I
Six o’clock next morning found
Graeme on the deck of the Ibex as she threaded
her way swiftly among the bristling black rocks that
guard the coast of Guernsey.
Herm and Jethou lay sleeping in the
eye of the sun. Beyond them lay a filmy blue
whaleback of an island which he was told was Sark,
and it was to Sark he was bound.
And wherefore Sark, when, within reasonable
limits, all the wide world lay open to him?
Truly, it might not be easy to say.
But this I know,—having so far learned
the lesson of life, though missing much else—that
at times, perhaps at all times, when we think our
choice of ways our very own,—when we stand
in doubt at the crossroads of life, and then decide
on this path or that, and pride ourselves on the exercise
of our high prerogative as free agents,—the
result, when we look back, bears in upon our hearts
the mighty fact that a higher mind than our own has
been quietly at work, shaping our ends and moulding
and rounding our lives. We may doubt it at times.
We may take all the credit to ourselves for dangers
passed and tiny victories won, but in due time the
eyes of our understanding are opened—and
we know.
Possibly it was the rapt eulogiums
of his friend Black—who had spent the previous
summer in Sark, and had ever since been seeking words
strong enough in which to paint its charms—that
forced its name to the front when he stood facing
the wide world, that lacked, for him at all events,
a Margaret Brandt, and was therefore void and desolate.
“If ever you seek perfect peace,
relief from your fellows, and the simple life, try
Sark—and see that you live in a cottage!”
he remembered Adam Black murmuring softly, as they
sat smoking at the Travellers’ one night, shortly
after that memorable dinner of the Whitefriars’.
And then he had heaved a sigh of regret at thought
of being where he was when he might have been in Sark.
Graeme knew nothing whatever of Sark
save what his friend had let fall at times. “Jersey,
Guernsey, Alderney, and Sark,” recalled his
short-jacket and broad-collar days, and the last of
the quartette had always somehow conjured up in his
mind the image of a bleak, inaccessible rock set in
a stormy sea, where no one lived if he could possibly
find shelter elsewhere,—an Ultima Thule,
difficult of access and still more difficult of exit,
a weather-bound little spot into which you scrambled
precariously by means of boats and ladders, and out
of which you might not be able to get for weeks on
end.
But Sark was to hold a very different
place in his mind henceforth. The name of Calais
burnt itself into the heart of Queen Mary by reason
of loss. Surely on John Graeme’s heart the
name of Sark may hope to find itself in living letters,
for in Sark he was to find more than he had lost—new
grace and charm in life, new hopes, new life itself.
He had gone straight home from Lincoln’s
Inn, and packed his portmanteau, knowing only that
he was going away somewhere out of things, caring
little where, so long as it was remote and lonely.
Fellow-man—and especially
woman—was distasteful to him at the moment.
He craved only Solitude the Soother, and Nature the
Healer.
He packed all he thought he might
need for a couple of months’ stay, and among
other things the manuscript he had been at work upon
until more pressing matters intervened. He felt,
indeed, no slightest inclination towards it, or anything
else, at present. But that might come, for Work
and he were tried friends.
He wrote briefly to Lady Elspeth telling
her how things were with him, and that he was going
away for a time. He did not tell her where, for
the simple reason that at the moment of writing he
did not know himself. Sark came into his mind
later.
He told his landlady that he was going
away for a change, and she remarked in motherly fashion
that she was glad to hear it, and it was high time
too. He told her to keep all his letters till
he sent for them. He had no importunate correspondents,
his next book was as good as placed, and all he desired
at the moment was to cut the painter, and drift into
some quiet backwater where he could lie up till life
should wear a more cheerful face.
And so no single soul knew where he
had gone, and he said to himself, somewhat bitterly,
and quite untruthfully, that no single soul cared.
He had paced the deck all night.
The swift smooth motion of the boat, with a slight
slow roll in it, was very soothing; and the first
tremulous hints of the dawn, and the wonder of its
slow unfolding, and the coming of the sun were things
to be remembered.
The cold gaunt aloofness, and weltering
loneliness of the Casquets appealed to him strongly.
Just the kind of place, he said to himself, for a
heart-sick traveller to crawl into and grizzle until
he found himself again.
As they turned and swung in straight
between the little lighthouse on White Rock and Castle
Cornet, the bright early sunshine was bathing all
the rising terraces of St. Peter Port in a golden haze.
Such a quaint medley of gray weathered walls and mellowed
red roofs, from which the thin blue smoke of early
fires crept lazily up to mingle with the haze above!
Such restful banks of greenery! Such a startling
blaze of windows flashing back unconscious greetings
to the sun! This too was a sight worth remembering.
For a wounded soul he was somewhat surprised at the
enjoyment these things afforded him.
A further surprise was the pleasure
he found in the reduction of a hearty appetite at
an hotel on the front. Come! He was not as
hard hit as he had thought! There was life in
the young dog yet.
But these encouraging symptoms were
doubtless due to the temporary exhilaration of the
journey. The workaday bustle of the quays renewed
his desire for the solitary places, and he set out
to find means of transport to the little whalebacked
island out there in the golden shimmer of the sun.
There was no steamer till the following
day, he learned, and delay was not to his mind.
So presently he came to an arrangement with an elderly
party in blue, with a red-weathered face and grizzled
hair, to put him and his two portmanteaux across to
Sark for the sum of five shillings English.
“To Havver Gosslin,” said
the aged mariner, with much emphasis, and a canny
look which conveyed to Graeme nothing more than a simple
and praiseworthy desire on his part to avoid any possibility
of mistake.
“To Sark,” said Graeme, with equal emphasis.
“Ay, ay!” said the other;
and so it came that the new-comer’s initial
experience of the little island went far towards the
confirmation of the vague ideas of his childhood as
to its inaccessibility.
The ancient called to a younger man,
and they strolled away along the harbour wall to get
the baggage.
II
“Ee see,” said the old
gentleman, as soon as they had pulled out past Castle
Cornet, and had hoisted the masts and two rather dirty
sprit sails, and had run out the bowsprit and a new
clean jib with a view to putting the best possible
face on matters, and were beginning to catch occasional
puffs of a soft westerly breeze and to wallow slowly
along,—“Ee see, time’s o’
consekens to me and my son. We got to arn our
livin’. An’ Havver Gosslin’s
this side the island an’ th’ Creux’s
t’other side, an’ th’ currents round
them points is the very divvle.”
“That’s all right, as long as you land
me in Sark.”
“The very divvle,” and
the grizzled head wagged reminiscently. “I
seen ’em go right up to Casquets and haf-way
to Jarsey trying to get across to Sark. An’
when time’s o’ consekens an’ you
got to arn your livin’, you don’ want
to be playin’ ‘bout Casquets an’
Jarsey ‘stid of gittin’ ‘cross to
Sark an’ done wi’ it.”
“Not a bit of it. You’re
quite right. Try some of this,”—as
he began fumbling meaningly with a black stump of
a pipe.
He filled up, and passed on the pouch
to his son, who was lying on the thwarts forward,
and he also filled up and passed it back with a nod.
“What’s this?” asked Graeme.
“Jetto. Mr. Lee—Sir
Austin ‘e is now—brother o’
Passon Lee o’ the Port,” with a backward
jerk of the head, “’e rents it.”
“Live there?”
“Naw—rabbits.”
“And the bigger island yonder?”
“’At’s Harm.
’T’s a Garman man has that—Prince
Bloocher, they calls him. Keeps kangyroos there
an’ orstrichers an’ things. Don’t
let annybody ashore there now ’cept just to
Shell Beach, which he can’t help.”
They struck straight across to the
long high-ridged island in front, and Graeme’s
untutored eyes found no special beauty in it.
There was about it, however, a vague
gray aloofness which chimed with his spirit, a sober
austerity as of a stricken whale,—a mother-whale
surely, for was not her young one there at her nose,—fled
here to heal her wound perchance, and desirous only
of solitude.
But, as they drew nearer, the vague
blue-gray bloom of the whaleback resolved itself into
a mantle of velvet green, which ran down every rib
and spine until it broke off sharp at varying heights
and let the bare bones through; and all below the
break was clean naked rock—black, cream-yellow,
gray, red, brown,—with everywhere a tawny
fringe of seaweed, since the tide was at its lowest.
Below the fringe the rocks were scoured almost white,
and whiter still at their feet, like a tangled drapery
of ragged lace, was the foam of the long slow seas.
And the solid silhouette of the island
broke suddenly into bosky valleys soft with trees
and bracken, and cliff-ringed bays, with wide-spread
arms of tumbled rock whose outer ends were tiny islets
and hungry reefs.
“Brecqhou,” said the ancient
mariner, as they swung past a long green island with
beetling cliffs, and yawning caverns, and comet-like
rushes of white foam among the chaos of rocks below.
Then they swirled through a tumbling
race, where the waters came up writhing and boiling
from strife with hidden rocks below,—past
the dark chasm between Brecqhou and the mainland of
Sark, through which the race roared with the voice
of many waters—and so into a quiet haven
where hard-worked boats lay resting from their labours.
There was a beach of tumbled rocks
and seaweed at the head of the bay, and there the
grim cliffs fell back into a steep green gully which
suggested possibility of ascent. But instead of
running in there, the sails were furled and the boat
nosed slowly towards the overhanging side of the cliff,
where a broad iron ladder fell precariously into the
water with its top projecting out beyond its base,
so that to climb it one had to lie on one’s
back, so to speak.
The ancient one eyed his passenger
whimsically as the boat stole up to the rungs, so
Graeme permitted himself no more than a careless glance
at the forbidding ladder and asked, “How about
the baggage?”
“We’ll see to et,”
grinned the ancient, and stood, hands on hips and
face twisted into a grim smile, while the stranger
laid hold of the rusty iron and started upwards, with
no slightest idea where the end of the venture might
land him.
With the after-assistance of a neighbour
of somewhat more genial construction,—inasmuch
as it at all events stood upright, and did not lean
over the opposite way of ladders in general,—the
top rung landed him on a little platform, whence a
rope and some foot-holes in the rock, and finally
a zigzag path, invited further ascent still.
The portmanteaux were hauled up by
a rope and shouldered by his guardian angels, and
they toiled slowly up the steep.
Each step developed new beauties behind
and on either side. At the top he would fain
have rested to drink it all in, but his guides went
stolidly on,—towards drink of a more palpable
description, he doubted not; and he remembered that
time was of consekens, and tore himself away from
that most wonderful view and panted after them.
The zigzag path led round clumps of
flaming gorse to a gap in a rough stone wall, and
so to a tall granite pillar which crowned the cliff
and commemorated a disaster. It was erected, he
saw, to the memory of a Mr. Jeremiah Pilcher who had
been drowned just below in attempting the passage
to Guernsey. He had but one regret at the moment—that
it was not instead to the memory of Mr. Jeremiah Pixley.
III
Down verdant lanes—past
thatched cottages, past a windmill, past houses of
more substantial mien, with a glimpse down a rolling
green valley—
“Hotel?” asked the ancient
abruptly, from beneath his load.
“No, I want rooms in some cottage. Can
you—”
“John Philip,” said the
ancient one didactically, and trudged on, and finally
dumped his share of the burden at the door of what
looked like a house but was a shop, in fact the shop.
He went inside and Graeme followed
him. A genial-faced elderly man, with gray hair
and long gray beard and gray shirt-sleeves, leaned
over the counter, talking in an unknown tongue to
a blue-guernseyed fisherman, and a quiet-faced old
lady in a black velvet hair-net stood listening.
They all looked up and saluted the
ancient one with ejaculations of surprise in the unknown
tongue, and Graeme stared hard at the gray-bearded
man, while they all discussed him to his face.
“Mr. De Carteret,” said
the ancient at last, with a jerk of the head towards
Gray-Beard. “He tell you where to find rooms.”
“Thanks! Do you speak any English, Mr.
De Carteret?”
The pleasant old face broke into a
smile. “I am En-glish,” he said,
with a quaint soft intonation, and as one who speaks
a foreign tongue, and beamed genially on his young
compatriot.
“That’s all right then.
Do you know you’re very like Count Tolstoi?”
“I haf been told so, but I do
not know him. What is it you would like, if you
please to tell me?”
“I want a sitting-room and a
bedroom for a month or so, perhaps more,—not
at an hotel. I want to be quiet and all to myself.”
“Ah—you don’
want an hotel. You want to be quiet,” and
he nodded understandingly. “But the hotels
is quiet joost now—”
“I’d sooner have rooms in a cottage if
I can get them.”
Count Tolstoi turned to the fisherman
to whom he had been speaking, and discussed the matter
at length with him in the patois.
Then, to Graeme, “If you please
to go with him. His wife has roomss to let.
You will be quite comfortable there.”
Graeme thanked him, and as soon as
he had settled satisfactorily with his boatmen, his
new keeper picked up both his bags, and led him along
a stony way past the post-office, to a creeper-covered
cottage, which turned a cold shoulder to the road
and looked coyly into a little courtyard paved with
cobble-stones and secluded from the outer world by
a granite wall three feet high.
And as they went, the young man asked
his silent guide somewhat doubtfully, “And do
you speak English?”
“Oh yes. We all speak English,”
he said, with a quiet smile, “except a few of
the older folks, maybe, and they mostly understand
it though they’re slow to talk.”
“And your name?”
“John Carre,”—which he pronounced
Caury.
“Now that’s very odd,”
laughed Graeme, and stood to enjoy it. “My
name is Corrie too, and John Corrie at that.”
“So!” said the other quietly,
with a glance from under his brows which might mean
surprise or only gentle doubt as to the stranger’s
veracity. And, so odd was the coincidence, that
the newcomer saw no necessity to spoil it by telling
him that his forebears had left him also the family
name of Graeme.
A large brown dog, smooth of hair
and of a fine and thoughtful countenance, got up from
the doorstep and gave them courteous greeting, and
a small, white, rough-coated terrier hurried out of
the kitchen and twisted himself into kinks of delight
at sound of their voices. And that decided it
before ever Graeme looked at the rooms. For if
there was one thing he liked when he wanted to be alone,
it was the friendly companionship of a couple of cheerful
dogs.
And that is how he came,—without
any special intent that way, but through, as one might
say, a purely accidental combination of circumstances—to
be living in that cottage in the Rue Lucas in the
little isle of Sark, and under a name that was indeed
his own but not the whole of his own. And herein
the future was looking after itself and preparing
the way for that which was to be.
IV
The cottage was apparently empty.
His guide and namesake looked into the kitchen, and
called up a stair which led out of it, but got no
answer.
“She will be up at the house,”
he said, and turned and went off up the garden behind,
while the dogs raced on in front to show the way.
Through a cleft in the high green
bank topped by a thick hedge of hawthorn, they came
out into a garden of less utilitarian aspect.
Here were shrubs and flowers, palms and conifers and
pale eucalyptus trees, clumps of purple iris and clove
pinks, roses just coming to the bud, and beyond, a
very charming bungalow, built solidly of gray granite
and red tiles, with a wide verandah all round.
A pleasant-faced woman in a large black sunbonnet
came out of the open front door as they went up the
path.
“My wife,” murmured Carre,
and proceeded quietly to explain matters in an undertone
of patois.
“I hope you speak English also,
Mrs. Carre,” said Graeme.
“Oh yess,” with a quick
smile. “We are all English here.”
“Surely you are Welsh,”
he said, for he had met just that same cheerful type
of face in Wales.
“Noh, I am Sark,” she
smiled again. “I can gif you a sitting-room
and a bet-room”—and they proceeded
to business, and then the dogs escorted them back
to the cottage, to see the stranger fairly inducted
to his new abode, and to let him understand that they
rejoiced at his coming and would visit him often.
He thought he would be very comfortable
there, but why the sitting-room was not the bedroom
he never could understand. For it was only a
quarter the size of the other, and its single window
looked into a field, and a rough granite wall clothed
with tiny rock-weeds hid all view of the road and
its infrequent traffic. While the bedroom was
a room of size, and its two windows gave on to the
covered well and the cobbled forecourt, and offered
passers-by, if so inclined, oblique views of its occupant
in the act of dressing if he forgot to pull down the
blind.
The windows of both rooms were set
low in the massive granite walls, and being always
wide open, they offered, and indeed invited, easy
access to—say, a grave-faced gentlemanly
brown dog and a spasmodic rough-coated terrier without
a tail, whenever the spirit moved them to incursion,
which it invariably did at meal-times and frequently
in between.
These two new friends of his—for
they were never mere acquaintances, but adopted him
into fullest brotherhood at sight—proved
no small factors in Graeme’s extrication from
the depths.
Human companionship, even of the loftiest,
most philosophic, most gracious, would, for the time
being, have jarred and ruffled his naturally equable
spirit. Two only exceptions might have been conceivably
possible—some humble, large-souled friend,
anxious only to anticipate his slightest wish, desirous
only of his company, and—dumb, and so unable
to fret him with inane talk; or—Margaret
Brandt.
The first he could have endured.
The latter—ah, God! How he would have
rejoiced in her! The spirit groaned within him
at times in agonised longing for her; and the glories
of the sweet spring days, in a land where spring is
joyous and radiant beyond most, turned gray and cheerless
in the shadow of his loss. What Might Have Been
stabbed What Was to the heart and let its life-blood
run.
But, since neither of these was available,
a benignant Providence provided him with friends entirely
to his taste. For the great brown hound, Punch,
was surely, despite the name men had given him, a
nobleman by birth and breeding. Powerful and beautifully
made, the sight of his long lithe bounds, as he quartered
the cliff-sides in silent chase of fowl and fur, was
a thing to rejoice in; so exquisite in its tireless
grace, so perfect in its unconscious exhibition of
power and restraint. For the brown dog never gave
tongue, and he never killed. He chased for the
keen enjoyment of the chase, and no man had ever heard
him speak.
He was the first dumb dog Graeme had
ever come across, and the pathetic yearning in his
solemn brown eyes was full of infinite appeal to one
who suffered also from an unforgettable loss.
He answered to his name with a dignified appreciation
of its incongruity, and the tail-less white terrier,
more appropriately, to that of Scamp.
V
They were on the very best of terms,
these two friends of his, possibly because of their
absolute unlikeness,—Punch, large, solemn,
imperturbable, with a beautifully-curved slow-waving
tail and no voice; Scamp, a bundle of wriggling nerves
moved by electricity, with a sharp excited bark and
not even the stump of a tail. When he needed
to wag he wagged the whole of his body behind his front
legs.
These two were sitting watching him
expectantly as Mrs. Carre brought in his dinner that
first day, and she instantly ordered them out.
Punch rose at once, cast one look
of grave appeal at Graeme, as who would say—“Sorry
to leave you, but this is the kind of thing I have
to put up with,”—and walked slowly
away. Scamp grovelled flat and crawled to the
door like a long hairy caterpillar.
“Oh, let them stop,” said
Graeme. “I like them by me,” and the
culprits turned hopefully with pricked ears and anxious
faces.
“Mais non! They are troublesome
beasts. Allez, Ponch! Allez, Scamp!
A couche!”—and their heads and
ears drooped and they slunk away.
But, presently, there came a rustling
at the wide-open window which gave on to the field
at the back, and Graeme laughed out—and
he had not smiled for days—at sight of
two deprecatingly anxious faces looking in upon him,—a
solemn brown one with black spots above the eloquent
grave eyes, and a roguish white one with pink blemishes
on a twisting black nose. And while the large
brown face loomed steadily above two powerful front
paws, the small white face only appeared at intervals
as the nervous little body below flung it up to the
sill in a series of spasmodic leaps.
“We would esteem it a very great
favour, if you are quite sure it would not inconvenience
you,” said Punch, as plain as speech.
“Do, do, do, do, do give us
leave!” signalled Scamp, with every twist of
his quivering nose, and every gleam of his glancing
eyes, and every hair on end.
A click of the tongue, a noiseless
graceful bound, and Punch was at his side. A
wild scrambling rush, a wriggle on the sill, a patter
over the window-seat, and Scamp was twisting himself
into white figure-eights all over the room, with tremendous
energy but not a sound save the soft pad of his tiny
dancing feet.
Then, as he ate, the great brown head
pillowed itself softly on his knee, and the eloquent
brown eyes looked up into his in a way that a stone
image could hardly have resisted. The while Scamp,
on his hind legs, beat the air frantically with his
front paws to attract attention to his needs and danced
noiselessly all over the floor.
He gauged their characters with interest.
When he gave them morsels turn about, Punch awaited
his with gentlemanly patience, and even when purposely
passed by in order to see what he would do, obtruded
his claims by nothing more than a gentle movement
of the head on his friend’s knee; while Scamp,
in like case, twisted himself into knots of anxiety
and came perilously near to utterance.
The difference between them when,
through lack of intimate knowledge of their likes
and dislikes, they got something not entirely to their
taste, was also very typical. Punch would retire
quietly into obscurity, and having disposed of the
objectionable morsel somehow—either by
a strenuous swallow or in some corner—would
quietly reappear, lay his head on Graeme’s knee
again, and work it up to his lap with a series of
propitiatory little jerks that never failed of their
object. Scamp, on the other hand, would hold it
in his mouth for a moment till he had savoured it,
then place it meekly on the floor, bow his head to
the ground, and grovel flat with deprecatory white-eyed
up-glances, and as clearly as dog could say, would
murmur,—“Oh, Man, Lord of all that
go on four legs, forgive thy humble little servant
in that he is unable with enjoyment to eat that thou
hast of thy bounty tendered him! The fault is
wholly his. Yet, of thy great clemency, punish
him not beyond his capacity, for his very small body
is merely a bundle of nerves, and they lie so very
close to the skin that even a harsh word from thee
will set them quivering for an hour.” But,
at a comforting word, he was up in a flash dancing
and sparring away as gaily as ever.
Then, when Mrs. Carre brought in the
next course, they both retired discreetly below the
tent of the tablecloth. But she, knowing them
of old perhaps, found them out at once and cried,
“Ah you! I see you there! You are
just troublesome beasts!” But, seeing that her
guest was in the conspiracy, she permitted them for
that once; and in time, seeing that he really desired
their company, she allowed them to remain as a matter
of course and without any preliminary harrying.
VI
One other acquaintance he made during
these dark days,—perhaps one ought to say
an acquaintance and a half, if indeed the half in this
case was not greater than the whole, a matter which
Graeme never fully decided in his own mind,—a
small person of grim and gloomy tendencies, whose
sombre humours chimed at times with his own,—and
that small person’s familiar.
His name was Johnnie Vautrin, and,
as far as Graeme could make out, he was about eight
years old in actual years, but aged beyond belief in
black arts which made him a terror to his kind.
And his familiar, in the person of an enormous black
cat, which came and went, was named Marielihou.
Johnnie, and presumably Marielihou,
lived with an ancient dame who was held by some to
be their great-grandmother, and by some to be Marielihou
herself. This was a moot and much-discussed point
among the neighbours. What was beyond dispute
was that Johnnie was said to be grievously maltreated
by her at times, and to lead her a deuce of a life,
and she him. The family came originally from Guernsey
and had married into Sark, and, for this and other
reasons, was still looked askance at by the neighbours.
Both Johnnie and his ancient relative
were popularly—or unpopularly—credited
with powers of mischief which secured them immunities
and privileges beyond the common and not a little prudently
concealed dislike.
Old Mrs. Vautrin could put the evil
eye on her neighbours’ cows and stop their milk,
on their churns and stop their butter, on their kettles
and stop their boiling.
Johnnie claimed equal powers, but
excelled in forecasts of bad weather and ill luck
and evil generally, and, since there was no end to
his prognostications, they occasionally came true,
and when they did he exulted greatly and let no one
forget it.
He had a long, humorously snaky, little
face, a deep sepulchral voice, which broke into squeaks
in moments of excitement, and curious black eyes with
apparently no pupils—little glittering black
wells of ill intent, with which he cowed dogs and
set small children screaming and grown ones swearing.
His little body was as malformed as his twisted little
soul, and he generally sat in the hedge taking his
pleasure off the passers-by, much to their discomfort.
Johnnie also saw ghosts, or said he
did, which came to much the same thing since none
could prove to the contrary. He had even slept
one night in an outhouse up at the Seigneurie, and
had carefully locked the door, and so the little old
lady in white, who only appears to those who lock
their doors of a night, came to him, and, according
to Johnnie, they carried on a long and edifying conversation
to their mutual satisfaction.
He had also a cheerful habit of visiting
sick folks and telling them he had seen their spirits
in the lanes at night, and so they might just as well
give up all hopes of getting better. On payment
of a small fee, however, he was at times, according
to his humour, willing to admit that it might have
been somebody else’s ghost he had seen, but
in either case his visitations tended to cheerfulness
in none but himself. He was great on the meanings—dismal
ones mostly—of flights of birds and falling
stars and fallen twigs. And he had been known
to throw a branch of hawthorn into a house which had
incurred his displeasure.
The men scoffed at him openly, and
occasionally gave him surreptitious pennies.
The women and children feared him; and the dogs, to
the last one, detested him but gave him wide berth.
Graeme had very soon run across the
little misanthrope and, in his own black humour, found
him amusing. They rarely met without a trial of
wit, or parted without a transfer of coppers from the
large pocket to the small. Wherefore Johnnie
made a special nest in the hedge opposite the cottage,
and waylaid his copper-mine systematically and greatly
to his own satisfaction and emolument. But, like
the dogs, though on a lower level, he too was not
without his effect on Graeme’s spirits, and
if he did not lift him up he certainly at times helped
him out of himself and his gloomy thoughts.
VII
“You’re just an unmitigated
little humbug, Johnnie,” said Graeme, as he
leaned over the wall smoking, to the small boy whose
acquaintance he had made the previous day, and who
had promptly foretold a storm which had not come.
“Unmitigumbug! Guyablle!
Qu’es’ ce que c’es’
que ca?” echoed the small boy, with
very wide eyes.
“You, my son. Your black
magic’s all humbug. It lacks the essential
attribute of fulfilment. It doesn’t work.
Black magic that doesn’t work is humbug.”
“Black-mack-chick! My Good! You do
talk!”
“What about that storm?”
“Ah ouaie! Well, you wait. It come.”
“So will Christmas, and the
summer after next, if we wait long enough. On
the same terms I foretell thunders and lightnings,
rain, hail, snow, and fiery vapours, followed by lunar
rainbows and waterspouts.”
“Go’zamin!” said
Johnnie, with a touch of reluctant admiration at such
an outflow of eloquence; and then, by way of set-off,
“I sec six black crows, ’s mawn’n.”
“Ah—really?
And what do you gather from such a procession as that
now?”
“Some un’s gwain’
to die,” in a tone of vast satisfaction.
“Of course, of course—if
we wait long enough. It’s perhaps you.
You’ll die yourself sometime, you know.”
“Noh, I wun’t. No
’n’ll ivver see me die. I’ll
just turn into sun’th’n—a gull
maybe,” as one floated by on moveless wing, the
very poetry of motion; and the fathomless black eyes
followed it with pathetic longing.
“Cormorant more likely, I should say.”
“Noh, I wun’t. I
don’ like corm’rants. They stink.
Mebbe I’ll be a hawk,”—as his
eye fell on one, like a brown leaf nailed against the
blue sky. “Did ee hear White Horse last
night?”
“I did hear a horse in the night,
Johnnie, but I couldn’t swear that he was a
white one.”
“Didn’ git up an’ look out?”
disappointedly.
“No, I didn’t. Why
should I get up to look out at a horse? I can
see horses any day without getting out of bed in the
middle of the night.”
“’Twus the White Horse
of the Coupee,”—in a weird whisper.—“I
heerd him start in Little Sark, and come across Coupee,
an’ up by Colinette, an’ past this house.
An’ if you’d ha’ looked out an’
seen him, you’d ha’ died.”
“Good old White Horse!
I’m glad I stopped in bed. Did you see him
yourself now?”
“I’ve rid him! Yes!—an’
told him where to go,” with a ghoulish nod.
“Quite friendly with ghosts and things, eh?”
“I don’ mind ’em.
I seen the olé lady up at the big house.
Yes, an’ talked to her too.”
“Clever boy! Put the evil eye on her?”
“Noh, ee cann’t.”
“Can’t? Why, I thought
you were a past master in all little matters of that
kind.”
“Ee cann’t put evil eye on a ghost,”
with infinite scorn.
“Oh, she’s a ghost, is she? And what
did you talk about?”
“You coul’n’t understan’,”
grunted Johnnie, to whom his meeting with the White
Lady was a treasured memory if a somewhat tender subject.
VIII
And Marielihou? Ah, Marielihou
was a black mystery. Sometimes she was there,
and sometimes she wasn’t, and if at such times
you asked Johnnie where she was, he would reply mysteriously,
“Aw, she’s busy.”
And busy Marielihou was, always and
at all times. If Graeme found her in the hedge
with Johnnie, she was busy licking her lips with vicious
enjoyment as though she had just finished eating something
that had screamed as it died. Or she was licking
them snarlishly and surreptitiously, and sharpening
her claws, as though just about starting out after
something to eat—something which he knew
would certainly scream as it died. For Marielihou
was a mighty hunter, and her long black body could
be seen about the cliffs at any time of night or day,
creeping and worming along, then, of a sudden, pointing
and stiffening, and flashing on to her prey like the
black death she was.
Six full-grown rabbits had Marielihou
been known to bring home in a single day, to say nothing
of all the others that had gone to the satisfaction
of her own inappeasable lust for rabbit-flesh and
slaughter.
As to the strange tales the neighbours
whispered about her, Graeme could make neither head
nor tail of them. But when old Tom Hamon put
it to him direct, he had to confess that he never had
seen old Mother Vautrin and Marielihou together, nor
both at the same time.
“B’en!” said old
Tom, as if that ended the matter. “An’
I tell you, if I had a silver bullet I’d soon
try what that Marrlyou’s made of.”
“And why a silver bullet?” asked Graeme.
“’Cause—Lead
bullets an’t no good ‘gainst the likes
o’ Marrlyou. Many’s the wan I’ve
sent after her, ay, an’ through her, and she
none the worse. Guyablle!” and old Tom
spat viciously.
“Perhaps you missed her,”
suggested Graeme, not unreasonably as he thought.
“Missed her!” with immense
scorn. “I tell ee bullets goes clean through
her, in one side an’ out t’other, an’
she never a bit the worse. I’ve foun’
’em myself spatted on rock just where she sat.”
“Well, why don’t you get
a silver bullet and try again?”
“Ah! Teks some getting does silver
bullets.”
“How much?”
“A shill’n would mek a
little wan,” and Graeme gave him a shilling to
try his luck, because Marielihou’s unsportsmanlike
behaviour did not commend itself to him.
But it took many shillings to obtain
anything definite in the way of results, and Graeme
had his own humorous suspicions as to the billets
some of them found, and gently chaffed old Tom on the
subject whenever they met.
“You wait,” said Tom, with mysterious
nods.
IX
Graeme’s sober intention had
been to put Margaret Brandt, and the agonising regrets
that clung to every thought of her, strenuously out
of his mind. But that he found more possible in
the intention than in the accomplishment.
The first shock of loss numbs one’s
mental susceptibilities, of course, much as a blow
on the head affects the nervous system. The bands
are off the wheels, the machinery is out of order,
and the friction seems reduced. It is when the
machine tries to work again that the full effects
of the jar are felt.
And so he found it now. As mind
and body recovered tone in the whole vitalising atmosphere
of the wondrous little isle,—the air, the
sea, the sense of remoteness, the placid life of the
place, the abounding beauties of cliff and crag and
cave,—his heart awoke also to the aching
sense of its loss.
All outward things—all
save Johnny Vautrin, and Marielihou, and old Tom Hamon,
and several others—sang abundantly of the
peace and fulness and joy of life, but his heart was
still so sore from its bruising that at times these
outward beauties seemed only to mock him with their
brightness.
In the first shock of his downcasting,
wounded pride said, “I will show no sign.
I will forget her. I will salve the bruise with
work. Margaret Brandt is not the only woman in
the world. In time some other shall take her
place;”—and he tried his hardest to
believe it.
But body is one thing and mind another.
The body you may compel to any mortal thing, but the
mind is of a different order, and strongest will cannot
whip it to heel at times. Forbid it thought of
thing or person and the forbidden is just that which
will persist in obtruding itself to the exclusion
of all else.
And so, in spite of him, the dull
ache in his heart at every thought of Margaret murmured
without ceasing, “There is none like her—none!”
And crush and compel it as he might, the truth would
out, and out the more the more he tried to crush it.
And so at times, in spite of his surroundings,
his spirits dragged in lowest deeps.
Work he could not as yet, for the
work of the writer demands absolute concentration
and most complete surrender, and all his faculties
were centred, in spite of himself, on Margaret Brandt
and his own great loss in her.
He rambled all over the island with
his dog friends, risked skin and bones in precarious
descents into apparently impossible depths, scrambled
laboriously among the ragged bastions of the Coupee
and Little Sark, explored endless caverns, loitered
by day in bosky lanes, and roamed restlessly by night
under the brightest stars he had ever seen.
But, wherever he went—down
underground in the Boutiques or the Gouliots; or lying
on the Eperquerie among the flaming gorse and cloudlike
stretches of primroses; or standing on Longue Pointe
while the sun sank in unearthly splendours behind
Herm and Guernsey; or watching from the windmill the
throbbing life-lights all round the wide horizon;—wherever
he was, and whatever he was doing, there with him
always was the poignant remembrance of Margaret Brandt
and his loss in her.
His heart ached so, at thought of
the emptiness and desolation of the years that lay
before him, that at times his body ached also, and
the spirit within him groaned in sympathy.
Life without Margaret! What was it worth?
Though it brought him riches and honours
overpassing his hopes—and he doubted now
at times if that were possible, lacking the inspiration
of Margaret—what was it worth?
Riches and honours, won at the true
sword’s point of earnest work, were good and
worth the winning. But yet, without Margaret,
they were as nothing to him. His whole heart
cried aloud for Margaret. Without her all the
full rich hues of life faded into dull gray ashes.
With Margaret to strive for, he had
felt himself capable of mighty things. Without
her!
And that she should throw herself
away on a Charles Pixley!—Charles the smiling,
the imperturbable, the fount of irrepressible chatter
and everlasting inanitiés! How could such
a one as Charles Pixley possibly satisfy her nobler
nature? Out of the question! Impossible!
But then it is just possible that he was not exactly
in the best state of mind for forming an unbiassed
opinion on so large a question as that.
Anyway he was out of it, and Margaret
Brandt was henceforth nothing to him. If he said
it once he said it hundreds of times, as if the simple
reiteration of so obvious a truth would make it one
whit the truer, when his whole heart was clamouring
that Margaret was all the worlds to him and the only
thing in the world that he wanted.
With an eye, perhaps, to his obvious
lack of cheerfulness, his namesake and host suggested
various diversions,—fishing for congers
and rock-fish, a voyage round the island, a trip across
to Herm, a day among the rabbits on. Brecqhou.
But he wanted none of them. His life was flapping
on a broken wing and all he wanted was to be left alone.
In time the wound would heal, and
he would take up his work again and find his solace
in it. But wounds such as this are not healed
in a day. It was raw and sore yet, the new skin
had not had time to form.
He recalled Lady Elspeth’s dissatisfaction
with his love-scenes, and thought, grimly, that now
he could at all events enter fully into the feelings
of the man who had lost the prize, and would be able
to depict them to the life. If the choice had
been left to him he would gladly have dispensed with
all such knowledge to its profoundest depths, if only
the prize had remained to him. But the choice
had been Margaret’s, and the prize was Charles
Pixley’s.
If there was one thing he could have
imagined without actual experience, it was how a man
may feel when he loses. What he could not at
present by any possibility conceive was—how
it might feel to be the accepted lover of such a girl
as Margaret Brandt.
Confound her money! If it were
not for that, Pixley would probably never have wanted
to marry her. Money was answerable for half the
ills of life, and the contrariness of woman for the
other half. Confound money! Confound—Well,
truly, his state of mind was not a happy one.
X
But there was something in the crisp
Sark air that, by degrees and all unconsciously, braced
both mind and body;—something broadening
and uplifting in the wide free outlook from every
headland; something restorative of the grip of life
in the rush and roar of the mighty waves and the silent
endurance of the rocks; something so large and aloof
and restful in the wide sweep of sea and sky; something
so hopeful and regenerative in the glorious exuberance
of the spring—the flaming gorse, the mystic
stretches of bluebells, the sunny sweeps of primroses,
the soft uncurlings of the bracken, the bursting life
of the hedgerows, the joyous songs of the larks—that
presently, and in due season, earthly worries began
to fall back into their proper places below the horizon,
and a new Graeme—a Graeme born of Sark and
Trouble—looked out of the old Graeme eyes
and began to contemplate life from new points of view.
It took time, however. Love is
a plant of most capricious and surprising growth.
It may take years to root and blossom. It may
spring up in a day, yet strike its roots right through
the heart and hold it as firmly as the growth of the
years. And, once the heart is enmeshed in the
golden filaments, it is a most dolorous work to disentangle
it.
For the first two weeks his mind ran
constantly on his loss. Momentarily it might
be diverted by outward things, but always it came
back with a sharp shock, and a bitter sense of deprivation,
to the fact that Margaret Brandt had passed out of
his life and left behind her an aching void.
Did he sit precariously among the
ragged scarps and pinnacles of Little Sark, while
the western seas raged furiously at his feet and the
Souffleur shot its rockets of snowy spray high into
the gray sky—through the passing film of
the spray, and the marbled coils of the tumbling waves,
the face of Margaret Brandt looked out at him.
Did he stride among the dew-drenched,
gold-spangled gorse bushes on the Eperquerie, while
the sun came up with ever fresh glories behind the
distant hills of France—Margaret’s
face was there in the sunrise.
Did he stand above Havre Gosselin
in the gloaming, while the sun sank behind Herm and
Guernsey in splendours such as he had never dreamed
of—just so, he said to himself, Margaret
had gone out of his life and left it gray and cheerless
as the night side of Brecqhou.
Wherever he was and whatever he did,
it was always Margaret, Margaret,—and Margaret
lost to him.
By the end of the third week, however,
the tonic effects of the strong sea air and water
began to work inwards. Healthy body would no longer
suffer sick heart. He had taken his morning plunge
hitherto as a matter of course, now he began to enjoy
it and to look forward to it—certain index
of all-round recovery.
His appetite grew till he felt it
needed an apology, at which Mrs. Carre laughed enjoyably.
He began to take more interest in his surroundings
for their own sakes. His thoughts of Margaret,
with their after-glow of tender memory, were like
the soft sad haze which falls on Guernsey when the
sun has sunk and left behind it, in the upper sky,
its slowly dying fires of dull red amber and gold.
Towards the end of the fourth week
he tentatively fished out his manuscript and began
to read it—with pauses. He grew interested
in it. He saw new possibilities in the story.—His
life was getting back on to the rails again.
XI
Greater bodily peace and comfort than
he found in that thick-set, creeper-covered, little
cottage in the Rue Lucas, man might scarcely hope
for. Anything more would have tended to luxury
and made for restraint.
He was free as the wind to come and
go as he listed, to roam the lonely lanes all night
and watch the coming of the dawn—which he
did; or to lie abed all day—which he did
not; to do any mortal thing that pleased him, so long
only as he gave his hostess full and fair warning
of the state of his appetite and the times when it
must be satisfied.
His quarters were not perhaps palatial,
but what man, king of himself alone, would live in
a palace?
He bumped his head with the utmost
regularity against the lintel of the front door each
time he entered, and only learned at last to bob by
instinct. And the beams in the ceilings were so
low that they claimed recognition somewhat after the
manner of a boisterous acquaintance.
But doors and windows were always
open, night and day, and his good friends the dogs
came in to greet him by way of the windows quite as
often as by the doors.
All through the black times those
two were his close companions, and no better could
he have had. They asked nothing of him—or
almost nothing, and they gave him all they had.
They were grateful from the bottom of their large
hearts for any slightest sign of recognition.
And they were proud of his company, which to others
would have proved somewhat of a wet blanket.
Without a doubt they assisted mightily in his cure,
though neither he nor they knew it.
Every morning when he jumped up to
see the weather, the first things that met him when
he reached the open window, were four eager eyes full
of welcome, and a grave intelligent brown face and
hopeful swinging tail, and a dancing white face and
little wriggling body.
Then he would pull up the blinds and
they would enter with an easy bound and a scramble,
and while he hastily flung on his things they would
prowl about, now pushing investigating noses into an
open drawer, and again taking a passing drink out
of his water-jug by way of first breakfast.
Then, away through the gaps in the
jewelled hedges, with the larks at their matins overhead,
and the tethered cows nuzzling out the dainty morning
grasses, and watching the intruders speculatively till
they passed out of sight into the next field.
“Which way? Which way?
Which way?” shrieked Scamp, as he tore to and
fro down every possible road to show that all were
absolutely alike to him. While Punch bounded
lightly to the first dividing of the ways and waited
there with slow-swinging tail to see which road Man
would choose.
The Harbour—or Les Laches—which?
Every morning Scamp raced hopefully towards the sweet-smelling
tunnel of hawthorn trees that led down to the other
tunnel in the rock and the tiny harbour, because, for
a very small dog, the granite slip was much easier
to compass than the steep ledges of Les Laches.
And every morning Punch waited quietly at Colinette
to see how Man would go.
And when the tide was low and the
harbour empty, Punch knew it was Les Laches almost
before Man’s face had turned that way, and off
he went at a gallop, and Scamp came tearing back with
expostulatory yelps, and got in Punch’s way
and was rolled head over heels, but always came right
side up at the fourth turn and rushed on without even
a remonstrance, for that was a very small price to
pay for the exalted companionship of Punch and Man.
So, past La Peignerie and La Forge,
with the thin blue smoke of gorse fires floating down
from every dumpy chimney and adding a flavour to the
sweetest air in the world,—with a morning
greeting from everyone they met—over the
heights and down the zigzag path to the sloping ledges,
and in they went, all three, into the clearest and
crispest water in the world, water that tingled and
sparkled, full charged with life and energy.
Then shivers and shakes, and hasty
play with a towel, and they were racing back across
the heights to breakfast and the passing of another
day, of which the greatest charm had passed already
with that plunge into the life-giving sea.
If you are inclined to think that
I enlarge too much on these two friends of his, let
me remind you that a man is known by the company he
keeps, and these two were Graeme’s sole companions
for many a day—those first dark days in
the sunny little isle, when all human companionship
would have been abhorrent to him.
In their company he found himself
again. Their friendship weaned him by degrees
from the jaundiced view of life which Margaret’s
dereliction had induced. They drew him, in time,
from his brooding melancholy, and through the upbuilding
of the body restored him to a quieter mind.
Let no man despise the help of a dog,
for there are times when the friendship of a dog is
more sufferable, and of more avail, and far more comforting,
than that of any ordinary human being.