No man who sinks to sleep at night
Knows what his dreams
shall be;
No man can know what wonder-sight
His inner eye shall
see.
THOMAS L. HARRIS.
When Holden was left alone in his
chamber, he sank into a seat and covered his face
with both hands. He remained in this position
for some time, and when he removed them, it was very
pale, and exhibited traces of strong emotion.
He cast his eyes slowly around the room, examining
every part, not even the furniture escaping minute
observation. But of all the objects a portrait
that hung over the fire-place attracted the most attention.
It was that of a man, past the prime of life, and
who in youth must have possessed considerable beauty.
The features were regular and well-formed, the forehead
high and broad, and the hair long and abundant, waving
in curls over the shoulders. What was the age
designed to be portrayed, it was difficult to determine
with any degree of exactness, for there was a contradiction
between the parts which appeared scarcely reconcilable
with one another. Looking at the furrows that
seamed the face, its pallor, and the wrinkles of the
brow, one would have said that the original must have
been a man between sixty and seventy, while the hair,
dark and glossy, indicated much less age. Yet,
the perfection of the drawing, the flesh-like tints
that melted into each other, and the air of reality
that stamped the whole, proclaimed the portrait the
work of a master, and it was impossible to avoid the
conviction that it was an authentic likeness.
Holden placed the candle on the mantelpiece
in such a manner as best to throw light upon the picture,
and stood at a little distance to contemplate it.
As he gazed, he began to fancy he discovered traits
which had at first escaped his observation. An
expression of pain and anxious sadness overspread
the face, and gleams of light, like the glare of insanity,
shot from the eyes. So strong was the impression,
and so deeply was he affected, that as if incapable
of enduring the sight, he shut his eyes, and turning
away, paced several times backwards and forwards,
without looking up. After a few turns, he stopped
before the portrait, and fixed his eyes upon it again,
but only for a moment, to resume his walk. This
he did repeatedly, until at last, with a groan, he
dropped into a chair, where, crossing his arms upon
his breast, he remained for awhile lost in thought.
Who can say what were the reflections that filled
his mind? Was he considering whether the painter
meant to delineate insanity, or whether it was not
a delusion springing from his own disordered intellect?
It was a long time before sleep visited
the Solitary in his soft and curtained bed. It
might be owing to the events of the day, so startling
and unusual; it might be on account of the yielding
bed, so different from his own hard couch; or in consequence
of the effect produced by the portrait; or of all
these causes combined, that sleep was long in coming,
and when it did come, was disturbed with dreams, and
unrefreshing. Before, however, Holden fell asleep,
he had lain, as if under the influence of a spell,
looking at the picture on which the beams of the moon,
stealing through the branches of the large elm that
shaded the house, flickered uncertainly and with a
sort of wierd effect, as the night wind gently agitated
the leaves.
It seemed to Holden, so insensibly
glided his last waking thought into his dreams making
one continuous whole, that the portrait he had been
looking at was a living person, and he was astonished
that he had mistaken a living being for a piece of
painted canvas. In a stern, deep voice the man
who had taken possession of the chair in which he
himself had been sitting, ordered him to approach.
If Holden had been so disposed, he had no ability
to disobey the command. He, therefore advanced
towards the figure, and at a signal knelt down at his
feet. The man, thereupon, stretching out his
hands, laid them upon his head in the attitude of
benediction. He then rose from his seat, and making
a sign to Holden to follow him, they noiselessly descended
the stairs together, and passed into the moonlight.
The man constantly preceding him, they went on, and
by familiar paths and roads, and in the ordinary time
that would be required to accomplish the distance,
arrived at a spot on the banks of the Wootuppocut well
known to Holden. Here the stranger stopped, and
seating himself upon the trunk of a felled tree, motioned
to his companion to be seated. Holden obeyed,
waiting for what should follow. Presently he saw
two figures, a male and female, approaching.
The latter was veiled, and although the face of the
man was exposed, it swam in such a hazy indistinctness
that it was impossible to make out the features.
Still it seemed to him that they were not entirely
unknown, and he tormented himself with ineffectual
attempts to determine where he had seen them.
He turned to his guide to ask who they were, but before
he could speak the stranger of the portrait placed
his fingers on his lips, as if to require silence.
The two persons advanced until they reached a small
brook that babbled down a ravine, and fell into the
river. Suddenly something glittered in the air;
the figures vanished; and upon looking at the brook
Holden beheld, to his horror, that it was red like
blood. He turned in amazement to his guide, who
made no reply to the look of inquiry, unless the word
“Friday,” which he uttered in the same
deep tone, can be so considered.
Holden awoke, and the sweat was standing
in great drops on his forehead. As his senses
and recollection were gradually returning, he directed
his eyes towards the place where the portrait hung,
half in doubt whether he should see it again.
The beams of the moon no longer played upon it, but
there was sufficient light in the room to enable him
to distinguish the features which now, more and more
distinctly emerged to sight. The hollow eyes
were fixed on his, and the word “Friday”
seemed still quivering on the lips.
Holden lay and thought over his dream.
With the young and imaginative, dreams are not uncommon,
but with the advanced in life they are usually unfrequent.
As the fancy decays, as the gay illusions
that brightened our youth disappear, to give place
to realities, as the blood that once rushed
hurriedly, circulates languidly farewell
to the visions that in storm or sunshine flitted around
our pillows.
It cannot, indeed, be said that Holden
never had dreams. The excitable temperament of
the man would forbid the supposition, but, even with
him, they were uncommon. He turned the one he
had just had over and over again, in his mind; but,
reflect upon it as he pleased, he could make nothing
out of it, and, at last, with a sense of dissatisfaction
and endeavoring to divert his mind from thoughts that
banished sleep, he forgot himself again.
His slumbers were broken and harassed
throughout the night, with horrid dreams and vague
anticipations of further evil. At one time he
was at his cabin, and his son lay bleeding in his arms,
pierced by the bullet of Ohquamehud. At another,
Faith was drowning, and stretching out her hands to
him for succor, and as he attempted to hasten to her
assistance, her father interfered and held him violently
back. And at another, he was falling from an
immeasurable height, with the grip of the Indian at
his throat. Down down he fell, countless
miles, through a roaring chaos, trying to save himself
from strangulation, until, just as he was about to
be dashed to pieces against a rock, he awoke sore
and feverish.
The sun was already some distance
above the horizon as Holden rose from his troubled
slumbers. The cool air of morning flowed with
a refreshing sweetness through the open window, and
the birds were singing in the branches of the large
elm. With a feeling of welcome he beheld the
grateful light. He endeavored to recall and reduce
to some coherency the wild images of his dreams, but
all was confusion, which became the more bewildering,
the longer he dwelt upon them, and the more he strove
to untangle the twisted skein. All that he could
now distinctly remember, were the place whither he
had been led, and the word spoken by the portrait.
When he descended to breakfast, both
Mr. Armstrong and his daughter remarked his disordered
appearance, and anxiously inquired, how he had passed
the night. To these inquiries, he frankly admitted,
that he had been disturbed by unpleasant dreams.
“You look,” said Mr. Armstrong,
“like the portrait which hangs in the chamber
where you slept. It is,” he continued, unheeding
the warning looks of Faith, “the portrait of
my father, and was taken a short time before he was
seized with what was called a fit of insanity, and
which was said to have hastened his death.
“How is it possible, dear father,
you can say so?” said Faith, anxious to prevent
an impression she was afraid might be made on Holden’s
mind.
“I do not mean,” continued
Armstrong, with a singular persistency, “that
Mr. Holden’s features resemble the portrait very
much; but there is something which belongs to the
two in common. Strange that I never thought of
it before!”
Holden during the conversation had
sat with drooping lids, and a sad and grieved expression,
and now, as he raised his eyes, he said, mournfully
“Thou meanest, James, that I,
too, am insane. May Heaven grant that neither
thou nor thine may experience the sorrow of so great
a calamity.”
Faith was inexpressibly shocked.
Had any one else spoken thus, with a knowledge of
Holden’s character, she would have considered
him unfeeling to the last degree, but she knew her
father’s considerateness and delicacy too well
to ascribe it to any other cause than to a wandering
of thought, which had of late rapidly increased, and
excited in her mind an alarm which she trembled to
give shape to. Before she could interpose, Armstrong
again spoke
“Insane!” he said.
“What is it to be insane? It is to have
faculties exalted beyond the comprehension of the
multitude; to soar above the grovelling world.
Their eyes are too weak to bear the glory, and, because
they are blind, they think others cannot see.
The fools declared my father was insane. They
say the same of you, Holden, and, the next thing,
I shall be insane, I suppose. Ha, ha!”
Holden himself was startled.
He muttered something indistinctly before he answered
“May the world never say that of thee, dear
James!”
“Why not?” inquired Armstrong,
eagerly. “Alas! you consider me unworthy
to be admitted to the noble band of misunderstood and
persecuted men? True, true! I know it to
be true. My earthly instincts fetter me to earth.
Of the earth, I am earthy. But what shall prevent
my standing afar off, to admire them? What a foolish
world is this! Were not the prophets and apostles
denounced as insane men? I have it, I have it,”
he added, after a pause, “inspiration is insanity.”
Holden looked inquiringly at Faith,
whose countenance evinced great distress; then, turning
to Armstrong, he said
“Thou art not well, James.
Perhaps, like me, thou hast passed a disturbed night?”
“I have, of late been unable
to sleep as well as formerly,” said Armstrong.
“There is a pain here,” he added, touching
his forehead, “which keeps me awake.”
“Thou needest exercise.
Thou dost confine thyself too much. Go more into
the open air, to drink in the health that flows down
from the pure sky.”
“It is what I urge frequently
on my dear father,” said Faith.
“Faith is an angel,” said
Holden. “Listen to her advice. Thou
canst have no better guide.”
“She shall redeem my soul from death,”
said Armstrong.
When Holden left the house of his
host, he determined to carry into effect a resolution
which, it appeared now to himself, he had strangely
delayed, such was the influence what he had just seen
and heard exercised over him. That Fate or mathematical
Providence, however, in which he so devoutly believed,
notwithstanding he acted as though none existed, seemed
as if, tired out with his procrastination and irresolution,
determined to precipitate events and force him to
lift the veil, that for so many years with
a wayward temper and love of mystery, inexplicable
by any motives that regulate the movements of ordinary
minds he had chosen to spread around himself.
What followed only convinced him more thoroughly,
if that were possible, of his helplessness on the
surging tide of life and of the delusion of those
who imagine they are aught but bubbles, breaking now
this moment, now that, according to a predetermined
order.