What was Alice Lister doing on the
night when Tom prayed? If it had been a night
of wonder to Tom, it had been a night of decision to
Alice Lister, who had to face another crisis in her
life. While Tom had been offering his almost
inarticulate prayer in the trenches in the Ypres salient,
Alice Lister sat alone in her bedroom.
More than a year had passed since
the Sunday afternoon when she had told Tom that he
must make his choice between her and the life he seemed
determined to lead. What it had cost her to do
this I will not try to describe, for Alice had truly
cared for Tom. It was true that he did not quite
belong to her class, and it was also true that her
parents had done their best to dissuade her from thinking
about him; but Alice had been fond of Tom: something,
she knew not what, had drawn her heart towards him.
She had believed in him too; believed that he was
possessed of noble qualities which only she understood.
Then as she saw Tom drifting, she knew that her decisive
step must be taken, and she had taken it.
Afterwards, when she was told how
Tom had risen in the great crowd at the hall in the
Mechanics’ Institute, and had gone up to the
platform and volunteered for active service, her heart
had thrilled strangely. She did not understand
much about the war, but she felt that Tom had done
a noble thing. In spite of the fact, too, that
he had left her to walk out with Polly Powell, she
had a sense of possession; it seemed to her that Tom
belonged to her more than to this highly coloured buxom
girl who had taken him from her.
Then something happened which set
the people at the church she attended talking freely.
The young minister was a bachelor, and it was evident
he was enamoured with Alice; he paid her marked attention,
and eagerly sought to be in her company.
“That’s something like,”
said many of Alice’s friends; “Alice will
make a splendid minister’s wife.”
But when at length Mr. Skelton proposed
to Alice, she had no difficulty in answering him.
He could offer her a far better position than Tom
dreamed of; the work she would have to do as a minister’s
wife, too, would be thoroughly in accord with her
tastes and desires. But Alice cared nothing
for Mr. Skelton. Her heart was sad when she saw
how pale he looked at her refusal, but she had no
hesitation.
The problem which faced her now, however,
was not so easy to settle. Young Harry Briarfield
was not a comparative stranger like Mr. Skelton; she
had known him all her life, they had been brought up
together in the same town, they had gone to Sunday
School together, they had sung duets together at concerts,
and although she had never looked at Harry in the
light of a lover she had always been fond of him.
Harry was in a good position too;
his father was a manufacturer in a fairly large way,
and he had just been admitted as a partner into the
business. He was twenty-four years of age now,
was highly respected throughout the town, and was
looked upon as one who in a few years would hold his
head high among commercial men.
During the last few weeks Harry had
come often to Mr. Lister’s house, ostensibly
to talk about business, but really to see Alice.
Mr. and Mrs. Lister had nudged each
other and smiled at Harry’s frequent visits.
“I knew our Alice would do the
right thing,” said Mr. Lister to his wife; “for
a time she went silly about that Pollard boy, but she
threw him over of her own accord. Harry’s
a nice lad, and he’s making a tidy bit of brass,
while George Briarfield has about made his pile.
In two or three years Harry will have the business
entirely in his own hands, and then there will not
be a better chance in Brunford for her.”
Mrs. Lister sighed.
“I don’t think our Alice
has forgotten Tom Pollard, though,” she replied.
“Nonsense,” replied her
husband, “what is the good of her thinking about
Tom? I thought he would have done well at one
time, and if he hadn’t taken up with that Polly
Powell lot he might have got on; but he did, and then
he went for a soldier. What is the good of our
Alice thinking about him? Even if the war were
to finish next week and Tom were to come back, it
would take him years, even if he had good luck, to
make five pound a week, while Harry’s making
a thousand a year if he’s making a penny.”
“Ay, I know,” replied
Mrs. Lister, “but you can never judge a lass’s
heart. You know how it was wi’ us, George;
at the very time you asked me to be your wife you
were only making thirty-three shillings a week, and
William Pott was making hundreds a year. He was
a far better chance nor you, George, and people said
I was a fool for not taking him; but I couldn’t.”
“That was a different thing,”
said George Lister hastily, “that Pollard boy
went wrong. Besides, we need not think about
that now; Alice gave him up, and very likely he will
be killed.”
On the night when Tom was alone in
the trenches, Harry Briarfield made his way to Mr.
Lister’s house, and it was not long before Alice
and he were left alone together. Harry had made
up his mind to make his proposal that night, and he
had but little doubt as to the result.
“Look here, Alice,” he
said presently, “I want to say something to you,
something very particular. You must have seen
for a long time how fond I am of you, and perhaps
you have wondered why I haven’t spoken.
I wanted to badly enough, but I waited until father
took me into partnership. You see,” he
went on, “at the beginning of the war things
were going bad with us; there was a boom in the cotton
trade about a year ago, but when the war broke out
there was a regular slump, and we thought we were
going to be ruined. Now, however, things are
going very well again. We have got some war
contracts, and we are making money.”
Alice’s heart beat wildly, although
by an effort she appeared calm.
“I wonder you have not joined
the Army, Harry,” she said; “every day
there’s a call for more men.”
“Not if I know it,” replied
Harry. “At one time I did think of trying
for a commission, but that would have been foolish:
you see I might not have been able to have got it,
and of course a man in my position could not go as
a Tommy.”
“Why not?” asked Alice
quickly. “I am told that lots of men of
every order join as privates.”
“No, thank you,” replied
Harry, with a laugh. “I know one chap who
did that; Edgar Burton. Do you know him?
He joined at the beginning of the war, but he quickly
got sick of it. He said the life was terrible;
he described to me how he had to wash up dishes, and
scrub the floors of his barracks, and how he had to
be pals with a lot of chaps who didn’t know
the decencies of life. Besides, think of me on
a shilling a day!”
“Still, if your country needs you?” suggested
Alice.
“I am doing more important work
at home,” replied Harry; “they could not
do without me at the mill. It’s all very
well for boys like Tom Pollard, who used to be so
fond of you, but for people like me it’s different.”
There was a silence for a few minutes,
and then Harry went on again:
“Alice, you know how fond I
am of you in fact, I have loved you all
my life. You will marry me, won’t you?”
Harry was very disappointed, and not
a little surprised, that Alice did not answer in the
affirmative right away; but he had conceded with fairly
good grace when she had asked for a few days to think
about it.
“It is all right,” said
Harry to himself as he left the house that night,
“I am sure she means yes. And she’s
a fine lass, the finest in Brunford.”
That was why Alice sat alone that
night thinking. She had promised to give Harry
her definite reply in three days’ time, and although
she was very fond of him she could not bring herself
to give him the answer he desired. When he had
left the house her father and mother had come into
the room.
“Well, Alice, have you fixed it up?”
She shook her head, but didn’t speak.
“Come now, lass, you needn’t
be so shy. I know he’s asked you to wed
him; he asked for my permission like a man, and then
he told me he was going to speak to you to-night.
You can’t do better, my dear. Have you
fixed it all up?”
“No,” she said.
“What!” cried the father,
“you don’t mean to say you have been such
a fool as to say no!”
“I have said nothing as yet,” was her
answer.
George Lister heaved a sigh of relief.
“Ay, well,” he said, “it’s
perhaps a good thing not to say yes at once.
Hold him back two or three days and it will make him
all the more eager. When a man comes to me to
buy cloth I never shows as ’ow I am eager to
sell. But of course you will take him?”
“I don’t know,” replied Alice.
“Don’t know! Why don’t you
know? You like him, don’t you?”
“I don’t know, father,”
she replied, and then she rushed out of the room.
“What’s the meaning of
this, lass?” said George Lister to his wife.
“Has she told you anything?”
“Not a word,” said Mrs. Lister.
“But surely she can’t
be such a fool as to refuse Harry! Why, there
isn’t a better chap in Brunford! He’s
an only son, and his father’s brass will go
to him when he dies.”
But Mrs. Lister did not speak a word;
in her eyes was a far-away look, as though she saw
something which her husband did not see.
As for Alice, she sat for a long time
thinking in silence.
Harry’s words still rang in
her ears; the memory of the look on his face as he
left her still remained. Still she could not
make up her mind. Yes, she liked Harry, in a
way she admired him. He was a teacher in the
Sunday School, he was a good business man, he was
clever, and he was respected in the town; and yet she
hesitated.
Hour after hour passed away, and still
she could not make up her mind. In spite of Harry
Briarfield’s words she had not forgotten the
lad from whom she had parted months before.
Why was it? She thought she had forgotten him.
He had been unworthy of her; he had taken up with
a girl whom she despised, a coarse, vulgar girl, and
she had heard since that Polly Powell had been walking
out with a number of young men. And Tom had
preferred this kind of creature to her love.
Her pride had been wounded, her self-respect had been
shocked, and yet even now, while she was thinking
of Harry Briarfield’s proposal, her mind reverted
to the boy who had gone away as a soldier.
The Town Hall clock boomed out the
hour of midnight. Alice found herself mechanically
counting the strokes of the deep-toned bell.
Then she fell on her knees beside the bed, but the
prayer which she had been wont to pray did not come
to her lips. Her thoughts were far away; she
pictured a distant battlefield; she imagined the boom
of guns; she heard the clash of bayonets; she thought
she heard the cries of wounded men, too; then a prayer
involuntarily came to her lips:
“O God, save him! O God, help him and
protect him!”
Thus it came to pass at the time Tom
Pollard tried for the first time in many months to
pray, and to formulate his distracted thoughts, Alice
Lister was kneeling by her bedside also trying to pray.