Renovated certainly the saloon of
the Ferndale was to receive the “strange
woman.” The mellowness of its old-fashioned,
tarnished decoration was gone. And Anthony looking
round saw the glitter, the gleams, the colour of new
things, untried, unused, very bright too
bright. The workmen had gone only last night;
and the last piece of work they did was the hanging
of the heavy curtains which looped midway the length
of the saloon divided it in two if released,
cutting off the after end with its companion-way leading
direct on the poop, from the forepart with its outlet
on the deck; making a privacy within a privacy, as
though Captain Anthony could not place obstacles enough
between his new happiness and the men who shared his
life at sea. He inspected that arrangement with
an approving eye then made a particular visitation
of the whole, ending by opening a door which led into
a large state-room made of two knocked into one.
It was very well furnished and had, instead of the
usual bedplace of such cabins, an elaborate swinging
cot of the latest pattern. Anthony tilted it
a little by way of trial. “The old man
will be very comfortable in here,” he said to
himself, and stepped back into the saloon closing
the door gently. Then another thought occurred
to him obvious under the circumstances but strangely
enough presenting itself for the first time.
“Jove! Won’t he get a shock,”
thought Roderick Anthony.
He went hastily on deck. “Mr.
Franklin, Mr. Franklin.” The mate was not
very far. “Oh! Here you are.
Miss . . . Mrs. Anthony’ll be coming on
board presently. Just give me a call when you
see the cab.”
Then, without noticing the gloominess
of the mate’s countenance he went in again.
Not a friendly word, not a professional remark, or
a small joke, not as much as a simple and inane “fine
day.” Nothing. Just turned about
and went in.
We know that, when the moment came,
he thought better of it and decided to meet Flora’s
father in that privacy of the main cabin which he had
been so careful to arrange. Why Anthony appeared
to shrink from the contact, he who was sufficiently
self-confident not only to face but to absolutely
create a situation almost insane in its audacious generosity,
is difficult to explain. Perhaps when he came
on the poop for a glance he found that man so different
outwardly from what he expected that he decided to
meet him for the first time out of everybody’s
sight. Possibly the general secrecy of his relation
to the girl might have influenced him. Truly
he may well have been dismayed. That man’s
coming brought him face to face with the necessity
to speak and act a lie; to appear what he was not
and what he could never be, unless, unless
In short, we’ll say if you like
that for various reasons, all having to do with the
delicate rectitude of his nature, Roderick Anthony
(a man of whom his chief mate used to say: he
doesn’t know what fear is) was frightened.
There is a Nemesis which overtakes generosity too,
like all the other imprudences of men who dare
to be lawless and proud . . . "
“Why do you say this?”
I inquired, for Marlow had stopped abruptly and kept
silent in the shadow of the bookcase.
“I say this because that man
whom chance had thrown in Flora’s way was both:
lawless and proud. Whether he knew anything about
it or not it does not matter. Very likely not.
One may fling a glove in the face of nature and in
the face of one’s own moral endurance quite innocently,
with a simplicity which wears the aspect of perfectly
Satanic conceit. However, as I have said it does
not matter. It’s a transgression all the
same and has got to be paid for in the usual way.
But never mind that. I paused because, like
Anthony, I find a difficulty, a sort of dread in coming
to grips with old de Barral.
You remember I had a glimpse of him
once. He was not an imposing personality:
tall, thin, straight, stiff, faded, moving with short
steps and with a gliding motion, speaking in an even
low voice. When the sea was rough he wasn’t
much seen on deck at least not walking.
He caught hold of things then and dragged himself
along as far as the after skylight where he would
sit for hours. Our, then young, friend offered
once to assist him and this service was the first beginning
of a sort of friendship. He clung hard to one Powell
says, with no figurative intention. Powell was
always on the lookout to assist, and to assist mainly
Mrs. Anthony, because he clung so jolly hard to her
that Powell was afraid of her being dragged down notwithstanding
that she very soon became very sure-footed in all
sorts of weather. And Powell was the only one
ready to assist at hand because Anthony (by that time)
seemed to be afraid to come near them; the unforgiving
Franklin always looked wrathfully the other way; the
boatswain, if up there, acted likewise but sheepishly;
and any hands that happened to be on the poop (a feeling
spreads mysteriously all over a ship) shunned him as
though he had been the devil.
We know how he arrived on board.
For my part I know so little of prisons that I haven’t
the faintest notion how one leaves them. It seems
as abominable an operation as the other, the shutting
up with its mental suggestions of bang, snap, crash
and the empty silence outside where an
instant before you were you were and
now no longer are. Perfectly devilish.
And the release! I don’t know which is
worse. How do they do it? Pull the string,
door flies open, man flies through: Out you go!
Adios! And in the space where a second
before you were not, in the silent space there is
a figure going away, limping. Why limping?
I don’t know. That’s how I see
it. One has a notion of a maiming, crippling
process; of the individual coming back damaged in some
subtle way. I admit it is a fantastic hallucination,
but I can’t help it. Of course I know
that the proceedings of the best machine-made humanity
are employed with judicious care and so on.
I am absurd, no doubt, but still . . . Oh yes
it’s idiotic. When I pass one of these
places . . . did you notice that there is something
infernal about the aspect of every individual stone
or brick of them, something malicious as if matter
were enjoying its revenge of the contemptuous spirit
of man. Did you notice? You didn’t?
Eh? Well I am perhaps a little mad on that point.
When I pass one of these places I must avert my eyes.
I couldn’t have gone to meet de Barral.
I should have shrunk from the ordeal. You’ll
notice that it looks as if Anthony (a brave man indubitably)
had shirked it too. Little Fyne’s flight
of fancy picturing three people in the fatal four
wheeler you remember? went wide
of the truth. There were only two people in
the four wheeler. Flora did not shrink.
Women can stand anything. The dear creatures
have no imagination when it comes to solid facts of
life. In sentimental regions I won’t
say. It’s another thing altogether.
There they shrink from or rush to embrace ghosts of
their own creation just the same as any fool-man would.
No. I suppose the girl Flora
went on that errand reasonably. And then, why!
This was the moment for which she had lived.
It was her only point of contact with existence.
Oh yes. She had been assisted by the Fynes.
And kindly. Certainly. Kindly. But
that’s not enough. There is a kind way
of assisting our fellow-creatures which is enough to
break their hearts while it saves their outer envelope.
How cold, how infernally cold she must have felt unless
when she was made to burn with indignation or shame.
Man, we know, cannot live by bread alone but hang
me if I don’t believe that some women could live
by love alone. If there be a flame in human
beings fed by varied ingredients earthly and spiritual
which tinge it in different hues, then I seem to see
the colour of theirs. It is azure . . .
What the devil are you laughing at . . . "
Marlow jumped up and strode out of
the shadow as if lifted by indignation but there was
the flicker of a smile on his lips. “You
say I don’t know women. Maybe. It’s
just as well not to come too close to the shrine.
But I have a clear notion of woman. In
all of them, termagant, flirt, crank, washerwoman,
blue-stocking, outcast and even in the ordinary fool
of the ordinary commerce there is something left, if
only a spark. And when there is a spark there
can always be a flame . . . "
He went back into the shadow and sat down again.
“I don’t mean to say that
Flora de Barral was one of the sort that could live
by love alone. In fact she had managed to live
without. But still, in the distrust of herself
and of others she looked for love, any kind of love,
as women will. And that confounded jail was the
only spot where she could see it for she
had no reason to distrust her father.
She was there in good time.
I see her gazing across the road at these walls which
are, properly speaking, awful. You do indeed
seem to feel along the very lines and angles of the
unholy bulk, the fall of time, drop by drop, hour
by hour, leaf by leaf, with a gentle and implacable
slowness. And a voiceless melancholy comes over
one, invading, overpowering like a dream, penetrating
and mortal like poison.
When de Barral came out she experienced
a sort of shock to see that he was exactly as she
remembered him. Perhaps a little smaller.
Otherwise unchanged. You come out in the same
clothes, you know. I can’t tell whether
he was looking for her. No doubt he was.
Whether he recognized her? Very likely.
She crossed the road and at once there was reproduced
at a distance of years, as if by some mocking witchcraft,
the sight so familiar on the Parade at Brighton of
the financier de Barral walking with his only daughter.
One comes out of prison in the same clothes one wore
on the day of condemnation, no matter how long one
has been put away there. Oh, they last!
They last! But there is something which is
preserved by prison life even better than one’s
discarded clothing. It is the force, the vividness
of one’s sentiments. A monastery will do
that too; but in the unholy claustration of a
jail you are thrown back wholly upon yourself for
God and Faith are not there. The people outside
disperse their affections, you hoard yours, you nurse
them into intensity. What they let slip, what
they forget in the movement and changes of free life,
you hold on to, amplify, exaggerate into a rank growth
of memories. They can look with a smile at the
troubles and pains of the past; but you can’t.
Old pains keep on gnawing at your heart, old desires,
old deceptions, old dreams, assailing you in the dead
stillness of your present where nothing moves except
the irrecoverable minutes of your life.
De Barral was out and, for a time
speechless, being led away almost before he had taken
possession of the free world, by his daughter.
Flora controlled herself well. They walked
along quickly for some distance. The cab had
been left round the corner round several
corners for all I know. He was flustered, out
of breath, when she helped him in and followed herself.
Inside that rolling box, turning towards that recovered
presence with her heart too full for words she felt
the desire of tears she had managed to keep down abandon
her suddenly, her half-mournful, half-triumphant exultation
subside, every fibre of her body, relaxed in tenderness,
go stiff in the close look she took at his face.
He was different. There was something.
Yes, there was something between them, something
hard and impalpable, the ghost of these high walls.
How old he was, how unlike!
She shook off this impression, amazed
and frightened by it of course. And remorseful
too. Naturally. She threw her arms round
his neck. He returned that hug awkwardly, as
if not in perfect control of his arms, with a fumbling
and uncertain pressure. She hid her face on his
breast. It was as though she were pressing it
against a stone. They released each other and
presently the cab was rolling along at a jog-trot to
the docks with those two people as far apart as they
could get from each other, in opposite corners.
After a silence given up to mutual
examination he uttered his first coherent sentence
outside the walls of the prison.
“What has done for me was envy.
Envy. There was a lot of them just bursting
with it every time they looked my way. I was
doing too well. So they went to the Public Prosecutor ”
She said hastily “Yes!
Yes! I know,” and he glared as if resentful
that the child had turned into a young woman without
waiting for him to come out. “What do
you know about it?” he asked. “You
were too young.” His speech was soft.
The old voice, the old voice! It gave her a
thrill. She recognized its pointless gentleness
always the same no matter what he had to say.
And she remembered that he never had much to say when
he came down to see her. It was she who chattered,
chattered, on their walks, while stiff and with a
rigidly-carried head, he dropped a gentle word now
and then.
Moved by these recollections waking
up within her, she explained to him that within the
last year she had read and studied the report of the
trial.
“I went through the files of several papers,
papa.”
He looked at her suspiciously.
The reports were probably very incomplete.
No doubt the reporters had garbled his evidence.
They were determined to give him no chance either
in court or before the public opinion. It was
a conspiracy . . . “My counsel was a fool
too,” he added. “Did you notice?
A perfect fool.”
She laid her hand on his arm soothingly.
“Is it worth while talking about that awful
time? It is so far away now.” She
shuddered slightly at the thought of all the horrible
years which had passed over her young head; never
guessing that for him the time was but yesterday.
He folded his arms on his breast, leaned back in
his corner and bowed his head. But in a little
while he made her jump by asking suddenly:
“Who has got hold of the Lone
Valley Railway? That’s what they were
after mainly. Somebody has got it. Parfitts
and Co. grabbed it eh? Or was it
that fellow Warner . . . "
“I I don’t
know,” she said quite scared by the twitching
of his lips.
“Don’t know!” he
exclaimed softly. Hadn’t her cousin told
her? Oh yes. She had left them of
course. Why did she? It was his first question
about herself but she did not answer it. She
did not want to talk of these horrors. They
were impossible to describe. She perceived though
that he had not expected an answer, because she heard
him muttering to himself that: “There was
half a million’s worth of work done and material
accumulated there.”
“You mustn’t think of
these things, papa,” she said firmly. And
he asked her with that invariable gentleness, in which
she seemed now to detect some rather ugly shades,
what else had he to think about? Another year
or two, if they had only left him alone, he and everybody
else would have been all right, rolling in money;
and she, his daughter, could have married anybody anybody.
A lord.
All this was to him like yesterday,
a long yesterday, a yesterday gone over innumerable
times, analysed, meditated upon for years. It
had a vividness and force for that old man of which
his daughter who had not been shut out of the world
could have no idea. She was to him the only
living figure out of that past, and it was perhaps
in perfect good faith that he added, coldly, inexpressive
and thin-lipped: “I lived only for you,
I may say. I suppose you understand that.
There were only you and me.”
Moved by this declaration, wondering
that it did not warm her heart more, she murmured
a few endearing words while the uppermost thought in
her mind was that she must tell him now of the situation.
She had expected to be questioned anxiously about
herself and while she desired it she shrank
from the answers she would have to make. But
her father seemed strangely, unnaturally incurious.
It looked as if there would be no questions.
Still this was an opening. This seemed to be
the time for her to begin. And she began.
She began by saying that she had always felt like
that. There were two of them, to live for each
other. And if he only knew what she had gone
through!
Ensconced in his corner, with his
arms folded, he stared out of the cab window at the
street. How little he was changed after all.
It was the unmovable expression, the faded stare
she used to see on the esplanade whenever walking
by his side hand in hand she raised her eyes to his
face while she chattered, chattered.
It was the same stiff, silent figure which at a word
from her would turn rigidly into a shop and buy her
anything it occurred to her that she would like to
have. Flora de Barral’s voice faltered.
He bent on her that well-remembered glance in which
she had never read anything as a child, except the
consciousness of her existence. And that was
enough for a child who had never known demonstrative
affection. But she had lived a life so starved
of all feeling that this was no longer enough for
her. What was the good of telling him the story
of all these miseries now past and gone, of all those
bewildering difficulties and humiliations? What
she must tell him was difficult enough to say.
She approached it by remarking cheerfully:
“You haven’t even asked
me where I am taking you.” He started like
a somnambulist awakened suddenly, and there was now
some meaning in his stare; a sort of alarmed speculation.
He opened his mouth slowly. Flora struck in
with forced gaiety. “You would never, guess.”
He waited, still more startled and
suspicious. “Guess! Why don’t
you tell me?”
He uncrossed his arms and leaned forward
towards her. She got hold of one of his hands.
“You must know first . . . " She paused, made
an effort: “I am married, papa.”
For a moment they kept perfectly still
in that cab rolling on at a steady jog-trot through
a narrow city street full of bustle. Whatever
she expected she did not expect to feel his hand snatched
away from her grasp as if from a burn or a contamination.
De Barral fresh from the stagnant torment of the
prison (where nothing happens) had not expected that
sort of news. It seemed to stick in his throat.
In strangled low tones he cried out, “You married?
You, Flora! When? Married! What
for? Who to? Married!”
His eyes which were blue like hers,
only faded, without depth, seemed to start out of
their orbits. He did really look as if he were
choking. He even put his hand to his collar
. . . "
“You know,” continued
Marlow out of the shadow of the bookcase and nearly
invisible in the depths of the arm-chair, “the
only time I saw him he had given me the impression
of absolute rigidity, as though he had swallowed a
poker. But it seems that he could collapse.
I can hardly picture this to myself. I understand
that he did collapse to a certain extent in his corner
of the cab. The unexpected had crumpled him up.
She regarded him perplexed, pitying, a little disillusioned,
and nodded at him gravely: Yes. Married.
What she did not like was to see him smile in a manner
far from encouraging to the devotion of a daughter.
There was something unintentionally savage in it.
Old de Barral could not quite command his muscles,
as yet. But he had recovered command of his gentle
voice.
“You were just saying that in
this wide world there we were, only you and I, to
stick to each other.”
She was dimly aware of the scathing
intention lurking in these soft low tones, in these
words which appealed to her poignantly. She defended
herself. Never, never for a single moment had
she ceased to think of him. Neither did he cease
to think of her, he said, with as much sinister emphasis
as he was capable of.
“But, papa,” she cried,
“I haven’t been shut up like you.”
She didn’t mind speaking of it because he was
innocent. He hadn’t been understood.
It was a misfortune of the most cruel kind but no more
disgraceful than an illness, a maiming accident or
some other visitation of blind fate. “I
wish I had been too. But I was alone out in the
world, the horrid world, that very world which had
used you so badly.”
“And you couldn’t go about
in it without finding somebody to fall in love with?”
he said. A jealous rage affected his brain like
the fumes of wine, rising from some secret depths
of his being so long deprived of all emotions.
The hollows at the corners of his lips became more
pronounced in the puffy roundness of his cheeks.
Images, visions, obsess with particular force, men
withdrawn from the sights and sounds of active life.
“And I did nothing but think of you!”
he exclaimed under his breath, contemptuously.
“Think of you! You haunted me, I tell
you.”
Flora said to herself that there was
a being who loved her. “Then we have been
haunting each other,” she declared with a pang
of remorse. For indeed he had haunted her nearly
out of the world, into a final and irremediable desertion.
“Some day I shall tell you . . . No.
I don’t think I can ever tell you. There
was a time when I was mad. But what’s
the good? It’s all over now. We shall
forget all this. There shall be nothing to remind
us.”
De Barral moved his shoulders.
“I should think you were mad
to tie yourself to . . . How long is it since
you are married?”
She answered “Not long”
that being the only answer she dared to make.
Everything was so different from what she imagined
it would be. He wanted to know why she had said
nothing of it in any of her letters; in her last letter.
She said:
“It was after.”
“So recently!” he wondered.
“Couldn’t you wait at least till I came
out? You could have told me; asked me; consulted
me! Let me see ”
She shook her head negatively.
And he was appalled. He thought to himself:
Who can he be? Some miserable, silly youth without
a penny. Or perhaps some scoundrel? Without
making any expressive movement he wrung his loosely-clasped
hands till the joints cracked. He looked at her.
She was pretty. Some low scoundrel who will
cast her off. Some plausible vagabond . . .
“You couldn’t wait eh?”
Again she made a slight negative sign.
“Why not? What was the
hurry?” She cast down her eyes. “It
had to be. Yes. It was sudden, but it had
to be.”
He leaned towards her, his mouth open,
his eyes wild with virtuous anger, but meeting the
absolute candour of her raised glance threw himself
back into his corner again.
“So tremendously in love with
each other was that it? Couldn’t
let a father have his daughter all to himself even
for a day after after such a separation.
And you know I never had anyone, I had no friends.
What did I want with those people one meets in the
City. The best of them are ready to cut your
throat. Yes! Business men, gentlemen, any
sort of men and women out of spite, or
to get something. Oh yes, they can talk fair
enough if they think there’s something to be
got out of you . . . " His voice was a mere breath
yet every word came to Flora as distinctly as if charged
with all the moving power of passion . . . “My
girl, I looked at them making up to me and I would
say to myself: What do I care for all that!
I am a business man. I am the great Mr. de Barral
(yes, yes, some of them twisted their mouths at it,
but I was the great Mr. de Barral) and I have
my little girl. I wanted nobody and I have never
had anybody.”
A true emotion had unsealed his lips
but the words that came out of them were no louder
than the murmur of a light wind. It died away.
“That’s just it,”
said Flora de Barral under her breath. Without
removing his eyes from her he took off his hat.
It was a tall hat. The hat of the trial.
The hat of the thumb-nail sketches in the illustrated
papers. One comes out in the same clothes, but
seclusion counts! It is well known that lurid
visions haunt secluded men, monks, hermits then
why not prisoners? De Barral the convict took
off the silk hat of the financier de Barral and deposited
it on the front seat of the cab. Then he blew
out his cheeks. He was red in the face.
“And then what happens?”
he began again in his contained voice. “Here
I am, overthrown, broken by envy, malice and all uncharitableness.
I come out and what do I find? I
find that my girl Flora has gone and married some
man or other, perhaps a fool, how do I know; or perhaps anyway
not good enough.”
“Stop, papa.”
“A silly love affair as likely
as not,” he continued monotonously, his thin
lips writhing between the ill-omened sunk corners.
“And a very suspicious thing it is too, on
the part of a loving daughter.”
She tried to interrupt him but he
went on till she actually clapped her hand on his
mouth. He rolled his eyes a bit but when she
took her hand away he remained silent.
“Wait. I must tell you
. . . And first of all, papa, understand this,
for everything’s in that: he is the most
generous man in the world. He is . . . "
De Barral very still in his corner
uttered with an effort “You are in love with
him.”
“Papa! He came to me.
I was thinking of you. I had no eyes for anybody.
I could no longer bear to think of you. It was
then that he came. Only then. At that
time when when I was going to give up.”
She gazed into his faded blue eyes
as if yearning to be understood, to be given encouragement,
peace a word of sympathy. He declared
without animation “I would like to break his
neck.”
She had the mental exclamation of the overburdened.
“Oh my God!” and watched
him with frightened eyes. But he did not appear
insane or in any other way formidable. This comforted
her. The silence lasted for some little time.
Then suddenly he asked:
“What’s your name then?”
For a moment in the profound trouble
of the task before her she did not understand what
the question meant. Then, her face faintly flushing,
she whispered: “Anthony.”
Her father, a red spot on each cheek,
leaned his head back wearily in the corner of the
cab.
“Anthony. What is he? Where did
he spring from?”
“Papa, it was in the country, on a road ”
He groaned, “On a road,” and closed his
eyes.
“It’s too long to explain
to you now. We shall have lots of time.
There are things I could not tell you now.
But some day. Some day. For now nothing
can part us. Nothing. We are safe as long
as we live nothing can ever come between
us.”
“You are infatuated with the
fellow,” he remarked, without opening his eyes.
And she said: “I believe in him,”
in a low voice. “You and I must believe
in him.”
“Who the devil is he?”
“He’s the brother of the
lady you know Mrs. Fyne, she knew mother who
was so kind to me. I was staying in the country,
in a cottage, with Mr. and Mrs. Fyne. It was
there that we met. He came on a visit.
He noticed me. I well we
are married now.”
She was thankful that his eyes were
shut. It made it easier to talk of the future
she had arranged, which now was an unalterable thing.
She did not enter on the path of confidences.
That was impossible. She felt he would not
understand her. She felt also that he suffered.
Now and then a great anxiety gripped her heart with
a mysterious sense of guilt as though she
had betrayed him into the hands of an enemy.
With his eyes shut he had an air of weary and pious
meditation. She was a little afraid of it.
Next moment a great pity for him filled her heart.
And in the background there was remorse. His
face twitched now and then just perceptibly.
He managed to keep his eyelids down till he heard
that the ‘husband’ was a sailor and that
he, the father, was being taken straight on board
ship ready to sail away from this abominable world
of treacheries, and scorns and envies and lies, away,
away over the blue sea, the sure, the inaccessible,
the uncontaminated and spacious refuge for wounded
souls.
Something like that. Not the
very words perhaps but such was the general sense
of her overwhelming argument the argument
of refuge.
I don’t think she gave a thought
to material conditions. But as part of that
argument set forth breathlessly, as if she were afraid
that if she stopped for a moment she could never go
on again, she mentioned that generosity of a stormy
type, which had come to her from the sea, had caught
her up on the brink of unmentionable failure, had whirled
her away in its first ardent gust and could be trusted
now, implicitly trusted, to carry them both, side
by side, into absolute safety.
She believed it, she affirmed it.
He understood thoroughly at last, and at once the
interior of that cab, of an aspect so pacific in the
eyes of the people on the pavements, became the scene
of a great agitation. The generosity of Roderick
Anthony the son of the poet affected
the ex-financier de Barral in a manner which must
have brought home to Flora de Barral the extreme arduousness
of the business of being a woman. Being a woman
is a terribly difficult trade since it consists principally
of dealings with men. This man the
man inside the cab cast oft his stiff placidity
and behaved like an animal. I don’t mean
it in an offensive sense. What he did was to
give way to an instinctive panic. Like some
wild creature scared by the first touch of a net falling
on its back, old de Barral began to struggle, lank
and angular, against the empty air as much
of it as there was in the cab with staring
eyes and gasping mouth from which his daughter shrank
as far as she could in the confined space.
“Stop the cab. Stop him
I tell you. Let me get out!” were the strangled
exclamations she heard. Why? What for?
To do what? He would hear nothing. She
cried to him “Papa! Papa! What do
you want to do?” And all she got from him was:
“Stop. I must get out. I want to
think. I must get out to think.”
It was a mercy that he didn’t
attempt to open the door at once. He only stuck
his head and shoulders out of the window crying to
the cabman. She saw the consequences, the cab
stopping, a crowd collecting around a raving old gentleman
. . . In this terrible business of being a woman
so full of fine shades, of delicate perplexities (and
very small rewards) you can never know what rough
work you may have to do, at any moment. Without
hesitation Flora seized her father round the body and
pulled back being astonished at the ease
with which she managed to make him drop into his seat
again. She kept him there resolutely with one
hand pressed against his breast, and leaning across
him, she, in her turn put her head and shoulders out
of the window. By then the cab had drawn up
to the curbstone and was stopped. “No!
I’ve changed my mind. Go on please where
you were told first. To the docks.”
She wondered at the steadiness of
her own voice. She heard a grunt from the driver
and the cab began to roll again. Only then she
sank into her place keeping a watchful eye on her
companion. He was hardly anything more by this
time. Except for her childhood’s impressions
he was just a man. Almost a stranger.
How was one to deal with him? And there was
the other too. Also almost a stranger.
The trade of being a woman was very difficult.
Too difficult. Flora closed her eyes saying
to herself: “If I think too much about
it I shall go mad.” And then opening them
she asked her father if the prospect of living always
with his daughter and being taken care of by her affection
away from the world, which had no honour to give to
his grey hairs, was such an awful prospect.
“Tell me, is it so bad as that?”
She put that question sadly, without
bitterness. The famous or notorious de
Barral had lost his rigidity now. He was bent.
Nothing more deplorably futile than a bent poker.
He said nothing. She added gently, suppressing
an uneasy remorseful sigh:
“And it might have been worse.
You might have found no one, no one in all this town,
no one in all the world, not even me! Poor papa!”
She made a conscience-stricken movement
towards him thinking: “Oh! I am horrible,
I am horrible.” And old de Barral, scared,
tired, bewildered by the extraordinary shocks of his
liberation, swayed over and actually leaned his head
on her shoulder, as if sorrowing over his regained
freedom.
The movement by itself was touching.
Flora supporting him lightly imagined that he was
crying; and at the thought that had she smashed in
a quarry that shoulder, together with some other of
her bones, this grey and pitiful head would have had
nowhere to rest, she too gave way to tears.
They flowed quietly, easing her overstrained nerves.
Suddenly he pushed her away from him so that her
head struck the side of the cab, pushing himself away
too from her as if something had stung him.
All the warmth went out of her emotion.
The very last tears turned cold on her cheek.
But their work was done. She had found courage,
resolution, as women do, in a good cry. With
his hand covering the upper part of his face whether
to conceal his eyes or to shut out an unbearable sight,
he was stiffening up in his corner to his usual poker-like
consistency. She regarded him in silence.
His thin obstinate lips moved. He uttered the
name of the cousin the man, you remember,
who did not approve of the Fynes, and whom rightly
or wrongly little Fyne suspected of interested motives,
in view of de Barral having possibly put away some
plunder, somewhere before the smash.
I may just as well tell you at once
that I don’t know anything more of him.
But de Barral was of the opinion, speaking in his
low voice from under his hand, that this relation
would have been only too glad to have secured his
guidance.
“Of course I could not come
forward in my own name, or person. But the advice
of a man of my experience is as good as a fortune to
anybody wishing to venture into finance. The
same sort of thing can be done again.”
He shuffled his feet a little, let
fall his hand; and turning carefully toward his daughter
his puffy round cheeks, his round chin resting on his
collar, he bent on her the faded, resentful gaze of
his pale eyes, which were wet.
“The start is really only a
matter of judicious advertising. There’s
no difficulty. And here you go and . . . "
He turned his face away. “After
all I am still de Barral, the de Barral.
Didn’t you remember that?”
“Papa,” said Flora; “listen.
It’s you who must remember that there is no
longer a de Barral . . . " He looked at her sideways
anxiously. “There is Mr. Smith, whom no
harm, no trouble, no wicked lies of evil people can
ever touch.”
“Mr. Smith,” he breathed
out slowly. “Where does he belong to?
There’s not even a Miss Smith.”
“There is your Flora.”
“My Flora! You went and
. . . I can’t bear to think of it.
It’s horrible.”
“Yes. It was horrible
enough at times,” she said with feeling, because
somehow, obscurely, what this man said appealed to
her as if it were her own thought clothed in an enigmatic
emotion. “I think with shame sometimes
how I . . . No not yet. I shall not tell
you. At least not now.”
The cab turned into the gateway of
the dock. Flora handed the tall hat to her father.
“Here, papa. And please be good.
I suppose you love me. If you don’t, then
I wonder who ”
He put the hat on, and stiffened hard
in his corner, kept a sidelong glance on his girl.
“Try to be nice for my sake. Think of
the years I have been waiting for you. I do
indeed want support and peace. A
little peace.”
She clasped his arm suddenly with
both hands pressing with all her might as if to crush
the resistance she felt in him. “I could
not have peace if I did not have you with me.
I won’t let you go. Not after all I went
through. I won’t.” The nervous
force of her grip frightened him a little. She
laughed suddenly. “It’s absurd.
It’s as if I were asking you for a sacrifice.
What am I afraid of? Where could you go?
I mean now, to-day, to-night? You can’t
tell me. Have you thought of it? Well
I have been thinking of it for the last year.
Longer. I nearly went mad trying to find out.
I believe I was mad for a time or else I should never
have thought . . . "
“This was as near as she came
to a confession,” remarked Marlow in a changed
tone. “The confession I mean of that walk
to the top of the quarry which she reproached herself
with so bitterly. And he made of it what his
fancy suggested. It could not possibly be a just
notion. The cab stopped alongside the ship and
they got out in the manner described by the sensitive
Franklin. I don’t know if they suspected
each other’s sanity at the end of that drive.
But that is possible. We all seem a little
mad to each other; an excellent arrangement for the
bulk of humanity which finds in it an easy motive
of forgiveness. Flora crossed the quarter-deck
with a rapidity born of apprehension. It had
grown unbearable. She wanted this business over.
She was thankful on looking back to see he was following
her. “If he bolts away,” she thought,
“then I shall know that I am of no account indeed!
That no one loves me, that words and actions and
protestations and everything in the world is false and
I shall jump into the dock. That at least won’t
lie.”
Well I don’t know. If
it had come to that she would have been most likely
fished out, what with her natural want of luck and
the good many people on the quay and on board.
And just where the Ferndale was moored there
hung on a wall (I know the berth) a coil of line, a
pole, and a life-buoy kept there on purpose to save
people who tumble into the dock. It’s
not so easy to get away from life’s betrayals
as she thought. However it did not come to that.
He followed her with his quick gliding walk.
Mr. Smith! The liberated convict de Barral passed
off the solid earth for the last time, vanished for
ever, and there was Mr. Smith added to that world
of waters which harbours so many queer fishes.
An old gentleman in a silk hat, darting wary glances.
He followed, because mere existence has its claims
which are obeyed mechanically. I have no doubt
he presented a respectable figure. Father-in-law.
Nothing more respectable. But he carried in
his heart the confused pain of dismay and affection,
of involuntary repulsion and pity. Very much
like his daughter. Only in addition he felt
a furious jealousy of the man he was going to see.
A residue of egoism remains in every
affection even paternal. And this
man in the seclusion of his prison had thought himself
into such a sense of ownership of that single human
being he had to think about, as may well be inconceivable
to us who have not had to serve a long (and wickedly
unjust) sentence of penal servitude. She was
positively the only thing, the one point where his
thoughts found a resting-place, for years. She
was the only outlet for his imagination. He had
not much of that faculty to be sure, but there was
in it the force of concentration. He felt outraged,
and perhaps it was an absurdity on his part, but I
venture to suggest rather in degree than in kind.
I have a notion that no usual, normal father is pleased
at parting with his daughter. No. Not
even when he rationally appreciates “Jane being
taken off his hands” or perhaps is able to exult
at an excellent match. At bottom, quite deep
down, down in the dark (in some cases only by digging),
there is to be found a certain repugnance . . .
With mothers of course it is different. Women
are more loyal, not to each other, but to their common
femininity which they behold triumphant with a secret
and proud satisfaction.
The circumstances of that match added
to Mr. Smith’s indignation. And if he
followed his daughter into that ship’s cabin
it was as if into a house of disgrace and only because
he was still bewildered by the suddenness of the thing.
His will, so long lying fallow, was overborne by her
determination and by a vague fear of that regained
liberty.
You will be glad to hear that Anthony,
though he did shirk the welcome on the quay, behaved
admirably, with the simplicity of a man who has no
small meannesses and makes no mean reservations.
His eyes did not flinch and his tongue did not falter.
He was, I have it on the best authority, admirable
in his earnestness, in his sincerity and also in his
restraint. He was perfect. Nevertheless
the vital force of his unknown individuality addressing
him so familiarly was enough to fluster Mr. Smith.
Flora saw her father trembling in all his exiguous
length, though he held himself stiffer than ever if
that was possible. He muttered a little and
at last managed to utter, not loud of course but very
distinctly: “I am here under protest,”
the corners of his mouth sunk disparagingly, his eyes
stony. “I am here under protest.
I have been locked up by a conspiracy. I ”
He raised his hands to his forehead his
silk hat was on the table rim upwards; he had put
it there with a despairing gesture as he came in he
raised his hands to his forehead. “It seems
to me unfair. I ” He broke
off again. Anthony looked at Flora who stood
by the side of her father.
“Well, sir, you will soon get
used to me. Surely you and she must have had
enough of shore-people and their confounded half-and-half
ways to last you both for a life-time. A particularly
merciful lot they are too. You ask Flora.
I am alluding to my own sister, her best friend, and
not a bad woman either as they go.”
The captain of the Ferndale
checked himself. “Lucky thing I was there
to step in. I want you to make yourself at home,
and before long ”
The faded stare of the Great de Barral
silenced Anthony by its inexpressive fixity.
He signalled with his eyes to Flora towards the door
of the state-room fitted specially to receive Mr. Smith,
the free man. She seized the free man’s
hat off the table and took him caressingly under the
arm. “Yes! This is home, come and
see your room, papa!”
Anthony himself threw open the door
and Flora took care to shut it carefully behind herself
and her father. “See,” she began
but desisted because it was clear that he would look
at none of the contrivances for his comfort.
She herself had hardly seen them before. He
was looking only at the new carpet and she waited
till he should raise his eyes.
He didn’t do that but spoke
in his usual voice. “So this is your husband,
that . . . And I locked up!”
“Papa, what’s the good
of harping on that,” she remonstrated no louder.
“He is kind.”
“And you went and . . . married
him so that he should be kind to me. Is that
it? How did you know that I wanted anybody to
be kind to me?”
“How strange you are!” she said thoughtfully.
“It’s hard for a man who
has gone through what I have gone through to feel
like other people. Has that occurred to you?
. . . " He looked up at last . . . “Mrs.
Anthony, I can’t bear the sight of the fellow.”
She met his eyes without flinching and he added,
“You want to go to him now.” His
mild automatic manner seemed the effect of tremendous
self-restraint and yet she remembered him
always like that. She felt cold all over.
“Why, of course, I must go to
him,” she said with a slight start.
He gnashed his teeth at her and she went out.
Anthony had not moved from the spot.
One of his hands was resting on the table.
She went up to him, stopped, then deliberately moved
still closer. “Thank you, Roderick.”
“You needn’t thank me,” he murmured.
“It’s I who . . . "
“No, perhaps I needn’t.
You do what you like. But you are doing it
well.”
He sighed then hardly above a whisper
because they were near the state-room door, “Upset,
eh?”
She made no sign, no sound of any
kind. The thorough falseness of the position
weighed on them both. But he was the braver of
the two. “I dare say. At first.
Did you think of telling him you were happy?”
“He never asked me,” she
smiled faintly at him. She was disappointed by
his quietness. “I did not say more than
I was absolutely obliged to say of myself.”
She was beginning to be irritated with this man a
little. “I told him I had been very lucky,”
she said suddenly despondent, missing Anthony’s
masterful manner, that something arbitrary and tender
which, after the first scare, she had accustomed herself
to look forward to with pleasurable apprehension.
He was contemplating her rather blankly. She
had not taken off her outdoor things, hat, gloves.
She was like a caller. And she had a movement
suggesting the end of a not very satisfactory business
call. “Perhaps it would be just as well
if we went ashore. Time yet.”
He gave her a glimpse of his unconstrained
self in the low vehement “You dare!” which
sprang to his lips and out of them with a most menacing
inflexion.
“You dare . . . What’s the matter
now?”
These last words were shot out not
at her but at some target behind her back. Looking
over her shoulder she saw the bald head with black
bunches of hair of the congested and devoted Franklin
(he had his cap in his hand) gazing sentimentally
from the saloon doorway with his lobster eyes.
He was heard from the distance in a tone of injured
innocence reporting that the berthing master was alongside
and that he wanted to move the ship into the basin
before the crew came on board.
His captain growled “Well, let
him,” and waved away the ulcerated and pathetic
soul behind these prominent eyes which lingered on
the offensive woman while the mate backed out slowly.
Anthony turned to Flora.
“You could not have meant it.
You are as straight as they make them.”
“I am trying to be.”
“Then don’t joke in that way. Think
of what would become of me.”
“Oh yes. I forgot.
No, I didn’t mean it. It wasn’t
a joke. It was forgetfulness. You wouldn’t
have been wronged. I couldn’t have gone.
I I am too tired.”
He saw she was swaying where she stood
and restrained himself violently from taking her into
his arms, his frame trembling with fear as though he
had been tempted to an act of unparalleled treachery.
He stepped aside and lowering his eyes pointed to
the door of the stern-cabin. It was only after
she passed by him that he looked up and thus he did
not see the angry glance she gave him before she moved
on. He looked after her. She tottered slightly
just before reaching the door and flung it to behind
her nervously.
Anthony he had felt this
crash as if the door had been slammed inside his very
breast stood for a moment without moving
and then shouted for Mrs. Brown. This was the
steward’s wife, his lucky inspiration to make
Flora comfortable. “Mrs. Brown! Mrs.
Brown!” At last she appeared from somewhere.
“Mrs. Anthony has come on board. Just
gone into the cabin. Hadn’t you better
see if you can be of any assistance?”
“Yes, sir.”
And again he was alone with the situation
he had created in the hardihood and inexperience of
his heart. He thought he had better go on deck.
In fact he ought to have been there before.
At any rate it would be the usual thing for him to
be on deck. But a sound of muttering and of faint
thuds somewhere near by arrested his attention.
They proceeded from Mr. Smith’s room, he perceived.
It was very extraordinary. “He’s
talking to himself,” he thought. “He
seems to be thumping the bulkhead with his fists or
his head.”
Anthony’s eyes grew big with
wonder while he listened to these noises. He
became so attentive that he did not notice Mrs. Brown
till she actually stopped before him for a moment
to say:
“Mrs. Anthony doesn’t want any assistance,
sir.”
This was you understand the voyage
before Mr. Powell young Powell then joined
the Ferndale; chance having arranged that he
should get his start in life in that particular ship
of all the ships then in the port of London.
The most unrestful ship that ever sailed out of any
port on earth. I am not alluding to her sea-going
qualities. Mr. Powell tells me she was as steady
as a church. I mean unrestful in the sense,
for instance in which this planet of ours is unrestful a
matter of an uneasy atmosphere disturbed by passions,
jealousies, loves, hates and the troubles of transcendental
good intentions, which, though ethically valuable,
I have no doubt cause often more unhappiness than the
plots of the most evil tendency. For those who
refuse to believe in chance he, I mean Mr. Powell,
must have been obviously predestined to add his native
ingenuousness to the sum of all the others carried
by the honest ship Ferndale. He was too
ingenuous. Everybody on board was, exception
being made of Mr. Smith who, however, was simple enough
in his way, with that terrible simplicity of the fixed
idea, for which there is also another name men pronounce
with dread and aversion. His fixed idea was
to save his girl from the man who had possessed himself
of her (I use these words on purpose because the image
they suggest was clearly in Mr. Smith’s mind),
possessed himself unfairly of her while he, the father,
was locked up.
“I won’t rest till I have
got you away from that man,” he would murmur
to her after long periods of contemplation.
We know from Powell how he used to sit on the skylight
near the long deck-chair on which Flora was reclining,
gazing into her face from above with an air of guardianship
and investigation at the same time.
It is almost impossible to say if
he ever had considered the event rationally.
The avatar of de Barral into Mr. Smith had not been
effected without a shock that much one
must recognize. It may be that it drove all
practical considerations out of his mind, making room
for awful and precise visions which nothing could
dislodge afterwards.
And it might have been the tenacity,
the unintelligent tenacity, of the man who had persisted
in throwing millions of other people’s thrift
into the Lone Valley Railway, the Labrador Docks,
the Spotted Leopard Copper Mine, and other grotesque
speculations exposed during the famous de Barral trial,
amongst murmurs of astonishment mingled with bursts
of laughter. For it is in the Courts of Law
that Comedy finds its last refuge in our deadly serious
world. As to tears and lamentations, these were
not heard in the august precincts of comedy, because
they were indulged in privately in several thousand
homes, where, with a fine dramatic effect, hunger
had taken the place of Thrift.
But there was one at least who did
not laugh in court. That person was the accused.
The notorious de Barral did not laugh because he was
indignant. He was impervious to words, to facts,
to inferences. It would have been impossible
to make him see his guilt or his folly either
by evidence or argument if anybody had tried
to argue.
Neither did his daughter Flora try
to argue with him. The cruelty of her position
was so great, its complications so thorny, if I may
express myself so, that a passive attitude was yet
her best refuge as it had been before her
of so many women.
For that sort of inertia in woman
is always enigmatic and therefore menacing.
It makes one pause. A woman may be a fool, a
sleepy fool, an agitated fool, a too awfully noxious
fool, and she may even be simply stupid. But
she is never dense. She’s never made of
wood through and through as some men are. There
is in woman always, somewhere, a spring. Whatever
men don’t know about women (and it may be a lot
or it may be very little) men and even fathers do
know that much. And that is why so many men
are afraid of them.
Mr. Smith I believe was afraid of
his daughter’s quietness though of course he
interpreted it in his own way.
He would, as Mr. Powell depicts, sit
on the skylight and bend over the reclining girl,
wondering what there was behind the lost gaze under
the darkened eyelids in the still eyes. He would
look and look and then he would say, whisper rather,
it didn’t take much for his voice to drop to
a mere breath he would declare, transferring
his faded stare to the horizon, that he would never
rest till he had “got her away from that man.”
“You don’t know what you are saying, papa.”
She would try not to show her weariness,
the nervous strain of these two men’s antagonism
around her person which was the cause of her languid
attitudes. For as a matter of fact the sea agreed
with her.
As likely as not Anthony would be
walking on the other side of the deck. The strain
was making him restless. He couldn’t sit
still anywhere. He had tried shutting himself
up in his cabin; but that was no good. He would
jump up to rush on deck and tramp, tramp up and down
that poop till he felt ready to drop, without being
able to wear down the agitation of his soul, generous
indeed, but weighted by its envelope of blood and
muscle and bone; handicapped by the brain creating
precise images and everlastingly speculating, speculating looking
out for signs, watching for symptoms.
And Mr. Smith with a slight backward
jerk of his small head at the footsteps on the other
side of the skylight would insist in his awful, hopelessly
gentle voice that he knew very well what he was saying.
Hadn’t she given herself to that man while
he was locked up.
“Helpless, in jail, with no
one to think of, nothing to look forward to, but my
daughter. And then when they let me out at last
I find her gone for it amounts to this.
Sold. Because you’ve sold yourself; you
know you have.”
With his round unmoved face, a lot
of fine white hair waving in the wind-eddies of the
spanker, his glance levelled over the sea he seemed
to be addressing the universe across her reclining
form. She would protest sometimes.
“I wish you would not talk like
this, papa. You are only tormenting me, and
tormenting yourself.”
“Yes, I am tormented enough,”
he admitted meaningly. But it was not talking
about it that tormented him. It was thinking
of it. And to sit and look at it was worse for
him than it possibly could have been for her to go
and give herself up, bad as that must have been.
“For of course you suffered.
Don’t tell me you didn’t? You must
have.”
She had renounced very soon all attempts
at protests. It was useless. It might
have made things worse; and she did not want to quarrel
with her father, the only human being that really
cared for her, absolutely, evidently, completely to
the end. There was in him no pity, no generosity,
nothing whatever of these fine things it
was for her, for her very own self such as it was,
that this human being cared. This certitude
would have made her put up with worse torments.
For, of course, she too was being tormented.
She felt also helpless, as if the whole enterprise
had been too much for her. This is the sort of
conviction which makes for quietude. She was
becoming a fatalist.
What must have been rather appalling
were the necessities of daily life, the intercourse
of current trifles. That naturally had to go
on. They wished good morning to each other,
they sat down together to meals and I believe
there would be a game of cards now and then in the
evening, especially at first. What frightened
her most was the duplicity of her father, at least
what looked like duplicity, when she remembered his
persistent, insistent whispers on deck. However
her father was a taciturn person as far back as she
could remember him best on the Parade.
It was she who chattered, never troubling herself
to discover whether he was pleased or displeased.
And now she couldn’t fathom his thoughts.
Neither did she chatter to him. Anthony with
a forced friendly smile as if frozen to his lips seemed
only too thankful at not being made to speak.
Mr. Smith sometimes forgot himself while studying
his hand so long that Flora had to recall him to himself
by a murmured “Papa your lead.”
Then he apologized by a faint as if inward ejaculation
“Beg your pardon, Captain.” Naturally
she addressed Anthony as Roderick and he addressed
her as Flora. This was all the acting that was
necessary to judge from the wincing twitch of the old
man’s mouth at every uttered “Flora.”
On hearing the rare “Rodericks” he had
sometimes a scornful grimace as faint and faded and
colourless as his whole stiff personality.
He would be the first to retire.
He was not infirm. With him too the life on
board ship seemed to agree; but from a sense of duty,
of affection, or to placate his hidden fury, his daughter
always accompanied him to his state-room “to
make him comfortable.” She lighted his
lamp, helped him into his dressing-gown or got him
a book from a bookcase fitted in there but
this last rarely, because Mr. Smith used to declare
“I am no reader” with something like pride
in his low tones. Very often after kissing her
good-night on the forehead he would treat her to some
such fretful remark: “It’s like being
in jail ’pon my word. I suppose
that man is out there waiting for you. Head jailer!
Ough!”
She would smile vaguely; murmur a
conciliatory “How absurd.” But once,
out of patience, she said quite sharply “Leave
off. It hurts me. One would think you
hate me.”
“It isn’t you I hate,”
he went on monotonously breathing at her. “No,
it isn’t you. But if I saw that you loved
that man I think I could hate you too.”
That word struck straight at her heart.
“You wouldn’t be the first then,”
she muttered bitterly. But he was busy with his
fixed idea and uttered an awfully equable “But
you don’t! Unfortunate girl!”
She looked at him steadily for a time
then said “Good-night, papa.”
As a matter of fact Anthony very seldom
waited for her alone at the table with the scattered
cards, glasses, water-jug, bottles and soon.
He took no more opportunities to be alone with her
than was absolutely necessary for the edification
of Mrs. Brown. Excellent, faithful woman; the
wife of his still more excellent and faithful steward.
And Flora wished all these excellent people, devoted
to Anthony, she wished them all further; and especially
the nice, pleasant-spoken Mrs. Brown with her beady,
mobile eyes and her “Yes certainly, ma’am,”
which seemed to her to have a mocking sound.
And so this short trip to the Western Islands
only came to an end. It was so short
that when young Powell joined the Ferndale
by a memorable stroke of chance, no more than seven
months had elapsed since the let us say
the liberation of the convict de Barral and his avatar
into Mr. Smith.
For the time the ship was loading
in London Anthony took a cottage near a little country
station in Essex, to house Mr. Smith and Mr. Smith’s
daughter. It was altogether his idea. How
far it was necessary for Mr. Smith to seek rural retreat
I don’t know. Perhaps to some extent it
was a judicious arrangement. There were some
obligations incumbent on the liberated de Barral (in
connection with reporting himself to the police I
imagine) which Mr. Smith was not anxious to perform.
De Barral had to vanish; the theory was that de Barral
had vanished, and it had to be upheld. Poor
Flora liked the country, even if the spot had nothing
more to recommend it than its retired character.
Now and then Captain Anthony ran down;
but as the station was a real wayside one, with no
early morning trains up, he could never stay for more
than the afternoon. It appeared that he must
sleep in town so as to be early on board his ship.
The weather was magnificent and whenever the captain
of the Ferndale was seen on a brilliant afternoon
coming down the road Mr. Smith would seize his stick
and toddle off for a solitary walk. But whether
he would get tired or because it gave him some satisfaction
to see “that man” go away or
for some cunning reason of his own, he was always
back before the hour of Anthony’s departure.
On approaching the cottage he would see generally
“that man” lying on the grass in the orchard
at some distance from his daughter seated in a chair
brought out of the cottage’s living room.
Invariably Mr. Smith made straight for them and as
invariably had the feeling that his approach was not
disturbing a very intimate conversation. He sat
with them, through a silent hour or so, and then it
would be time for Anthony to go. Mr. Smith,
perhaps from discretion, would casually vanish a minute
or so before, and then watch through the diamond panes
of an upstairs room “that man” take a
lingering look outside the gate at the invisible Flora,
lift his hat, like a caller, and go off down the road.
Then only Mr. Smith would join his daughter again.
These were the bad moments for her.
Not always, of course, but frequently. It was
nothing extraordinary to hear Mr. Smith begin gently
with some observation like this:
“That man is getting tired of you.”
He would never pronounce Anthony’s name.
It was always “that man.”
Generally she would remain mute with
wide open eyes gazing at nothing between the gnarled
fruit trees. Once, however, she got up and walked
into the cottage. Mr. Smith followed her carrying
the chair. He banged it down resolutely and
in that smooth inexpressive tone so many ears used
to bend eagerly to catch when it came from the Great
de Barral he said:
“Let’s get away.”
She had the strength of mind not to
spin round. On the contrary she went on to a
shabby bit of a mirror on the wall. In the greenish
glass her own face looked far off like the livid face
of a drowned corpse at the bottom of a pool.
She laughed faintly.
“I tell you that man’s getting ”
“Papa,” she interrupted
him. “I have no illusions as to myself.
It has happened to me before but ”
Her voice failing her suddenly her
father struck in with quite an unwonted animation.
“Let’s make a rush for it, then.”
Having mastered both her fright and
her bitterness, she turned round, sat down and allowed
her astonishment to be seen. Mr. Smith sat down
too, his knees together and bent at right angles,
his thin legs parallel to each other and his hands
resting on the arms of the wooden arm-chair.
His hair had grown long, his head was set stiffly,
there was something fatuously venerable in his aspect.
“You can’t care for him.
Don’t tell me. I understand your motive.
And I have called you an unfortunate girl.
You are that as much as if you had gone on the streets.
Yes. Don’t interrupt me, Flora.
I was everlastingly being interrupted at the trial
and I can’t stand it any more. I won’t
be interrupted by my own child. And when I think
that it is on the very day before they let me out
that you . . . "
He had wormed this fact out of her
by that time because Flora had got tired of evading
the question. He had been very much struck and
distressed. Was that the trust she had in him?
Was that a proof of confidence and love? The
very day before! Never given him even half a
chance. It was as at the trial. They never
gave him a chance. They would not give him time.
And there was his own daughter acting exactly as
his bitterest enemies had done. Not giving him
time!
The monotony of that subdued voice
nearly lulled her dismay to sleep. She listened
to the unavoidable things he was saying.
“But what induced that man to
marry you? Of course he’s a gentleman.
One can see that. And that makes it worse.
Gentlemen don’t understand anything about city
affairs finance. Why! the
people who started the cry after me were a firm of
gentlemen. The counsel, the judge all
gentlemen quite out of it! No notion
of . . . And then he’s a sailor too.
Just a skipper ”
“My grandfather was nothing
else,” she interrupted. And he made an
angular gesture of impatience.
“Yes. But what does a
silly sailor know of business? Nothing.
No conception. He can have no idea of what
it means to be the daughter of Mr. de Barral even
after his enemies had smashed him. What on earth
induced him ”
She made a movement because the level
voice was getting on her nerves. And he paused,
but only to go on again in the same tone with the remark:
“Of course you are pretty.
And that’s why you are lost like
many other poor girls. Unfortunate is the word
for you.”
She said: “It may be.
Perhaps it is the right word; but listen, papa.
I mean to be honest.”
He began to exhale more speeches.
“Just the sort of man to get
tired and then leave you and go off with his beastly
ship. And anyway you can never be happy with
him. Look at his face. I want to save
you. You see I was not perhaps a very good husband
to your poor mother. She would have done better
to have left me long before she died. I have
been thinking it all over. I won’t have
you unhappy.”
He ran his eyes over her with an attention
which was surprisingly noticeable. Then said,
“H’m! Yes. Let’s clear
out before it is too late. Quietly, you and
I.”
She said as if inspired and with that
calmness which despair often gives: “There
is no money to go away with, papa.”
He rose up straightening himself as
though he were a hinged figure. She said decisively:
“And of course you wouldn’t think of deserting
me, papa?”
“Of course not,” sounded
his subdued tone. And he left her, gliding away
with his walk which Mr. Powell described to me as being
as level and wary as his voice. He walked as
if he were carrying a glass full of water on his head.
Flora naturally said nothing to Anthony
of that edifying conversation. His generosity
might have taken alarm at it and she did not want to
be left behind to manage her father alone. And
moreover she was too honest. She would be honest
at whatever cost. She would not be the first
to speak. Never. And the thought came
into her head: “I am indeed an unfortunate
creature!”
It was by the merest coincidence that
Anthony coming for the afternoon two days later had
a talk with Mr. Smith in the orchard. Flora for
some reason or other had left them for a moment; and
Anthony took that opportunity to be frank with Mr.
Smith. He said: “It seems to me, sir,
that you think Flora has not done very well for herself.
Well, as to that I can’t say anything.
All I want you to know is that I have tried to do
the right thing.” And then he explained
that he had willed everything he was possessed of
to her. “She didn’t tell you, I suppose?”
Mr. Smith shook his head slightly.
And Anthony, trying to be friendly, was just saying
that he proposed to keep the ship away from home for
at least two years. “I think, sir, that
from every point of view it would be best,”
when Flora came back and the conversation, cut short
in that direction, languished and died. Later
in the evening, after Anthony had been gone for hours,
on the point of separating for the night, Mr. Smith
remarked suddenly to his daughter after a long period
of brooding:
“A will is nothing. One
tears it up. One makes another.”
Then after reflecting for a minute he added unemotionally:
“One tells lies about it.”
Flora, patient, steeled against every
hurt and every disgust to the point of wondering at
herself, said: “You push your dislike of of Roderick
too far, papa. You have no regard for me.
You hurt me.”
He, as ever inexpressive to the point
of terrifying her sometimes by the contrast of his
placidity and his words, turned away from her a pair
of faded eyes.
“I wonder how far your dislike
goes,” he began. “His very name sticks
in your throat. I’ve noticed it.
It hurts me. What do you think of that?
You might remember that you are not the only person
that’s hurt by your folly, by your hastiness,
by your recklessness.” He brought back
his eyes to her face. “And the very day
before they were going to let me out.”
His feeble voice failed him altogether, the narrow
compressed lips only trembling for a time before he
added with that extraordinary equanimity of tone,
“I call it sinful.”
Flora made no answer. She judged
it simpler, kinder and certainly safer to let him
talk himself out. This, Mr. Smith, being naturally
taciturn, never took very long to do. And we
must not imagine that this sort of thing went on all
the time. She had a few good days in that cottage.
The absence of Anthony was a relief and his visits
were pleasurable. She was quieter. He
was quieter too. She was almost sorry when the
time to join the ship arrived. It was a moment
of anguish, of excitement; they arrived at the dock
in the evening and Flora after “making her father
comfortable” according to established usage lingered
in the state-room long enough to notice that he was
surprised. She caught his pale eyes observing
her quite stonily. Then she went out after a
cheery good-night.
Contrary to her hopes she found Anthony
yet in the saloon. Sitting in his arm-chair
at the head of the table he was picking up some business
papers which he put hastily in his breast pocket and
got up. He asked her if her day, travelling
up to town and then doing some shopping, had tired
her. She shook her head. Then he wanted
to know in a half-jocular way how she felt about going
away, and for a long voyage this time.
“Does it matter how I feel?”
she asked in a tone that cast a gloom over his face.
He answered with repressed violence which she did
not expect:
“No, it does not matter, because
I cannot go without you. I’ve told you
. . . You know it. You don’t think
I could.”
“I assure you I haven’t
the slightest wish to evade my obligations,”
she said steadily. “Even if I could.
Even if I dared, even if I had to die for it!”
He looked thunderstruck. They
stood facing each other at the end of the saloon.
Anthony stuttered. “Oh no. You won’t
die. You don’t mean it. You have
taken kindly to the sea.”
She laughed, but she felt angry.
“No, I don’t mean it.
I tell you I don’t mean to evade my obligations.
I shall live on . . . feeling a little crushed, nevertheless.”
“Crushed!” he repeated. “What’s
crushing you?”
“Your magnanimity,” she
said sharply. But her voice was softened after
a time. “Yet I don’t know.
There is a perfection in it do you understand
me, Roderick? which makes it almost possible
to bear.”
He sighed, looked away, and remarked
that it was time to put out the lamp in the saloon.
The permission was only till ten o’clock.
“But you needn’t mind
that so much in your cabin. Just see that the
curtains of the ports are drawn close and that’s
all. The steward might have forgotten to do
it. He lighted your reading lamp in there before
he went ashore for a last evening with his wife.
I don’t know if it was wise to get rid of Mrs.
Brown. You will have to look after yourself,
Flora.”
He was quite anxious; but Flora as
a matter of fact congratulated herself on the absence
of Mrs. Brown. No sooner had she closed the door
of her state-room than she murmured fervently, “Yes!
Thank goodness, she is gone.” There would
be no gentle knock, followed by her appearance with
her equivocal stare and the intolerable: “Can
I do anything for you, ma’am?” which poor
Flora had learned to fear and hate more than any voice
or any words on board that ship her only
refuge from the world which had no use for her, for
her imperfections and for her troubles.
Mrs. Brown had been very much vexed
at her dismissal. The Browns were a childless
couple and the arrangement had suited them perfectly.
Their resentment was very bitter. Mrs. Brown
had to remain ashore alone with her rage, but the
steward was nursing his on board. Poor Flora
had no greater enemy, the aggrieved mate had no greater
sympathizer. And Mrs. Brown, with a woman’s
quick power of observation and inference (the putting
of two and two together) had come to a certain conclusion
which she had imparted to her husband before leaving
the ship. The morose steward permitted himself
once to make an allusion to it in Powell’s hearing.
It was in the officers’ mess-room at the end
of a meal while he lingered after putting a fruit
pie on the table. He and the chief mate started
a dialogue about the alarming change in the captain,
the sallow steward looking down with a sinister frown,
Franklin rolling upwards his eyes, sentimental in
a red face. Young Powell had heard a lot of that
sort of thing by that time. It was growing monotonous;
it had always sounded to him a little absurd.
He struck in impatiently with the remark that such
lamentations over a man merely because he had taken
a wife seemed to him like lunacy.
Franklin muttered, “Depends
on what the wife is up to.” The steward
leaning against the bulkhead near the door glowered
at Powell, that newcomer, that ignoramus, that stranger
without right or privileges. He snarled:
“Wife! Call her a wife, do you?”
“What the devil do you mean by this?”
exclaimed young Powell.
“I know what I know. My
old woman has not been six months on board for nothing.
You had better ask her when we get back.”
And meeting sullenly the withering
stare of Mr. Powell the steward retreated backwards.
Our young friend turned at once upon
the mate. “And you let that confounded
bottle-washer talk like this before you, Mr. Franklin.
Well, I am astonished.”
“Oh, it isn’t what you
think. It isn’t what you think.”
Mr. Franklin looked more apoplectic than ever.
“If it comes to that I could astonish you.
But it’s no use. I myself can hardly .
. . You couldn’t understand. I hope
you won’t try to make mischief. There was
a time, young fellow, when I would have dared any
man any man, you hear? to make
mischief between me and Captain Anthony. But
not now. Not now. There’s a change!
Not in me though . . . "
Young Powell rejected with indignation
any suggestion of making mischief. “Who
do you take me for?” he cried. “Only
you had better tell that steward to be careful what
he says before me or I’ll spoil his good looks
for him for a month and will leave him to explain the
why of it to the captain the best way he can.”
This speech established Powell as
a champion of Mrs. Anthony. Nothing more bearing
on the question was ever said before him. He
did not care for the steward’s black looks;
Franklin, never conversational even at the best of
times and avoiding now the only topic near his heart,
addressed him only on matters of duty. And for
that, too, Powell cared very little. The woes
of the apoplectic mate had begun to bore him long
before. Yet he felt lonely a bit at times.
Therefore the little intercourse with Mrs. Anthony
either in one dog-watch or the other was something
to be looked forward to. The captain did not
mind it. That was evident from his manner.
One night he inquired (they were then alone on the
poop) what they had been talking about that evening?
Powell had to confess that it was about the ship.
Mrs. Anthony had been asking him questions.
“Takes interest eh?”
jerked out the captain moving rapidly up and down
the weather side of the poop.
“Yes, sir. Mrs. Anthony
seems to get hold wonderfully of what one’s
telling her.”
“Sailor’s granddaughter.
One of the old school. Old sea-dog of the best
kind, I believe,” ejaculated the captain, swinging
past his motionless second officer and leaving the
words behind him like a trail of sparks succeeded
by a perfect conversational darkness, because, for
the next two hours till he left the deck, he didn’t
open his lips again.
On another occasion . . . we mustn’t
forget that the ship had crossed the line and was
adding up south latitude every day by then . . . on
another occasion, about seven in the evening, Powell
on duty, heard his name uttered softly in the companion.
The captain was on the stairs, thin-faced, his eyes
sunk, on his arm a Shetland wool wrap.
“Mr. Powell here.”
“Yes, sir.”
“Give this to Mrs. Anthony. Evenings are
getting chilly.”
And the haggard face sank out of sight.
Mrs. Anthony was surprised on seeing the shawl.
“The captain wants you to put
this on,” explained young Powell, and as she
raised herself in her seat he dropped it on her shoulders.
She wrapped herself up closely.
“Where was the captain?” she asked.
“He was in the companion.
Called me on purpose,” said Powell, and then
retreated discreetly, because she looked as though
she didn’t want to talk any more that evening.
Mr. Smith the old gentleman was
as usual sitting on the skylight near her head, brooding
over the long chair but by no means inimical, as far
as his unreadable face went, to those conversations
of the two youngest people on board. In fact
they seemed to give him some pleasure. Now and
then he would raise his faded china eyes to the animated
face of Mr. Powell thoughtfully. When the young
sailor was by, the old man became less rigid, and when
his daughter, on rare occasions, smiled at some artless
tale of Mr. Powell, the inexpressive face of Mr. Smith
reflected dimly that flash of evanescent mirth.
For Mr. Powell had come now to entertain his captain’s
wife with anecdotes from the not very distant past
when he was a boy, on board various ships, funny
things do happen on board ship. Flora was quite
surprised at times to find herself amused. She
was even heard to laugh twice in the course of a month.
It was not a loud sound but it was startling enough
at the after-end of the Ferndale where low tones
or silence were the rule. The second time this
happened the captain himself must have been startled
somewhere down below; because he emerged from the
depths of his unobtrusive existence and began his tramping
on the opposite side of the poop.
Almost immediately he called his young
second officer over to him. This was not done
in displeasure. The glance he fastened on Mr.
Powell conveyed a sort of approving wonder.
He engaged him in desultory conversation as if for
the only purpose of keeping a man who could provoke
such a sound, near his person. Mr. Powell felt
himself liked. He felt it. Liked by that
haggard, restless man who threw at him disconnected
phrases to which his answers were, “Yes, sir,”
“No, sir,” “Oh, certainly,”
“I suppose so, sir,” and might
have been clearly anything else for all the other
cared.
It was then, Mr. Powell told me, that
he discovered in himself an already old-established
liking for Captain Anthony. He also felt sorry
for him without being able to discover the origins
of that sympathy of which he had become so suddenly
aware.
Meantime Mr. Smith, bending forward
stiffly as though he had a hinged back, was speaking
to his daughter.
She was a child no longer. He
wanted to know if she believed in in hell.
In eternal punishment?
His peculiar voice, as if filtered
through cotton-wool was inaudible on the other side
of the deck. Poor Flora, taken very much unawares,
made an inarticulate murmur, shook her head vaguely,
and glanced in the direction of the pacing Anthony
who was not looking her way. It was no use glancing
in that direction. Of young Powell, leaning against
the mizzen-mast and facing his captain she could only
see the shoulder and part of a blue serge back.
And the unworried, unaccented voice
of her father went on tormenting her.
“You see, you must understand.
When I came out of jail it was with joy. That
is, my soul was fairly torn in two but anyway
to see you happy I had made up my mind
to that. Once I could be sure that you were happy
then of course I would have had no reason to care for
life strictly speaking which
is all right for an old man; though naturally . . .
no reason to wish for death either. But this
sort of life! What sense, what meaning, what
value has it either for you or for me? It’s
just sitting down to look at the death, that’s
coming, coming. What else is it? I don’t
know how you can put up with that. I don’t
think you can stand it for long. Some day you
will jump overboard.”
Captain Anthony had stopped for a
moment staring ahead from the break of the poop, and
poor Flora sent at his back a look of despairing appeal
which would have moved a heart of stone. But
as though she had done nothing he did not stir in
the least. She got out of the long chair and
went towards the companion. Her father followed
carrying a few small objects, a handbag, her handkerchief,
a book. They went down together.
It was only then that Captain Anthony
turned, looked at the place they had vacated and resumed
his tramping, but not his desultory conversation with
his second officer. His nervous exasperation
had grown so much that now very often he used to lose
control of his voice. If he did not watch himself
it would suddenly die in his throat. He had to
make sure before he ventured on the simplest saying,
an order, a remark on the wind, a simple good-morning.
That’s why his utterance was abrupt, his answers
to people startlingly brusque and often not forthcoming
at all.
It happens to the most resolute of
men to find himself at grips not only with unknown
forces, but with a well-known force the real might
of which he had not understood. Anthony had
discovered that he was not the proud master but the
chafing captive of his generosity. It rose in
front of him like a wall which his respect for himself
forbade him to scale. He said to himself:
“Yes, I was a fool but she has trusted
me!” Trusted! A terrible word to any
man somewhat exceptional in a world in which success
has never been found in renunciation and good faith.
And it must also be said, in order not to make Anthony
more stupidly sublime than he was, that the behaviour
of Flora kept him at a distance. The girl was
afraid to add to the exasperation of her father.
It was her unhappy lot to be made more wretched by
the only affection which she could not suspect.
She could not be angry with it, however, and out
of deference for that exaggerated sentiment she hardly
dared to look otherwise than by stealth at the man
whose masterful compassion had carried her off.
And quite unable to understand the extent of Anthony’s
delicacy, she said to herself that “he didn’t
care.” He probably was beginning at bottom
to detest her like the governess, like
the maiden lady, like the German woman, like Mrs.
Fyne, like Mr. Fyne only he was extraordinary,
he was generous. At the same time she had moments
of irritation. He was violent, headstrong perhaps
stupid. Well, he had had his way.
A man who has had his way is seldom
happy, for generally he finds that the way does not
lead very far on this earth of desires which can never
be fully satisfied. Anthony had entered with
extreme precipitation the enchanted gardens of Armida
saying to himself “At last!” As to Armida,
herself, he was not going to offer her any violence.
But now he had discovered that all the enchantment
was in Armida herself, in Armida’s smiles.
This Armida did not smile. She existed, unapproachable,
behind the blank wall of his renunciation. His
force, fit for action, experienced the impatience,
the indignation, almost the despair of his vitality
arrested, bound, stilled, progressively worn down,
frittered away by Time; by that force blind and insensible,
which seems inert and yet uses one’s life up
by its imperceptible action, dropping minute after
minute on one’s living heart like drops of water
wearing down a stone.
He upbraided himself. What else
could he have expected? He had rushed in like
a ruffian; he had dragged the poor defenceless thing
by the hair of her head, as it were, on board that
ship. It was really atrocious. Nothing
assured him that his person could be attractive to
this or any other woman. And his proceedings
were enough in themselves to make anyone odious.
He must have been bereft of his senses. She
must fatally detest and fear him. Nothing could
make up for such brutality. And yet somehow
he resented this very attitude which seemed to him
completely justifiable. Surely he was not too
monstrous (morally) to be looked at frankly sometimes.
But no! She wouldn’t. Well, perhaps,
some day . . . Only he was not going ever to
attempt to beg for forgiveness. With the repulsion
she felt for his person she would certainly misunderstand
the most guarded words, the most careful advances.
Never! Never!
It would occur to Anthony at the end
of such meditations that death was not an unfriendly
visitor after all. No wonder then that even young
Powell, his faculties having been put on the alert,
began to think that there was something unusual about
the man who had given him his chance in life.
Yes, decidedly, his captain was “strange.”
There was something wrong somewhere, he said to himself,
never guessing that his young and candid eyes were
in the presence of a passion profound, tyrannical and
mortal, discovering its own existence, astounded at
feeling itself helpless and dismayed at finding itself
incurable.
Powell had never before felt this
mysterious uneasiness so strongly as on that evening
when it had been his good fortune to make Mrs. Anthony
laugh a little by his artless prattle. Standing
out of the way, he had watched his captain walk the
weather-side of the poop, he took full cognizance of
his liking for that inexplicably strange man and saw
him swerve towards the companion and go down below
with sympathetic if utterly uncomprehending eyes.
Shortly afterwards, Mr. Smith came
up alone and manifested a desire for a little conversation.
He, too, if not so mysterious as the captain, was
not very comprehensible to Mr. Powell’s uninformed
candour. He often favoured thus the second officer.
His talk alluded somewhat enigmatically and often
without visible connection to Mr. Powell’s friendliness
towards himself and his daughter. “For
I am well aware that we have no friends on board this
ship, my dear young man,” he would add, “except
yourself. Flora feels that too.”
And Mr. Powell, flattered and embarrassed,
could but emit a vague murmur of protest. For
the statement was true in a sense, though the fact
was in itself insignificant. The feelings of
the ship’s company could not possibly matter
to the captain’s wife and to Mr. Smith her
father. Why the latter should so often allude
to it was what surprised our Mr. Powell. This
was by no means the first occasion. More like
the twentieth rather. And in his weak voice,
with his monotonous intonation, leaning over the rail
and looking at the water the other continued this
conversation, or rather his remarks, remarks of such
a monstrous nature that Mr. Powell had no option but
to accept them for gruesome jesting.
“For instance,” said Mr.
Smith, “that mate, Franklin, I believe he would
just as soon see us both overboard as not.”
“It’s not so bad as that,”
laughed Mr. Powell, feeling uncomfortable, because
his mind did not accommodate itself easily to exaggeration
of statement. “He isn’t a bad chap
really,” he added, very conscious of Mr. Franklin’s
offensive manner of which instances were not far to
seek. “He’s such a fool as to be
jealous. He has been with the captain for years.
It’s not for me to say, perhaps, but I think
the captain has spoiled all that gang of old servants.
They are like a lot of pet old dogs. Wouldn’t
let anybody come near him if they could help it.
I’ve never seen anything like it. And
the second mate, I believe, was like that too.”
“Well, he isn’t here,
luckily. There would have been one more enemy,”
said Mr. Smith. “There’s enough of
them without him. And you being here instead
of him makes it much more pleasant for my daughter
and myself. One feels there may be a friend in
need. For really, for a woman all alone on board
ship amongst a lot of unfriendly men . . . "
“But Mrs Anthony is not alone,”
exclaimed Powell. “There’s you, and
there’s the . . . "
Mr. Smith interrupted him.
“Nobody’s immortal.
And there are times when one feels ashamed to live.
Such an evening as this for instance.”
It was a lovely evening; the colours
of a splendid sunset had died out and the breath of
a warm breeze seemed to have smoothed out the sea.
Away to the south the sheet lightning was like the
flashing of an enormous lantern hidden under the horizon.
In order to change the conversation Mr. Powell said:
“Anyway no one can charge you
with being a Jonah, Mr. Smith. We have had a
magnificent quick passage so far. The captain
ought to be pleased. And I suppose you are not
sorry either.”
This diversion was not successful.
Mr. Smith emitted a sort of bitter chuckle and said:
“Jonah! That’s the fellow that was
thrown overboard by some sailors. It seems to
me it’s very easy at sea to get rid of a person
one does not like. The sea does not give up its
dead as the earth does.”
“You forget the whale, sir,” said young
Powell.
Mr. Smith gave a start. “Eh?
What whale? Oh! Jonah. I wasn’t
thinking of Jonah. I was thinking of this passage
which seems so quick to you. But only think
what it is to me? It isn’t a life, going
about the sea like this. And, for instance,
if one were to fall ill, there isn’t a doctor
to find out what’s the matter with one.
It’s worrying. It makes me anxious at
times.”
“Is Mrs. Anthony not feeling
well?” asked Powell. But Mr. Smith’s
remark was not meant for Mrs. Anthony. She was
well. He himself was well. It was the
captain’s health that did not seem quite satisfactory.
Had Mr. Powell noticed his appearance?
Mr. Powell didn’t know enough
of the captain to judge. He couldn’t tell.
But he observed thoughtfully that Mr. Franklin had
been saying the same thing. And Franklin had
known the captain for years. The mate was quite
worried about it.
This intelligence startled Mr. Smith
considerably. “Does he think he is in
danger of dying?” he exclaimed with an animation
quite extraordinary for him, which horrified Mr. Powell.
“Heavens! Die! No!
Don’t you alarm yourself, sir. I’ve
never heard a word about danger from Mr. Franklin.”
“Well, well,” sighed Mr.
Smith and left the poop for the saloon rather abruptly.
As a matter of fact Mr. Franklin had
been on deck for some considerable time. He
had come to relieve young Powell; but seeing him engaged
in talk with the “enemy” with
one of the “enemies” at least had
kept at a distance, which, the poop of the Ferndale
being aver seventy feet long, he had no difficulty
in doing. Mr. Powell saw him at the head of the
ladder leaning on his elbow, melancholy and silent.
“Oh! Here you are, sir.”
“Here I am. Here I’ve
been ever since six o’clock. Didn’t
want to interrupt the pleasant conversation.
If you like to put in half of your watch below jawing
with a dear friend, that’s not my affair.
Funny taste though.”
“He isn’t a bad chap,” said the
impartial Powell.
The mate snorted angrily, tapping
the deck with his foot; then: “Isn’t
he? Well, give him my love when you come together
again for another nice long yarn.”
“I say, Mr. Franklin, I wonder
the captain don’t take offence at your manners.”
“The captain. I wish to
goodness he would start a row with me. Then I
should know at least I am somebody on board.
I’d welcome it, Mr. Powell. I’d rejoice.
And dam’ me I would talk back too till I roused
him. He’s a shadow of himself. He
walks about his ship like a ghost. He’s
fading away right before our eyes. But of course
you don’t see. You don’t care a
hang. Why should you?”
Mr. Powell did not wait for more.
He went down on the main deck. Without taking
the mate’s jeremiads seriously he put them beside
the words of Mr. Smith. He had grown already
attached to Captain Anthony. There was something
not only attractive but compelling in the man.
Only it is very difficult for youth to believe in
the menace of death. Not in the fact itself,
but in its proximity to a breathing, moving, talking,
superior human being, showing no sign of disease.
And Mr. Powell thought that this talk was all nonsense.
But his curiosity was awakened. There was something,
and at any time some circumstance might occur . . .
No, he would never find out . . . There was nothing
to find out, most likely. Mr. Powell went to
his room where he tried to read a book he had already
read a good many times. Presently a bell rang
for the officers’ supper.