“Yes, my friends,”
he used to say to his guests, “what would you
have? A youth of seventeen summers, without worldly
experience, and owing my rank only to the glorious
patriotism of my father, may God rest his soul, I
suffered immense humiliation, not so much from the
disobedience of That subordinate, who, alter all,
was responsible for those prisoners; but I suffered
because, like the boy I was, I myself dreaded going
to the adjutant for the key. I had felt, before,
his rough and cutting tongue. Being quite a common
fellow, with no merit except his savage valour, he
made me feel his contempt and dislike from the first
day I joined my battalion in garrison at the fort.
It was only a fortnight before! I would have
confronted him sword in hand, but I shrank from the
mocking brutality of his sneers.
“I don’t remember having
been so miserable in my life before or since.
The torment of my sensibility was so great that I wished
the sergeant to fall dead at my feet, and the stupid
soldiers who stared at me to turn into corpses; and
even those wretches for whom my entreaties had procured
a reprieve I wished dead also, because I could not
face them without shame. A mephitic heat like
a whiff of air from hell came out of that dark place
in which they were confined. Those at the window
who heard what was going on jeered at me in very desperation;
one of these fellows, gone mad no doubt, kept on urging
me volubly to order the soldiers to fire through the
window. His insane loquacity made my heart turn
faint. And my feet were like lead. There
was no higher officer to whom I could appeal.
I had not even the firmness of spirit to simply go
away.
“Benumbed by my remorse, I stood
with my back to the window. You must not suppose
that all this lasted a long time. How long could
it have been? A minute? If you measured
by mental suffering it was like a hundred years; a
longer time than all my life has been since. No,
certainly, it was not so much as a minute. The
hoarse screaming of those miserable wretches died
out in their dry throats, and then suddenly a voice
spoke, a deep voice muttering calmly. It called
upon me to turn round.
“That voice, senores, proceeded
from the head of Gaspar Ruiz. Of his body I could
see nothing. Some of his fellow-captives had clambered
upon his back. He was holding them up. His
eyes blinked without looking at me. That and
the moving of his lips was all he seemed able to manage
in his overloaded state. And when I turned round,
this head, that seemed more than human size resting
on its chin under a multitude of other heads, asked
me whether I really desired to quench the thirst of
the captives.
“I said, ‘Yes, yes!’
eagerly, and came up quite close to the window.
I was like a child, and did not know what would happen.
I was anxious to be comforted in my helplessness and
remorse.
“’Have you the authority,
senor teniente, to release my wrists from
their bonds?’ Gaspar Ruiz’s head asked
me.
“His features expressed no anxiety,
no hope; his heavy eyelids blinked upon his eyes that
looked past me straight into the courtyard.
“As if in an ugly dream, I spoke,
stammering: ’What do you mean? And
how can I reach the bonds on your wrists?’
“‘I will try what I can
do,’ he said; and then that large staring head
moved at last, and all the wild faces piled up in that
window disappeared, tumbling down. He had shaken
his load off with one movement, so strong he was.
“And he had not only shaken
it off, but he got free of the crush and vanished
from my sight. For a moment there was no one at
all to be seen at the window. He had swung about,
butting and shouldering, clearing a space for himself
in the only way he could do it with his hands tied
behind his back.
“Finally, backing to the opening,
he pushed out to me between the bars his wrists, lashed
with many turns of rope. His hands, very swollen,
with knotted veins, looked enormous and unwieldy.
I saw his bent back. It was very broad.
His voice was like the muttering of a bull.
“Cut, senor teniente! Cut!’
“I drew my sword, my new unblunted
sword that had seen no service as yet, and severed
the many turns of the hide rope. I did this without
knowing the why and the wherefore of my action, but
as it were compelled by my faith in that man.
The sergeant made as if to cry out, but astonishment
deprived him of his voice, and he remained standing
with his mouth open as if overtaken by sudden imbecility.
“I sheathed my sword and faced
the soldiers. An air of awestruck expectation
had replaced their usual listless apathy. I heard
the voice of Gaspar Ruiz shouting inside, but the
words I could not make out plainly. I suppose
that to see him with his arms free augmented the influence
of his strength: I mean by this, the spiritual
influence that with ignorant people attaches to an
exceptional degree of bodily vigour. In fact,
he was no more to be feared than before, on account
of the numbness of his arms and hands, which lasted
for some time.
“The sergeant had recovered
his power of speech. ‘By all the saints!’
he cried, ’we shall have to get a cavalry man
with a lasso to secure him again, if he is to be led
to the place of execution. Nothing less than a
good enlazador on a good horse can subdue him.
Your worship was pleased to perform a very mad thing.’
“I had nothing to say.
I was surprised myself, and I felt a childish curiosity
to see what would happen. But the sergeant was
thinking of the difficulty of controlling Gaspar Ruiz
when the time for making an example would come.
“‘Or perhaps,’ the
sergeant pursued vexedly, ’we shall be obliged
to shoot him down as he dashes out when the door is
opened.’ He was going to give further vent
to his anxieties as to the proper carrying out of
the sentence; but he interrupted himself with a sudden
exclamation, snatched a musket from a soldier, and
stood watchful with his eyes fixed on the window.’”