some previous intruder, and after an
empty stare around them would be taken with a sudden
pang, expressed in writhing, shaking the right hand
wildly and gasping, “Teacher, I want a drink!
I want a drink!”
Then they were subject to a terrible
vacillation on the subject of their hats:they
would almost consign them to the care of a monitor
appointed to hang them on the pegs made and provided,
when a sense of their preciousness would suddenly
present itself to their minds, and they would rescue
them wildly, and throw themselves on the defensive
while they sat upon or otherwise protected the contested
article of dress.
There were six windows with broad
sills in the room, and every child seemed beset with
a passionate desire to leave its seat and lodge itself
in a surreptitious manner on one of these perches,
as if they had been posts of honor.
Whether bits of bright tin, glass
bottle-stoppers, ends of twine, broken sticks and
marbles were accessions to biblical instruction, or
were only so considered by the pupils themselves,
did not transpire, but poor Bessie seemed to find
them stumbling-blocks in her path, and Miss Pepper
had no sooner confiscated one lot than another appeared
in circulation and broke the story of Joseph’s
coat into a parenthetical narrative:
“Israel loved Joseph so much
that as a particular proof of his parental regard
(James Moore, stop putting that stick in your brother’s
eye) he prepared a variegated garment known as a ‘coat
of many colors.’ (John Mink, take that marble
out of your throat, or you’ll swallow it.) The
bestowal of this beautiful gift (Mary Dunn, put your
ticket away, and, Sally Harris, let her hair alone)
awakened feelings akin to envy and bitterness in (Jane
Sloper must not borrow her cousin’s bonnet in
Sunday-school) the bosoms of his perverted brethren.
(Hugh Fraley will leave those strings at home, and,
William Grove, stop climbing over the bench.) Alas!
what sorrow can evil and disobedient sons, too little
conscious (Dicky Taylor, bring that insect to me) of
the sacrifices and prayerful struggles of their venerable
parents (no, Henry, not another drink), call down
upon their already care-burdened minds!”
Of course I felt sure that Miss Pepper
was in earnest and meant to do good, but I suspected
that she had not what my uncle called “a gift”
with children, and I saw how much harder it made it
for Bessie, who really was a natural teacher, and
who contrived to rule with a steady but gracious firmness,
and to win with a sweet simplicity that explained itself
to the minds of little ones.
I wondered not a little at her infatuation
on the Pepper question when I saw how contrary their
ways and influence were.There were plenty of
nice, interesting little girls among the two hundred,
and some very well-behaved boys too; but Bessie set
herself to win the unruly, and it was a lesson to
thoughtless me to see her do it.One terrible
little soul, with a thin, wiry body and tight-cropped
head, fell into a conflict with a square-set, hard-faced
boy, and they rolled under the seats together just
as Miss Pepper had succeeded in raising the ill-used
Joseph out of the pit with words of three syllables.
Bessie went to the rescue, and separated and inverted
the combatants, only the soles of whose boots had been
visible a moment before.She sat down with them,
and although I could not hear her words, I saw that
they were slowly smoothing the angry creases of both
the thin and the square face.
“Then let him stop a-callin’
me ‘Skinny,’” was the last outbreak
of the injured lean one, and his antagonist confessed
“I won’t say nothin’
to you no more if you stop grinning ‘Flathead’
at me.”
Before Miss Pepper had succeeded in
describing the paraphernalia of Eastern travel and
the approach of the Ishmaelites, the two were induced
to shake hands silently across their gentle mediatrix,
whose face suddenly grew radiant with the sweetest
blush I ever saw as the door opened and a new feature
was added to the scene.
I do not mean to detract from the
good impulses or high motives of my dear girl when
I say that this was the key that opened the subject
to me, and made it bright and plain.It wore
the form of a truly good and good-looking young gentleman,
who had just enough of the clergyman in his appearance
to show that he honored his holy calling above all
things.He gave Bessie a glance that set my heart
at rest for I naturally felt anxious that
the blush and brightness and other signs should not
be thrown away on an unappreciative object and
then he went right into his work.Oh dear! what
a difference!One could not imagine, without seeing
for one’s self, what a beautiful sympathy could
do with material that a hard, dry purpose could only
irritate.Of course he bowed to me, and met Miss
Pepper like an old friend, and then he began, and
in beginning caught every single wandering mind, and
held it with that mysterious fascination which individualizes,
and convinces each one that he is the particular soul
addressed.
He had been spending the hour of his
absence from us in the chamber of a little fellow,
one of our number, who had been terribly hurt by the
machinery of a factory in which he worked.He
took every one of us there with him, awakening our
liveliest interest, and making us anxious to be helpful
to every suffering fellow-creature.Some of us
had to cry a little at the kind remembrances the poor
crushed child sent us, and we felt quite self-reproachful
that we had not thought more of him, and been quieter
and more orderly in every way.Then, without
any dry, hard preaching, he planted that lesson, left
it to take root without digging it up again with personal
exhortation, and told us something else.Surely
no one could have better divined just what we wanted
to know, and just how we would have liked it related.
Love first of all; then cheerfulness, simplicity, and
a strong, earnest enthusiasm that made attention compulsory
and the attraction irresistible.
I do not believe I ever felt better
satisfied in my life than when he closed and the orderly
dismission began:then he turned to Bessie, and
I saw that my friend had found the mission of heart-and
soul-work, and was being drawn heavenward by the hand
she loved.Such a timid tenderness as pervaded
his every look and word! such a sweet consciousness
as lighted hers!I laughed at my folly about
Tom, and felt that I should be delighted to see him
at Haines’, and introduce him to the dear, good
clergyman whom Bessie had the good sense to appreciate.
The Rev. Charles Pepper was the nephew
of Miss Mary.I soon changed my prejudiced opinion
of that lady into a clearer view of her merits.
She was the Paul that planted:being a woman
of wealth and strong religious bias, she had built
the mission chapel, gathered together the children
and taught them, while her good nephew added the superintendence
of the school to his church duties in a different
quarter.
“Bessie, does your father know ?”
I began as we went homeward together.
She interrupted me:“About
Miss Pepper?Oh yes, indeed!She called to
ask his permission for me to teach them, and has been
at our house twice since.
“You know I don’t mean
her at all,” I said, laughing.“I
mean her nephew, Bessie Haines.”
But Bessie faltered:she had
not the courage to speak freely, since it was evident
they had not spoken so to each other yet.She
knew she loved and was beloved, but could not force
the delicate secret into words, since it was yet unavowed
between them.
“All I am afraid of, Bess,”
said I, determined to make her practical, for she
was as ethereal as if she and her love meant to live
in the clouds all their days “all
I am afraid of is, that your father’s vision
may threaten your peace; for, rely on it, Bess, it
is about you and you alone, or why should uncle keep
praying for you as a ‘young damsel,’ and
‘handmaiden,’ and ‘female pilgrim,’
and all that?”
Bessie seemed troubled, but she could
not be brought to confidence until the minister had
opened his heart to her.I saw that, and though
I had never had a warning dream in my life, I felt
it was my mission to help her.
The Rev. Charles and I had had a little,
a very little, talk, but I saw that Bessie had named
me to him that pleased me; that he was very
desirous of gaining my good-will that pleased
me too.So I had happened to say that I admired
church architecture, particularly Gothic:some
one had said that his church belonged to that style,
and he immediately, offered to take us to examine
it.I asked him to call for us next day, and
he delightedly promised that he would.
I told Bessie, and the ungrateful
creature was alarmed and nervous, and gave way to
all sorts of nonsense; but I consoled her and admired
him in a way that seemed to give her satisfaction.
The next morning I made a startling discovery.
I went into the little bookroom that opened out of
the great old-fashioned back parlor, where uncle and
Mr. Haines sat every morning with Scott and Clarke
and Cruden open before them:I went in very quietly,
and didn’t make much noise when there.Mr.
Haines was talking in a slow, set way, and I could
hear the scratching of a pen over stiff paper.
“Would you mention my reasons
for recording this, my dear Daniel?” he said
to Uncle Pennyman.
“I have set them down at the
commencement,” said my uncle, who was acting
as scribe.“I have said that, your mind
being clear and your feelings at ease, you retired
to your couch on the night of the 28th of October;
that the form of your dear wife seemed waiting for
you, since you became conscious of her presence immediately
after your sinking asleep; and so on.”
“Yes,” said Mr. Haines,
witty a deep sigh:“it is a great thing,
no doubt, to be so guided in the visions of the night,
and I have many times considered myself greatly favored
by the knowledge of the ministry of my dear wife’s
blessed spirit; but, friend Daniel, if she had been
a little more explicit in this instance it would have
been a great comfort to me.Follow me now, friend
Daniel.You have got it down to where she spoke.
Well, she raised her hand and seemed to point to the
couch of Dorcas Elizabeth” (that was what Bess
had been baptized, and was called by her father on
solemn occasions) “my thoughts had
been dwelling on the child, and her increasing age
and future duties and she said, ’Marry
her wisely to Thomas,’ and repeated the words
three times.”
I heard the scratching pen and Mr.
Haines’ depressed, uncertain sigh, and my own
heart sank heavily.There was no Thomas to marry
her to but our Tom, and such a thing was simply preposterous
and wicked.I could not, I would not, bear even
to think of it.
Oh, good Mrs. Haines, departed so
long ago! why should you come back troubling us about
such, things? and, above all, why could you not as
well have said Charles as Thomas?
“I have that set down,”
said Uncle Pennyman.Mr. Haines sighed again in
that anxious, uncertain way of his:
“During the first day after
the visitation, Daniel, I could not recall whether
my wife’s appearance said, ‘To Thomas,
marry her wisely,’ or as we now put it down;
but since you have set it clearly before me, and your
son will so soon be here, I feel that I am justified
in having it stated in that way, and that Providence
is guiding me.”
Oh how my heart rose against Uncle
Pennyman as I listened!He was the one to blame
for such a shameful, foolish notion stealing into Mr.
Haines’ head!Left to himself, any name
would have suited him equally well, and here was Tom’s
thrust in without any earthly reason.It was really
dreadful!I could scarcely stand on my feet when
I remembered how Tom loved his adopted father, and
with what unselfish devotion he always spoke of him.
“If he’s told that it will be a family
blessing, he never will have the heart to deny them
and grieve Uncle Pennyman.Poor Tom! he is so
shockingly unselfish himself that he would rather enjoy
a sacrifice than otherwise, I suppose.”
So ran my thoughts, and I grew desperate.Desperation
awakens courage.Tom would be there in the evening,
and if anything could be done it had to be done at
once.
I slipped out silently as I came:
no one heard me.I did not mean that they should
do so, for, to confess the truth, I was listening on
purpose.I dressed to go out with Mr. Pepper;
so did Bessie, though I must say she was very nervous
and uncertain about it.“You know papa does
not know him in in the character of a friend
of mine,” she said, hesitatingly.“Miss
Pepper introduced him, and that is all.”
“But that is no reason why it
should be all,” I said to myself, and paid no
attention to her little bashful fussiness.
When he arrived, I saw in his eyes
that he meant to take advantage of the opportunity
I was making for him, and so I boldly carried out my
plan.We started, and had gone a block or two
when I discovered that they were becoming unaware
of my existence and completely absorbed in each other.
“Poor dears!” I thought, “let them
have a still better chance.”So I stopped
in the most natural way possible at a window where
trimmings were displayed, and began to stare at some
ribbon.“The very shade!” I said:
“I would not miss it for anything.Pray
go on slowly, and I’ll join you presently.
Keep on till you reach the church I know
the way.And be sure you stay till I come.
No, you shall not come in:I insist that you go
right on, and do not bother.I have a sort of
pride in making bargains, and they never can be made
in company, you know.”I laughed and wouldn’t
listen to their waiting, and managed it so well that
they went away as unsuspecting and tender as two lambs.
I waited till they were out of sight, and then I started
straight for home.
I was in high glee till Mrs. Tanner came up stairs.
“There are great preparations
making for Mr. Tom,” said she with a portentous
face.“Mr. Haines has given more orders
about his reception than I ever knew him to issue
before; and, what seems strange, he actually insists
on my calling him Mr. Thomas, when I never can get
my tongue round anything but Mr. Tom, in the world.”
Both seemed threatening the
preparations and the name; and when Mrs. Tanner asked
where Miss Bessie was, and heard that she had gone
out, she shook her head and said that she was afraid
her pa wouldn’t like it.This convinced
me that she too had guessed the nature of the vision,
and made me more than ever anxious to save poor Bessie
and Tom from mutual unhappiness.The first effort
was made, and I must consider the next step.
I felt nearly sure that by this time the two dear Sunday-school
workers had become personal in their conversation,
and taking up my position on the broad sofa in the
quiet, shady back parlor, I set myself to thinking
out the plan.It was a great, solidly-furnished
old room, staid and handsome like the rest of the
house, and meant for comfort in every particular.
Over the mantelpiece, and directly opposite to me,
was a life-size picture of Mrs. Haines, a very young
lady with a mild shyness of expression and a great
deal of flaxen hair.She had died when Bessie
was a baby, and was altogether a more childlike and
undecided person than her daughter.The wonder
therefore was that she should have become so dictatorial
in the visions of the night, and undertaken to control
the family affairs after so many years, never having
meddled with them while there was a living opportunity.
I was just thinking how useless it
would be to appeal to Uncle Pennyman without without
saying something about Tom (and that under the circumstances
could not be thought of:it made me burn all over
merely to have it in my mind for a moment), when I
became drowsy, and had not time to question the feeling
until I was sound asleep.
A murmur of voices roused me, or perhaps
I was going to wake at any rate, for they were singularly
low, and the speakers quite unconscious of my presence.
I looked up, and in the faint light coming between
the bowed shutters and lace curtains I saw the Rev.
Charles and Bessie directly under the portrait of
Mrs. Haines.He had thrown his arm around her,
and, although she struggled just a little in the embrace,
held her to his heart.
“Oh, I cannot believe it,”
she was saying:“it is like a dream.
And Winnie too! to forget all about dear
Winnie just because I am so happy.It is selfish
and unkind, dear, I am afraid.”
He told her I was too good, too lovable
to quarrel with their bliss, and held her to his heart
while he looked up to the flaxed-haired, baby-faced
mother for a blessing with quite a glow of feeling
on his face and real tears in his eyes.
There was something in mine I suppose,
for when I looked too I could scarcely believe them:
the portrait seemed to show a different face entirely.
The blue eyes bent down on those upturned to meet them
with a look I had never beheld in them before, and
the delicate little pink mouth seemed to tremble with
a blessing.
“Am I dreaming?” I almost
asked it aloud, and the question and the sound of
Uncle Pennyman’s voice in the book-room gave
me a new idea.Softly I slipped from my place
and out at the open door, leaving the absorbed ones
to themselves, and joined my uncle and Mr. Haines where
they were preparing for another conflict with the
commentators.
“I have had a dream,” I said solemnly.
“A dream!” repeated they.
“Yes, and it was so lifelike
that I must tell it to you, for I am convinced it
is no common warning, but one full of meaning and truth.”
They gazed at me blankly, and I went
on, fearing to stop an instant lest I should lose
my courage:
“I was lying on the sofa opposite Mrs. Haines’
portrait ”
“The very place where I lay when last I dreamed,”
murmured her husband.
“And I saw Bessie and a gentleman
hand in hand beneath it, looking up into the sweet
face for a blessing; and oh such a heavenly smile lighted
it while the beautiful lips seemed to murmur, ’She
will marry wisely, dear Thomas!’”
Mr. Haines was so shaken by my words
that my heart misgave me.He covered his face
with his hands.“She used to call me dear
Thomas,” he said, and the tears ran through
his fingers.
“Then the name was yours”
said Uncle Pennyman with weighty consideration.
“You remember I said it was capable of a double
application:those things are wonderful, and interpret
each other.Winnie, my dear girl, could you distinguish
this person’s face?”
Before I could answer, Mrs. Tanner
at the door said, “Here’s Mr. Tom, bless
his heart!I never can learn to call him anything
else.”
Tom was so glad to see me!
Yes, I may as well tell it, for it told itself:
dear Tom never seemed so glad before.
“Was it his face, Winnie?” whispered Mr.
Haines.
If ever No was said with energy
and decision, it was in my reply.The parlor
door opened just as we were about to go in all together,
shaking hands and making kind speeches over Tom, and
Bessie and the Rev. Charles appeared in the act of
taking leave of each other.
“That’s the face!”
I cried dramatically; and then I really and truly did
faint stone dead, as Mrs. Tanner said afterward for
I was not used to telling lies, and even white ones
were exciting things to tell, and scarcely justified
themselves to my conscience by the magnitude of the
good they were to do.
When I came to myself, Bessie was
hanging over me with all the love she had left from
Mr. Charles, I suppose; and I heard Mr. Haines and
Uncle Pennyman talking with Tom, and trying to explain
to him the remarkable nature of the vision that had
overcome me.I sat up, and tried to laugh and
declare that it was nothing at all, though my heart
kept throbbing.
“You have all had dreams,”
said Tom:“you have yet to hear mine.
Uncle, I dreamed that Winnie and I loved each other,
and that I asked you for her and you said yes.”
“No, Thomas,” said Uncle
Pennyman gravely, but with a kind of breaking about
his mouth:“your eyes were open when you
had that vision, and you must not jest with serious
subjects.But it is well you mentioned it, dear
boy, and it is well our child Winnie received such
a remarkable direction, since it throws light on friend
Haines’ visitation, and apparently the happiness
of that excellent young minister and our dear Bessie
here.”
“The young man has just expressed
himself in corroboration of the vision,” said
Mr. Haines, much affected.
Bessie threw her arms round her father,
then round me, and then she ran away.Mr. Haines
and Uncle Pennyman went out to their commentaries,
Mrs. Tanner to see to her buns:Tom and I were
alone.
“What is this about, Winnie darling?”
he said.
“Tom,” said I, “we are all the victims
of dreams.”
MARGARET HOSMER.