On a sunny afternoon in March of the
following year, Toni Rose sat alone on the slope of
an Italian hill-side overlooking the blue Mediterranean,
which lay stretched beneath her like a sheet of living
turquoise.
The air was delightfully warm and
still, and scented with the fresh breath of myriads
of violets which dotted the short, soft turf here and
there like a multitude of tiny purple stars. Everywhere
the almond blossom was in its full beauty of rose
and cream, and the sight of an orchard away on the
hill-side, with the faint blue sky above the pink-and-white
branches, and the bluer sea behind, gave to the beholder
the effect of a delicate Japanese water-colour painting.
The Bay of Naples fully deserved its
world-wide reputation for beauty on this bright spring
afternoon. Across its waters rose hill upon hill,
the sombre giant Vesuvius brooding like some dark
monster over the ruined countryside at its base, the
lovelier, more hopeful snow-crowned peaks behind rising
like a fairy army beneath whose beneficent gaze the
ogre was for the time vanquished
and impotent.
The bay was full of craft, as usual.
Big liners, tramp steamers, a grey battleship or two,
looked scornfully down on the little Italian boats,
some piled high with yellow fruit, others less imposing,
little pleasure craft manned by youthful boatmen with
swarthy brown faces and ears ornamented with huge
golden rings.
Land and sea alike smiled in the glorious
sunshine. It was a day on which life seemed a
very sweet and desirable opportunity; but in Toni’s
face there was no hint of gladness, none of her former
almost pagan delight in the beautiful out-of-door
world around her.
Although her skin was delicately warmed
and coloured by the genial Southern sun, the becoming
tan could not hide the thinness of the once rounded
cheeks, nor disguise the hopeless droop of the lips
which had been used to smile so readily. Toni
looked, indeed, the ghost of her former self as she
sat gazing out over the Mediterranean; and it was
very evident that whatever had been the result of her
flight to those she had left behind, her own happiness
had suffered a disastrous eclipse.
After all, her disappearance had been
easily arranged. On that foggy night when she
had fled from Leonard Dowson, terrified by the spectre
of a future life which his words had evoked, she had
run, without in the least realizing her direction,
straight to the railway station; and the idea of London
had at once presented itself to her mind. A train
was just starting, and Toni hastily took a ticket
and jumped into a carriage without giving herself
time to think.
Arriving at the terminus she had a
momentary indecision as to her next step. As
she stood on the platform she felt herself to be desperately,
hopelessly alone; and for one wild moment she wondered
how Owen would receive her if she went back and flung
herself on his mercy.
But something in her, perhaps the
sturdy, independent blood of her Yorkshire ancestors,
seemed to forbid such a course. She could not
return, creep back to the shelter of the home she had
abandoned; and even Toni’s youthful optimism
could not promise her a very hearty welcome when the
truth of her flight should be known.
If only she had gone alone ... if
there had been no man in the case to complicate matters
and compromise the situation in that first
moment of despair Toni hated Leonard Dowson, loathed
herself for imagining it would be possible to go away
with him; and at the same time realized that whatever
happened she would find it almost impossible to explain
the man’s introduction into the affair in any
way save that which, were the story known, would be
taken, perhaps naturally, for granted.
Suddenly the thought of Italy flashed
into her brain, and with the thought came instant
resolution.
She had still twelve pounds in her
purse more than enough to take her to Naples;
and once there she could surely discover some friend
of the bygone days to whom she might apply for advice
as to her future maintenance.
In Italy she could live frugally,
as the peasants lived; and all at once Toni felt a
great nostalgia for the glowing South, with its sunshine
and hot blue skies, its orange-groves, its languorous
noons and warm, scented nights.
The Italian blood in her the
blood transmitted to her by her mother, spoke in its
turn; and suddenly Toni felt that in that land of warmth
and colour she could find the rest and peace for which
her sorely-driven soul cried out....
And then the miracle happened.
Later that evening she was standing
on the platform of another great station, waiting
her turn to approach the booking-office where she might
obtain her ticket to Italy and home when
a wail in a thin foreign voice fell upon her ear,
and she turned round to face a dark and agitated-looking
young woman, neatly dressed, who was bewailing herself
in the fluent Italian of the lower classes.
“What is it? Can I help you?”
Toni spoke impulsively, sorry for
the young woman even in the midst of her own numbing
grief; and the other turned round in astonishment at
hearing her own tongue.
“Oh, Signorina!” She evidently
took Toni for a compatriot. “Such a misfortune
has overcome me I do not know what is to
be done. I am here with my charges” two
sleepy-looking English children stood yawning beside
her “on the way to Naples, and behold,
the English Signora the governess, you
understand who was to have come with us
to deliver the children safely to their parents is
at the last moment unable to come.”
“But why can’t she come?”
“Non lo so!” The
woman shrugged her shoulders. “She sends
me but a telegram to the waiting-room an
accident, illness I know not but
she does not come, and I must go alone with the two
little ones, who are both delicate and will be ill
the whole journey through!”
A wild inspiration flashed into Toni’s mind.
“You go to Naples?” she
said. “I too wish to go, but hardly care
to undertake the journey alone. May I then come
with you and help you with the little ones?”
The Italian’s quick mind grasped
the idea at once; and she foresaw with delighted gratitude
that the journey might be shorn of half its terrors
if the plan were carried out.
She poured forth a stream of voluble
explanations. She had already taken the tickets
for the party; and she was certain that her employer,
a wealthy English lady, would be only too grateful
if the Signorina would accept the fare in return for
her help in the matter. A carriage had been reserved
for the party, and the whole journey might be taken
in complete comfort and security, since this so fortunate
meeting with a compatriot.
To Toni the idea came as a veritable
boon. In her turn, she saw all the personal benefits
of the plan; and, after all, since she could be of
real, practical assistance, she saw no reason why she
should scruple to avail herself of the Italian nurse’s
offer.
Five minutes later the affair was
arranged. The foreigner, Luisa by name, was at
first incredulous on hearing of her new comrade’s
mixed nationality, but she readily accepted such explanations
as Toni gave her, and was quick to recognize the value
of Toni’s perfect English at the present juncture.
Toni’s lack of luggage puzzled
her a little, but Toni murmured something about a
lost dressing-bag which satisfied the other woman;
and when the long train steamed out of the station
at last Toni was comfortably ensconced in a reserved
first-class compartment, making friends with the two
little girls with whom she was to travel.
This fact explains the non-success
of all inquiries at the railway stations, or, later,
on the boat. The authorities were on the look-out
for a young Englishwoman journeying alone; and never
associated the young Italian lady travelling, apparently,
with her two children and a nurse, with the solitary
girl for whom they searched.
Toni’s fur coat was by no means
a unique garment. There were plenty to be seen
at this time of year; and in any case the girl, protected
by her unassailable bodyguard, was able to pass under
the eyes of the very men who were anxiously on the
look-out for her.
The journey to which Luisa had looked
forward with such apprehension passed off well enough.
Toni was obliged to rouse herself from her own dejection
to look after the children, who were both delicate
and spoilt; but luckily they took an instant fancy
to the travelling companion so strangely provided,
and behaved with commendable good-temper throughout.
When at length the train ran into
the railway station at Naples, Toni suddenly found
herself faced with another problem. The nurse
had taken her on trust, so to speak, and had been
too grateful for her help to seek to probe into her
private affairs; but now that she must face the mother
of the pretty children, to whom she had become quite
attached, Toni realized that she would have to give
some more plausible explanation of her situation than
that which had contented the impetuous Luisa.
She got out of the carriage at last,
her arms full of the children’s wraps and toys,
with knees which shook under her at the thought of
the ordeal to come; but one quick look into Mrs. Moody’s
frank and kindly face reassured her a little.
She soon found, moreover, that the
lady was as ready to take her on trust as the maid
had been. When she had heard Luisa’s voluble
explanation of the part Toni had played during the
long and wearying journey, Mrs. Moody turned to Toni
with an expression of real gratitude on her still
pretty face.
“I really don’t know how
to thank you, Miss ... er ...” She hesitated,
and Toni quickly supplied her with the first name she
could think of, the name of her Italian mother’s
race. “Oh, but surely you are English?”
In her agitation Toni murmured something
about an Italian father, not meaning to deceive, but
too tired out and confused to pay much heed to her
words; and Mrs. Moody put her hand kindly on the girl’s
arm.
“Well, English or not, you’ve
been a god-send to Luisa and the chicks; so if you
have no friends waiting for you at this moment, you
must come home with me and let my husband thank you
properly.”
Somehow Toni found herself stepping
into the beautifully-appointed motor-car which waited
outside the station; and ten minutes later she was
helped out of the motor and taken up a broad and palatial-looking
staircase to the large and lofty flat inhabited by
her new friends.
Friends indeed they proved to be.
Without the slightest hesitation they accepted Toni’s
rather faltering story of an engagement in England
which had proved unsatisfactory; and on learning that
her intention in returning to Italy had been to look
for another post, they looked at one another in a
meaning silence which was explained later, when Mrs.
Moody asked her quietly if she would care to undertake
the post of governess-companion to the two small children
with whom she was already on terms of friendship.
For a moment Toni hesitated.
To stay on here, deceiving her employers, representing
herself, falsely, as an unmarried woman, would be a
poor return for their kindness and generosity; but
to tell the truth was surely impossible. Yet
she could not bring herself to shut the door which
would open to her a new and honourable life in which
she might find, if not happiness, at least content;
and poor Toni was torn between conflicting emotions
as she stood listening to her new friend’s proposals.
Mrs. Moody, reading her indecision
in her face, bade her think the matter over for a
week while she remained with them as an honoured guest;
and Toni did so, coming at last to the conclusion that,
much as she longed to accept the post, to do so would
not be fair to her prospective employers.
She refused, therefore, but with so
genuine a regret that the refusal could not give offence.
The Moodys, however, while recognizing the girl’s
claim to independence of judgment, in their turn asserted
their claim to befriend her, and Toni was only too
ready to accept their advice and assistance.
Hearing that it was of importance
that she should set about making some money without
delay, Mr. Moody secured for her a post as assistant-librarian
and secretary in a big library belonging to an Italian
friend of his own.
It was something of an irony that
Toni’s work should take her into an atmosphere
that could not fail to remind her of her husband and
his literary aspirations; and her heart used to contract
pitifully within her sometimes when she entered the
big, lofty, book-lined room, which was not unlike
the stately library in the beautiful old house by the
river where her married life had come to so tragic
a close.
She owed the post to her proficiency
in Italian and English rather than to any scholarly
ability. To the end of her life Toni would never
be bookish. She would always prefer living to
reading about life; and it was fortunate that her
work in this new library consisted largely of translating,
roughly, from books in Italian and English, or in typing,
from dictation, in either language.
She grew to like her employment in
the quiet, mediaeval-looking room. Her employer,
a gentle, sad-eyed elderly man with an invalid daughter,
treated her with the utmost kindness; and if it had
not been that every fibre in her being cried out incessantly
for Owen, she might in time have been content.
Her first friends, the Moodys, had
settled her in rooms with an old servant of their
own who had married a little Italian bookseller, and
were unremitting in their kindness to her; but Toni
desired only to be alone in her leisure hours and
refused many of the invitations which Mrs. Moody sent
her from time to time.
So the days passed, quietly and tranquilly
enough; and though to Toni it seemed that all the
joy, all the happiness had fled from life, that the
“sweet things” had lost their sweetness,
the sunshine its glory, the flowers their perfume,
she was not ungrateful for the peace which had come
to her so unexpectedly.
Of her husband, of Greenriver, she
never dared to think. She guessed, drearily,
that Owen would feel bound, in humanity, to institute
a search for his missing wife; but by a fortunate
chance she had been able to cover her tracks and disappear
effectually; and as the weeks glided by, and discovery
was apparently as far off as ever, she began to feel,
with a miserable certainty, that in time her husband
would relinquish the search, and settle down to forget
the frivolous, uneducated girl who had not known how
to appreciate the honour he had done her in making
her his wife.
To-day, this glorious spring day when
the violet-scented air held a hint of summer’s
warmth in its breath, Toni was making holiday.
Her employer was from home, called
to London by the hint of a wonderful book sale to
be held there the following week; and Toni’s
time was her own for nearly eight days.
She had started early that morning
on a pilgrimage to the little village where, long
ago, she had passed the first happy years of her life;
and had arrived, before noon, to find, as she had
half-expected, that none of her old friends remained
to give her welcome.
Old Fiammetta was dead, as was, of
course, the kindly Padre who had befriended Roger
Gibbs when the young widower had decided to stay on,
with his little daughter, in the home which his Antonia
had made so joyous. A few of the children with
whom she had played lived here still, but they had
grown into sturdy, swarthy young men and women who
had long since forgotten the dark-eyed child whose
Italian had been as fluent as their own; and though
she wandered disconsolately through the straggling
little village, she met with no single glance of recognition.
She did not know that some months
previously urgent inquiries had been made at the tiny
post-office as to whether a young lady had arrived
in the village unexpectedly. It had struck Owen
as possible that, in her madness, Toni might have
returned to her childhood’s home; but although,
had she not met Luisa, Toni would probably have done
so, that chance meeting at the station had turned
her feet into another path, and naturally no one here
knew anything of her whereabouts.
She had intended spending the whole
of her holiday in the village; but the absence of
any welcome depressed her sensitive spirit, and she
decided to return to Naples in the evening and spend
the days of her freedom in exploring more thoroughly
the fascinating streets and byways of the picturesque
and romantic town.
It was late when she arrived home,
carrying her little valise; and old Janet, who in
spite of her long residence in Italy was still uncompromisingly
British, was surprised to see her lodger returning.
“I thought you were going to
stay a few days,” she said quite reproachfully.
“Now a real good change would have been the very
best thing for you, miss, and I’m right sorry
to see you back.”
“You’re not very kind,
Janet!” Toni smiled rather wearily, “I
couldn’t stay ... all my friends were dead and
gone ... there were only ghosts left to welcome me,
and I couldn’t bear it!”
The old woman read the disappointment
in the girl’s tone and was sorry for her.
“Well, come along in, miss,
and I’ll bring you some supper right away.
There’s an omelette, and some lovely risotto
I’m making for Pietro, and a glass or two of
Chianti will soon hearten you up though
for my part I think a bottle of good English stout
is worth all the thin wines in Italy!”
When, later, she bustled in again
with some excellent coffee, the old woman brought
a bundle of papers which had been left by Mrs. Moody
earlier in the day. There were various English
and American magazines, and a few weekly papers; and
had doubtless been intended to lighten the loneliness
of Toni’s holiday.
She sat sipping her coffee and turning
the pages rather listlessly. Somehow reading
appealed to her less than ever nowadays. She was
always so fully occupied with her own miserable thoughts,
that the imaginative writings of other people could
claim small share of her interest; but she dipped
into the magazines as she sat alone, and tried to forget
herself for an hour in the perusal of their pages.
Among the papers was a copy of the
Daily Telegraph, sent to Mrs. Moody occasionally
by a sister in London; and Toni was idly turning the
clumsy sheets when a name she knew attracted her attention.
She scanned the paragraph hurriedly
a little pulse beating in her temple as she read.
“We learn on good authority that
the famous portrait-painter Mr. James Herrick,
better known as Mr. Herrick Vyse, has accepted a commission
to paint the two beautiful daughters of Lord and Lady
Tregarthen at their historic home in Cornwall.
The young subjects, who are twins, are only nine
years of age, but are ranked among the loveliest
of England’s many beautiful children, and doubtless
the artist will do their childish beauty full
justice. Mr. Herrick has already left his
picturesque bungalow on the Thames for Tregarthen
House, where he will be the guest of Lord and
Lady Tregarthen during the painting of the portrait.”
The paper fell from Toni’s hands
and the light of a great inspiration flashed into
her face.
Lately she had longed, with ever-increasing
intensity, for some authentic news of Owen. She
felt she would give all she had in the world to hear
that he was well, that her flight had not ruined his
life; but she had no means of finding out anything
without running the risk of giving away the secret
of her own hiding-place.
She had sometimes thought of writing
to Eva Herrick, binding her to the strictest secrecy,
and imploring her, for the sake of their old friendship,
to give her the information she craved. But there
were so many drawbacks to the plan. Her letter
might easily fall into Herrick’s hands, and
though the contents would be sacred to him, the Italian
postmark would be enough to betray her whereabouts.
But now, during Herrick’s absence,
she might surely risk sending Eva a letter. She
felt pretty certain that Mrs. Herrick would not give
away her secret. By this time Toni was quite
able to appreciate the part Eva Herrick had played
in her unfortunate escapade; and she realised, very
plainly, that Eva’s unhappy desire to ruin other
lives as hers had been ruined, had been at the bottom
of her eager sympathy and pretended help.
Even now Eva would doubtless seek
to prevent any real reconciliation between husband
and wife; and in any case Toni felt that she must take
the risk; she must have news, hear how Owen had taken
her flight; and surely Eva would not refuse to answer
her letter.
She wrote it there and then.
It was very short, only a few lines imploring the
recipient to give her all news of Owen, while keeping
the secret of the writer’s hiding place.
Of herself Toni merely stated that she was at work
and content; but the few scribbled lines breathed a
spirit of misery, of supplication which would surely
melt even the hardest heart.
Having signed her name, and seen that
the address at the top of the sheet was correct, Toni
hastily procured an envelope, thrust in the fateful
letter, and immediately slipped out of the house to
post it.
Up to this moment she had acted impulsively,
without giving herself time to think, with possibly
a lurking fear at the back of her mind that if she
stopped to consider she would tear up the letter instead
of posting it. But when once it had left her
hand, when she had heard the thud it made in falling
into the almost empty box, a great terror seized Toni,
and she stood trembling in the deserted street, feeling
that she would give all she had to rescind her impetuous
action.
But doubts and misgivings were alike
useless now. The letter had passed out of her
keeping, and she must abide by her own deed, trusting
fervently that no further misfortune would follow her
precipitancy.
Realizing at last that regrets were
futile, Toni turned away and went home, there to spend
a sleepless night torturing herself with all sorts
of premonitions and visions of ill-luck.
But in her wildest flights of imaginative
terror over the receipt of her letter, and its consequences,
Toni never approached the truth.