In the mess-room Powell found Mr.
Franklin hacking at a piece of cold salt beef with
a table knife. The mate, fiery in the face and
rolling his eyes over that task, explained that the
carver belonging to the mess-room could not be found.
The steward, present also, complained savagely of
the cook. The fellow got things into his galley
and then lost them. Mr. Franklin tried to pacify
him with mournful firmness.
“There, there! That will
do. We who have been all these years together
in the ship have other things to think about than quarrelling
among ourselves.”
Mr. Powell thought with exasperation:
“Here he goes again,” for this utterance
had nothing cryptic for him. The steward having
withdrawn morosely, he was not surprised to hear the
mate strike the usual note. That morning the
mizzen topsail tie had carried away (probably a defective
link) and something like forty feet of chain and wire-rope,
mixed up with a few heavy iron blocks, had crashed
down from aloft on the poop with a terrifying racket.
“Did you notice the captain
then, Mr. Powell. Did you notice?”
Powell confessed frankly that he was
too scared himself when all that lot of gear came
down on deck to notice anything.
“The gin-block missed his head
by an inch,” went on the mate impressively.
“I wasn’t three feet from him. And
what did he do? Did he shout, or jump, or even
look aloft to see if the yard wasn’t coming
down too about our ears in a dozen pieces? It’s
a marvel it didn’t. No, he just stopped
short no wonder; he must have felt the wind
of that iron gin-block on his face looked
down at it, there, lying close to his foot and
went on again. I believe he didn’t even
blink. It isn’t natural. The man
is stupefied.”
He sighed ridiculously and Mr. Powell
had suppressed a grin, when the mate added as if he
couldn’t contain himself:
“He will be taking to drink
next. Mark my words. That’s the next
thing.”
Mr. Powell was disgusted.
“You are so fond of the captain
and yet you don’t seem to care what you say
about him. I haven’t been with him for
seven years, but I know he isn’t the sort of
man that takes to drink. And then why
the devil should he?”
“Why the devil, you ask.
Devil eh? Well, no man is safe from
the devil and that’s answer enough
for you,” wheezed Mr. Franklin not unkindly.
“There was a time, a long time ago, when I nearly
took to drink myself. What do you say to that?”
Mr. Powell expressed a polite incredulity.
The thick, congested mate seemed on the point of
bursting with despondency. “That was bad
example though. I was young and fell into dangerous
company, made a fool of myself yes, as
true as you see me sitting here. Drank to forget.
Thought it a great dodge.”
Powell looked at the grotesque Franklin
with awakened interest and with that half-amused sympathy
with which we receive unprovoked confidences from
men with whom we have no sort of affinity. And
at the same time he began to look upon him more seriously.
Experience has its prestige. And the mate continued:
“If it hadn’t been for
the old lady, I would have gone to the devil.
I remembered her in time. Nothing like having
an old lady to look after to steady a chap and make
him face things. But as bad luck would have it,
Captain Anthony has no mother living, not a blessed
soul belonging to him as far as I know. Oh,
aye, I fancy he said once something to me of a sister.
But she’s married. She don’t need
him. Yes. In the old days he used to talk
to me as if we had been brothers,” exaggerated
the mate sentimentally. “’Franklin,’ he
would say ’this ship is my nearest
relation and she isn’t likely to turn against
me. And I suppose you are the man I’ve
known the longest in the world.’ That’s
how he used to speak to me. Can I turn my back
on him? He has turned his back on his ship;
that’s what it has come to. He has no one
now but his old Franklin. But what’s a
fellow to do to put things back as they were and should
be. Should be I say!”
His starting eyes had a terrible fixity.
Mr. Powell’s irresistible thought, “he
resembles a boiled lobster in distress,” was
followed by annoyance. “Good Lord,”
he said, “you don’t mean to hint that Captain
Anthony has fallen into bad company. What is
it you want to save him from?”
“I do mean it,” affirmed
the mate, and the very absurdity of the statement
made it impressive because it seemed so
absolutely audacious. “Well, you have a
cheek,” said young Powell, feeling mentally helpless.
“I have a notion the captain would half kill
you if he were to know how you carry on.”
“And welcome,” uttered
the fervently devoted Franklin. “I am willing,
if he would only clear the ship afterwards of that
. . . You are but a youngster and you may go
and tell him what you like. Let him knock the
stuffing out of his old Franklin first and think it
over afterwards. Anything to pull him together.
But of course you wouldn’t. You are all
right. Only you don’t know that things
are sometimes different from what they look.
There are friendships that are no friendships, and
marriages that are no marriages. Phoo!
Likely to be right wasn’t it?
Never a hint to me. I go off on leave and when
I come back, there it is all over, settled!
Not a word beforehand. No warning. If
only: ’What do you think of it, Franklin?’ or
anything of the sort. And that’s a man
who hardly ever did anything without asking my advice.
Why! He couldn’t take over a new coat
from the tailor without . . . first thing, directly
the fellow came on board with some new clothes, whether
in London or in China, it would be: ’Pass
the word along there for Mr. Franklin. Mr. Franklin
wanted in the cabin.’ In I would go.
’Just look at my back, Franklin. Fits
all right, doesn’t it?’ And I would say:
’First rate, sir,’ or whatever was the
truth of it. That or anything else. Always
the truth of it. Always. And well he knew
it; and that’s why he dared not speak right
out. Talking about workmen, alterations, cabins
. . . Phoo! . . . instead of a straightforward ’Wish
me joy, Mr. Franklin!’ Yes, that was the way
to let me know. God only knows what they are perhaps
she isn’t his daughter any more than she is .
. . She doesn’t resemble that old fellow.
Not a bit. Not a bit. It’s very
awful. You may well open your mouth, young man.
But for goodness’ sake, you who are mixed up
with that lot, keep your eyes and ears open too in
case in case of . . . I don’t
know what. Anything. One wonders what
can happen here at sea! Nothing. Yet when
a man is called a jailer behind his back.”
Mr. Franklin hid his face in his hands
for a moment and Powell shut his mouth, which indeed
had been open. He slipped out of the mess-room
noiselessly. “The mate’s crazy,”
he thought. It was his firm conviction.
Nevertheless, that evening, he felt his inner tranquillity
disturbed at last by the force and obstinacy of this
craze. He couldn’t dismiss it with the
contempt it deserved. Had the word “jailer”
really been pronounced? A strange word for the
mate to even imagine he had heard. A
senseless, unlikely word. But this word being
the only clear and definite statement in these grotesque
and dismal ravings was comparatively restful to his
mind. Powell’s mind rested on it still
when he came up at eight o’clock to take charge
of the deck. It was a moonless night, thick
with stars above, very dark on the water. A steady
air from the west kept the sails asleep. Franklin
mustered both watches in low tones as if for a funeral,
then approaching Powell:
“The course is east-south-east,”
said the chief mate distinctly.
“East-south-east, sir.”
“Everything’s set, Mr. Powell.”
“All right, sir.”
The other lingered, his sentimental
eyes gleamed silvery in the shadowy face. “A
quiet night before us. I don’t know that
there are any special orders. A settled, quiet
night. I dare say you won’t see the captain.
Once upon a time this was the watch he used to come
up and start a chat with either of us then on deck.
But now he sits in that infernal stern-cabin and
mopes. Jailer eh?”
Mr. Powell walked away from the mate
and when at some distance said, “Damn!”
quite heartily. It was a confounded nuisance.
It had ceased to be funny; that hostile word “jailer”
had given the situation an air of reality.
Franklin’s grotesque mortal
envelope had disappeared from the poop to seek its
needful repose, if only the worried soul would let
it rest a while. Mr. Powell, half sorry for
the thick little man, wondered whether it would let
him. For himself, he recognized that the charm
of a quiet watch on deck when one may let one’s
thoughts roam in space and time had been spoiled without
remedy. What shocked him most was the implied
aspersion of complicity on Mrs. Anthony. It angered
him. In his own words to me, he felt very “enthusiastic”
about Mrs. Anthony. “Enthusiastic”
is good; especially as he couldn’t exactly explain
to me what he meant by it. But he felt enthusiastic,
he says. That silly Franklin must have been
dreaming. That was it. He had dreamed it
all. Ass. Yet the injurious word stuck
in Powell’s mind with its associated ideas of
prisoner, of escape. He became very uncomfortable.
And just then (it might have been half an hour or
more since he had relieved Franklin) just then Mr.
Smith came up on the poop alone, like a gliding shadow
and leaned over the rail by his side. Young Powell
was affected disagreeably by his presence. He
made a movement to go away but the other began to
talk and Powell remained where he was as
if retained by a mysterious compulsion. The
conversation started by Mr. Smith had nothing peculiar.
He began to talk of mail-boats in general and in the
end seemed anxious to discover what were the services
from Port Elizabeth to London. Mr. Powell did
not know for certain but imagined that there must
be communication with England at least twice a month.
“Are you thinking of leaving us, sir; of going
home by steam? Perhaps with Mrs. Anthony,”
he asked anxiously.
“No! No! How can
I?” Mr. Smith got quite agitated, for him, which
did not amount to much. He was just asking for
the sake of something to talk about. No idea
at all of going home. One could not always do
what one wanted and that’s why there were moments
when one felt ashamed to live. This did not mean
that one did not want to live. Oh no!
He spoke with careless slowness, pausing
frequently and in such a low voice that Powell had
to strain his hearing to catch the phrases dropped
overboard as it were. And indeed they seemed
not worth the effort. It was like the aimless
talk of a man pursuing a secret train of thought far
removed from the idle words we so often utter only
to keep in touch with our fellow beings. An
hour passed. It seemed as though Mr. Smith could
not make up his mind to go below. He repeated
himself. Again he spoke of lives which one was
ashamed of. It was necessary to put up with such
lives as long as there was no way out, no possible
issue. He even alluded once more to mail-boat
services on the East coast of Africa and young Powell
had to tell him once more that he knew nothing about
them.
“Every fortnight, I thought
you said,” insisted Mr. Smith. He stirred,
seemed to detach himself from the rail with difficulty.
His long, slender figure straightened into stiffness,
as if hostile to the enveloping soft peace of air
and sea and sky, emitted into the night a weak murmur
which Mr. Powell fancied was the word, “Abominable”
repeated three times, but which passed into the faintly
louder declaration: “The moment has come to
go to bed,” followed by a just audible sigh.
“I sleep very well,” added
Mr. Smith in his restrained tone. “But
it is the moment one opens one’s eyes that is
horrible at sea. These days! Oh, these
days! I wonder how anybody can . . . "
“I like the life,” observed Mr. Powell.
“Oh, you. You have only
yourself to think of. You have made your bed.
Well, it’s very pleasant to feel that you are
friendly to us. My daughter has taken quite
a liking to you, Mr. Powell.”
He murmured, “Good-night”
and glided away rigidly. Young Powell asked
himself with some distaste what was the meaning of
these utterances. His mind had been worried
at last into that questioning attitude by no other
person than the grotesque Franklin. Suspicion
was not natural to him. And he took good care
to carefully separate in his thoughts Mrs. Anthony
from this man of enigmatic words her father.
Presently he observed that the sheen of the two deck
dead-lights of Mr. Smith’s room had gone out.
The old gentleman had been surprisingly quick in getting
into bed. Shortly afterwards the lamp in the
foremost skylight of the saloon was turned out; and
this was the sign that the steward had taken in the
tray and had retired for the night.
Young Powell had settled down to the
regular officer-of-the-watch tramp in the dense shadow
of the world decorated with stars high above his head,
and on earth only a few gleams of light about the ship.
The lamp in the after skylight was kept burning through
the night. There were also the dead-lights of
the stern-cabins glimmering dully in the deck far
aft, catching his eye when he turned to walk that way.
The brasses of the wheel glittered too, with the
dimly lit figure of the man detached, as if phosphorescent,
against the black and spangled background of the horizon.
Young Powell, in the silence of the
ship, reinforced by the great silent stillness of
the world, said to himself that there was something
mysterious in such beings as the absurd Franklin, and
even in such beings as himself. It was a strange
and almost improper thought to occur to the officer
of the watch of a ship on the high seas on no matter
how quiet a night. Why on earth was he bothering
his head? Why couldn’t he dismiss all
these people from his mind? It was as if the
mate had infected him with his own diseased devotion.
He would not have believed it possible that he should
be so foolish. But he was clearly.
He was foolish in a way totally unforeseen by himself.
Pushing this self-analysis further, he reflected
that the springs of his conduct were just as obscure.
“I may be catching myself any
time doing things of which I have no conception,”
he thought. And as he was passing near the mizzen-mast
he perceived a coil of rope left lying on the deck
by the oversight of the sweepers. By an impulse
which had nothing mysterious in it, he stooped as
he went by with the intention of picking it up and
hanging it up on its proper pin. This movement
brought his head down to the level of the glazed end
of the after skylight the lighted skylight
of the most private part of the saloon, consecrated
to the exclusiveness of Captain Anthony’s married
life; the part, let me remind you, cut off from the
rest of that forbidden space by a pair of heavy curtains.
I mention these curtains because at this point Mr.
Powell himself recalled the existence of that unusual
arrangement to my mind.
He recalled them with simple-minded
compunction at that distance of time. He said:
“You understand that directly I stooped to pick
up that coil of running gear the spanker
foot-outhaul, it was I perceived that I
could see right into that part of the saloon the curtains
were meant to make particularly private. Do
you understand me?” he insisted.
I told him that I understood; and
he proceeded to call my attention to the wonderful
linking up of small facts, with something of awe left
yet, after all these years, at the precise workmanship
of chance, fate, providence, call it what you will!
“For, observe, Marlow,” he said, making
at me very round eyes which contrasted funnily with
the austere touch of grey on his temples, “observe,
my dear fellow, that everything depended on the men
who cleared up the poop in the evening leaving that
coil of rope on the deck, and on the topsail-tie carrying
away in a most incomprehensible and surprising manner
earlier in the day, and the end of the chain whipping
round the coaming and shivering to bits the coloured
glass-pane at the end of the skylight. It had
the arms of the city of Liverpool on it; I don’t
know why unless because the Ferndale was registered
in Liverpool. It was very thick plate glass.
Anyhow, the upper part got smashed, and directly
we had attended to things aloft Mr. Franklin had set
the carpenter to patch up the damage with some pieces
of plain glass. I don’t know where they
got them; I think the people who fitted up new bookcases
in the captain’s room had left some spare panes.
Chips was there the whole afternoon on his knees, messing
with putty and red-lead. It wasn’t a neat
job when it was done, not by any means, but it would
serve to keep the weather out and let the light in.
Clear glass. And of course I was not thinking
of it. I just stooped to pick up that rope and
found my head within three inches of that clear glass,
and dash it all! I found myself out.
Not half an hour before I was saying to myself that
it was impossible to tell what was in people’s
heads or at the back of their talk, or what they were
likely to be up to. And here I found myself up
to as low a trick as you can well think of. For,
after I had stooped, there I remained prying, spying,
anyway looking, where I had no business to look.
Not consciously at first, may be. He who has
eyes, you know, nothing can stop him from seeing things
as long as there are things to see in front of him.
What I saw at first was the end of the table and
the tray clamped on to it, a patent tray for sea use,
fitted with holders for a couple of decanters, water-jug
and glasses. The glitter of these things caught
my eye first; but what I saw next was the captain
down there, alone as far as I could see; and I could
see pretty well the whole of that part up to the cottage
piano, dark against the satin-wood panelling of the
bulkhead. And I remained looking. I did.
And I don’t know that I was ashamed of myself
either, then. It was the fault of that Franklin,
always talking of the man, making free with him to
that extent that really he seemed to have become our
property, his and mine, in a way. It’s
funny, but one had that feeling about Captain Anthony.
To watch him was not so much worse than listening
to Franklin talking him over. Well, it’s
no use making excuses for what’s inexcusable.
I watched; but I dare say you know that there could
have been nothing inimical in this low behaviour of
mine. On the contrary. I’ll tell
you now what he was doing. He was helping himself
out of a decanter. I saw every movement, and
I said to myself mockingly as though jeering at Franklin
in my thoughts, ’Hallo! Here’s the
captain taking to drink at last.’ He poured
a little brandy or whatever it was into a long glass,
filled it with water, drank about a fourth of it and
stood the glass back into the holder. Every sign
of a bad drinking bout, I was saying to myself, feeling
quite amused at the notions of that Franklin.
He seemed to me an enormous ass, with his jealousy
and his fears. At that rate a month would not
have been enough for anybody to get drunk. The
captain sat down in one of the swivel arm-chairs fixed
around the table; I had him right under me and as he
turned the chair slightly, I was looking, I may say,
down his back. He took another little sip and
then reached for a book which was lying on the table.
I had not noticed it before. Altogether the
proceedings of a desperate drunkard weren’t
they? He opened the book and held it before his
face. If this was the way he took to drink, then
I needn’t worry. He was in no danger from
that, and as to any other, I assure you no human being
could have looked safer than he did down there.
I felt the greatest contempt for Franklin just then,
while I looked at Captain Anthony sitting there with
a glass of weak brandy-and-water at his elbow and reading
in the cabin of his ship, on a quiet night the
quietest, perhaps the finest, of a prosperous passage.
And if you wonder why I didn’t leave off my
ugly spying I will tell you how it was. Captain
Anthony was a great reader just about that time; and
I, too, I have a great liking for books. To
this day I can’t come near a book but I must
know what it is about. It was a thickish volume
he had there, small close print, double columns I
can see it now. What I wanted to make out was
the title at the top of the page. I have very
good eyes but he wasn’t holding it conveniently I
mean for me up there. Well, it was a history
of some kind, that much I read and then suddenly he
bangs the book face down on the table, jumps up as
if something had bitten him and walks away aft.
“Funny thing shame is.
I had been behaving badly and aware of it in a way,
but I didn’t feel really ashamed till the fright
of being found out in my honourable occupation drove
me from it. I slunk away to the forward end
of the poop and lounged about there, my face and ears
burning and glad it was a dark night, expecting every
moment to hear the captain’s footsteps behind
me. For I made sure he was coming on deck.
Presently I thought I had rather meet him face to face
and I walked slowly aft prepared to see him emerge
from the companion before I got that far. I
even thought of his having detected me by some means.
But it was impossible, unless he had eyes in the
top of his head. I had never had a view of his
face down there. It was impossible; I was safe;
and I felt very mean, yet, explain it as you may, I
seemed not to care. And the captain not appearing
on deck, I had the impulse to go on being mean.
I wanted another peep. I really don’t
know what was the beastly influence except that Mr.
Franklin’s talk was enough to demoralize any
man by raising a sort of unhealthy curiosity which
did away in my case with all the restraints of common
decency.
“I did not mean to run the risk
of being caught squatting in a suspicious attitude
by the captain. There was also the helmsman to
consider. So what I did I am surprised
at my low cunning was to sit down naturally
on the skylight-seat and then by bending forward I
found that, as I expected, I could look down through
the upper part of the end-pane. The worst that
could happen to me then, if I remained too long in
that position, was to be suspected by the seaman aft
at the wheel of having gone to sleep there.
For the rest my ears would give me sufficient warning
of any movements in the companion.
“But in that way my angle of
view was changed. The field too was smaller.
The end of the table, the tray and the swivel-chair
I had right under my eyes. The captain had not
come back yet. The piano I could not see now;
but on the other hand I had a very oblique downward
view of the curtains drawn across the cabin and cutting
off the forward part of it just about the level of
the skylight-end and only an inch or so from the end
of the table. They were heavy stuff, travelling
on a thick brass rod with some contrivance to keep
the rings from sliding to and fro when the ship rolled.
But just then the ship was as still almost as a model
shut up in a glass case while the curtains, joined
closely, and, perhaps on purpose, made a little too
long moved no more than a solid wall.”
Marlow got up to get another cigar.
The night was getting on to what I may call its deepest
hour, the hour most favourable to evil purposes of
men’s hate, despair or greed to whatever
can whisper into their ears the unlawful counsels
of protest against things that are; the hour of ill-omened
silence and chill and stagnation, the hour when the
criminal plies his trade and the victim of sleeplessness
reaches the lowest depth of dreadful discouragement;
the hour before the first sight of dawn. I know
it, because while Marlow was crossing the room I looked
at the clock on the mantelpiece. He however
never looked that way though it is possible that he,
too, was aware of the passage of time. He sat
down heavily.
“Our friend Powell,” he
began again, “was very anxious that I should
understand the topography of that cabin. I was
interested more by its moral atmosphere, that tension
of falsehood, of desperate acting, which tainted the
pure sea-atmosphere into which the magnanimous Anthony
had carried off his conquest and well his
self-conquest too, trying to act at the same time
like a beast of prey, a pure spirit and the “most
generous of men.” Too big an order clearly
because he was nothing of a monster but just a common
mortal, a little more self-willed and self-confident
than most, may be, both in his roughness and in his
delicacy.
As to the delicacy of Mr. Powell’s
proceedings I’ll say nothing. He found
a sort of depraved excitement in watching an unconscious
man and such an attractive and mysterious
man as Captain Anthony at that. He wanted another
peep at him. He surmised that the captain must
come back soon because of the glass two-thirds full
and also of the book put down so brusquely.
God knows what sudden pang had made Anthony jump up
so. I am convinced he used reading as an opiate
against the pain of his magnanimity which like all
abnormal growths was gnawing at his healthy substance
with cruel persistence. Perhaps he had rushed
into his cabin simply to groan freely in absolute
and delicate secrecy. At any rate he tarried
there. And young Powell would have grown weary
and compunctious at last if it had not become manifest
to him that he had not been alone in the highly incorrect
occupation of watching the movements of Captain Anthony.
Powell explained to me that no sound
did or perhaps could reach him from the saloon.
The first sign and we must remember that
he was using his eyes for all they were worth was
an unaccountable movement of the curtain. It
was wavy and very slight; just perceptible in fact
to the sharpened faculties of a secret watcher; for
it can’t be denied that our wits are much more
alert when engaged in wrong-doing (in which one mustn’t
be found out) than in a righteous occupation.
He became suspicious, with no one
and nothing definite in his mind. He was suspicious
of the curtain itself and observed it. It looked
very innocent. Then just as he was ready to
put it down to a trick of imagination he saw trembling
movements where the two curtains joined. Yes!
Somebody else besides himself had been watching Captain
Anthony. He owns artlessly that this roused
his indignation. It was really too much of a
good thing. In this state of intense antagonism
he was startled to observe tips of fingers fumbling
with the dark stuff. Then they grasped the edge
of the further curtain and hung on there, just fingers
and knuckles and nothing else. It made an abominable
sight. He was looking at it with unaccountable
repulsion when a hand came into view; a short, puffy,
old, freckled hand projecting into the lamplight, followed
by a white wrist, an arm in a grey coat-sleeve, up
to the elbow, beyond the elbow, extended tremblingly
towards the tray. Its appearance was weird and
nauseous, fantastic and silly. But instead of
grabbing the bottle as Powell expected, this hand,
tremulous with senile eagerness, swerved to the glass,
rested on its edge for a moment (or so it looked from
above) and went back with a jerk. The gripping
fingers of the other hand vanished at the same time,
and young Powell staring at the motionless curtains
could indulge for a moment the notion that he had been
dreaming.
But that notion did not last long.
Powell, after repressing his first impulse to spring
for the companion and hammer at the captain’s
door, took steps to have himself relieved by the boatswain.
He was in a state of distraction as to his feelings
and yet lucid as to his mind. He remained on
the skylight so as to keep his eye on the tray.
Still the captain did not appear in
the saloon. “If he had,” said Mr.
Powell, “I knew what to do. I would have
put my elbow through the pane instantly crash.”
I asked him why?
“It was the quickest dodge for
getting him away from that tray,” he explained.
“My throat was so dry that I didn’t know
if I could shout loud enough. And this was not
a case for shouting, either.”
The boatswain, sleepy and disgusted,
arriving on the poop, found the second officer doubled
up over the end of the skylight in a pose which might
have been that of severe pain. And his voice
was so changed that the man, though naturally vexed
at being turned out, made no comment on the plea of
sudden indisposition which young Powell put forward.
The rapidity with which the sick man
got off the poop must have astonished the boatswain.
But Powell, at the moment he opened the door leading
into the saloon from the quarter-deck, had managed
to control his agitation. He entered swiftly
but without noise and found himself in the dark part
of the saloon, the strong sheen of the lamp on the
other side of the curtains visible only above the
rod on which they ran. The door of Mr. Smith’s
cabin was in that dark part. He passed by it
assuring himself by a quick side glance that it was
imperfectly closed. “Yes,” he said
to me. “The old man must have been watching
through the crack. Of that I am certain; but
it was not for me that he was watching and listening.
Horrible! Surely he must have been startled
to hear and see somebody he did not expect.
He could not possibly guess why I was coming in, but
I suppose he must have been concerned.”
Concerned indeed! He must have been thunderstruck,
appalled.
Powell’s only distinct aim was
to remove the suspected tumbler. He had no other
plan, no other intention, no other thought. Do
away with it in some manner. Snatch it up and
run out with it.
You know that complete mastery of
one fixed idea, not a reasonable but an emotional
mastery, a sort of concentrated exaltation. Under
its empire men rush blindly through fire and water
and opposing violence, and nothing can stop them unless,
sometimes, a grain of sand. For his blind purpose
(and clearly the thought of Mrs. Anthony was at the
bottom of it) Mr. Powell had plenty of time.
What checked him at the crucial moment was the familiar,
harmless aspect of common things, the steady light,
the open book on the table, the solitude, the peace,
the home-like effect of the place. He held the
glass in his hand; all he had to do was to vanish
back beyond the curtains, flee with it noiselessly
into the night on deck, fling it unseen overboard.
A minute or less. And then all that would have
happened would have been the wonder at the utter disappearance
of a glass tumbler, a ridiculous riddle in pantry-affairs
beyond the wit of anyone on board to solve.
The grain of sand against which Powell stumbled in
his headlong career was a moment of incredulity as
to the truth of his own conviction because it had
failed to affect the safe aspect of familiar things.
He doubted his eyes too. He must have dreamt
it all! “I am dreaming now,” he said
to himself. And very likely for a few seconds
he must have looked like a man in a trance or profoundly
asleep on his feet, and with a glass of brandy-and-water
in his hand.
What woke him up and, at the same
time, fixed his feet immovably to the spot, was a
voice asking him what he was doing there in tones of
thunder. Or so it sounded to his ears.
Anthony, opening the door of his stern-cabin had
naturally exclaimed. What else could you expect?
And the exclamation must have been fairly loud if
you consider the nature of the sight which met his
eye. There, before him, stood his second officer,
a seemingly decent, well-bred young man, who, being
on duty, had left the deck and had sneaked into the
saloon, apparently for the inexpressibly mean purpose
of drinking up what was left of his captain’s
brandy-and-water. There he was, caught absolutely
with the glass in his hand.
But the very monstrosity of appearances
silenced Anthony after the first exclamation; and
young Powell felt himself pierced through and through
by the overshadowed glance of his captain. Anthony
advanced quietly. The first impulse of Mr. Powell,
when discovered, had been to dash the glass on the
deck. He was in a sort of panic. But deep
down within him his wits were working, and the idea
that if he did that he could prove nothing and that
the story he had to tell was completely incredible,
restrained him. The captain came forward slowly.
With his eyes now close to his, Powell, spell-bound,
numb all over, managed to lift one finger to the deck
above mumbling the explanatory words, “Boatswain
on the poop.”
The captain moved his head slightly
as much as to say, “That’s all right” and
this was all. Powell had no voice, no strength.
The air was unbreathable, thick, sticky, odious,
like hot jelly in which all movements became difficult.
He raised the glass a little with immense difficulty
and moved his trammelled lips sufficiently to form
the words:
“Doctored.”
Anthony glanced at it for an instant,
only for an instant, and again fastened his eyes on
the face of his second mate. Powell added a fervent
“I believe” and put the glass down on the
tray. The captain’s glance followed the
movement and returned sternly to his face. The
young man pointed a finger once more upwards and squeezed
out of his iron-bound throat six consecutive words
of further explanation. “Through the skylight.
The white pane.”
The captain raised his eyebrows very
much at this, while young Powell, ashamed but desperate,
nodded insistently several times. He meant to
say that: Yes. Yes. He had done that
thing. He had been spying . . . The captain’s
gaze became thoughtful. And, now the confession
was over, the iron-bound feeling of Powell’s
throat passed away giving place to a general anxiety
which from his breast seemed to extend to all the limbs
and organs of his body. His legs trembled a little,
his vision was confused, his mind became blankly expectant.
But he was alert enough. At a movement of Anthony
he screamed in a strangled whisper.
“Don’t, sir! Don’t touch it.”
The captain pushed aside Powell’s
extended arm, took up the glass and raised it slowly
against the lamplight. The liquid, of very pale
amber colour, was clear, and by a glance the captain
seemed to call Powell’s attention to the fact.
Powell tried to pronounce the word, “dissolved”
but he only thought of it with great energy which however
failed to move his lips. Only when Anthony had
put down the glass and turned to him he recovered
such a complete command of his voice that he could
keep it down to a hurried, forcible whisper a
whisper that shook him.
“Doctored! I swear it!
I have seen. Doctored! I have seen.”
Not a feature of the captain’s
face moved. His was a calm to take one’s
breath away. It did so to young Powell.
Then for the first time Anthony made himself heard
to the point.
“You did! . . . Who was it?”
And Powell gasped freely at last.
“A hand,” he whispered fearfully, “a
hand and the arm only the arm like
that.”
He advanced his own, slow, stealthy,
tremulous in faithful reproduction, the tips of two
fingers and the thumb pressed together and hovering
above the glass for an instant then the
swift jerk back, after the deed.
“Like that,” he repeated
growing excited. “From behind this.”
He grasped the curtain and glaring at the silent
Anthony flung it back disclosing the forepart of the
saloon. There was on one to be seen.
Powell had not expected to see anybody.
“But,” he said to me, “I knew very
well there was an ear listening and an eye glued to
the crack of a cabin door. Awful thought.
And that door was in that part of the saloon remaining
in the shadow of the other half of the curtain.
I pointed at it and I suppose that old man inside
saw me pointing. The captain had a wonderful
self-command. You couldn’t have guessed
anything from his face. Well, it was perhaps
more thoughtful than usual. And indeed this
was something to think about. But I couldn’t
think steadily. My brain would give a sort of
jerk and then go dead again. I had lost all notion
of time, and I might have been looking at the captain
for days and months for all I knew before I heard
him whisper to me fiercely: “Not a word!”
This jerked me out of that trance I was in and I said
“No! No! I didn’t mean even
you.”
“I wanted to explain my conduct,
my intentions, but I read in his eyes that he understood
me and I was only too glad to leave off. And
there we were looking at each other, dumb, brought
up short by the question “What next?”
“I thought Captain Anthony was
a man of iron till I saw him suddenly fling his head
to the right and to the left fiercely, like a wild
animal at bay not knowing which way to break out .
. . "
“Truly,” commented Marlow,
“brought to bay was not a bad comparison; a
better one than Mr. Powell was aware of. At that
moment the appearance of Flora could not but bring
the tension to the breaking point. She came
out in all innocence but not without vague dread.
Anthony’s exclamation on first seeing Powell
had reached her in her cabin, where, it seems, she
was brushing her hair. She had heard the very
words. “What are you doing here?”
And the unwonted loudness of the voice his
voice breaking the habitual stillness of
that hour would have startled a person having much
less reason to be constantly apprehensive, than the
captive of Anthony’s masterful generosity.
She had no means to guess to whom the question was
addressed and it echoed in her heart, as Anthony’s
voice always did. Followed complete silence.
She waited, anxious, expectant, till she could stand
the strain no longer, and with the weary mental appeal
of the overburdened. “My God! What
is it now?” she opened the door of her room
and looked into the saloon. Her first glance
fell on Powell. For a moment, seeing only the
second officer with Anthony, she felt relieved and
made as if to draw back; but her sharpened perception
detected something suspicious in their attitudes, and
she came forward slowly.
“I was the first to see Mrs.
Anthony,” related Powell, “because I was
facing aft. The captain, noticing my eyes, looked
quickly over his shoulder and at once put his finger
to his lips to caution me. As if I were likely
to let out anything before her! Mrs. Anthony
had on a dressing-gown of some grey stuff with red
facings and a thick red cord round her waist.
Her hair was down. She looked a child; a pale-faced
child with big blue eyes and a red mouth a little open
showing a glimmer of white teeth. The light
fell strongly on her as she came up to the end of
the table. A strange child though; she hardly
affected one like a child, I remember. Do you
know,” exclaimed Mr. Powell, who clearly must
have been, like many seamen, an industrious reader,
“do you know what she looked like to me with
those big eyes and something appealing in her whole
expression. She looked like a forsaken elf.
Captain Anthony had moved towards her to keep her
away from my end of the table, where the tray was.
I had never seen them so near to each other before,
and it made a great contrast. It was wonderful,
for, with his beard cut to a point, his swarthy, sunburnt
complexion, thin nose and his lean head there was
something African, something Moorish in Captain Anthony.
His neck was bare; he had taken off his coat and
collar and had drawn on his sleeping jacket in the
time that he had been absent from the saloon.
I seem to see him now. Mrs. Anthony too.
She looked from him to me I suppose I
looked guilty or frightened and from me
to him, trying to guess what there was between us
two. Then she burst out with a “What has
happened?” which seemed addressed to me.
I mumbled “Nothing! Nothing, ma’am,”
which she very likely did not hear.
“You must not think that all
this had lasted a long time. She had taken fright
at our behaviour and turned to the captain pitifully.
“What is it you are concealing from me?”
A straight question eh? I don’t
know what answer the captain would have made.
Before he could even raise his eyes to her she cried
out “Ah! Here’s papa” in a
sharp tone of relief, but directly afterwards she
looked to me as if she were holding her breath with
apprehension. I was so interested in her that,
how shall I say it, her exclamation made no connection
in my brain at first. I also noticed that she
had sidled up a little nearer to Captain Anthony, before
it occurred to me to turn my head. I can tell
you my neck stiffened in the twisted position from
the shock of actually seeing that old man! He
had dared! I suppose you think I ought to have
looked upon him as mad. But I couldn’t.
It would have been certainly easier. But I could
not. You should have seen him.
First of all he was completely dressed with his very
cap still on his head just as when he left me on deck
two hours before, saying in his soft voice: “The
moment has come to go to bed” while
he meant to go and do that thing and hide in his dark
cabin, and watch the stuff do its work. A cold
shudder ran down my back. He had his hands in
the pockets of his jacket, his arms were pressed close
to his thin, upright body, and he shuffled across the
cabin with his short steps. There was a red
patch on each of his old soft cheeks as if somebody
had been pinching them. He drooped his head a
little, and looked with a sort of underhand expectation
at the captain and Mrs. Anthony standing close together
at the other end of the saloon. The calculating
horrible impudence of it! His daughter was there;
and I am certain he had seen the captain putting his
finger on his lips to warn me. And then he had
coolly come out! He passed my imagination, I
assure you. After that one shiver his presence
killed every faculty in me wonder, horror,
indignation. I felt nothing in particular just
as if he were still the old gentleman who used to
talk to me familiarly every day on deck. Would
you believe it?”
“Mr. Powell challenged my powers
of wonder at this internal phenomenon,” went
on Marlow after a slight pause. “But even
if they had not been fully engaged, together with
all my powers of attention in following the facts
of the case, I would not have been astonished by his
statements about himself. Taking into consideration
his youth they were by no means incredible; or, at
any rate, they were the least incredible part of the
whole. They were also the least interesting part.
The interest was elsewhere, and there of course all
he could do was to look at the surface. The
inwardness of what was passing before his eyes was
hidden from him, who had looked on, more impenetrably
than from me who at a distance of years was listening
to his words. What presently happened at this
crisis in Flora de Barral’s fate was beyond his
power of comment, seemed in a sense natural.
And his own presence on the scene was so strangely
motived that it was left for me to marvel alone at
this young man, a completely chance-comer, having
brought it about on that night.
Each situation created either by folly
or wisdom has its psychological moment. The
behaviour of young Powell with its mixture of boyish
impulses combined with instinctive prudence, had not
created it I can’t say that but
had discovered it to the very people involved.
What would have happened if he had made a noise about
his discovery? But he didn’t. His
head was full of Mrs. Anthony and he behaved with a
discretion beyond his years. Some nice children
often do; and surely it is not from reflection.
They have their own inspirations. Young Powell’s
inspiration consisted in being “enthusiastic”
about Mrs. Anthony. ‘Enthusiastic’
is really good. And he was amongst them like
a child, sensitive, impressionable, plastic but
unable to find for himself any sort of comment.
I don’t know how much mine may
be worth; but I believe that just then the tension
of the false situation was at its highest. Of
all the forms offered to us by life it is the one
demanding a couple to realize it fully, which is the
most imperative. Pairing off is the fate of mankind.
And if two beings thrown together, mutually attracted,
resist the necessity, fail in understanding and voluntarily
stop short of the the embrace, in the noblest
meaning of the word, then they are committing a sin
against life, the call of which is simple. Perhaps
sacred. And the punishment of it is an invasion
of complexity, a tormenting, forcibly tortuous involution
of feelings, the deepest form of suffering from which
indeed something significant may come at last, which
may be criminal or heroic, may be madness or wisdom or
even a straight if despairing decision.
Powell on taking his eyes off the
old gentleman noticed Captain Anthony, swarthy as
an African, by the side of Flora whiter than the lilies,
take his handkerchief out and wipe off his forehead
the sweat of anguish like a man who is
overcome. “And no wonder,” commented
Mr. Powell here. Then the captain said, “Hadn’t
you better go back to your room.” This
was to Mrs. Anthony. He tried to smile at her.
“Why do you look startled? This night
is like any other night.”
“Which,” Powell again
commented to me earnestly, “was a lie . . .
No wonder he sweated.” You see from this
the value of Powell’s comments. Mrs. Anthony
then said: “Why are you sending me away?”
“Why! That you should
go to sleep. That you should rest.”
And Captain Anthony frowned. Then sharply,
“You stay here, Mr. Powell. I shall want
you presently.”
As a matter of fact Powell had not
moved. Flora did not mind his presence.
He himself had the feeling of being of no account
to those three people. He was looking at Mrs.
Anthony as unabashed as the proverbial cat looking
at a king. Mrs. Anthony glanced at him.
She did not move, gripped by an inexplicable premonition.
She had arrived at the very limit of her endurance
as the object of Anthony’s magnanimity; she
was the prey of an intuitive dread of she did not know
what mysterious influence; she felt herself being
pushed back into that solitude, that moral loneliness,
which had made all her life intolerable. And
then, in that close communion established again with
Anthony, she felt as on that night in the
garden the force of his personal fascination.
The passive quietness with which she looked at him
gave her the appearance of a person bewitched or,
say, mesmerically put to sleep beyond any
notion of her surroundings.
After telling Mr. Powell not to go
away the captain remained silent. Suddenly Mrs.
Anthony pushed back her loose hair with a decisive
gesture of her arms and moved still nearer to him.
“Here’s papa up yet,” she said,
but she did not look towards Mr. Smith. “Why
is it? And you? I can’t go on like
this, Roderick between you two. Don’t.”
Anthony interrupted her as if something
had untied his tongue.
“Oh yes. Here’s
your father. And . . . Why not. Perhaps
it is just as well you came out. Between us
two? Is that it? I won’t pretend
I don’t understand. I am not blind.
But I can’t fight any longer for what I haven’t
got. I don’t know what you imagine has
happened. Something has though. Only you
needn’t be afraid. No shadow can touch
you because I give up. I can’t
say we had much talk about it, your father and I, but,
the long and the short of it is, that I must learn
to live without you which I have told you
was impossible. I was speaking the truth.
But I have done fighting, or waiting, or hoping.
Yes. You shall go.”
At this point Mr. Powell who (he confessed
to me) was listening with uncomprehending awe, heard
behind his back a triumphant chuckling sound.
It gave him the shudders, he said, to mention it now;
but at the time, except for another chill down the
spine, it had not the power to destroy his absorption
in the scene before his eyes, and before his ears too,
because just then Captain Anthony raised his voice
grimly. Perhaps he too had heard the chuckle
of the old man.
“Your father has found an argument
which makes me pause, if it does not convince me.
No! I can’t answer it. I I
don’t want to answer it. I simply surrender.
He shall have his way with you and with
me. Only,” he added in a gloomy lowered
tone which struck Mr. Powell as if a pedal had been
put down, “only it shall take a little time.
I have never lied to you. Never. I renounce
not only my chance but my life. In a few days,
directly we get into port, the very moment we do, I,
who have said I could never let you go, I shall let
you go.”
To the innocent beholder Anthony seemed
at this point to become physically exhausted.
My view is that the utter falseness of his, I may
say, aspirations, the vanity of grasping the empty
air, had come to him with an overwhelming force, leaving
him disarmed before the other’s mad and sinister
sincerity. As he had said himself he could not
fight for what he did not possess; he could not face
such a thing as this for the sake of his mere magnanimity.
The normal alone can overcome the abnormal.
He could not even reproach that man over there.
“I own myself beaten,” he said in a firmer
tone. “You are free. I let you off
since I must.”
Powell, the onlooker, affirms that
at these incomprehensible words Mrs. Anthony stiffened
into the very image of astonishment, with a frightened
stare and frozen lips. But next minute a cry
came out from her heart, not very loud but of a quality
which made not only Captain Anthony (he was not looking
at her), not only him but also the more distant (and
equally unprepared) young man, catch their breath:
“But I don’t want to be let off,”
she cried.
She was so still that one asked oneself
whether the cry had come from her. The restless
shuffle behind Powell’s back stopped short, the
intermittent shadowy chuckling ceased too. Young
Powell, glancing round, saw Mr. Smith raise his head
with his faded eyes very still, puckered at the corners,
like a man perceiving something coming at him from
a great distance. And Mrs. Anthony’s voice
reached Powell’s ears, entreating and indignant.
“You can’t cast me off
like this, Roderick. I won’t go away from
you. I won’t ”
Powell turned about and discovered
then that what Mr. Smith was puckering his eyes at,
was the sight of his daughter clinging round Captain
Anthony’s neck a sight not in itself
improper, but which had the power to move young Powell
with a bashfully profound emotion. It was different
from his emotion while spying at the revelations of
the skylight, but in this case too he felt the discomfort,
if not the guilt, of an unseen beholder. Experience
was being piled up on his young shoulders. Mrs.
Anthony’s hair hung back in a dark mass like
the hair of a drowned woman. She looked as if
she would let go and sink to the floor if the captain
were to withhold his sustaining arm. But the
captain obviously had no such intention. Standing
firm and still he gazed with sombre eyes at Mr. Smith.
For a time the low convulsive sobbing of Mr. Smith’s
daughter was the only sound to trouble the silence.
The strength of Anthony’s clasp pressing Flora
to his breast could not be doubted even at that distance,
and suddenly, awakening to his opportunity, he began
to partly support her, partly carry her in the direction
of her cabin. His head was bent over her solicitously,
then recollecting himself, with a glance full of unwonted
fire, his voice ringing in a note unknown to Mr. Powell,
he cried to him, “Don’t you go on deck
yet. I want you to stay down here till I come
back. There are some instructions I want to give
you.”
And before the young man could answer,
Anthony had disappeared in the stern-cabin, burdened
and exulting.
“Instructions,” commented
Mr. Powell. “That was all right.
Very likely; but they would be such instructions as,
I thought to myself, no ship’s officer perhaps
had ever been given before. It made me feel a
little sick to think what they would be dealing with,
probably. But there! Everything that happens
on board ship on the high seas has got to be dealt
with somehow. There are no special people to
fly to for assistance. And there I was with
that old man left in my charge. When he noticed
me looking at him he started to shuffle again athwart
the saloon. He kept his hands rammed in his
pockets, he was as stiff-backed as ever, only his
head hung down. After a bit he says in his gentle
soft tone: “Did you see it?”
There were in Powell’s head
no special words to fit the horror of his feelings.
So he said he had to say something, “Good
God! What were you thinking of, Mr. Smith, to
try to . . . " And then he left off. He dared
not utter the awful word poison. Mr. Smith stopped
his prowl.
“Think! What do you know
of thinking. I don’t think. There
is something in my head that thinks. The thoughts
in men, it’s like being drunk with liquor or You
can’t stop them. A man who thinks will
think anything. No! But have you seen
it. Have you?”
“I tell you I have! I
am certain!” said Powell forcibly. “I
was looking at you all the time. You’ve
done something to the drink in that glass.”
Then Powell lost his breath somehow.
Mr. Smith looked at him curiously, with mistrust.
“My good young man, I don’t
know what you are talking about. I ask you have
you seen? Who would have believed it? with her
arms round his neck. When! Oh! Ha!
Ha! You did see! Didn’t you?
It wasn’t a delusion was it?
Her arms round . . . But I have never wholly
trusted her.”
“Then I flew out at him, said
Mr. Powell. I told him he was jolly lucky to
have fallen upon Captain Anthony. A man in a
million. He started again shuffling to and fro.
“You too,” he said mournfully, keeping
his eyes down. “Eh? Wonderful man?
But have you a notion who I am? Listen!
I have been the Great Mr. de Barral. So they
printed it in the papers while they were getting up
a conspiracy. And I have been doing time.
And now I am brought low.” His voice
died down to a mere breath. “Brought low.”
He took his hands out of his pocket,
dragged the cap down on his head and stuck them back
into his pockets, exactly as if preparing himself to
go out into a great wind. “But not so
low as to put up with this disgrace, to see her, fast
in this fellow’s clutches, without doing something.
She wouldn’t listen to me. Frightened?
Silly? I had to think of some way to get her
out of this. Did you think she cared for him?
No! Would anybody have thought so? No!
She pretended it was for my sake. She couldn’t
understand that if I hadn’t been an old man I
would have flown at his throat months ago. As
it was I was tempted every time he looked at her.
My girl. Ough! Any man but this.
And all the time the wicked little fool was lying
to me. It was their plot, their conspiracy!
These conspiracies are the devil. She has been
leading me on, till she has fairly put my head under
the heel of that jailer, of that scoundrel, of her
husband . . . Treachery! Bringing me low.
Lower than herself. In the dirt. That’s
what it means. Doesn’t it? Under
his heel!”
He paused in his restless shuffle
and again, seizing his cap with both hands, dragged
it furiously right down on his ears. Powell had
lost himself in listening to these broken ravings,
in looking at that old feverish face when, suddenly,
quick as lightning, Mr. Smith spun round, snatched
up the captain’s glass and with a stifled, hurried
exclamation, “Here’s luck,” tossed
the liquor down his throat.
“I know now the meaning of the
word ‘Consternation,’” went on Mr.
Powell. “That was exactly my state of mind.
I thought to myself directly: There’s
nothing in that drink. I have been dreaming,
I have made the awfulest mistake! . . .”
Mr. Smith put the glass down.
He stood before Powell unharmed, quieted down, in
a listening attitude, his head inclined on one side,
chewing his thin lips. Suddenly he blinked queerly,
grabbed Powell’s shoulder and collapsed, subsiding
all at once as though he had gone soft all over, as
a piece of silk stuff collapses. Powell seized
his arm instinctively and checked his fall; but as
soon as Mr. Smith was fairly on the floor he jerked
himself free and backed away. Almost as quick
he rushed forward again and tried to lift up the body.
But directly he raised his shoulders he knew that
the man was dead! Dead!
He lowered him down gently.
He stood over him without fear or any other feeling,
almost indifferent, far away, as it were. And
then he made another start and, if he had not kept
Mrs. Anthony always in his mind, he would have let
out a yell for help. He staggered to her cabin-door,
and, as it was, his call for “Captain Anthony”
burst out of him much too loud; but he made a great
effort of self-control. “I am waiting for
my orders, sir,” he said outside that door distinctly,
in a steady tone.
It was very still in there; still
as death. Then he heard a shuffle of feet and
the captain’s voice “All right. Coming.”
He leaned his back against the bulkhead as you see
a drunken man sometimes propped up against a wall,
half doubled up. In that attitude the captain
found him, when he came out, pulling the door to after
him quickly. At once Anthony let his eyes run
all over the cabin. Powell, without a word, clutched
his forearm, led him round the end of the table and
began to justify himself. “I couldn’t
stop him,” he whispered shakily. “He
was too quick for me. He drank it up and fell
down.” But the captain was not listening.
He was looking down at Mr. Smith, thinking perhaps
that it was a mere chance his own body was not lying
there. They did not want to speak. They
made signs to each other with their eyes. The
captain grasped Powell’s shoulder as if in a
vice and glanced at Mrs. Anthony’s cabin door,
and it was enough. He knew that the young man
understood him. Rather! Silence!
Silence for ever about this. Their very glances
became stealthy. Powell looked from the body
to the door of the dead man’s state-room.
The captain nodded and let him go; and then Powell
crept over, hooked the door open and crept back with
fearful glances towards Mrs. Anthony’s cabin.
They stooped over the corpse. Captain Anthony
lifted up the shoulders.
Mr. Powell shuddered. “I’ll
never forget that interminable journey across the
saloon, step by step, holding our breath. For
part of the way the drawn half of the curtain concealed
us from view had Mrs. Anthony opened her door; but
I didn’t draw a free breath till after we laid
the body down on the swinging cot. The reflection
of the saloon light left most of the cabin in the
shadow. Mr. Smith’s rigid, extended body
looked shadowy too, shadowy and alive. You know
he always carried himself as stiff as a poker.
We stood by the cot as though waiting for him to make
us a sign that he wanted to be left alone. The
captain threw his arm over my shoulder and said in
my very ear: “The steward’ll find
him in the morning.”
“I made no answer. It
was for him to say. It was perhaps the best way.
It’s no use talking about my thoughts.
They were not concerned with myself, nor yet with
that old man who terrified me more now than when he
was alive. Him whom I pitied was the captain.
He whispered. “I am certain of you, Mr.
Powell. You had better go on deck now.
As to me . . . " and I saw him raise his hands to
his head as if distracted. But his last words
before we stole out that cabin stick to my mind with
the very tone of his mutter to himself,
not to me:
“No! No! I am not
going to stumble now over that corpse.”
“This is what our Mr. Powell
had to tell me,” said Marlow, changing his tone.
I was glad to learn that Flora de Barral had been
saved from that sinister shadow at least falling
upon her path.
We sat silent then, my mind running
on the end of de Barral, on the irresistible pressure
of imaginary griefs, crushing conscience, scruples,
prudence, under their ever-expanding volume; on the
sombre and venomous irony in the obsession which had
mastered that old man.
“Well,” I said.
“The steward found him,”
Mr. Powell roused himself. “He went in
there with a cup of tea at five and of course dropped
it. I was on watch again. He reeled up
to me on deck pale as death. I had been expecting
it; and yet I could hardly speak. “Go and
tell the captain quietly,” I managed to say.
He ran off muttering “My God! My God!”
and I’m hanged if he didn’t get hysterical
while trying to tell the captain, and start screaming
in the saloon, “Fully dressed! Dead!
Fully dressed!” Mrs. Anthony ran out of course
but she didn’t get hysterical. Franklin,
who was there too, told me that she hid her face on
the captain’s breast and then he went out and
left them there. It was days before Mrs. Anthony
was seen on deck. The first time I spoke to her
she gave me her hand and said, “My poor father
was quite fond of you, Mr. Powell.” She
started wiping her eyes and I fled to the other side
of the deck. One would like to forget all this
had ever come near her.”
But clearly he could not, because
after lighting his pipe he began musing aloud:
“Very strong stuff it must have been. I
wonder where he got it. It could hardly be at
a common chemist. Well, he had it from somewhere a
mere pinch it must have been, no more.”
“I have my theory,” observed
Marlow, “which to a certain extent does away
with the added horror of a coldly premeditated crime.
Chance had stepped in there too. It was not
Mr. Smith who obtained the poison. It was the
Great de Barral. And it was not meant for the
obscure, magnanimous conqueror of Flora de Barral;
it was meant for the notorious financier whose enterprises
had nothing to do with magnanimity. He had his
physician in his days of greatness. I even seem
to remember that the man was called at the trial on
some small point or other. I can imagine that
de Barral went to him when he saw, as he could hardly
help seeing, the possibility of a “triumph of
envious rivals” a heavy sentence.
I doubt if for love or even for money,
but I think possibly, from pity that man provided
him with what Mr. Powell called “strong stuff.”
From what Powell saw of the very act I am fairly
certain it must have been contained in a capsule and
that he had it about him on the last day of his trial,
perhaps secured by a stitch in his waistcoat pocket.
He didn’t use it. Why? Did he think
of his child at the last moment? Was it want
of courage? We can’t tell. But he
found it in his clothes when he came out of jail.
It had escaped investigation if there was any.
Chance had armed him. And chance alone, the chance
of Mr. Powell’s life, forced him to turn the
abominable weapon against himself.
I imparted my theory to Mr. Powell
who accepted it at once as, in a sense, favourable
to the father of Mrs. Anthony. Then he waved
his hand. “Don’t let us think of
it.”
I acquiesced and very soon he observed dreamily:
“I was with Captain and Mrs.
Anthony sailing all over the world for near on six
years. Almost as long as Franklin.”
“Oh yes! What about Franklin?” I
asked.
Powell smiled. “He left
the Ferndale a year or so afterwards, and I
took his place. Captain Anthony recommended him
for a command. You don’t think Captain
Anthony would chuck a man aside like an old glove.
But of course Mrs. Anthony did not like him very much.
I don’t think she ever let out a whisper against
him but Captain Anthony could read her thoughts.
And again Powell seemed to lose himself
in the past. I asked, for suddenly the vision
of the Fynes passed through my mind.
“Any children?”
Powell gave a start. “No!
No! Never had any children,” and again
subsided, puffing at his short briar pipe.
“Where are they now?”
I inquired next as if anxious to ascertain that all
Fyne’s fears had been misplaced and vain as our
fears often are; that there were no undesirable cousins
for his dear girls, no danger of intrusion on their
spotless home. Powell looked round at me slowly,
his pipe smouldering in his hand.
“Don’t you know?” he uttered in
a deep voice.
“Know what?”
“That the Ferndale was
lost this four years or more. Sunk. Collision.
And Captain Anthony went down with her.”
“You don’t say so!”
I cried quite affected as if I had known Captain Anthony
personally. “Was was Mrs. Anthony
lost too?”
“You might as well ask if I
was lost,” Mr. Powell rejoined so testily as
to surprise me. “You see me here, don’t
you.”
He was quite huffy, but noticing my
wondering stare he smoothed his ruffled plumes.
And in a musing tone.
“Yes. Good men go out
as if there was no use for them in the world.
It seems as if there were things that, as the Turks
say, are written. Or else fate has a try and
sometimes misses its mark. You remember that
close shave we had of being run down at night, I told
you of, my first voyage with them. This go it
was just at dawn. A flat calm and a fog thick
enough to slice with a knife. Only there were
no explosives on board. I was on deck and I
remember the cursed, murderous thing looming up alongside
and Captain Anthony (we were both on deck) calling
out, “Good God! What’s this!
Shout for all hands, Powell, to save themselves.
There’s no dynamite on board now. I am
going to get the wife! . . " I yelled, all the watch
on deck yelled. Crash!”
Mr. Powell gasped at the recollection.
“It was a Belgian Green Star liner, the Westland,”
he went on, “commanded by one of those stop-for-nothing
skippers. Flaherty was his name and I hope he
will die without absolution. She cut half through
the old Ferndale and after the blow there was
a silence like death. Next I heard the captain
back on deck shouting, “Set your engines slow
ahead,” and a howl of “Yes, yes,”
answering him from her forecastle; and then a whole
crowd of people up there began making a row in the
fog. They were throwing ropes down to us in
dozens, I must say. I and the captain fastened
one of them under Mrs. Anthony’s arms:
I remember she had a sort of dim smile on her face.”
“Haul up carefully,” I
shouted to the people on the steamer’s deck.
“You’ve got a woman on that line.”
The captain saw her landed up there
safe. And then we made a rush round our decks
to see no one was left behind. As we got back
the captain says: “Here she’s gone
at last, Powell; the dear old thing! Run down
at sea.”
“Indeed she is gone,”
I said. “But it might have been worse.
Shin up this rope, sir, for God’s sake.
I will steady it for you.”
“What are you thinking about,”
he says angrily. “It isn’t my turn.
Up with you.”
These were the last words he ever
spoke on earth I suppose. I knew he meant to
be the last to leave his ship, so I swarmed up as quick
as I could, and those damned lunatics up there grab
at me from above, lug me in, drag me along aft through
the row and the riot of the silliest excitement I
ever did see. Somebody hails from the bridge,
“Have you got them all on board?” and
a dozen silly asses start yelling all together, “All
saved! All saved,” and then that accursed
Irishman on the bridge, with me roaring No!
No! till I thought my head would burst, rings his
engines astern. He rings the engines astern I
fighting like mad to make myself heard! And
of course . . . "
I saw tears, a shower of them fall
down Mr. Powell’s face. His voice broke.
“The Ferndale went down
like a stone and Captain Anthony went down with her,
the finest man’s soul that ever left a sailor’s
body. I raved like a maniac, like a devil, with
a lot of fools crowding round me and asking, “Aren’t
you the captain?”
“I wasn’t fit to tie the
shoe-strings of the man you have drowned,” I
screamed at them . . . Well! Well!
I could see for myself that it was no good lowering
a boat. You couldn’t have seen her alongside.
No use. And only think, Marlow, it was I who
had to go and tell Mrs. Anthony. They had taken
her down below somewhere, first-class saloon.
I had to go and tell her! That Flaherty, God
forgive him, comes to me as white as a sheet, “I
think you are the proper person.” God forgive
him. I wished to die a hundred times.
A lot of kind ladies, passengers, were chattering
excitedly around Mrs. Anthony a real parrot
house. The ship’s doctor went before me.
He whispers right and left and then there falls a
sudden hush. Yes, I wished myself dead.
But Mrs. Anthony was a brick.
Here Mr. Powell fairly burst into
tears. “No one could help loving Captain
Anthony. I leave you to imagine what he was to
her. Yet before the week was out it was she
who was helping me to pull myself together.”
“Is Mrs. Anthony in England now?” I asked
after a while.
He wiped his eyes without any false
shame. “Oh yes.” He began to
look for matches, and while diving for the box under
the table added: “And not very far from
here either. That little village up there you
know.”
“No! Really! Oh I see!”
Mr. Powell smoked austerely, very
detached. But I could not let him off like this.
The sly beggar. So this was the secret of his
passion for sailing about the river, the reason of
his fondness for that creek.
“And I suppose,” I said,
“that you are still as ‘enthusiastic’
as ever. Eh? If I were you I would just
mention my enthusiasm to Mrs. Anthony. Why not?”
He caught his falling pipe neatly.
But if what the French call effarement was
ever expressed on a human countenance it was on this
occasion, testifying to his modesty, his sensibility
and his innocence. He looked afraid of somebody
overhearing my audacious almost sacrilegious
hint as if there had not been a mile and
a half of lonely marshland and dykes between us and
the nearest human habitation. And then perhaps
he remembered the soothing fact for he allowed a gleam
to light up his eyes, like the reflection of some
inward fire tended in the sanctuary of his heart by
a devotion as pure as that of any vestal.
It flashed and went out. He
smiled a bashful smile, sighed:
“Pah! Foolishness.
You ought to know better,” he said, more sad
than annoyed. “But I forgot that you never
knew Captain Anthony,” he added indulgently.
I reminded him that I knew Mrs. Anthony;
even before he an old friend now had
ever set eyes on her. And as he told me that
Mrs. Anthony had heard of our meetings I wondered
whether she would care to see me. Mr. Powell
volunteered no opinion then; but next time we lay in
the creek he said, “She will be very pleased.
You had better go to-day.”
The afternoon was well advanced before
I approached the cottage. The amenity of a fine
day in its decline surrounded me with a beneficent,
a calming influence; I felt it in the silence of the
shady lane, in the pure air, in the blue sky.
It is difficult to retain the memory of the conflicts,
miseries, temptations and crimes of men’s self-seeking
existence when one is alone with the charming serenity
of the unconscious nature. Breathing the dreamless
peace around the picturesque cottage I was approaching,
it seemed to me that it must reign everywhere, over
all the globe of water and land and in the hearts
of all the dwellers on this earth.
Flora came down to the garden gate
to meet me, no longer the perversely tempting, sorrowful,
wisp of white mist drifting in the complicated bad
dream of existence. Neither did she look like
a forsaken elf. I stammered out stupidly, “Again
in the country, Miss . . . Mrs . . . " She was
very good, returned the pressure of my hand, but we
were slightly embarrassed. Then we laughed a
little. Then we became grave.
I am no lover of day-breaks.
You know how thin, equivocal, is the light of the
dawn. But she was now her true self, she was
like a fine tranquil afternoon and not
so very far advanced either. A woman not much
over thirty, with a dazzling complexion and a little
colour, a lot of hair, a smooth brow, a fine chin,
and only the eyes of the Flora of the old days, absolutely
unchanged.
In the room into which she led me
we found a Miss Somebody I didn’t
catch the name, an unobtrusive, even an
indistinct, middle-aged person in black. A companion.
All very proper. She came and went and even
sat down at times in the room, but a little apart,
with some sewing. By the time she had brought
in a lighted lamp I had heard all the details which
really matter in this story. Between me and her
who was once Flora de Barral the conversation was
not likely to keep strictly to the weather.
The lamp had a rosy shade; and its
glow wreathed her in perpetual blushes, made her appear
wonderfully young as she sat before me in a deep,
high-backed arm-chair. I asked:
“Tell me what is it you said
in that famous letter which so upset Mrs. Fyne, and
caused little Fyne to interfere in this offensive manner?”
“It was simply crude,”
she said earnestly. “I was feeling reckless
and I wrote recklessly. I knew she would disapprove
and I wrote foolishly. It was the echo of her
own stupid talk. I said that I did not love her
brother but that I had no scruples whatever in marrying
him.”
She paused, hesitating, then with a shy half-laugh:
“I really believed I was selling
myself, Mr. Marlow. And I was proud of it.
What I suffered afterwards I couldn’t tell you;
because I only discovered my love for my poor Roderick
through agonies of rage and humiliation. I came
to suspect him of despising me; but I could not put
it to the test because of my father. Oh!
I would not have been too proud. But I had
to spare poor papa’s feelings. Roderick
was perfect, but I felt as though I were on the rack
and not allowed even to cry out. Papa’s
prejudice against Roderick was my greatest grief.
It was distracting. It frightened me.
Oh! I have been miserable! That night
when my poor father died suddenly I am certain they
had some sort of discussion, about me. But I
did not want to hold out any longer against my own
heart! I could not.”
She stopped short, then impulsively:
“Truth will out, Mr. Marlow.”
“Yes,” I said.
She went on musingly.
“Sorrow and happiness were mingled
at first like darkness and light. For months
I lived in a dusk of feelings. But it was quiet.
It was warm . . . "
Again she paused, then going back
in her thoughts. “No! There was no
harm in that letter. It was simply foolish.
What did I know of life then? Nothing.
But Mrs. Fyne ought to have known better. She
wrote a letter to her brother, a little later.
Years afterwards Roderick allowed me to glance at
it. I found in it this sentence: ’For
years I tried to make a friend of that girl; but I
warn you once more that she has the nature of a heartless
adventuress . . . ’ Adventuress!” repeated
Flora slowly. “So be it. I have
had a fine adventure.”
“It was fine, then,” I said interested.
“The finest in the world!
Only think! I loved and I was loved, untroubled,
at peace, without remorse, without fear. All
the world, all life were transformed for me.
And how much I have seen! How good people were
to me! Roderick was so much liked everywhere.
Yes, I have known kindness and safety. The
most familiar things appeared lighted up with a new
light, clothed with a loveliness I had never suspected.
The sea itself! . . . You are a sailor.
You have lived your life on it. But do you
know how beautiful it is, how strong, how charming,
how friendly, how mighty . . . "
I listened amazed and touched. She was silent
only a little while.
“It was too good to last.
But nothing can rob me of it now . . . Don’t
think that I repine. I am not even sad now.
Yes, I have been happy. But I remember also
the time when I was unhappy beyond endurance, beyond
desperation. Yes. You remember that.
And later on, too. There was a time on board
the Ferndale when the only moments of relief
I knew were when I made Mr. Powell talk to me a little
on the poop. You like him? Don’t
you?”
“Excellent fellow,” I said warmly.
“You see him often?”
“Of course. I hardly know
another soul in the world. I am alone.
And he has plenty of time on his hands. His
aunt died a few years ago. He’s doing
nothing, I believe.”
“He is fond of the sea,” I remarked.
“He loves it.”
“He seems to have given it up,” she murmured.
“I wonder why?”
She remained silent. “Perhaps
it is because he loves something else better,”
I went on. “Come, Mrs. Anthony, don’t
let me carry away from here the idea that you are
a selfish person, hugging the memory of your past
happiness, like a rich man his treasure, forgetting
the poor at the gate.”
I rose to go, for it was getting late.
She got up in some agitation and went out with me
into the fragrant darkness of the garden. She
detained my hand for a moment and then in the very
voice of the Flora of old days, with the exact intonation,
showing the old mistrust, the old doubt of herself,
the old scar of the blow received in childhood, pathetic
and funny, she murmured, “Do you think it possible
that he should care for me?”
“Just ask him yourself. You are brave.”
“Oh, I am brave enough,” she said with
a sigh.
“Then do. For if you don’t
you will be wronging that patient man cruelly.”
I departed leaving her dumb.
Next day, seeing Powell making preparations to go
ashore, I asked him to give my regards to Mrs. Anthony.
He promised he would.
“Listen, Powell,” I said.
“We got to know each other by chance?”
“Oh, quite!” he admitted, adjusting his
hat.
“And the science of life consists
in seizing every chance that presents itself,”
I pursued. “Do you believe that?”
“Gospel truth,” he declared innocently.
“Well, don’t forget it.”
“Oh, I! I don’t
expect now anything to present itself,” he said,
jumping ashore.
He didn’t turn up at high water.
I set my sail and just as I had cast off from the
bank, round the black barn, in the dusk, two figures
appeared and stood silent, indistinct.
“Is that you, Powell?” I hailed.
“And Mrs. Anthony,” his
voice came impressively through the silence of the
great marsh. “I am not sailing to-night.
I have to see Mrs. Anthony home.”
“Then I must even go alone,” I cried.
Flora’s voice wished me “bon
voyage” in a most friendly but tremulous
tone.
“You shall hear from me before
long,” shouted Powell, suddenly, just as my
boat had cleared the mouth of the creek.
“This was yesterday,”
added Marlow, lolling in the arm-chair lazily.
“I haven’t heard yet; but I expect to
hear any moment . . . What on earth are you
grinning at in this sarcastic manner? I am not
afraid of going to church with a friend. Hang
it all, for all my belief in Chance I am not exactly
a pagan . . . "