I believe he had seen us out of the
window coming off to dine in the dinghy of a fourteen-ton
yawl belonging to Marlow my host and skipper.
We helped the boy we had with us to haul the boat
up on the landing-stage before we went up to the riverside
inn, where we found our new acquaintance eating his
dinner in dignified loneliness at the head of a long
table, white and inhospitable like a snow bank.
The red tint of his clear-cut face
with trim short black whiskers under a cap of curly
iron-grey hair was the only warm spot in the dinginess
of that room cooled by the cheerless tablecloth.
We knew him already by sight as the owner of a little
five-ton cutter, which he sailed alone apparently,
a fellow yachtsman in the unpretending band of fanatics
who cruise at the mouth of the Thames. But the
first time he addressed the waiter sharply as ‘steward’
we knew him at once for a sailor as well as a yachtsman.
Presently he had occasion to reprove
that same waiter for the slovenly manner in which
the dinner was served. He did it with considerable
energy and then turned to us.
“If we at sea,” he declared,
“went about our work as people ashore high and
low go about theirs we should never make a living.
No one would employ us. And moreover no ship
navigated and sailed in the happy-go-lucky manner
people conduct their business on shore would ever arrive
into port.”
Since he had retired from the sea
he had been astonished to discover that the educated
people were not much better than the others.
No one seemed to take any proper pride in his work:
from plumbers who were simply thieves to, say, newspaper
men (he seemed to think them a specially intellectual
class) who never by any chance gave a correct version
of the simplest affair. This universal inefficiency
of what he called “the shore gang” he
ascribed in general to the want of responsibility and
to a sense of security.
“They see,” he went on,
“that no matter what they do this tight little
island won’t turn turtle with them or spring
a leak and go to the bottom with their wives and children.”
From this point the conversation took
a special turn relating exclusively to sea-life.
On that subject he got quickly in touch with Marlow
who in his time had followed the sea. They kept
up a lively exchange of reminiscences while I listened.
They agreed that the happiest time in their lives
was as youngsters in good ships, with no care in the
world but not to lose a watch below when at sea and
not a moment’s time in going ashore after work
hours when in harbour. They agreed also as to
the proudest moment they had known in that calling
which is never embraced on rational and practical
grounds, because of the glamour of its romantic associations.
It was the moment when they had passed successfully
their first examination and left the seamanship Examiner
with the little precious slip of blue paper in their
hands.
“That day I wouldn’t have
called the Queen my cousin,” declared our new
acquaintance enthusiastically.
At that time the Marine Board examinations
took place at the St. Katherine’s Dock House
on Tower Hill, and he informed us that he had a special
affection for the view of that historic locality, with
the Gardens to the left, the front of the Mint to
the right, the miserable tumble-down little houses
farther away, a cabstand, boot-blacks squatting on
the edge of the pavement and a pair of big policemen
gazing with an air of superiority at the doors of
the Black Horse public-house across the road.
This was the part of the world, he said, his eyes
first took notice of, on the finest day of his life.
He had emerged from the main entrance of St. Katherine’s
Dock House a full-fledged second mate after the hottest
time of his life with Captain R-, the most dreaded
of the three seamanship Examiners who at the time
were responsible for the merchant service officers
qualifying in the Port of London.
“We all who were preparing to
pass,” he said, “used to shake in our shoes
at the idea of going before him. He kept me for
an hour and a half in the torture chamber and behaved
as though he hated me. He kept his eyes shaded
with one of his hands. Suddenly he let it drop
saying, “You will do!” Before I realised
what he meant he was pushing the blue slip across
the table. I jumped up as if my chair had caught
fire.
“Thank you, sir,” says I, grabbing the
paper.
“Good morning, good luck to you,” he growls
at me.
“The old doorkeeper fussed out
of the cloak-room with my hat. They always do.
But he looked very hard at me before he ventured to
ask in a sort of timid whisper: “Got through
all right, sir?” For all answer I dropped a
half-crown into his soft broad palm. “Well,”
says he with a sudden grin from ear to ear, “I
never knew him keep any of you gentlemen so long.
He failed two second mates this morning before your
turn came. Less than twenty minutes each:
that’s about his usual time.”
“I found myself downstairs without
being aware of the steps as if I had floated down
the staircase. The finest day in my life.
The day you get your first command is nothing to
it. For one thing a man is not so young then
and for another with us, you know, there is nothing
much more to expect. Yes, the finest day of
one’s life, no doubt, but then it is just a
day and no more. What comes after is about the
most unpleasant time for a youngster, the trying to
get an officer’s berth with nothing much to
show but a brand-new certificate. It is surprising
how useless you find that piece of ass’s skin
that you have been putting yourself in such a state
about. It didn’t strike me at the time
that a Board of Trade certificate does not make an
officer, not by a long long way. But the slippers
of the ships I was haunting with demands for a job
knew that very well. I don’t wonder at
them now, and I don’t blame them either.
But this ‘trying to get a ship’ is pretty
hard on a youngster all the same . . . "
He went on then to tell us how tired
he was and how discouraged by this lesson of disillusion
following swiftly upon the finest day of his life.
He told us how he went the round of all the ship-owners’
offices in the City where some junior clerk would
furnish him with printed forms of application which
he took home to fill up in the evening. He used
to run out just before midnight to post them in the
nearest pillar-box. And that was all that ever
came of it. In his own words: he might just
as well have dropped them all properly addressed and
stamped into the sewer grating.
Then one day, as he was wending his
weary way to the docks, he met a friend and former
shipmate a little older than himself outside the Fenchurch
Street Railway Station.
He craved for sympathy but his friend
had just “got a ship” that very morning
and was hurrying home in a state of outward joy and
inward uneasiness usual to a sailor who after many
days of waiting suddenly gets a berth. This
friend had the time to condole with him but briefly.
He must be moving. Then as he was running off,
over his shoulder as it were, he suggested: “Why
don’t you go and speak to Mr. Powell in the
Shipping Office.” Our friend objected that
he did not know Mr. Powell from Adam. And the
other already pretty near round the corner shouted
back advice: “Go to the private door of
the Shipping Office and walk right up to him.
His desk is by the window. Go up boldly and
say I sent you.”
Our new acquaintance looking from
one to the other of us declared: “Upon
my word, I had grown so desperate that I’d have
gone boldly up to the devil himself on the mere hint
that he had a second mate’s job to give away.”
It was at this point that interrupting
his flow of talk to light his pipe but holding us
with his eye he inquired whether we had known Powell.
Marlow with a slight reminiscent smile murmured that
he “remembered him very well.”
Then there was a pause. Our
new acquaintance had become involved in a vexatious
difficulty with his pipe which had suddenly betrayed
his trust and disappointed his anticipation of self-indulgence.
To keep the ball rolling I asked Marlow if this Powell
was remarkable in any way.
“He was not exactly remarkable,”
Marlow answered with his usual nonchalance.
“In a general way it’s very difficult for
one to become remarkable. People won’t
take sufficient notice of one, don’t you know.
I remember Powell so well simply because as one of
the Shipping Masters in the Port of London he dispatched
me to sea on several long stages of my sailor’s
pilgrimage. He resembled Socrates. I mean
he resembled him genuinely: that is in the face.
A philosophical mind is but an accident. He
reproduced exactly the familiar bust of the immortal
sage, if you will imagine the bust with a high top
hat riding far on the back of the head, and a black
coat over the shoulders. As I never saw him except
from the other side of the long official counter bearing
the five writing desks of the five Shipping Masters,
Mr. Powell has remained a bust to me.”
Our new acquaintance advanced now
from the mantelpiece with his pipe in good working
order.
“What was the most remarkable
about Powell,” he enunciated dogmatically with
his head in a cloud of smoke, “is that he should
have had just that name. You see, my name happens
to be Powell too.”
It was clear that this intelligence
was not imparted to us for social purposes.
It required no acknowledgment. We continued to
gaze at him with expectant eyes.
He gave himself up to the vigorous
enjoyment of his pipe for a silent minute or two.
Then picking up the thread of his story he told us
how he had started hot foot for Tower Hill.
He had not been that way since the day of his examination the
finest day of his life the day of his overweening
pride. It was very different now. He would
not have called the Queen his cousin, still, but this
time it was from a sense of profound abasement.
He didn’t think himself good enough for anybody’s
kinship. He envied the purple-nosed old cab-drivers
on the stand, the boot-black boys at the edge of the
pavement, the two large bobbies pacing slowly along
the Tower Gardens railings in the consciousness of
their infallible might, and the bright scarlet sentries
walking smartly to and fro before the Mint.
He envied them their places in the scheme of world’s
labour. And he envied also the miserable sallow,
thin-faced loafers blinking their obscene eyes and
rubbing their greasy shoulders against the door-jambs
of the Black Horse pub, because they were too far
gone to feel their degradation.
I must render the man the justice
that he conveyed very well to us the sense of his
youthful hopelessness surprised at not finding its
place in the sun and no recognition of its right to
live.
He went up the outer steps of St.
Katherine’s Dock House, the very steps from
which he had some six weeks before surveyed the cabstand,
the buildings, the policemen, the boot-blacks, the
paint, gilt, and plateglass of the Black Horse, with
the eye of a Conqueror. At the time he had been
at the bottom of his heart surprised that all this
had not greeted him with songs and incense, but now
(he made no secret of it) he made his entry in a slinking
fashion past the doorkeeper’s glass box.
“I hadn’t any half-crowns to spare for
tips,” he remarked grimly. The man, however,
ran out after him asking: “What do you require?”
but with a grateful glance up at the first floor in
remembrance of Captain R-’s examination room
(how easy and delightful all that had been) he bolted
down a flight leading to the basement and found himself
in a place of dusk and mystery and many doors.
He had been afraid of being stopped by some rule
of no-admittance. However he was not pursued.
The basement of St. Katherine’s
Dock House is vast in extent and confusing in its
plan. Pale shafts of light slant from above into
the gloom of its chilly passages. Powell wandered
up and down there like an early Christian refugee
in the catacombs; but what little faith he had in
the success of his enterprise was oozing out at his
finger-tips. At a dark turn under a gas bracket
whose flame was half turned down his self-confidence
abandoned him altogether.
“I stood there to think a little,”
he said. “A foolish thing to do because
of course I got scared. What could you expect?
It takes some nerve to tackle a stranger with a request
for a favour. I wished my namesake Powell had
been the devil himself. I felt somehow it would
have been an easier job. You see, I never believed
in the devil enough to be scared of him; but a man
can make himself very unpleasant. I looked at
a lot of doors, all shut tight, with a growing conviction
that I would never have the pluck to open one of them.
Thinking’s no good for one’s nerve.
I concluded I would give up the whole business.
But I didn’t give up in the end, and I’ll
tell you what stopped me. It was the recollection
of that confounded doorkeeper who had called after
me. I felt sure the fellow would be on the look-out
at the head of the stairs. If he asked me what
I had been after, as he had the right to do, I wouldn’t
know what to answer that wouldn’t make me look
silly if no worse. I got very hot. There
was no chance of slinking out of this business.
“I had lost my bearings somehow
down there. Of the many doors of various sizes,
right and left, a good few had glazed lights above;
some however must have led merely into lumber rooms
or such like, because when I brought myself to try
one or two I was disconcerted to find that they were
locked. I stood there irresolute and uneasy like
a baffled thief. The confounded basement was
as still as a grave and I became aware of my heart
beats. Very uncomfortable sensation. Never
happened to me before or since. A bigger door
to the left of me, with a large brass handle looked
as if it might lead into the Shipping Office.
I tried it, setting my teeth. “Here goes!”
“It came open quite easily.
And lo! the place it opened into was hardly any bigger
than a cupboard. Anyhow it wasn’t more
than ten feet by twelve; and as I in a way expected
to see the big shadowy cellar-like extent of the Shipping
Office where I had been once or twice before, I was
extremely startled. A gas bracket hung from the
middle of the ceiling over a dark, shabby writing-desk
covered with a litter of yellowish dusty documents.
Under the flame of the single burner which made the
place ablaze with light, a plump, little man was writing
hard, his nose very near the desk. His head
was perfectly bald and about the same drab tint as
the papers. He appeared pretty dusty too.
“I didn’t notice whether
there were any cobwebs on him, but I shouldn’t
wonder if there were because he looked as though he
had been imprisoned for years in that little hole.
The way he dropped his pen and sat blinking my way
upset me very much. And his dungeon was hot and
musty; it smelt of gas and mushrooms, and seemed to
be somewhere 120 feet below the ground. Solid,
heavy stacks of paper filled all the corners half-way
up to the ceiling. And when the thought flashed
upon me that these were the premises of the Marine
Board and that this fellow must be connected in some
way with ships and sailors and the sea, my astonishment
took my breath away. One couldn’t imagine
why the Marine Board should keep that bald, fat creature
slaving down there. For some reason or other
I felt sorry and ashamed to have found him out in
his wretched captivity. I asked gently and sorrowfully:
“The Shipping Office, please.”
He piped up in a contemptuous squeaky
voice which made me start: “Not here.
Try the passage on the other side. Street side.
This is the Dock side. You’ve lost your
way . . . "
He spoke in such a spiteful tone that
I thought he was going to round off with the words:
“You fool” . . . and perhaps he meant to.
But what he finished sharply with was: “Shut
the door quietly after you.”
And I did shut it quietly you
bet. Quick and quiet. The indomitable
spirit of that chap impressed me. I wonder sometimes
whether he has succeeded in writing himself into liberty
and a pension at last, or had to go out of his gas-lighted
grave straight into that other dark one where nobody
would want to intrude. My humanity was pleased
to discover he had so much kick left in him, but I
was not comforted in the least. It occurred
to me that if Mr. Powell had the same sort of temper
. . . However, I didn’t give myself time
to think and scuttled across the space at the foot
of the stairs into the passage where I’d been
told to try. And I tried the first door I came
to, right away, without any hanging back, because
coming loudly from the hall above an amazed and scandalized
voice wanted to know what sort of game I was up to
down there. “Don’t you know there’s
no admittance that way?” it roared. But
if there was anything more I shut it out of my hearing
by means of a door marked Private on the outside.
It let me into a six-feet wide strip between a long
counter and the wall, taken off a spacious, vaulted
room with a grated window and a glazed door giving
daylight to the further end. The first thing
I saw right in front of me were three middle-aged men
having a sort of romp together round about another
fellow with a thin, long neck and sloping shoulders
who stood up at a desk writing on a large sheet of
paper and taking no notice except that he grinned quietly
to himself. They turned very sour at once when
they saw me. I heard one of them mutter ‘Hullo!
What have we here?’
“‘I want to see Mr. Powell,
please,’ I said, very civil but firm; I would
let nothing scare me away now. This was the Shipping
Office right enough. It was after 3 o’clock
and the business seemed over for the day with them.
The long-necked fellow went on with his writing steadily.
I observed that he was no longer grinning.
The three others tossed their heads all together towards
the far end of the room where a fifth man had been
looking on at their antics from a high stool.
I walked up to him as boldly as if he had been the
devil himself. With one foot raised up and resting
on the cross-bar of his seat he never stopped swinging
the other which was well clear of the stone floor.
He had unbuttoned the top of his waistcoat and he
wore his tall hat very far at the back of his head.
He had a full unwrinkled face and such clear-shining
eyes that his grey beard looked quite false on him,
stuck on for a disguise. You said just now he
resembled Socrates didn’t you?
I don’t know about that. This Socrates
was a wise man, I believe?”
“He was,” assented Marlow.
“And a true friend of youth. He lectured
them in a peculiarly exasperating manner. It
was a way he had.”
“Then give me Powell every time,”
declared our new acquaintance sturdily. “He
didn’t lecture me in any way. Not he.
He said: ‘How do you do?’ quite
kindly to my mumble. Then says he looking very
hard at me: ’I don’t think I know
you do I?’
“No, sir,” I said and
down went my heart sliding into my boots, just as
the time had come to summon up all my cheek.
There’s nothing meaner in the world than a piece
of impudence that isn’t carried off well.
For fear of appearing shamefaced I started about
it so free and easy as almost to frighten myself.
He listened for a while looking at my face with surprise
and curiosity and then held up his hand. I was
glad enough to shut up, I can tell you.
“Well, you are a cool hand,”
says he. “And that friend of yours too.
He pestered me coming here every day for a fortnight
till a captain I’m acquainted with was good
enough to give him a berth. And no sooner he’s
provided for than he turns you on. You youngsters
don’t seem to mind whom you get into trouble.”
“It was my turn now to stare
with surprise and curiosity. He hadn’t
been talking loud but he lowered his voice still more.
“Don’t you know it’s illegal?”
“I wondered what he was driving
at till I remembered that procuring a berth for a
sailor is a penal offence under the Act. That
clause was directed of course against the swindling
practices of the boarding-house crimps. It had
never struck me it would apply to everybody alike no
matter what the motive, because I believed then that
people on shore did their work with care and foresight.
“I was confounded at the idea,
but Mr. Powell made me soon see that an Act of Parliament
hasn’t any sense of its own. It has only
the sense that’s put into it; and that’s
precious little sometimes. He didn’t mind
helping a young man to a ship now and then, he said,
but if we kept on coming constantly it would soon
get about that he was doing it for money.
“A pretty thing that would be:
the Senior Shipping-Master of the Port of London hauled
up in a police court and fined fifty pounds,”
says he. “I’ve another four years
to serve to get my pension. It could be made
to look very black against me and don’t you
make any mistake about it,” he says.
“And all the time with one knee
well up he went on swinging his other leg like a boy
on a gate and looking at me very straight with his
shining eyes. I was confounded I tell you.
It made me sick to hear him imply that somebody would
make a report against him.
“Oh!” I asked shocked,
“who would think of such a scurvy trick, sir?”
I was half disgusted with him for having the mere
notion of it.
“Who?” says he, speaking
very low. “Anybody. One of the office
messengers maybe. I’ve risen to be the
Senior of this office and we are all very good friends
here, but don’t you think that my colleague that
sits next to me wouldn’t like to go up to this
desk by the window four years in advance of the regulation
time? Or even one year for that matter.
It’s human nature.”
“I could not help turning my
head. The three fellows who had been skylarking
when I came in were now talking together very soberly,
and the long-necked chap was going on with his writing
still. He seemed to me the most dangerous of
the lot. I saw him sideface and his lips were
set very tight. I had never looked at mankind
in that light before. When one’s young
human nature shocks one. But what startled me
most was to see the door I had come through open slowly
and give passage to a head in a uniform cap with a
Board of Trade badge. It was that blamed old
doorkeeper from the hall. He had run me to earth
and meant to dig me out too. He walked up the
office smirking craftily, cap in hand.
“What is it, Symons?” asked Mr. Powell.
“I was only wondering where
this ’ere gentleman ’ad gone to, sir.
He slipped past me upstairs, sir.”
I felt mighty uncomfortable.
“That’s all right, Symons.
I know the gentleman,” says Mr. Powell as serious
as a judge.
“Very well, sir. Of course,
sir. I saw the gentleman running races all by
’isself down ’ere, so I . . .”
“It’s all right I tell
you,” Mr. Powell cut him short with a wave of
his hand; and, as the old fraud walked off at last,
he raised his eyes to me. I did not know what
to do: stay there, or clear out, or say that I
was sorry.
“Let’s see,” says
he, “what did you tell me your name was?”
“Now, observe, I hadn’t
given him my name at all and his question embarrassed
me a bit. Somehow or other it didn’t seem
proper for me to fling his own name at him as it were.
So I merely pulled out my new certificate from my
pocket and put it into his hand unfolded, so that he
could read Charles Powell written very plain
on the parchment.
“He dropped his eyes on to it
and after a while laid it quietly on the desk by his
side. I didn’t know whether he meant to
make any remark on this coincidence. Before
he had time to say anything the glass door came open
with a bang and a tall, active man rushed in with great
strides. His face looked very red below his
high silk hat. You could see at once he was
the skipper of a big ship.
“Mr. Powell after telling me
in an undertone to wait a little addressed him in
a friendly way.
“I’ve been expecting you
in every moment to fetch away your Articles, Captain.
Here they are all ready for you.” And
turning to a pile of agreements lying at his elbow
he took up the topmost of them. From where I
stood I could read the words: “Ship Ferndale”
written in a large round hand on the first page.
“No, Mr. Powell, they aren’t
ready, worse luck,” says that skipper.
“I’ve got to ask you to strike out my
second officer.” He seemed excited and
bothered. He explained that his second mate had
been working on board all the morning. At one
o’clock he went out to get a bit of dinner and
didn’t turn up at two as he ought to have done.
Instead there came a messenger from the hospital
with a note signed by a doctor. Collar bone
and one arm broken. Let himself be knocked down
by a pair horse van while crossing the road outside
the dock gate, as if he had neither eyes nor ears.
And the ship ready to leave the dock at six o’clock
to-morrow morning!
“Mr. Powell dipped his pen and
began to turn the leaves of the agreement over.
“We must then take his name off,” he says
in a kind of unconcerned sing-song.
“What am I to do?” burst
out the skipper. “This office closes at
four o’clock. I can’t find a man
in half an hour.”
“This office closes at four,”
repeats Mr. Powell glancing up and down the pages
and touching up a letter here and there with perfect
indifference.
“Even if I managed to lay hold
some time to-day of a man ready to go at such short
notice I couldn’t ship him regularly here could
I?”
“Mr. Powell was busy drawing
his pen through the entries relating to that unlucky
second mate and making a note in the margin.
“You could sign him on yourself
on board,” says he without looking up.
“But I don’t think you’ll find easily
an officer for such a pier-head jump.”
“Upon this the fine-looking
skipper gave signs of distress. The ship mustn’t
miss the next morning’s tide. He had to
take on board forty tons of dynamite and a hundred
and twenty tons of gunpowder at a place down the river
before proceeding to sea. It was all arranged
for next day. There would be no end of fuss and
complications if the ship didn’t turn up in
time . . . I couldn’t help hearing all this,
while wishing him to take himself off, because I wanted
to know why Mr. Powell had told me to wait.
After what he had been saying there didn’t seem
any object in my hanging about. If I had had
my certificate in my pocket I should have tried to
slip away quietly; but Mr. Powell had turned about
into the same position I found him in at first and
was again swinging his leg. My certificate open
on the desk was under his left elbow and I couldn’t
very well go up and jerk it away.
“I don’t know,”
says he carelessly, addressing the helpless captain
but looking fixedly at me with an expression as if
I hadn’t been there. “I don’t
know whether I ought to tell you that I know of a disengaged
second mate at hand.”
“Do you mean you’ve got
him here?” shouts the other looking all over
the empty public part of the office as if he were
ready to fling himself bodily upon anything resembling
a second mate. He had been so full of his difficulty
that I verify believe he had never noticed me.
Or perhaps seeing me inside he may have thought I
was some understrapper belonging to the place.
But when Mr. Powell nodded in my direction he became
very quiet and gave me a long stare. Then he
stooped to Mr. Powell’s ear I suppose
he imagined he was whispering, but I heard him well
enough.
“Looks very respectable.”
“Certainly,” says the
shipping-master quite calm and staring all the time
at me. “His name’s Powell.”
“Oh, I see!” says the
skipper as if struck all of a heap. “But
is he ready to join at once?”
“I had a sort of vision of my
lodgings in the North of London, too, beyond
Dalston, away to the devil and all my gear
scattered about, and my empty sea-chest somewhere
in an outhouse the good people I was staying with
had at the end of their sooty strip of garden.
I heard the Shipping Master say in the coolest sort
of way:
“He’ll sleep on board to-night.”
“He had better,” says
the Captain of the Ferndale very businesslike,
as if the whole thing were settled. I can’t
say I was dumb for joy as you may suppose. It
wasn’t exactly that. I was more by way
of being out of breath with the quickness of it.
It didn’t seem possible that this was happening
to me. But the skipper, after he had talked for
a while with Mr. Powell, too low for me to hear became
visibly perplexed.
“I suppose he had heard I was
freshly passed and without experience as an officer,
because he turned about and looked me over as if I
had been exposed for sale.
“He’s young,” he
mutters. “Looks smart, though . . .
You’re smart and willing (this to me very sudden
and loud) and all that, aren’t you?”
“I just managed to open and
shut my mouth, no more, being taken unawares.
But it was enough for him. He made as if I had
deafened him with protestations of my smartness and
willingness.
“Of course, of course.
All right.” And then turning to the Shipping
Master who sat there swinging his leg, he said that
he certainly couldn’t go to sea without a second
officer. I stood by as if all these things were
happening to some other chap whom I was seeing through
with it. Mr. Powell stared at me with those
shining eyes of his. But that bothered skipper
turns upon me again as though he wanted to snap my
head off.
“You aren’t too big to
be told how to do things are you?
You’ve a lot to learn yet though you mayn’t
think so.”
“I had half a mind to save my
dignity by telling him that if it was my seamanship
he was alluding to I wanted him to understand that
a fellow who had survived being turned inside out
for an hour and a half by Captain R- was equal to
any demand his old ship was likely to make on his
competence. However he didn’t give me a
chance to make that sort of fool of myself because
before I could open my mouth he had gone round on
another tack and was addressing himself affably to
Mr. Powell who swinging his leg never took his eyes
off me.
“I’ll take your young
friend willingly, Mr. Powell. If you let him
sign on as second-mate at once I’ll take the
Articles away with me now.”
“It suddenly dawned upon me
that the innocent skipper of the Ferndale had
taken it for granted that I was a relative of the Shipping
Master! I was quite astonished at this discovery,
though indeed the mistake was natural enough under
the circumstances. What I ought to have admired
was the reticence with which this misunderstanding
had been established and acted upon. But I was
too stupid then to admire anything. All my anxiety
was that this should be cleared up. I was ass
enough to wonder exceedingly at Mr. Powell failing
to notice the misapprehension. I saw a slight
twitch come and go on his face; but instead of setting
right that mistake the Shipping Master swung round
on his stool and addressed me as ‘Charles.’
He did. And I detected him taking a hasty squint
at my certificate just before, because clearly till
he did so he was not sure of my christian name.
“Now then come round in front of the desk,
Charles,” says he in a loud voice.
“Charles! At first, I
declare to you, it didn’t seem possible that
he was addressing himself to me. I even looked
round for that Charles but there was nobody behind
me except the thin-necked chap still hard at his writing,
and the other three Shipping Masters who were changing
their coats and reaching for their hats, making ready
to go home. It was the industrious thin-necked
man who without laying down his pen lifted with his
left hand a flap near his desk and said kindly:
“Pass this way.”
I walked through in a trance, faced
Mr. Powell, from whom I learned that we were bound
to Port Elizabeth first, and signed my name on the
Articles of the ship Ferndale as second mate the
voyage not to exceed two years.
“You won’t fail to join eh?”
says the captain anxiously. “It would
cause no end of trouble and expense if you did.
You’ve got a good six hours to get your gear
together, and then you’ll have time to snatch
a sleep on board before the crew joins in the morning.”
“It was easy enough for him
to talk of getting ready in six hours for a voyage
that was not to exceed two years. He hadn’t
to do that trick himself, and with his sea-chest locked
up in an outhouse the key of which had been mislaid
for a week as I remembered. But neither was I
much concerned. The idea that I was absolutely
going to sea at six o’clock next morning hadn’t
got quite into my head yet. It had been too sudden.
“Mr. Powell, slipping the Articles
into a long envelope, spoke up with a sort of cold
half-laugh without looking at either of us.
“Mind you don’t disgrace the name, Charles.”
“And the skipper chimes in very kindly:
“He’ll do well enough I dare say.
I’ll look after him a bit.”
“Upon this he grabs the Articles,
says something about trying to run in for a minute
to see that poor devil in the hospital, and off he
goes with his heavy swinging step after telling me
sternly: “Don’t you go like that
poor fellow and get yourself run over by a cart as
if you hadn’t either eyes or ears.”
“Mr. Powell,” says I timidly
(there was by then only the thin-necked man left in
the office with us and he was already by the door,
standing on one leg to turn the bottom of his trousers
up before going away). “Mr. Powell,”
says I, “I believe the Captain of the Ferndale
was thinking all the time that I was a relation of
yours.”
“I was rather concerned about
the propriety of it, you know, but Mr. Powell didn’t
seem to be in the least.
“Did he?” says he.
“That’s funny, because it seems to me
too that I’ve been a sort of good uncle to several
of you young fellows lately. Don’t you
think so yourself? However, if you don’t
like it you may put him right when you
get out to sea.” At this I felt a bit queer.
Mr. Powell had rendered me a very good service:-
because it’s a fact that with us merchant sailors
the first voyage as officer is the real start in life.
He had given me no less than that. I told him
warmly that he had done for me more that day than
all my relations put together ever did.
“Oh, no, no,” says he.
“I guess it’s that shipment of explosives
waiting down the river which has done most for you.
Forty tons of dynamite have been your best friend
to-day, young man.”
“That was true too, perhaps.
Anyway I saw clearly enough that I had nothing to
thank myself for. But as I tried to thank him,
he checked my stammering.
“Don’t be in a hurry to
thank me,” says he. “The voyage isn’t
finished yet.”
Our new acquaintance paused, then
added meditatively: “Queer man. As
if it made any difference. Queer man.”
“It’s certainly unwise
to admit any sort of responsibility for our actions,
whose consequences we are never able to foresee,”
remarked Marlow by way of assent.
“The consequence of his action
was that I got a ship,” said the other.
“That could not do much harm,” he added
with a laugh which argued a probably unconscious contempt
of general ideas.
But Marlow was not put off.
He was patient and reflective. He had been at
sea many years and I verily believe he liked sea-life
because upon the whole it is favourable to reflection.
I am speaking of the now nearly vanished sea-life
under sail. To those who may be surprised at
the statement I will point out that this life secured
for the mind of him who embraced it the inestimable
advantages of solitude and silence. Marlow had
the habit of pursuing general ideas in a peculiar manner,
between jest and earnest.
“Oh, I wouldn’t suggest,”
he said, “that your namesake Mr. Powell, the
Shipping Master, had done you much harm. Such
was hardly his intention. And even if it had
been he would not have had the power. He was
but a man, and the incapacity to achieve anything
distinctly good or evil is inherent in our earthly
condition. Mediocrity is our mark. And
perhaps it’s just as well, since, for the most
part, we cannot be certain of the effect of our actions.”
“I don’t know about the
effect,” the other stood up to Marlow manfully.
“What effect did you expect anyhow? I tell
you he did something uncommonly kind.”
“He did what he could,”
Marlow retorted gently, “and on his own showing
that was not a very great deal. I cannot help
thinking that there was some malice in the way he
seized the opportunity to serve you. He managed
to make you uncomfortable. You wanted to go to
sea, but he jumped at the chance of accommodating
your desire with a vengeance. I am inclined
to think your cheek alarmed him. And this was
an excellent occasion to suppress you altogether.
For if you accepted he was relieved of you with every
appearance of humanity, and if you made objections
(after requesting his assistance, mind you) it was
open to him to drop you as a sort of impostor.
You might have had to decline that berth for some
very valid reason. From sheer necessity perhaps.
The notice was too uncommonly short. But under
the circumstances you’d have covered yourself
with ignominy.”
Our new friend knocked the ashes out of his pipe.
“Quite a mistake,” he
said. “I am not of the declining sort,
though I’ll admit it was something like telling
a man that you would like a bath and in consequence
being instantly knocked overboard to sink or swim with
your clothes on. However, I didn’t feel
as if I were in deep water at first. I left
the shipping office quietly and for a time strolled
along the street as easy as if I had a week before
me to fit myself out. But by and by I reflected
that the notice was even shorter than it looked.
The afternoon was well advanced; I had some things
to get, a lot of small matters to attend to, one or
two persons to see. One of them was an aunt
of mine, my only relation, who quarrelled with poor
father as long as he lived about some silly matter
that had neither right nor wrong to it. She
left her money to me when she died. I used always
to go and see her for decency’s sake.
I had so much to do before night that I didn’t
know where to begin. I felt inclined to sit
down on the kerb and hold my head in my hands.
It was as if an engine had been started going under
my skull. Finally I sat down in the first cab
that came along and it was a hard matter to keep on
sitting there I can tell you, while we rolled up and
down the streets, pulling up here and there, the parcels
accumulating round me and the engine in my head gathering
more way every minute. The composure of the
people on the pavements was provoking to a degree,
and as to the people in shops, they were benumbed,
more than half frozen imbecile. Funny
how it affects you to be in a peculiar state of mind:
everybody that does not act up to your excitement seems
so confoundedly unfriendly. And my state of
mind what with the hurry, the worry and a growing
exultation was peculiar enough. That engine in
my head went round at its top speed hour after hour
till eleven at about at night it let up on me suddenly
at the entrance to the Dock before large iron gates
in a dead wall.”
These gates were closed and locked.
The cabby, after shooting his things off the roof
of his machine into young Powell’s arms, drove
away leaving him alone with his sea-chest, a sail
cloth bag and a few parcels on the pavement about
his feet. It was a dark, narrow thoroughfare
he told us. A mean row of houses on the other
side looked empty: there wasn’t the smallest
gleam of light in them. The white-hot glare of
a gin palace a good way off made the intervening piece
of the street pitch black. Some human shapes
appearing mysteriously, as if they had sprung up from
the dark ground, shunned the edge of the faint light
thrown down by the gateway lamps. These figures
were wary in their movements and perfectly silent
of foot, like beasts of prey slinking about a camp
fire. Powell gathered up his belongings and
hovered over them like a hen over her brood.
A gruffly insinuating voice said:
“Let’s carry your things
in, Capt’in! I’ve got my pal ’ere.”
He was a tall, bony, grey-haired ruffian
with a bulldog jaw, in a torn cotton shirt and moleskin
trousers. The shadow of his hobnailed boots
was enormous and coffinlike. His pal, who didn’t
come up much higher than his elbow, stepping forward
exhibited a pale face with a long drooping nose and
no chin to speak of. He seemed to have just scrambled
out of a dust-bin in a tam-o’shanter cap and
a tattered soldier’s coat much too long for
him. Being so deadly white he looked like a horrible
dirty invalid in a ragged dressing gown. The
coat flapped open in front and the rest of his apparel
consisted of one brace which crossed his naked, bony
chest, and a pair of trousers. He blinked rapidly
as if dazed by the faint light, while his patron,
the old bandit, glowered at young Powell from under
his beetling brow.
“Say the word, Capt’in.
The bobby’ll let us in all right. ’E
knows both of us.”
“I didn’t answer him,”
continued Mr. Powell. “I was listening
to footsteps on the other side of the gate, echoing
between the walls of the warehouses as if in an uninhabited
town of very high buildings dark from basement to
roof. You could never have guessed that within
a stone’s throw there was an open sheet of water
and big ships lying afloat. The few gas lamps
showing up a bit of brick work here and there, appeared
in the blackness like penny dips in a range of cellars and
the solitary footsteps came on, tramp, tramp.
A dock policeman strode into the light on the other
side of the gate, very broad-chested and stern.
“Hallo! What’s up here?”
“He was really surprised, but
after some palaver he let me in together with the
two loafers carrying my luggage. He grumbled
at them however and slammed the gate violently with
a loud clang. I was startled to discover how
many night prowlers had collected in the darkness of
the street in such a short time and without my being
aware of it. Directly we were through they came
surging against the bars, silent, like a mob of ugly
spectres. But suddenly, up the street somewhere,
perhaps near that public-house, a row started as if
Bedlam had broken loose: shouts, yells, an awful
shrill shriek and at that noise all these
heads vanished from behind the bars.
“Look at this,” marvelled
the constable. “It’s a wonder to
me they didn’t make off with your things while
you were waiting.”
“I would have taken good care
of that,” I said defiantly. But the constable
wasn’t impressed.
“Much you would have done.
The bag going off round one dark corner; the chest
round another. Would you have run two ways at
once? And anyhow you’d have been tripped
up and jumped upon before you had run three yards.
I tell you you’ve had a most extraordinary chance
that there wasn’t one of them regular boys about
to-night, in the High Street, to twig your loaded
cab go by. Ted here is honest . . . You
are on the honest lay, Ted, ain’t you?”
“Always was, orficer,”
said the big ruffian with feeling. The other
frail creature seemed dumb and only hopped about with
the edge of its soldier coat touching the ground.
“Oh yes, I dare say,”
said the constable. “Now then, forward,
march . . . He’s that because he ain’t
game for the other thing,” he confided to me.
“He hasn’t got the nerve for it.
However, I ain’t going to lose sight of them
two till they go out through the gate. That little
chap’s a devil. He’s got the nerve
for anything, only he hasn’t got the muscle.
Well! Well! You’ve had a chance to
get in with a whole skin and with all your things.”
“I was incredulous a little.
It seemed impossible that after getting ready with
so much hurry and inconvenience I should have lost
my chance of a start in life from such a cause.
I asked:
“Does that sort of thing happen
often so near the dock gates?”
“Often! No! Of course
not often. But it ain’t often either that
a man comes along with a cabload of things to join
a ship at this time of night. I’ve been
in the dock police thirteen years and haven’t
seen it done once.”
“Meantime we followed my sea-chest
which was being carried down a sort of deep narrow
lane, separating two high warehouses, between honest
Ted and his little devil of a pal who had to keep
up a trot to the other’s stride. The skirt
of his soldier’s coat floating behind him nearly
swept the ground so that he seemed to be running on
castors. At the corner of the gloomy passage
a rigged jib boom with a dolphin-striker ending in
an arrow-head stuck out of the night close to a cast
iron lamp-post. It was the quay side.
They set down their load in the light and honest Ted
asked hoarsely:
“Where’s your ship, guv’nor?”
“I didn’t know. The constable was
interested at my ignorance.
“Don’t know where your
ship is?” he asked with curiosity. “And
you the second officer! Haven’t you been
working on board of her?”
“I couldn’t explain that
the only work connected with my appointment was the
work of chance. I told him briefly that I didn’t
know her at all. At this he remarked:
“So I see. Here she is, right before you.
That’s her.”
“At once the head-gear in the
gas light inspired me with interest and respect; the
spars were big, the chains and ropes stout and the
whole thing looked powerful and trustworthy.
Barely touched by the light her bows rose faintly
alongside the narrow strip of the quay; the rest of
her was a black smudge in the darkness. Here
I was face to face with my start in life. We
walked in a body a few steps on a greasy pavement
between her side and the towering wall of a warehouse
and I hit my shins cruelly against the end of the
gangway. The constable hailed her quietly in
a bass undertone ‘Ferndale there!’
A feeble and dismal sound, something in the nature
of a buzzing groan, answered from behind the bulwarks.
“I distinguished vaguely an
irregular round knob, of wood, perhaps, resting on
the rail. It did not move in the least; but as
another broken-down buzz like a still fainter echo
of the first dismal sound proceeded from it I concluded
it must be the head of the ship-keeper. The stalwart
constable jeered in a mock-official manner.
“Second officer coming to join. Move yourself
a bit.”
“The truth of the statement
touched me in the pit of the stomach (you know that’s
the spot where emotion gets home on a man) for it was
borne upon me that really and truly I was nothing
but a second officer of a ship just like any other
second officer, to that constable. I was moved
by this solid evidence of my new dignity. Only
his tone offended me. Nevertheless I gave him
the tip he was looking for. Thereupon he lost
all interest in me, humorous or otherwise, and walked
away driving sternly before him the honest Ted, who
went off grumbling to himself like a hungry ogre,
and his horrible dumb little pal in the soldier’s
coat, who, from first to last, never emitted the slightest
sound.
“It was very dark on the quarter
deck of the Ferndale between the deep bulwarks
overshadowed by the break of the poop and frowned upon
by the front of the warehouse. I plumped down
on to my chest near the after hatch as if my legs
had been jerked from under me. I felt suddenly
very tired and languid. The ship-keeper, whom
I could hardly make out hung over the capstan in a
fit of weak pitiful coughing. He gasped out very
low ‘Oh! dear! Oh! dear!’ and struggled
for breath so long that I got up alarmed and irresolute.
“I’ve been took like this
since last Christmas twelvemonth. It ain’t
nothing.”
“He seemed a hundred years old
at least. I never saw him properly because he
was gone ashore and out of sight when I came on deck
in the morning; but he gave me the notion of the feeblest
creature that ever breathed. His voice was thin
like the buzzing of a mosquito. As it would
have been cruel to demand assistance from such a shadowy
wreck I went to work myself, dragging my chest along
a pitch-black passage under the poop deck, while he
sighed and moaned around me as if my exertions were
more than his weakness could stand. At last as
I banged pretty heavily against the bulkheads he warned
me in his faint breathless wheeze to be more careful.
“What’s the matter?”
I asked rather roughly, not relishing to be admonished
by this forlorn broken-down ghost.
“Nothing! Nothing, sir,”
he protested so hastily that he lost his poor breath
again and I felt sorry for him. “Only the
captain and his missus are sleeping on board.
She’s a lady that mustn’t be disturbed.
They came about half-past eight, and we had a permit
to have lights in the cabin till ten to-night.”
“This struck me as a considerable
piece of news. I had never been in a ship where
the captain had his wife with him. I’d
heard fellows say that captains’ wives could
work a lot of mischief on board ship if they happened
to take a dislike to anyone; especially the new wives
if young and pretty. The old and experienced
wives on the other hand fancied they knew more about
the ship than the skipper himself and had an eye like
a hawk’s for what went on. They were like
an extra chief mate of a particularly sharp and unfeeling
sort who made his report in the evening. The
best of them were a nuisance. In the general
opinion a skipper with his wife on board was more
difficult to please; but whether to show off his authority
before an admiring female or from loving anxiety for
her safety or simply from irritation at her presence nobody
I ever heard on the subject could tell for certain.
“After I had bundled in my things
somehow I struck a match and had a dazzling glimpse
of my berth; then I pitched the roll of my bedding
into the bunk but took no trouble to spread it out.
I wasn’t sleepy now, neither was I tired.
And the thought that I was done with the earth for
many many months to come made me feel very quiet and
self-contained as it were. Sailors will understand
what I mean.”
Marlow nodded. “It is
a strictly professional feeling,” he commented.
“But other professions or trades know nothing
of it. It is only this calling whose primary
appeal lies in the suggestion of restless adventure
which holds out that deep sensation to those who embrace
it. It is difficult to define, I admit.”
“I should call it the peace
of the sea,” said Mr. Charles Powell in an earnest
tone but looking at us as though he expected to be
met by a laugh of derision and were half prepared
to salve his reputation for common sense by joining
in it. But neither of us laughed at Mr. Charles
Powell in whose start in life we had been called to
take a part. He was lucky in his audience.
“A very good name,” said
Marlow looking at him approvingly. “A sailor
finds a deep feeling of security in the exercise of
his calling. The exacting life of the sea has
this advantage over the life of the earth that its
claims are simple and cannot be evaded.”
“Gospel truth,” assented
Mr. Powell. “No! they cannot be evaded.”
That an excellent understanding should
have established itself between my old friend and
our new acquaintance was remarkable enough. For
they were exactly dissimilar one individuality
projecting itself in length and the other in breadth,
which is already a sufficient ground for irreconcilable
difference. Marlow who was lanky, loose, quietly
composed in varied shades of brown robbed of every
vestige of gloss, had a narrow, veiled glance, the
neutral bearing and the secret irritability which go
together with a predisposition to congestion of the
liver. The other, compact, broad and sturdy
of limb, seemed extremely full of sound organs functioning
vigorously all the time in order to keep up the brilliance
of his colouring, the light curl of his coal-black
hair and the lustre of his eyes, which asserted themselves
roundly in an open, manly face. Between two such
organisms one would not have expected to find the
slightest temperamental accord. But I have observed
that profane men living in ships like the holy men
gathered together in monasteries develop traits of
profound resemblance. This must be because the
service of the sea and the service of a temple are
both detached from the vanities and errors of a world
which follows no severe rule. The men of the
sea understand each other very well in their view of
earthly things, for simplicity is a good counsellor
and isolation not a bad educator. A turn of
mind composed of innocence and scepticism is common
to them all, with the addition of an unexpected insight
into motives, as of disinterested lookers-on at a
game. Mr. Powell took me aside to say,
“I like the things he says.”
“You understand each other pretty well,”
I observed.
“I know his sort,” said
Powell, going to the window to look at his cutter
still riding to the flood. “He’s
the sort that’s always chasing some notion or
other round and round his head just for the fun of
the thing.”
“Keeps them in good condition,” I said.
“Lively enough I dare say,” he admitted.
“Would you like better a man who let his notions
lie curled up?”
“That I wouldn’t,”
answered our new acquaintance. Clearly he was
not difficult to get on with. “I like
him, very well,” he continued, “though
it isn’t easy to make him out. He seems
to be up to a thing or two. What’s he doing?”
I informed him that our friend Marlow
had retired from the sea in a sort of half-hearted
fashion some years ago.
Mr. Powell’s comment was: “Fancied
had enough of it?”
“Fancied’s the very word
to use in this connection,” I observed, remembering
the subtly provisional character of Marlow’s
long sojourn amongst us. From year to year he
dwelt on land as a bird rests on the branch of a tree,
so tense with the power of brusque flight into its
true element that it is incomprehensible why it should
sit still minute after minute. The sea is the
sailor’s true element, and Marlow, lingering
on shore, was to me an object of incredulous commiseration
like a bird, which, secretly, should have lost its
faith in the high virtue of flying.