The Floressas Des Esseintes, to judge
by the various portraits preserved in the Chateau
de Lourps, had originally been a family of stalwart
troopers and stern cavalry men. Closely arrayed,
side by side, in the old frames which their broad
shoulders filled, they startled one with the fixed
gaze of their eyes, their fierce moustaches and the
chests whose deep curves filled the enormous shells
of their cuirasses.
These were the ancestors. There
were no portraits of their descendants and a wide
breach existed in the series of the faces of this race.
Only one painting served as a link to connect the past
and present a crafty, mysterious head with
haggard and gaunt features, cheekbones punctuated
with a comma of paint, the hair overspread with pearls,
a painted neck rising stiffly from the fluted ruff.
In this representation of one of the
most intimate friends of the Duc d’Epernon
and the Marquis d’O, the ravages of a sluggish
and impoverished constitution were already noticeable.
It was obvious that the decadence
of this family had followed an unvarying course.
The effemination of the males had continued with quickened
tempo. As if to conclude the work of long years,
the Des Esseintes had intermarried for two centuries,
using up, in such consanguineous unions, such strength
as remained.
There was only one living scion of
this family which had once been so numerous that it
had occupied all the territories of the Île-de-France
and La Brie. The Duc Jean was a slender,
nervous young man of thirty, with hollow cheeks, cold,
steel-blue eyes, a straight, thin nose and delicate
hands.
By a singular, atavistic reversion,
the last descendant resembled the old grandsire, from
whom he had inherited the pointed, remarkably fair
beard and an ambiguous expression, at once weary and
cunning.
His childhood had been an unhappy
one. Menaced with scrofula and afflicted with
relentless fevers, he yet succeeded in crossing the
breakers of adolescence, thanks to fresh air and careful
attention. He grew stronger, overcame the languors
of chlorosis and reached his full development.
His mother, a tall, pale, taciturn
woman, died of anæmia, and his father of some uncertain
malady. Des Esseintes was then seventeen years
of age.
He retained but a vague memory of
his parents and felt neither affection nor gratitude
for them. He hardly knew his father, who usually
resided in Paris. He recalled his mother as she
lay motionless in a dim room of the Chateau de Lourps.
The husband and wife would meet on rare occasions,
and he remembered those lifeless interviews when his
parents sat face to face in front of a round table
faintly lit by a lamp with a wide, low-hanging shade,
for the duchesse could not endure light or
sound without being seized with a fit of nervousness.
A few, halting words would be exchanged between them
in the gloom and then the indifferent duc would
depart to meet the first train back to Paris.
Jean’s life at the Jesuit school,
where he was sent to study, was more pleasant.
At first the Fathers pampered the lad whose intelligence
astonished them. But despite their efforts, they
could not induce him to concentrate on studies requiring
discipline. He nibbled at various books and was
precociously brilliant in Latin. On the contrary,
he was absolutely incapable of construing two Greek
words, showed no aptitude for living languages and
promptly proved himself a dunce when obliged to master
the elements of the sciences.
His family gave him little heed.
Sometimes his father visited him at school. “How
are you . . . be good . . . study hard . . . “ and
he was gone. The lad passed the summer vacations
at the Chateau de Lourps, but his presence could not
seduce his mother from her reveries. She scarcely
noticed him; when she did, her gaze would rest on
him for a moment with a sad smile and that
was all. The moment after she would again become
absorbed in the artificial night with which the heavily
curtained windows enshrouded the room.
The servants were old and dull.
Left to himself, the boy delved into books on rainy
days and roamed about the countryside on pleasant
afternoons.
It was his supreme delight to wander
down the little valley to Jutigny, a village planted
at the foot of the hills, a tiny heap of cottages
capped with thatch strewn with tufts of sengreen and
clumps of moss. In the open fields, under the
shadow of high ricks, he would lie, listening to the
hollow splashing of the mills and inhaling the fresh
breeze from Voulzie. Sometimes he went as far
as the peat-bogs, to the green and black hamlet of
Longueville, or climbed wind-swept hillsides affording
magnificent views. There, below to one side, as
far as the eye could reach, lay the Seine valley, blending
in the distance with the blue sky; high up, near the
horizon, on the other side, rose the churches and
tower of Provins which seemed to tremble in the golden
dust of the air.
Immersed in solitude, he would dream
or read far into the night. By protracted contemplation
of the same thoughts, his mind grew sharp, his vague,
undeveloped ideas took on form. After each vacation,
Jean returned to his masters more reflective and headstrong.
These changes did not escape them. Subtle and
observant, accustomed by their profession to plumb
souls to their depths, they were fully aware of his
unresponsiveness to their teachings. They knew
that this student would never contribute to the glory
of their order, and as his family was rich and apparently
careless of his future, they soon renounced the idea
of having him take up any of the professions their
school offered. Although he willingly discussed
with them those theological doctrines which intrigued
his fancy by their subtleties and hair-splittings,
they did not even think of training him for the religious
orders, since, in spite of their efforts, his faith
remained languid. As a last resort, through prudence
and fear of the harm he might effect, they permitted
him to pursue whatever studies pleased him and to
neglect the others, being loath to antagonize this
bold and independent spirit by the quibblings of the
lay school assistants.
Thus he lived in perfect contentment,
scarcely feeling the parental yoke of the priests.
He continued his Latin and French studies when the
whim seized him and, although theology did not figure
in his schedule, he finished his apprenticeship in
this science, begun at the Chateau de Lourps, in the
library bequeathed by his grand-uncle, Dom Prosper,
the old prior of the regular canons of Saint-Ruf.
But soon the time came when he must
quit the Jesuit institution. He attained his
majority and became master of his fortune. The
Comte de Montchevrel, his cousin and guardian, placed
in his hands the title to his wealth. There was
no intimacy between them, for there was no possible
point of contact between these two men, the one young,
the other old. Impelled by curiosity, idleness
or politeness, Des Esseintes sometimes visited the
Montchevrel family and spent some dull evenings in
their Rue de la Chaise mansion where the ladies, old
as antiquity itself, would gossip of quarterings of
the noble arms, heraldic moons and anachronistic ceremonies.
The men, gathered around whist tables,
proved even more shallow and insignificant than the
dowagers; these descendants of ancient, courageous
knights, these last branches of feudal races, appeared
to Des Esseintes as catarrhal, crazy, old men repeating
inanitiés and time-worn phrases. A fleur
de lis seemed the sole imprint on the soft pap
of their brains.
The youth felt an unutterable pity
for these mummies buried in their elaborate hypogeums
of wainscoting and grotto work, for these tedious
triflers whose eyes were forever turned towards a hazy
Canaan, an imaginary Palestine.
After a few visits with such relatives,
he resolved never again to set foot in their homes,
regardless of invitations or reproaches.
Then he began to seek out the young
men of his own age and set.
One group, educated like himself in
religious institutions, preserved the special marks
of this training. They attended religious services,
received the sacrament on Easter, frequented the Catholic
circles and concealed as criminal their amorous escapades.
For the most part, they were unintelligent, acquiescent
fops, stupid bores who had tried the patience of their
professors. Yet these professors were pleased
to have bestowed such docile, pious creatures upon
society.
The other group, educated in the state
colleges or in the lycées, were less hypocritical
and much more courageous, but they were neither more
interesting nor less bigoted. Gay young men dazzled
by operettas and races, they played lansquenet and
baccarat, staked large fortunes on horses and cards,
and cultivated all the pleasures enchanting to brainless
fools. After a year’s experience, Des Esseintes
felt an overpowering weariness of this company whose
debaucheries seemed to him so unrefined, facile and
indiscriminate without any ardent reactions or excitement
of nerves and blood.
He gradually forsook them to make
the acquaintance of literary men, in whom he thought
he might find more interest and feel more at ease.
This, too, proved disappointing; he was revolted by
their rancorous and petty judgments, their conversation
as obvious as a church door, their dreary discussions
in which they judged the value of a book by the number
of editions it had passed and by the profits acquired.
At the same time, he noticed that the free thinkers,
the doctrinaires of the bourgeoisie, people who
claimed every liberty that they might stifle the opinions
of others, were greedy and shameless puritans whom,
in education, he esteemed inferior to the corner shoemaker.
His contempt for humanity deepened.
He reached the conclusion that the world, for the
most part, was composed of scoundrels and imbéciles.
Certainly, he could not hope to discover in others
aspirations and aversions similar to his own, could
not expect companionship with an intelligence exulting
in a studious decrepitude, nor anticipate meeting
a mind as keen as his among the writers and scholars.
Irritated, ill at ease and offended
by the poverty of ideas given and received, he became
like those people described by Nicole those
who are always melancholy. He would fly into
a rage when he read the patriotic and social balderdash
retailed daily in the newspapers, and would exaggerate
the significance of the plaudits which a sovereign
public always reserves for works deficient in ideas
and style.
Already, he was dreaming of a refined
solitude, a comfortable desert, a motionless ark in
which to seek refuge from the unending deluge of human
stupidity.
A single passion, woman, might have
curbed his contempt, but that, too, had palled on
him. He had taken to carnal repasts with the
eagerness of a crotchety man affected with a depraved
appetite and given to sudden hungers, whose taste
is quickly dulled and surfeited. Associating
with country squires, he had taken part in their lavish
suppers where, at dessert, tipsy women would unfasten
their clothing and strike their heads against the
tables; he had haunted the green rooms, loved actresses
and singers, endured, in addition to the natural stupidity
he had come to expect of women, the maddening vanity
of female strolling players. Finally, satiated
and weary of this monotonous extravagance and the
sameness of their caresses, he had plunged into the
foul depths, hoping by the contrast of squalid misery
to revive his desires and stimulate his deadened senses.
Whatever he attempted proved vain;
an unconquerable ennui oppressed him. Yet he
persisted in his excesses and returned to the perilous
embraces of accomplished mistresses. But his health
failed, his nervous system collapsed, the back of
his neck grew sensitive, his hand, still firm when
it seized a heavy object, trembled when it held a
tiny glass.
The physicians whom he consulted frightened
him. It was high time to check his excesses and
renounce those pursuits which were dissipating his
reserve of strength! For a while he was at peace,
but his brain soon became over-excited. Like
those young girls who, in the grip of puberty, crave
coarse and vile foods, he dreamed of and practiced
perverse loves and pleasures. This was the end!
As though satisfied with having exhausted everything,
as though completely surrendering to fatigue, his
senses fell into a lethargy and impotence threatened
him.
He recovered, but he was lonely, tired,
sobered, imploring an end to his life which the cowardice
of his flesh prevented him from consummating.
Once more he was toying with the idea
of becoming a recluse, of living in some hushed retreat
where the turmoil of life would be muffled as
in those streets covered with straw to prevent any
sound from reaching invalids.
It was time to make up his mind.
The condition of his finances terrified him.
He had spent, in acts of folly and in drinking bouts,
the greater part of his patrimony, and the remainder,
invested in land, produced a ridiculously small income.
He decided to sell the Chateau de
Lourps, which he no longer visited and where he left
no memory or regret behind. He liquidated his
other holdings, bought government bonds and in this
way drew an annual interest of fifty thousand francs;
in addition, he reserved a sum of money which he meant
to use in buying and furnishing the house where he
proposed to enjoy a perfect repose.
Exploring the suburbs of the capital,
he found a place for sale at the top of Fontenay-aux-Roses,
in a secluded section near the fort, far from any
neighbors. His dream was realized! In this
country place so little violated by Parisians, he
could be certain of seclusion. The difficulty
of reaching the place, due to an unreliable railroad
passing by at the end of the town, and to the little
street cars which came and went at irregular intervals,
reassured him. He could picture himself alone
on the bluff, sufficiently far away to prevent the
Parisian throngs from reaching him, and yet near enough
to the capital to confirm him in his solitude.
And he felt that in not entirely closing the way,
there was a chance that he would not be assailed by
a wish to return to society, seeing that it is only
the impossible, the unachievable that arouses desire.
He put masons to work on the house
he had acquired. Then, one day, informing no
one of his plans, he quickly disposed of his old furniture,
dismissed his servants, and left without giving the
concierge any address.