The eventful day had arrived at last,
the day which, when first named, had seemed like
all golden dates that promise anything definite so
immeasurably remote. When it was first announced,
a fortnight before, that Miss Smedley was really going,
the resultant ecstasies had occupied a full week,
during which we blindly revelled in the contemplation
and discussion of her past tyrannies, crimes,
malignities; in recalling to each other this or that
insult, dishonour, or physical assault, sullenly endured
at a time when deliverance was not even a small star
on the horizon; and in mapping out the golden days
to come, with special new troubles of their own, no
doubt, since this is but a work-a-day world, but at
least free from one familiar scourge. The time
that remained had been taken up by the planning of
practical expressions of the popular sentiment.
Under Edward’s masterly direction, arrangements
had been made for a flag to be run up over the hen-house
at the very moment when the fly, with Miss Smedley’s
boxes on top and the grim oppressor herself inside,
began to move off down the drive. Three brass
cannons, set on the brow of the sunk-fence, were to
proclaim our deathless sentiments in the ears of the
retreating foe: the dogs were to wear ribbons,
and later but this depended on our powers
of evasiveness and dissimulation there
might be a small bonfire, with a cracker or two, if
the public funds could bear the unwonted strain.
I was awakened by Harold digging me
in the ribs, and “She’s going to-day!”
was the morning hymn that scattered the clouds of sleep.
Strange to say, it was with no corresponding
jubilation of spirits that I slowly realised the momentous
fact. Indeed, as I dressed, a dull disagreeable
feeling that I could not define grew within me something
like a physical bruise. Harold was evidently feeling
it too, for after repeating “She’s going
to-day!” in a tone more befitting the Litany,
he looked hard in my face for direction as to how
the situation was to be taken. But I crossly
bade him look sharp and say his prayers and not bother
me. What could this gloom portend, that on a day
of days like the present seemed to hang my heavens
with black?
Down at last and out in the sun, we
found Edward before us, swinging on a gate, and chanting
a farm-yard ditty in which all the beasts appear in
due order, jargoning in their several tongues, and
every verse begins with the couplet
“Now, my lads, come
with me,
Out in the morning early!”
The fateful exodus of the day had
evidently slipped his memory entirely. I touched
him on the shoulder. “She’s going
to-day!” I said. Edward’s carol subsided
like a water-tap turned off. “So she is!”
he replied, and got down at once off the gate:
and we returned to the house without another word.
At breakfast Miss Smedley behaved
in a most mean and uncalled-for manner. The right
divine of governesses to govern wrong includes no
right to cry. In thus usurping the prerogative
of their victims, they ignore the rules of the ring,
and hit below the belt. Charlotte was crying,
of course; but that counted for nothing. Charlotte
even cried when the pigs’ noses were ringed
in due season; thereby evoking the cheery contempt
of the operators, who asserted they liked it, and
doubtless knew. But when the cloud-compeller,
her bolts laid aside, resorted to tears, mutinous
humanity had a right to feel aggrieved, and placed
in a false and difficult position. What would
the Romans have done, supposing Hannibal had cried?
History has not even considered the possibility.
Rules and precedents should be strictly observed on
both sides; when they are violated, the other party
is justified in feeling injured.
There were no lessons that morning,
naturally another grievance!
The fitness of things required that
we should have struggled to the last in a confused
medley of moods and tenses, and parted for ever, flushed
with hatred, over the dismembered corpse of the multiplication
table. But this thing was not to be; and I was
free to stroll by myself through the garden, and combat,
as best I might, this growing feeling of depression.
It was a wrong system altogether, I thought, this going
of people one had got used to. Things ought always
to continue as they had been. Change there must
be, of course; pigs, for instance, came and went with
disturbing frequency
“Fired their ringing
shot and passed,
Hotly charged and sank at last,”
but Nature had ordered it so, and
in requital had provided for rapid successors.
Did you come to love a pig, and he was taken from you,
grief was quickly assuaged in the delight of selection
from the new litter. But now, when it was no
question of a peerless pig, but only of a governess,
Nature seemed helpless, and the future held no litter
of oblivion. Things might be better, or they
might be worse, but they would never be the same;
and the innate conservatism of youth asks neither
poverty nor riches, but only immunity from change.
Edward slouched up alongside of me
presently, with a hang-dog look on him, as if he had
been caught stealing jam. “What a lark it’ll
be when she’s really gone!” he observed,
with a swagger obviously assumed.
“Grand fun!” I replied,
dolorously; and conversation flagged.
We reached the hen-house, and contemplated
the banner of freedom lying ready to flaunt the breezes
at the supreme moment.
“Shall you run it up,”
I asked, “when the fly starts, or or
wait a little till it’s out of sight?”
Edward gazed around him dubiously.
“We’re going to have some rain, I think,”
he said; “and and it’s a new
flag. It would be a pity to spoil it. P’raps
I won’t run it up at all.”
Harold came round the corner like
a bison pursued by Indians. “I’ve
polished up the cannons,” he cried, “and
they look grand! Mayn’t I load ’em
now?”
“You leave ’em alone,”
said Edward, severely, “or you’ll be blowing
yourself up” (consideration for others was not
usually Edward’s strong point). “Don’t
touch the gunpowder till you’re told, or you’ll
get your head smacked.”
Harold fell behind, limp, squashed,
obedient. “She wants me to write to her,”
he began, presently. “Says she doesn’t
mind the spelling, it I’ll only write.
Fancy her saying that!”
“Oh, shut up, will you?”
said Edward, savagely; and once more we were silent,
with only our thoughts for sorry company.
“Let’s go off to the copse,”
I suggested timidly, feeling that something had to
be done to relieve the tension, “and cut more
new bows and arrows.”
“She gave me a knife my last
birthday,” said Edward, moodily, never budging.
“It wasn’t much of a knife but
I wish I hadn’t lost it.”
“When my legs used to ache,”
I said, “she sat up half the night, rubbing
stuff on them. I forgot all about that till this
morning.”
“There’s the fly!”
cried Harold suddenly. “I can hear it scrunching
on the gravel.”
Then for the first time we turned
and stared one another in the face.
The fly and its contents had finally
disappeared through the gate: the rumble of its
wheels had died away; and no flag floated defiantly
in the sun, no cannons proclaimed the passing of a
dynasty. From out the frosted cake of our existence
Fate had cut an irreplaceable segment; turn which
way we would, the void was present. We sneaked
off in different directions, mutually undesirous of
company; and it seemed borne in upon me that I ought
to go and dig my garden right over, from end to end.
It didn’t actually want digging; on the other
hand, no amount of digging could affect it, for good
or for evil; so I worked steadily, strenuously, under
the hot sun, stifling thought in action. At the
end of an hour or so, I was joined by Edward.
“I’ve been chopping up
wood,” he explained, in a guilty sort of way,
though nobody had called on him to account for his
doings.
“What for?” I inquired,
stupidly. “There’s piles and piles
of it chopped up already.”
“I know,” said Edward;
“but there’s no harm in having a bit over.
You never can tell what may happen. But what have
you been doing all this digging for?”
“You said it was going to rain,”
I explained, hastily; “so I thought I’d
get the digging done before it came. Good gardeners
always tell you that’s the right thing to do.”
“It did look like rain at one
time,” Edward admitted; “but it’s
passed off now. Very queer weather we’re
having. I suppose that’s why I’ve
felt so funny all day.”
“Yes, I suppose it’s the
weather,” I replied. “I’ve
been feeling funny too.”
The weather had nothing to do with
it, as we well knew. But we would both have died
rather than have admitted the real reason.