The chief visitor to the little house
in the cross street two days later was James Sefton,
the agile Secretary, who was in a fine humour with
himself and did not take the trouble to conceal it.
Much that conduced to his satisfaction had occurred,
and the affairs that concerned him most were going
well. The telegrams sent by him from the Wilderness
to a trusty agent at an American seaport and forwarded
thence by mail to London and Paris had been answered,
and the replies were of a nature most encouraging.
Moreover, the people here in Richmond in whose fortunes
he was interested were conducting themselves in a manner
that he wished. Therefore the Secretary was pleasant.
He was received by Lucia Catherwood
in the little parlour where Prescott had often sat.
She was grave and pale, as if she suffered, and there
was no touch of warmth in the greeting that she gave
the Secretary. But he did not appear to notice
it, although he inquired after the health of herself
and Miss Grayson, all in the manner of strict formality.
She sat down and waited there, grave and quiet, watching
him with calm, bright eyes.
The Secretary, too, was silent for
a few moments, surveying the woman who sat opposite
him, so cool and so composed. He felt once more
the thrill of involuntary admiration that she always
aroused in him.
“It is a delicate business on
which I come to you, Miss Catherwood,” he said.
“I wish to speak of Miss Harley and my suit there;
it is not prospering, as you know. Pardon me
for speaking to you of such intimate feelings.
I know that it is not customary, but I have thought
that you might aid me.”
“Was it for such a reason that
you gave me a pass to Richmond and helped me to come
here?”
“Well, in part, at least; but
I can say in my own defense, Miss Catherwood, that
I bore you no ill will. Perhaps, if the first
phase of the affair had never existed, I should have
helped you anyhow to come to Richmond had I known
that you wished to do so.”
“And how can I help you now?”
The Secretary shrugged his shoulders.
He did not wish to say all that was in his mind.
Moreover, he sought to bring her will into subjection
to his. The personal sense that he was coming
into contact with a mind as strong as his own did
not wholly please him, yet by a curious contrariety
this very feeling increased his admiration of her.
“I was willing that you should
come to Richmond,” he said, “for a reason
that I will not mention and which perhaps has passed
away. I have had in my mind well,
to put it plainly, a sort of bargain, a bargain in
which I did not consult you. I thought that you
might help me with Helen Harley, that well,
to speak plainly again, that your attractions might
remove from my path one whom I considered a rival.”
A deep flush overspread her face,
and then, retreating, left it paler than ever.
Her fingers were pressed tightly into the palms of
her hands, but she said nothing.
“I am frank,” continued
the Secretary, “but it is best between us.
Finesse would be wasted upon one with your penetrating
mind, and I pay you the highest compliment I know
when I discard any attempt to use it. I find
that I have made a great mistake in more respects than
one. The man who I thought stood in my way thought
so himself at one time, but he knows better.
Helen Harley is very beautiful and all that is good,
but still there is something lacking. I knew
it long ago, but only in the last few weeks has it
had its effect upon me. This man I thought my
rival has turned aside into a new path, and I well,
it seems that fate intends that he shall be my rival
even in his changes have followed him.”
“What do you mean?” she
asked, a sudden fire leaping to her eyes and a cold
dread clutching her heart.
“I mean,” he said, “that
however beautiful Helen Harley may be, there are others
as beautiful and one perhaps who has something that
she lacks. What is that something? The power
to feel passion, to love with a love that cares for
nothing else, and if need be to hate with a hate that
cares for nothing else. She must be a woman with
fire in her veins and lightning in her heart, one
who would appear to the man she loves not only a woman,
but as a goddess as well.”
“And have you found such a woman?”
She spoke in cold, level tones.
The Secretary looked at her sitting
there, her head thrown slightly back, her eyes closed
and the curve of her chin defiant to the uttermost
degree. The wonder that he had not always loved
this woman instead of Helen Harley returned to him.
She was a girl and yet she was not; there was nothing
about her immature or imperfect; she was girl and woman,
too. She had spoken to him in the coldest of tones,
yet he believed in the fire beneath the ice.
He wished to see what kind of torch would set the
flame. His feeling for her before had been intellectual,
now it was sentimental and passionate.
James Sefton realized that Lucia Catherwood
was not merely a woman to be admired, but one to be
loved and desired. She had appealed to him as
one with whom to make a great career; now she appealed
to him as a woman with whom to live. He remembered
the story of her carrying the wounded Prescott off
the battlefield in her arms and in the dark, alone
and undaunted, amid all the dead of the Wilderness.
She was tall and strong, but was it so much strength
and endurance as love and sacrifice? He was filled
with a sudden fierce and wild jealousy of Prescott,
because, when wounded and stricken down, she had sheltered
him within her arms.
His look again followed the curves
of her noble face and figure, the full development
of strong years, and a fire of which he had not deemed
himself capable burned in the eyes of the Secretary.
The pale shade of Helen Harley floated away in the
mist, but Lucia met his silent gaze firmly, and again
she asked in cold, level tones:
“Have you found such a woman?”
“Yes, I have found her,”
replied the Secretary. “Perhaps I did not
know it until to-day; perhaps I was not sure, but
I have found her. I am a cold and what one would
call a selfish man, but ice breaks up under summer
heat, and I have yielded to the spell of your presence,
Lucia.”
“Miss Catherwood!”
“Well, Miss Catherwood no,
Lucia it shall be! I swear it shall be Lucia!
I do not care for courtesy now, and you are compelled
to hear me say it. It is a noble name, a beautiful
one, and it gives me pleasure to say it. Lucia!
Lucia! Lucia!”
“Go on, then, since I cannot stop you.”
“I said that I have found such
a woman and I have. Lucia, I love you, because
I cannot help myself, just as you cannot help my calling
you Lucia. And, Lucia, it is a love that worships,
too. There is nothing bad in it. I would
put myself at your feet. You shall be a queen
to me and to all the rest of the world, for I have
much to offer you besides my poor self. However
the war may end, I shall be rich, very rich, and we
shall have a great career. Let it be here if you
will, or in the North, or in Europe. You have
only to say.”
There was then a feeling for him not
all hate in the soul of Lucia Catherwood. If
he loved her, that was a cloak for many sins, and she
could not doubt that he did, because the man hitherto
so calm and the master of himself was transformed.
His words were spoken with all the fire and heat of
a lover, his eyes were alight, and his figure took
on a certain dignity and nobility. Lucia Catherwood,
looking at him, said to herself in unspoken words:
“Here is a great man and he loves me.”
Her heart was cold, but a ray of tenderness came from
it nevertheless.
The Secretary paused and in his agitation
leaned his arm upon the mantel. Again his eyes
dwelt upon her noble curves, her sumptuous figure,
and the soul that shone from her eyes. Never before
had he felt so utter a sense of powerlessness.
Hitherto to desire a thing was with him merely the
preliminary to getting it. Even when Helen Harley
turned away from him, he believed that by incessant
pursuit he could yet win her. There he took repulses
lightly, but here it was the woman alone who decreed,
and whatever she might say no act or power of his could
change it. He stood before her a suppliant.
“You have honoured me, Mr. Sefton,
with this declaration of your love,” she said,
and her tones sounded to him as cold and level as ever,
“but I cannot cannot return it.”
“Neither now nor ever? You may change!”
“I cannot change, Mr. Sefton.”
She spoke a little sadly out of pity for
him and shook her head.
“You think that my loyalty is
due to Helen Harley, but I do not love her! I
cannot!”
“No, it is not that,”
she said. “Helen Harley may not love you;
I do not think she does. But I am quite sure
of myself. I know that I can never love you.”
“You may not now,” he
said hotly, “but you can be wooed and you can
be won. I could not expect you to love me at
once I am not so foolish but
devotion, a long devotion, may change a woman’s
heart.”
“No,” she repeated, “I cannot change.”
She seemed to be moving away from
him. She was intangible and he could not grasp
her. But he raised his head proudly.
“I do not come as a beggar,”
he said. “I offer something besides myself.”
Her eyes flashed; she, too, showed her pride.
“I stand alone, I am nothing
except myself, but my choice in the most important
matter that comes into a woman’s life shall be
as free as the air.”
She, too, raised her head and met
him with an unflinching gaze.
“I also understand,” he
said moodily. “You love Prescott.”
A flush swept over her face, and then
retreating left it pale again, but she was too proud
to deny the charge. She would not utter an untruth
nor an evasion even on so delicate a subject.
There was an armed truce of silence between them for
a few minutes, till the evil genius of the Secretary
rose and he felt again that desire to subject her will
to his own.
“If you love this young man,
are you quite sure that he loves you?” he asked
in quiet tones.
“I will not discuss such a subject,”
she replied, flushing.
“But I choose to speak of it.
You saw him at the President’s house two nights
ago making obvious love to some one else a
married woman. Are you sure that he is worthy?”
She maintained an obstinate silence,
but became paler than ever.
“If so, you have a mighty faith,”
he went on relentlessly. “His face was
close to Mrs. Markham’s. Her hair almost
touched his cheek.”
“I will not listen to you!” she cried.
“But you must. Richmond
is ringing with talk about them. If I were a
woman I should wish my lover to come to me with a clean
reputation, at least.”
He paused, but she would not speak.
Her face was white and her teeth were set firmly together.
“I wish you would go!”
she said at last, with sudden fierceness.
“But I will not. I do not
like you the least when you rage like a lioness.”
She sank back, coldness and quiet
coming to her as suddenly as her anger had leaped
up.
“You have told me that you cannot
love me,” he said, “and I have shown you
that the man you love cannot love you. I refuse
to go. Awhile since I felt that I was powerless
before you, and that I must abide by your yea and
nay; but I feel so no longer. Love, I take it,
is a battle, and I use a military simile because there
is war about us. If a good general wishes to
take a position, and if he fails in the direct charge if
he is repelled with loss he does not on
that account retreat; but he resorts to artifice,
to stratagem, to the mine, to the sly and adroit approach.”
Her courage did not fail, but she
felt a chill when he talked in this easy and sneering
manner. She had liked him a little when
he disclosed his love so openly and so boldly, but
now no ray of tenderness came from her heart.
“I can give you more of the
news of Richmond,” said the Secretary, “and
this concerns you as intimately as the other.
Perhaps I should refrain from telling you, but I am
jealous enough in my own cause to tell it nevertheless.
Gossip in Richmond well, I suppose I must
say it has touched your name, too.
It links you with me.”
“Mr. Sefton,” she said
in the old cold, level tones, “you spoke of my
changing, but I see that you have changed. Five
minutes ago I thought you a gentleman.”
“If I am doing anything that
seems mean to you I do it for love of you and the
desire to possess you. That should be a sufficient
excuse with any woman. Perhaps you do not realize
that your position depends upon me. You came
here because I wrote something on a piece of paper.
There has been a whisper that you were once a spy
in this city think of it; the name of spy
does not sound well. Rumour has touched you but
lightly, yet if I say the word it can envelope and
suffocate you.”
“You have said that you love
me; do men make threats to the women whom they love?”
“Ah, it is not that,”
he pleaded. “If a man have a power over
a woman he loves, can you blame him if he use it to
get that which he wishes?”
“Real love knows no such uses,”
she said, and then she rose from her chair, adding:
“I shall not listen any longer,
Mr. Sefton. You remind me of my position, and
it is well, perhaps, that I do not forget it.
It may be, then, that I have not listened to you too
long.”
“And I,” he replied, “if
I have spoken roughly I beg your pardon. I could
wish that my words were softer, but my meaning must
remain the same.”
He bowed courteously it
was the suave Secretary once more and then
he left her.
Lucia Catherwood sat, dry-eyed and
motionless, for a long time, gazing at the opposite
wall and seeing nothing there. She asked herself
now why she had come back to Richmond. To be
with Miss Grayson, her next of kin, and because she
had no other place? That was the reason she had
given to herself and others but was it
the whole reason?
Now she wished that she had never
seen Richmond. The first visit had ended in disaster,
and the second in worse. She hated the sight of
Richmond. What right had she among these people
who were not hers? She was a stranger, a foreigner,
of another temperament, another cast of thought.
Her mind flitted over the threats,
open and veiled, of the Secretary, but she had little
fear for herself. There she had the power to fight,
and her defiant spirit would rise to meet such a conflict.
But this other! She must sit idle and let it
go on. She was surprised at her sudden power
of hatred, which was directed full against a woman
in whose eyes even in moments of peace there
were lurking green tints.
He had done much for her! Well,
she had done as much for him and hence there was no
balance between them. She resolved to cast him
out wholly, to forget him, to make him part of a past
that was not only dead but forgotten. But she
knew even as she took this resolution that she feared
the Secretary because she believed it lay within his
power to ruin Prescott.
The door was opened and Miss Grayson
came quietly into the room. She was a cool, soothing
little person. Troubles, if they did not die,
at least became more tolerable in her presence.
She sat in silence sewing, but observed Lucia’s
face and knew that she was suffering much or it would
not show in the countenance of one with so strong a
will.
“Has Mr. Sefton been gone long?” she asked
after awhile.
“Yes, but not long enough.”
Miss Grayson said nothing and Miss
Catherwood was the next to interrupt the silence.
“Charlotte,” she said, “I intend
to leave Richmond at once.”
“Leaving Richmond is not a mere
holiday trip now,” said Miss Grayson. “There
are formalities, many and difficult.”
“But I must go!” exclaimed
Miss Catherwood vehemently, all her anger and grief
flashing out it seemed to her that the gates
suddenly opened. “I tell you I must leave
this city! I hate everything in it, Charlotte,
except you! I am sorry that I ever saw it!”
Miss Grayson went on calmly with her sewing.
“I shall not let you go,”
she said in her quiet, even voice. “I could
have endured life without you had I never had you,
but having had you I cannot. I shall not let
you go. You must think of me now, Lucia, and not
of yourself.”
Miss Grayson looked up and smiled.
The smile of an old maid, not herself beautiful, can
be very beautiful at times.
“See what a burden I am,”
Miss Catherwood protested. “We nearly starved
once.”
Then she blushed blushed
most beautifully, thinking of a certain round gold
piece, still unspent.
“You are no burden at all, but
a support. I shall have money enough until this
war ends. The Confederate Government, you know,
Lucia, paid me for the confiscations not
as much as they were worth, but as much as I could
expect and we have been living on it.”
The face of Lucia Catherwood altered.
It expressed a singular tenderness as she looked at
Miss Grayson, so soft, so small and so gray.
“Charlotte,” she said,
“I wish that I were as good as you. You
are never excited, passionate or angry. You always
know what you ought to do and you always do it.”
Miss Grayson looked up again and her
eyes suddenly sparkled.
“You make a mistake, a great
mistake, Lucia,” she said. “It is
only the people who do wrong now and then who are
really good. Those of us who do right all the
time merely keep in that road because we cannot get
out of it. I think it’s a lack of temperament there’s
no variety about us. And oh, Lucia, I tell you
honestly, I get so tired of keeping forever in the
straight and narrow path merely because it’s
easiest for me to walk that way. I don’t
mean to be sacrilegious, but I think that all the rejoicing
in Heaven over the hundredth man who has sinned and
repented was not because he had behaved well at last,
but because he was so much more interesting than all
the other ninety-nine put together. I wish I had
your temper and impulses, Lucia, that I might flash
into anger now and then and do something rash something
that I should be sorry for later on, but which in
my secret heart I should be glad I had done. Oh,
I get so tired of being just a plain, goody-goody
little woman who will always do the right thing in
the most uninteresting way; a woman about whom there
is no delightful uncertainty; a woman on whom you can
always reckon just as you would on the figure 4 or
6 or any other number in mathematics. I am like
such a figure a fixed quantity, and that
is why I, Charlotte Grayson, am just a plain little
old maid.”
She had risen in her vehemence, but
when she finished she sank back into her chair and
a faint, delicate pink bloomed in her face. Miss
Charlotte Grayson was blushing! Lucia was silent,
regarding her. She felt a great flood of tenderness
for this prim, quiet little woman who had, for a rare
and fleeting moment, burst her shell. Miss Grayson
had always accepted so calmly and so quietly the life
which seemed to have been decreed for her that it
never before occurred to Lucia to suppose any tempestuous
feelings could rise in that breast; but she was a woman
like herself, and the tie that bound them, already
strong, suddenly grew stronger.
“Charlotte,” she said,
placing her hand gently upon the old maid’s
shoulder, “it seems to me sometimes that God
has not been quite fair to women. He gives us
too little defense against our own hearts.”
“Best discard them entirely,”
said Miss Grayson briskly. “Come, Lucia,
you promised to help me with my sewing.”